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(somber music playing)
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(music continues)
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(man) Like we discussed yesterday,
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I really want you all to focus
on topic sentences more.
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Too many of you are rushing
into examples
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in your body paragraphs.
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It'd be good for everyone to review
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the paragraph structure pdf
I sent you
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a few weeks ago.
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I know these rules
can feel constraining.
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But remember,
the point of this course
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is to learn how to write
clearly and persuasively.
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That's how you can effectively
communicate your ideas.
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(message alert pings)
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(man chuckles)
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Chris, I imagine that was
supposed to be a private chat
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that you sent to the
whole class. Well done.
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And, yes, the camera on
my laptop still doesn't work.
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Believe me, you're not missing much.
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Oh, and for those of you who
still haven't given me paper three,
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I need it by Wednesday,
no exceptions.
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And remember,
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the more you revise
these essays, the better.
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(waves crashing)
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The more you change,
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chances are you'll express
your thoughts and ideas
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more clearly and persuasively.
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All right?
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(wave crashed loudly)
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(man grunts)
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(rain pattering)
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(groans)
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(heavy breathing)
(continues grunting)
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(men on video breathing heavily)
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(man grunts)
(stroking rapidly)
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Oh!
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(grunting)
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(grunting in pain)
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(grunting laboriously)
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(coughs, breathes heavily)
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(gasping and coughing)
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"Moby Dick... (wheezes) In the
amazing book, Moby..." (groans)
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(knock at door) Liz?
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(pants)
(knocking continues)
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Just use your key,
(wheezes) Open the door!
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(gasps) Oh, my god.
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Who are you? (groans in pain)
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Gosh, are you okay? Should I call
an ambulance? I should call an am...
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(men panting)
(continues groaning)
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Read this to me.
Do you have a phone?
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My phone's dead, I need to...
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Please just read it! Okay!
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(grunts) Okay.
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(groans)
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"In the amazing book, Moby Dick,
by the author, Herman Melville,
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"the author recounts his story
of being at sea.
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"In the first part of his book, the
author, calling himself ishmael,
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"is in a small seaside town,
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"and he is sharing a bed
with a man named Queequeg."
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What is this?
Why am I reading this?
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I need to...
Just read any of it!
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"And I felt saddest of all
when I read the boring chapters
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"that were only
descriptions of whales,
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"because I knew that the
author was just trying to save us
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"from his own sad story..."
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(gasping) Sad story.
"Just for a little while."
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Just for a little while.
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"This book made me think
about my own life... (wheezes)
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"And then it made me
feel glad for my..."
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(panting)
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Did that help? (sighs)
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Look, do you have a phone?
My phone is dead.
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I need to call an ambulance.
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You need help.
I don't go to hospitals.
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I can't help you, I don't...
I don't go to hospitals.
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I am sorry, um... You can go.
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Thank you for reading that to me.
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Are you sure you're okay?
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I'm sorry, who are you?
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Are you acquainted with
the gospel of Jesus Christ?
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What? I'm sharing
Christ's message of love,
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and I'm showing people...
(sighing) Oh.
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Think I should call my friend.
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She's a nurse, she takes care of me.
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Yeah. Yeah, I'll go.
Sorry to bother you. Wait.
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My phone fell under there,
can you...
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Yeah, sure.
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(sighs)
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(sighs) Here it is.
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(groans in pain)
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(man grunts)
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Hey, listen, I don't know
what's gonna happen
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in the next few minutes.
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If you don't mind,
could you... (grunts)
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Yeah. Yeah, of course.
Thank you.
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(phone line ringing)
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(automated voice speaking) It's
Liz. I'm not around. Leave a message.
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What was that thing
that you had me read to you?
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It's an essay.
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It's my job.
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I teach online college courses.
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But why did you have me
read it to you?
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Because I thought I was dying.
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And I wanted to hear it
one last time.
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(velcro rips)
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You should have called an ambulance.
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With no health insurance?
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Being in debt
is better than being dead.
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What's wrong with you?
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Why is there a missionary here?
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Someone left the door unlocked.
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I left after
you fell asleep earlier,
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I must've forgotten.
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Good thing, too.
If I hadn't, you might have...
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Liz, I don't like it when you...
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Okay, okay.
I just hate the thought
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of you being sealed up in
this place when I'm not here.
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(pumping sphygmomanometer
bulb) Now shut up, I'm trying to...
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(releases pressure)
(air hissing)
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What? Hush.
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Tell me what you felt.
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Pain, in my chest.
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Hard to breathe.
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I couldn't intake air.
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(rips velcro)
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How are you sleeping?
I'm not, really.
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Lean forward.
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(sighs)
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(man wheezes)
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You're wheezing.
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I always wheeze, Liz.
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You're wheezing more.
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Deep breath.
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(breathes deeply with difficulty)
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That hurt?
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What was my blood pressure?
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Two-hundred and thirty-eight
over 134.
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(chuckling) Oh.
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Yeah. "Oh."
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(sighs)
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Hey, could you...
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I haven't been to the bathroom
all day, I'm ready to explode.
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(grunts)
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(exhales deeply)
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(draws curtain)
(light switch clicks)
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(trash can lid closes)
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(sighs)
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(man grunts)
Liz: You need help in there?
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(man) No, I'm fine. Sorry.
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What are you sorry about?
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I'm sorry. I don't know.
Just sorry.
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(missionary) I should go.
Liz: Thank you.
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You must be from new life.
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You know Doug,
from the church council?
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Yeah, I think so?
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I'm not entirely sure.
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I'm sort of new here, so...
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He's my dad.
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Doug and Cindy adopted me
when I was a baby.
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Oh, that's great.
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I've never seen you there
before, but,
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again I'm sort of new, so...
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(sighs) Fucking hate new life.
Oh.
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My dad forced me to go
when I was a kid.
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It was awful, growing up with
all that "end times" bullshit.
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(sighs) You're young.
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Why the hell
would you want to believe
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that the world is about to end?
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I believe that when Christ returns,
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it's gonna be beautiful.
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Look, you can go.
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I know Charlie appreciates the help,
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but if you're here to convert him...
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Oh, we don't convert,
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our message is a message of hope
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for people of all...
Liz: People of all faiths.
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I know. You're sweet.
(clicks lighter) But...
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(sighs)
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Believe me, he doesn't want
to hear about new life.
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Why?
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Because it's caused him
a lot of pain.
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How?
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It killed his boyfriend.
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(toilet flushes)
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You're saying the church...
(sighs)
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Killed Charlie's boyfriend, yes.
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And I should add that new life
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has caused me a lot of pain
in my life.
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So, we don't need you
coming over here,
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especially not now, not this week.
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Why?
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Because he probably
won't be here next week.
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Where's he going?
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I'm sorry you had to come over, Liz.
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No, it's okay.
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I'm sorry that I
always think I'm dying.
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Charlie, your blood pressure
is 238 over 134.
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I'm sorry. Go to the hospital.
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I'm sorry.
Stop saying you're sorry.
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Go to the hospital.
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You have congestive heart failure.
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If you don't go to the hospital,
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you'll be dead by the weekend.
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(sternly) You will die.
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Charlie: Well, then,
I better get to work
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because I have a lot
of essays this week.
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God damn it!
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I know. I'm sorry,
I'm an awful person. I know.
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I'm sorry.
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(grunts, pants)
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Did you still want to hear about
Christ's message of love and salvation?
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No, he does not!
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(missionary) Okay. Okay.
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I'll go.
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I still don't understand
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why you had me read
that essay to you.
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It's a really good essay.
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Liz: Goodbye. (closes door)
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Charlie, you have to go to the
hospital. This has gone way too far.
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And rack up tens of thousands
of dollars in hospital bills
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I'll never be able
to pay back, ever.
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This affects me too, you know?
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You're my friend.
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I know.
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I'm sorry.
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You say you're sorry one more time,
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I will shove a knife right
into you, I swear to god!
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Go ahead, what's it gonna do?
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My internal organs
are two feet in, at least.
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(laughing)
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(coughs)
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(whimpers playfully)
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I've been telling you
this would happen.
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(sighs) I know.
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Haven't I been telling you?
You have.
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(newscaster 1) A new
gop presidential primary.
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However, they say absentee ballots
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are the lowest they've
seen in recent history.
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(newscaster 2) That's not good.
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(newscaster 3) No, it's not.
Get out and vote tomorrow.
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If you want to vote
in the republican primary.
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Our current polls do show,
among Republicans, ,
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30% favor trump... Liz.
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(newscaster 3) Senator Ted Cruz,
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17% would vote for
Florida senator Marco Rubio,
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and 5% for Ohio governor
John Kasich.
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Liz.
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(newscaster 3) For
someone else, if they could.
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Below a percent
that just don't know.
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(newscaster 1) Meanwhile,
Vermont senator Bernie Sanders
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is expected to win the gem
state on the Democratic side...
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Please.
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(newscaster 1 continues
indistinctly)
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Thank you.
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(crunching)
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(laughter on TV)
259
00:13:45,115 --> 00:13:47,379
Oh, I've seen this one, it's good.
260
00:13:47,414 --> 00:13:49,216
(indistinct TV chatter)
261
00:13:53,024 --> 00:13:54,650
(rain pattering)
262
00:13:56,027 --> 00:13:58,027
(indistinct TV chatter)
263
00:14:00,526 --> 00:14:02,493
(Charlie chokes, coughs)
264
00:14:03,364 --> 00:14:05,595
(coughing)
265
00:14:10,635 --> 00:14:12,074
(remote clicks)
(TV switches off)
266
00:14:15,343 --> 00:14:16,474
(breathes deeply)
267
00:14:19,644 --> 00:14:21,919
(soft music playing)
268
00:14:38,267 --> 00:14:42,302
Charlie:In the first part
of his book, the author,
269
00:14:44,273 --> 00:14:46,009
calling himself ishmael,
270
00:14:47,045 --> 00:14:52,444
is in a small seaside town
271
00:14:54,250 --> 00:14:55,381
and he is
272
00:14:57,451 --> 00:15:00,716
sharing a bed with a man
273
00:15:02,555 --> 00:15:04,060
named Queequeg.
274
00:15:08,396 --> 00:15:11,397
The author and Queequeg
go to church,
275
00:15:12,400 --> 00:15:15,071
and later, they set out on a ship
276
00:15:15,106 --> 00:15:16,567
captained by the pirate named
277
00:15:18,340 --> 00:15:19,405
Ahab,
278
00:15:22,245 --> 00:15:24,410
who is missing a leg,
279
00:15:24,445 --> 00:15:27,281
and very much wants
to kill the whale
280
00:15:29,549 --> 00:15:31,351
which is named Moby Dick,
281
00:15:32,453 --> 00:15:33,584
and which is white.
282
00:15:35,060 --> 00:15:37,456
In the course of the book,
283
00:15:37,491 --> 00:15:40,096
the pirate Ahab encounters
many hardships.
284
00:15:41,264 --> 00:15:44,397
His entire life is set around
285
00:15:44,432 --> 00:15:47,037
trying to kill a certain whale.
286
00:15:47,072 --> 00:15:48,731
I think this is sad
287
00:15:48,766 --> 00:15:49,699
(grunts)
288
00:15:49,734 --> 00:15:53,142
Because the whale
doesn't have any emotions.
289
00:15:55,311 --> 00:15:56,475
(grunts)
290
00:15:56,774 --> 00:15:58,015
He's just
291
00:15:59,381 --> 00:16:00,710
a poor, big animal.
292
00:16:03,220 --> 00:16:07,684
And I feel bad for Ahab as well
293
00:16:09,358 --> 00:16:10,720
(grunts)
294
00:16:10,755 --> 00:16:16,231
Because he thinks
that his life will be better
295
00:16:16,266 --> 00:16:19,399
if he can just kill this whale.
296
00:16:22,602 --> 00:16:24,734
But in reality,
297
00:16:25,374 --> 00:16:26,374
(grunts)
298
00:16:28,212 --> 00:16:29,574
It won't help him at all.
299
00:16:31,578 --> 00:16:34,117
This book made me think
300
00:16:35,186 --> 00:16:36,317
about my own life.
301
00:16:39,817 --> 00:16:42,290
This book made me think
about my own life.
302
00:16:42,325 --> 00:16:45,359
(ocean waves crashing)
303
00:16:45,394 --> 00:16:49,297
(softly) This book made
me think about my own life.
304
00:17:38,777 --> 00:17:39,777
(sighs)
305
00:17:46,356 --> 00:17:47,652
(exhales)
306
00:17:50,195 --> 00:17:51,326
(typing)
307
00:18:02,537 --> 00:18:04,273
(typing)
308
00:18:18,619 --> 00:18:19,750
(sighs)
309
00:18:20,951 --> 00:18:22,654
(typing)
310
00:18:35,900 --> 00:18:36,932
(exhales)
311
00:18:56,393 --> 00:18:58,360
(wrapper crinkling)
312
00:19:00,628 --> 00:19:02,199
(bird chirps)
313
00:19:04,863 --> 00:19:06,302
(chirps)
314
00:19:20,516 --> 00:19:21,779
(sighs heavily)
315
00:19:48,379 --> 00:19:49,873
(line rings)
316
00:19:50,876 --> 00:19:53,250
(clears throat)
(line connects)
317
00:20:30,652 --> 00:20:31,783
(knock at door)
318
00:20:34,986 --> 00:20:36,920
(chuckles quietly)
319
00:20:36,955 --> 00:20:38,559
Does this mean
now I'm gonna get fat?
320
00:20:39,628 --> 00:20:42,530
(grunts) No, it doesn't.
321
00:20:43,665 --> 00:20:44,994
I was always big.
322
00:20:45,029 --> 00:20:46,061
I just...
323
00:20:46,965 --> 00:20:48,470
I let it get out of control.
324
00:20:49,902 --> 00:20:51,374
(Charlie exhales)
325
00:20:53,444 --> 00:20:56,709
So, was your mom okay
with you coming over here?
326
00:20:57,679 --> 00:20:58,810
I didn't tell her.
327
00:21:01,848 --> 00:21:03,320
Charlie: It's really good
to see you.
328
00:21:05,456 --> 00:21:06,554
You look beautiful.
329
00:21:09,526 --> 00:21:10,723
So, how's school?
330
00:21:11,561 --> 00:21:13,363
You're a senior, right?
331
00:21:13,398 --> 00:21:14,793
You actually care?
332
00:21:14,828 --> 00:21:16,828
Well, of course I care.
333
00:21:16,863 --> 00:21:18,533
I pester your mom for information
334
00:21:18,568 --> 00:21:19,848
as often as she'll give it to me.
335
00:21:21,901 --> 00:21:23,032
(Charlie exhales)
336
00:21:25,773 --> 00:21:26,773
Um...
337
00:21:28,446 --> 00:21:30,776
So... (grunts)
338
00:21:30,811 --> 00:21:33,383
Why are you...
I mean, don't you have school?
339
00:21:33,418 --> 00:21:34,846
Got suspended this morning.
340
00:21:35,585 --> 00:21:36,585
Oh.
341
00:21:37,422 --> 00:21:38,588
Why?
342
00:21:38,623 --> 00:21:40,786
I posted something about
my stupid bitch lab partner
343
00:21:40,821 --> 00:21:43,052
that the vice principal said
was "vaguely threatening."
344
00:21:44,495 --> 00:21:45,725
(grunts)
345
00:21:46,827 --> 00:21:47,958
You don't like school?
346
00:21:47,993 --> 00:21:49,465
Only idiots like high school.
347
00:21:50,864 --> 00:21:53,370
But you're on track
to graduate, right?
348
00:21:55,198 --> 00:21:56,538
Counselor says I might not.
349
00:21:58,102 --> 00:21:59,376
I'm not worried.
350
00:22:00,907 --> 00:22:01,907
I'm a smart person.
351
00:22:02,810 --> 00:22:03,974
I never forget anything.
352
00:22:05,175 --> 00:22:06,911
High school is just bullshit.
353
00:22:06,946 --> 00:22:08,814
But, Ellie, it's important.
354
00:22:08,849 --> 00:22:09,893
If you don't graduate, then...
355
00:22:09,917 --> 00:22:11,757
Are you actually trying
to parent me right now?
356
00:22:12,820 --> 00:22:14,523
No, I'm... sorry.
357
00:22:14,822 --> 00:22:16,591
I just...
358
00:22:16,626 --> 00:22:19,226
I just thought that maybe we could
spend some time with each other.
359
00:22:19,695 --> 00:22:20,935
I'm not spending time with you.
360
00:22:21,697 --> 00:22:22,697
You're disgusting.
361
00:22:28,165 --> 00:22:30,033
Well, I'm a lot bigger than I was
362
00:22:30,068 --> 00:22:31,145
since last time you saw me.
363
00:22:31,169 --> 00:22:33,707
Ellie: No, I'm not talking
about what you look like.
364
00:22:33,742 --> 00:22:35,662
You'd be disgusting
even if you weren't this fat.
365
00:22:36,877 --> 00:22:38,844
You'd still be
that piece-of-shit dad
366
00:22:38,879 --> 00:22:40,359
who walked out on me
when I was eight.
367
00:22:41,684 --> 00:22:43,684
All because he wanted to fuck
one of his students.
368
00:22:43,719 --> 00:22:44,751
Can I have one of these?
369
00:22:46,183 --> 00:22:47,183
Yeah.
370
00:22:50,825 --> 00:22:52,495
Look, it's...
It's been a long time.
371
00:22:52,530 --> 00:22:53,991
I just thought that maybe
372
00:22:55,258 --> 00:22:56,730
we can get to know each other.
373
00:22:58,569 --> 00:22:59,809
I don't even know why I'm here.
374
00:23:00,670 --> 00:23:01,670
I can pay you.
375
00:23:06,544 --> 00:23:08,203
You want to pay me
to spend time with you?
376
00:23:08,238 --> 00:23:10,238
And I can help you with your work.
377
00:23:10,273 --> 00:23:12,009
It's what I do for my job.
