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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:06,859 --> 00:00:08,645 - My sister and I immigrated here 2 00:00:08,669 --> 00:00:11,072 because I caught the attention of a man who helped us. 3 00:00:11,515 --> 00:00:13,384 - You and Amira were part of our family. 4 00:00:13,408 --> 00:00:14,742 You just packed up and left. 5 00:00:14,809 --> 00:00:17,020 - Hydromorphone. - If you have pain, Claire, 6 00:00:17,044 --> 00:00:18,188 that pain should be managed. 7 00:00:18,212 --> 00:00:20,023 We're going to make an accountability plan 8 00:00:20,047 --> 00:00:22,884 for the painkillers. So that they stay under control. 9 00:00:22,950 --> 00:00:27,155 - Yeah, I want kids, too. I have no idea how I'd make that work or if I can even... 10 00:00:27,757 --> 00:00:29,900 - I want you to think long and hard about whether 11 00:00:29,924 --> 00:00:31,101 this is the right profession for you. 12 00:00:31,125 --> 00:00:32,603 - Dr. Novak, I think you made your point. 13 00:00:32,627 --> 00:00:35,196 - This mess is not a good look for Trauma OR. 14 00:00:35,263 --> 00:00:37,274 - In that case, you can have the future. 15 00:00:37,298 --> 00:00:40,401 June, say whatever you want to Ryan, I am out. 16 00:00:41,202 --> 00:00:43,738 - This is an example of why you didn't get the fellowship. 17 00:00:43,805 --> 00:00:46,607 This instinct to leap blindly. 18 00:00:46,674 --> 00:00:48,994 - Every time I think I've built something, 19 00:00:49,043 --> 00:00:51,612 that feeling fades and I just run. 20 00:00:51,637 --> 00:00:54,440 - A heart may come tomorrow or never. 21 00:00:54,465 --> 00:00:57,118 - This is good news. - Like, I got the job? 22 00:00:57,143 --> 00:00:59,531 - Have any doubts or concerns? - No, no. 23 00:00:59,556 --> 00:01:02,065 - There's a heart waiting and it's a perfect match. 24 00:01:02,089 --> 00:01:03,658 I need you to confirm. 25 00:01:03,724 --> 00:01:06,121 Are you accepting this heart? 26 00:01:08,838 --> 00:01:12,542 - Yeah, I... I can be at the hospital in 20 minutes. 27 00:01:12,567 --> 00:01:13,701 - Great news. 28 00:01:13,768 --> 00:01:16,070 I'll inform the surgeon and connect with you 29 00:01:16,137 --> 00:01:18,573 once you get here. Congratulations, Mags. 30 00:01:18,639 --> 00:01:20,107 - Thanks, Connie. 31 00:01:21,442 --> 00:01:24,078 Uh... I have to go. 32 00:01:24,145 --> 00:01:28,382 I just, uh... I just matched with a heart. 33 00:01:32,153 --> 00:01:34,398 - Already? - Yeah, I've been on a list 34 00:01:34,422 --> 00:01:37,354 for a few months. - Sorry, you're leaving 35 00:01:37,379 --> 00:01:39,660 right now to go get a heart transplant? 36 00:01:39,727 --> 00:01:43,865 - To do, uh, a pre-surgical work-up before anything else. 37 00:01:43,890 --> 00:01:46,348 But, uh... What do I bring? 38 00:01:46,373 --> 00:01:48,301 I didn't ask what I should bring. I... 39 00:01:48,326 --> 00:01:49,911 - You want us to come with you? We... 40 00:01:49,936 --> 00:01:53,956 - No, no. It's like a sick joke. 41 00:01:53,981 --> 00:01:56,208 I'm like in the middle of celebrating the thing 42 00:01:56,244 --> 00:01:59,824 I've wanted my whole life. Why is this happening now? 43 00:01:59,849 --> 00:02:01,036 - Hey. 44 00:02:01,588 --> 00:02:03,223 It's going to be okay. 45 00:02:04,281 --> 00:02:05,784 - Thank you guys for coming. 46 00:02:08,385 --> 00:02:09,527 - Mags. 47 00:02:10,364 --> 00:02:13,269 Let me take you. - No. No, it's okay. 48 00:02:13,294 --> 00:02:15,530 I think I just need to... 49 00:02:15,949 --> 00:02:17,698 Okay? Are you okay? 50 00:02:17,765 --> 00:02:19,293 - Shouldn't I be asking you that? 51 00:02:19,318 --> 00:02:24,390 - Uh, I... would not know how to... answer. 52 00:02:25,907 --> 00:02:28,175 Are you on tomorrow? - Uh-huh. 53 00:02:28,242 --> 00:02:29,877 - Come see me. 54 00:02:36,870 --> 00:02:41,107 - In my head, where? How? The tumour. 55 00:02:41,659 --> 00:02:44,605 - Uh, it's in the frontal lobe of your brain. 56 00:02:45,393 --> 00:02:47,270 - Guess that explains the headache. 57 00:02:47,543 --> 00:02:51,098 - Which you've had for how long? - Months. 58 00:02:51,165 --> 00:02:54,302 Like I said when you first examined me. 59 00:02:54,327 --> 00:02:56,563 What happens now? 60 00:02:56,671 --> 00:02:59,073 Hey, are you listening? 61 00:03:05,313 --> 00:03:06,747 - Hey, man. 62 00:03:06,772 --> 00:03:08,816 I saw your text and my admin said you were waiting, 63 00:03:08,841 --> 00:03:10,716 but I'm pretty wall-to-wall today so unless it's... 64 00:03:10,740 --> 00:03:13,142 - I was just in the middle of talking to a patient 65 00:03:13,167 --> 00:03:14,802 and I realized that... 66 00:03:16,090 --> 00:03:18,593 I can't remember the last 14 hours. 67 00:03:19,493 --> 00:03:22,396 (opening theme) 68 00:03:34,375 --> 00:03:37,511 It's like you know when you drove home, 69 00:03:37,578 --> 00:03:39,523 but you don't remember the journey. 70 00:03:39,547 --> 00:03:41,882 I... I zone out sometimes, 71 00:03:41,907 --> 00:03:44,243 but it's been at least two years since it happened. 72 00:03:44,352 --> 00:03:48,189 - But it sounds like you got walloped with some pretty intense news yesterday. 73 00:03:48,255 --> 00:03:50,567 Not getting the ED job and then this thing with Mags. 74 00:03:50,591 --> 00:03:52,669 - That's why she didn't tell me because she knew 75 00:03:52,693 --> 00:03:55,329 I'd find a way to wear it. And why she ended things with me. 76 00:03:55,396 --> 00:03:58,633 What's the point of the work we do if this is still where I am? 77 00:03:58,699 --> 00:04:01,702 - I have a patient in my office who might not want to hear that. 78 00:04:01,769 --> 00:04:03,814 - Look, I didn't mean to offend you, I... 79 00:04:03,838 --> 00:04:06,116 - You don't want this to be happening, but it is. 80 00:04:06,140 --> 00:04:07,775 So focus on the practical. 81 00:04:07,842 --> 00:04:10,087 Make sure nothing got missed with any of your patients, 82 00:04:10,111 --> 00:04:13,256 and tell your chief that you need the afternoon off for personal reasons. 83 00:04:13,280 --> 00:04:14,715 - You make it sound so simple. 84 00:04:14,782 --> 00:04:17,451 - If you want to talk more, I can see you at 4 P.M. 85 00:04:19,520 --> 00:04:20,988 - The cath went well. 86 00:04:21,013 --> 00:04:22,966 No abnormalities we weren't expecting. 87 00:04:22,990 --> 00:04:24,701 Pulmonary pressure was also fine. 88 00:04:24,725 --> 00:04:26,427 - How do you feel, Mags? 89 00:04:26,494 --> 00:04:29,930 - Um... You said "fine", does that mean not good? 90 00:04:29,997 --> 00:04:31,575 - I get the impetus to be the doctor, 91 00:04:31,599 --> 00:04:34,301 but today, that's my job. We'll make sure everything's in range. 92 00:04:34,326 --> 00:04:37,129 - Okay. But are you saying it isn't? 93 00:04:37,238 --> 00:04:39,127 Because you both seem kind of... 94 00:04:39,152 --> 00:04:41,776 - There was a small flag in your bloodwork. 95 00:04:41,842 --> 00:04:44,087 White cells at 13. - Are you worried about 96 00:04:44,111 --> 00:04:45,222 infection or inflammation? 97 00:04:45,246 --> 00:04:47,582 That's not me trying to be a doctor. 98 00:04:47,607 --> 00:04:49,308 That's just me being me. 99 00:04:49,591 --> 00:04:52,461 Will you start antibiotics? - Yes. 100 00:04:52,486 --> 00:04:54,564 There's plenty of time for you to respond. 101 00:04:54,588 --> 00:04:56,333 The donor heart hasn't even been retrieved yet. 102 00:04:56,357 --> 00:04:58,201 - Assuming your count is in range by then, 103 00:04:58,225 --> 00:05:00,337 we could be operating as early as this evening. 104 00:05:00,361 --> 00:05:03,264 My team will need around seven hours for the transplant. 105 00:05:03,330 --> 00:05:05,609 After that, you'll be in CICU a few days. 106 00:05:05,633 --> 00:05:08,235 Then the ward for about a week. 107 00:05:08,302 --> 00:05:10,471 Save your strength, Dr. Leblanc. 108 00:05:10,496 --> 00:05:12,173 We'll speak soon. 109 00:05:12,239 --> 00:05:14,551 - Doesn't seem to like me very much. 110 00:05:14,575 --> 00:05:16,711 - Mags, Andrew's the top guy. 111 00:05:16,777 --> 00:05:19,980 What he reserves in emotional labour, he spends on the table. 112 00:05:20,047 --> 00:05:21,692 He's the one you want doing this. 113 00:05:21,716 --> 00:05:23,560 - Will the backup recipient still be an option? 