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["Heroine" by Docker Daniels playing]
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♪ Your love is morphineAnd it's running through my veins ♪
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♪ You're my NirvanaAnd I'm your Kurt Cobain ♪
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[Vanessa] Oh my God.
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I can't believe you're doing this.
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{\an8}-I could never. My nipples are like…-Don't even talk at me.
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-Look at 'em.-[tattoo needle buzzing]
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{\an8}-Look at those nipples.-No.
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{\an8}-You're gonna have to.-I will. When it's happening.
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-[technician] Hey, guys.-[both] Hello.
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Hello.
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I'm ready.
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Coming into this experience,I couldn't make a decision
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on whether I was readyfor marriage with Lexi.
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Lexi was upsetthat Vanessa and I chose each other.
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Vanessa has, like, this freeness to herthat I don't see in myself.
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She's the kind of personthat I think goes for things
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that make her happyregardless of what the world thinks.
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Lexi has a very specific visionof what a marriage looks like.
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I'm still undecided.
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Is this a vision I want for myself?
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I'm still trying to figure out
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what's right for meand what's making me happy.
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[Vanessa] It's not often I take my top offin front of a man, but here we are.
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Rae is nervous for me.I can feel your nervous energy.
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-Oh shoot.-She's like, "Holy shit!"
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Are you gonna tell me when you…
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-[technician] Yeah.-[gasps]
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No, I just… I just clamped.
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[Vanessa] I'm just scared.I'm realizing I've done this to myself.
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-Just breathe.-Okay. I'm okay.
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Holy shit.
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[Vanessa whimpering]
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-[technician] Don't move.-[whimpering]
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-You're good.-You're done.
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That was insanely painful.
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That's my fucking nipple.
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-My hand is so sweaty.-I know. It's so sweaty.
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You're gonna do the other side?
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-Yeah.-[Rae] Do I switch sides?
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Holy fucking shit.
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Oh my God.
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[technician] One, two, three, and…
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[Rae laughs]
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-That one was quicker.-[Vanessa] Holy shit.
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Good job. You're done. You did it.
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-Do you want the picture now?-Yes.
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I'm gonna take a selfie with my nipples.
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Oh, Lexi's gonna love that picture.
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That one's for her.
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What do you think Xander's gonna think?She hasn't seen you in a while.
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This was step one of me redefining
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who I am by myself,potentially without Xander.
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Shall we continue our night,
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do something fun?
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And I'm gonna just keepflashing you my titties all night.
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-Yeah, let's go.-Yeah?
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-Let's go take these nipples out.-Yes.
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And then you flash me yours.
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[pulsing dance-pop playing]
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♪ Round and round we go ♪
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♪ I'm fighting for my life ♪
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{\an8}-We're both ones who issued the ultimatum.-Right.
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It's been really coolto kind of have a fresh start
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with someone who has similar values.
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{\an8}It is a big difference.
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{\an8}I don't want to have tofucking keep telling my partner
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to, like, clean up after themselves.
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-I don't want that mother-child dynamic.-Right.
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You literally, without any kind of stressor anxiety, like, just do it.
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I enjoy very muchbeing that support system.
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And you're sweet. And not bad to look at.
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Like, it's like…
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-We have a good time, so I'm like, "Okay."-Yeah.
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[Xander] I thoughtthat I had things figured out.
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Now I'm just like…
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Now I'm not sure where I'm at,and I'm not sure…
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I guess, like, how sure I was before.
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-It's stressful.-You know?
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The past few years with Vanessastresses me out.
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Do I need to reevaluatethat I'm gonna be married
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to someone that I came here with?
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Or, like, the thingsthat I'm seeing in you and that we have,
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if that's what I need instead.
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You really do want the best for me,
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and I think that you vocalizedand showed me that, like, right away.
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You are special.
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["Mad Chemistry" by ENZI playing]
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She sips.
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♪ I know you want to be with me ♪
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-[Xander] Hmm?-[laughs]
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♪ Someone else has come between us ♪
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♪ I don't really like your girlfriend ♪
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[broody, suggestive song continuing]
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{\an8}[Mildred] I don't iron anything.
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-Really? You don't iron anything?-No.
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[Aussie] I have to do a lot of ironing.
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{\an8}I don't knowif I'm lazy or I just don't care.
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{\an8}No. [laughs]
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[Mildred] It's been about a week.
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I've been living with Aussie,and I feel so extremely, like…
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{\an8}I don't know how to say it.I don't have the words.
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{\an8}But I just felt like200 pounds just got off my… my back.
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Because it feels good.
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It feels nice. It feels homey.
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It feels like I have a lot of comfort,and with Tiff I didn't have that.
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I wanted it so, so much,and then it just happened.
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Today was such a good day.
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Oh yeah.
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I was getting moments of, like,you're making me think about all this.
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Marriage and aboutwhat we're doing, you know.
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I was just like, whoa.
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I had that moment too. I was like, "Hey."
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"I'm experiencing new things."
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[sweet, thoughtful music plays]
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I know this is something that for youwas maybe a little scary, a little new,
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a little… caught you off-guard.
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Yeah.
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But you're amazing.
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-Aww.-Yeah.
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That's sweet.
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I think, okay, there's potential herefor, you know, a long-term commitment.
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So that's why it's super important
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to, you know, get youto meet my best friend.
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-Yeah, I'm excited.-Yeah.
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[Mildred] Aussie's so wonderfuland very supportive.
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So I'm happy that I'm doingthis journey with Aussie.
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I can't wait for the next two weeksto see how much more fun we're gonna have.
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Look at her.
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She still hasn't, like, moved.She's just stretched out even more.
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Zoey, are you gonna let us lay on the bed?
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-Hello.-Not yet.
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[Aussie laughing]
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Hello.
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-She don't care.-No.
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[upbeat dance-pop playing]
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{\an8}It's really cool to see, when we werecuddling the first night, that was easy.
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{\an8}Like, grabbing your handor touching your hair
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{\an8}or something like that.
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I know you mentioned with Yoly,
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building the friend foundationwas important to you.
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It's interesting.With you, some of my rules bend a little,
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so I guess they weren't rulesas much as I thought they were.
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I feel like you came in herewith the most specific timeline.
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Are you worriedabout what it would mean to get married?
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-Could your timeline change?-I think it could be more sure, sooner.
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[chuckles] How much sooner?
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Like six months? A year?
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You helped me realizethat we can be engaged,
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and we can build the thingsthat we want together.
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I don't have to show up,like, everything to take care of you.
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-We can do this together.-Yeah.
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The timeline…It completely changes how I feel.
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I didn't just change your timeline.
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-I wrecked your timeline.-You revolutionized my world.
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Like, should we leave this thing engaged?
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So you think there's a chance that youcould leave and we could be engaged?
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Sure.
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You do have good intuition.You can trust yourself.
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I think so.
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-I'm starting to understand that more.-Right?
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[pop singer]♪ I'm trying to figure it all ♪
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♪ Can we move things… ♪
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-[Tiff] Did you get a lot of sleep?-Yes, I did.
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I just remember you saying,"I'm going to the dog park."
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{\an8}And then the door closed,and then that's all. [laughs]
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{\an8}[Tiff] Can I be honest with youon the dog situation right now?
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[Sam] Yeah.
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Well, I slept on the couchwith the dog last night.
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And… I feel like I'm compromising
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by not kind of evenputting you in a situation
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where you have to deal withmy dog on the bed.
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You know, with Mildred, she's always beenafraid of dogs, her entire life.
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And she was like,"Look, I know she's a big part of you."
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"Like, that's your baby."
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"So I'm gonna figure outa way to make this work."
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Yeah. Well, I also think it's different,because I'm not Mildred.
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And I think the line is getting blurred.
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I've never said, like,"No, the dog cannot do this or that."
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-I've never said that.-I know that you never said that.
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But I also feel likethis is a trial marriage.
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Yeah.
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And Shylo is non-negotiable.
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["Heartlines" by Nicholas Patrick Kingsleyand Hannah Hart playing]
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♪ Heartlines ♪
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♪ Cut through my palm like a sacrifice ♪
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[exhales heavily]
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♪ You leave your scarsLike your own advice ♪
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Okay, so I'm put in a tough position too,because that's your non-negotiable.
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But then I also have totake care of myself too,
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and make surethat I'm not just, like, lying to you
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and just bottling things up,saying, "Oh yeah, let's just do it."
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And then I'm just, like, suffering.
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I see the lack of,
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with all due respect,the lack of giving a shit about the dog.
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And I don't want anyone to bearound my dog that doesn't give a shit.
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-I just don't.-Right.
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I want someone to be around my dog,who is 12 years old,
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to be around someone who cares.
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Because, at the end of the day,that's what she deserves.
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That's my child. That's what I'm gonna do.
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I'm just not meeting your expectations…
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Yeah.
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…of how you want me to act towards you.
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But, like, I am that nurturing,loving person with animals.
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I find that very hard to believe.
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[bold, sweeping music playing]
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{\an8}I feel like I've been put ina really difficult situation.
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And it almost feels like Tiff's dogis a lot more important to them
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than any relationship in their life.
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And I can't help that she doesn't wantto hear what I have to say.
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I cannot be the personthat you want me to be,
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and I cannot feel bad about that.
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I'm asking you to act like you careabout my dog.
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Like, it's not that hard.
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I want a heart.What the fuck have I got to do?
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{\an8}I don't care if you havethe most gorgeous face,
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the most gorgeous body,the most gorgeous personality,
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and the most supportive system.
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If you don't like my dog,you can get the fuck out.
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[pop singer] ♪ Welcome to my bad side ♪
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[dance-pop playing]
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♪ …love better ♪
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♪ Baby, don't be so picky'Cause there's no… ♪
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[Yoly] Oh!
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Good morning.
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♪ Better love ♪
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♪ Better love ♪
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It's just so nice.
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-You know what I mean?-This?