378
00:23:13,782 --> 00:23:15,078
I can help you pass your classes.
379
00:23:16,785 --> 00:23:18,818
You teach online? Yes.
380
00:23:18,853 --> 00:23:20,622
Your students know
what you look like?
381
00:23:20,657 --> 00:23:22,558
I keep the camera shut off.
382
00:23:22,593 --> 00:23:24,021
Yeah, that's probably a good idea.
383
00:23:31,162 --> 00:23:33,202
My counselor says that if I
show a lot of improvement
384
00:23:33,230 --> 00:23:34,636
in one subject,
385
00:23:34,671 --> 00:23:35,791
I might be able to graduate.
386
00:23:36,904 --> 00:23:39,168
You can rewrite these essays
for English.
387
00:23:39,203 --> 00:23:40,741
They have to be really good, though.
388
00:23:44,582 --> 00:23:45,911
Well, look, um...
389
00:23:45,946 --> 00:23:47,715
I don't know if I should
write them for you,
390
00:23:47,750 --> 00:23:48,826
but I can work with you on them.
391
00:23:48,850 --> 00:23:49,981
How much can you pay me?
392
00:23:51,116 --> 00:23:52,082
Everything I have.
393
00:23:52,117 --> 00:23:54,491
All the money I have
in the bank. How much?
394
00:23:56,627 --> 00:23:59,892
$120,000? Something
like that. I'd have to check.
395
00:24:01,599 --> 00:24:02,895
I never go out.
396
00:24:02,930 --> 00:24:06,063
All I pay for is food,
rent, Internet.
397
00:24:06,835 --> 00:24:08,538
And I work all the time.
398
00:24:09,904 --> 00:24:11,144
And you'd give all of it to me?
399
00:24:12,610 --> 00:24:13,610
Not to my mom, to me?
400
00:24:15,239 --> 00:24:17,239
Yes. Just...
401
00:24:18,308 --> 00:24:19,813
Don't tell your mom,
402
00:24:20,244 --> 00:24:21,244
all right?
403
00:24:22,884 --> 00:24:26,787
And maybe you could do
some writing just for me.
404
00:24:27,592 --> 00:24:28,888
Why?
405
00:24:28,923 --> 00:24:31,726
Because you're a smart person.
406
00:24:31,761 --> 00:24:33,860
And I bet you'd make
a strong writer.
407
00:24:36,095 --> 00:24:37,798
Plus, I'm a teacher.
I want to make sure
408
00:24:37,833 --> 00:24:39,668
you're getting something
out of this.
409
00:24:42,772 --> 00:24:45,069
(zips bag) I don't even
understand you.
410
00:24:56,016 --> 00:24:57,246
Stand up and walk over to me.
411
00:24:58,722 --> 00:24:59,853
What?
412
00:24:59,888 --> 00:25:01,723
Come over here. Walk toward me.
413
00:25:05,322 --> 00:25:07,091
No. No. Without this thing.
414
00:25:08,798 --> 00:25:10,699
Stand up and walk over here.
415
00:25:13,132 --> 00:25:14,571
Ellie, I can't really...
Shut up!
416
00:25:16,267 --> 00:25:17,640
Come over here.
417
00:25:23,274 --> 00:25:24,647
(Charlie sighs)
418
00:25:30,413 --> 00:25:31,720
(exhales heavily)
419
00:25:32,250 --> 00:25:33,250
(breathes deeply)
420
00:25:38,894 --> 00:25:40,729
(grunts with exertion)
421
00:25:40,764 --> 00:25:42,291
(grunts, groans)
422
00:25:42,931 --> 00:25:45,866
(panting)
423
00:25:48,233 --> 00:25:50,607
(huffing)
424
00:25:51,401 --> 00:25:54,204
(grunts)
425
00:25:58,342 --> 00:25:59,682
(Charlie yells)
426
00:26:00,179 --> 00:26:01,882
(groaning loudly)
427
00:26:03,017 --> 00:26:04,984
(groaning in pain)
428
00:26:09,155 --> 00:26:11,155
(panting)
429
00:26:13,324 --> 00:26:15,225
(dog barks outside)
430
00:26:21,068 --> 00:26:22,936
(whispering) "Celebrate my soul.
431
00:26:24,071 --> 00:26:25,774
"Sell my soul."
432
00:26:25,809 --> 00:26:26,973
(knock at door)
433
00:26:27,470 --> 00:26:28,711
(man) Gambino's!
434
00:26:29,472 --> 00:26:30,779
Yeah, you can, um...
435
00:26:31,914 --> 00:26:33,342
I put a $20 in the mailbox.
436
00:26:34,818 --> 00:26:35,850
(man) Sure.
437
00:26:39,449 --> 00:26:41,922
You can just leave it on the...
438
00:26:41,957 --> 00:26:44,188
(man) Yeah, I, uh... I remember.
439
00:26:46,324 --> 00:26:47,664
Everything okay in there?
440
00:26:52,297 --> 00:26:53,297
Yeah.
441
00:26:55,102 --> 00:26:56,134
(man) You sure?
442
00:26:56,939 --> 00:26:57,939
Yeah.
443
00:26:58,809 --> 00:26:59,841
I'm fine.
444
00:27:02,274 --> 00:27:03,274
Thank you.
445
00:27:05,244 --> 00:27:06,244
(metal clacks)
446
00:27:07,114 --> 00:27:08,718
(footsteps)
447
00:27:12,020 --> 00:27:13,118
(chuckles lightly)
448
00:27:20,358 --> 00:27:21,797
(car engine starts)
449
00:27:46,956 --> 00:27:48,791
Breathe slowly. (device beeps)
450
00:27:48,826 --> 00:27:50,122
(inhales)
451
00:27:50,157 --> 00:27:51,189
Relax.
452
00:27:51,224 --> 00:27:52,323
(exhales)
(device beeps)
453
00:27:52,359 --> 00:27:55,490
It measures perspiration.
It's an indicator of stress.
454
00:27:55,525 --> 00:27:56,942
It's about establishing
a relationship
455
00:27:56,966 --> 00:27:58,207
between your brain and your body.
456
00:27:58,231 --> 00:27:59,769
If you know
how to make yourself calm,
457
00:27:59,804 --> 00:28:00,946
then your blood pressure will...
458
00:28:00,970 --> 00:28:03,036
(device beeps) Here.
459
00:28:03,071 --> 00:28:05,071
I don't need a little machine
to tell me
460
00:28:05,106 --> 00:28:07,535
to take a few deep breaths
and stop sweating.
461
00:28:07,570 --> 00:28:09,911
Well, apparently, you fucking do.
462
00:28:09,946 --> 00:28:12,540
(device beeps)
Take another deep breath.
463
00:28:12,575 --> 00:28:15,246
(breathes deeply)
(device beeps)
464
00:28:15,281 --> 00:28:16,346
Thank you.
465
00:28:18,317 --> 00:28:19,921
(Charlie exhales deeply)
466
00:28:19,956 --> 00:28:22,187
(Liz sighs)
467
00:28:22,222 --> 00:28:26,290
We're just gonna try some
different methods, or whatever.
468
00:28:26,325 --> 00:28:29,931
If you refuse to go to
the hospital, then you'll...
469
00:28:31,066 --> 00:28:32,131
I don't know.
470
00:28:40,240 --> 00:28:41,404
Where'd this come from?
471
00:28:41,439 --> 00:28:42,944
(device continues beeping)
472
00:28:46,411 --> 00:28:47,411
Hey.
473
00:28:50,855 --> 00:28:51,855
Was she here?
474
00:28:55,057 --> 00:28:57,057
No, I don't like this.
475
00:28:57,092 --> 00:28:59,224
This isn't a good idea.
476
00:28:59,259 --> 00:29:01,193
You know you're not supposed
to be around her.
477
00:29:02,493 --> 00:29:03,833
Does her mom know about this?
478
00:29:03,868 --> 00:29:05,263
I just wanted to see her.
479
00:29:05,298 --> 00:29:07,298
Mary has kept her from me
all this time.
480
00:29:07,333 --> 00:29:10,004
Why do you suddenly need
to see her so bad, why now?
481
00:29:10,039 --> 00:29:11,039
Liz.
482
00:29:14,978 --> 00:29:16,076
(Liz sighs)
483
00:29:18,212 --> 00:29:20,080
Why the hell do you have
her homework, anyway?
484
00:29:20,984 --> 00:29:24,480
Look, I didn't plan for this.
485
00:29:24,515 --> 00:29:26,218
She needs some help at school,
486
00:29:26,253 --> 00:29:28,583
so I'm gonna help her
with a few essays.
487
00:29:28,618 --> 00:29:29,751
(Liz scoffs)
488
00:29:29,786 --> 00:29:31,861
You haven't seen her since
she was eight years old,
489
00:29:31,896 --> 00:29:33,005
and you're gonna reconnect with her
490
00:29:33,029 --> 00:29:34,589
by doing her homework for her?
491
00:29:34,624 --> 00:29:36,129
It's fine. It's not fine.
492
00:29:39,002 --> 00:29:40,962
She shouldn't be around you
when you're like this.
493
00:29:42,104 --> 00:29:44,632
What if something happens,
what if you need help?
494
00:29:44,667 --> 00:29:46,172
(device beeping rapidly)
495
00:29:46,207 --> 00:29:47,371
Charlie, calm down.
496
00:29:48,374 --> 00:29:50,044
Hey. No. (beeping stops)
497
00:29:52,576 --> 00:29:54,015
Okay. Forget it, then.
498
00:29:55,315 --> 00:29:57,348
I'm worried about her. Why?
499
00:30:00,089 --> 00:30:01,550
Oh, you're spying on her now?
500
00:30:03,290 --> 00:30:05,158
It doesn't look
like she has any friends.
501
00:30:09,329 --> 00:30:10,361
I don't think this is...
502
00:30:15,170 --> 00:30:17,335
(Charlie scoffs)
Come on, a dead dog?
503
00:30:23,948 --> 00:30:25,409
I'm worried that she's forgotten
504
00:30:25,444 --> 00:30:27,279
what an amazing person she is.
505
00:30:32,517 --> 00:30:34,352
She's just a teenager.
506
00:30:34,387 --> 00:30:36,420
Everyone is insane
when they're a teenager.
507
00:30:36,455 --> 00:30:37,354
When I was her age,
508
00:30:37,390 --> 00:30:39,126
when my dad
would really piss me off...
509
00:30:41,031 --> 00:30:43,271
I'm just lucky I didn't get
arrested, that's all I'll say.
510
00:30:46,531 --> 00:30:47,563
Point is,
511
00:30:49,567 --> 00:30:52,073
bringing her over here
is a bad idea.
512
00:30:52,108 --> 00:30:54,148
You have enough to deal with
right now, you hear me?
513
00:30:55,639 --> 00:30:57,276
Do not bring her over here again.
514
00:30:58,048 --> 00:30:59,146
Okay.
515
00:31:00,512 --> 00:31:01,512
Okay.
516
00:31:06,617 --> 00:31:09,123
It's not like she's alone,
you know. She has her mom.
517
00:31:15,197 --> 00:31:17,527
Liz: Ugh, shit.
I have to go soon.
518
00:31:19,003 --> 00:31:21,201
I hate these night shifts.
(utensils clacking)
519
00:31:21,236 --> 00:31:25,271
It's just a steady parade
of dumb, drunk college kids.
520
00:31:25,306 --> 00:31:26,503
(faucet runs)
521
00:31:27,605 --> 00:31:29,374
(laughing) Did I tell you
about this girl
522
00:31:29,409 --> 00:31:31,376
from a few nights ago? (gags)
523
00:31:31,411 --> 00:31:33,983
The puke was bright purple, I swear.
524
00:31:34,018 --> 00:31:36,447
(choking)
(Liz laughing)
525
00:31:36,482 --> 00:31:37,482
I mean, what is that?
526
00:31:37,517 --> 00:31:40,352
Why can't these kids
just drink beer? You know.
527
00:31:41,751 --> 00:31:44,059
Are you choking?
(continues choking)
528
00:31:44,094 --> 00:31:46,292
Oh, god! Okay, lean on that arm.
529
00:31:47,064 --> 00:31:48,064
Lean on that arm!
530
00:31:49,033 --> 00:31:50,395
Okay, I need you to rock with me.
531
00:31:51,233 --> 00:31:53,266
(grunts, chokes)
532
00:31:53,301 --> 00:31:54,630
(grunts, Charlie gasps)
533
00:31:55,567 --> 00:31:56,599
(Liz yells)
534
00:31:56,634 --> 00:31:59,008
(coughs, wheezes)
535
00:31:59,043 --> 00:32:01,703
(coughing, wheezing)
536
00:32:01,738 --> 00:32:03,738
(gasping)
537
00:32:04,774 --> 00:32:06,411
I'm okay. (gasps)
538
00:32:07,546 --> 00:32:11,350
I'm okay. (gasps)
539
00:32:11,385 --> 00:32:14,023
(shouts) God damn it, Charlie,
what is wrong with you?
540
00:32:14,058 --> 00:32:14,957
(hits)
541
00:32:14,993 --> 00:32:17,191
Chew your food
like a normal human being!
542
00:32:17,226 --> 00:32:19,127
You could have just died
right in front of me!
543
00:32:19,162 --> 00:32:20,162
I'm sorry.
544
00:32:21,230 --> 00:32:24,132
(Charlie whimpers and sobs)
545
00:32:26,235 --> 00:32:27,267
I'm sorry, Liz.
546
00:32:39,380 --> 00:32:40,412
(object clacks)
547
00:32:47,586 --> 00:32:48,717
(Liz exhales)
548
00:32:55,528 --> 00:32:56,528
It's okay.
549
00:33:20,619 --> 00:33:22,751
Charlie: I read through
some of the posts
550
00:33:22,786 --> 00:33:25,721
in the class discussion forum
this morning.
551
00:33:25,756 --> 00:33:28,262
In particular, a post
552
00:33:28,297 --> 00:33:32,530
about crafting a good thesis,
and I quote,
553
00:33:32,565 --> 00:33:34,730
"just pick a sentence
from the reading
554
00:33:34,765 --> 00:33:37,271
"and say, 'it's good, '
or some shit."
555
00:33:37,306 --> 00:33:40,340
Listen, at this point in the course,
556
00:33:40,375 --> 00:33:43,409
I have given you all that I can,
557
00:33:43,444 --> 00:33:46,775
in terms of structure,
building a thesis,
558
00:33:46,810 --> 00:33:48,414
paragraph organization.
559
00:33:49,615 --> 00:33:52,484
But if all of that isn't built
560
00:33:52,519 --> 00:33:55,355
on your own original ideas
and truthful analysis,
561
00:33:55,390 --> 00:33:56,686
it doesn't mean anything.
562
00:33:58,426 --> 00:34:00,624
Think about that
as you write and revise.
563
00:34:00,659 --> 00:34:03,297
Think about the truth
of your argument.
564
00:34:04,762 --> 00:34:08,731
I know this may sound silly,
but it's important.
565
00:34:10,372 --> 00:34:12,801
Promise, it's important.
566
00:34:16,411 --> 00:34:17,806
(bird chirping)
567
00:34:32,493 --> 00:34:34,559
(breathing heavily)
568
00:34:43,603 --> 00:34:44,635
(straining)
569
00:34:45,407 --> 00:34:46,571
(key clatters)
570
00:34:53,580 --> 00:34:56,350
(grunting softly)
571
00:35:04,954 --> 00:35:06,228
(key clacks)
572
00:35:07,924 --> 00:35:09,198
(claw clicks)
573
00:35:17,538 --> 00:35:19,505
(muttering indistinctly)
574
00:35:22,477 --> 00:35:23,608
(sighs)
575
00:35:31,882 --> 00:35:34,520
This is... (exhales)
576
00:35:34,555 --> 00:35:37,193
You say that Walt Whitman
wrote Song For Myself.
577
00:35:37,525 --> 00:35:38,722
Yeah?
578
00:35:38,757 --> 00:35:40,493
It's called Song Of Myself.
579
00:35:42,332 --> 00:35:43,364
My title's better.
580
00:35:45,533 --> 00:35:46,533
Yeah.
581
00:35:47,568 --> 00:35:48,568
Well...
582
00:35:49,504 --> 00:35:50,544
Okay, I'll just change it.
583
00:35:52,342 --> 00:35:54,705
"The poem Song Of Myself
584
00:35:54,740 --> 00:35:56,707
"is in a book
called Leaves Of Grass.
585
00:35:56,742 --> 00:35:58,412
"It was written by Walt Whitman
586
00:35:58,447 --> 00:36:00,612
"and was published in 1855.
587
00:36:00,647 --> 00:36:02,581
"He paid for the first
publication himself."
588
00:36:02,616 --> 00:36:05,617
You don't have to read it
out loud. Just rewrite it.
589
00:36:05,652 --> 00:36:07,685
You're supposed to analyze the poem.
590
00:36:07,720 --> 00:36:09,258
This is just a list of facts.
591
00:36:09,293 --> 00:36:11,458
Yup. Thank you, Wikipedia.
592
00:36:13,022 --> 00:36:14,725
(smacks lips)
593
00:36:14,760 --> 00:36:16,562
You know, it's really
an amazing poem.
594
00:36:16,597 --> 00:36:20,368
Whitman uses the metaphor
of "I" not to refer to himself,
595
00:36:20,403 --> 00:36:23,965
but to explode
the very definition of self
596
00:36:24,000 --> 00:36:26,473
in favor of a more
all-encompassing...
597
00:36:26,508 --> 00:36:27,804
I really, really don't care.
598
00:36:32,481 --> 00:36:34,801
You know, I think you might
like it if you actually read it.
599
00:36:35,847 --> 00:36:38,485
You're just like my teachers.
600
00:36:38,520 --> 00:36:40,883
You think just because I'm not
losing my shit over the poem,
601
00:36:40,918 --> 00:36:42,357
it's because I didn't read it.