114 00:05:23,584 --> 00:05:25,195 If I'm ruled out from infection, 115 00:05:25,219 --> 00:05:27,822 will the heart still be of use? - Don't worry about any of that. 116 00:05:27,888 --> 00:05:31,158 I'll admit, I'm surprised you said yes to this 117 00:05:31,225 --> 00:05:33,370 considering we weren't expecting a match so soon. 118 00:05:33,394 --> 00:05:35,639 And when you found out you made the list, you were unsure. 119 00:05:35,663 --> 00:05:39,100 - Am I allowed to ask how the retrieval process works? 120 00:05:39,166 --> 00:05:40,444 - The donor's in another hospital. 121 00:05:40,468 --> 00:05:42,069 When the family's ready, 122 00:05:42,136 --> 00:05:43,404 they'll withdraw life support. 123 00:05:43,471 --> 00:05:45,449 Retrieval doctor will bring the heart, 124 00:05:45,473 --> 00:05:47,384 Andrew's team will have you prepped. 125 00:05:47,408 --> 00:05:49,043 - How do people even do that? 126 00:05:49,110 --> 00:05:51,212 You know, just, wait without... 127 00:05:51,278 --> 00:05:53,123 - Driving themselves nuts. - Yeah. 128 00:05:53,147 --> 00:05:55,358 - It's mostly practical stuff. Many of my patients 129 00:05:55,382 --> 00:05:57,527 aren't able to be as active as you are at this stage, 130 00:05:57,551 --> 00:05:59,463 so they're already set up for a long recovery. 131 00:05:59,487 --> 00:06:02,156 So maybe contact your family. 132 00:06:02,223 --> 00:06:03,657 Confirm care plans. 133 00:06:06,293 --> 00:06:08,562 - Cellulitis is on fluids and antibiotics. 134 00:06:08,629 --> 00:06:10,698 Hip fracture is waiting on OR. 135 00:06:10,765 --> 00:06:12,676 And Dr. Thibeault hasn't come back from imaging. 136 00:06:12,700 --> 00:06:15,269 - Okay, and Doctor... - Thibeault. 137 00:06:15,336 --> 00:06:17,214 - Is he one of the new residents? 138 00:06:17,238 --> 00:06:20,441 - The thoracics guy from upstairs? He's on call tonight, 139 00:06:20,508 --> 00:06:22,652 but came in with this suspected gallbladder attack. 140 00:06:22,676 --> 00:06:24,521 You ordered a formal ultrasound. - Yes! 141 00:06:24,545 --> 00:06:26,514 Yes, uh... Ultrasound. Um... 142 00:06:26,580 --> 00:06:30,551 And the lady with the tumour, has oncology been in? 143 00:06:30,618 --> 00:06:34,455 Tanya, she was in E. - She has a tumor? 144 00:06:35,222 --> 00:06:38,325 Holy crap. She came in with a headache she couldn't shake, 145 00:06:38,392 --> 00:06:41,662 thinking she'd drunk herself into oblivion. Her words. 146 00:06:41,729 --> 00:06:44,198 What made you order an MRI? - Uh, just a lucky hunch. 147 00:06:44,265 --> 00:06:46,801 - Well, good on you. I'll handle oncology. 148 00:06:46,867 --> 00:06:49,603 - Okay, and, uh, after that, we're all caught up, 149 00:06:49,670 --> 00:06:51,548 there's nothing else pending? - Nope. 150 00:06:51,572 --> 00:06:53,583 Is there something you're worried we missed? 151 00:06:53,607 --> 00:06:55,647 - No. - Okay. 152 00:06:56,944 --> 00:06:58,312 (sigh) 153 00:06:58,379 --> 00:07:00,548 (phone ringing) 154 00:07:07,321 --> 00:07:08,999 - Hey. - Bashir. 155 00:07:09,023 --> 00:07:11,192 (in Arabic) 156 00:07:25,105 --> 00:07:29,176 - Well, don't keep us in suspense. 157 00:07:34,315 --> 00:07:36,250 - Uh... 158 00:07:37,518 --> 00:07:40,221 No, nothing like that. 159 00:07:56,837 --> 00:08:03,577 - I, I guess I was just, um, thinking about things. 160 00:08:09,550 --> 00:08:11,695 - Yeah, yeah. Of course, of course. 161 00:08:11,719 --> 00:08:15,356 Um, yeah. Okay, salam. 162 00:08:15,422 --> 00:08:17,224 - Yeah, salam. 163 00:08:19,660 --> 00:08:22,229 (gentle music) 164 00:08:26,533 --> 00:08:28,478 - Dr. Novak, this is June Curtis, 165 00:08:28,502 --> 00:08:30,271 obviously, you know that. 166 00:08:30,337 --> 00:08:31,872 Were you screening my calls? 167 00:08:31,939 --> 00:08:33,416 Because that would be a dick move. 168 00:08:33,440 --> 00:08:34,842 Look, I just wanted to know 169 00:08:34,909 --> 00:08:37,149 if you're non-presence today was intentional. 170 00:08:37,211 --> 00:08:39,456 I know we had some words yesterday, 171 00:08:39,480 --> 00:08:42,182 but that's not uncommon for us. But then you made that comment 172 00:08:42,249 --> 00:08:46,320 about me putting my stability on you which isn't even... 173 00:08:46,387 --> 00:08:49,356 Can you please call me when you get this? 174 00:08:49,423 --> 00:08:50,958 Thank you. 175 00:08:52,159 --> 00:08:54,361 - Hi, June. - Hi! 176 00:08:54,428 --> 00:08:56,964 - Thank you so much for this. - Yeah, of course. 177 00:08:57,031 --> 00:09:00,334 - Yeah, hi. - Hi. 178 00:09:01,168 --> 00:09:04,805 - She said something about having to get her... 179 00:09:04,872 --> 00:09:07,775 white blood cell count down, do you think that's very bad? 180 00:09:07,841 --> 00:09:09,886 - Uh, not necessarily. You know, when they're doing 181 00:09:09,910 --> 00:09:12,613 a heart transplant, sometimes... - This is all she wanted? 182 00:09:12,680 --> 00:09:14,248 - I... think so. 183 00:09:14,315 --> 00:09:16,359 Uh, everything from her bedroom floor. 184 00:09:16,383 --> 00:09:18,261 - Yeah. - Exactly what she requested, 185 00:09:18,285 --> 00:09:20,788 I think. I'll help you bring it up. 186 00:09:20,854 --> 00:09:23,590 - I'll be fine. You're busy. I'm sure. 187 00:09:23,657 --> 00:09:26,126 - Yeah, if there's anything else you need from the house 188 00:09:26,193 --> 00:09:28,571 or anything at all, then I... - Well, her sister's coming too, 189 00:09:28,595 --> 00:09:30,876 so you can get back to your life. 190 00:09:31,665 --> 00:09:33,634 - Yeah. 191 00:09:36,103 --> 00:09:37,538 Oh. 192 00:09:40,307 --> 00:09:41,842 (gasps) 193 00:09:43,744 --> 00:09:44,979 - June? 194 00:09:46,213 --> 00:09:48,615 - Yeah, uh, it's... - Is something wrong? 195 00:09:48,682 --> 00:09:50,384 - Oh, it's nothing. 196 00:09:50,451 --> 00:09:52,162 - Oh, it's all just a lot, isn't it? 197 00:09:52,186 --> 00:09:53,463 If you're anything like my daughter, 198 00:09:53,487 --> 00:09:54,831 I know how much she carries so... 199 00:09:54,855 --> 00:09:56,800 - No, it's not that. I'm taking hormone therapy 200 00:09:56,824 --> 00:09:58,868 to stimulate ovulation, and when that happens, 201 00:09:58,892 --> 00:10:01,929 I get this annoying pain. - You're trying for a baby? 202 00:10:01,996 --> 00:10:03,764 - Thinking about it. 203 00:10:03,831 --> 00:10:05,366 I don't know if I can, but... 204 00:10:05,432 --> 00:10:07,267 - June, that's wonderful. 205 00:10:07,935 --> 00:10:10,113 It's the hardest and best thing you'll ever do, 206 00:10:10,137 --> 00:10:11,739 loving someone that much. 207 00:10:13,407 --> 00:10:15,409 - Um, I... 208 00:10:16,210 --> 00:10:17,778 I'm feeling better now. 209 00:10:17,845 --> 00:10:20,614 - I should get back to Mags. Thank you. 210 00:10:21,248 --> 00:10:23,093 - Oh. - Please don't touch me! 211 00:10:23,117 --> 00:10:25,586 - Is that Owen? - Please don't touch me. 212 00:10:25,652 --> 00:10:27,864 - Every time we try the BP cuff, he loses it. 213 00:10:27,888 --> 00:10:29,899 It's like it's hurting him. - Well, that's because it is. 214 00:10:29,923 --> 00:10:33,127 Hey, Owen, Owen. I'm Theo. You okay, buddy? 215 00:10:33,193 --> 00:10:36,006 About two years ago, his family came in after a boating accident. 216 00:10:36,030 --> 00:10:37,807 I'm going to get this blanket off of you, okay? 217 00:10:37,831 --> 00:10:40,031 - Theo, he's shivering... - I know. 218 00:10:40,501 --> 00:10:42,403 Do you remember me? 219 00:10:42,469 --> 00:10:44,681 No, that's okay, because I remember you. 220 00:10:44,705 --> 00:10:47,841 Let's dim the lights, guys. And no sound on the monitors. 221 00:10:47,908 --> 00:10:49,919 Owen has sensory processing disorder, 222 00:10:49,943 --> 00:10:52,222 so no one touches him without checking, okay? 223 00:10:52,246 --> 00:10:53,990 Tell me everything that's bothering you, buddy. 224 00:10:54,014 --> 00:10:56,583 - Can't breathe. Leg hurts. 225 00:10:56,650 --> 00:10:59,653 And somebody's deodorant is making me itchy. 226 00:10:59,720 --> 00:11:01,765 - Alright, let's deal with those in order, okay? 227 00:11:01,789 --> 00:11:03,266 We need to get you onto our gurney. 228 00:11:03,290 --> 00:11:05,268 It's going to suck. But it'll be quick and you can scream 229 00:11:05,292 --> 00:11:08,128 as loud as you need to, okay? - Okay. 230 00:11:08,195 --> 00:11:09,806 - Alright, let's move this closer. 231 00:11:09,830 --> 00:11:11,899 It'll be on my count. 