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-Yeah.-I know.
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It's flying by.
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It really is. Can we request another week?
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There's just so much morethat I want to do.
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[sweetly quirky music playing]
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We can have our glasses kiss. Ready?
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Oh!
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[both laughing]
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That is the nerdiest thing.
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If our real marriage were anything likethe trial marriage, I'd be pretty happy.
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I don't love my ex any less.
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It's just conflicting,
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'cause it's like, "Oh shit.I think I really, really like Xander
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and what we have going on too."
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-Can you hold these?-Yes.
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Chick-a-bow-wow.
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Now we're talking.
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Ooh, emotional.
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[laughs]
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Things are so greatand so awesome and so seamless.
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And I wish we could take usand see how we deal with, like… sex.
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-Mm-hmm.-I feel everything else fits seamlessly.
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I'm like, "What if that just sucked?"
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Well, I mean…
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[Yoly] Long sip.
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We gotta…
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Guess we gotta figure this shit out, so…
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I mean, I… I want to.
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I think it just is, like,the natural… progression.
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[clears throat] I feel likeyou're looking at me, and I don't…
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The eyes are going.
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Do we have time to work out?
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What kind of workout you trying to do?
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-You know the workout, but…-[laughs]
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Oh my God, I fell down. Hug me.
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Oh, this is a setup.
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You are so…
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You're not falling for it.
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[pop song playing]
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♪ Even if you leave me too ♪
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♪ I would set you free ♪
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Oh my God.I'm so excited to meet your friend.
273
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And you know what?She doesn't know anything.
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-She's gonna be like, "Where is Sam?"-"What is happening?" Yeah.
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[excited clamoring]
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[friend] Hey, beautiful!
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{\an8}[friend] Oh my God!
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{\an8}Mo…
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{\an8}-Hi.-Hi. I'm Mildred. Nice to meet you.
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-Nice to meet you.-Please.
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[Aussie] So happyyou were able to make it.
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[Mo] I know.
283
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So what… what is all this?
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[uproarious laughter]
285
00:14:00,589 --> 00:14:02,925
Oh my God, your guys' laughis so contagious.
286
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Aussie, this is likea whole 'nother different side of you.
287
00:14:06,387 --> 00:14:07,513
I know.
288
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-I told you.-You haven't seen shit yet.
289
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Where did Mildred come from?
290
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-That's what I'm still wondering.-Yeah…
291
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-So, I was given the ultimatum by Sam.-Yeah.
292
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She's ready for marriage.
293
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Now we're going through this experienceto figure out…
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Mildred is more compatible with me.
295
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-Okay.-So now we've moved in.
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-Wait, you're living together?-We're living together.
297
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I know. We should get a drink.
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[Mo] That'd be so cool if you switch spots
299
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so I could get to know you guysas a couple.
300
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Hold my purse. I'm kidding.
301
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For sure. I'll move this over here.
302
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-Damn, now we're in the hot seat.-[Mo] Yeah.
303
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You sleep in the same bed?Do you do shit too?
304
00:14:52,224 --> 00:14:53,851
-Oh my God.-Oh my God.
305
00:14:54,602 --> 00:14:56,937
Wow, you have a slippery mouth. You know?
306
00:14:57,021 --> 00:14:58,022
I'm just asking.
307
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We have nightmares and snore.What else you want to know?
308
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[server] All right, ladies.
309
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-[Mo] Food.-[server] Escargot.
310
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-So how did she give the ultimatum?-Yeah.
311
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Did you guys have a talk?
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-We had a talk. Then somebody---It kinda goes like this.
313
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"Are you gonna marry me?Like, are we gonna be together?"
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"Is this gonna move forward, or…You're blocking traffic at this point."
315
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That's what I said to my partner.
316
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For lack of a better term,what's your rush?
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I don't have a rush.
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-I'm a single mom, you know.-Okay.
319
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-I've always been, like, independent.-[Mo] Mm-hmm.
320
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And I'm like, "I want to be with somebody,
321
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and I want to know the personI'm with is the right person."
322
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I… I didn't get it. I was like,"Why this… Why the rush?"
323
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So she's been with Sam for two years,and she didn't want marriage.
324
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We went on three dates. Third date,you were like, "I want marriage."
325
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I was like, I need to change my list.
326
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-Moment of truth---I know your ass.
327
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-You do.-You had issues with commitment and shit.
328
00:15:55,454 --> 00:15:57,456
-Yeah.-All of a sudden, you're ready?
329
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What do you think marriage is about?
330
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You're stuck with someone forever,and I'm not my--
331
00:16:07,341 --> 00:16:09,301
Oh!
332
00:16:09,385 --> 00:16:10,719
What? What?
333
00:16:10,803 --> 00:16:14,014
-You said, "Stuck with someone forever."-Yeah. That's my fear.
334
00:16:14,098 --> 00:16:15,265
I have a fear of it.
335
00:16:16,725 --> 00:16:20,437
Being with someone forever,that thought is scary.
336
00:16:20,521 --> 00:16:22,147
What'd you think it would be?
337
00:16:22,648 --> 00:16:24,733
That's why I'm like, "I don't know."
338
00:16:24,817 --> 00:16:25,943
There's a block.
339
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To hear you say thatjust makes me feel very emotional.
340
00:16:30,197 --> 00:16:31,949
-Sorry, it triggers me.-Go ahead.
341
00:16:32,032 --> 00:16:34,201
Because Aussie said to meon our third date,
342
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"I do want to commitand to be married after this."
343
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It's very confusing,and I'm not understanding why.
344
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[pop singer]♪ I'm the good kind of a bad girl ♪
345
00:16:48,257 --> 00:16:51,301
♪ Working-in-my-heels kind of bad girl ♪
346
00:16:51,385 --> 00:16:54,013
♪ Blood-sweat-and-tears kind of bad girl ♪
347
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[chuckles]
348
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♪ Not afraid to cry if I have to ♪
349
00:17:00,269 --> 00:17:03,272
♪ I can make you change your mindIf I have to ♪
350
00:17:03,355 --> 00:17:06,483
[singer continuing indistinctly]
351
00:17:06,567 --> 00:17:08,902
♪ When I walk in the roomBe ready, you know who ♪
352
00:17:10,529 --> 00:17:13,073
[Tiff] So, after we argued,
353
00:17:13,157 --> 00:17:17,202
I noticed that, yeah,we needed time to cool off a little bit.
354
00:17:17,286 --> 00:17:19,580
-Right. Yeah.-Let me ask you something.
355
00:17:21,415 --> 00:17:23,709
Was the way I was communicating with you,
356
00:17:23,792 --> 00:17:28,756
where it got to the point where I was,like, tearing up, raising my voice…
357
00:17:28,839 --> 00:17:31,800
-Yeah. Right.-…did that really hurt you?
358
00:17:35,012 --> 00:17:40,350
I feel like sometimes, like,my past partners, like Aussie,
359
00:17:40,434 --> 00:17:42,019
have so many, like,
360
00:17:42,102 --> 00:17:45,773
wounds and traumas and triggersthat they haven't worked through yet.
361
00:17:45,856 --> 00:17:46,940
Yeah.
362
00:17:47,024 --> 00:17:50,444
I don't always get to the point whereI get to have the conversation after.
363
00:17:51,028 --> 00:17:56,200
So I really, really want usto have this stuff come up
364
00:17:56,283 --> 00:17:58,452
that we need to work on.
365
00:17:59,411 --> 00:18:02,289
I really appreciate hearing that because
366
00:18:02,790 --> 00:18:05,667
that feels like you'reon the same team as me.
367
00:18:05,751 --> 00:18:07,961
-Right.-Despite us disagreeing on something.
368
00:18:08,045 --> 00:18:14,426
I really like that I can already feelthat we can move forward.
369
00:18:14,510 --> 00:18:15,761
You see what I'm saying?
370
00:18:15,844 --> 00:18:18,972
We're in control, rather than
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our emotions and our pastsand all of that being in control.
372
00:18:22,684 --> 00:18:27,689
During our argument,I was feeling really out of my body.
373
00:18:27,773 --> 00:18:29,525
I was going backinto the same old patterns.
374
00:18:29,608 --> 00:18:33,695
In order for me to be a better person,either for Sam, for my ex,
375
00:18:33,779 --> 00:18:38,492
or either for someone new,I have to lean in to love.
376
00:18:39,076 --> 00:18:42,996
I'm just glad thatregardless of ups and downs,
377
00:18:43,080 --> 00:18:44,957
that I can have this experience with you.
378
00:18:45,040 --> 00:18:49,545
[pop singer 2] ♪ Stay with me now ♪
379
00:18:52,089 --> 00:18:57,553
♪ Stay with me now ♪
380
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[Rae] Whoa!
381
00:19:01,849 --> 00:19:03,851
[laughing]
382
00:19:08,564 --> 00:19:10,649
My pants are soaked!
383
00:19:11,942 --> 00:19:16,029
This looks likethe perfect beach picnic spot.
384
00:19:17,656 --> 00:19:18,866
I am out of breath.
385
00:19:19,408 --> 00:19:20,367
Wow!
386
00:19:20,450 --> 00:19:25,122
You are very, very… pathetic.
387
00:19:25,205 --> 00:19:26,415
[Rae] Such an athlete.
388
00:19:29,543 --> 00:19:34,798
I'm starting to wonder,maybe I don't need someone else's opinion.
389
00:19:35,591 --> 00:19:37,176
Maybe I can just trust myself.
390
00:19:37,885 --> 00:19:41,096
Taking more timeto, like, make a decision on my own.
391
00:19:41,180 --> 00:19:45,350
Then come in and have a conversationand be like, "Well, this is where I'm at."
392
00:19:45,434 --> 00:19:49,271
Monogamous relationshipsfeel stagnant to me.
393
00:19:49,354 --> 00:19:50,272
Yeah, for sure.
