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(guests chattering)

- [April] There is a Jewish story,

an ordinary Jewish joke.

A father was teaching his
little son to be less afraid,

to have more courage by having
him jump down the stairs.

He put his son on the
second stair and said,

"Jump, and I'll catch you."

Then on the third stair, and said,

"Jump, and I'll catch you."

The little boy was afraid,

but he trusted his father
and did what he was told,

and jumped into his arms.

The father put him on the next step,

and then the next, each time telling him,

"Jump, and I'll catch you."

Then the boy jumped from a very high step,

but this time the father stepped back,

and the boy fell flat on his face.

He picked himself up, bleeding and crying,

and the father said to
him, "That'll teach you."

- Here, put this sweater on.

- Nuh uh.

- Don't be ridiculous!

You're shaking like a bowl of Jell-O.

Put the sweater on!
- No!

- Mom!
- Oh, for God's sake!

(music continues)

(rabbi speaking in Hebrew)

(Ben speaking in Hebrew)

(rabbi speaking in Hebrew)

(Ben speaking in Hebrew)

(rabbi speaking in Hebrew)

(Ben speaking in Hebrew)

(rabbi speaking in Hebrew)
(April speaking in Hebrew)

- I betroth you to me forever.

- I betroth you to me forever.
- In righteousness,

and justice.
- In righteousness

and justice.

- In kindness and in mercy.

- In kindness and in mercy.

- And you shall know God.

- And you shall know God.

- For you.

(music continues)
(guests chattering)

(April laughing)
(jovial music)

- Ah (laughs)!

- [Trudy] Well, I'm dying.

- You're not dying.

You had an episode and
they wanna watch you.

Shabbat shalom.

- Hm?

- She's always dying.
- Why are you rushing?

- Sorry, rounds took forever.

Sorry you guys,

sorry I'm late.
- Oh, baby, no problem.

No problem.
- Have a good evening.

- [April] Thank you.

- You're late for Shabbat and you have

to tell this stranger
our private business?

- [Freddy] Mom, you're
lucky we come at all.

- [Trudy] I'm lucky you come to Shabbat?

Why is that? Stop eating.

- 'Cause it's the 21st century,

'cause we're not in Babylon.

We don't have to remind ourselves

to let our land lie fallow.

- The whole point of Shabbat is to be the-

- I was eleven minutes late!

- You're getting yourself worked up,

and being worked up all the
time never got anyone pregnant.

(Freddy coughs)

- [April] Worked up?

We've been trying

for 10 months!
- Shabbat shalom.

- Where does everyone have to get to?

- I'm not worked up!

I would just like very
much to have a baby.

- So adopt.
- Who's really mine.

(April sighs)

(April singing in Hebrew)

- In China they're throwing
them into trash cans.

(April singing in Hebrew)

Adopt a baby, for God's sake,

adopt a baby and then have a baby.

You're 39 years old!
- That's what you did.

- That's why you can't do it,
because I did it (chuckles)?

Being like me is such a terrible thing.

- There's a feeling.
- No, there's not!

- When he was little, I watched you.

I watched you watch him.

I saw you look at each other.

It was different.

I want that.

- You listen to me.

There's no difference.

(gentle music)

- Are you here?

Where are you?

- [Ben] I'm in here.

Sweetie, can you come in here
and sit down for a minute?

- I'll be there in one second.

Hi.

- Sit down.

- You stand up.

- (sighs) Sweetie, please sit down.

And take your coat off.

- Maybe you should take it off.

What?

- (sighs) I made a mistake.

I'm sorry.

I made a mistake.

- You made what?

- (sighs) If I could blink my eyes

and it would be a year from now,

and we could be friends,
best friends, I would do it.

We teach across the hall from each other.

I'll see you all the time, every day.

But listen, I want...

I want you to know something.

- Do you want?

- Yeah, thank you.

- What did you want me to know?

- I'm 100% sure.

- Is this because I didn't say

the right thing the other night?

- It's not that.
- If you wanna pursue

this drawing thing
- It's not that.

- then you can,
- It's nothing.

- I just meant that if-
- I'm very attracted to-

- if we're gonna try to have a baby

somebody has to make some money.

- I don't...

- I can't make love if we don't talk.

- I don't want this life!

Don't you want to take your coat off?

Why don't you want to take your coat off?

Oh, God.

(Ben breathing heavily)

I'm really sure we shouldn't...

(Ben panting)

(gentle music)

(Ben panting)
(April panting)

(April sighs)

I'll see ya in school.

Come on.

(door closes)

(April sighs)

(gentle music)

(students chattering)
(upbeat music)

(kids clamoring)

- Can you explain this to me?

Mrs. Epner Green, this is chaos.

Who's in charge?

- It says he has resigned.

- And you knew nothing about this?

If Mr. Green is out, why
is there no substitute?

- Is he coming in?

- Mrs. Epner Green's class,

make space for Mr. Green's class.

- [Teacher] Mrs. Epner Green,

this is way too many kids for one room!

- Really, do you think so?

- [Teacher] Well, Mrs. Epner Green-

- Ms. Epner.

- [Teacher] Okay, the parents can go.

Mr. Green will not be coming in.

Ms. Epner will be teaching both classes.

- You don't know where he is?

Have you slept?

Don't do anything until you've slept.

Don't think anything until you've slept.

I have to drop her upstairs.

- [Teacher] It's gonna take
me an hour to get a sub.

- Love you.

- Can you watch them for five minutes?

- Go.

Hurry back.

(energetic music)

- Don't let anyone fix you up with anyone.

A friend of mine set me up on a date,

I'm still recovering.

- Are you coming on to me?

- What?

- My husband left me nine hours ago.

Do you think you could control
yourself for five minutes?

- You bet ya.

(mellow music)

- Oh my God!

Okay.

You should come in.

This is bad timing.

- Do you know how old I am?
- Yes, I do.

- I want a baby.

I can't explain it.

It's like being hungry or having to pee.

Please don't tell me to adopt.

- I wouldn't, I won't.

I never will.

A 65-year-old lady in the
Bronx just gave birth to twins.

So, I mean, not that that's-

- Thanks (chuckles).

Should I come in?

- Yes, you should come in.

I just need to-
- Hi, I'm here.

Sorry.

I heard your story.

That's just horrible.

- Thanks.

I'm gonna go.

- April, don't go home alone.

- It's fine.

I need to sleep.

I mean, it's not gonna
get any worse than this.

(rabbi singing in Hebrew)

- [Rabbi] To Gertrude Trudy Epner,

who has gone to her lasting rest.

Master of all, we pray to You,

remember her worthy and righteous deeds

while among the living and say amein.

- [All] Amein.

(gentle music)
(bells ringing)

- Pardon me?

Who does the purchasing for the school?

- I'm sorry?

- Not the purchasing, the requisitioning.

- The office is that way.

- Thank you.

(students chattering)

Are you April Epner?

- Can I help you?

- I represent someone from your past.

Someone from your past who's
looking to make contact.

Would the discovery of the identity

of your birth mother be welcome news?

I'm her assistant and friend.

She's a celebrity.

- I'm sorry, what kind of celebrity?

- Well, she's well known.

She really wants to meet you,

but she's very cautious, you understand.

But now I can definitely recommend it.

- You're recommending me?

- You taking this the wrong way?

Here.

Let her speak for herself.

(anticipatory music)

- [Bernice] "Dear Gabrielle,

Did you know Gabrielle
is what I named you?

I believe the time has
come for us to meet.

Let's have lunch tomorrow,
Saturday, you and me.

Barbetta Restaurant at one.