232 00:11:11,965 --> 00:11:15,002 One, two, three. (screaming) 233 00:11:15,069 --> 00:11:17,404 Good job, good job! 234 00:11:17,471 --> 00:11:20,040 Okay, look, this next step needs a monitor. 235 00:11:20,107 --> 00:11:22,285 We have to stick these little pads to you, okay? 236 00:11:22,309 --> 00:11:24,812 - Can I do it myself? - Yeah, of course you can. 237 00:11:24,878 --> 00:11:26,956 Alright, under your shirt, on your right chest, okay? 238 00:11:26,980 --> 00:11:30,551 And this one on the left. And this one on your belly. 239 00:11:31,051 --> 00:11:32,896 Alright, can you tell me what happened? 240 00:11:32,920 --> 00:11:35,722 - I rode into some dirt, flipped over my bike handlebars. 241 00:11:35,789 --> 00:11:38,125 - Were you wearing a helmet? That's good. 242 00:11:38,192 --> 00:11:41,071 I need you to put this on your chest and take a breath for me, okay? 243 00:11:41,095 --> 00:11:44,298 (wheezing) Okay, then this side. 244 00:11:45,599 --> 00:11:47,868 Okay, I'll take that back. 245 00:11:47,935 --> 00:11:49,436 (coughing) 246 00:11:50,270 --> 00:11:52,806 - He's super tachy. 192 and climbing. 247 00:11:52,873 --> 00:11:55,585 - Alright, Claire, set up a chest tube. Prep 30mg of ketamine. 248 00:11:55,609 --> 00:11:57,387 - Without a BP? Theo... - Owen, the reason it hurts 249 00:11:57,411 --> 00:12:00,114 to breathe is probably a partially collapsed lung. 250 00:12:00,180 --> 00:12:02,325 I need to fix that. I also need to do an X-ray 251 00:12:02,349 --> 00:12:04,394 of your leg for the bone doctor. It's going to require 252 00:12:04,418 --> 00:12:05,752 a lot of feeling around, okay? 253 00:12:05,819 --> 00:12:08,219 So can we make a plan to get you through this? 254 00:12:09,289 --> 00:12:11,058 - Last time you made me sleep, 255 00:12:11,125 --> 00:12:12,769 even though I didn't want you to. 256 00:12:12,793 --> 00:12:15,662 - Yes, I did. - Can you do that again? 257 00:12:15,729 --> 00:12:17,764 I think I rather be numb. 258 00:12:20,767 --> 00:12:23,704 - Yeah, um, while Claire does that, 259 00:12:23,770 --> 00:12:26,406 the third thing you said is that you were feeling itchy. 260 00:12:26,473 --> 00:12:28,518 - Forget that. I think it's okay. 261 00:12:28,542 --> 00:12:30,820 - Are you sure? Because I'm here to help you. 262 00:12:30,844 --> 00:12:32,889 - I can't go anywhere. I have no freedom. 263 00:12:32,913 --> 00:12:35,391 - Um, you know, not on your bike for a little while, 264 00:12:35,415 --> 00:12:37,327 but when your leg heals... - It's not enough. 265 00:12:37,351 --> 00:12:40,220 My mom's always busy. My friends do stuff without me 266 00:12:40,287 --> 00:12:42,089 because... the subway's loud! 267 00:12:42,156 --> 00:12:44,658 I want my driver's licence when I'm 16. 268 00:12:44,725 --> 00:12:46,469 - Well, okay, look, if you're looking for a lesson, 269 00:12:46,493 --> 00:12:47,904 now might not be the best time, pal. 270 00:12:47,928 --> 00:12:49,429 - A letter. 271 00:12:49,496 --> 00:12:50,931 Because of how I am. 272 00:12:50,998 --> 00:12:53,400 I need a doctor to say it's safe. 273 00:12:54,968 --> 00:12:57,671 Alright, let's get through this first, okay? 274 00:13:08,515 --> 00:13:10,651 - Hi. - Hi. 275 00:13:10,717 --> 00:13:14,821 Um, Ms... Leblanc. 276 00:13:14,888 --> 00:13:16,390 Um, I'm Dr. Hamed. 277 00:13:16,456 --> 00:13:19,159 I'm here to give you a status update, 278 00:13:19,226 --> 00:13:21,195 but I... don't know what it is. 279 00:13:21,261 --> 00:13:23,230 - I know I should've told you. 280 00:13:23,297 --> 00:13:25,578 It's just all been so fast and weird 281 00:13:25,632 --> 00:13:27,277 with mushy odds in every direction 282 00:13:27,301 --> 00:13:28,878 about whether it's worth the risk 283 00:13:28,902 --> 00:13:30,346 or if a heart was ever going to come... 284 00:13:30,370 --> 00:13:32,515 - Mags. - I haven't even... been sure how I feel. 285 00:13:32,539 --> 00:13:35,342 I mean, I'm barely letting myself think about it. 286 00:13:35,409 --> 00:13:36,643 - It's okay. Really. 287 00:13:36,710 --> 00:13:39,413 I understand why you didn't tell me. 288 00:13:39,479 --> 00:13:41,558 But I want to be here for you now 289 00:13:41,582 --> 00:13:44,051 in whatever way you need me to be. 290 00:13:45,953 --> 00:13:47,487 - Thank you. 291 00:13:47,554 --> 00:13:49,056 (sigh) 292 00:13:53,093 --> 00:13:55,195 All of this is like... 293 00:13:55,896 --> 00:13:59,266 It's like it's happening to me. 294 00:14:00,400 --> 00:14:02,002 It's almost like... 295 00:14:02,069 --> 00:14:05,205 - Like you don't know how you got here? 296 00:14:05,272 --> 00:14:06,773 - Yeah. 297 00:14:08,041 --> 00:14:10,186 And I'm trying to find a way to tell Devi 298 00:14:10,210 --> 00:14:12,589 because she doesn't know that I'll need at least six months 299 00:14:12,613 --> 00:14:13,880 to recover from major surgery. 300 00:14:13,947 --> 00:14:16,550 And who knows how many concessions after. 301 00:14:20,153 --> 00:14:21,688 I don't know. 302 00:14:21,755 --> 00:14:24,000 Maybe I should just fall on my sword and resign. 303 00:14:24,024 --> 00:14:26,202 - Don't. Don't volunteer to quit. 304 00:14:26,226 --> 00:14:28,438 - What else am I supposed to do? Devi put her trust in me 305 00:14:28,462 --> 00:14:32,022 and I betrayed her by not telling her that this was happening. 306 00:14:32,733 --> 00:14:35,068 I think because I couldn't face it. 307 00:14:35,135 --> 00:14:36,670 Or I wouldn't. 308 00:14:38,805 --> 00:14:41,441 - Hey, you could let me tell her. 309 00:14:42,075 --> 00:14:43,987 - Bash, it's not fair to put that on... 310 00:14:44,011 --> 00:14:46,222 - I want to be here for you, Mags. And I need to... 311 00:14:46,246 --> 00:14:47,790 - Bash... - Look, will you just 312 00:14:47,814 --> 00:14:49,349 let me do this for you? 313 00:14:49,416 --> 00:14:52,653 I'll run down the medical facts to her 314 00:14:52,719 --> 00:14:55,088 and give her the space to respond. 315 00:14:57,357 --> 00:14:59,192 It'll be okay. 316 00:15:03,030 --> 00:15:06,500 (indistinct P.A. announcement) 317 00:15:10,871 --> 00:15:13,541 - Is this about ICU bed spacing? - Uh, no. 318 00:15:13,608 --> 00:15:16,253 No, they cleared some. I was looking at my shifts for next week. 319 00:15:16,277 --> 00:15:18,589 And I remembered you asked if I ever felt overloaded... 320 00:15:18,613 --> 00:15:21,882 - Holy Hell. - Is something wrong? 321 00:15:21,949 --> 00:15:24,952 - Uh... I was accidentally copied on this email 322 00:15:25,019 --> 00:15:28,589 from our CMO at the board saying that I have failed 323 00:15:28,656 --> 00:15:32,493 to address this situation about this resident being mistreated in Trauma OR. 324 00:15:32,560 --> 00:15:35,529 He didn't mean for me to read this, right? 325 00:15:35,596 --> 00:15:38,799 - "One of us will have to talk to Neeta." 326 00:15:38,866 --> 00:15:41,535 Was that about Novak yelling at some kid? 327 00:15:41,602 --> 00:15:44,205 - And the man who didn't even want me knowing about this 328 00:15:44,271 --> 00:15:46,683 is now blaming me for the actions of the man 329 00:15:46,707 --> 00:15:48,909 who did this in the first place. 330 00:15:48,976 --> 00:15:51,812 Anyway. Um, what did you need? 331 00:15:51,879 --> 00:15:54,815 - Nothing. I'll figure it out. - Thanks. 332 00:15:58,152 --> 00:16:01,389 - Dr. Thibeault, I understand you are trying to make... 333 00:16:01,455 --> 00:16:03,667 - What's your ED passcode? The system won't let me 334 00:16:03,691 --> 00:16:05,802 look at my imaging and the tech wouldn't tell me anything, 335 00:16:05,826 --> 00:16:07,194 even though he knows me. 336 00:16:07,261 --> 00:16:09,239 - It's against their policy to diagnose... 337 00:16:09,263 --> 00:16:10,674 - Yeah, I already know that it's gallstones. 338 00:16:10,698 --> 00:16:12,109 I just want to see the extent of it. 339 00:16:12,133 --> 00:16:14,144 - There's actually no evidence of gallstones 340 00:16:14,168 --> 00:16:16,648 or gallbladder injury according to your ultrasound. 341 00:16:16,704 --> 00:16:18,506 - Show me. 342 00:16:20,441 --> 00:16:22,586 (groans) It makes no sense. 343 00:16:22,610 --> 00:16:24,278 This is a classic presentation. 344 00:16:24,345 --> 00:16:27,524 Acute pain that radiates to the right after heavy or high-fat foods. 345 00:16:27,548 --> 00:16:30,618 Pain between the shoulder blades, nausea. Hold on. 346 00:16:30,685 --> 00:16:32,362 - Are you working a lot of late shifts? 347 00:16:32,386 --> 00:16:35,222 You know, lack of sleep and stress can affect gut health? 