394
00:19:50,355 --> 00:19:53,317
I have no idea if I'd wantanother relationship or just a hookup
395
00:19:53,400 --> 00:19:55,819
or if it could be with my partner.
396
00:19:55,903 --> 00:19:57,571
Like, I… I don't fully know.
397
00:19:58,071 --> 00:20:00,324
And I don't knowhow to appropriately explore that.
398
00:20:01,700 --> 00:20:03,785
Knowing how big this world is,
399
00:20:03,869 --> 00:20:07,706
and knowing how many wonderful humansthere are to connect with,
400
00:20:08,207 --> 00:20:11,043
if I limit myselfto just connecting with one person,
401
00:20:11,126 --> 00:20:14,671
to that extreme degreeof, like, love and marriage
402
00:20:14,755 --> 00:20:16,715
and everythingness,
403
00:20:17,841 --> 00:20:21,428
I wonder if I'm always going to miss out.
404
00:20:23,639 --> 00:20:28,060
It feels a bit selfish for me to say that,so I don't know.
405
00:20:28,143 --> 00:20:29,478
[wry chuckle]
406
00:20:30,812 --> 00:20:32,731
-I do like to face my fears.-Mm-hmm.
407
00:20:33,315 --> 00:20:34,149
Yeah.
408
00:20:34,233 --> 00:20:35,692
[upbeat pop song plays]
409
00:20:38,278 --> 00:20:39,529
I'm gonna get in the water.
410
00:20:40,030 --> 00:20:42,032
-Okay, have fun.-Are you coming with me?
411
00:20:42,824 --> 00:20:45,494
-Thrust your body into the water with me.-Oh shit.
412
00:20:45,577 --> 00:20:47,537
I'll hang out. It's cold.
413
00:20:47,621 --> 00:20:50,374
I'm gonna feel very nakedif you're not there with me.
414
00:20:52,668 --> 00:20:55,379
-How did I know you were gonna do this?-How?
415
00:20:55,462 --> 00:21:00,717
♪ You just got to live with no ceilings ♪
416
00:21:00,801 --> 00:21:01,885
[Rae] It's so cold.
417
00:21:01,969 --> 00:21:04,888
♪ Lift the voice inside of you higher ♪
418
00:21:04,972 --> 00:21:07,140
♪ Feel your power ♪
419
00:21:07,224 --> 00:21:09,935
♪ You're just a wildflower ♪
420
00:21:10,435 --> 00:21:12,187
♪ Still growing ♪
421
00:21:12,271 --> 00:21:14,356
-[Rae] All right, fuck it. I'll do it.-For real?
422
00:21:14,439 --> 00:21:16,525
[laughs] Okay.
423
00:21:16,608 --> 00:21:20,028
♪ Let them go right here ♪
424
00:21:20,112 --> 00:21:22,948
♪ Break through it ♪
425
00:21:27,577 --> 00:21:29,913
♪ Every time a piece of you gives up ♪
426
00:21:29,997 --> 00:21:32,416
♪ Lift the voice inside of you higher ♪
427
00:21:37,254 --> 00:21:41,800
♪ Every time a piece of you gives upLift the voice inside of you higher ♪
428
00:21:41,883 --> 00:21:42,801
[Lexi sighs]
429
00:21:42,884 --> 00:21:45,429
-[Mal] Lexi, you talk in your sleep.-No, I don't.
430
00:21:46,346 --> 00:21:48,473
-I do not.-You do.
431
00:21:48,557 --> 00:21:50,267
-You're lying.-I cannot make this up.
432
00:21:50,350 --> 00:21:52,352
Oh my God. What did I say?
433
00:21:52,436 --> 00:21:53,937
Random stuff.
434
00:21:54,438 --> 00:21:56,773
You also looked very good last night.
435
00:21:56,857 --> 00:21:59,151
-Tight.-I felt very good in that outfit.
436
00:21:59,234 --> 00:22:00,986
I didn't expect different, but I was like,
437
00:22:01,069 --> 00:22:03,405
"Yeah, she definitely understandsthe assignment."
438
00:22:03,488 --> 00:22:04,489
[giggles]
439
00:22:05,699 --> 00:22:08,618
Um, I'm not always super…
440
00:22:10,454 --> 00:22:11,621
body comfortable.
441
00:22:13,999 --> 00:22:17,627
That's hard for me to talk about.There's this side of me that's…
442
00:22:17,711 --> 00:22:20,630
"Oh, I'm supposed to be herein this moment and be sexy,
443
00:22:20,714 --> 00:22:22,716
and I want you to look at mea certain way."
444
00:22:24,551 --> 00:22:27,095
I personally love your body.
445
00:22:27,179 --> 00:22:29,097
-Mm-hmm.-[Mal] Um…
446
00:22:29,181 --> 00:22:33,727
But I also want to respect you in thatand make sure, like, you're comfortable
447
00:22:33,810 --> 00:22:36,688
and move at whatever speedyou want to move at.
448
00:22:36,772 --> 00:22:39,858
I can find, like, our intimacyin different moments.
449
00:22:39,941 --> 00:22:41,360
It doesn't have to be this…
450
00:22:43,028 --> 00:22:44,488
traditional narrative that's played
451
00:22:44,571 --> 00:22:48,575
where I'm, like, super chasing youor, like, exoticizing you.
452
00:22:48,658 --> 00:22:51,620
I fell for you off of,
453
00:22:51,703 --> 00:22:55,332
"Could I be with this personwhen I'm, like, 90 years old
454
00:22:56,041 --> 00:22:59,544
and we both look very differentthan we once did?"
455
00:22:59,628 --> 00:23:03,507
That's what I was thinking about.It's just, it's a bonus that you're hot.
456
00:23:05,217 --> 00:23:06,510
I'm definitely looking.
457
00:23:06,593 --> 00:23:10,097
Not trying to make you uncomfortable,But I'm definitely, like…
458
00:23:10,680 --> 00:23:11,681
"Damn."
459
00:23:11,765 --> 00:23:14,101
Intimacy is an important partof a marriage.
460
00:23:14,184 --> 00:23:16,395
And it could take our relationshipto the next level.
461
00:23:16,478 --> 00:23:19,481
But I think this trial marriageisn't just about, like,
462
00:23:20,399 --> 00:23:23,360
flirting or fun or banter.
463
00:23:23,443 --> 00:23:26,613
It's about being with somebodyyou could see marrying one day.
464
00:23:27,114 --> 00:23:30,033
♪ There will be no surrender ♪
465
00:23:30,909 --> 00:23:34,287
♪ I got the fire in my eyes ♪
466
00:23:34,788 --> 00:23:37,958
♪ You know I ain't no pretender ♪
467
00:23:39,042 --> 00:23:42,129
♪ This ain't the final goodbye ♪
468
00:23:44,089 --> 00:23:46,508
[swaggering rock-pop song continuing]
469
00:23:47,217 --> 00:23:50,345
♪ There will be no surrender ♪
470
00:23:50,429 --> 00:23:51,304
[song trails off]
471
00:23:53,974 --> 00:23:56,726
-Ah, good morning.-Hey, good morning.
472
00:23:58,395 --> 00:23:59,688
How do you feel?
473
00:23:59,771 --> 00:24:02,524
-Feeling very sleepy today.-Yeah.
474
00:24:02,607 --> 00:24:04,818
I want to tell you how amazing you are.
475
00:24:05,444 --> 00:24:06,570
Stop.
476
00:24:06,653 --> 00:24:10,949
You're like, first thing in the morninggetting up and… cleaning and stuff.
477
00:24:11,032 --> 00:24:12,409
I appreciate it.
478
00:24:12,492 --> 00:24:15,829
-I can help out more with that.-I know you're not a morning person.
479
00:24:15,912 --> 00:24:17,956
I know. I like to sleep in.
480
00:24:18,039 --> 00:24:21,918
I wish that you couldjust communicate more with me with that.
481
00:24:26,006 --> 00:24:30,594
I think our schedules are pretty in sync,apart from you being a morning person.
482
00:24:30,677 --> 00:24:33,722
You like to get up super earlyand get things going.
483
00:24:33,805 --> 00:24:38,810
That's because I have to make my food,and then I have to get ready for work.
484
00:24:38,894 --> 00:24:39,728
Right.
485
00:24:39,811 --> 00:24:44,274
And then I have to cook again,and then I have to clean, you know.
486
00:24:44,357 --> 00:24:47,152
Then I have to wait for youto come out of the bathroom.
487
00:24:47,235 --> 00:24:48,403
That's a lot.
488
00:24:48,904 --> 00:24:52,365
I'm just doing so muchthat I'm usually not used to.
489
00:24:52,449 --> 00:24:53,325
Right.
490
00:24:53,408 --> 00:24:56,119
When we went on dates,you said you were gonna cook for me.
491
00:24:56,203 --> 00:24:58,955
-I know.-And we even made a grocery list together.
492
00:24:59,039 --> 00:24:59,998
Yeah. Yeah.
493
00:25:01,166 --> 00:25:03,710
[Mildred] Ever since I metAussie's friend, Mo,
494
00:25:03,793 --> 00:25:05,921
I notice a different person in Aussie.
495
00:25:06,004 --> 00:25:09,466
The commitment is just,like, not matching.
496
00:25:09,549 --> 00:25:12,552
We share the fridge, we sharethe bathroom, we share the bedroom,
497
00:25:12,636 --> 00:25:14,387
but we don't share house chores.
498
00:25:14,471 --> 00:25:20,727
I'm excusing Aussie, but then quicklyI realize that there's no excuse for you.
499
00:25:20,810 --> 00:25:24,189
We're in this process. We're ina concentrated marriage for 21 days.
500
00:25:24,272 --> 00:25:27,317
Like, this is your moment to shine.Why aren't you doing these things?
501
00:25:28,401 --> 00:25:30,028
Yeah. Uh…
502
00:25:30,111 --> 00:25:31,655
I… I don't know what to say.