602
00:36:42,392 --> 00:36:43,358
I did read it.
603
00:36:43,393 --> 00:36:46,020
It's overwritten, and dumb,
and repetitive.
604
00:36:46,055 --> 00:36:48,693
And even though he thinks
his metaphor of "I" is deep,
605
00:36:48,728 --> 00:36:50,596
it's actually
just a bunch of bullshit.
606
00:36:50,631 --> 00:36:51,564
And, in reality,
607
00:36:51,599 --> 00:36:54,831
he's just some worthless
19th century faggot.
608
00:36:57,374 --> 00:36:59,803
That's an interesting perspective.
609
00:36:59,838 --> 00:37:01,574
It would make
for an interesting essay.
610
00:37:03,974 --> 00:37:07,041
Just write that thing about
exploding the definition of self.
611
00:37:07,076 --> 00:37:08,515
My English teacher will love it.
612
00:37:13,082 --> 00:37:14,422
(Charlie sighs)
613
00:37:16,987 --> 00:37:19,823
So, how's your mom doing?
Oh, my god.
614
00:37:21,563 --> 00:37:23,838
Look, if you're not gonna write
these essays for me, then...
615
00:37:23,862 --> 00:37:27,600
Charlie: Ellie, I don't need you
here to write these essays for you.
616
00:37:27,635 --> 00:37:29,305
If you want to go, you can go.
617
00:37:30,638 --> 00:37:31,798
You can still have the money.
618
00:37:34,576 --> 00:37:36,906
I thought you wanted
to get to know me. I do,
619
00:37:36,941 --> 00:37:38,545
but I don't want
to force you to be here.
620
00:37:40,384 --> 00:37:41,449
It's up to you.
621
00:37:44,982 --> 00:37:45,982
(puts bag down)
622
00:37:47,556 --> 00:37:48,556
She's fine.
623
00:37:49,525 --> 00:37:50,623
Mom. I guess.
624
00:37:51,758 --> 00:37:54,022
She happy? When she drinks.
625
00:37:55,960 --> 00:37:58,565
You guys still live in that
duplex over on orchard?
626
00:37:59,667 --> 00:38:00,987
You don't even know where we live?
627
00:38:03,704 --> 00:38:04,715
You don't stay in touch with mom?
628
00:38:04,739 --> 00:38:08,377
Yeah, I check in with her
as often as she lets me.
629
00:38:08,412 --> 00:38:10,052
She really only tells me
things about you.
630
00:38:10,810 --> 00:38:12,073
Why?
631
00:38:12,108 --> 00:38:13,877
Because that's all
I want to know about.
632
00:38:20,149 --> 00:38:21,390
When I was 11,
633
00:38:21,425 --> 00:38:22,787
we moved to the other side of town,
634
00:38:23,658 --> 00:38:24,756
near the Walmart.
635
00:38:25,462 --> 00:38:26,462
Is your mother
636
00:38:27,563 --> 00:38:29,563
with anyone right now? No.
637
00:38:30,434 --> 00:38:32,126
Why, you interested?
638
00:38:32,161 --> 00:38:34,733
(chuckles) No, of course not.
639
00:38:42,644 --> 00:38:44,039
Why'd you gain all that weight?
640
00:38:44,074 --> 00:38:45,340
(inhales deeply) I don't...
641
00:38:45,376 --> 00:38:47,696
If you're gonna interrogate
me, I'm gonna do the same thing.
642
00:38:50,047 --> 00:38:51,287
Why'd you gain all that weight?
643
00:38:55,591 --> 00:38:58,955
Someone close to me
passed away, and it...
644
00:38:59,793 --> 00:39:01,991
It had an effect on me.
645
00:39:02,026 --> 00:39:03,026
Your boyfriend.
646
00:39:04,160 --> 00:39:06,864
My partner. Your student.
647
00:39:06,899 --> 00:39:09,031
He wasn't that young.
It was a night school course.
648
00:39:09,066 --> 00:39:10,106
Ellie: Oh, I remember him.
649
00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:12,749
You had him over for dinner once
650
00:39:12,773 --> 00:39:14,707
when mom was in Montana,
visiting grandma.
651
00:39:16,546 --> 00:39:17,644
You made steaks.
652
00:39:18,647 --> 00:39:20,141
The good kind.
653
00:39:20,176 --> 00:39:23,111
Better meal than you
ever made for me or mom.
654
00:39:23,146 --> 00:39:25,652
I remember hearing you
two talk after I went to bed.
655
00:39:28,954 --> 00:39:30,723
How do you remember all that?
656
00:39:30,758 --> 00:39:33,022
I told you, I never forget anything.
657
00:39:43,199 --> 00:39:44,199
How did he die?
658
00:39:46,202 --> 00:39:48,510
I... I don't... i'm...
659
00:39:48,545 --> 00:39:50,809
I really don't want
to talk about that right now,
660
00:39:52,076 --> 00:39:53,581
if that's all right with you.
661
00:39:58,654 --> 00:40:00,654
(cell phone keys clacking)
662
00:40:05,221 --> 00:40:06,693
I'll write these essays for you.
663
00:40:08,598 --> 00:40:11,764
I want you to do some writing,
just for me.
664
00:40:12,800 --> 00:40:14,635
I hate writing essays.
665
00:40:14,670 --> 00:40:16,230
Just think about the poem
for a while,
666
00:40:17,233 --> 00:40:18,233
and write something.
667
00:40:20,940 --> 00:40:22,841
Be honest.
668
00:40:22,876 --> 00:40:24,942
Tell me what you really think.
669
00:40:24,977 --> 00:40:26,680
You want me to write
what I really think?
670
00:40:28,178 --> 00:40:29,243
I'll be right back.
671
00:40:30,587 --> 00:40:32,620
Just write whatever you want.
672
00:40:35,218 --> 00:40:38,593
(Charlie groaning with exertion)
673
00:40:40,927 --> 00:40:42,025
(sighs heavily)
674
00:40:43,160 --> 00:40:45,600
(continues groaning)
675
00:40:45,635 --> 00:40:48,966
(breathing heavily)
676
00:41:21,638 --> 00:41:23,033
(water running)
677
00:41:25,642 --> 00:41:27,741
(suppressed sobbing)
678
00:41:28,337 --> 00:41:30,876
(muffled sobbing)
679
00:41:30,911 --> 00:41:32,746
(water continues running)
680
00:41:34,112 --> 00:41:36,585
Are you okay?
681
00:41:36,620 --> 00:41:38,257
Unless you're dying, there's
no way I'm going in there.
682
00:41:38,281 --> 00:41:39,819
(sniffles)
683
00:41:39,854 --> 00:41:42,085
(exhales) Oh, yeah.
I'm fine. I'm fine.
684
00:41:48,896 --> 00:41:50,698
(brid wings flapping)
685
00:41:58,840 --> 00:42:00,037
(knock at door)
686
00:42:01,271 --> 00:42:03,041
(water running)
(knocking continues)
687
00:42:06,914 --> 00:42:08,243
Hi.
688
00:42:08,278 --> 00:42:09,816
I was looking for Charlie?
689
00:42:10,412 --> 00:42:11,653
He's in the bathroom.
690
00:42:12,315 --> 00:42:13,721
Oh, I can come back.
691
00:42:19,124 --> 00:42:20,959
Are you his friend, or...
692
00:42:20,994 --> 00:42:22,290
I'm his daughter.
693
00:42:22,325 --> 00:42:24,831
Oh. Are you surprised?
694
00:42:25,834 --> 00:42:26,933
Yeah, I guess.
695
00:42:26,969 --> 00:42:28,945
What's more surprising?
That a gay guy has a daughter,
696
00:42:28,969 --> 00:42:30,606
or that someone
actually found his penis?
697
00:42:33,270 --> 00:42:34,270
I'm kidding.
698
00:42:35,338 --> 00:42:36,370
Jesus.
699
00:42:37,307 --> 00:42:38,506
Um...
700
00:42:38,542 --> 00:42:41,375
Charlie was interested in
hearing more about my church,
701
00:42:41,410 --> 00:42:42,276
and I brought some literature...
702
00:42:42,311 --> 00:42:44,983
Are you mormon?
No, I'm from new life.
703
00:42:45,018 --> 00:42:47,689
Oh. That end times cult thing.
704
00:42:47,724 --> 00:42:49,658
(pours juice) It's not a cult.
705
00:42:49,693 --> 00:42:51,396
Tell you one thing
that I like about religion.
706
00:42:51,420 --> 00:42:52,859
What I like about religion
707
00:42:52,894 --> 00:42:54,993
is that it assumes
that everyone is an idiot
708
00:42:55,028 --> 00:42:56,973
and that they're all incapable
of saving themselves.
709
00:42:56,997 --> 00:42:58,700
I think they got
something right with that.
710
00:42:58,735 --> 00:42:59,866
I don't think like that...
711
00:42:59,901 --> 00:43:01,736
What I don't like about religion
712
00:43:01,771 --> 00:43:04,200
is that when people
accept Jesus or whatever,
713
00:43:04,235 --> 00:43:05,872
they suddenly think
that they're better
714
00:43:05,907 --> 00:43:06,984
than everyone else.
(Charlie grunting)
715
00:43:07,008 --> 00:43:09,172
By accepting the fact
that they're stupid sinners,
716
00:43:09,207 --> 00:43:12,406
somehow they've become better,
and they turn into assholes.
717
00:43:14,982 --> 00:43:16,223
I don't really know what to say.
718
00:43:16,247 --> 00:43:18,214
I have some pamphlets
that I think would...
719
00:43:18,249 --> 00:43:20,084
(camera clicks)
Why did you just do that?
720
00:43:20,119 --> 00:43:21,789
Are you coming back tomorrow?
721
00:43:21,824 --> 00:43:23,219
I'm not sure...
Come back tomorrow.
722
00:43:23,254 --> 00:43:25,254
I'll be here around the same time.
723
00:43:25,289 --> 00:43:26,893
I'm sorry, what's happening?
724
00:43:27,456 --> 00:43:28,829
(camera clicks)
725
00:43:29,293 --> 00:43:30,864
Oh!
726
00:43:30,899 --> 00:43:32,833
Hi. I was just coming over
727
00:43:32,868 --> 00:43:34,043
to share these pamphlets with you.
728
00:43:34,067 --> 00:43:35,427
You'll have those done by tomorrow?
729
00:43:36,036 --> 00:43:37,036
Sure.
730
00:43:37,807 --> 00:43:39,136
Five-page minimum.
731
00:43:39,171 --> 00:43:40,401
It'll be good, I promise.
732
00:43:43,747 --> 00:43:45,340
I'm Ellie. Thomas.
733
00:43:46,211 --> 00:43:48,277
(breathes heavily)
734
00:43:49,346 --> 00:43:50,686
(slams door shut)
735
00:43:54,285 --> 00:43:55,318
So...
736
00:43:55,353 --> 00:43:57,924
Christ's return has been
promised for centuries.
737
00:43:57,959 --> 00:43:59,332
But there are a lot
of clues in scripture
738
00:43:59,356 --> 00:44:00,522
that suggest it's imminent.
739
00:44:00,557 --> 00:44:02,929
So, that means we don't
have time to deny the gospel,
740
00:44:02,964 --> 00:44:04,139
we don't have...
Do you really think
741
00:44:04,163 --> 00:44:06,361
that the world's gonna end soon?
742
00:44:06,396 --> 00:44:08,374
Well, the Bible says
that no one shall know the day
743
00:44:08,398 --> 00:44:09,903
or the hour, but,
744
00:44:09,938 --> 00:44:11,858
yeah, I think we're probably
living in end times.
745
00:44:12,534 --> 00:44:13,940
And that doesn't bother you?
746
00:44:13,975 --> 00:44:15,337
No. It's the idea
747
00:44:15,372 --> 00:44:18,010
that a better world is coming
to replace this one.
748
00:44:18,045 --> 00:44:20,408
That everything terrible
about this country,
749
00:44:20,443 --> 00:44:22,278
this planet,
is gonna be wiped clean,
750
00:44:22,313 --> 00:44:25,182
and replaced with something
pure and holy, and...
751
00:44:25,217 --> 00:44:27,118
I'm sorry.
I don't mean to be rude,
752
00:44:27,153 --> 00:44:29,021
but I know all this.
753
00:44:29,826 --> 00:44:31,089
What do you mean?
754
00:44:31,124 --> 00:44:33,355
I have probably read everything
755
00:44:33,390 --> 00:44:36,325
new life church has ever written.
756
00:44:36,360 --> 00:44:39,361
Probably every pamphlet
they've ever published.
757
00:44:39,396 --> 00:44:41,869
Wow, that's great and everything,
758
00:44:41,904 --> 00:44:43,871
but these tracts
are just the beginning.
759
00:44:43,906 --> 00:44:46,466
There's so much more in the
Bible that we can... I read the Bible.
760
00:44:47,107 --> 00:44:48,436
Really?
761
00:44:48,471 --> 00:44:50,405
Sure. Couple times.
762
00:44:51,947 --> 00:44:53,408
Did you like it?
763
00:44:53,443 --> 00:44:55,949
I thought it was devastating.
764
00:44:55,984 --> 00:44:58,820
God creates us,
expels us from paradise.
765
00:44:58,855 --> 00:45:01,823
We wander around for thousands
of years killing each other,
766
00:45:01,858 --> 00:45:04,859
before he comes back
and saves 144,000 of us.
767
00:45:04,894 --> 00:45:08,093
Meanwhile, seven- and-a-half
billion of us fall into hell.
768
00:45:10,394 --> 00:45:12,427
Yeah.
769
00:45:12,462 --> 00:45:14,429
That's not really
how I interpret it, but...
770
00:45:16,070 --> 00:45:17,872
Charlie, you have to understand,
771
00:45:18,941 --> 00:45:21,337
god hasn't turned his back on you.
772
00:45:21,372 --> 00:45:24,208
If you accept him,
he'll release you from this.
773
00:45:24,243 --> 00:45:25,572
(sipping) He'll take your soul
774
00:45:25,607 --> 00:45:27,948
out of this body and give
you a brand-new body.
775
00:45:27,983 --> 00:45:30,115
One made of pure light.
I mean, don't you want that?
776
00:45:30,150 --> 00:45:33,217
I'm not interested in being saved.
777
00:45:33,252 --> 00:45:34,889
(sighs)
I appreciate what you did
778
00:45:34,924 --> 00:45:37,056
the other day, but you can go.
779
00:45:37,091 --> 00:45:38,596
This doesn't sound
like something that I...
780
00:45:38,620 --> 00:45:41,357
Look, I really think that god
brought me here for a reason.
781
00:45:41,392 --> 00:45:43,359
There's a reason
why I knocked on your door
782
00:45:43,394 --> 00:45:45,394
right when you needed
someone the most.
783
00:45:45,429 --> 00:45:48,430
Isn't there any way I can help?
784
00:45:48,465 --> 00:45:49,576
I mean, that's the entire reason
785
00:45:49,600 --> 00:45:51,609
why I became a missionary
in the first place, right?
786
00:45:51,633 --> 00:45:53,270
There's something you can do for me.
787
00:45:57,507 --> 00:46:00,508
What? Um, nothing I just...
788
00:46:00,543 --> 00:46:04,919
I hope you know
I wasn't talking about, um...
789
00:46:05,482 --> 00:46:07,614
What? I'm not...
790
00:46:07,649 --> 00:46:09,583
Oh, my god. I'm...
I'm sorry. I just...
791
00:46:09,618 --> 00:46:10,991
No. With what you were watching
792
00:46:11,026 --> 00:46:12,102
the first time
I came in here, I just...
793
00:46:12,126 --> 00:46:14,225
(chuckles) I am not
attracted to you.
794
00:46:14,260 --> 00:46:17,459
Please, you gotta believe me
when I say I'm not attracted to you.
795
00:46:17,494 --> 00:46:18,526
You're a fetus.
796
00:46:21,333 --> 00:46:22,530
I'm sorry.
797
00:46:24,204 --> 00:46:25,269
(sighs)
798
00:46:29,374 --> 00:46:31,374
Thomas, tell me the truth.
799
00:46:34,379 --> 00:46:35,477
You find me disgusting?
800
00:46:38,922 --> 00:46:39,922
No.
801
00:46:42,486 --> 00:46:43,617
I just want to help.
802
00:46:44,653 --> 00:46:46,554
Please, just let me help.
803
00:46:56,038 --> 00:46:58,302
(grunts softly)
804
00:46:58,337 --> 00:47:00,403
Thank you. That's very helpful.
805
00:47:07,346 --> 00:47:09,951
What happened to your...
Sorry. Your friend, Liz,
806
00:47:09,986 --> 00:47:12,415
she said that your boyfriend,
807
00:47:12,450 --> 00:47:14,351
he used to go to new life?
(door opens)
808
00:47:16,960 --> 00:47:18,190
Liz: Charlie? Yeah.
809
00:47:19,061 --> 00:47:21,028
I got you this.
810
00:47:21,063 --> 00:47:22,524
I did some asking around, and...
811
00:47:24,726 --> 00:47:26,528
What the fuck is he doing here?
812
00:47:26,563 --> 00:47:28,266
He's just helping me with something.
813
00:47:28,301 --> 00:47:29,630
Take it easy, Liz.
814
00:47:29,665 --> 00:47:32,039
Okay, well, you can go now.
815
00:47:32,470 --> 00:47:33,470
Liz.
816
00:47:34,637 --> 00:47:35,637
Go home!
817
00:47:36,980 --> 00:47:38,441
Sorry. I'm sorry. Leave it.
818
00:47:38,476 --> 00:47:40,476
(Charlie grunts)
I said, leave it!
819
00:47:40,511 --> 00:47:42,445
Charlie: Liz, would you stop?
820
00:47:44,383 --> 00:47:47,516
Actually, stay.
We'll have a little chat.
821
00:47:51,555 --> 00:47:52,555
What's this?
822
00:47:54,030 --> 00:47:55,128
The fuck does it look like?