348 00:16:35,289 --> 00:16:37,567 - Let me just stop you right there, okay? 349 00:16:37,591 --> 00:16:40,227 I've used the whole "what's going on in your life" speech 350 00:16:40,294 --> 00:16:43,407 to patients who just want to be reassured nothing's wrong my whole career. 351 00:16:43,431 --> 00:16:45,633 Stressed, depressed, anxious? 352 00:16:45,700 --> 00:16:49,637 Sleep better. Eat better. Hydrate. No, this is not that. 353 00:16:49,704 --> 00:16:53,307 It's more intense localized pain. 354 00:16:53,374 --> 00:16:55,576 - Look, as a doctor, 355 00:16:55,643 --> 00:16:58,179 I understand the impulse to self-diagnose, 356 00:16:58,245 --> 00:17:00,781 but there is several documented cases of stress and anxiety 357 00:17:00,848 --> 00:17:02,459 causing 10 out of... - Bud! 358 00:17:02,483 --> 00:17:04,819 I'm not here for therapy. This isn't mental. 359 00:17:04,885 --> 00:17:07,354 - I will ask your radiologist to review your report. 360 00:17:07,421 --> 00:17:09,232 - That's not good enough. I want a HIDA. 361 00:17:09,256 --> 00:17:10,367 Do you know what that is? 362 00:17:10,391 --> 00:17:12,436 - Hepatobiliary iminodiacetic acid scan? 363 00:17:12,460 --> 00:17:15,029 Yes, I know what that is. I will refer you. 364 00:17:15,096 --> 00:17:17,798 It takes a couple of weeks. - I want one today. 365 00:17:17,865 --> 00:17:20,143 - I'm not sure that's possible. Radiology is at fu... 366 00:17:20,167 --> 00:17:22,212 - Well then, bump someone! Okay, I'm on tonight anyway. 367 00:17:22,236 --> 00:17:23,747 I'll make the time. - Dr. Thibeault... 368 00:17:23,771 --> 00:17:25,172 - You're a resident, right? 369 00:17:25,239 --> 00:17:26,474 - For a few more months, yes. 370 00:17:26,540 --> 00:17:28,018 - Yeah, I'm not. So I'm telling you 371 00:17:28,042 --> 00:17:30,377 to do your job. Get me on that list. 372 00:17:34,715 --> 00:17:36,150 (sighing) 373 00:17:37,017 --> 00:17:40,654 - I see you're still not quite a fan of folding your things. 374 00:17:40,721 --> 00:17:43,491 - My bedroom clutter hasn't been your problem in 15 years. 375 00:17:43,557 --> 00:17:45,535 Let's not regress. - It's just if you want to feel 376 00:17:45,559 --> 00:17:46,870 presentable when you have visitors. 377 00:17:46,894 --> 00:17:49,106 I don't know, maybe somebody here has an iron. 378 00:17:49,130 --> 00:17:50,898 - Don't do that, please, Mom. 379 00:17:52,199 --> 00:17:55,236 Thank you for coming to town so quickly, though. 380 00:17:55,302 --> 00:17:56,937 (in French) 381 00:17:57,004 --> 00:18:00,975 - Mom... Am I making the right decision here? 382 00:18:01,041 --> 00:18:05,980 - Well, um, both your doctors agree there is no other choice. 383 00:18:06,046 --> 00:18:08,415 And your surgeon mentioned you were nervous 384 00:18:08,482 --> 00:18:09,950 and that it's normal to be, 385 00:18:10,017 --> 00:18:11,595 but he's done this many times before. 386 00:18:11,619 --> 00:18:13,497 - They do have to say that, you know? 387 00:18:13,521 --> 00:18:15,156 (clears throat) 388 00:18:15,756 --> 00:18:17,901 I wanted to ask if maybe I could come to Montreal 389 00:18:17,925 --> 00:18:19,936 for a few weeks once I'm out but... 390 00:18:19,960 --> 00:18:21,838 - Doesn't make any sense, does it? 391 00:18:21,862 --> 00:18:24,799 No, you need to be close to the hospital and your doctors. 392 00:18:24,865 --> 00:18:27,144 I was sure you of all people would have a whole 393 00:18:27,168 --> 00:18:29,379 flow chart mapped out on the logistics. 394 00:18:29,403 --> 00:18:32,072 - Well, I don't. So now I'm thinking 395 00:18:32,139 --> 00:18:34,675 that maybe you can come to June's for a week or two. 396 00:18:34,742 --> 00:18:36,887 And then I'd get a nurse, obviously. 397 00:18:36,911 --> 00:18:39,089 - Magalie, your father, sister and I found a rental 398 00:18:39,113 --> 00:18:40,748 near the hospital, two bedrooms. 399 00:18:40,815 --> 00:18:43,093 We will trade on and off all year if we need to. 400 00:18:43,117 --> 00:18:45,553 - I don't want you guys disrupting your lives. 401 00:18:45,619 --> 00:18:47,864 - Don't be silly. We're your family. 402 00:18:47,888 --> 00:18:50,424 I'll tell your father to speak to the broker today. 403 00:18:51,425 --> 00:18:54,929 - There is an 80% success rate in the first year, you know? 404 00:18:54,995 --> 00:18:57,932 That means starting the clock, from tonight's operation, 405 00:18:57,998 --> 00:19:02,002 if they clear me for it, I have a one-in-five chance of dying. 406 00:19:02,069 --> 00:19:03,737 (in French) 407 00:19:03,804 --> 00:19:06,774 - Yeah, I just... I need to make sure that you understand 408 00:19:06,841 --> 00:19:08,175 what's happening here, Mom. 409 00:19:08,242 --> 00:19:10,453 - That is not a thought any of us need in our heads 410 00:19:10,477 --> 00:19:11,979 right now, especially not you. 411 00:19:13,714 --> 00:19:15,983 (in French) 412 00:19:20,988 --> 00:19:22,833 - I asked to be here when you woke up. 413 00:19:22,857 --> 00:19:25,392 Guess that message wasn't received. 414 00:19:25,459 --> 00:19:28,495 Uh, but the traction is only going to be 24 hours. 415 00:19:28,562 --> 00:19:30,307 - I know. - Must be uncomfortable. 416 00:19:30,331 --> 00:19:32,209 Have to lie still with all this stuff on you. 417 00:19:32,233 --> 00:19:34,702 But the bone doctors agree to let you stay here, 418 00:19:34,768 --> 00:19:36,880 so I could get you everything you need. 419 00:19:36,904 --> 00:19:39,024 - Thanks! (chuckles) 420 00:19:39,773 --> 00:19:42,133 - Owen, you said you flipped over your handlebars. 421 00:19:42,843 --> 00:19:46,814 But the way your leg broke made it look like you jumped. 422 00:19:46,881 --> 00:19:49,817 Now, what you... talked about earlier 423 00:19:49,884 --> 00:19:53,120 about you having no freedom. If you want to talk to someone... 424 00:19:53,187 --> 00:19:56,657 - I found the good kind, bud. - Thanks, Mac. 425 00:19:57,424 --> 00:19:59,784 - Dr. Hunter, let's chat in the hall. 426 00:20:01,562 --> 00:20:05,866 You wanted him to talk to somebody about what? 427 00:20:05,933 --> 00:20:09,103 - I'm sorry. Are you... family? 428 00:20:09,169 --> 00:20:12,406 - Mac Hinkley. I'm Owen's GP. He asked me to come down. 429 00:20:12,473 --> 00:20:14,918 - Instead of his mother? - Well, that's between them. 430 00:20:14,942 --> 00:20:17,945 But their relationship is, uh, tough. 431 00:20:18,012 --> 00:20:20,532 - I remember. - What you don't know about is 432 00:20:20,581 --> 00:20:22,901 his mass cell activation syndrome. 433 00:20:22,950 --> 00:20:25,185 - Owen has MCAS? Since when? 434 00:20:25,252 --> 00:20:26,754 - Was diagnosed last year. 435 00:20:26,820 --> 00:20:30,224 I think maybe it factored into the SPD, or accentuated it. 436 00:20:30,291 --> 00:20:33,994 There is so much they don't know about it, though. 437 00:20:34,061 --> 00:20:37,364 - Would that explain today? The racing heart? 438 00:20:37,431 --> 00:20:42,002 - Probably. MCAS means "severe, unpredictable reactions". 439 00:20:42,069 --> 00:20:44,505 Cardiac, autoimmune, GI... 440 00:20:44,571 --> 00:20:47,041 to stimuli that's constantly evolving. 441 00:20:47,107 --> 00:20:49,619 - He was afraid of being itchy because of someone's deodorant, 442 00:20:49,643 --> 00:20:51,454 but then he just said it was okay. 443 00:20:51,478 --> 00:20:54,715 - It's a new environment. He never knows when he's safe. 444 00:20:54,782 --> 00:20:58,986 Which is why we're going to limit the people coming in and out of his room. 445 00:20:59,053 --> 00:21:01,464 - Because he lives in a constant fear of triggers. 446 00:21:01,488 --> 00:21:03,366 - Are you asking him to talk to a psych? 447 00:21:03,390 --> 00:21:06,193 - Well, Owen said that he flipped over his handlebars, 448 00:21:06,260 --> 00:21:08,529 but his femur's fracture pattern, 449 00:21:08,595 --> 00:21:11,398 it... well, it said to me that he jumped. 450 00:21:11,465 --> 00:21:13,743 - You never horsed around when you were his age? 451 00:21:13,767 --> 00:21:17,471 (sighing) Owen has challenges, sure. 452 00:21:17,538 --> 00:21:20,240 But he's still a kid which means doing 453 00:21:20,307 --> 00:21:22,552 the same stupid things and not wanting to cop to it. 454 00:21:22,576 --> 00:21:25,145 - Right, but what if that isn't what happened 455 00:21:25,212 --> 00:21:28,115 and he intended to hurt himself? - He wouldn't do that. 456 00:21:28,182 --> 00:21:32,519 You know, we started a desensitization program to help with the SPD. 457 00:21:32,586 --> 00:21:37,591 We're making progress. - Um, does he have a specialist? 