503
00:25:31,738 --> 00:25:34,491
I do… I cook at home.I mean, at my own place.
504
00:25:34,574 --> 00:25:37,202
Yeah. Does that meanI have to go to your house?
505
00:25:37,285 --> 00:25:39,287
[tense, delicate music playing]
506
00:25:40,664 --> 00:25:44,501
I've been seeing my friendswho have taken me out to dinner.
507
00:25:44,584 --> 00:25:47,420
So I had leftovers.I'm just heating up my leftovers.
508
00:25:47,504 --> 00:25:50,674
So you've been on vacationwhile I've been starving at home.
509
00:25:52,467 --> 00:25:54,469
Yeah, and I bought a lot of frozen stuff.
510
00:25:54,553 --> 00:25:55,720
I didn't meal plan.
511
00:25:57,138 --> 00:25:58,723
I'll make an effort this week.
512
00:25:58,807 --> 00:26:00,934
You're lucky,'cause when Tiff cooks I don't help.
513
00:26:02,686 --> 00:26:05,897
For me, marriage is likehaving sense of security
514
00:26:06,648 --> 00:26:10,068
and feeling safe with the personthat you're gonna spend your life with.
515
00:26:10,151 --> 00:26:12,904
-Right.-And I feel like that all just fell down.
516
00:26:13,488 --> 00:26:16,908
I started to feel likeI didn't know if I could trust you,
517
00:26:16,992 --> 00:26:19,369
because I have a mindsetthat you're my partner,
518
00:26:19,452 --> 00:26:23,123
and I didn't understandwhy my partner would do this to me.
519
00:26:24,291 --> 00:26:28,169
I feel like my whole life I've beenlet down by everyone that I trust.
520
00:26:28,253 --> 00:26:29,087
Right.
521
00:26:29,170 --> 00:26:34,009
And I don't have a safe spacebecause we don't have a equal partnership.
522
00:26:35,927 --> 00:26:36,761
Yeah.
523
00:26:36,845 --> 00:26:40,599
I'm not goodwith conflict and… and confrontation.
524
00:26:40,682 --> 00:26:42,434
I want to, like, just disappear.
525
00:26:42,517 --> 00:26:43,393
[nervous chuckle]
526
00:26:46,938 --> 00:26:48,064
Make it right. You know?
527
00:26:48,148 --> 00:26:49,316
-Make it right.-Yeah.
528
00:26:49,399 --> 00:26:50,692
[slow, emotional music playing]
529
00:26:59,409 --> 00:27:01,244
[Vanessa] I feel like a Vegas girl.
530
00:27:02,287 --> 00:27:04,748
Nice. This finger on top. Now press up.
531
00:27:05,415 --> 00:27:06,750
You gotta get the bridge.
532
00:27:07,626 --> 00:27:09,461
You let… You let go of this.
533
00:27:09,544 --> 00:27:10,754
We'll work on it.
534
00:27:10,837 --> 00:27:12,172
All right, shall we?
535
00:27:15,550 --> 00:27:18,470
-Can you do a bridge with your body?-[Rae] No.
536
00:27:18,970 --> 00:27:20,388
[Vanessa] I can do a bridge.
537
00:27:20,472 --> 00:27:22,599
[low, sultry music playing]
538
00:27:28,980 --> 00:27:32,442
♪ Let's find a space ♪
539
00:27:32,525 --> 00:27:34,903
♪ Between you and I ♪
540
00:27:39,908 --> 00:27:41,993
I feel closer to you than I ever have.
541
00:27:42,077 --> 00:27:45,997
Um, I rememberwhen we first, like, locked eyes.
542
00:27:46,081 --> 00:27:47,290
Was that on the pier?
543
00:27:47,374 --> 00:27:48,917
Yeah, I think that was the first…
544
00:27:49,000 --> 00:27:50,585
Now, looking in your eyes,
545
00:27:51,252 --> 00:27:54,631
I think you're beautiful,and I think we have a connection.
546
00:28:01,471 --> 00:28:03,098
[frisky music playing]
547
00:28:03,682 --> 00:28:04,724
[Vanessa] Um…
548
00:28:07,227 --> 00:28:08,436
Should we go to sleep?
549
00:28:10,772 --> 00:28:15,235
I love a good challenge.You're my little onion that I'm peeling.
550
00:28:17,904 --> 00:28:18,738
Oh my God.
551
00:28:18,822 --> 00:28:20,407
I know what you're thinking.
552
00:28:22,033 --> 00:28:24,452
Should we, uh, turn the lights off?
553
00:28:24,536 --> 00:28:25,954
-Oh!-Oh.
554
00:28:26,037 --> 00:28:29,499
I… I've gotta…I've gotta turn off that light.
555
00:28:30,166 --> 00:28:31,918
-I'll get it for you.-I've got to…
556
00:28:33,253 --> 00:28:36,005
-[Rae] Are you not ticklish?-[Vanessa] Yes.
557
00:28:36,089 --> 00:28:37,382
[Rae] A little closer.
558
00:28:37,465 --> 00:28:40,009
[rustling, shifting]
559
00:28:40,093 --> 00:28:42,011
[Rae] Keep doing that. That felt good.
560
00:28:42,095 --> 00:28:45,056
[pop singer] ♪ I can feel it in the air ♪
561
00:28:45,140 --> 00:28:48,101
♪ This world is changing ♪
562
00:28:48,184 --> 00:28:52,105
♪ Something differentThan we've ever seen ♪
563
00:29:04,409 --> 00:29:07,537
♪ There's no reason to be scared ♪
564
00:29:07,620 --> 00:29:10,457
♪ Just stand up and face it ♪
565
00:29:10,540 --> 00:29:14,794
♪ Close your eyesIt's more than make-believe ♪
566
00:29:14,878 --> 00:29:17,922
♪ It's just the beginning ♪
567
00:29:18,006 --> 00:29:19,048
[Yoly moans]
568
00:29:22,010 --> 00:29:24,012
[furtive moaning]
569
00:29:25,180 --> 00:29:28,266
♪ Where dark turns to light ♪
570
00:29:28,349 --> 00:29:32,771
♪ We're gonna light up the beginning ♪
571
00:29:39,569 --> 00:29:44,449
♪ Who do you dream about ♪
572
00:29:45,241 --> 00:29:49,621
♪ When you're asleep ♪
573
00:29:52,081 --> 00:29:57,670
♪ Where do you go ♪
574
00:29:58,379 --> 00:30:03,468
♪ Where do you go ♪
575
00:30:03,551 --> 00:30:09,474
♪ Like a bird in a golden cage ♪
576
00:30:10,391 --> 00:30:13,311
♪ I wait for you ♪
577
00:30:15,730 --> 00:30:17,565
[sweet, lively music playing]
578
00:30:21,653 --> 00:30:23,321
Last night felt very adult.
579
00:30:23,822 --> 00:30:24,864
Like triple-X adult.
580
00:30:24,948 --> 00:30:25,949
[laughs]
581
00:30:30,203 --> 00:30:32,455
You, like, giving yourself,you know, to me,
582
00:30:32,539 --> 00:30:35,416
like, it feels, like, really special, and…
583
00:30:35,500 --> 00:30:37,001
[tender music playing]
584
00:30:41,548 --> 00:30:43,967
I don't know. It… It means a lot to me.
585
00:30:45,760 --> 00:30:48,263
Does it change your feelings about me?Are you like…
586
00:30:48,763 --> 00:30:52,267
It's almost like I had already done itso many times in my mind.
587
00:30:52,350 --> 00:30:54,686
You know what I mean? So, like, it…
588
00:30:55,436 --> 00:30:58,606
I almost, like, knewhow great it was gonna be.
589
00:30:58,690 --> 00:31:00,233
[low, flirtatious music plays]
590
00:31:02,110 --> 00:31:05,738
I guess, like, waking up,what was your first thought this morning?
591
00:31:09,242 --> 00:31:11,536
[chuckles] That I wanted it again.
592
00:31:15,874 --> 00:31:17,417
-Was it a bad thing?-No.
593
00:31:18,376 --> 00:31:21,546
♪ Oh lord, I never learned my lesson ♪
594
00:31:21,629 --> 00:31:24,799
♪ Oh well, only good girls go to heaven ♪
595
00:31:24,883 --> 00:31:28,052
♪ Do what I wanna do, and often ♪
596
00:31:28,136 --> 00:31:31,306
♪ Non-stop because it's not my problem ♪
597
00:31:31,890 --> 00:31:36,728
I didn't think I would find myselfin a position where I care about you
598
00:31:36,811 --> 00:31:38,479
in the way that I do,
599
00:31:38,563 --> 00:31:42,108
and genuinely, like,have feelings for you.
600
00:31:42,692 --> 00:31:43,776
And now…
601
00:31:45,111 --> 00:31:46,154
It's complicated.
602
00:31:46,905 --> 00:31:48,698
-More than complicated.-Mm-hmm.
603
00:31:49,282 --> 00:31:52,243
♪ Oh no, I got a new obsession ♪
604
00:31:52,327 --> 00:31:55,121
♪ I guess I'll add to my collection ♪
605
00:31:55,204 --> 00:31:58,249
♪ No, I don't ask for much ♪
606
00:31:59,042 --> 00:32:01,127
♪ I just want everything ♪
607
00:32:02,420 --> 00:32:05,465
I would offer you this meal,but it's the worst meal I've ever made.
608
00:32:05,548 --> 00:32:07,342
I burnt the cauliflower and…
609
00:32:08,843 --> 00:32:09,844
[fork clinks]
610
00:32:11,512 --> 00:32:12,388
How are you?
611
00:32:14,223 --> 00:32:15,099
Unwell.
612
00:32:17,352 --> 00:32:20,521
I kind of wanted us to talk aboutwhat happened last night.