Your mother, Bernice."

(waiter speaking in Italian)

- Oh, hello.

Do you happen to have a reservation

for someone named Bernice?

(waiter speaking in Italian)

- Right this way, please.

A glass of champagne while you wait?

- Do you have a ladies room?

(anticipatory music)

- Ciao, bella.
- Oh!

(April chuckles nervously)

Thank you.

(April's throat clears)

(music continues)

I'm a teacher.

(Bernice speaking faintly)

- Sounds exactly like Judy Holliday.

You get anyone besides
Judy Holliday, hang up.

You won't get in unless
you use my name, right?

I know, it's terrible, but
we're talking about your health.

(waiter speaking in Italian)

Mm.

(gentle music)

Let me just look at you.

(soft classical music playing)

(Bernice gasps)

You're magnificent!
- What's your name?

Oh, thank you.

What is your name?

- You got my letter?

- Your last name?

- Oh, Graves.

I'm so happy you don't know it.

- Why would I-
- How do you feel right now?

- How do you feel?

- I feel like you are the reward

for everything I ever did
right in my entire life.

- Oh!

- [Bernice] And how do you feel?

- I, um...

Thank you.

I'm wondering how you can be certain

you're actually my mother.
- Are you married?

- I-
- I mean, do you have anyone?

Someone who takes you in his arms,

or her arms.

God knows I only want you to be happy.

Someone who holds you in the
night when you're afraid?

- You didn't answer my-
- Oh, it doesn't matter.

Some of the richest periods of my life

came when I was between love affairs.

Were you raised with
any brothers or sisters?

- I have a brother.
- Ah!

I wanna meet him.
- Boy, it's a little soon

for you to-
- Hello, you two.

- Oh, Alan, you remember Gabrielle.

- It's April.

- Recovering from the
abominable way I approached you?

- I make for you a special
mother/daughter antipasto.

- [Bernice] Someday I'll tell you

how we have Alan to thank for this.

- I produced the show that led to this.

- I looked in the camera

and the whole story just came out.

Our story.

- Such a powerful moment.

- Excuse me, what is our story?

- [Man] I'm sorry to bother you.

- Oh, that's all right.

Alan, do you have a pen?
- No, no.

I just want to say, I love you.

I watch you all the time.
- Oh!

- I think you're just the best.

- Thank you so much.
- Enjoy your lunch.

- Thank you.

If you have a television show,

why have I never heard of you?

- You watch local TV at
10:30 in the morning?

- Never.
- Me, either (chuckles).

- How much do you know about my parents?

- I know that you lost
Trudy three weeks ago,

and you lost Julius
three years before that.

- How do you know who they were?

- Oh, I've known since the day I lost you.

Were they good to you?
- How?

You weren't allowed to know that.

- I read it.

Upside down, across the
adoption counselor's desk.

"Baby Girl Epner, born April 1st."

- So, it's possible.
- What?

- That you are who you say you are.

- (chuckles) Listen, I only
got to have you for three days,

but that doesn't change the
fact that you are my daughter.

You are the most important
thing on earth to me.

You must know that.

Do you have children?

- I should think your own
family might feel strange

about you tracking me down like this.

- My family is me and you.

It shows in your face that
you know I'm your mother.

- What about your husband?

- Oh, I don't have one.

What about you?

Ever been married?
- Yes.

- How's that going?
- You know,

there's a certain presumption-

- Oh, don't lock Bernice out.

- Of course this is hard.

She loved the people who raised her.

- You're her mother.

- But it's natural she
would have questions.

- I'm sitting here!

- Yes, you are.

Ask me anything.

You're sitting on anger.

Ask me anything. Hit hard.

Ask me anything you want.

- Why did you give me up?

- "On you will go, though
the weather be foul.

On you will go, though your enemies prowl.

Onward up many a frightening creek,

though your arms may get sore
and your sneakers may leak."

- What?

- It's a book, by Dr. Seuss.

Did your adoptive parents read it to you?

- No.
- Oh, that's a shame,

because it's a map of your life really.

The whole point of which

is that every ending is a beginning.

Now, when Trudy and Julius
passed, that was an ending,

but in a funny kind of
a silvery liningy way,

it's brought us together, hasn't it?

- I have to go.

- Wait.

Stop.

Don't go.

Gabrielle!
- April, God damn it.

- Would you like to know
who your father was?

He was a famous man, now dead.

Why don't we go to my
office and really talk?

- Thank you, no.

- We could go for a drive.

- I would like to walk.

- Oh, you like to walk?

You sound like your father.

- My famous father, now
dead, went for walks?

- I'm a walker myself, you know?

All kinds of exercise, I'm a nut for.

(panting) Could we slow
down for just a moment?

Oh, being related like
this is just incredible.

- You were saying about my father?

- You hardly know me yet.

- Well, thank you, Ms. Graves,

it was traumatic and
potentially illuminating

to have met you.

- I met him when I was 15.

I worked in perfume.

- Where, exactly?

- Well, four blocks
that way, as it happens.

Used to be Bonwit Teller.

You can look it up.

Since I wasn't rich, I
earned extra money working

in their perfume department.

- So this was a customer?

- Oh, a very special customer (chuckles).

He came in to buy a gift for his mother.

He was close to his
mother, probably too close

because no woman could ever measure up.

- Who was it?

- He was immediately flirtatious,

but not in a boorish way.

He was, and I say this in
all humility enchanted.

- [April] Who was it?

- Steve McQueen.

- How dare you.

- We were deeply in love.

- Well, what went wrong?

- Well, he was single when I met him.

Separated, anyway.

I never would've gotten involved with him

had his relationship been viable,

but I sensed that they weren't through.

- "They" would be Steve
McQueen and Ali MacGraw?

- If you watched "The Getaway,"

you'll sense a certain closeness.

I do feel good about that.

By the way, do you have any children?

- [April] Was it a one-night stand?

- Oh, the memory lasted a lifetime.

(April laughs)

Your generation is so cynical.

- When? When was I conceived?

- Around the fourth of July.

- Around or on?
- On.

- Was he right or left handed?

- What kind of question is that?

- Circumcised?

- He was Catholic.

I understand your parents were Jewish?

- So what? So am I.

- Well, God bless.

- What does that mean?

- God bless that you believe in God.

- You don't believe in God?

- I don't know.

Watched the news lately?

- I'll ask you one more
time, why did you give me up?

- I didn't give you up.

You were taken from me.

Didn't they tell you that?

My father was very religious.

I held you in my arms for three days,

praying, praying that it
wouldn't happen, but it did.

He walked in, he took you,
and he left me screaming.

- How do I know any of this is true?

- Because it is!

- All right, listen to me,

and please respect what I say to you.

I have to go home, think about this,

and decide what to believe.

- Okay.

- Okay.

Thank you.

I appreciate you-
- Can you drop me?

- What? Where?

- Back there.

- All right.

(lighthearted music)

(Bernice sighs)

- When can we do this again?

Everyone needs family.

- I will call you.

- [Bernice] Let me give you my number.

Do you have a pen?

- Yeah.

- Okay.

Give me your hand.

Please?

(music continues)

It's harder to lose a hand.

- This isn't just a thousand-to-one shot.

This is a professional blood sport.

It can happen to you.

And then it can happen to you again.

(engine revving)

- I want my mommy!

I want my mommy!
- Hi, everybody.

Thanks for your patience.
- I want my mommy!

I want my mommy!
- Oh, some more than others.

- I want my mommy!

I want my mommy!
Ruby,

I need you to come here now.

Get your shoes on.

- Why don't you

come in first?
I want my mommy!