458 00:21:37,658 --> 00:21:39,602 Because I could give you some referrals. 459 00:21:39,626 --> 00:21:41,404 - He's got an endless list of them. 460 00:21:41,428 --> 00:21:45,366 But the only one who actually knows the kid is me. 461 00:21:45,432 --> 00:21:48,602 If Owen wanted to hurt himself, I'd know it. 462 00:21:48,669 --> 00:21:51,915 - He asked me to help him make a plan to get a driver's licence. 463 00:21:51,939 --> 00:21:54,017 - And you think because I said no to that, 464 00:21:54,041 --> 00:21:56,076 he threw himself off a cliff?! 465 00:21:56,143 --> 00:21:58,946 I get he wants to drive when he's of age. 466 00:21:59,013 --> 00:22:01,815 But he knows that it might not be realistic. 467 00:22:01,882 --> 00:22:03,626 - And I'm not saying he wants to die. 468 00:22:03,650 --> 00:22:05,462 Okay, bad feelings can be fleeting, 469 00:22:05,486 --> 00:22:07,788 but there was a desperation in the ask. 470 00:22:07,855 --> 00:22:09,757 Like he feels trapped. 471 00:22:09,823 --> 00:22:12,326 - You're wrong, Dr. Hunter. You're wrong. 472 00:22:12,393 --> 00:22:15,562 And I don't want you bringing this up with him again. 473 00:22:21,101 --> 00:22:23,146 - The good news is it looks operable. 474 00:22:23,170 --> 00:22:26,940 And our surgeon said that she has an opening tonight for a craniotomy. 475 00:22:27,007 --> 00:22:29,810 - Tonight? Does it have to happen so fast? 476 00:22:29,877 --> 00:22:32,579 - When they make time so quickly, 477 00:22:32,646 --> 00:22:34,214 waiting is not advisable. 478 00:22:34,281 --> 00:22:36,361 - Okay. (ripping) 479 00:22:40,154 --> 00:22:42,856 When my son was born, something changed. 480 00:22:42,923 --> 00:22:46,794 I was, um, sad. All the time. 481 00:22:46,860 --> 00:22:52,666 I started drinking to self-medicate, and... the headaches started. 482 00:22:52,733 --> 00:22:55,202 My therapist called it depression. 483 00:22:55,269 --> 00:22:57,838 Another one said "new mother syndrome". 484 00:22:57,905 --> 00:23:00,050 And my friends called it "Wine Mom". 485 00:23:00,074 --> 00:23:04,611 Except, they were all wrong and it was only ever a brain tumour. 486 00:23:04,678 --> 00:23:08,515 So... all the work I did, the endless counseling, 487 00:23:08,582 --> 00:23:11,185 the A.A. meetings was just pointless? 488 00:23:11,251 --> 00:23:13,463 - It sounds like you did everything you could 489 00:23:13,487 --> 00:23:15,155 with the information you had. 490 00:23:16,757 --> 00:23:19,069 (man): You call yourself a mother, you selfish bitch! 491 00:23:19,093 --> 00:23:21,428 This is beyond... I've had enough. 492 00:23:21,495 --> 00:23:23,935 I'm calling the police. Never try seeing us again. 493 00:23:23,964 --> 00:23:26,467 - My ex came to pick up our son 494 00:23:26,533 --> 00:23:29,369 and he found me passed out in the yard. 495 00:23:29,436 --> 00:23:32,372 My little boy had locked himself up in the bathroom 496 00:23:32,439 --> 00:23:35,409 because he was terrified of me. 497 00:23:37,511 --> 00:23:40,013 I miss my son. 498 00:23:42,082 --> 00:23:46,253 - Hey. Tumours like this, they affect memory, 499 00:23:46,320 --> 00:23:50,657 decision-making, personality. This is not your fault, Tanya. 500 00:23:50,724 --> 00:23:53,026 - But the damage is done. 501 00:23:53,093 --> 00:23:57,931 I ruined my marriage and scarred my child. 502 00:24:03,170 --> 00:24:06,549 - went out on a limb with a specific plan that Mags was essential to. 503 00:24:06,573 --> 00:24:08,751 And you're telling me that she knew this was a risk? 504 00:24:08,775 --> 00:24:10,110 - Uh, Dr. Devi... 505 00:24:10,177 --> 00:24:11,754 - Obviously, I'm concerned about her 506 00:24:11,778 --> 00:24:13,723 from a health perspective, but... 507 00:24:13,747 --> 00:24:16,884 How did you expect me to respond to what you just said? 508 00:24:16,950 --> 00:24:20,320 - Um, which part of what I just said? 509 00:24:20,387 --> 00:24:26,793 - Look, you and I both have other things to do, I'm sure. 510 00:24:26,860 --> 00:24:28,996 Give my best to Mags. 511 00:24:29,062 --> 00:24:30,874 - I will but regarding her job, I just... 512 00:24:30,898 --> 00:24:34,458 - I'm sorry, Dr. Hamed, but that's gonna have to stay between me and her. 513 00:24:40,875 --> 00:24:43,177 (giggling) 514 00:24:43,244 --> 00:24:45,284 (clear throat) - Oh. 515 00:24:45,313 --> 00:24:46,957 - Hi! - Sorry. 516 00:24:46,981 --> 00:24:50,685 We're busy, come back later. - Oh. I'm so sorry, Doctor. 517 00:24:50,751 --> 00:24:52,796 Um, Doctor? - Curtis. 518 00:24:52,820 --> 00:24:54,522 - I'm Della. And this is... 519 00:24:54,589 --> 00:24:56,791 - Hartley. Hello. - Hi, Hartley. 520 00:24:56,858 --> 00:24:58,702 - I hear this is a hernia-related emergency. 521 00:24:58,726 --> 00:25:01,596 - So Hartley developed one about a year ago 522 00:25:01,662 --> 00:25:04,131 and he was supposed to get it fixed 523 00:25:04,198 --> 00:25:07,268 at one of those private clinics. - Trauma Hotels. 524 00:25:07,335 --> 00:25:09,646 - Okay, I take that to mean it didn't happen. Why? 525 00:25:09,670 --> 00:25:12,406 - He has a phobia of being put under. 526 00:25:12,473 --> 00:25:15,243 Have you heard of it? - Tomophobia. Good word. 527 00:25:15,309 --> 00:25:17,387 Bad feeling. - Which we figured out 528 00:25:17,411 --> 00:25:19,423 when he bit the anesthesiologist. 529 00:25:19,447 --> 00:25:20,781 - I bit three anesthesiologists. 530 00:25:20,848 --> 00:25:23,351 - No, it was one on three separate occasions. 531 00:25:23,417 --> 00:25:25,119 - Okay... Is he... 532 00:25:25,186 --> 00:25:27,431 Are you feeling scared right now, Hartley? 533 00:25:27,455 --> 00:25:31,592 - So here is where it gets maybe a little weird. 534 00:25:31,659 --> 00:25:34,462 Um... So last night, he was in so much pain 535 00:25:34,529 --> 00:25:36,063 and the thing started bulging 536 00:25:36,130 --> 00:25:38,766 which the internet said could mean "incarceration"? 537 00:25:38,833 --> 00:25:42,570 - So she drugged me. - She drugged you with what? 538 00:25:43,271 --> 00:25:44,982 - Ecstasy. - Ecstasy? 539 00:25:45,006 --> 00:25:47,251 - I know! But he was resistant to coming 540 00:25:47,275 --> 00:25:50,144 and I knew that we needed to. - She slipped it in my coffee. 541 00:25:50,211 --> 00:25:52,847 How lucky am I to have someone like this in my life? 542 00:25:52,914 --> 00:25:54,958 - Okay, so you gave him ecstasy without his knowledge? 543 00:25:54,982 --> 00:25:56,994 - No, he tolerates it fine. We used to... 544 00:25:57,018 --> 00:25:59,258 - Hartley, hi! - Be partyers. 545 00:25:59,287 --> 00:26:02,123 Pills usually lose their potency over time. 546 00:26:02,189 --> 00:26:04,334 We had one laying around the house for over a year. 547 00:26:04,358 --> 00:26:07,628 And so I figured it would just mellow him enough. 548 00:26:07,695 --> 00:26:10,164 - You know this is gonna show up on his urinalysis, right? 549 00:26:10,231 --> 00:26:11,999 - I didn't know what else to do. 550 00:26:12,066 --> 00:26:13,968 Okay, he was in so much pain, 551 00:26:14,035 --> 00:26:17,204 and every time he gets close, he just can't. 552 00:26:17,271 --> 00:26:20,183 He's gonna be okay, right? I mean, you can help me, can't you? 553 00:26:20,207 --> 00:26:21,852 - If we're going to repair this... 554 00:26:21,876 --> 00:26:24,011 - If? No, you have to. 555 00:26:24,078 --> 00:26:25,780 What's your fear level at now? 556 00:26:25,846 --> 00:26:27,357 On a scale of one to... "bitey". 557 00:26:27,381 --> 00:26:29,817 - Doubt I'll ever be afraid again thanks to you. 558 00:26:29,884 --> 00:26:31,819 - I'll be right back. 559 00:26:34,255 --> 00:26:36,600 So that guy needs an emergency hernioplasty 560 00:26:36,624 --> 00:26:38,192 except he's high on ecstasy 561 00:26:38,259 --> 00:26:40,203 because his wife gave it to him without his knowledge. 562 00:26:40,227 --> 00:26:41,838 I'm not sure of the ethics of all this. 563 00:26:41,862 --> 00:26:42,982 - It's actually a crime, 564 00:26:43,030 --> 00:26:44,608 so if he wants us to call the police... 565 00:26:44,632 --> 00:26:46,476 - Pretty sure he thinks it's romantic. 566 00:26:46,500 --> 00:26:48,669 - I heard Novak's gone AWOL. - Yeah. 567 00:26:48,736 --> 00:26:50,514 - I think we should use this as a reason 568 00:26:50,538 --> 00:26:52,373 to move him out of Trauma OR. 569 00:26:53,307 --> 00:26:55,209 - Like, permanently? 