823
00:47:57,561 --> 00:47:59,561
It's a fat-guy wheelchair.
824
00:47:59,596 --> 00:48:01,563
And why do I need a wheelchair?
825
00:48:01,598 --> 00:48:04,698
I was talking to one
of the er doctors,
826
00:48:04,733 --> 00:48:08,042
he said moderate activity
would be a good idea.
827
00:48:08,077 --> 00:48:09,648
Sense of independence
might help you out.
828
00:48:09,672 --> 00:48:10,849
And what did you pay for this thing?
829
00:48:10,873 --> 00:48:13,278
Nothing. We ordered it for
a patient a few months ago.
830
00:48:13,313 --> 00:48:14,422
It's just been sitting around.
831
00:48:14,446 --> 00:48:15,606
What happened to the patient?
832
00:48:17,020 --> 00:48:19,053
Just try it out.
833
00:48:19,088 --> 00:48:20,088
Please.
834
00:48:21,123 --> 00:48:22,287
(sighs)
835
00:48:23,026 --> 00:48:24,652
(grunting)
836
00:48:27,591 --> 00:48:29,294
(exhales sharply)
837
00:48:30,330 --> 00:48:33,727
Beep. Beep. Beep.
838
00:48:35,566 --> 00:48:38,468
(laughing)
839
00:48:39,603 --> 00:48:41,207
Charlie: Can I sit? I gotcha.
840
00:48:42,408 --> 00:48:44,375
(Charlie groaning)
841
00:48:47,050 --> 00:48:48,115
(chuckles)
842
00:48:49,448 --> 00:48:51,448
Good? Yeah, actually,
this is really nice.
843
00:48:54,090 --> 00:48:55,353
Yeah.
844
00:48:55,388 --> 00:48:57,091
Let me clear some space for you.
845
00:48:57,654 --> 00:48:58,654
Charlie: Whee.
846
00:49:00,261 --> 00:49:01,261
Hello?
847
00:49:06,399 --> 00:49:07,530
Charlie: Look, no hands.
848
00:49:09,501 --> 00:49:11,435
Thank you, Liz.
This is great, so great.
849
00:49:11,470 --> 00:49:14,669
(chuckles) See? I told you.
Charlie: I know.
850
00:49:14,704 --> 00:49:16,440
I should go. Ah-pap-pap.
851
00:49:16,475 --> 00:49:17,795
Not until we have our little chat.
852
00:49:19,148 --> 00:49:20,675
What?
Liz: Come on.
853
00:49:27,387 --> 00:49:28,518
Liz.
854
00:49:28,553 --> 00:49:30,157
Just gimme a minute with him.
855
00:49:39,861 --> 00:49:41,432
(dog barks in distance)
856
00:49:57,681 --> 00:49:58,681
Where are you from?
857
00:50:00,189 --> 00:50:01,222
What?
858
00:50:01,257 --> 00:50:03,217
You said you've only been here
for a little while.
859
00:50:06,294 --> 00:50:07,755
Where you from?
860
00:50:07,790 --> 00:50:11,132
Uh, Iowa.
A town called Waterloo?
861
00:50:11,761 --> 00:50:12,793
You asking me?
862
00:50:13,697 --> 00:50:15,169
No. I'm from Waterloo.
863
00:50:15,600 --> 00:50:17,204
Okay.
864
00:50:17,239 --> 00:50:19,305
Your whole family
move out here for new life?
865
00:50:20,308 --> 00:50:21,769
No, it's just me.
866
00:50:21,804 --> 00:50:24,310
I wanted to do some
missionary work before school.
867
00:50:24,345 --> 00:50:25,707
(chuckles)
868
00:50:25,742 --> 00:50:28,149
You're from Iowa,
869
00:50:28,184 --> 00:50:31,449
and you came to Idaho
to do missionary work?
870
00:50:31,484 --> 00:50:33,319
Why aren't you
in Africa or something?
871
00:50:33,354 --> 00:50:35,156
Idaho needs the word
as much as anywhere else.
872
00:50:42,231 --> 00:50:43,824
Okay, listen.
873
00:50:43,859 --> 00:50:45,463
I know this is fun for you.
874
00:50:45,498 --> 00:50:46,662
You get to travel around,
875
00:50:46,697 --> 00:50:48,301
act superior than everyone else,
876
00:50:49,436 --> 00:50:50,732
and eventually, you go home,
877
00:50:50,767 --> 00:50:52,866
get some boring job,
have too many kids.
878
00:50:52,901 --> 00:50:53,733
It's god's plan.
879
00:50:53,769 --> 00:50:57,145
But there are other types of people.
880
00:50:57,180 --> 00:50:58,410
People like Charlie,
881
00:50:58,445 --> 00:51:01,644
for whom this amazing plan
doesn't fit.
882
00:51:02,713 --> 00:51:05,846
So, just stay away from him.
883
00:51:05,881 --> 00:51:07,320
He doesn't need this right now.
884
00:51:09,654 --> 00:51:11,390
I disagree.
885
00:51:11,425 --> 00:51:14,162
(exhales) Excuse me?
Sorry, I just, uh...
886
00:51:14,197 --> 00:51:15,559
He's dying.
887
00:51:15,594 --> 00:51:17,198
He's refusing to go to the hospital.
888
00:51:17,233 --> 00:51:18,760
What he needs is spiritual guidance.
889
00:51:18,795 --> 00:51:20,267
And you're gonna give him that?
890
00:51:20,302 --> 00:51:22,302
No. God will.
891
00:51:24,933 --> 00:51:26,141
I see.
892
00:51:45,261 --> 00:51:47,360
My big brother did some
missionary work for new life.
893
00:51:49,430 --> 00:51:50,660
Went to South America.
894
00:51:51,465 --> 00:51:53,630
Oh. Yeah.
895
00:51:53,665 --> 00:51:54,631
I was the black sheep.
896
00:51:54,666 --> 00:51:57,271
I refused to go to church
ever since I was 12.
897
00:51:58,307 --> 00:51:59,702
Dad knew I was a lost cause,
898
00:52:02,245 --> 00:52:06,247
but not my brother,
he loved new life.
899
00:52:06,282 --> 00:52:08,348
He wrote me a letter
a few months after he left,
900
00:52:08,383 --> 00:52:10,482
told me he was tired,
901
00:52:10,517 --> 00:52:11,956
and lonely, but he didn't
want to come home
902
00:52:11,980 --> 00:52:13,460
because he didn't want
to get married.
903
00:52:14,455 --> 00:52:15,630
He didn't want to get married?
904
00:52:15,654 --> 00:52:17,423
Dad had set it all up.
905
00:52:17,458 --> 00:52:18,424
Pushed him into getting married
906
00:52:18,459 --> 00:52:21,823
to this girl from the church
he barely knew.
907
00:52:21,858 --> 00:52:24,397
But when he came back,
he met someone else.
908
00:52:24,432 --> 00:52:26,432
Fell in love,
started a whole new life.
909
00:52:26,467 --> 00:52:29,501
And dad kicked him out
of the church.
910
00:52:30,405 --> 00:52:31,437
And the family.
911
00:52:33,309 --> 00:52:34,539
I thought he was gonna be able
912
00:52:34,574 --> 00:52:36,607
to get over
all that religious stuff,
913
00:52:36,642 --> 00:52:39,907
but it was like a cancer.
914
00:52:39,942 --> 00:52:42,481
He couldn't shake it.
915
00:52:42,516 --> 00:52:44,318
He just caved in on himself,
916
00:52:44,353 --> 00:52:45,781
stopped sleeping, stopped eating.
917
00:52:45,816 --> 00:52:46,947
Lost a ton of weight.
918
00:52:48,654 --> 00:52:50,522
One night, he doesn't come home.
919
00:52:52,658 --> 00:52:54,559
Couple weeks later,
this guy is out jogging
920
00:52:54,594 --> 00:52:56,396
on a bike path
near the river in lewiston,
921
00:52:56,431 --> 00:52:57,991
sees something washed up on shore,
922
00:52:58,026 --> 00:52:59,828
and that was Alan.
923
00:53:02,305 --> 00:53:04,470
The love of Charlie's life,
and my brother.
924
00:53:05,968 --> 00:53:08,408
Oh. Yeah. "Oh."
925
00:53:08,443 --> 00:53:10,938
To this day, my dad won't admit it.
926
00:53:10,973 --> 00:53:13,479
Told the whole congregation
Alan's death was...
927
00:53:15,417 --> 00:53:17,450
Just an unfortunate accident.
928
00:53:20,081 --> 00:53:22,851
Denying him to the end.
929
00:53:31,862 --> 00:53:34,830
Look, I know
that you don't trust me.
930
00:53:34,865 --> 00:53:37,503
And I know that I haven't
known him for very long,
931
00:53:37,538 --> 00:53:40,473
but I really think
that god brought me here,
932
00:53:40,508 --> 00:53:42,673
right when Charlie
needs it the most.
933
00:53:42,708 --> 00:53:45,544
I just want him to be saved,
that's all... You listen to me!
934
00:53:45,579 --> 00:53:46,908
He doesn't need saving!
935
00:53:48,076 --> 00:53:50,582
In a few days, he's probably
going to be dead,
936
00:53:50,617 --> 00:53:53,046
so what he needs
is for you to leave him alone.
937
00:53:53,081 --> 00:53:54,718
I'm the only one who can help him.
938
00:53:54,753 --> 00:53:56,049
You understand me?
Charlie: Liz.
939
00:54:05,027 --> 00:54:06,565
(Liz sighs)
940
00:54:10,098 --> 00:54:12,835
(cutlery clacking)
941
00:54:18,711 --> 00:54:20,546
(Charlie wheezes softly)
942
00:54:22,715 --> 00:54:24,077
(TV turns on)
943
00:54:24,112 --> 00:54:26,981
You wanna watch some Maury?
944
00:54:28,556 --> 00:54:29,984
Sounds good, right?
945
00:54:30,019 --> 00:54:33,526
(indistinct chatter on TV)
946
00:54:33,561 --> 00:54:35,099
Actually, I got
another night shift tonight.
947
00:54:35,123 --> 00:54:36,727
I better, uh...
948
00:54:36,762 --> 00:54:37,762
You good for the night?
949
00:54:39,765 --> 00:54:42,062
(smacks lips)
I'll leave the remote here.
950
00:54:47,509 --> 00:54:49,036
(door opens)
951
00:54:52,811 --> 00:54:53,843
(door closes)
952
00:54:55,913 --> 00:54:57,385
(lock clicks)
953
00:55:18,738 --> 00:55:20,100
(grunts softly)
954
00:55:22,676 --> 00:55:25,138
(light switch clicking)
955
00:55:28,209 --> 00:55:29,483
(sighs)
956
00:55:36,085 --> 00:55:37,557
(sighs)
957
00:55:43,499 --> 00:55:45,895
(sniffing)
958
00:55:47,767 --> 00:55:49,965
(chuckles softly)
959
00:56:00,780 --> 00:56:01,780
(door shuts)
960
00:56:12,121 --> 00:56:13,494
(knock at door)
961
00:56:13,529 --> 00:56:14,924
(man) Gambino's!
962
00:56:14,959 --> 00:56:16,959
Yeah. You can, uh...
963
00:56:16,994 --> 00:56:19,192
(man) Money in the mailbox,
leave it on the bench.
964
00:56:20,503 --> 00:56:21,799
Yeah. Thanks.
965
00:56:23,869 --> 00:56:24,869
(man) I'm Dan.
966
00:56:27,609 --> 00:56:28,806
What?
967
00:56:28,841 --> 00:56:31,776
Dan: I just...
My name, it's Dan.
968
00:56:33,681 --> 00:56:36,143
I've been coming here
for a while now.
969
00:56:36,178 --> 00:56:38,178
Just thought you'd wanna know
my name.
970
00:56:40,820 --> 00:56:41,852
Charlie.
971
00:56:43,152 --> 00:56:44,657
Dan: Hey, Charlie.
972
00:56:44,692 --> 00:56:46,989
(mailbox opens, closes)
973
00:56:47,024 --> 00:56:48,221
Dan: Have a good night, okay?
974
00:56:49,026 --> 00:56:52,896
(footsteps receding)
975
00:56:56,836 --> 00:56:58,069
It sure did.
976
00:56:58,104 --> 00:57:00,640
More Idaho Republicans
want to see senator Ted Cruz
977
00:57:00,675 --> 00:57:02,576
in the white house
than any other candidate.
978
00:57:02,611 --> 00:57:05,546
Cruz will split Idaho's 32 delegates
979
00:57:05,581 --> 00:57:06,881
with Donald Trump,
980
00:57:06,916 --> 00:57:10,144
the only other candidate
to clear that 20% threshold.
981
00:57:10,179 --> 00:57:13,213
It was a disappointing night
for senator Marco Rubio
982
00:57:13,248 --> 00:57:15,116
who failed to win any delegates
983
00:57:15,151 --> 00:57:17,855
in the four states that held
primaries, while... (switches TV off)
984
00:57:25,029 --> 00:57:26,897
(wheelchair squeaking)
985
00:57:45,016 --> 00:57:46,851
"This apartment smells.
986
00:57:46,886 --> 00:57:50,921
"This notebook is retarded.
I hate everyone."
987
00:57:52,694 --> 00:57:53,694
(sighs)
988
00:58:00,163 --> 00:58:02,999
(syllabically)
This apartment smells.
989
00:58:03,034 --> 00:58:07,135
This notebook is retarded.
990
00:58:07,170 --> 00:58:10,105
I hate everyone. (laughing)
991
00:58:12,780 --> 00:58:14,175
(coughing, wheezing)
992
00:58:14,210 --> 00:58:16,782
(grunting in pain)
993
00:58:16,817 --> 00:58:18,311
(coughs)
994
00:58:18,346 --> 00:58:22,018
(breathing laboriously)
995
00:58:23,692 --> 00:58:25,285
And I felt saddest of all
996
00:58:26,321 --> 00:58:28,189
when I read the boring chapters
997
00:58:29,390 --> 00:58:31,599
that were only descriptions
of whales
998
00:58:32,393 --> 00:58:34,063
because (exhales) I knew
999
00:58:35,869 --> 00:58:38,672
that the author
was just trying to save us
1000
00:58:38,707 --> 00:58:40,201
from his own sad story,
1001
00:58:41,402 --> 00:58:42,841
just for a little while.
1002
00:58:44,680 --> 00:58:46,108
(breathes deeply)
1003
00:58:46,143 --> 00:58:47,615
This apartment smells.
1004
00:58:49,949 --> 00:58:52,180
(inhales deeply)
This apartment smells.
1005
00:58:55,218 --> 00:58:56,954
The author was just trying to save us
1006
00:58:56,989 --> 00:58:58,219
from his own sad story.
1007
00:58:59,893 --> 00:59:01,057
I hate everyone.
1008
00:59:05,393 --> 00:59:06,601
I hate everyone.
1009
00:59:12,334 --> 00:59:13,334
Do you have it?
1010
00:59:14,270 --> 00:59:15,302
Charlie: I'm almost done.
1011
00:59:17,779 --> 00:59:20,747
You can wait while I finish it up,
1012
00:59:23,213 --> 00:59:24,245
print it out.
1013
00:59:27,085 --> 00:59:29,085
Maybe while you're waiting,
1014
00:59:29,120 --> 00:59:31,989
you can write some more in
your notebook. Oh, my god.
1015
00:59:32,024 --> 00:59:34,189
You've only written
a couple sentences so far.
1016
00:59:34,224 --> 00:59:35,056
Can you write more?
1017
00:59:35,092 --> 00:59:37,093
I kind of hate you.
(chuckling) Yeah.
1018
00:59:37,128 --> 00:59:39,733
Well, you hate everyone.
1019
00:59:40,769 --> 00:59:42,362
Listen, just keep going.
1020
00:59:43,299 --> 00:59:44,299
Forget about the poem.
1021
00:59:44,334 --> 00:59:47,235
Write whatever you want,
whatever you're thinking.
1022
00:59:47,270 --> 00:59:48,874
(bag thuds)
Okay. Be quiet, just...
1023
00:59:59,447 --> 01:00:01,051
(exhales deeply)
1024
01:00:05,761 --> 01:00:08,894
You know, I was in a
really strange place in my life
1025
01:00:08,929 --> 01:00:10,863
when I married your mom.
Did I fucking ask?
1026
01:00:12,064 --> 01:00:13,767
I just wish...
1027
01:00:13,802 --> 01:00:14,999
I'm sor... I'm sorry.
1028
01:00:25,407 --> 01:00:27,176
I understand that you're angry.
1029
01:00:28,344 --> 01:00:29,475
(breathes heavily)
1030
01:00:29,510 --> 01:00:30,751
But...
1031
01:00:33,349 --> 01:00:37,857
You don't have to be angry
at the whole world.
1032
01:00:41,258 --> 01:00:43,830
You can just be angry at me.
1033
01:00:43,865 --> 01:00:45,106
(aggressively)
Okay, you know what?
1034
01:00:45,130 --> 01:00:47,361
You can't throw me away
like a piece of garbage,
1035
01:00:47,396 --> 01:00:50,804
and then suddenly just want
to be my dad eight years later.
1036
01:00:50,839 --> 01:00:53,741
You left me for your boyfriend.
1037
01:00:53,776 --> 01:00:55,743
(sighs) It's that simple.
1038
01:00:55,778 --> 01:00:57,349
And if you've been telling
yourself anything different,
1039
01:00:57,373 --> 01:00:58,812
then you're lying to yourself.
1040
01:01:03,082 --> 01:01:04,281
But you know what? I'm glad.
1041
01:01:04,317 --> 01:01:07,348
I'm glad, because you taught
me something very important.
1042
01:01:08,087 --> 01:01:10,857
People are assholes.
1043
01:01:11,926 --> 01:01:13,420
Most people learn that way too late.
1044
01:01:14,555 --> 01:01:16,896
You... you taught me that
when I was eight.