- I mean, for obvious reasons.
- I want my mommy!

- That's okay, you go ahead.
- I want my mommy!

- Besides, we're having so much fun here.

- I want my mommy!
- Are you sure?

- Of nothing.
- I want my mommy!

I want my mommy!

(toy squeaks)

- Pardon me.
- What?

We're all right, we're fine.
- You're fine?

She's fine?
- Yeah, we're fine.

Mm hm, fine.

- Listen, I'm sorry about what I...

- Shh.

- I'm sorry about what I said to you.

- Listen, I'm four weeks divorced.

For all I know, I was coming on to you.

- Were you coming on to me?

- No, I wasn't.

Why I wasn't, I can't imagine.

(April chuckles)

- Um, this is Jimmy Ray's portfolio.

First of all-
- I think he's in trouble.

- You do?
- Yes.

Sorry, what were you about to say?

- His printing is good.

- Really?
- Mm hm.

K's made him nervous,
but he likes them now.

- He seems happiest-
- He has night terrors.

- Did you say night terrors?

- I think they're night terrors.

He walks in his sleep.

- How often?

- Once, 10 months ago.

- What happened?

- He peed in the fridge.

- Have you slept?

- Oh, no (chuckles).

No.

- I love his hands.

I do.

I love how he uses them,
how expressive he is.

- I love that, too.

- [April] He has a little less confidence

just right at the moment,

but I think that's to be expected.

- Do you have kids?

- No.

He talks about his mom a lot.

He seems to worship her.

- From afar.

She's on a trip round the world.

She's a painter.

She's painting the world
with her boyfriend.

- Oh.

I see you outside in your car.

Is that-
Yes.

I work out there, I write.

- In your car?

- I like to keep an eye on the building.

It relaxes me.

- Mm.

- So why didn't you have kids?

I've watched you.

You love them and you're, you know?

- Old?

- No.

No, my God, no.

You can't be more than
what, you're 35, 34?

- I'm 39 and a half years old
and I've never been pregnant.

- [Frank] Well, if you put it like that.

- It looks pretty bleak,
doesn't it (chuckles)?

- No.

No, it looks painful.

And beautiful.

And I hope you get everything you want.

(April's stomach growls)

(April laughs)
(Frank chuckles)

- Um, dinner.

Apparently I want dinner.

- Well, bon appetit.

- Oh, would you like to get some dinner?

No, I'd rather eat frozen food alone

for the fifteenth month in a row.

Yes, I'd like to get dinner.

But I think you are a
very beautiful woman,

and for some reason I decided not to go

on any kind of date for at least a year.

Why? Because I'm a fucking idiot.

Thank you, you're gorgeous.

I'm leaving now.

(gentle music)

Yes, I would like to get some dinner.

Best friends?

He said that?
- Mm hm.

- Is this man entirely intact?

- (chuckles) You know,
we were best friends.

I loved him.

Kept hoping one day,
pop, he'd be a grown-up.

So your wife was seeing someone else?

- Pretty much everyone else.

I was too much for her.

- For your wife?

- Mm hm.

- I'm sure she didn't feel that way.

- She told me.

- What did she say?
- "You're too much for me."

- Oh!

So was it just out of the blue?

- It was out of the blue
because I was an idiot.

I came across the ocean
to be a blind idiot.

This woman may actually
let her kids grow up

without knowing their mother.

- I hope not.

How can you know if someone's your mother?

I mean, literally, if someone
says they're your mother,

how can you know for sure?

- [Frank] DNA test, I guess. Why?

(music continues)

(bell tolling)

I mean, you don't not
look like Steve McQueen.

(April chuckles)

Is she a credible person?

- I have no idea.

- My God, you have a chance
to get to know your mother.

- Yes, I guess I do.

What do you write in here?

- Books.

Jackets.

Jackets for other people's books.

For now.

Get a hair.

- I'm sorry?

- For the DNA test, get a hair.

- Oh.

Thank you.

- [Frank] Well.

- I don't wanna say good night.

- [Frank] I don't either.

- Uh oh.

(Frank chuckles)

- You suppose my son would notice

if I just didn't pick
him up from his play day?

- I'm sure he'd understand.

- Okay, I need you to do something for me.

I need you to get in your car.

Which is your car?

Yeah, I need you to get in your car

and drive away, first, because I can't.

Will you do that for me?

- Seriously?
- Yes.

- You will go home, right?

I mean, I won't find you guys here

in the morning wearing the same thing?

Okay (chuckles).

- [April and Frank] Goodnight.

- Maybe I should call
you when you get home,

just so you can be sure.

- I'd appreciate that.

I worry.
- Yeah, I do, too.

(gentle music)

- [April] What are you making?

- Well, it's peanut butter and jelly.

And I have to confess that we don't share

your countrymen's love of peanut butter.

And jelly isn't jelly.
- Mm hm?

- That's another thing

I have to have a word with you about.

(April laughs)

- Well, if you were in England,
what would you be making?

- [Frank] This would probably
be cheese and pickle.

But you don't know what pickle is.

- [April] Did you say cheese and pickle?

- I mean, you don't know what pickle is.

- [April] You give me a hard time

about peanut butter and jelly,

and you say cheese and pickle?
- Not at all.

- I'm defending food to an Englishman.

Is that happening to me right now?

- You know, our sex life was dominated

by her artwork, you know?

- [April] What do you mean?

- [Frank] Well, she liked to
depict acts of autoeroticism.

- Oh.

(Frank chuckles)

I sometimes make toast and have tea

after I've brushed my teeth,

and I don't brush them again.

Do you ever do that?

- No, no, no, I can't.

I'm British.

♪ Beautiful girl and I
want you to know it ♪

(bell ringing)

- I was never happier to get a call.

- Hello.

- Hello.

Have you eaten yet?

- Um, actually, no.
- Oh, come with me!

Our show went well today,
despite our best efforts.

So, everyone's in a good mood, okay?

AJ?

- Welcome to the craziness.
- Hello.

- Lunch?
- Please. We're famished.

- Sam's?
- Perfect.

What do you feel like?

It's a kind of a pubby place.

- Would a hamburger be all right?

- Oh my God (laughs).
- What?

- You're a little anemic, aren't you?

Runs in the family.

- Actually, I would just like a hamburger.

- Oh, okay. Come on.

So, Janeane Garofolo,

you've lived in the West
Village for a long, long time,

what's it like when the denizens

of the village come out and march about

in gay pride?
- Pride?

- Yes, pride.
- Speaking of pride,

I actually have a particular favorite gay.

- Oh, you do?
- I do.

My favorite gay
- (laughs) Only one?

- would be the bantamweight Latino

in the gold lame short shorts.

Lace front short shorts.

I'm partial to the flyweight Latino.

- Do you know his name?
- I don't know,

but he's great on the float-

- Surf break up on the Statue of Liberty,

so that you could actually ride a wave

from the Statue of
Liberty to Battery Park.

- Oh, that would be great.
- That would be great.

Instead of taking that ferry.

- Come on in.

- A hamburger is $18!

- My treat.

Make it two.

- I'll have a Caesar salad.

- One sec.

I can't have you in this lunch.

- Well, if you can't have
me here, you can't have me.

- Thanks.

(door closes)

I practically live in this room.

In fact, I call it my sanctuary.

Do you have a sanctuary?

- My kitchen is nice.

- Let me show you something.

(playful music)

Come here.

I want you to know me.

- Okay.

- Much of this is my natural hair color.

(laughs) Okay, I'll start.

Much of this is my natural
hair color (chuckles).