570 00:26:56,711 --> 00:26:58,422 Is it even possible for him to be AWOL? 571 00:26:58,446 --> 00:26:59,823 Technically, he answers to himself. 572 00:26:59,847 --> 00:27:01,148 - Which is a problem! 573 00:27:01,215 --> 00:27:03,260 He has no accountability and he's unreliable. 574 00:27:03,284 --> 00:27:07,188 - He's like unpredictable. - He is toxic chaos. 575 00:27:07,254 --> 00:27:08,832 And I have a job to do in this department. 576 00:27:08,856 --> 00:27:11,859 - Well, if this about making an example of him... 577 00:27:11,926 --> 00:27:13,403 - He has dug himself into a hole, 578 00:27:13,427 --> 00:27:15,305 and I can't for the life of me understand you 579 00:27:15,329 --> 00:27:17,932 and why you defend him. - I get it, okay. I get it. 580 00:27:17,999 --> 00:27:19,977 He's got blind spots, yes. But him and I built 581 00:27:20,001 --> 00:27:22,212 something together in Trauma OR and I just... 582 00:27:22,236 --> 00:27:25,006 I don't feel right blowing it up. 583 00:27:25,506 --> 00:27:27,451 - Outstanding patients in the last hour? 584 00:27:27,475 --> 00:27:30,211 - Um, no, I gave the tumor lady a surgical update, 585 00:27:30,277 --> 00:27:32,155 but I think I got distracted after. 586 00:27:32,179 --> 00:27:34,915 - Wait, was that why she left? - Tanya left? 587 00:27:34,982 --> 00:27:36,217 - You didn't know? 588 00:27:36,283 --> 00:27:38,528 They wanted her upstairs for pre-op stuff, 589 00:27:38,552 --> 00:27:40,330 but she told me you told her to go. 590 00:27:40,354 --> 00:27:43,124 - No, I would never have... Is she coming back? 591 00:27:43,190 --> 00:27:46,427 - Should I tell OR to cancel? - No, no, no. 592 00:27:46,494 --> 00:27:48,829 Call her first. Try every number we have for her. 593 00:27:48,896 --> 00:27:51,241 - Bash. Did something happen between you two? 594 00:27:51,265 --> 00:27:52,633 - No, nothing happened. 595 00:27:52,700 --> 00:27:54,044 Just grab me if you get her, okay? 596 00:27:54,068 --> 00:27:55,579 - Okay. - Thanks. 597 00:27:55,603 --> 00:27:57,581 - Well, the only other actionable thing in the last hour was... 598 00:27:57,605 --> 00:27:59,449 - Bashir, we need to talk about Dr. Ruston Thibeault. 599 00:27:59,473 --> 00:28:01,184 - Yeah, that. - You booked an urgent consul 600 00:28:01,208 --> 00:28:02,953 to my office, but Rusty was expecting 601 00:28:02,977 --> 00:28:04,345 a HIDA scan, not psych. 602 00:28:04,412 --> 00:28:06,289 And he was very upset when I showed up. 603 00:28:06,313 --> 00:28:08,525 I made space. You already knew I was wall-to-wall today. 604 00:28:08,549 --> 00:28:10,727 - Wait, wait, wait. Rusty's waiting for more imaging? 605 00:28:10,751 --> 00:28:13,254 Did I get that wrong, Bash? Because I could've sworn 606 00:28:13,320 --> 00:28:15,923 you asked me to set up a psych referral. Yeah, you did. 607 00:28:15,990 --> 00:28:17,134 At least, that's what I have here. 608 00:28:17,158 --> 00:28:19,527 - No, Arnold, you didn't get that wrong. 609 00:28:19,593 --> 00:28:21,962 Thanks. - Okay... 610 00:28:23,898 --> 00:28:27,234 - It happened again. (sighing) 611 00:28:27,301 --> 00:28:29,212 - Do you remember what you said to Rusty? 612 00:28:29,236 --> 00:28:31,448 - He convinced himself that he has gallstones, 613 00:28:31,472 --> 00:28:33,583 but all the medical facts pointed to an anxiety reaction, 614 00:28:33,607 --> 00:28:35,452 so I just... - You wanted him to take 615 00:28:35,476 --> 00:28:37,120 the steps that you were refusing to? 616 00:28:37,144 --> 00:28:38,855 I told you this morning to accept 617 00:28:38,879 --> 00:28:41,058 that this was happening and to take yourself off the floor. 618 00:28:41,082 --> 00:28:43,517 - I was about to go talk to Devi about it like you said, 619 00:28:43,584 --> 00:28:45,796 but then Mags needed me to talk to Devi as well, 620 00:28:45,820 --> 00:28:47,188 so I wanted to be there for her. 621 00:28:47,254 --> 00:28:48,465 - You risked your own wellbeing, 622 00:28:48,489 --> 00:28:50,067 not to mention your other patients'. 623 00:28:50,091 --> 00:28:51,802 - With the exception of sending Rusty to you, 624 00:28:51,826 --> 00:28:53,970 I only saw one patient, who I was with when I gapped! 625 00:28:53,994 --> 00:28:55,605 - Bashir... - No, she was saying that 626 00:28:55,629 --> 00:28:57,007 she was having these personality changes 627 00:28:57,031 --> 00:28:58,542 due to depression, but it was actually 628 00:28:58,566 --> 00:29:00,377 because of a giant tumour in her head. 629 00:29:00,401 --> 00:29:02,002 - Bash, do you hear yourself? 630 00:29:02,069 --> 00:29:04,247 You say our work is pointless, ignore my advice, 631 00:29:04,271 --> 00:29:06,471 and then demand for help on your terms? 632 00:29:07,808 --> 00:29:09,410 (sighing) 633 00:29:10,311 --> 00:29:12,656 Do you remember what your patient was saying when you were triggered? 634 00:29:12,680 --> 00:29:14,825 - Yeah, that the damage had been done 635 00:29:14,849 --> 00:29:16,484 and it was too late to fix it, 636 00:29:16,550 --> 00:29:18,595 and I guess that just made me feel like... 637 00:29:18,619 --> 00:29:22,690 Look, when I came back to myself, I was talking to Devi. 638 00:29:23,991 --> 00:29:25,893 And, uh... 639 00:29:25,960 --> 00:29:27,495 And now, my patient's gone 640 00:29:27,561 --> 00:29:29,997 and I may have really messed things up for Mags. 641 00:29:30,064 --> 00:29:31,942 - You need to take responsibility 642 00:29:31,966 --> 00:29:35,402 for your actions today. Or I'll have to do it for you. 643 00:29:35,469 --> 00:29:38,172 You know, it might be a good idea if I get you an Ativan. 644 00:29:39,140 --> 00:29:41,642 - When it happened this morning, 645 00:29:43,177 --> 00:29:45,546 I texted my friend Saleh in Syria. 646 00:29:45,613 --> 00:29:50,084 And I guess I offered to sponsor both him and his wife to come to Canada. 647 00:29:50,151 --> 00:29:51,752 Even though I can't afford it. 648 00:29:51,819 --> 00:29:53,597 And then everything's so uncertain right now, 649 00:29:53,621 --> 00:29:55,565 what was I thinking? - That you miss him. 650 00:29:55,589 --> 00:29:57,925 That you deserve love and friendship. 651 00:29:57,992 --> 00:30:00,494 Because you're not broken and some part of you 652 00:30:00,561 --> 00:30:02,029 actually believes that. 653 00:30:09,204 --> 00:30:12,374 I need it off! - Owen, you need to stay still. 654 00:30:12,440 --> 00:30:14,709 (screaming) 655 00:30:15,610 --> 00:30:18,646 - I need to scratch, it hurts! It itches. 656 00:30:18,713 --> 00:30:19,790 - Okay, what happened? 657 00:30:19,814 --> 00:30:21,559 - Who has been in here besides me? 658 00:30:21,583 --> 00:30:24,953 He's reacting to something. - Well, I don't see a rash. 659 00:30:25,020 --> 00:30:26,430 - Sometimes he just feels it. (screaming) 660 00:30:26,454 --> 00:30:27,989 - Okay, Owen, what do you need? 661 00:30:28,056 --> 00:30:29,734 What can we do to make you feel better? 662 00:30:29,758 --> 00:30:31,038 - You don't really want to know. 663 00:30:31,092 --> 00:30:32,293 You'll use it as a reason 664 00:30:32,360 --> 00:30:34,796 to stop me from doing things I want to do. 665 00:30:34,863 --> 00:30:37,332 - Owen, I just want to help you. - Nothing helps! 666 00:30:37,399 --> 00:30:40,769 Nothing ever helps! I'm stuck this way and I hate it! 667 00:30:40,835 --> 00:30:42,904 Make me sleep again, please! 668 00:30:42,971 --> 00:30:46,307 Make me numb. I just want to be numb! 669 00:30:46,374 --> 00:30:49,878 (breathing heavily) 670 00:30:50,645 --> 00:30:52,380 - I'll get you a sedative. 671 00:30:54,749 --> 00:30:57,619 - Hey, Theo, can you cover the rest of my patients today? 672 00:30:57,685 --> 00:30:59,845 - Uh, yeah, sure, I think so. Just one sec. 673 00:30:59,888 --> 00:31:01,456 Arnold, I need 30mg of ketamine 674 00:31:01,523 --> 00:31:03,100 and 10 cetirizine for Owen, stat. 675 00:31:03,124 --> 00:31:05,202 - On it, I'll meet you in there. - What's this about? 676 00:31:05,226 --> 00:31:06,737 This about Mags? She okay? 677 00:31:06,761 --> 00:31:08,239 I've been texting you for info, but you haven't... 678 00:31:08,263 --> 00:31:10,608 - No, no, no, it's not. It's not. I'll explain later. 679 00:31:10,632 --> 00:31:12,843 Arnold, can you help him with the patient transfer? 