1045
01:01:19,362 --> 01:01:20,735
Thank you for that.
1046
01:01:31,176 --> 01:01:32,274
You know, you could've...
1047
01:01:33,508 --> 01:01:35,376
What?
1048
01:01:35,411 --> 01:01:37,051
Ellie: You could've been
sending us money.
1049
01:01:38,986 --> 01:01:40,920
If you had all that money saved up,
1050
01:01:40,955 --> 01:01:42,196
and wanted to be a part
of my life so bad,
1051
01:01:42,220 --> 01:01:43,956
you could've been
sending money to mom.
1052
01:01:43,991 --> 01:01:44,957
I did.
1053
01:01:44,992 --> 01:01:46,992
Ellie: Yeah, I mean more
than just child support.
1054
01:01:57,972 --> 01:01:59,004
I did.
1055
01:02:00,942 --> 01:02:04,405
When I left your mom, she
did not want me around you.
1056
01:02:05,309 --> 01:02:06,913
I hoped
1057
01:02:06,948 --> 01:02:09,883
that she would change her mind
eventually, but she...
1058
01:02:09,918 --> 01:02:11,511
You could have
just fucking called me.
1059
01:02:13,053 --> 01:02:14,151
All this time, you...
1060
01:02:15,451 --> 01:02:17,187
You could have been
a part of my life.
1061
01:02:19,059 --> 01:02:20,157
Ellie.
1062
01:02:22,029 --> 01:02:23,094
Look at me.
1063
01:02:29,267 --> 01:02:31,839
Who would want me
to be a part of their life?
1064
01:02:43,985 --> 01:02:45,083
I'm hungry.
1065
01:02:47,153 --> 01:02:49,252
There's some stuff
for sandwiches in the fridge.
1066
01:02:54,391 --> 01:02:56,226
I'll make you one,
but it's going to be small.
1067
01:03:00,562 --> 01:03:02,265
And I'm only using Turkey,
1068
01:03:03,103 --> 01:03:04,267
and no mayonnaise.
1069
01:03:09,637 --> 01:03:11,340
What? Nothing.
1070
01:03:12,607 --> 01:03:14,508
You're an amazing person, Ellie.
1071
01:03:14,543 --> 01:03:18,281
I hope you know what an
amazing person you are.
1072
01:03:18,316 --> 01:03:21,482
I couldn't ask for a
more incredible daughter.
1073
01:03:24,520 --> 01:03:26,190
I'll print that out for you now.
1074
01:03:33,166 --> 01:03:34,198
(bird wings flap)
1075
01:03:41,339 --> 01:03:42,910
(keyboard clacking)
1076
01:03:46,674 --> 01:03:47,948
(grating)
1077
01:03:50,282 --> 01:03:51,282
(lighter clicks)
1078
01:03:52,086 --> 01:03:54,086
(Charlie breathes heavily)
1079
01:04:13,107 --> 01:04:14,238
(lighter clicks)
1080
01:04:29,189 --> 01:04:30,551
(snores softly)
1081
01:04:30,586 --> 01:04:31,586
(pills rattle)
1082
01:04:48,274 --> 01:04:49,669
(door creaks)
1083
01:05:15,400 --> 01:05:16,498
(knock at door)
1084
01:05:20,735 --> 01:05:22,471
(knock at door)
Ellie: Yeah?
1085
01:05:22,506 --> 01:05:24,209
Thomas: Uh... hello?
1086
01:05:27,181 --> 01:05:28,510
(knocks) Hi.
1087
01:05:30,283 --> 01:05:31,283
Ellie: Come on.
1088
01:05:32,549 --> 01:05:33,680
Is he...
1089
01:05:33,715 --> 01:05:34,814
Is he okay? I don't know.
1090
01:05:34,850 --> 01:05:37,288
I ground up some Ambien
and I put it in his sandwich.
1091
01:05:37,323 --> 01:05:38,388
What?
1092
01:05:38,423 --> 01:05:40,093
I only gave him a couple.
He's fine.
1093
01:05:40,128 --> 01:05:41,270
I can take, like, three at a time.
1094
01:05:41,294 --> 01:05:42,469
Thomas: Where
did you get Ambien?
1095
01:05:42,493 --> 01:05:43,624
I had sex with a pharmacist.
1096
01:05:45,628 --> 01:05:47,430
I'm kidding. Gross.
1097
01:05:47,465 --> 01:05:49,168
My mom pops them like tic tacs.
1098
01:05:49,203 --> 01:05:51,071
I don't know if he should
be taking Ambien.
1099
01:05:53,537 --> 01:05:56,076
Does this make you nervous?
'Cause it's just pot.
1100
01:05:56,111 --> 01:05:57,803
It's not like
I'm smoking meth or anything.
1101
01:05:57,838 --> 01:05:59,706
I know. I...
I know what pot is, okay?
1102
01:05:59,741 --> 01:06:01,675
No. You only think
you know what pot is
1103
01:06:01,710 --> 01:06:03,820
because your parents told you
a bunch of lies about it.
1104
01:06:03,844 --> 01:06:05,481
Don't. I know what drugs are.
1105
01:06:05,516 --> 01:06:08,385
I've smoked pot before.
Ooh. Oh, I'm so impressed.
1106
01:06:08,420 --> 01:06:10,189
I wasn't trying to impress you.
1107
01:06:10,224 --> 01:06:12,488
You've not smoked pot before.
Yes, I have. It...
1108
01:06:14,492 --> 01:06:15,623
It was kind of a problem.
1109
01:06:16,791 --> 01:06:18,197
That is the stupidest fucking thing
1110
01:06:18,232 --> 01:06:19,064
I've ever heard in my entire life.
1111
01:06:19,100 --> 01:06:21,728
I was smoking every day.
I had a problem.
1112
01:06:21,763 --> 01:06:24,830
You were a stoner.
You had a hobby.
1113
01:06:24,865 --> 01:06:26,810
All right, I'm gonna go. Just
tell him I was here and I'll...
1114
01:06:26,834 --> 01:06:29,252
If you leave, I'll feed him the
rest of the pills I have in the bottle.
1115
01:06:29,276 --> 01:06:30,836
What? Yeah.
1116
01:06:30,871 --> 01:06:33,608
There's, like, 20, 30 more in here.
1117
01:06:34,545 --> 01:06:35,808
I'll crush them up,
1118
01:06:35,843 --> 01:06:37,843
I'll put them in some water,
(puts bottle down)
1119
01:06:37,878 --> 01:06:39,251
And I'll pour it down his throat.
1120
01:06:40,188 --> 01:06:41,330
You wouldn't actually do that,
1121
01:06:41,354 --> 01:06:42,485
would you? Sit down.
1122
01:06:49,560 --> 01:06:51,000
So, why do you keep
coming back here?
1123
01:06:52,893 --> 01:06:54,134
He needs help.
1124
01:06:55,269 --> 01:06:56,312
He needs god in his life right now.
1125
01:06:56,336 --> 01:06:57,401
That's a stupid reason.
1126
01:06:58,635 --> 01:07:00,800
Do you think he wants
to have sex with you?
1127
01:07:00,835 --> 01:07:03,209
That is so gross,
oh, my god. Take a hit.
1128
01:07:03,244 --> 01:07:04,617
I don't want...
If you don't take a hit,
1129
01:07:04,641 --> 01:07:05,941
I'm gonna call the police
1130
01:07:05,976 --> 01:07:08,376
and I'm gonna tell them that
you tried to rape me. Take a hit.
1131
01:07:10,581 --> 01:07:11,811
I don't understand you at all.
1132
01:07:12,451 --> 01:07:13,451
Oh, my god.
1133
01:07:14,783 --> 01:07:16,288
Is there a carb on this?
1134
01:07:16,323 --> 01:07:17,718
Ooh, I'm impressed.
1135
01:07:17,753 --> 01:07:19,456
I wasn't trying to impress you.
1136
01:07:19,491 --> 01:07:20,523
There isn't a carb.
1137
01:07:24,694 --> 01:07:25,858
(sighs)
1138
01:07:30,370 --> 01:07:31,534
(camera clicks, coughs)
1139
01:07:32,537 --> 01:07:33,636
Calm down.
1140
01:07:33,672 --> 01:07:35,351
(coughing) What are you
gonna do with that picture?
1141
01:07:35,375 --> 01:07:36,704
I'm gonna masturbate to it.
1142
01:07:36,739 --> 01:07:37,848
Is that what you want me to say?
1143
01:07:37,872 --> 01:07:39,245
You're a pervert.
Take another hit.
1144
01:07:41,249 --> 01:07:43,348
Look, I'm just fucking
with you, all right?
1145
01:07:43,383 --> 01:07:44,811
I'm not gonna kill anyone,
1146
01:07:44,846 --> 01:07:47,847
I'm not gonna tell anyone
that you tried to rape me.
1147
01:07:47,882 --> 01:07:49,464
You're not going to give him
any more Ambien?
1148
01:07:49,488 --> 01:07:50,751
Ellie: No. (pills rattle)
1149
01:07:50,786 --> 01:07:52,489
(zips bag)
1150
01:07:52,524 --> 01:07:54,194
Why do you keep coming back here?
1151
01:07:56,594 --> 01:07:58,330
I don't know.
1152
01:07:58,365 --> 01:07:59,870
Seriously, if you hate him
so much, then why...
1153
01:07:59,894 --> 01:08:01,432
I'm done answering questions now.
1154
01:08:07,704 --> 01:08:08,802
Can I take another hit?
1155
01:08:10,608 --> 01:08:11,838
It goes against your religion,
1156
01:08:13,314 --> 01:08:14,554
and that makes you a hypocrite.
1157
01:08:16,482 --> 01:08:17,482
Go ahead.
1158
01:08:22,917 --> 01:08:24,191
(inhales)
1159
01:08:26,459 --> 01:08:28,492
(camera clicks)
1160
01:08:28,527 --> 01:08:29,735
I really wish
that you wouldn't do that.
1161
01:08:29,759 --> 01:08:31,363
Yeah, I know.
I heard you the first time.
1162
01:08:32,564 --> 01:08:33,604
Do you find me attractive?
1163
01:08:34,401 --> 01:08:35,598
(hesitates)
1164
01:08:35,633 --> 01:08:37,534
Because I'm not attracted
to you at all,
1165
01:08:38,306 --> 01:08:40,240
just to let you know.
1166
01:08:40,275 --> 01:08:41,450
I'm not trying to be mean
or anything.
1167
01:08:41,474 --> 01:08:43,194
I just don't think
you're very good-looking,
1168
01:08:43,740 --> 01:08:44,772
or interesting.
1169
01:08:45,511 --> 01:08:46,511
Or intelligent.
1170
01:08:46,809 --> 01:08:47,874
(scoffs)
1171
01:08:48,943 --> 01:08:50,382
Oh, my god, grow up.
1172
01:08:50,417 --> 01:08:51,724
Maybe someone else
finds you attractive.
1173
01:08:51,748 --> 01:08:52,714
Maybe my dad finds you attractive.
1174
01:08:52,749 --> 01:08:54,815
I really wish you...
You know, it is so easy
1175
01:08:54,850 --> 01:08:55,890
to make you uncomfortable.
1176
01:08:55,917 --> 01:08:57,554
It's honestly...
It's a little sad.
1177
01:08:58,458 --> 01:08:59,458
You can cash that out.
1178
01:09:13,539 --> 01:09:16,441
(scoffs) If my parents knew
I was getting high,
1179
01:09:16,476 --> 01:09:17,882
getting high while out
witnessing for the church...
1180
01:09:17,906 --> 01:09:18,906
You're not from new life.
1181
01:09:20,711 --> 01:09:21,777
What?
1182
01:09:21,812 --> 01:09:24,614
There's a kid in the grade
below me who goes there.
1183
01:09:24,649 --> 01:09:25,758
He told me that they stopped doing
1184
01:09:25,782 --> 01:09:27,617
door-to-door stuff last year
1185
01:09:27,652 --> 01:09:29,850
when some woman was
out preaching or whatever,
1186
01:09:29,885 --> 01:09:31,984
and a guy answered the door
with no clothes on.
1187
01:09:33,427 --> 01:09:35,427
I gotta go. Who are you, really?
1188
01:09:36,958 --> 01:09:38,430
Come on, just tell me!
1189
01:09:39,664 --> 01:09:41,477
Thomas: Why do you care?
Because I think we have
1190
01:09:41,501 --> 01:09:42,698
a blossoming friendship.
1191
01:09:44,405 --> 01:09:45,569
You're just messing with me.
1192
01:09:46,968 --> 01:09:48,275
Ellie: No, I'm not.
1193
01:09:49,476 --> 01:09:50,756
You're not going to tell anyone?
1194
01:09:52,347 --> 01:09:53,347
Who am I gonna tell?
1195
01:10:01,620 --> 01:10:02,685
I was on a mission.
1196
01:10:06,394 --> 01:10:08,394
With a group from my church,
back in Waterloo,
1197
01:10:09,628 --> 01:10:10,891
my hometown in Iowa.
1198
01:10:12,367 --> 01:10:13,894
When my dad caught me smoking pot,
1199
01:10:13,929 --> 01:10:16,600
he thought a mission
would be a good idea.
1200
01:10:16,635 --> 01:10:19,735
I mean, the truth is,
he's just embarrassed by me
1201
01:10:19,770 --> 01:10:21,968
and wanted me gone for a while.
1202
01:10:22,839 --> 01:10:24,971
Anyway, I just left.
1203
01:10:28,416 --> 01:10:29,514
I couldn't do it anymore.
1204
01:10:31,551 --> 01:10:32,551
Why?
1205
01:10:33,685 --> 01:10:34,717
The mission leader,
1206
01:10:36,523 --> 01:10:37,489
this guy, Jerry,
1207
01:10:37,524 --> 01:10:39,095
all he had us doing
was standing on corners
1208
01:10:39,119 --> 01:10:41,053
and handing out pamphlets.
1209
01:10:41,088 --> 01:10:42,527
The end of each day, he'd be like,
1210
01:10:42,562 --> 01:10:44,282
"look how many people
we're helping," but...
1211
01:10:44,927 --> 01:10:45,992
I tried to talk to him
1212
01:10:46,027 --> 01:10:47,405
about different ways
we can minister.
1213
01:10:47,429 --> 01:10:50,733
I mean, different ways that we
could actually help people. But...
1214
01:10:52,033 --> 01:10:54,506
You could just tell
that he didn't need to earn
1215
01:10:54,541 --> 01:10:55,903
or prove his faith at all.
1216
01:10:59,040 --> 01:11:02,514
After a while, I was just,
like, "am I really helping?"
1217
01:11:03,748 --> 01:11:05,583
No. You were not.
1218
01:11:07,147 --> 01:11:08,817
Yeah, I started to feel
that way, too.
1219
01:11:10,854 --> 01:11:11,753
I don't feel that way,
1220
01:11:11,789 --> 01:11:14,053
I know that you weren't
helping people.
1221
01:11:14,088 --> 01:11:15,461
It doesn't help people to tell them
1222
01:11:15,496 --> 01:11:16,704
that they should believe in god.
1223
01:11:16,728 --> 01:11:17,808
Why would that help people?
1224
01:11:18,796 --> 01:11:20,565
Thomas: I just thought...
1225
01:11:20,600 --> 01:11:22,534
I see all my family, my friends,
1226
01:11:24,065 --> 01:11:25,471
they're all just so happy.
1227
01:11:30,511 --> 01:11:31,708
I just want to be like that.
1228
01:11:33,943 --> 01:11:35,008
So, why'd you leave, then?
1229
01:11:36,715 --> 01:11:39,078
I was worried
I was gonna get arrested.
1230
01:11:40,015 --> 01:11:41,015
For smoking pot?
1231
01:11:42,721 --> 01:11:43,921
For stealing from the mission.
1232
01:11:51,961 --> 01:11:54,896
One day, I ditched the pamphlets.
1233
01:11:54,931 --> 01:11:55,830
I went door-to-door.
1234
01:11:55,866 --> 01:11:57,833
I started actually
engaging with people.
1235
01:11:57,868 --> 01:12:00,737
Finally. I mean, it felt
like I was doing something,
1236
01:12:00,772 --> 01:12:01,837
helping someone.
1237
01:12:03,610 --> 01:12:05,544
(scoffs)
1238
01:12:05,579 --> 01:12:08,514
And that night, I went back
to the mission meeting,
1239
01:12:08,549 --> 01:12:09,988
and I told everyone
what I did that day,
1240
01:12:10,012 --> 01:12:11,924
and Jerry was like, "that's
not what we do, buddy."
1241
01:12:11,948 --> 01:12:13,248
And I was like, "well, why not?"
1242
01:12:13,283 --> 01:12:15,643
And we got in this huge
argument in front of everyone, and...
1243
01:12:16,788 --> 01:12:17,820
(sighs)
1244
01:12:20,462 --> 01:12:23,628
And that night, I decided to leave.
1245
01:12:23,663 --> 01:12:25,696
And when everyone was asleep, I...
1246
01:12:25,731 --> 01:12:26,829
I took the petty cash.
1247
01:12:28,800 --> 01:12:29,865
Ellie: How much?
1248
01:12:33,508 --> 01:12:35,541
$2,436.
1249
01:12:37,743 --> 01:12:39,072
Oh.
1250
01:12:39,107 --> 01:12:40,480
Thomas: Yeah. "Oh."
1251
01:12:42,517 --> 01:12:43,517
I got on a bus.
1252
01:12:44,816 --> 01:12:46,684
Jerry and my parents were calling me
1253
01:12:46,719 --> 01:12:47,949
over and over again.
1254
01:12:49,722 --> 01:12:51,084
I just tossed my phone.
1255
01:12:53,759 --> 01:12:56,529
After a while, I wound up here.
1256
01:13:00,667 --> 01:13:02,601
Thomas: I thought
I could use this money
1257
01:13:02,636 --> 01:13:03,767
for my own mission.