- Oh! Um...

I don't know what to...

I like music.

- What kinda music?

- I like Fleetwood Mac and um-

- I'm very verbal during sex.

- I'm afraid of drowning.

- During sex?

- No, just in general.
- Oh.

Um, I'm a tiny bit hard of
hearing in my right ear.

- I'm a tiny bit hard of
hearing in my right ear.

- [Bernice] Oh, see?

What else?

- I visit my father's grave all the time.

- Only his?

- What? Of course not, both.

- Oh, of course.

- Three years ago, I had a lumpectomy.

- Oh?
- Oh, I was fine.

But you should be aware.

- I'm getting a divorce.

- Oh, God, I knew it!

I could feel it.

I'm so connected to you.

What happened?
- I don't wanna talk about it.

- [Bernice] But you brought it up.

- I was playing your game
and it just came out.

- Was this recent?
- Yes.

- Was there trouble in the
marriage for a long time?

- Long enough.

- Do you still wanna have kids?

Of course you still wanna have kids.

- May I use this?
- Oh, yes, of course.

Here, let me have it.

Let's see.

I'll clean it out for you.

There you go.

What's mine is yours.

I want to find this
record to play for you.

It's Roy Orbison

singing "All I Have To Do Is Dream."

It's very rare.

But when I was pregnant with you,

I played it all the time,
and I thought it was...

Oh.

Oh, I can feel your heart beating.

- Me, too.

- The last time I felt your
heart beating against mine,

you were three days old.

- [April] How big was I?

- Six pounds, 15 ounces (chuckles).

You had such a sweet face

and the squinchiest little eyes and...

Ow!

Oh, what was that?

- I don't know.

(kids chattering)

- [Frank] Hi, there.

- Oh, hello.

Hi (chuckles).

Hi.

Okay, let's everybody pack up.

Hello.

- Did I do something wrong?

- No, of course not.

Hello.

I've very much enjoyed talking

to you these last nights,

but I don't think we
should go out of our way

to talk to each other
here, in a private way.

- In a private way?

- I've thought about it and we should-

- I've thought about it, too.

- Let's go, Daddy.
- Okay.

Well, goodnight.

Um, goodbye.

- One thing.

I don't sleep, usually,

so if you want to look up
information about your mother,

I'd be happy to help.

- Oh, boy, I am so bad at that stuff.

At some point I-
- Here.

It's about Steve McQueen.

- What about him?

- I got your birth date from the office.

Listen, I have to do something

with the energy I'm
spending not asking you out.

Do you wanna know?

Steve McQueen was on the Yangtze River,

it's in Southern China,

making a film called "The Sand Pebbles."

He was there between
March, 1966, and September.

- You were born in April?

- Yes.

- [Frank] Is it possible
this could've happened

in Southern China?

- She told me Manhattan.

- I'm sorry, I just don't
think he could've been.

- I don't know who you
are or what you want,

but I want you to stay away from me.

How dare you invade the life

of another human being this way?

What kind of selfish, psychotic,

compassionless freak must you be?

Do not ever try to contact me again

or I will call the police, I swear to God!

(phone beeps)
(April panting)

(phone ringing)

Freddy?

- You sittin' down?

- Yes.

- [Freddy] She's your mother.

- Begin.

- I know what a risk this is for you.

- You have no idea.

- And nothing could possibly excuse

my having told you a lie.

- Begin!

- His name was Jack Watske.

He was a Ukrainian boy
from the neighborhood.

A little gangly, but gorgeous.

Did you ever meet anybody and know

in a heartbeat you'd do whatever they say?

- You dated?

- We courted.
- Meaning?

- We had sex three times.

He told me I had a perfect body!

I was so inexperienced, I
had no idea he was right!

I still have a fine body but of course

it's never the same after childbirth.

- Would you please?

- My girlfriend's
parents were out of town.

He and I were in a sleeping
bag in their backyard.

We made love.

It was so cold outside the sleeping bag,

and so warm in it,

and afterwards, I cried
and cried and cried,

and he pretended to understand why.

- So that's where I was conceived?

- No, you were conceived a week later,

according to a great American tradition.

- Speak English.

- I fucked him at a drive-in.

- [April] What movie?

- "Bullitt."

- Why did you lie?

- I don't know why.

Because I thought it
was ugly and ordinary,

and I wanted to make it beautiful.

Also if I made him famous and dead,

he'd be famously dead,

and you wouldn't waste
time trying to find him.

- I tried for years to find
him and he's unfindable.

- How convenient.

- Look, don't you think
that if I could offer

your father up to you, I'd do it,

whatever shape he was in?

- How should I know what you would do?

- Because I'm telling you!

- And exactly what is that worth?

- I'm giving you my word!

- Bernice, look at me.

I will know if you're lying.

- Memorize this moment.

I know what I did to you.

I lied in the scariest way imaginable,

and now, at the worst
of all possible times,

when your husband just left you...

Or did you leave him?

I get the sense that he left you.

Okay, it's none of my business.

It will not happen again.

I knew it, I knew it.

That's why I said Steve McQueen.

- What?

- I knew you'd be ashamed
of what really happened.

- No, it's not that.

Please understand, it's
not you as much as me.

I'm glad to have met you,

but I am going through some things,

and now is not a good time.

Thank you for understanding,

and I really do hope that
our paths will cross again.

I'm gonna walk home now, so goodbye.

(playful music)

You're absurd!

- Give me 72 hours.

Three lousy days.

I wanna know you.

I wanna meet your brother.

I'm begging you.

I'm on my knees.

Metaphorically speaking, I'm on my knees.

Oh, for God's sake!

(music continues)

- [Freddy] It's Freddy,
leave me a message.

(voicemail beeps)

- I'm begging you, come with me.

I'm going to this event with her.

She wants to meet you.

Or at least call me back.

I know you're working hard, but I worry.

(phone beeps)

- "I was," mumbled Gun Smith.

"No one had ever tangled
with those two varmints

and lived to tell the tale.

So one day, a drifter..."
(phone ringing)

- Hello?

- Nevermind.

- [Jimmy Ray] What?

- I have the wrong number.

- Miss Epner?

- Hello?

- [Jimmy Ray] Hi, it's Jimmy Ray.

- Of course it is.

Hello, Jimmy Ray, is your father there?

- Dad, it's Miss Epner.

- Hello.

- Oh, God! Hello.

It's me, it's Miss Epner.

- [Frank] Hello, Miss Epner.

- [April] It's April.

- Hi.

- [April] Is Jimmy Ray right there?

- Yes.

- Oh, God!

Just please, just say, "Okay, Miss Epner,"

and I'll call you another time.

Okay, Miss Epner.

- I'm sorry, I shouldn't have
called you during the day.

It was a really bad mistake.

- Okay, Miss Epner.

Are you there?

- Would you like to go out
with me tomorrow night?

- More than I can say.

- Everybody say, "Send us money!"

- [All] Send us money!

(shutters clicking)

- Oh, you look lovely.

- Thank you, so do you.

- Thank you.

I'm glad you didn't bring a date.

It'll be more fun this way.

- I did bring a date.

- Oh, good, I'm so glad!

- Where is he?
- He's meeting me here.

- Oh. Is this your first date?

- With him, or since my husband?

- Either.
- Both.

- Oh, Jesus Christ.

You want a drink?
- Yes, please (chuckles).

- Okay.

- [Frank] April?

- Hi.
- Hello.

You look beautiful.

- [Bernice] Doesn't she?

- Uh, Frank, this is Bernice.

- I'm so glad to get to meet you.

- [Bernice] Thank you.