613
00:32:22,607 --> 00:32:24,651
[Vanessa] I had a lot of fun last night.
614
00:32:24,734 --> 00:32:26,110
I believe I fingered you.
615
00:32:27,904 --> 00:32:29,405
And then, that was it, right?
616
00:32:31,115 --> 00:32:34,243
Obviously, we know what happened.How are you feeling about it?
617
00:32:35,787 --> 00:32:39,332
It was like a slice of freedomafter we were in jail for a long time.
618
00:32:39,958 --> 00:32:43,086
Just in that sense was euphoric, I think.
619
00:32:44,379 --> 00:32:45,713
[Rae] Um…
620
00:32:45,797 --> 00:32:49,008
I, like, texted with Lexi and called her.
621
00:32:49,092 --> 00:32:51,302
She obviously wasn't happy.
622
00:32:51,386 --> 00:32:54,555
She's gonna try to figure outwhat her life is like without me.
623
00:32:55,807 --> 00:32:57,141
Like, I fucking hurt her.
624
00:32:57,725 --> 00:32:59,310
[dramatic music building]
625
00:32:59,394 --> 00:33:03,648
[voice breaking] And to hear her saythat we might not have a fucking future
626
00:33:03,731 --> 00:33:05,233
is fucking hard to hear.
627
00:33:07,860 --> 00:33:12,865
She's just going on about how, like…how she has to tell her family and friends
628
00:33:12,949 --> 00:33:14,033
that I did this.
629
00:33:14,117 --> 00:33:16,786
And, like, she was like,her grandpa loves me.
630
00:33:16,869 --> 00:33:19,622
I don't know why.I don't know why anyone likes me.
631
00:33:19,706 --> 00:33:22,333
She's like, "I don't knowhow to tell him you did that."
632
00:33:22,834 --> 00:33:25,294
I'm like, "Yeah, I get it."
633
00:33:26,004 --> 00:33:28,715
Did you remind herhow hot and irresistible I am?
634
00:33:31,676 --> 00:33:35,346
It's interesting because my last timeI talked to Lexi,
635
00:33:35,430 --> 00:33:37,598
like, that last date,she was talking about
636
00:33:37,682 --> 00:33:39,684
how we are supposed to bein this experience.
637
00:33:39,767 --> 00:33:41,310
How we need to commit to it.
638
00:33:42,353 --> 00:33:44,772
I'm just like,"Well, you fucking committed."
639
00:33:45,273 --> 00:33:48,401
This is your ex. You're fine.You're in this new trial marriage.
640
00:33:49,318 --> 00:33:52,113
It's like when Amish peoplego on "Rothspringer" or something.
641
00:33:52,196 --> 00:33:54,365
And they're like,"We're free for six months."
642
00:33:54,449 --> 00:33:57,326
Then they can decide whetherthey want to go back to Amish life or not.
643
00:33:57,410 --> 00:33:59,620
-Mm-hmm.-I feel like this is that.
644
00:34:01,414 --> 00:34:03,541
We should just have a threesome, honestly.
645
00:34:03,624 --> 00:34:05,001
-At this point.-Oh my God.
646
00:34:06,127 --> 00:34:07,128
[Rae] Too far.
647
00:34:10,798 --> 00:34:12,967
-I just feel like shit.-Yeah?
648
00:34:13,843 --> 00:34:17,764
You come into this process, right?And, like, you give each other the room.
649
00:34:18,264 --> 00:34:21,768
You give each other the spaceto explore everything this is.
650
00:34:21,851 --> 00:34:25,521
I didn't ask her to tell me she wasn'tgonna sleep with Vanessa. I didn't.
651
00:34:25,605 --> 00:34:28,441
I tried to tell her to just be careful.
652
00:34:29,817 --> 00:34:30,651
Yeah.
653
00:34:30,735 --> 00:34:33,571
The person Vanessa is, I don't thinkshe's here for the right reasons.
654
00:34:33,654 --> 00:34:39,077
The person who I thought loved mecame here and then slept with that person.
655
00:34:41,079 --> 00:34:42,830
It feels like a betrayal.
656
00:34:44,791 --> 00:34:46,000
[Lexi weeps]
657
00:34:48,586 --> 00:34:51,547
[voice breaking] But I'm, like,sick to my stomach about it.
658
00:34:53,091 --> 00:34:55,259
[breathing shakily]
659
00:34:57,095 --> 00:34:59,472
What happened here, like, was not love.
660
00:35:00,890 --> 00:35:01,849
This was not love.
661
00:35:02,809 --> 00:35:06,354
Why would I ever wantto, like, marry someone like that?
662
00:35:10,775 --> 00:35:11,692
It sucks.
663
00:35:13,069 --> 00:35:13,986
It sucks.
664
00:35:14,070 --> 00:35:16,697
Selfishly, I'm annoyed'cause now it affects my process.
665
00:35:17,198 --> 00:35:19,033
But, like, we're here.
666
00:35:19,909 --> 00:35:22,203
You're this really smart,really beautiful girl,
667
00:35:22,286 --> 00:35:26,415
who makes really good decisionsall the time, who is super caring.
668
00:35:26,499 --> 00:35:27,750
The list goes on.
669
00:35:28,251 --> 00:35:32,046
You're not as lost as you think you are.I know this sucks, but you're good.
670
00:35:32,547 --> 00:35:33,923
You're good. You're okay.
671
00:35:34,006 --> 00:35:36,217
We're gonna ride this wave together.
672
00:35:36,884 --> 00:35:39,053
[Lexi] I'm so appreciativeto have you here.
673
00:35:39,137 --> 00:35:42,098
To show up and love someone,to show up and care about someone.
674
00:35:42,932 --> 00:35:43,975
I love you.
675
00:35:44,892 --> 00:35:46,894
[sweeping, distraught music playing]
676
00:36:13,212 --> 00:36:15,506
I'm so excited that I get to go out,
677
00:36:15,590 --> 00:36:20,553
and I get to dress upand have fun and see everybody.
678
00:36:20,636 --> 00:36:21,762
[Aussie] Mm-hmm.
679
00:36:21,846 --> 00:36:25,099
I'm interested to seehow Sam is surviving over there with Tiff.
680
00:36:25,600 --> 00:36:26,434
[chuckles]
681
00:36:26,517 --> 00:36:28,394
I'm sure Sam is gonna vent to me
682
00:36:28,477 --> 00:36:32,190
and tell me thatshe can't get Tiff to shut up.
683
00:36:32,273 --> 00:36:33,900
Oh, absolutely.
684
00:36:37,278 --> 00:36:38,779
You don't need the bathroom?
685
00:36:38,863 --> 00:36:40,740
Not just yet. I'm ironing my shirts.
686
00:36:40,823 --> 00:36:42,783
Okay. But do you need it, like…
687
00:36:42,867 --> 00:36:44,452
I might need it at the end.
688
00:36:44,535 --> 00:36:47,288
Yeah, but what does "the end" mean?How much time about?
689
00:36:47,371 --> 00:36:51,250
-I need maybe 15 minutes before we leave?-Okay, of me out of the restroom?
690
00:36:51,334 --> 00:36:53,044
-Yeah.-Okay.
691
00:36:53,127 --> 00:36:55,546
Let me know when you need to peeso I could get out.
692
00:36:55,630 --> 00:36:59,550
Then, when you're not peeing, I needto finish getting my hair and makeup done.
693
00:36:59,634 --> 00:37:00,968
That's… That's fine.
694
00:37:01,052 --> 00:37:04,055
[Mildred] Okay, cool.How come we never communicate like this?
695
00:37:04,138 --> 00:37:07,308
-This is cool.-[Aussie] We've been doing it, mate.
696
00:37:07,391 --> 00:37:09,393
I would always say,"Hey, the door's open."
697
00:37:09,477 --> 00:37:12,688
"I showered. It's all yours. If you needto come in, knock on the door."
698
00:37:12,772 --> 00:37:16,192
-Yeah, we just did it one time, Aussie.-Okay, I wasn't keeping track.
699
00:37:16,275 --> 00:37:18,569
I really don't care, mate.Whatever you need.
700
00:37:18,653 --> 00:37:20,696
You still have to beconsiderate of other people.
701
00:37:20,780 --> 00:37:23,658
Yeah, I'm 100%considerate of other people.
702
00:37:24,450 --> 00:37:28,287
I feel like you say shiton camera to make me look bad, mate.
703
00:37:28,371 --> 00:37:30,498
It's something that's been bothering me.
704
00:37:30,581 --> 00:37:31,707
Oh yeah?
705
00:37:31,791 --> 00:37:33,084
[sighs]
706
00:37:33,167 --> 00:37:34,835
[suspenseful music playing]
707
00:37:36,337 --> 00:37:38,130
What have I said that makes you look bad?
708
00:37:38,214 --> 00:37:40,591
I don't really wantto talk about it right now.
709
00:37:40,675 --> 00:37:43,094
I do want to talk about itbecause you just accused me.
710
00:37:43,177 --> 00:37:45,137
You can't accuse somebody and run away.
711
00:37:45,221 --> 00:37:46,889
I don't want to talk about it.
712
00:37:46,973 --> 00:37:48,849
Then you should have never said anything.
713
00:37:49,934 --> 00:37:50,768
Shit…
714
00:37:50,851 --> 00:37:52,144
I don't know who you dated before
715
00:37:52,228 --> 00:37:54,730
that stayed quietand you had the last talk,
716
00:37:54,814 --> 00:37:56,440
but you messed with the wrong person.
717
00:37:56,524 --> 00:37:57,566
Oh.
718
00:37:57,650 --> 00:37:59,694
I've been nothing but fucking nice to you.
719
00:37:59,777 --> 00:38:00,611
Wow.
720
00:38:00,695 --> 00:38:02,780
I've been there for you, and you have been
721
00:38:02,863 --> 00:38:05,241
nothing but disrespectfuland inconsiderate with me.