680 00:31:12,867 --> 00:31:14,202 - Yeah. 681 00:31:16,404 --> 00:31:18,473 - Dr. Thibeault, I wanted to... 682 00:31:18,540 --> 00:31:19,774 You don't look so... 683 00:31:19,841 --> 00:31:21,419 Hey, hey. Have a seat. 684 00:31:21,443 --> 00:31:23,445 Are you okay? - Yes. 685 00:31:23,511 --> 00:31:25,280 It's a rash, it's fine. 686 00:31:25,346 --> 00:31:28,216 You're going to tell me that's all in my head, too. 687 00:31:28,283 --> 00:31:31,019 - The psych consult could have been handled better. 688 00:31:31,086 --> 00:31:33,264 (sighing) - Damn straight. 689 00:31:33,288 --> 00:31:35,890 - But I never said it was all in your head, Rusty. 690 00:31:35,957 --> 00:31:38,893 Gallstones or not, what you're feeling is real. 691 00:31:38,960 --> 00:31:40,538 May I? - Yeah. 692 00:31:40,562 --> 00:31:42,163 - Breathe. 693 00:31:44,532 --> 00:31:46,901 Are you experiencing airway constriction? 694 00:31:46,968 --> 00:31:49,313 Because your lips look like they're starting to swell. 695 00:31:49,337 --> 00:31:52,240 - Yeah. I think so. - With me. 696 00:31:52,941 --> 00:31:56,344 Anaphylaxis is not a symptom of gallstones. 697 00:31:56,411 --> 00:31:58,246 Are you allergic to anything? 698 00:31:58,313 --> 00:32:01,749 - No, radioactive imaging, tracer dye apparently. 699 00:32:01,816 --> 00:32:04,319 - Wait, did you inject yourself with it? 700 00:32:04,385 --> 00:32:05,896 - You wouldn't get me a HIDA scan, 701 00:32:05,920 --> 00:32:07,364 I had to take matters into my own hands! 702 00:32:07,388 --> 00:32:09,433 - So in order to prove that you had gallstones, 703 00:32:09,457 --> 00:32:11,559 your plan was to scan yourself. 704 00:32:11,626 --> 00:32:13,061 That's... 705 00:32:13,128 --> 00:32:14,929 Lie back, please. 706 00:32:14,996 --> 00:32:16,264 (sighing) 707 00:32:18,366 --> 00:32:20,535 Okay, one, two, three... 708 00:32:22,303 --> 00:32:24,072 We'll give it two minutes. 709 00:32:24,139 --> 00:32:27,041 We're going to get you on fluids, antihistamines, 710 00:32:27,108 --> 00:32:29,548 and steroids to flush the dye out of your system. 711 00:32:29,577 --> 00:32:31,288 And then you should start to feel much better 712 00:32:31,312 --> 00:32:34,482 if you want to go back to work. - No, not like this. 713 00:32:34,549 --> 00:32:37,185 - Would you like me to let someone know? 714 00:32:37,252 --> 00:32:39,787 - I don't want anyone knowing that I do this to myself. 715 00:32:41,789 --> 00:32:45,493 Maybe calling psych wasn't the worst idea in the world. 716 00:32:51,399 --> 00:32:54,002 - Hey. - Did you get it? 717 00:32:54,068 --> 00:32:57,305 - Uh-huh. Aren't you supposed to be in bed on antibiotics? 718 00:32:57,372 --> 00:32:59,917 - Yeah, the infusion went through. Is that for me? Can I see it? 719 00:32:59,941 --> 00:33:02,186 - You don't have to act like a spy. They're your labs. 720 00:33:02,210 --> 00:33:04,054 - Yeah, my surgeon already thinks I'm a problem. 721 00:33:04,078 --> 00:33:06,157 But you know, I read his review on "Rate My MD", 722 00:33:06,181 --> 00:33:08,759 and one of his patients said that he didn't go through the risks, 723 00:33:08,783 --> 00:33:11,819 and another that he changed course and she wasn't consented. 724 00:33:11,886 --> 00:33:13,631 My white blood cell count is normal. 725 00:33:13,655 --> 00:33:15,733 - That's good. - If you're just gonna spit back 726 00:33:15,757 --> 00:33:18,293 out things I already know... - Do you know? 727 00:33:18,359 --> 00:33:20,738 Because you're not acting like somebody who's relieved that they're good to go. 728 00:33:20,762 --> 00:33:22,773 Or that they have an excellent surgeon. 729 00:33:22,797 --> 00:33:25,400 - Have you seen Bash? He was supposed to talk to Devi for me, 730 00:33:25,466 --> 00:33:28,646 but he never came back and I need to know what she says before I... 731 00:33:28,670 --> 00:33:31,239 - Before what? - Before... 732 00:33:32,073 --> 00:33:34,293 - Before you go through with this? 733 00:33:34,442 --> 00:33:37,445 Are you trying to get out of it? - No. 734 00:33:37,512 --> 00:33:39,247 - Mags. 735 00:33:39,626 --> 00:33:41,160 - I don't know. 736 00:33:42,217 --> 00:33:45,486 Even if I was, it's obviously out of my control. 737 00:33:45,553 --> 00:33:48,423 (beeping) 738 00:33:49,724 --> 00:33:50,925 (sighing) 739 00:33:50,992 --> 00:33:53,895 - Novak started a firestorm and then he vanished. 740 00:33:53,962 --> 00:33:56,764 And now Devi wants me to sell him out. 741 00:33:56,831 --> 00:33:59,267 Which is... really not important 742 00:33:59,334 --> 00:34:01,111 considering what you're going through right now. 743 00:34:01,135 --> 00:34:03,338 - Please don't say it. 744 00:34:03,668 --> 00:34:04,939 - I'm just trying to help. 745 00:34:05,006 --> 00:34:08,081 - Yeah, well, you just... you take it all for granted. 746 00:34:08,106 --> 00:34:09,920 - What? - Yeah, you're out of residency. 747 00:34:09,944 --> 00:34:11,689 You've got everything you've wanted right in front of you. 748 00:34:11,713 --> 00:34:14,115 Meanwhile, the exact date that I get the job 749 00:34:14,182 --> 00:34:16,493 I nearly killed myself for, I found out that this happens. 750 00:34:16,517 --> 00:34:18,562 And if I say no to the transplant, 751 00:34:18,586 --> 00:34:20,297 my dumb defective heart that I was born with 752 00:34:20,321 --> 00:34:22,840 could just give out at anytime. Or maybe never, who knows! 753 00:34:23,180 --> 00:34:25,723 And now, apparently, I'm moving back in with my parents. 754 00:34:26,069 --> 00:34:30,974 - You're moving out of my house? - My mom, she rented a place 755 00:34:30,999 --> 00:34:33,801 behind my back, yeah. - She's probably just trying to, 756 00:34:33,868 --> 00:34:37,872 you know, help you not have to worry about things and, like... 757 00:34:38,392 --> 00:34:39,949 - Why are you defending her? 758 00:34:40,850 --> 00:34:44,554 - You know, not all of us have people just lining up trying to love us, Mags! 759 00:34:44,579 --> 00:34:48,249 - June. Uh, your hernia patient. 760 00:34:48,316 --> 00:34:50,427 He's come down, his heart rate's racing. 761 00:34:50,451 --> 00:34:53,788 And he's febrile... - Um... 762 00:34:54,395 --> 00:34:58,393 Can you prep him for Trauma OR? - Yeah. 763 00:34:58,459 --> 00:35:00,194 Uh, Mags, is she okay? 764 00:35:01,747 --> 00:35:03,129 - No. 765 00:35:09,304 --> 00:35:10,982 And kidnap me this time! - Oh, c'mon. 766 00:35:11,006 --> 00:35:13,575 We waited too long and now he won't get in the chair. 767 00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:15,277 - Just relax. 768 00:35:15,344 --> 00:35:17,870 Hartley, look at me. 769 00:35:17,895 --> 00:35:19,214 The situation is serious. 770 00:35:19,281 --> 00:35:21,893 Your hernia's strangulated and a prolonged lack of blood flow 771 00:35:21,918 --> 00:35:23,659 could cause organ failure or even death. 772 00:35:23,684 --> 00:35:24,963 So you do need the surgery. - Not if it means 773 00:35:24,987 --> 00:35:26,364 I have to go under. - Babe! 774 00:35:26,388 --> 00:35:28,735 What happened to you never feeling afraid again? 775 00:35:28,760 --> 00:35:30,370 - The drugs you forced on me wore off. 776 00:35:30,395 --> 00:35:32,537 Why would you do that to me? How could you think that would help? 777 00:35:32,561 --> 00:35:35,130 - I don't know. I couldn't stand seeing you like that! 778 00:35:35,155 --> 00:35:36,974 - Oh, so you made it about you, huh? 779 00:35:36,999 --> 00:35:38,977 - No! I... God, why couldn't we just do this 780 00:35:39,001 --> 00:35:40,637 when he was feeling good? 781 00:35:40,662 --> 00:35:42,007 - Because that would have been a crime. 782 00:35:42,031 --> 00:35:43,609 - See Dell, why does literally everyone 783 00:35:43,634 --> 00:35:45,135 understand that except you? 784 00:35:45,160 --> 00:35:46,818 There must be some kind of medicine we can try. 785 00:35:46,842 --> 00:35:48,720 - There isn't! You need to face this like an adult. 786 00:35:48,744 --> 00:35:50,889 Get in the chair! - Della, you can't... 787 00:35:50,913 --> 00:35:52,123 - Well, I can't watch him die! 788 00:35:52,147 --> 00:35:53,591 Hartley, get in the damn chair! 789 00:35:53,615 --> 00:35:54,993 - Never! - Let's go! 790 00:35:55,017 --> 00:35:56,919 (screaming) 791 00:35:56,985 --> 00:35:58,963 - June, you need help here? - Yeah. 792 00:35:58,987 --> 00:36:00,155 - He bit me! 793 00:36:00,222 --> 00:36:01,733 - She drugged me without my consent! 794 00:36:01,757 --> 00:36:04,077 - Alright, both of you calm down right now. 795 00:36:05,957 --> 00:36:07,426 - Great. 