- I've enjoyed your show.

- Oh, you're lying.

You've never seen my show.

- I don't do a lot of lying.

- Well, that makes one of us.

- Hey, beautiful!

- His name is Ted.

I think he has the best ass

I've ever seen on a 50-year-old man.

- Hey.

- Hey.

- Oh, you must be April.

- Yes, it's nice to meet you.

This is Frank.

- Hello.
- A pleasure.

Shall we get some drinks?

- Absolutely.

- After you.

- No, please, after you.

(April laughs)

- Okay!

Everybody say, "Sake bomb!"

- [All] Sake bomb!

- Oh, my gosh!

- You're telling me!

- I love these.
- I knew I liked you.

- I don't drink like this.

- [Bernice] Well, tonight you do.

- Am I being too nice to her?

- No!
- Not nice enough?

- What do you mean?

- This is your mother.

Are you getting what you
want from me as your date?

- Oh, God, just that you asked.

You're perfect.

Thank God you're here!

- I am perfect, by the way.

I'm glad you noticed.

Just to get this in before
we're hopelessly drunk,

I'm so glad you called.

I know we're not ready,
but I love talking to you.

You move me.

This moves me, that you're
trying this with her.

I'm so glad I'm here.

(phone ringing)

- Oh!

God, I'm sorry!

- After he said something like that?

They should make those things illegal.

- I'm sure it's my brother.

I'm sure.

I'm sorry.

I just worry.

Sorry.

- Is it you?

- It's me.

- Oh.

Hello.

Hi.

- [Ben] Hi.

Sorry, hi.

- Everything all right?
- Yes.

- Who's that?
- No one.

I'm sorry, I'll be right back.

Hello?

- [Ben] Yeah, I'm here.

Hi.

- Hi.

- Hi.

- So, how are you?

- Well-
- Where are you?

- I'm nowhere special.

Decided to drift around for
awhile, you know, get lost.

Let the road take me
where it wants me to go.

- Just tell me.

- I'm at my mom's.

- That's perfect.

- Don't do that.

- What?
- Humiliate me.

Do you know the actual, physical
pain that that caused me?

- Why are you calling me?

- Because I miss you,

and I thought now that
some time has passed-

- It's been 23 days, you idiot!

You're ready to be my friend?

Well...

Okay, I'm glad I called.

Well, take care.
- My mom died.

- Did you just say-
- Talk to you later.

- Wait, when?

- 22 days ago.

- Why didn't you call me?

- Oh, I don't know,

I guess I just didn't
feel that close to you.

- I have to see you.

- [April] Oh, no, I'll end up
in bed with you and I'm not-

- I wanna be there.

- Really?

Do you promise to be
there for better or worse,

for richer and poorer,

in sickness-
- I miss you.

- How much?

- [Ben] A lot.

- Enough?

(gentle music)

That's what I thought.

Be a man and leave me alone!

- "For better or worse."

I'm gonna guess not your brother, right?

- No.

Oh, where are you going?

- [Frank] I think I'm leaving.

- Oh, please don't leave!

(playful music)

- Now, where you going?
- I'm not leaving.

- You just said you were leaving.

- I was then, now I'm not.

- But you're walking away.

- I have to do something.

- Okay.

Are we doing it yet?

- All right, look,

you were just talking to your husband

about for better or worse
and God knows what else,

and I just, I feel...

(Frank groans)

Fuck!

And when I feel this way,

I find it helps to take my
"(groans) fuck" out for a walk,

so that's what I'm doing,
and you're not invited.

But I will say this, this is a first date,

and if you're not done with
him who you're married to,

I mean if you're not...

If you two aren't done, it's fine.

It's more than fine.

Just tell me.

I'm not ready, anyway.
- Frank, I'm done with him.

- It's okay if you're not.
- But I am.

- It's okay if you're not.
- But I am.

- [Frank] How do I know?

- You're gonna have to trust me.

- You kidding me?

(April sighs)

- And it doesn't feel like
a first date, not to me.

- You wait until we try to say goodnight.

- [April] I'm sorry again,

and I had a wonderful time with you.

- I did, too.

See?

(April chuckles)

(crickets chirping)

- I haven't done this
for a long, long time,

so forgive me for not finding
a sexier way to put this,

but would you like to come in?

- [Frank] I can't.

- You can't?

- As if having a jealous girlie fit

on our first date wasn't
emasculating enough,

I have to get home to my kids.

They need their mum, and I'm it.

- That's not emasculating.

It's very sexy.

- How sexy?

(gentle music)
(both panting)

- You have a very nice house.

♪ She says wake up ♪

♪ It's no use pretendin' ♪

♪ I'll keep stealin', breathin' her ♪

♪ Birds are leavin' over autumn's ending ♪

♪ One of us will die inside these arms ♪

- What?

- You're looking at me.

- Of course I am.

- Of course you are.

♪ One will spread our
ashes round the yard ♪

(phone ringing)

(April groans)

(phone beeps)

Hello?

- [Bernice] Do you think
I should sleep with him?

- [April] Who is this?

- Why aren't you answering
your regular phone?

I called your regular phone.

- Because I'm not...

- Are you at his house?

- Um...

- Oh, that's fantastic!

That's just what you need,
a great rebound affair.

- I think it might

be more than just-
(Ruby sobbing)

Oh, God, I've gotta get outta here!

- [Bernice] No, I'm all for it!

- Talk to you later.

- Are you-
- What happened?

- Shh! Nothing.

Why are you in here?

- (sighs) I sleep in
here when I can't sleep.

- Oh.

I'm gonna go.

- Just lie down here with me.

- No, no, no!

I'm your son's teacher.

- No, 15 minutes, please, then you can go.

- Mm.

- I don't suppose we could-

- I'm going right now!
- I'm kidding! I'm kidding!

I wouldn't, even if you begged me.

It's possible I'm
falling in love with you.

So much for sleeping.

(April sighs)

Too much?

- No.

Maybe.

I don't know.

No.

- Good, 'cause it scared
the shit out of me.

(Ruby whimpering)

- [Ruby] Ow (whimpering).

- [April] Oh, God!

- Ow.
- All right, sweetie.

- Ow!
- All right, it's your ear.

Come on, sweetheart.

- Ow.
- I'm right here.

- Ow!
- I'm right here.

It's your ear acting up again.

- Ow!
- Jimmy Ray!

- Ow!
- Jimmy Ray,

I need you to wake up.

- Ow!
- Jimmy Ray,

Ruby's having her ear thing.

- Ow!
- I need you to go to my room

and get the flashlight by my bed.

Can you do that?

- Ow!
- All right, Daddy's here.

- Ow!
- Let's just have a look.

- Ow!
- Go on, quick as you can.

- Ow!
- Let's have a look, sweetie.

- Ow!
- I'm not gonna touch.

I'm just gonna lift your hair
up and we'll have a look.

- Miss Epner's here.
- Hi, how are ya?

- Ow!

- Miss Epner and I had a sleepover.

And now we're all gonna
go to the hospital,

so we can get something
- Ow, ow, ow!

- to make Ruby's ear feel better, okay?

- Ow, ow!
- Get your socks, buddy.

- Is there anything I can do?

Do you want me to lock up after you go?

- You're not coming?

- [Ruby] (sobbing) Ow.

Ow.
- Yes, I'm coming.

♪ She says if I leave
before you, darlin' ♪

♪ Don't you waste me in the ground ♪

♪ I lay smilin' like
our sleepin' children ♪

♪ One of us will die inside these arms ♪

♪ Eyes wide open ♪

- How are you?

- Better.