1258
01:13:05,573 --> 01:13:08,134
You know, see my faith save
just one person.
1259
01:13:09,874 --> 01:13:11,907
But now I'm almost
out of money. I just...
1260
01:13:13,273 --> 01:13:15,548
I can't go home, and...
1261
01:13:15,583 --> 01:13:17,110
My parents probably wanna disown me.
1262
01:13:22,953 --> 01:13:24,233
(sighs) I don't know what to do.
1263
01:13:35,064 --> 01:13:36,668
You're more interesting to me now.
1264
01:13:39,706 --> 01:13:40,738
Thanks.
1265
01:13:53,555 --> 01:13:54,995
So, that's why
you wanna save my dad.
1266
01:13:59,825 --> 01:14:00,825
(door opens)
1267
01:14:05,963 --> 01:14:06,963
(camera clicks)
1268
01:14:09,604 --> 01:14:10,604
(main door lock clicks)
1269
01:14:15,940 --> 01:14:17,104
Mom?
1270
01:14:17,139 --> 01:14:18,677
Don't freak out. Shut up.
1271
01:14:21,143 --> 01:14:22,175
Liz: You again?
1272
01:14:23,046 --> 01:14:24,210
Charlie?
1273
01:14:24,751 --> 01:14:25,751
Charlie?
1274
01:14:27,886 --> 01:14:28,951
Charlie?
1275
01:14:30,251 --> 01:14:31,690
(softly) Charlie.
1276
01:14:38,765 --> 01:14:39,995
(Charlie coughs)
1277
01:14:44,232 --> 01:14:45,264
(lighter clicks)
1278
01:14:46,366 --> 01:14:47,640
Not with the oxygen tank.
1279
01:14:49,875 --> 01:14:50,875
I'll stand by the window.
1280
01:14:52,647 --> 01:14:53,647
(Liz sighs)
1281
01:14:57,883 --> 01:15:00,983
Ellie told you she was coming over?
1282
01:15:01,018 --> 01:15:02,721
Liz: No. I did.
1283
01:15:02,756 --> 01:15:04,052
And just in time, looks like.
1284
01:15:05,220 --> 01:15:06,989
You having any more pain?
1285
01:15:07,024 --> 01:15:08,694
(grunts softly)
1286
01:15:08,729 --> 01:15:10,190
(sighs) How easy is it to move?
1287
01:15:11,061 --> 01:15:12,258
Not very.
1288
01:15:12,293 --> 01:15:14,832
Any confusion?
Have you felt disoriented,
1289
01:15:14,867 --> 01:15:16,273
forgotten where you are
or what you're doing?
1290
01:15:16,297 --> 01:15:19,903
Am I okay? No, you're not okay.
1291
01:15:19,938 --> 01:15:21,377
But as far as the
sleeping pills, you're fine.
1292
01:15:21,401 --> 01:15:22,774
I don't think she gave you much.
1293
01:15:22,809 --> 01:15:23,969
Yeah, that's what I told you.
1294
01:15:26,142 --> 01:15:27,680
You know, I was a very angry,
1295
01:15:27,715 --> 01:15:28,892
very stupid little girl once, too,
1296
01:15:28,916 --> 01:15:30,628
but if you would've given him
any more pills than that...
1297
01:15:30,652 --> 01:15:32,058
Yeah, but I didn't give him
more pills than that,
1298
01:15:32,082 --> 01:15:33,752
I gave him two pills. Ellie?
1299
01:15:34,953 --> 01:15:36,233
How much money did he offer you?
1300
01:15:42,191 --> 01:15:44,191
All of it? How do you
know about the money?
1301
01:15:44,996 --> 01:15:47,161
You think I'm an idiot?
1302
01:15:47,196 --> 01:15:49,075
You think I would believe
that you were coming over here
1303
01:15:49,099 --> 01:15:50,419
out of the kindness of your heart?
1304
01:15:51,431 --> 01:15:54,806
(laughs) Charlie
doesn't have any money.
1305
01:15:54,841 --> 01:15:56,808
(Liz continues laughing)
1306
01:15:56,843 --> 01:15:58,678
She doesn't know?
Charlie: Mary.
1307
01:15:58,713 --> 01:15:59,756
Where do you think all the money
1308
01:15:59,780 --> 01:16:01,060
from his teaching has been going?
1309
01:16:01,980 --> 01:16:03,144
The account for Ellie?
1310
01:16:03,179 --> 01:16:05,212
By now, it has to be huge.
1311
01:16:05,247 --> 01:16:06,884
Over $100,000 at least, right?
1312
01:16:08,789 --> 01:16:09,986
(wheezes softly)
1313
01:16:12,452 --> 01:16:13,858
That's not true, is it?
1314
01:16:17,798 --> 01:16:18,929
Charlie.
1315
01:16:20,295 --> 01:16:22,295
We could have gotten you
anything you needed.
1316
01:16:23,771 --> 01:16:25,199
Special beds, physical therapists,
1317
01:16:25,234 --> 01:16:27,267
fucking health insurance!
1318
01:16:29,810 --> 01:16:31,216
Last winter,
when my pick-up broke down
1319
01:16:31,240 --> 01:16:32,448
and I had to walk through the snow
1320
01:16:32,472 --> 01:16:33,812
to get your groceries for you...
1321
01:16:33,847 --> 01:16:35,242
I offered to get your truck fixed.
1322
01:16:35,277 --> 01:16:38,113
Yeah, and I refused because
I thought you had $700
1323
01:16:38,148 --> 01:16:40,346
in your bank account.
The money is for Ellie.
1324
01:16:41,756 --> 01:16:43,756
It's always been for Ellie.
1325
01:16:43,791 --> 01:16:46,154
If there was ever
any kind of emergency,
1326
01:16:46,189 --> 01:16:48,057
I would have given you
the money. Would you?
1327
01:16:52,030 --> 01:16:53,062
Wait.
1328
01:16:53,097 --> 01:16:55,801
(panting)
1329
01:16:56,969 --> 01:16:58,298
Wait. (door shuts)
1330
01:17:01,402 --> 01:17:02,918
Mom, you're not getting
any of my money.
1331
01:17:02,942 --> 01:17:03,942
Mary: Oh, shut up, Ellie.
1332
01:17:05,780 --> 01:17:07,373
Leave, right now.
1333
01:17:10,785 --> 01:17:12,118
Wait.
1334
01:17:12,153 --> 01:17:15,216
Ellie, I know you didn't mean
to hurt me. I know you didn't...
1335
01:17:15,251 --> 01:17:16,866
Okay, you know what?
Listen to me. Listen.
1336
01:17:16,890 --> 01:17:18,725
I don't care about you!
1337
01:17:18,760 --> 01:17:20,287
Get that through your fucking skull.
1338
01:17:20,322 --> 01:17:22,729
(crying) Ellie, please.
Just fucking die already!
1339
01:17:23,259 --> 01:17:24,698
Enough!
1340
01:17:28,132 --> 01:17:29,395
Ellie, your... your essay.
1341
01:17:33,170 --> 01:17:34,170
(opens drawer)
1342
01:17:37,812 --> 01:17:40,274
So... it's...
1343
01:17:43,246 --> 01:17:44,751
It's a really good essay!
1344
01:17:48,119 --> 01:17:49,987
(sobs, wheezes)
1345
01:17:51,089 --> 01:17:52,418
(coughs)
1346
01:18:12,374 --> 01:18:14,407
(wheezes) Jesus, Charlie.
1347
01:18:22,351 --> 01:18:23,416
Do you have anything?
1348
01:18:27,829 --> 01:18:29,257
It's above the sink,
1349
01:18:29,292 --> 01:18:31,226
the kitchen counter on the left.
1350
01:18:33,296 --> 01:18:35,230
The other one. (sniffles) Yup.
1351
01:18:37,300 --> 01:18:39,465
(coughing, wheezing)
1352
01:18:39,500 --> 01:18:41,368
Mary: Our deal was
1353
01:18:41,403 --> 01:18:43,684
to wait until she's out of the
house to give her the money.
1354
01:18:44,274 --> 01:18:45,911
What's the difference?
1355
01:18:45,946 --> 01:18:49,915
The difference is she's 17
and still in high school.
1356
01:18:49,950 --> 01:18:52,852
She's gonna spend it on face
tattoos or ponies, or something.
1357
01:18:52,887 --> 01:18:55,151
I think that she's
a lot smarter than that.
1358
01:18:55,186 --> 01:18:56,383
(Mary scoffs)
1359
01:18:58,387 --> 01:18:59,387
So...
1360
01:19:02,490 --> 01:19:03,490
How's it been?
1361
01:19:04,932 --> 01:19:06,800
Getting to know her.
(chuckles softly)
1362
01:19:07,902 --> 01:19:10,232
She's amazing. (Mary chuckles)
1363
01:19:10,267 --> 01:19:12,267
(sighs) You still do that.
1364
01:19:14,106 --> 01:19:15,106
What?
1365
01:19:16,042 --> 01:19:17,470
That positivity.
1366
01:19:19,210 --> 01:19:20,210
It's so annoying.
1367
01:19:21,245 --> 01:19:22,442
You're a complete cynic.
1368
01:19:24,050 --> 01:19:25,918
Just trying to balance us out.
1369
01:19:25,953 --> 01:19:27,953
Yeah. I guess I do miss that.
1370
01:19:29,154 --> 01:19:30,186
That one thing.
1371
01:19:31,618 --> 01:19:32,826
Just that?
1372
01:19:34,654 --> 01:19:36,929
That, and the cooking.
1373
01:19:36,964 --> 01:19:39,932
Last month, tried to make a stir-fry thing.
Charlie: Yeah?
1374
01:19:39,967 --> 01:19:41,637
Almost set the entire
apartment building on fire.
1375
01:19:41,661 --> 01:19:43,199
(laughs)
1376
01:19:43,234 --> 01:19:45,102
(coughing)
1377
01:19:46,171 --> 01:19:48,171
(gasps, coughs)
1378
01:19:48,536 --> 01:19:50,008
(gasping)
1379
01:19:50,043 --> 01:19:53,979
(continues coughing)
1380
01:19:54,949 --> 01:19:56,146
(breathes deeply)
1381
01:20:02,990 --> 01:20:04,710
I never knew you were
doing this to yourself.
1382
01:20:06,224 --> 01:20:08,323
Well, you never asked
how I was doing.
1383
01:20:09,656 --> 01:20:11,425
You never asked
how I was doing either.
1384
01:20:12,659 --> 01:20:14,626
Every month, it's just,
1385
01:20:14,661 --> 01:20:17,497
"how much money do you need?"
Or, "how's Ellie?"
1386
01:20:17,532 --> 01:20:20,566
You didn't tell me that
she's flunking out of school.
1387
01:20:20,601 --> 01:20:22,205
I guess I just didn't need
the lecture
1388
01:20:22,240 --> 01:20:23,943
about my involvement
in her education.
1389
01:20:23,978 --> 01:20:26,440
That is not what I... (exhales)
1390
01:20:29,544 --> 01:20:30,544
(exhales)
1391
01:20:32,481 --> 01:20:34,085
How're you doing, Mary? (scoffs)
1392
01:20:39,620 --> 01:20:43,028
I know I'm not supposed
to be around her.
1393
01:20:43,063 --> 01:20:46,625
You could probably call the
police if you wanted to. Oh, Christ.
1394
01:20:46,660 --> 01:20:48,165
You really think I'd do that?
1395
01:20:48,200 --> 01:20:50,970
You fought me pretty hard
for full custody.
1396
01:20:51,005 --> 01:20:53,236
And I don't blame you
for keeping her from me.
1397
01:20:53,271 --> 01:20:57,405
Charlie, need I remind you
that you left us.
1398
01:20:58,177 --> 01:20:59,308
I know.
1399
01:20:59,343 --> 01:21:01,244
And I was left raising our kid
1400
01:21:01,279 --> 01:21:04,577
and explaining to people that
my husband left me for a man.
1401
01:21:04,612 --> 01:21:07,151
But you didn't have to cut
me out of her life like that.
1402
01:21:07,186 --> 01:21:08,319
Oh, please.
1403
01:21:08,354 --> 01:21:10,495
You were more than happy
to forget about us for a while.
1404
01:21:10,519 --> 01:21:11,519
You know that.
1405
01:21:13,456 --> 01:21:15,423
I know I made a lot of mistakes.
1406
01:21:17,658 --> 01:21:20,593
But I just wanted to see her, Mary.
1407
01:21:20,628 --> 01:21:23,101
I've always just...
Just wanted to see her.
1408
01:21:24,500 --> 01:21:25,565
It's all about you.
1409
01:21:27,404 --> 01:21:29,140
Even now, huh?
1410
01:21:29,769 --> 01:21:31,538
(Charlie sighs heavily)
1411
01:21:31,573 --> 01:21:33,243
Now you know why
I kept you from her.
1412
01:21:34,312 --> 01:21:35,312
What?
1413
01:21:37,051 --> 01:21:39,986
She's awful. Isn't she?
1414
01:21:40,021 --> 01:21:43,319
She's a terror.
And you think it's my fault.
1415
01:21:43,354 --> 01:21:48,159
Wait, is that why you kept
her from me all this time?
1416
01:21:48,194 --> 01:21:52,361
Because you thought that I would
think that you're a bad mother?
1417
01:21:53,463 --> 01:21:54,463
At first.
1418
01:21:55,729 --> 01:21:58,730
But later, when she was 15, 16,
1419
01:22:01,075 --> 01:22:02,503
I was worried she would hurt you.
1420
01:22:03,143 --> 01:22:04,143
Hurt me?
1421
01:22:05,376 --> 01:22:06,474
It's ridiculous.
1422
01:22:06,509 --> 01:22:08,311
I don't take any pleasure
in admitting it.
1423
01:22:08,346 --> 01:22:10,742
I'm her mother, for Christ's sake.
1424
01:22:10,777 --> 01:22:13,580
You know, I spent way
too much time telling myself,
1425
01:22:13,615 --> 01:22:16,022
you know, "she's just rebellious,
1426
01:22:16,057 --> 01:22:17,188
"she's just difficult."
1427
01:22:19,555 --> 01:22:22,193
Charlie, she's evil.
1428
01:22:23,559 --> 01:22:24,723
She's not evil.
1429
01:22:31,468 --> 01:22:32,500
What are you doing?
1430
01:22:38,442 --> 01:22:40,046
(Mary typing)
You think it's just me?
1431
01:22:51,752 --> 01:22:55,094
"There'll be a grease fire in
hell when he starts to burn."
1432
01:23:02,532 --> 01:23:03,532
Don't feel bad.
1433
01:23:05,106 --> 01:23:07,238
I've made quite a few
appearances on that thing.
1434
01:23:10,870 --> 01:23:12,243
She's a strong writer.
1435
01:23:14,412 --> 01:23:16,181
(raises voice)
That's your response?
1436
01:23:16,216 --> 01:23:17,281
This isn't evil.
1437
01:23:17,778 --> 01:23:19,382
This is honesty.
1438
01:23:19,417 --> 01:23:21,813
Do you know how much bullshit
I've read in my life?
1439
01:23:21,848 --> 01:23:24,684
My god, I don't
understand you, Charlie!
1440
01:23:24,719 --> 01:23:26,719
Every time I call
and ask you how she's doing,
1441
01:23:26,754 --> 01:23:28,094
you say, "she's fine."
1442
01:23:28,756 --> 01:23:30,327
If she's so evil, then...
1443
01:23:30,362 --> 01:23:31,867
(Mary shouting) What was I
supposed to tell you?
1444
01:23:31,891 --> 01:23:34,562
Huh? That she was off
making her classmates cry
1445
01:23:34,597 --> 01:23:36,135
or slashing her teachers' tires?
1446
01:23:36,170 --> 01:23:37,444
You didn't want to hear that stuff!
1447
01:23:37,468 --> 01:23:38,567
I could have helped her!
1448
01:23:38,603 --> 01:23:42,141
She doesn't want your help!
She doesn't want anyone!
1449
01:23:42,176 --> 01:23:44,143
You think I didn't want her
to have a dad?
1450
01:23:44,838 --> 01:23:46,508
She adored you!
1451
01:23:46,543 --> 01:23:48,389
The only reason you
married me in the first place
1452
01:23:48,413 --> 01:23:50,215
was to have a kid, I know that!
1453
01:23:50,250 --> 01:23:51,414
Mary, please!
1454
01:23:52,153 --> 01:23:53,218
(Mary sighs)
1455
01:23:57,290 --> 01:24:00,489
Well, this brings back
memories, doesn't it?
1456
01:24:02,526 --> 01:24:03,624
(sighs)
1457
01:24:04,660 --> 01:24:06,198
(wheezes, coughs)
1458
01:24:19,675 --> 01:24:20,675
Listen.
1459
01:24:23,514 --> 01:24:25,448
I never got to say that I was sorry.
1460
01:24:27,353 --> 01:24:29,716
What would you have
to be sorry about?
1461
01:24:29,751 --> 01:24:30,816
That's not what I mean.
1462
01:24:32,490 --> 01:24:33,490
I mean...
1463
01:24:38,265 --> 01:24:40,562
About your friend.
1464
01:24:41,928 --> 01:24:43,136
Oh.
1465
01:24:46,669 --> 01:24:47,734
His name was Alan.
1466
01:24:47,769 --> 01:24:49,439
I know his fucking name, Charlie.
1467
01:24:54,215 --> 01:24:55,215
I saw him once,
1468
01:24:56,811 --> 01:24:58,250
in the Walmart parking lot.
1469
01:24:59,220 --> 01:25:00,086
He wasn't looking too good,
1470
01:25:00,121 --> 01:25:02,155
and I don't think
it was long before he...
1471
01:25:04,390 --> 01:25:06,819
Anyway, I had
all these things that I...
1472
01:25:06,854 --> 01:25:07,854
I wanted to say to him,
1473
01:25:07,889 --> 01:25:09,756
you know, hurl at him
like bricks. (sniffles)
1474
01:25:10,528 --> 01:25:12,495
But I...