796 00:36:09,048 --> 00:36:10,316 - Is he dead? 797 00:36:10,341 --> 00:36:13,143 - Nope, just in shock. - Good. 798 00:36:13,199 --> 00:36:15,702 Can we do the surgery before he wakes up? 799 00:36:20,042 --> 00:36:21,443 (sighing) 800 00:36:22,478 --> 00:36:23,779 - The first time it happened 801 00:36:23,846 --> 00:36:25,423 it was with my old chief, Dr. Bishop. 802 00:36:25,447 --> 00:36:28,183 He saw me, he asked me to go to therapy and it helped. 803 00:36:28,250 --> 00:36:30,645 It hasn't happened in two years. 804 00:36:30,984 --> 00:36:35,706 - Okay... I'm sure it's not been easy 805 00:36:35,731 --> 00:36:37,643 experiencing that again. 806 00:36:37,668 --> 00:36:42,166 - I know, I should've stopped seeing patients immediately, 807 00:36:42,191 --> 00:36:44,768 but I really thought I had it under control. 808 00:36:44,793 --> 00:36:48,260 - We get that feeling like the walls are closing in, 809 00:36:48,285 --> 00:36:51,541 sometimes, our instincts betray us and... 810 00:36:51,566 --> 00:36:54,112 create blind spots. 811 00:36:55,981 --> 00:36:57,983 Thank you for telling me. 812 00:37:00,098 --> 00:37:02,000 If there's anything you need... 813 00:37:02,025 --> 00:37:06,029 - Dr. Devi. Hear me out about Mags again. 814 00:37:06,471 --> 00:37:10,634 If she was the right person before, she still will be after. 815 00:37:10,659 --> 00:37:13,862 - That's what you said last time, too. 816 00:37:14,362 --> 00:37:15,909 (sighing) 817 00:37:18,909 --> 00:37:21,378 (knocking) - Feeling any better? 818 00:37:22,332 --> 00:37:23,526 - A little. 819 00:37:24,106 --> 00:37:26,962 Is Mac going to stop trying to help me after what I said? 820 00:37:26,987 --> 00:37:29,478 Because I don't feel like that all the time. 821 00:37:29,545 --> 00:37:31,774 - No, Owen, definitely not. 822 00:37:31,799 --> 00:37:35,088 - But he's never going to let me drive after this. 823 00:37:35,939 --> 00:37:37,979 - Let me see your phone. - Why? 824 00:37:38,004 --> 00:37:40,707 - Trust me. I'm not going to read any of your texts. 825 00:37:44,627 --> 00:37:46,737 Do you know about Kids Help Phone? 826 00:37:47,205 --> 00:37:49,368 So in those moments when you feel out of control 827 00:37:49,393 --> 00:37:52,772 and you need someone to talk to or text, 828 00:37:52,797 --> 00:37:55,125 it is totally anonymous 829 00:37:55,580 --> 00:37:58,149 and someone's always there to respond. 830 00:38:02,885 --> 00:38:04,353 (sighing) 831 00:38:07,946 --> 00:38:11,082 - My plan was to phase out at 65. 832 00:38:11,593 --> 00:38:14,331 Barely anyone has room in their practice anymore. 833 00:38:14,383 --> 00:38:16,892 I feel like I'd be abandoning all those people 834 00:38:16,959 --> 00:38:18,694 I've known for so long. 835 00:38:19,125 --> 00:38:22,328 For some, it's not bad, but kids like Owen, 836 00:38:22,898 --> 00:38:25,534 they're the reason I wanted to do this kind of work. 837 00:38:26,267 --> 00:38:28,412 - Hard to turn your back on a calling. 838 00:38:28,437 --> 00:38:30,806 - As long as I'm still doing more good than harm. 839 00:38:32,016 --> 00:38:35,365 - I wrote up a letter for his licence. 840 00:38:35,390 --> 00:38:38,303 See what you think? - You saw what happened today. 841 00:38:38,328 --> 00:38:40,834 If that happened on the road... - There's risks, yeah. 842 00:38:40,859 --> 00:38:44,142 But Owen is thinking about his future which means he wants to live. 843 00:38:44,751 --> 00:38:46,085 Look, it's your call, Mac. 844 00:38:46,110 --> 00:38:48,039 But I think we should both sign it. 845 00:38:56,830 --> 00:38:58,164 (knocking) 846 00:38:59,835 --> 00:39:03,348 - Hey, I got that note about the statement you wanted me to sign. 847 00:39:03,372 --> 00:39:05,741 - Yeah, one of the weirder incident reports 848 00:39:05,766 --> 00:39:07,664 I've had to fill. - Yeah. 849 00:39:07,689 --> 00:39:09,461 - How's our "biter?" - Uh, apparently, 850 00:39:09,486 --> 00:39:11,364 losing consciousness is a stroke of luck 851 00:39:11,389 --> 00:39:13,289 because we are not allowed to let you die. 852 00:39:13,314 --> 00:39:15,501 So his hernia's fixed, and now he's awake and he's happy, 853 00:39:15,525 --> 00:39:17,360 and they are in love again. 854 00:39:17,385 --> 00:39:18,953 (laughing) 855 00:39:19,070 --> 00:39:20,914 - What's that hair metal song called? 856 00:39:20,939 --> 00:39:24,443 Uh... "Love hurts". Yeah. 857 00:39:24,760 --> 00:39:26,195 Those guys knew. 858 00:39:27,562 --> 00:39:31,767 - That was an intense dad voice you used earlier. 859 00:39:32,964 --> 00:39:35,099 How's Henry? - Great. 860 00:39:35,174 --> 00:39:38,511 - Yeah? And... you? 861 00:39:38,536 --> 00:39:40,647 (sighing) - You know, it's funny. 862 00:39:41,062 --> 00:39:45,343 You and me were together all that time and now we're just... 863 00:39:45,368 --> 00:39:48,905 passing each other once in a while in the hall. 864 00:39:49,079 --> 00:39:50,981 - I guess that's on me. 865 00:39:52,054 --> 00:39:54,890 I feel really bad about how I played that. 866 00:39:55,724 --> 00:40:00,062 Actually, about how I've managed to screw up most of my relationships. 867 00:40:00,087 --> 00:40:03,591 - Hey. Ours was on me, too. 868 00:40:06,468 --> 00:40:09,671 - No, it wasn't. (chuckle) 869 00:40:22,759 --> 00:40:24,670 - So what's supposed to happen next? 870 00:40:24,695 --> 00:40:26,997 - They'll be retrieving the donor heart late tonight. 871 00:40:27,022 --> 00:40:29,624 First thing in the morning, we'll get going. 872 00:40:29,691 --> 00:40:32,679 - Magalie. - What if I can't do it? 873 00:40:48,310 --> 00:40:49,878 (sighing) 874 00:40:53,494 --> 00:40:54,687 Okay. 875 00:40:59,363 --> 00:41:03,593 (phone ringing) 876 00:41:06,995 --> 00:41:08,306 - Hi, Sam. - Hi, June. 877 00:41:08,330 --> 00:41:10,118 Just letting you know that everything's in order, 878 00:41:10,142 --> 00:41:11,633 so green light from our end 879 00:41:11,658 --> 00:41:13,939 if you want to do your IUI tomorrow. 880 00:41:20,197 --> 00:41:21,492 (knocking) 881 00:41:23,011 --> 00:41:25,547 - Thanks for not cancelling my surgery. 882 00:41:25,614 --> 00:41:28,250 And for the concerned messages. 883 00:41:28,275 --> 00:41:29,677 - I'm glad you're back. 884 00:41:29,702 --> 00:41:31,383 - They're coming to shave my head. 885 00:41:31,408 --> 00:41:33,221 What girl says no to that? 886 00:41:33,288 --> 00:41:35,323 - Do you have anyone with you? 887 00:41:35,348 --> 00:41:37,148 - My brother is on his way. 888 00:41:37,392 --> 00:41:38,727 - Hey. 889 00:41:38,752 --> 00:41:42,055 Weird question, but it's been that kind of day. 890 00:41:43,140 --> 00:41:46,543 What did I say to you that made you leave? 891 00:41:46,568 --> 00:41:49,337 - Made me leave and got me back. 892 00:41:49,446 --> 00:41:52,449 You said it was okay to be scared. 893 00:41:52,773 --> 00:41:56,553 That I just had to let myself sit with that and really feel it. 894 00:41:56,578 --> 00:41:58,939 And that somewhere, in all of this, 895 00:41:58,964 --> 00:42:01,433 there's a way to find the light. 896 00:42:04,519 --> 00:42:06,254 - I'm here, Bash. 897 00:42:06,321 --> 00:42:09,157 Say what you want to say to me. 898 00:42:11,126 --> 00:42:13,429 - So many things have happened to me 899 00:42:13,454 --> 00:42:15,164 that were out of my control. 900 00:42:15,864 --> 00:42:19,054 Been thinking about you bringing us here, 901 00:42:19,079 --> 00:42:21,015 finding us in Crete and... 902 00:42:21,056 --> 00:42:23,195 After I got me and my sister stuck... 903 00:42:23,220 --> 00:42:24,822 - You wish you hadn't let me? 904 00:42:24,847 --> 00:42:26,874 - No, not at all. 905 00:42:26,899 --> 00:42:30,703 Elliot, you, opened your family to us. 906 00:42:32,414 --> 00:42:34,850 Disappearing from your life, that was me. 907 00:42:34,916 --> 00:42:36,406 That was me being scared 908 00:42:36,431 --> 00:42:38,362 that I'd never be able to build anything. 909 00:42:38,386 --> 00:42:41,456 Trying to control it and getting mad when I couldn't. 910 00:42:42,890 --> 00:42:44,692 I'm sorry. 911 00:42:47,057 --> 00:42:51,462 But what I wanted to do was to thank you for that properly. 912 00:42:52,534 --> 00:42:54,645 And to tell you that we wouldn't be 913 00:42:54,670 --> 00:42:56,584 where we are today without you. 914 00:43:03,789 --> 00:43:06,091 (♪♪) 915 00:43:23,020 --> 00:43:26,156 Subtitles: difuze 72437

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