- That's a nice frog.

- You could have it.

- Seriously?

- I have another.

- Thank you.

- You wanna give me something?

- I have a mint.

(mellow music)

Can you excuse me just a second?

Okay.

(upbeat classical music playing)

Hello there.

- [Bernice] Hello (chuckles).

- Ciao, bella.

- Ciao.
- Champagne?

- I'll say.

- I'll have a ginger ale, please,

and some crackers, if you have any.

(waiter speaking in Italian)

- Ginger ale and crackers?

(April praying in Hebrew)

- What?

- Are you pregnant?

- (smirks) What?

No.

If I am, it would be a world's record.

I only slept with him last night.

Trust me, I am not pregnant.

I'm too old not to have a baby.

- Well, obviously you're
not too old to have a baby.

- No, I'm too old not to have a baby,

and this baby connects me forever to a man

who is that man you were talking about.

- What man?

- Who you know you'll
do whatever they say,

only he's not a man, he's a child really.

A baby? Oh, Jesus (sighs)!

- What are you doing?
- This helps me.

- Is it helping?

- Not really.

- April, allow me.

(gentle piano music)
(horns honking)

(water splashing)

(door closes)

Have a sip.

- I'm pregnant!

- (sighs) It's okay to
have a sip of red wine,

some doctors say it's good.

- Mm!

- What, are you nuts?

You're pregnant! Give me that.

Come here.

- Oh, that's okay, you
don't have to do that.

- Oh, I'm just sittin' here.

(water splashing)
(music continues)

(April chuckles)
(Bernice chuckles)

(gentle music)

He lives with his mother?

- [April] Don't get me started.

- Now, remember...

- What?

- I don't know.

Would your other mother

have said something helpful right now?

- You're doing really well.

(car door closes)

(door creaks)

Hi, Alice.

- Oh, hello, dear.

- Hello.

Uh, so, how are you?

- Well, you know, my back hurts.

- That's too bad.

So, Alice, can Benjamin come out and play?

- [Ben] Mom, let her in!

- Well, I don't know
what you two are up to.

- Hi. Sorry.

- Could you come out here?

- Yeah.

Who's that?

- A friend.

I'm pregnant.

- Oh!

Oh my God!
- Mm.

- Oh, my God! Is it, is it...

Wow!

Sweetie, wow!

Wow.

- Are you kidding me?

- What'd I do?

- Say something.

- What do you want me to say?

- I don't know.

What does it mean to you?

How do you wanna handle it?

What do we do now?

- Well-
- That sort of thing!

- I wanna try to be with you, I guess.

(April chuckles)

Well, I'm sorry if I didn't instantly

come up with a perfect solution

to this very complicated situation!

- It's not complicated!

I'm having this baby.

You may participate in
the raising of this baby.

I can't make you do it,

but I would hope that
you would wanna be there

for the growing up of this
person who carries your DNA!

The first doctor's
appointment is in two weeks.

I'll see you there, or I won't.

(dogs barking)
(car door closes)

I'm so sorry.

I've never met anyone like you, ever.

I've never been so much
myself with anyone,

even these few times we've
spent together have felt like...

- What?

- Family.

I'm sorry, but it has.

And I know it's fast, but I
can only tell you how I feel,

and how I feel is that I wanna
be near you all the time.

But I have some big decisions to make

about how my life's gonna work,

and if you'll have me, so do you.

- Why you talking fast?

- I don't think Jimmy Ray
should know that I'm here.

- Well, if we're gonna be family,

he should know he didn't dream

you up half-naked in his house.

And besides, he knows you're here.

- No he doesn't, I was very careful

to wait till he was a safe distance away.

- Hi, Miss Epner.

- Hi, Jimmy Ray.

- Do you wanna be with him,
the better or worse guy?

Is that someone you wanna be with?

Because if it is, by God-
- No, it's not.

- But if it is-
- But it's not.

Truthfully, I wanna be with you.

But being with me is gonna
mean being with this.

- How pregnant are you?

- They said six weeks.

- Six weeks?

- That's what they said, six weeks today.

- We met six weeks ago today, actually.

- Mm.

- Which was the day he left.

You made love on the day we met?

- Ah.

Yeah.

Sorry.

What happened?

- Um, I've gotta take a walk.

- Really?
- Yes, really.

I'm on the brink of
asking you to be with me,

really, really be with me.

You, who have some other guy's...

Your husband's baby in your stomach,

your very beautiful stomach.

I've gotta take a walk.

- What about your kids?

- [Frank] What about them?

- Who's gonna watch them?
- You are.

(playful music)

The walk didn't work.

Your mother's here.
- No, she's not.

I told her to wait in the car.

- I'm just here if either of you need me.

- I can't stand the thought of it.

- Of me sleeping with my husband?

You slept with your wife,
at least twice, you know?

It's not like the most appetizing

thing I've ever imagined.

- No, of course it's not.

Hey.

You're pregnant.

- Yes, I am.

- Way to go.

- [Bernice] So now what?

- Both of them, or neither of them

will show up at the doctor's office.

All I know is, I'll be there.

(ultrasound machine beeping)

You don't know how to work a blender!

Take your hat off.

- Jeez!

- Hello.

- Hello.

- Hello.
- How are you?

- Hi.

- Hi.

- Hi.
- Hello.

- Hello.
- Hm.

Um...

(ultrasound machine beeping)

- Sorry.

- So, anyone else coming?

- No.
- No, no, this is...

- No, this is it.
- This is it.

- Uh, could you lower this, please?

- Oh my God.

- This looks really good.

I've seen a couple of these.

- [April] Where did she go?

- [Frank] She'll be back.

- Look at that.

(heartbeat thudding)

Oh my God.

- [Frank] Oh my God.

- [Ben] Oh my God.

- So, what exactly is-
- So, is that actually

the sound of-
- Sorry.

- No, I'm sorry, go ahead.
- No, go ahead.

- No, go ahead.

- He, or she just looks great.

(ultrasound machine beeps)

(April chuckles)

- [Frank] Can I have a look
at that before I have to run?

- Oh, that's great.
- She's beautiful.

We made a baby.

(April chuckles)
(gentle music)

You look pretty.

- It's the hormones.

- Whatever.

(music continues)

(Ben moaning)

- [April] Mm mm, mm mm.

Mm.

- Ah!

- [April] Ow!

- [Ben] In back?

- [April] Yeah.

(music continues)

(April moaning)
(Ben moaning)

- Oh!

Oh!

(gasping) Oh.

- Really?
- Uh huh.

Um...

(April grunting)

Um...

(Ben exhales)

- Anything?

- What?

- Do you have anything to say?

- Don't.

(sighs) I don't know what to say.

- Oh!

- See ya.

(rain pattering)

- I thought we were having
dinner after the show.

- I'm in trouble.

- Come with me.

Phew!

- Good afternoon, they're ready for you.

- We're gonna run late today.

- Okay.
- I'm panicking.

- [Bernice] Tell me.

- I sort of slept with my husband.

Well, almost.

- Oh!

Break-up sex, but it's kinda great, right?

- Don't.

Don't be glib about this.

I'm with a man who sees
me, really sees me,

and somehow still wants to be with me,

and I want him and I just blew it!

(phone ringing)

Oh, God, it's him!

- I don't suppose you've cheated before.

- Hm mm.

- [Bernice] Of course not.

- With someone who's bad for me.

What am I gonna do?

Here's what we're going to do.

I'm going to go in and rehearse,

so that everyone knows what they're doing,

and then I'm going to send everyone home,

and we're going to shoot the show tonight,

or in a couple of hours,
or maybe never, okay?