1475
01:25:12,530 --> 01:25:14,167
I asked if he wanted some help.
1476
01:25:16,633 --> 01:25:18,633
He let me carry
a couple of bags to his car,
1477
01:25:19,933 --> 01:25:21,240
he said thank you,
1478
01:25:22,837 --> 01:25:23,837
and I left.
1479
01:25:27,677 --> 01:25:29,281
I never even told him who I was.
1480
01:25:32,880 --> 01:25:34,385
(wheezes softly)
1481
01:25:35,751 --> 01:25:37,355
(wheezing)
1482
01:25:38,391 --> 01:25:39,423
You're wheezing.
1483
01:25:40,789 --> 01:25:43,526
Yeah, it's gotten worse.
1484
01:25:44,430 --> 01:25:45,561
Should I call someone?
1485
01:25:46,300 --> 01:25:48,333
No. Um...
1486
01:25:53,604 --> 01:25:54,702
You'll let me hear?
1487
01:26:03,614 --> 01:26:04,778
(grunts)
1488
01:26:19,630 --> 01:26:20,695
(hoarsely) How do I sound?
1489
01:26:28,639 --> 01:26:30,969
That was the first time
we've all been together
1490
01:26:31,004 --> 01:26:33,774
in almost nine years.
Do you realize that?
1491
01:26:33,809 --> 01:26:34,940
(chuckles dryly)
1492
01:26:43,555 --> 01:26:45,489
When Ellie was little,
1493
01:26:45,524 --> 01:26:49,262
when we took that trip
to the Oregon coast together,
1494
01:26:50,331 --> 01:26:52,397
Ellie played in the sand, and...
1495
01:26:52,762 --> 01:26:53,860
(sniffles)
1496
01:26:53,895 --> 01:26:55,763
We laid out on the beach.
1497
01:26:57,096 --> 01:26:58,733
I went swimming in the ocean.
1498
01:27:01,408 --> 01:27:03,903
That was the last time I
ever went swimming, actually.
1499
01:27:06,974 --> 01:27:09,414
I kept cutting my legs on the rocks.
1500
01:27:12,980 --> 01:27:14,980
The water was so cold.
1501
01:27:15,015 --> 01:27:16,487
(ocean waves splashing)
1502
01:27:26,697 --> 01:27:30,501
And you were so mad
that my legs bled
1503
01:27:30,536 --> 01:27:32,800
and stained the seats
in the minivan.
1504
01:27:32,835 --> 01:27:34,068
(chuckles)
1505
01:27:34,103 --> 01:27:38,707
And you said, for days after
that, I smelled like seawater.
1506
01:27:38,742 --> 01:27:40,676
(Charlie laughs, sniffles)
1507
01:27:40,711 --> 01:27:42,414
(wheezes) You remember that?
1508
01:27:42,449 --> 01:27:45,483
(coughing)
1509
01:27:46,486 --> 01:27:48,046
(sniffles)
1510
01:27:49,984 --> 01:27:51,324
You sound awful.
1511
01:27:52,822 --> 01:27:55,020
(sighs) I'm dying, Mary.
1512
01:27:59,092 --> 01:28:00,092
Fuck you.
1513
01:28:02,029 --> 01:28:03,369
I'm sorry.
1514
01:28:04,834 --> 01:28:05,932
Fuck you.
1515
01:28:08,838 --> 01:28:09,969
(crying) For sure?
1516
01:28:10,840 --> 01:28:13,478
Yeah. For sure.
1517
01:28:13,513 --> 01:28:15,612
(cries, sighs)
1518
01:28:15,647 --> 01:28:16,844
Charlie: Listen to me.
1519
01:28:19,849 --> 01:28:22,388
I need to make certain
that she's going to be okay.
1520
01:28:23,490 --> 01:28:24,687
We can't give up on her.
1521
01:28:25,525 --> 01:28:27,151
You already gave up on her!
1522
01:28:27,186 --> 01:28:29,120
You gave up on her
when she was eight years old!
1523
01:28:29,155 --> 01:28:32,156
I wish I could have been
a part of her life, Mary,
1524
01:28:32,191 --> 01:28:34,059
a part of both of your lives.
1525
01:28:34,094 --> 01:28:35,094
Go to the hospital.
1526
01:28:36,470 --> 01:28:38,701
You have money,
just go to the hospital!
1527
01:28:39,770 --> 01:28:44,102
We both know that
that money is for Ellie.
1528
01:28:45,105 --> 01:28:49,481
But beyond that,
1529
01:28:49,516 --> 01:28:53,584
I need to know that she's
gonna have a decent life.
1530
01:28:54,719 --> 01:28:56,917
Where she cares about people
1531
01:28:56,952 --> 01:28:59,051
and other people care about her.
1532
01:29:00,560 --> 01:29:02,560
(crying) And she's gonna be okay.
1533
01:29:03,563 --> 01:29:04,529
I need to go. Mary.
1534
01:29:04,564 --> 01:29:08,093
She doesn't have
anyone else! I have to go.
1535
01:29:08,128 --> 01:29:10,766
(crying) I need to know
that I have done
1536
01:29:10,801 --> 01:29:13,604
one thing right with my life!
1537
01:29:17,170 --> 01:29:18,576
We both played our parts.
1538
01:29:20,074 --> 01:29:22,613
I raised her, and you're
giving her the money.
1539
01:29:23,242 --> 01:29:24,549
It's the best we could do.
1540
01:29:26,619 --> 01:29:27,750
(sighs)
1541
01:29:30,623 --> 01:29:31,623
Do you need anything
1542
01:29:33,054 --> 01:29:34,086
before I leave?
1543
01:29:35,089 --> 01:29:36,429
Water, or something.
1544
01:29:37,663 --> 01:29:39,058
(coughs)
1545
01:29:44,263 --> 01:29:45,669
(sighs)
1546
01:29:45,968 --> 01:29:47,165
(coughs)
1547
01:29:58,585 --> 01:29:59,716
(phone button beeps)
1548
01:29:59,751 --> 01:30:02,147
(snoring, thunder rumbles)
1549
01:30:03,788 --> 01:30:05,755
(rain pouring)
1550
01:30:07,990 --> 01:30:10,529
(thunder rumbling)
1551
01:30:10,564 --> 01:30:11,959
(coughs)
1552
01:30:26,008 --> 01:30:27,579
(water trickling)
1553
01:30:45,863 --> 01:30:47,192
(knock at door)
1554
01:30:47,227 --> 01:30:48,864
Dan: Gambino's!
1555
01:30:48,899 --> 01:30:50,998
(Charlie coughing) Yeah.
1556
01:30:51,033 --> 01:30:52,033
Dan: Charlie?
1557
01:30:53,233 --> 01:30:54,233
You okay?
1558
01:30:56,038 --> 01:30:57,906
Charlie: Yeah. (clears throat)
1559
01:30:59,580 --> 01:31:01,107
The money is in the, um...
1560
01:31:02,682 --> 01:31:03,714
Dan: Sure.
1561
01:31:03,749 --> 01:31:04,946
(mailbox opens)
1562
01:31:07,786 --> 01:31:09,148
Dan: You sure you're doing okay?
1563
01:31:11,251 --> 01:31:13,251
Yeah. Thanks, Dan.
1564
01:31:13,286 --> 01:31:15,088
Dan: Have a good night, okay?
1565
01:31:15,761 --> 01:31:16,859
(mailbox closes)
1566
01:31:22,064 --> 01:31:23,998
(rain pouring heavily)
1567
01:31:40,852 --> 01:31:41,852
(mumbles)
1568
01:31:54,800 --> 01:31:56,932
(intense music playing)
1569
01:32:09,111 --> 01:32:11,111
(breathing heavily)
1570
01:32:16,756 --> 01:32:18,283
(thunder rumbling)
1571
01:32:25,391 --> 01:32:26,797
(typing)
1572
01:32:35,368 --> 01:32:37,005
(whispering) Fuck these essays.
1573
01:32:38,074 --> 01:32:39,238
Fuck these readings.
1574
01:32:41,814 --> 01:32:45,915
Just write something fucking
honest. (banging keyboard)
1575
01:32:49,723 --> 01:32:50,723
(slams laptop shut)
1576
01:32:51,252 --> 01:32:52,252
(sighs)
1577
01:32:55,223 --> 01:32:57,355
(intense music continues)
1578
01:33:39,938 --> 01:33:41,333
(retches)
1579
01:33:41,368 --> 01:33:42,807
(spits)
1580
01:33:42,842 --> 01:33:44,743
(coughs, wheezes)
1581
01:33:45,438 --> 01:33:47,108
(gasps)
1582
01:33:47,440 --> 01:33:50,309
(coughing)
1583
01:33:54,315 --> 01:33:56,150
(continues coughing)
1584
01:33:57,450 --> 01:33:58,823
(stifles sob)
1585
01:33:59,353 --> 01:34:01,485
(sobbing)
1586
01:34:01,520 --> 01:34:03,223
(coughs, sobs)
1587
01:34:08,934 --> 01:34:11,165
(continues sobbing)
1588
01:34:11,200 --> 01:34:12,705
(coughs)
1589
01:34:15,776 --> 01:34:16,940
(knock at door)
1590
01:34:16,975 --> 01:34:18,304
(gasps) Liz?
1591
01:34:20,176 --> 01:34:22,209
(knocking continues)
1592
01:34:22,244 --> 01:34:23,375
Thomas: Can I come inside?
1593
01:34:25,148 --> 01:34:26,180
It's not locked.
1594
01:34:28,448 --> 01:34:29,755
Hi. What's wrong?
1595
01:34:30,417 --> 01:34:31,922
Thank you. For what?
1596
01:34:31,957 --> 01:34:34,826
Look, I'm not exactly
who I said I was.
1597
01:34:34,861 --> 01:34:36,454
I'm not from new life.
1598
01:34:36,489 --> 01:34:38,060
What? I... I don't...
1599
01:34:38,095 --> 01:34:40,029
I've been in a pretty bad
place recently.
1600
01:34:40,064 --> 01:34:41,426
I... I stole some money,
1601
01:34:41,461 --> 01:34:43,461
and I ran away from home
a few months ago.
1602
01:34:43,496 --> 01:34:46,332
And your daughter, she took
these pictures of me smoking pot,
1603
01:34:46,367 --> 01:34:48,774
and a recording
or something like that,
1604
01:34:48,809 --> 01:34:50,974
and she found my church
in Waterloo somehow,
1605
01:34:51,009 --> 01:34:52,173
and then she sent it to them,
1606
01:34:52,208 --> 01:34:53,911
and they sent it to
my parents... Wait.
1607
01:34:53,946 --> 01:34:55,146
And you know what they said?
1608
01:34:56,080 --> 01:34:57,112
"It's just money."
1609
01:34:58,214 --> 01:35:00,115
And they forgive me.
1610
01:35:00,150 --> 01:35:02,920
And they love me, and
they want me to come home.
1611
01:35:04,517 --> 01:35:06,055
How awful is that?
1612
01:35:07,157 --> 01:35:09,828
Ellie, she... She did all that?
1613
01:35:09,863 --> 01:35:14,096
I can't tell if she was trying
to help me or hurt me or...
1614
01:35:14,131 --> 01:35:15,438
Do you ever get that
feeling from her? (chuckles)
1615
01:35:15,462 --> 01:35:17,099
How did she even... she...
1616
01:35:18,971 --> 01:35:21,840
She found your church,
she tracked down your parents.
1617
01:35:23,173 --> 01:35:24,469
She really did all that?
1618
01:35:24,504 --> 01:35:26,207
Yeah. I mean,
I'm going home tomorrow.
1619
01:35:27,309 --> 01:35:28,946
But, Charlie, before I go...
(laughs)
1620
01:35:28,981 --> 01:35:30,376
I have to show you this.
1621
01:35:30,411 --> 01:35:32,312
(breathes uncomfortably)
1622
01:35:32,347 --> 01:35:33,951
What... what's wrong?
(grunts heavily)
1623
01:35:33,986 --> 01:35:35,216
Wait, are you okay?
1624
01:35:35,251 --> 01:35:37,251
It just hurts. Charlie,
1625
01:35:37,286 --> 01:35:39,517
I want to help you.
I know I can help you.
1626
01:35:39,552 --> 01:35:41,453
I'm not going to the hospital.
1627
01:35:41,488 --> 01:35:42,993
No, I know.
I'm not gonna make you go.
1628
01:35:43,028 --> 01:35:44,291
But I can help you.
1629
01:35:46,262 --> 01:35:47,877
"Therefore, brothers and
sisters..." What are you doing?
1630
01:35:47,901 --> 01:35:49,197
"We have an obligation,
1631
01:35:49,232 --> 01:35:51,430
"but it is not to the flesh,
to live according to it.
1632
01:35:51,465 --> 01:35:54,202
"For if you live according
to the flesh, you will die.
1633
01:35:54,237 --> 01:35:56,567
"But if by the spirit
you put to death
1634
01:35:56,602 --> 01:35:59,174
"the misdeeds of the body,
then you will live."
1635
01:35:59,209 --> 01:36:01,077
I... I don't understand.
1636
01:36:01,112 --> 01:36:04,014
Charlie, when I read this,
I finally got it.
1637
01:36:04,049 --> 01:36:07,380
I finally understood why
god brought me here to you.
1638
01:36:07,415 --> 01:36:09,547
So I could help you understand
what happened to Alan,
1639
01:36:09,582 --> 01:36:11,087
so it doesn't happen to you, too.
1640
01:36:14,125 --> 01:36:15,058
How did you get this?
1641
01:36:15,093 --> 01:36:18,490
Charlie, Alan tried
to escape god's will.
1642
01:36:18,525 --> 01:36:20,899
He chose his life with you over god.
1643
01:36:20,934 --> 01:36:24,496
But this is why he was so
obsessed with this verse.
1644
01:36:24,531 --> 01:36:26,300
He knew that he was living
in the flesh,
1645
01:36:26,335 --> 01:36:27,568
and not in the spirit.
1646
01:36:27,603 --> 01:36:30,942
He never prayed for salvation,
but it's not too late for you.
1647
01:36:30,977 --> 01:36:32,537
Through the spirit,
you can put to death
1648
01:36:32,572 --> 01:36:34,913
the misdeeds of the body,
and you will live.
1649
01:36:36,510 --> 01:36:39,049
You think Alan died because
he chose to be with me?
1650
01:36:41,350 --> 01:36:42,987
You think god turned his back on him
1651
01:36:43,022 --> 01:36:44,222
because he and I were in love?
1652
01:36:48,423 --> 01:36:49,423
Yes.
1653
01:36:54,330 --> 01:36:55,330
(sighs)
1654
01:36:58,037 --> 01:37:00,334
You know something?
I wasn't always this big.
1655
01:37:01,700 --> 01:37:03,975
Yeah, I know.
1656
01:37:04,010 --> 01:37:06,307
I mean, I wasn't the
best-looking guy in the room, but...
1657
01:37:08,014 --> 01:37:09,014
Alan loved me.
1658
01:37:12,084 --> 01:37:13,182
He thought I was beautiful.
1659
01:37:17,716 --> 01:37:18,924
Okay.
1660
01:37:21,126 --> 01:37:22,895
Halfway through the semester,
1661
01:37:24,327 --> 01:37:27,966
he started meeting me
during my office hours.
1662
01:37:28,001 --> 01:37:32,168
And we were... We were
crazy about one another.
1663
01:37:32,203 --> 01:37:34,236
But we waited
1664
01:37:34,271 --> 01:37:37,008
until the class was over before...
1665
01:37:37,043 --> 01:37:38,076
This isn't, uh...
1666
01:37:38,111 --> 01:37:41,441
It was just after classes
had ended for the year.
1667
01:37:41,476 --> 01:37:43,377
It was perfect temperature outside.
1668
01:37:44,446 --> 01:37:46,347
We took a walk in the arboretum,
1669
01:37:48,989 --> 01:37:50,021
and we kissed.
1670
01:37:50,518 --> 01:37:52,287
Charlie, stop.
1671
01:37:52,322 --> 01:37:55,653
We would spend entire nights
lying together, naked.
1672
01:37:58,262 --> 01:37:59,360
We would make love.
1673
01:38:05,071 --> 01:38:06,169
We would make love.
1674
01:38:09,438 --> 01:38:11,108
Do you find that disgusting?
1675
01:38:11,143 --> 01:38:12,736
Charlie, god is ready to help you.
1676
01:38:12,771 --> 01:38:16,311
Oh, I hope that there isn't a god,
1677
01:38:16,346 --> 01:38:19,050
because I hate to think
that there's an afterlife,
1678
01:38:19,085 --> 01:38:22,548
and that Alan can see
what I have done to myself.
1679
01:38:22,583 --> 01:38:25,650
Charlie... That he can
see my swollen feet
1680
01:38:25,685 --> 01:38:27,553
and the sores on my skin,
1681
01:38:27,588 --> 01:38:29,027
and the patches of mold
1682
01:38:29,062 --> 01:38:30,325
in between the flaps. Stop.
1683
01:38:30,360 --> 01:38:32,393
The infected ulcers on my ass,
1684
01:38:32,428 --> 01:38:36,100
and the sack of fat on my back
that turned brown last year.
1685
01:38:36,135 --> 01:38:38,102
Okay, stop! This is disgusting?
1686
01:38:38,137 --> 01:38:40,203
Yes! I'm disgusting?
1687
01:38:40,238 --> 01:38:42,106
(shouting) Yes,
you're disgusting! You're...
1688
01:38:53,548 --> 01:38:55,317
(breath shuddering,
whispering) I'm sorry.
1689
01:38:59,125 --> 01:39:00,125
What?
1690
01:39:03,459 --> 01:39:05,459
Go home to your family.
1691
01:39:16,142 --> 01:39:18,340
(Charlie coughs, door opens)
1692
01:39:19,739 --> 01:39:24,049
(door closes)
(continues coughing)
1693
01:39:25,712 --> 01:39:27,349
(coughs heavily)
1694
01:39:54,675 --> 01:39:57,544
Charlie: Well, your
complaints have been heard.