722
00:38:05,324 --> 00:38:07,076
[exhales] Man.
723
00:38:07,159 --> 00:38:10,496
You avoid any conversationI try to have with you on and off camera.
724
00:38:10,579 --> 00:38:12,331
That's not true.
725
00:38:12,415 --> 00:38:14,166
I was avoiding this right now
726
00:38:14,250 --> 00:38:17,586
because I'm not in a placeto talk to you when you're like this.
727
00:38:17,670 --> 00:38:20,548
I have never done this to you.I've been nothing but nice to you.
728
00:38:20,631 --> 00:38:23,342
Don't say that you can't talk to mewhen I'm like this.
729
00:38:23,426 --> 00:38:26,012
You had two weeks to talk to mewhen I was calm.
730
00:38:26,095 --> 00:38:29,348
-Well, I need to… I need to---But now I'm not calm.
731
00:38:29,432 --> 00:38:30,975
Now you don't want to talk to me?
732
00:38:31,058 --> 00:38:33,602
[suspenseful music intensifies]
733
00:38:36,230 --> 00:38:39,650
I don't want to go aheadwith this conversation
734
00:38:39,734 --> 00:38:42,361
'cause it's not gonna be constructivefor neither of us.
735
00:38:44,196 --> 00:38:45,448
It's all yours.
736
00:38:45,531 --> 00:38:46,449
Thank you.
737
00:38:58,085 --> 00:39:01,797
I feel like I haven't seen you guysin so long. It's only been two weeks.
738
00:39:01,881 --> 00:39:03,549
[Mal] Okay. We're all sitting here.
739
00:39:03,632 --> 00:39:07,803
We're all obviously datingeach other's exes, right? Or married.
740
00:39:07,887 --> 00:39:09,722
-So we can talk about the things.-Yeah…
741
00:39:09,805 --> 00:39:13,601
I think whether we wanted it or not,we're all learning things about ourselves,
742
00:39:13,684 --> 00:39:16,103
our partners, our relationships,and what we want.
743
00:39:16,187 --> 00:39:17,313
And don't want.
744
00:39:17,396 --> 00:39:18,773
[Rae] And don't want.
745
00:39:18,856 --> 00:39:20,524
You have secrets? I want to know.
746
00:39:20,608 --> 00:39:22,568
Give me somethingyour trial marriage partner does
747
00:39:22,651 --> 00:39:24,987
that bothers… Like, not bothers.Like, you didn't expect.
748
00:39:25,071 --> 00:39:26,238
Girl.
749
00:39:26,322 --> 00:39:27,615
[Rae] Oh my God.
750
00:39:27,698 --> 00:39:30,785
My partner poured ramendown our bathroom sink, so…
751
00:39:30,868 --> 00:39:33,204
-[Mildred] Wait. Ramen down…?-[Mal] What?!
752
00:39:33,287 --> 00:39:35,539
-So then what happened?-[Rae] That was it.
753
00:39:35,623 --> 00:39:36,916
[Xander] That's all you got?
754
00:39:36,999 --> 00:39:38,584
Give us something else.
755
00:39:38,667 --> 00:39:41,128
Why… Why is it me? I gave. I gave.
756
00:39:41,212 --> 00:39:43,297
Give me some shit about Yoly.
757
00:39:43,798 --> 00:39:44,965
Um…
758
00:39:46,467 --> 00:39:47,301
I…
759
00:39:47,385 --> 00:39:49,095
You don't have to be scared. Run her tea.
760
00:39:49,178 --> 00:39:50,638
No, I'm just trying to… I feel like…
761
00:39:50,721 --> 00:39:52,598
When I, like, walked in, I was like,
762
00:39:52,681 --> 00:39:56,185
"Why are there all these wine corksand water bottles everywhere?"
763
00:39:57,186 --> 00:39:59,688
-Marge plays with the water bottles.-She plays with them.
764
00:39:59,772 --> 00:40:02,483
I was just like, "What's going on?Why's there so much shit?
765
00:40:02,566 --> 00:40:04,777
-[Rae] Marge is the dog.-Yeah, Margaux's a little dog.
766
00:40:06,737 --> 00:40:09,573
That's it? Talking about themabout the noodles…
767
00:40:09,657 --> 00:40:11,534
[Sam] You're talking about the dog. No.
768
00:40:11,617 --> 00:40:14,745
You didn't even say anything about Yoly.You just said about the dog.
769
00:40:14,829 --> 00:40:16,997
That's not… You're not getting a pass.
770
00:40:17,081 --> 00:40:19,166
But if you don't have anything,that's okay.
771
00:40:19,750 --> 00:40:22,044
But I kinda feel like you might.
772
00:40:22,545 --> 00:40:24,880
And I feel likeyou're scared to say something.
773
00:40:25,840 --> 00:40:27,174
-Wait, about Yoly?-[Mal] Yeah.
774
00:40:32,930 --> 00:40:33,931
Are you kidding me?
775
00:40:35,808 --> 00:40:38,436
With all of Yoly's quirksand all her little sass
776
00:40:38,519 --> 00:40:40,396
and her, like, smart-ass mouth.
777
00:40:40,479 --> 00:40:42,398
Like, spill the tea, sis.
778
00:40:42,481 --> 00:40:45,901
You're hiding somethingor, you know, lying.
779
00:40:45,985 --> 00:40:47,278
All right.
780
00:40:48,446 --> 00:40:49,905
You know what I'm working with.
781
00:40:50,573 --> 00:40:51,991
Aussie doesn't want to talk.
782
00:40:52,491 --> 00:40:56,287
She's, like, not communicating,and I've tried so many ways.
783
00:40:56,370 --> 00:40:59,832
Well, it is harder to communicatewith people who are avoidant,
784
00:40:59,915 --> 00:41:01,959
and Aussie is very much so avoidant.
785
00:41:02,042 --> 00:41:05,087
How do you communicate with herif you know that?
786
00:41:05,171 --> 00:41:09,341
Um, by not talking about itwhen Aussie's in a triggered state.
787
00:41:09,425 --> 00:41:11,594
And when is Aussienot in a triggered state?
788
00:41:11,677 --> 00:41:12,678
[Sam] Ah.
789
00:41:13,554 --> 00:41:17,057
Aussie will usually have to goand, like, listen to meditations.
790
00:41:17,141 --> 00:41:19,059
Then that's when you can havethe conversation.
791
00:41:19,143 --> 00:41:21,645
When does the moment comewhen you actually talk?
792
00:41:21,729 --> 00:41:23,939
When is Aussie fully meditated?
793
00:41:24,023 --> 00:41:26,859
And… And that might soundvery harsh to some people.
794
00:41:26,942 --> 00:41:30,905
A lot of times, it's just feeling it out.Aussie's friends are very important.
795
00:41:30,988 --> 00:41:34,450
-Aussie will also listen to them, so---No. She's 42 years old.
796
00:41:34,533 --> 00:41:37,536
She needs to step it upand communicate with her partner.
797
00:41:37,620 --> 00:41:42,833
That's what she needs to do,and I think that she needs
798
00:41:42,917 --> 00:41:45,753
to not have someonethat's gonna hold her hand.
799
00:41:46,253 --> 00:41:48,797
Well, the interesting thing isTiff and I have been practicing
800
00:41:48,881 --> 00:41:51,050
a lot of really good communication.
801
00:41:51,133 --> 00:41:54,053
There's a lot of yelling and arguing?
802
00:41:54,136 --> 00:41:55,846
It was like that in the first week.
803
00:41:55,930 --> 00:42:00,351
Then it started getting easier after thatbecause I vocalized certain things.
804
00:42:00,434 --> 00:42:04,522
And we actually kind of dug deepa little bit. So, yeah…
805
00:42:04,605 --> 00:42:05,439
-[Mildred] Damn.-Wow.
806
00:42:05,523 --> 00:42:06,732
Kind of jealous.
807
00:42:06,815 --> 00:42:08,234
[laughs]
808
00:42:09,944 --> 00:42:12,071
If I'm learning anything in this process,
809
00:42:12,154 --> 00:42:15,115
it is how I have to be ableto lean in to love.
810
00:42:15,199 --> 00:42:17,952
I have to be ableto show up better to the table
811
00:42:18,035 --> 00:42:20,996
when love and marriage is on the line.
812
00:42:21,080 --> 00:42:25,042
[Vanessa] So, two ultimatum givers,three ultimatum receivers.
813
00:42:25,125 --> 00:42:27,127
[Tiff] If you're a receiverand someone is a giver--
814
00:42:27,211 --> 00:42:30,464
-[Vanessa] Are you talking about sex?-Trying to get a little deeper, all right?
815
00:42:31,632 --> 00:42:33,050
I got my nipples pierced.
816
00:42:33,133 --> 00:42:33,968
I…
817
00:42:35,094 --> 00:42:36,512
That's horrible.
818
00:42:39,765 --> 00:42:42,643
I have been livingwith an ultimatum receiver,
819
00:42:43,352 --> 00:42:46,605
um, who I have convinced of marriage.
820
00:42:48,190 --> 00:42:49,567
I still believe in marriage.
821
00:42:52,570 --> 00:42:55,281
[Yoly] Being with somebodywho issued the ultimatum as well,
822
00:42:55,364 --> 00:42:58,158
and both of us havingthe same "hell yeah" energy,
823
00:42:58,242 --> 00:43:01,579
it's been really affirming,and it's effortless.
824
00:43:01,662 --> 00:43:04,665
It's drama-free, beautiful.
825
00:43:04,748 --> 00:43:08,669
And it's a wonder that Xanderhasn't been, like, picked up yet.
826
00:43:08,752 --> 00:43:11,213
She's so phenomenal and so wonderful…
827
00:43:11,297 --> 00:43:12,298
-I know.-…and so great.
828
00:43:13,674 --> 00:43:16,677
Do you? You've been sayingthat you don't want to marry her.