- Thank you.
- Mm, okay.

- Edie, I have to tell you,
Sunday nights are about the...

- A good question.

Shall we make gay marriage a
priority during this election,

or should we just not take the bait?

- If Pam dies, what
happens to our daughter?

I have no rights.

It's very scary.
- Oh, thank you.

- [Woman] It's very scary.

- At least I'm not one
of those insular gay men,

who throws himself into his work,

and devotes himself to people

who can never love him back romantically.

- Now, what we want to ask you is,

do you think it's right-
(tape rewinding)

- It's so hard for anyone to meet someone.

- Have you ever seen
the show she did on you?

- I can't be around people
who have adopted children.

Especially girls.

- [Bernice] Have you
ever tried to find her?

- Endlessly.

On the Internet.

Um, I put ads in the paper.

- Do you feel haunted?

- [Blonde Woman] Yes.

- Whenever there are kids around,

I am always looking for her face.

In shopping malls, in the parks.

- I have something I want to say.

I hadn't planned on doing this,

but hearing you speak, it's
just something I have to do.

I had a child that I gave up for adoption.

It was many, many years ago.

I was very young.

I tried, God knows,

but the year I spent with
that child was the scariest,

most darkly miserable time of my life.

One minute you're
cuddling in a sleeping bag

and the next minute,

you find out that you ruined
the rest of your life.

- Can you rewind this?
- To the beginning?

- Um, no, just a little.

(tape rewinding)

- [Bernice] I tried, God
knows, but the year I spent

with that child was the scariest,

most darkly miserable
- Go back again,

- time in my life.
- just five seconds.

- Are you sure?
- Yeah, in fact, I don't-

- Could you go one sentence back?

- [Alan] Should be looking at it.

(tape rewinding)

- But the year I spent with
that child was the scariest,

most darkly miserable time of my life.

Finally, I said uncle.

(rain pattering)

- Do you think you just hand it over?

You probably put it down somewhere,

and then the next people
come along and pick it up?

- Hey, can I find you some dry clothes?

(Bernice knocking)

(throat clears) You want me to get it?

- [Bernice] It's me!

- [Freddy] Maybe you'll feel
better if you talk to her.

- [Bernice] I can hear you in there.

Don't make me bang the door down.

- [Freddy] Hello.

- Hi.

I've seen your picture.

- She doesn't wanna see you right now.

- Too bad, I'm her mother.

- Maybe another day would be better.

Unless you say no, I'm
gonna leave you guys alone

to have a private conversation.

- [Bernice] She's afraid to
be left alone with her mother?

- I'm not afraid to be left alone.

I'll be on my beeper if you need me.

- Alan had no right-

- Are you capable of telling the truth?

- I was 15 years old.

That's a little bit older

than some of the kids in your school.

Your father disappeared.

My father completely
turned his back on me.

- Was I breast feeding?

- My mother said I'd ruined my life.

They threw me out!

I had a bag of clothes and 48 dollars.

I didn't know if rent was $6 or $600!

I didn't know how to open
a fucking can of soup!

You wouldn't stop crying.

- I get it.

I watched the tape.

So did millions of other people.

Well, not millions.

How many people watch your show anyway?

- (sighs) Did you see on the tape

that I went to my father with
his grandchild in my belly,

and begged him for help,
and that he turned me away?

Did you see that I never forgave him,

that I didn't even go to his funeral?

You just saw the parts
that made me look bad.

(sighs) I thought it was for the best!

Like an idiot, I thought
it was for the best,

and then it was too late!

- Too late?

Like if you had it to do
over, it would be different?

You'd sacrifice your fabulous life

to sit there with a cranky,
moody kid who got sick?

A lot, by the way.

Sore throats, like on fire, 10 a year!

You'd sit up till six in the morning,

rubbing her down with alcohol,

because her fever's around 106,

and that's about the time
when if you miss the signs,

you got a brain-damaged kid
for the rest of your life?

You'd get this girl grown up just

to let her know that you
didn't love her enough?

Or the right way?

- Your mother wasn't perfect.

- She told me the truth.

She did her best.

She was there.

Just say you wanted a life
more than you wanted me.

- I wanted a life more than I wanted you.

- [Ben] Hello?

- Hi, it's me.

Listen, that's never gonna happen again.

- I really don't think it should.

- Good.
- I wanna help with all this.

- Okay.

Any thoughts on how?

- Uh...

- Wait.

Can you say that again,

the part about wanting to help?

- I really wanna help with all of this.

I really, really do.

- Thank you.

I want that, too.

- Jesus, I've been scared to death.

- Sorry.

- I imagined you dead on the roadside.

- Sorry.

- I imagined you dead in the
arms of a handsome stranger.

French guy, for some reason,

which I've gotta admit
was an even worse image.

- I meant-
- I said I'm sorry!

What?
- What's going on?

- Nothing.

- Something happen?
- No.

- What are you not telling me?

- What could I not be telling you?

- Well, I don't know, that you...

Perhaps you don't love me,
you made a horrible mistake,

and you wanna take the whole thing back.

- I do love you.

I don't wanna take the whole thing back.

Listen, some...

- I think he dropped something.

- You're taking a walk?

What about the kids?

- What do you care?
- I care.

- Clearly.

- I do.
- Go home!

Not my home, yours!

Go!

- I don't have one without you.

- [Frank] That's not my problem.

- What do you do on these walks, anyway?

- [Frank] You don't want to know.

- [April] Yes, I do.

- I say all the things I don't say to you,

all the things I spare you from.

- Like what?
- Like, go to hell!

Like, get your own children!

And like, what's the matter with you

that you don't have
children of your own anyway?

And like, what kind of
mother are you gonna be

if you can just walk out on your children

without a second thought?

- You know they're-
- What?

Not your children?

- It's just possible some of this

is what you wanted to say to your wife.

- Oh, really, you think so?

Do you understand I
can't even take a walk?

- It must be very-
- Go to hell!

I don't have to be with you,

I don't have to care for you
or this godforsaken baby!

- Don't say that!
- All I have to do,

is care for my children until

they're old enough to
do it for themselves.

I don't even have to like it, or them.

Fuck them,

and fuck you!

(door slams)

- So, how long have you guys been dating?

- Oh, not long.

We had a date tonight and she
works right down the street,

so we just decided to meet here.

- Cool.

(phone ringing)
(workers chattering)

- So, hello.

- [All] Hi.

- Great to see you.

- Great to see you.

- Great to see you all.
- Good to see you.

- [Doctor] And you are?

- [April and Freddy] Freddy.

- Freddy.
- Hi.

- Well, great.

Great.

- Oh, God, I'm her brother!
- He's my brother.

(April chuckles)

- [Doctor] Great.

So, shall we?

- Yes.

- And you're at?
- 10 weeks.

- [Doctor] 10 weeks.

- Have you seen these before?

My brother's a doctor.

- Yeah, I have.

- Can you tell us what we're seeing?

- [Doctor] Uh, just one moment, please.

- Any chance we can hear
that squishing sound again?

That has to be the best
thing I ever heard.

- What's happening?

What's happening?

- [Doctor] April,

I'm not seeing a heartbeat.

(somber music)

(Freddy singing in Hebrew)

- [Freddy] Amein.

Hello?

- Oh, amein.

- [Freddy] How often is she out there?

- She comes on Fridays a lot
because she knows I'm home.

- April,

adopt a baby.

- How could you?

- It's the same.

- How would you know?

- [Freddy] Maybe it's better.

- Trust me, you don't know
what it's like to be adopted.