1695
01:39:58,382 --> 01:39:59,546
I've been replaced
1696
01:39:59,581 --> 01:40:01,713
by someone who will, no doubt,
1697
01:40:01,748 --> 01:40:05,189
have you rewrite,
and rewrite, and rewrite,
1698
01:40:05,653 --> 01:40:08,159
be more objective,
1699
01:40:08,821 --> 01:40:10,227
less authentic,
1700
01:40:10,262 --> 01:40:12,757
less you, with every draft.
1701
01:40:15,729 --> 01:40:19,434
But some of you saw my post
1702
01:40:19,469 --> 01:40:22,404
about writing something honest.
1703
01:40:25,739 --> 01:40:26,739
And...
1704
01:40:28,148 --> 01:40:29,148
(sighs)
1705
01:40:30,282 --> 01:40:32,084
The things that some of you wrote...
1706
01:40:33,912 --> 01:40:35,351
Kristy, you wrote,
1707
01:40:36,453 --> 01:40:39,520
"my parents want me
to be a radiologist,
1708
01:40:39,555 --> 01:40:42,160
"but I don't even know
what that is."
1709
01:40:48,696 --> 01:40:50,234
Julian, you wrote,
1710
01:40:50,269 --> 01:40:53,567
"I'm sick of people telling me
that I have promise."
1711
01:41:01,379 --> 01:41:02,444
Adam, you wrote,
1712
01:41:03,612 --> 01:41:05,513
"I think I need to accept
that my life
1713
01:41:05,548 --> 01:41:07,878
"isn't going to be
very exciting."
1714
01:41:11,224 --> 01:41:15,589
You all wrote these
amazing, honest things, and...
1715
01:41:17,725 --> 01:41:19,824
You've been so honest
with me that I... I...
1716
01:41:23,401 --> 01:41:24,532
(grunts softly)
1717
01:41:25,502 --> 01:41:26,831
I just want to be...
1718
01:41:28,406 --> 01:41:29,801
Honest with you, too.
1719
01:41:30,870 --> 01:41:32,210
(exhales)
1720
01:41:35,677 --> 01:41:37,710
(breathes deeply)
1721
01:42:05,410 --> 01:42:06,640
(sighs heavily)
1722
01:42:12,010 --> 01:42:13,713
These assignments don't matter.
1723
01:42:15,519 --> 01:42:16,749
This course doesn't matter.
1724
01:42:18,885 --> 01:42:20,225
College doesn't matter.
1725
01:42:22,559 --> 01:42:25,494
These amazing, honest things
that you wrote,
1726
01:42:29,533 --> 01:42:30,631
they matter.
1727
01:42:34,670 --> 01:42:35,768
(laptop crashes)
1728
01:42:38,003 --> 01:42:39,871
(Charlie wheezes)
1729
01:42:50,015 --> 01:42:51,421
(Charlie coughs)
1730
01:43:05,998 --> 01:43:07,866
(wheezing continues)
1731
01:43:12,070 --> 01:43:13,707
I'm sorry. Don't.
1732
01:43:20,452 --> 01:43:21,946
(breathes erratically)
1733
01:43:25,017 --> 01:43:26,390
(suppresses grunt)
1734
01:43:30,330 --> 01:43:32,930
I really hate you for putting me
through this again, you know that?
1735
01:43:35,896 --> 01:43:37,434
Those last few months before Alan...
1736
01:43:38,932 --> 01:43:41,438
I'd come over here,
shake him, scream at him,
1737
01:43:41,473 --> 01:43:43,473
just trying to get him
to fucking eat something.
1738
01:43:43,508 --> 01:43:46,036
God, that was awful!
It was awful for me, too.
1739
01:43:46,071 --> 01:43:47,444
Yeah? Well, you weren't the one
1740
01:43:47,479 --> 01:43:48,874
who had to identify his body,
1741
01:43:48,909 --> 01:43:50,612
all bloated...
They wouldn't let me.
1742
01:43:52,077 --> 01:43:53,483
I wasn't family.
1743
01:43:55,047 --> 01:43:56,354
(sighs)
1744
01:44:02,626 --> 01:44:04,626
(Charlie coughs and wheezes)
1745
01:44:07,631 --> 01:44:09,730
I got you two meatball subs.
Extra cheese.
1746
01:44:15,100 --> 01:44:16,836
(sighs, sniffles)
1747
01:44:16,871 --> 01:44:18,002
I don't know what I'm doing.
1748
01:44:24,483 --> 01:44:26,714
(breathes heavily)
1749
01:44:26,749 --> 01:44:28,881
I'm not going to the hospital.
1750
01:44:28,916 --> 01:44:30,454
I'm not asking you to.
1751
01:44:35,857 --> 01:44:37,692
I can't do this anymore.
1752
01:44:40,796 --> 01:44:42,532
I tried to save him, Liz.
1753
01:44:45,801 --> 01:44:47,735
I thought that if I just loved him,
1754
01:44:50,674 --> 01:44:52,476
that he wouldn't need anyone else.
1755
01:44:55,448 --> 01:44:56,876
I told him he didn't need god,
1756
01:44:58,176 --> 01:45:01,518
he didn't need anyone but me.
1757
01:45:03,423 --> 01:45:04,423
Charlie,
1758
01:45:05,887 --> 01:45:07,689
all I know is that you gave Alan
1759
01:45:07,724 --> 01:45:08,954
the best years of his life.
1760
01:45:08,989 --> 01:45:10,571
If it weren't for you,
he would have jumped off
1761
01:45:10,595 --> 01:45:12,562
that bridge years earlier.
(shudders)
1762
01:45:13,158 --> 01:45:14,531
Nobody could've saved him.
1763
01:45:14,566 --> 01:45:16,434
Believe me, I spent years trying.
1764
01:45:17,063 --> 01:45:18,700
(breathes heavily)
1765
01:45:20,473 --> 01:45:23,067
I don't think I believe anyone
can save anyone.
1766
01:45:29,548 --> 01:45:30,613
She saved him.
1767
01:45:33,079 --> 01:45:37,180
She wasn't trying to hurt him.
She was trying to help him.
1768
01:45:37,215 --> 01:45:39,149
Who are you talking about?
1769
01:45:39,184 --> 01:45:41,624
He's going home. She did that.
1770
01:45:42,891 --> 01:45:44,990
Charlie...
She didn't do it to hurt him,
1771
01:45:45,795 --> 01:45:48,026
she did it to send him home.
1772
01:45:49,601 --> 01:45:51,931
Do you feel light-headed?
Charlie, look at me.
1773
01:45:51,966 --> 01:45:54,571
She was trying to help him. Who?
1774
01:45:55,640 --> 01:45:59,169
Ellie. She was trying
to help him,
1775
01:45:59,204 --> 01:46:01,105
she just wanted to send him home.
1776
01:46:03,813 --> 01:46:07,650
Do you ever get the feeling that...
1777
01:46:09,555 --> 01:46:12,919
People are incapable of not caring?
1778
01:46:18,498 --> 01:46:19,926
People are amazing.
1779
01:46:21,501 --> 01:46:22,533
(door opens)
1780
01:46:23,635 --> 01:46:24,700
What the fuck did you do?
1781
01:46:27,837 --> 01:46:28,869
What's wrong with him?
1782
01:46:31,038 --> 01:46:32,038
He's dying.
1783
01:46:33,942 --> 01:46:35,612
So, call someone.
1784
01:46:35,647 --> 01:46:37,482
(softly) No.
Call a fucking ambulance!
1785
01:46:38,111 --> 01:46:39,111
Liz.
1786
01:46:40,113 --> 01:46:41,519
I need to talk to him.
1787
01:46:41,554 --> 01:46:42,795
I'm not leaving you alone with him.
1788
01:46:42,819 --> 01:46:44,247
I need to talk to him alone.
1789
01:46:44,282 --> 01:46:45,490
(softly) Liz.
1790
01:46:48,286 --> 01:46:49,527
Please.
1791
01:46:54,094 --> 01:46:55,094
Okay.
1792
01:47:01,706 --> 01:47:03,508
(stifled sobbing)
1793
01:47:12,849 --> 01:47:13,980
Liz: I'll call someone.
1794
01:47:16,919 --> 01:47:17,919
Charlie.
1795
01:47:21,055 --> 01:47:22,659
I'll wait downstairs.
1796
01:47:30,130 --> 01:47:32,130
Why did you do that?
(chuckling) What?
1797
01:47:34,574 --> 01:47:35,574
I failed.
1798
01:47:36,202 --> 01:47:37,806
It's a really good essay.
1799
01:47:37,841 --> 01:47:40,776
Are you just trying to
screw me over one last time?
1800
01:47:40,811 --> 01:47:42,822
I don't care about you! I
don't care that you're dying.
1801
01:47:42,846 --> 01:47:44,186
Do you want me to fail
out of high school?
1802
01:47:44,210 --> 01:47:46,177
Is that why you did this?
I didn't write it.
1803
01:47:46,212 --> 01:47:48,718
This is the essay
that you gave me yesterday.
1804
01:47:48,753 --> 01:47:50,588
You didn't read it.
I don't need to read it.
1805
01:47:51,052 --> 01:47:52,052
Read it.
1806
01:47:56,189 --> 01:47:58,090
(breathing laboriously)
1807
01:48:03,669 --> 01:48:04,669
This is...
1808
01:48:06,067 --> 01:48:07,605
I know what this is.
1809
01:48:07,640 --> 01:48:09,706
(chuckling) I knew you would.
1810
01:48:10,775 --> 01:48:11,775
I wrote this.
1811
01:48:14,042 --> 01:48:15,778
You never forget anything.
1812
01:48:15,813 --> 01:48:18,682
I wrote this in eighth grade
for English. Why do you...
1813
01:48:18,717 --> 01:48:20,783
"And I felt saddest of all
1814
01:48:20,818 --> 01:48:23,049
"when I read the boring chapters
1815
01:48:23,084 --> 01:48:25,920
"that were only descriptions
of whales,
1816
01:48:25,955 --> 01:48:28,956
"because I knew that
1817
01:48:28,991 --> 01:48:32,630
"the author
was just trying to save us
1818
01:48:32,665 --> 01:48:34,929
"from his own sad story,
1819
01:48:36,933 --> 01:48:38,801
"just for a little while."
1820
01:48:38,836 --> 01:48:40,605
(Charlie chuckles, sniffles)
1821
01:48:40,640 --> 01:48:43,300
How do you have this?
Your mother,
1822
01:48:43,335 --> 01:48:45,368
she sent it to me four years ago.
1823
01:48:45,403 --> 01:48:48,140
I wanted to know
how you were doing in school,
1824
01:48:48,175 --> 01:48:49,944
and she sent it.
1825
01:48:49,979 --> 01:48:53,211
And it's the best essay
I've ever read.
1826
01:48:53,246 --> 01:48:55,126
(sobbing) Why are you
fucking with me like this?
1827
01:48:55,919 --> 01:48:56,919
I'm not.
1828
01:48:57,987 --> 01:49:01,351
(sobs) I'm sorry for leaving you.
1829
01:49:03,696 --> 01:49:07,093
I was in love, and...
1830
01:49:07,128 --> 01:49:08,996
(inhales laboriously)
I left you behind.
1831
01:49:10,934 --> 01:49:14,298
You did not deserve that.
I don't...
1832
01:49:14,333 --> 01:49:16,773
I don't know how
(inhales laboriously)
1833
01:49:16,808 --> 01:49:18,709
I could have done such a thing.
1834
01:49:18,744 --> 01:49:21,008
You're so beautiful. (sobs)
1835
01:49:21,043 --> 01:49:22,944
You're amazing. Stop.
1836
01:49:25,245 --> 01:49:27,982
You're amazing. (sobs)
1837
01:49:28,820 --> 01:49:30,952
This essay is amazing.
1838
01:49:32,725 --> 01:49:35,187
This essay is you.
1839
01:49:35,222 --> 01:49:36,353
Stop saying that.
1840
01:49:36,388 --> 01:49:39,994
This essay is you.
Stop saying that!
1841
01:49:40,029 --> 01:49:43,129
You're the best thing
I have ever done.
1842
01:49:43,164 --> 01:49:44,702
(cries out in pain)
1843
01:49:44,737 --> 01:49:46,836
(coughs) What's the matter?
1844
01:49:46,871 --> 01:49:47,903
Ellie!
1845
01:49:47,938 --> 01:49:49,872
No. Okay, I can't
be here right now.
1846
01:49:49,907 --> 01:49:51,269
I have to go. You're perfect.
1847
01:49:51,876 --> 01:49:53,007
You'll be happy.
1848
01:49:54,340 --> 01:49:57,209
You care about people. (sobs)
1849
01:49:57,244 --> 01:49:58,884
The ambulance is coming,
they'll help you.
1850
01:49:58,916 --> 01:50:00,344
No. They won't.
1851
01:50:00,379 --> 01:50:03,248
You're going to the hospital.
No.
1852
01:50:03,283 --> 01:50:05,316
You just need surgery, or something!
1853
01:50:05,351 --> 01:50:09,287
Read it to me. (grunts) What?
1854
01:50:09,322 --> 01:50:12,829
(struggling) If you want
to help, read it to me.
1855
01:50:13,832 --> 01:50:16,800
You'll help if you read it.
1856
01:50:16,835 --> 01:50:19,099
You asshole.
You fat fucking asshole!
1857
01:50:19,134 --> 01:50:20,166
You'll help... Fuck you.
1858
01:50:20,201 --> 01:50:21,464
Please. Fuck you!
1859
01:50:21,499 --> 01:50:22,773
Ellie!
1860
01:50:26,207 --> 01:50:27,404
(sobbing) Daddy, please.
1861
01:50:35,447 --> 01:50:36,985
(Ellie sniffling)
1862
01:50:46,392 --> 01:50:49,998
"In the amazing book, Moby Dick,
by the author Herman Melville,
1863
01:50:50,033 --> 01:50:52,935
"the author recounts his story
of being at sea.
1864
01:50:52,970 --> 01:50:54,299
"In the first part of his book,
1865
01:50:54,334 --> 01:50:56,334
"the author,
calling himself ishmael,
1866
01:50:56,369 --> 01:50:58,105
"is in a small seaside town
1867
01:50:58,140 --> 01:51:01,174
"and he is sharing a bed
with a man named Queequeg.
1868
01:51:01,209 --> 01:51:03,506
"The author and Queequeg
go to church
1869
01:51:03,541 --> 01:51:04,980
"and later set out on a ship
1870
01:51:05,015 --> 01:51:06,443
"captained by a pirate named Ahab,
1871
01:51:06,478 --> 01:51:07,884
"who is missing a leg,
1872
01:51:08,920 --> 01:51:10,513
"and very much wants
to kill the whale
1873
01:51:10,548 --> 01:51:13,791
"which is named Moby Dick,
and which is white.
1874
01:51:13,826 --> 01:51:15,826
"In the course of the book,
1875
01:51:15,861 --> 01:51:18,224
"the pirate Ahab encounters
many hardships." (grunts)
1876
01:51:18,259 --> 01:51:21,766
"His entire life is set around
trying to kill a certain whale."
1877
01:51:21,801 --> 01:51:23,328
(panting) "I think this is sad
1878
01:51:23,363 --> 01:51:25,044
"because this whale
doesn't have any emotions,
1879
01:51:25,068 --> 01:51:27,464
"and doesn't know how bad
Ahab wants to kill him.
1880
01:51:27,499 --> 01:51:28,839
"He's just a poor
1881
01:51:29,369 --> 01:51:32,007
"big animal."
1882
01:51:32,042 --> 01:51:35,010
(Charlie gasps for breath)
1883
01:51:35,045 --> 01:51:37,111
"And I feel bad for Ahab as well,
1884
01:51:37,146 --> 01:51:38,794
"because he thinks
that his life will be better
1885
01:51:38,818 --> 01:51:40,345
"if he can just kill this whale,
1886
01:51:40,380 --> 01:51:42,215
"but in reality,
it won't help him at all."
1887
01:51:43,251 --> 01:51:45,856
(Charlie breathing shallowly)
1888
01:51:45,891 --> 01:51:48,419
"I was very saddened by this book,
1889
01:51:48,454 --> 01:51:50,454
"and I felt many emotions
for the characters.
1890
01:51:53,294 --> 01:51:54,799
"And I felt saddest of all
1891
01:51:54,834 --> 01:51:56,042
"when I read the boring chapters
1892
01:51:56,066 --> 01:51:58,099
"that were only descriptions
of whales,
1893
01:51:58,134 --> 01:52:00,266
"because I knew
that the author was just trying
1894
01:52:00,301 --> 01:52:02,136
"to save us from his own sad story,
1895
01:52:03,007 --> 01:52:04,105
"just for a little while."
1896
01:52:04,140 --> 01:52:05,502
(gasping)
1897
01:52:05,537 --> 01:52:07,108
(waves lapping)
1898
01:52:07,143 --> 01:52:09,143
(emotional music playing)
1899
01:52:12,148 --> 01:52:14,049
"This book made me think
about my own life,
1900
01:52:15,415 --> 01:52:17,921
"and then it made me
feel glad for my..."
1901
01:52:17,956 --> 01:52:19,450
(breathing erratically)
1902
01:52:21,388 --> 01:52:22,453
(laughing)
1903
01:52:22,488 --> 01:52:23,520
(chuckles)
1904
01:52:23,555 --> 01:52:25,225
(music swells)
1905
01:52:25,260 --> 01:52:26,260
(gasps)
1906
01:52:34,467 --> 01:52:36,071
(waves crashing)
1907
01:52:37,404 --> 01:52:39,943
(emotional music continues)
1908
01:54:01,191 --> 01:54:03,191
(grim music playing)
1909
01:54:12,367 --> 01:54:14,367
(waves crashing gently)
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