829
00:43:16,760 --> 00:43:19,471
I know the value she brings to your life.She brings it to my life.
830
00:43:19,555 --> 00:43:21,390
What value are you bringing to her life?
831
00:43:21,473 --> 00:43:23,601
-I'm trying to figure out.-You don't know.
832
00:43:23,684 --> 00:43:24,935
That's what I want to work on.
833
00:43:25,019 --> 00:43:29,148
Four years, you don't know what valueyou're bringing to Xander's life?
834
00:43:29,231 --> 00:43:30,941
I've never had to think about that before.
835
00:43:31,025 --> 00:43:33,694
Before Xander, my ex-boyfriendloved the shit out of me.
836
00:43:33,777 --> 00:43:35,321
He would have married me.
837
00:43:35,404 --> 00:43:38,616
I've just been so blessed withthese people who don't ask much of me.
838
00:43:39,450 --> 00:43:41,744
What is with the bullshit?
839
00:43:41,827 --> 00:43:46,874
I am surprised that Xander datedsomebody like Vanessa for four years.
840
00:43:46,957 --> 00:43:49,084
When Vanessa talks, I feel sorry for her
841
00:43:49,168 --> 00:43:52,546
because it just sounds likeshe's just trying to grapple with
842
00:43:52,630 --> 00:43:56,342
how to not make herself look likea bad person, and that's a lot to juggle.
843
00:43:56,425 --> 00:43:58,594
I want to know where you stand on that.
844
00:43:58,677 --> 00:44:00,596
I don't know where the fuck you stand.
845
00:44:01,972 --> 00:44:03,724
I don't know, Yoly. I don't know.
846
00:44:06,477 --> 00:44:11,899
I think that we all have been giventhe opportunity to be physical, and…
847
00:44:11,982 --> 00:44:14,151
Let's talk about it.How do we feel about that?
848
00:44:14,234 --> 00:44:15,611
[mysterious music playing]
849
00:44:18,197 --> 00:44:20,115
I think we should drink more for that.
850
00:44:20,616 --> 00:44:22,910
-Will you get a drink with me?-[Mal] Yes.
851
00:44:23,952 --> 00:44:25,162
Be back. You good?
852
00:44:25,245 --> 00:44:26,705
I'm good, thank you. Appreciate it.
853
00:44:26,789 --> 00:44:29,124
[tense staccato music playing]
854
00:44:33,921 --> 00:44:35,589
I can't believe Mildred did that.
855
00:44:35,673 --> 00:44:39,051
I don't think she knows yet,so it's not my story to tell.
856
00:44:39,635 --> 00:44:41,804
Also, you know,I apologize to you because--
857
00:44:41,887 --> 00:44:42,971
Apologize for what?
858
00:44:43,722 --> 00:44:46,308
For, like, interfering. I feel like I've…
859
00:44:46,809 --> 00:44:50,437
I will tell you that I would've nevertold Yoly that I did something.
860
00:44:50,521 --> 00:44:53,315
I accept your apology,but I want you to forgive yourself.
861
00:44:53,399 --> 00:44:54,608
Work on your own shit.
862
00:44:54,692 --> 00:44:57,444
-Okay.-Decide what it is that you want to do.
863
00:44:59,071 --> 00:44:59,947
Figure it out.
864
00:45:00,531 --> 00:45:02,199
[Rae] I don't know what to do.
865
00:45:02,700 --> 00:45:04,410
-I can't answer that for you.-I know.
866
00:45:05,411 --> 00:45:08,831
So we go back? When we head back,they won't have the question anymore.
867
00:45:08,914 --> 00:45:09,790
Okay, good.
868
00:45:09,873 --> 00:45:11,041
Okay, let's go.
869
00:45:11,875 --> 00:45:13,168
[mysterious music plays]
870
00:45:15,087 --> 00:45:16,422
[Mal] Excuse me, friends.
871
00:45:16,505 --> 00:45:19,508
You guys are walking intoa very deep conversation, just warning.
872
00:45:19,591 --> 00:45:21,051
Sorry, didn't mean to distract.
873
00:45:21,135 --> 00:45:25,556
I don't know. I was just like, thankingMildred for defending me as a choice.
874
00:45:25,639 --> 00:45:27,725
Thank you for saying that,but my question is,
875
00:45:27,808 --> 00:45:32,187
everyone's there rooting for you,and you're there defending Vanessa
876
00:45:32,271 --> 00:45:34,940
and she's basically telling youto fuck off.
877
00:45:35,023 --> 00:45:37,025
[somber music playing]
878
00:45:37,109 --> 00:45:41,613
[Xander] I didn't want to say anythingthat was gonna hurt anyone, which I…
879
00:45:41,697 --> 00:45:44,616
I don't know what Lexi was talking about.If anyone has clarity on that…
880
00:45:46,076 --> 00:45:50,122
Lexi experienced something with Vanessathat… that super triggered her.
881
00:45:50,205 --> 00:45:53,125
That's what that whole confrontationwas about… was like,
882
00:45:53,208 --> 00:45:55,252
"I don't understandwhy you're here. I don't get it."
883
00:45:55,335 --> 00:45:57,337
-But how and why?-[Mal] I don't know.
884
00:45:57,421 --> 00:45:58,797
-I know, I'm not trying to…-No.
885
00:45:58,881 --> 00:46:01,008
-Emotions are going…-I'd tell you if I knew.
886
00:46:01,091 --> 00:46:03,260
I don't want to speak for her.I don't know…
887
00:46:03,343 --> 00:46:06,263
I wasn't there. I just knowwhat my trial wife told me.
888
00:46:06,346 --> 00:46:08,223
I think the overarching thing is that
889
00:46:08,307 --> 00:46:10,684
she doesn't understandthe intentions of Vanessa.
890
00:46:10,768 --> 00:46:13,562
She doesn't understand the intentions.To be honest, I don't either.
891
00:46:13,645 --> 00:46:15,147
Why is Vanessa here?
892
00:46:16,690 --> 00:46:19,234
I'm not hereto keep talking about Vanessa.
893
00:46:19,318 --> 00:46:21,320
Saying you're not hereto talk about Vanessa,
894
00:46:21,403 --> 00:46:25,324
that is you excusing herand dismissing her behavior.
895
00:46:25,949 --> 00:46:28,035
Own up to the factthat's the person you came with.
896
00:46:28,118 --> 00:46:30,412
[Xander] I don't feel her feelings.I'm not her.
897
00:46:30,496 --> 00:46:32,581
I am a wholedifferent-ass person than her.
898
00:46:32,664 --> 00:46:35,292
But I do think that we should give…we should believe Mal.
899
00:46:35,375 --> 00:46:38,629
-I'm not excusing her.-Sorry to corner you, but do you believe--
900
00:46:38,712 --> 00:46:42,800
But I will say that I am not tryingto talk about my ex for this entire party.
901
00:46:42,883 --> 00:46:44,510
[intense, dramatic music plays]
902
00:46:47,721 --> 00:46:49,056
Excuse me.
903
00:46:59,441 --> 00:47:00,651
[Vanessa] Love Rae.
904
00:47:00,734 --> 00:47:03,654
I think I chosethe best trial marriage partner I could.
905
00:47:05,030 --> 00:47:06,990
We both came in this as receivers.
906
00:47:07,074 --> 00:47:08,534
We're talking about marriage
907
00:47:08,617 --> 00:47:11,161
and what that means to us,and if we want that.
908
00:47:11,245 --> 00:47:14,289
I would say she'smy literal best friend right now.
909
00:47:14,373 --> 00:47:15,499
She's beautiful, duh.
910
00:47:15,582 --> 00:47:19,920
We're just… We're really getting alongand we're trying to keep things
911
00:47:21,213 --> 00:47:23,799
as, I dunno, natural as they canand taking things slow.
912
00:47:29,137 --> 00:47:31,265
Yeah, which is, like, not what happened.
913
00:47:32,683 --> 00:47:34,017
Seems like the exact opposite.
914
00:47:34,768 --> 00:47:36,019
[intense music playing]
915
00:47:36,103 --> 00:47:38,438
Is there a reason why you fucked Rae?
916
00:47:38,522 --> 00:47:40,274
I didn't fuck Rae.
917
00:47:40,357 --> 00:47:41,775
I'm sorry. Rae fucked you.
918
00:47:41,859 --> 00:47:43,819
-No. No, it's…-And there was penetration.
919
00:47:43,902 --> 00:47:46,655
-What's the funny part?-It's not funny at all.
920
00:47:46,738 --> 00:47:48,282
I recognize that you don't like me
921
00:47:48,365 --> 00:47:50,826
and you're trying to findevery way not to. I'm trying--
922
00:47:50,909 --> 00:47:51,952
That's not it at all.
923
00:47:52,035 --> 00:47:57,249
Hey, please, can we try to seehow we can overcome it?
924
00:47:57,332 --> 00:47:58,959
All we have is now, guys.
925
00:47:59,042 --> 00:48:01,086
I know. I'm happy to be herewith most of you.
926
00:48:01,169 --> 00:48:03,171
-Yeah.-Most of you.
927
00:48:03,255 --> 00:48:04,715
[Vanessa] I'm surprised she told you.
928
00:48:04,798 --> 00:48:07,009
Then maybe your frustrationis that Rae told you.
929
00:48:07,092 --> 00:48:09,344
My frustration is with all of it.
930
00:48:09,428 --> 00:48:11,013
I knew, coming into this,
931
00:48:11,096 --> 00:48:13,557
that Rae was gonna trustthe people around her.
932
00:48:14,141 --> 00:48:18,770
We had a datethat I think was very clarifying
933
00:48:18,854 --> 00:48:23,358
as to who I think you are in this process,and what I think you're here for.
934
00:48:24,484 --> 00:48:26,862
You went into a situation with Rae.