- You don't know what it's
like to not be adopted!

Right?

(Freddy scoffs)

- What's it like?

- It was exhausting.

It was embarrassing sometimes.

Do you want me to bring
her out some chicken?

- You can.
- Why don't you?

- I would like to forgive her.

I'm tired of being so mad.

I've tried.

I can't.

- Make her buy you something.

- I beg your pardon?

- [Freddy] She's loaded.

Maybe it'll make you feel better.

- That's ridiculous.

- Make her buy me something.

A car.

Yours is on its last legs.

A house.

A very small house.

Make her buy something you
really want but can't afford.

(soft music)

- I'm here.
(Bernice exclaims)

- Jesus fucking Christ!

- Sorry.

- I mean, Jesus.

(Bernice sighs)

- How are you?

- Sick,

every day over what I did to you.

- Good.

I mean, I think that's probably good.

- Yeah, I guess so.

- I want you to make it up to me.

This is for me, you understand.

Not for you, for me.

I think I will be happier in the long run

if you try to make it up to me.

- Okay.

- I want you to buy me a baby.

- Oh, well, that's easy!

I'm plugged into all kinds
of adoption these days.

In China they're throwing them in the-

- No, I want you to buy me a
baby that I'm going to have.

I'm almost 40, so I don't have much time.

It's very expensive.

I want you to pay for it.

After they do it, I have
to lie still for two hours.

I hate lying still.

I want you to be there,
find ways to help me.

12 days later, I take a pregnancy test.

Five hours after that, I find out.

If you make one false move,

I'll never speak to you again.

If you don't, then maybe we can be

in each other's lives a little.

You understand that's all
that's possible right now,

a little.

- Can I put my pants on?

"Hair, average."

- As opposed to?

- Thin, thick, or balding.

"Artistic ability, none."

- None?

- None.

- Jesus.
- Mm.

"How would you describe yourself?

Hard working, intelligent, warm,

caring, sexy, and contemplative."

I'm keeping this one for me.

(bright music)

- [April] You need to just stick it.

- Thousands of Chinese girls-

- I'm not adopting a Chinese baby.

- Then bend over.

Is there anything I can do?

- [April] No.

- Are you ready?
- Mm hm.

- Do you wanna pray?

She does that, she prays.

Wanna say a little prayer or something?

- No.

- I'm so sorry to interrupt.

- What is the matter with you?

- Could you give us a minute?

- Bernice,

listen to me right now!
- I know, I'm sorry.

Just a minute.

- [Doctor] Just find us when you're ready.

We'll be around.

- What?

- Why don't you wanna pray?

- What do you care?

- I don't!

I don't give a shit, but you do!

You told me that.

You pray before you eat
a bowl of spaghetti!

And now, right before you
do the most important thing

you'll ever do in your life,

suddenly you're not interested?

- This is none of your business.

Get out of my way.

- Say a prayer with me and I will.

- I don't want to pray.

- One stupid little prayer.

- No.

Move!

- Maybe you just don't
want it badly enough.

- You have no idea how badly I want it.

- Then why won't you pray, why?

- Because I'm not gonna hand
this wish over to some...

Whatever it is who's
supposed to be loving, who...

Who...

I had faith (sobs).

- Oh.

- I thought God was good.

- (sighs) Maybe God is...

- What?

- Difficult.

Awful.

Complicated.

- Like me?

It took the one man on earth who's right

for me and I dropped him on his head.

- (chuckles) Right.

You did.

- [Doctor] How are we doing?

- We're done.

I'm sorry.

- [Doctor] No problem.

- Wait.

(April singing in Hebrew)

- [Bernice] What does that mean?

- [April] Hear, O Israel, the
Lord our God, the Lord is one.

- [Bernice] What does that mean?

- [April] Listen, O Israel,

the God of Love and the
God of Fear are one.

(soft music)

- Well.

Hello.

- Thank you for seeing me.

- Well, you're standing
between me and my front door,

so it's literally the least I could do.

I heard what happened.

I'm sorry I called the baby godforsaken.

- It turns out she was.

I miss you.

Do you miss me?

- What do you want, April?

- I wanna look at you,

for a long, long time.

- What else?

- There's a chance my life
may change in a few hours.

It may not, but it may.

And before it does, I
wanna say two things.

I know what I did to you.

To you in particular.

Like a worst nightmare
kind of thing, right?

I knew that.

Even at the time, I knew that.

- What else?

- I'll do it again.

I will.

I'll hurt you again and again.

Not like that.

You'd have to leave me
if I hurt you like that.

If we were together,

you would leave me if I hurt

you like that again, wouldn't you?

- Yes.

Yes, I would.

- Good.

But I'll hurt you in
other ways, little ways.

I won't mean to, but I will.

And sometimes, I will mean to.

- This is quite an offer you've worked up.

- You'll hurt me, too, you know?

You'll hurt me and change on me.

You might leave me after
you promise you won't.

How 'bout that?
- I wouldn't.

- Yeah, but you might.

- But I wouldn't!
- But you might.

- Yeah, I guess I might.

- [April] So?

- Oh, God!

- I know.

I'm sorry.

So?

(gentle music)

(water splashing)
(music continues)

- Just need to get that little wine glass.

- Hey, where's your dad?

I got her.

- I'll see you inside.

- [April] There is a Jewish story,

an ordinary Jewish joke.

A father was teaching his
little son to be less afraid,

to have more courage.

"Jump," he said, "And I'll catch you."

And the little boy trusted him,

and the little boy jumped.

And when his father caught him,

he felt filled with love.

And when he didn't,

he was filled with something
else, something more.

Life.

Amein.

(gentle music)
(seagulls squawking)

(soft music)

♪ I'm gonna let you down ♪

♪ I know that now ♪

♪ Make you cry, I know I will ♪

♪ And why should you believe ♪

♪ I would never leave ♪

♪ Or that I love you still ♪

♪ Rock-a-bye-and-bye ♪

♪ And hard as we try ♪

♪ The bow breaks and the cradle falls ♪

♪ For everything I do ♪

♪ That will tear into you ♪

♪ Let me say I'm sorry now ♪

♪ So you can sing our song ♪

♪ You can get it wrong ♪

♪ You can kiss the rock of ages ♪

♪ In your wildest dreams ♪

♪ You might see between ♪

♪ The liars and the sages ♪

♪ And you could walk awhile ♪

♪ Down the mystery mile ♪

♪ You could beat the drums of freedom ♪

♪ And in love and war ♪

♪ Through the rush and roar ♪

♪ You'll just call 'em like you see 'em ♪

(bright music)

♪ Oo, yeah baby ♪

♪ I want to feel my
earth turn over, baby ♪

♪ In this hardened winter ground ♪

♪ Feel my earth turn over, darlin' ♪

♪ Until' I'm rootless and unbound ♪

♪ I want to feel my body tremble ♪

♪ When there's no one else around ♪

♪ Just this cool, clear water runnin' ♪

♪ In this love that I've found ♪

♪ Hey, baby ♪

♪ See how it can be ♪

♪ Every time you reveal yourself to me ♪

♪ I'll come runnin' ♪

♪ And when I feel my baby callin' now ♪

♪ It's like a whisper in a sand ♪

♪ When the softest rain
is fallin', darlin' ♪

♪ I will crumble in your hand ♪

♪ And when all that's left is wonder ♪

♪ And no need to understand ♪

♪ Well, this cool, clear water runnin' ♪

♪ Will be all that I am ♪

♪ Hey, baby ♪

♪ Will be all that I am ♪

♪ All that I am ♪

(singer vocalizing)
(music continues)