935
00:48:26,945 --> 00:48:28,947
You made it very clear to meon all of our dates
936
00:48:29,031 --> 00:48:30,908
that she was your safe option.
937
00:48:30,991 --> 00:48:34,620
You're taking a personwho genuinely has the purest of hearts,
938
00:48:34,703 --> 00:48:36,121
who you had sex with.
939
00:48:36,622 --> 00:48:37,956
Like, why do that?
940
00:48:38,040 --> 00:48:41,251
-I'm… She's beautiful, like I've said---[Lexi] That's not what I'm asking.
941
00:48:41,335 --> 00:48:43,921
Are you sexually,romantically attracted to Rae?
942
00:48:44,004 --> 00:48:45,005
No.
943
00:48:45,088 --> 00:48:48,008
Okay, so then, this is not about Rae,and you're not into her.
944
00:48:49,009 --> 00:48:50,844
Wait. Wait, Lexi.
945
00:48:51,345 --> 00:48:53,805
You've said,"I'm not attracted to Rae romantically."
946
00:48:53,889 --> 00:48:55,891
"I don't want to besexually attracted to her."
947
00:48:55,974 --> 00:49:00,896
You end up being inside of the personI came here with and that I love.
948
00:49:00,979 --> 00:49:04,024
You have zero feelings for them,zero care about them.
949
00:49:04,107 --> 00:49:05,233
That's not true.
950
00:49:05,317 --> 00:49:06,151
You just said.
951
00:49:06,234 --> 00:49:09,321
You said you have no romantic,sexual, physical feelings for this person.
952
00:49:09,404 --> 00:49:10,781
But friend feelings.
953
00:49:10,864 --> 00:49:12,616
-But you don't fuck…-[Yoly] Friends.
954
00:49:12,699 --> 00:49:14,451
You don't fuck friends like that.
955
00:49:14,534 --> 00:49:17,037
[Tiff] Aussie, I'm sorry.I love you, but I wouldn't fuck you.
956
00:49:17,120 --> 00:49:19,790
I love you all.I'm not falling into y'all's vagina.
957
00:49:19,873 --> 00:49:23,502
I love Yoly more than everyone here.I'm not falling into her vagina tomorrow.
958
00:49:23,585 --> 00:49:24,836
And you're hotter than shit.
959
00:49:24,920 --> 00:49:28,715
I'm just a little curious.Rae kissed you or you kissed Rae?
960
00:49:29,466 --> 00:49:30,300
Out of respect--
961
00:49:30,384 --> 00:49:32,719
You probably don't like this,but I don't remember.
962
00:49:32,803 --> 00:49:33,887
Convenient.
963
00:49:33,971 --> 00:49:35,973
It's not convenient. It's just true.
964
00:49:36,556 --> 00:49:37,891
We got into bed--
965
00:49:37,975 --> 00:49:40,644
Then she saw the lingerieon you when you got ready?
966
00:49:40,727 --> 00:49:42,145
Did I have lingerie on?
967
00:49:42,771 --> 00:49:44,106
Yeah, you did.
968
00:49:44,189 --> 00:49:46,024
-Yeah, you did, Vanessa.-Wait, sorry--
969
00:49:46,108 --> 00:49:48,652
I'm trying to understand at what pointit stopped being intentional
970
00:49:48,735 --> 00:49:50,320
and started being coincidental.
971
00:49:50,404 --> 00:49:51,530
[Vanessa] It wasn't.
972
00:49:51,613 --> 00:49:54,282
-Was that an accident that it happened?-Yes.
973
00:49:54,366 --> 00:49:57,786
You ever accidentally had your fingersinside of somebody else?
974
00:49:58,453 --> 00:49:59,454
Not by accident.
975
00:50:00,122 --> 00:50:01,957
Never have I ever.
976
00:50:02,040 --> 00:50:04,668
I should choose my words better.I should have responded,
977
00:50:04,751 --> 00:50:06,044
"No, it wasn't an accident."
978
00:50:06,128 --> 00:50:09,339
She told me that you penetrated her.That's not an accident.
979
00:50:09,840 --> 00:50:11,216
It wasn't an accident. No.
980
00:50:11,299 --> 00:50:13,385
All I'm trying to say here, Vanessa,
981
00:50:13,468 --> 00:50:16,555
is you ended up with your fingersinside the person I came here with.
982
00:50:17,222 --> 00:50:19,933
Okay, this makes me soundreally bad, Lexi.
983
00:50:20,017 --> 00:50:22,477
-[Lexi] Did she penetrate you?-She led my hand to her vagina.
984
00:50:22,561 --> 00:50:24,396
-I never wanted to fucking say…-Great.
985
00:50:24,479 --> 00:50:27,357
-That is what happened.-You were like, "All right, in I go."
986
00:50:27,441 --> 00:50:28,859
Yes, and I said, all right.
987
00:50:28,942 --> 00:50:31,528
Lexi, I think you need to havethis conversation with Rae.
988
00:50:31,611 --> 00:50:34,114
[Lexi] It is a conversationI need to have with Rae.
989
00:50:34,197 --> 00:50:35,782
Can I be totally candid with you?
990
00:50:35,866 --> 00:50:37,117
-Yeah…-Fuck the sex.
991
00:50:37,200 --> 00:50:38,785
I don't give a shit about the sex.
992
00:50:38,869 --> 00:50:40,620
Genuinely, I don't care.
993
00:50:40,704 --> 00:50:42,956
You could have been inside hersix nights a week.
994
00:50:43,040 --> 00:50:46,418
At the end of the day, whetherI walk out of here single, with Rae,
995
00:50:46,501 --> 00:50:47,461
or with Mal…
996
00:50:48,170 --> 00:50:49,004
Okay.
997
00:50:49,087 --> 00:50:52,174
…my problem is with the personRae let inside of her.
998
00:50:52,257 --> 00:50:53,759
I think, talk to her about that.
999
00:50:53,842 --> 00:50:56,720
I have to understand why she trusted youenough to let you fuck her.
1000
00:50:56,803 --> 00:50:58,805
[sweeping, dramatic music playing]
1001
00:51:13,111 --> 00:51:15,238
[Xander] You're looking at my lips.You wanna kiss them?
1002
00:51:16,156 --> 00:51:18,283
I'm worried about your exputting her claws into you.
1003
00:51:19,701 --> 00:51:20,660
I love you.
1004
00:51:21,328 --> 00:51:22,454
I missed you.
1005
00:51:23,038 --> 00:51:24,081
Do you love Yoly?
1006
00:51:24,831 --> 00:51:26,833
You all came heretalking about getting married.
1007
00:51:26,917 --> 00:51:29,503
[Aussie] I don't want resentment.I don't want drama.
1008
00:51:30,545 --> 00:51:32,672
Just trying to get the fuck out of here.
1009
00:51:32,756 --> 00:51:35,967
Will you leave hereengaged to the person you came here with?
1010
00:51:36,051 --> 00:51:39,304
Will you leave here with the personyou spent the last three weeks with?
1011
00:51:40,430 --> 00:51:43,475
Or will you leave here single?
1012
00:51:44,351 --> 00:51:46,019
-[Yoly] When do I look?-[Xander] Now.
1013
00:51:46,103 --> 00:51:48,021
[delighted laughter]
1014
00:51:48,730 --> 00:51:51,358
-Ah! What did you do?-I just used a finger.
1015
00:51:52,067 --> 00:51:52,901
I'm waiting.
1016
00:51:53,401 --> 00:51:54,903
[pulse-pounding music playing]
1017
00:51:55,737 --> 00:51:58,156
I feel like you were tryingto stir the pot for me.
1018
00:51:58,240 --> 00:51:59,866
You have every right to feel how you want.
1019
00:51:59,950 --> 00:52:02,744
She's fucking with our life,and I don't like it.
1020
00:52:03,453 --> 00:52:06,581
You wanted me to self-discover.You wanted me to figure out what I wanted…
1021
00:52:06,665 --> 00:52:08,333
I wanted you to find out if that was me.
1022
00:52:08,416 --> 00:52:10,710
I'm a Latina,and everybody speaks over everybody.
1023
00:52:10,794 --> 00:52:13,255
Being respectful has no race, Mildred.
1024
00:52:14,214 --> 00:52:15,465
You can't have us both.
1025
00:52:15,549 --> 00:52:17,676
You're literally takingthe choice away from me.
1026
00:52:17,759 --> 00:52:20,095
I'm not. What do you want from me?
1027
00:52:20,178 --> 00:52:22,097
I don't want to be here alone.
1028
00:52:22,180 --> 00:52:25,725
[Aussie] I cannot have my partnerdismiss how I feel too.
1029
00:52:26,226 --> 00:52:29,521
[Yoly] My heart and my mindare in two different places.
1030
00:52:30,605 --> 00:52:34,651
While I'm very certain what it'd look likewith either one of the people I love…
1031
00:52:36,820 --> 00:52:39,781
I just don't knowwhat the fuck I'm gonna do.
1032
00:52:41,408 --> 00:52:44,619
♪ I'm breaking all the rules ♪
1033
00:52:44,703 --> 00:52:46,830
♪ I'm playing it so cool ♪
1034
00:52:46,913 --> 00:52:50,375
♪ I'm playing it so cool, baby ♪
1035
00:52:50,458 --> 00:52:53,253
♪ I'm breaking all the rules ♪
1036
00:52:53,336 --> 00:52:55,547
♪ I'm playing it so cool ♪
1037
00:52:55,630 --> 00:52:59,050
♪ I'm playing it so cool, baby ♪
1038
00:53:00,010 --> 00:53:02,137
♪ 'Cause I'm never gonna ever stop ♪
1039
00:53:02,220 --> 00:53:04,598
♪ I'm always gonna shake it up ♪
1040
00:53:04,681 --> 00:53:07,601
♪ Always gonna shake it up ♪
1041
00:53:08,852 --> 00:53:09,853
[song trails off]
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