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Thank you very much.
How're you guys doing?

Welcome to Subtract.

So, the origins of this album,
I know I've written about it online,

but, like, when I finished Plus,
my debut album,

the next album I was gonna make
was Subtract.

And I went in with Rick Rubin

and we started recording
this acoustic album

and it just sort of morphed into Multiply,

because I don't think I was probably ready
to make an acoustic album.

I wanted to, you know,
make "Sing" with Pharrell,

and "Thinking Out Loud," and "Photograph,"
and do all this sort of stuff.

And then, after that came Divide.
And after Divide,

I really wanted to make Subtract,
but it also morphed into Equals

in the pandemic,
and I wanted to come out of the pandemic

with "Bad Habits" and have a song
to make people dance and stuff.

So I'd been putting together this record
over a decade

with all my favorite acoustic songs
that I'd written over the last decade.

And it was slated to be put out this year.

And then at the beginning of last year,

I probably had the darkest month
of my life,

and it made me address lots of things.

And I'd met Aaron previously.

Everyone, make some noise
for Mr. Aaron Dessner, over there.

And I'd met Aaron through Taylor.

Taylor had hooked me
and Aaron up on email.

And then me and Aaron went for dinner.

This is, like, November 2021.

Me and Aaron went for dinner, and,

I was telling him I'm just about
to put out this album, Subtract.

But after that,
I would love to try something different,

maybe with electric guitars,
blah-blah-blah.

And he sent me a bunch of instrumentals.

And I sort of s-- Had them for a while,
and I was like,

"I'll get to them eventually,

but, you know, I'm gonna put out
Subtract and do all of that."

And then February happened,

and I basically wrote over
all these instrumentals.

We got in the studio and we finished it.

And what has come out of it is actually

what Subtract was always meant to be,
which is this record.

So I'm gonna play it in full,

all the songs,
and explain stories behind them.

This song is called "Salt Water."

It's basically, like, I've had, you know,

ups and downs throughout my life
since I was very, very young.

And, you know, as I've got older
and become a parent, those ups and downs,

you feel more ashamed about because,
you know, you hate thinking dark,

dark thoughts when you have children
to look after.

But this is a song which basically
encapsulates all of that "what if?"

And it's called "Salt Water."

So, the last time I was in this venue,
it was with my friend Jamal.

We came to a comedy show here
and we sat that side of stage and...

yeah, it's kind of weird being back here

for the first time since then.

This next song was inspired by Jamal.

But, you know, now it's out.

I find, like, as I said earlier,
like, music,

when I write, it belongs to me.
When I release it, it belongs to you guys.

And I really felt-- Like, the first time
that I played this song ever,

I cried. I cried when I introduced it,
I cried when I sung it,

I cried at the end. And I'm gonna cry now.

We love you, Ed!

This will happen a lot in the gig,
by the way.

But I found this song,
like, super, like, cathartic to write

and put out there, 'cause it's kind of--

****. I know this is being filmed.
Let's just--

I found over the last, like,
two days with, like,

people sharing their stories
and stuff, it's been, like,

obviously heartbreaking
reading everyone's stories,

but it's just something
that we all go through.

It's like--

Apple, when you're editing this,
just make it smooth.

Yeah, it's just, I mean,

that's the thing I realized
when all these things happened last year.

It's just, like... It's just being an adult,

like, this **** just happens,
and everyone goes through it.

Three songs in. Wow.

This is "Eyes Closed."

Can you count in?

One, two, three, four.

You know, it's weird 'cause this,

you know, I sing songs all the time,

but this is, like, real-life stuff
that's happened,

so I'm sorry that real-life emotions
got in the way on stage.

So, this next song is a song called
"Life Goes On," and,

I felt like when Jamal passed away,
I wanted the world to

stop like it did for the Queen.

You know, when the Queen passed away

and the whole world
just stopped for a day?

And it sort of did. It sort of did.

Everyone sort of gathered together
for that one day and then the next day,

you know, everyone sort of got back
to their lives.

And I know that's, again, a normal thing.

People have jobs, people have things
that they have to do.

But I just didn't feel ready to,
and I still don't feel ready to.

I feel, like, you know,
grief is one of these things

that you're kind of expected to feel sad

for two weeks, a month, or whatever.

And then after that point, you know,
everyone rallies around you

for the first couple of weeks,
and then after that point,

you just sort of have to get on with it.

And we're a year on, and, you know,
I'm not over it.

And I don't want to be.

I like feeling emotion for it.

It makes me feel-- It makes me feel,
and I think that's a good thing.

So,

In my experience,
the worst thing for the vocal cords,

at any point, is to cry.

They sound dreadful.

So, Apple, again, be kind.

This is "Life Goes On."

So, I have two amazing daughters,
who are fabulous.

But when all this was going on,
I had one and a half

because one of them was in a womb.

But it's amazing, like, kids,
I mean, they do know what's going on,

but they also don't know/care.
If that makes sense.

So I would, like, go to bed crying
and wake up with an amazing, you know,

ball of energy just being like,
"Hi! Let's do stuff."

And, it's a real juxtaposition to have,

you know, real darkness at night

and then wake up
with just a beautiful girl

who just wants to listen to music
in the morning.

And all throughout this, you know,
I'd get up with my daughter

and we'd pick a record
and we'd put a record on.

We'd eat breakfast
and it would just be great.

Just, like, really great.

And that's how this song came about.

We'd put on Dusty in Memphis and...

You know, my daughter has good taste.

And this song's called "Dusty."

I was just saying to Aaron, like...

when we made that song
it was obviously, like, joyous.

And when I was putting
the track list together, I was like...

Heavy, heavy, heavy, heavy, heavy...
Put some joy in. Joy.

Now we get back to the heaviness.

So the thing that I realized most
from grief is that,

the moment you become an adult
is when that happens.

Because it's, you know, the first time
you're sort of dealing with--

I mean, it's not just grief,
it's any real-life situation.

That is the moment you become an adult.
It forces you to just become an adult.

And what I realized
in that situation is I had so many friends

in school that, you know,
lost parents when they were teenagers

or people that lost parents
when they were, like, three or four.

And they have to deal with
that real life-ness at that age

and become adults at that age.

And it literally just ends your youth
in its tracks.

Just stops it. Just ends the youth.

So you can be 12 years old
and your youth is over,

you have to deal with real life and...

You know, it really got me thinking.

It got me talking to mates
that had gone through that.

And talking to them about it
and how it was.

And, I wrote this song,
called "The End of Youth" which is,

you know, the lyric is,

"We spend our youth with arms
and hearts wide open

and then the dark gets in
and that's the end of youth."

And I really feel that.

I really feel like the moment
you start feeling darkness,

your youth ends. But... Cheery. Here we go.

Though I find being in love is,

you know, it's a wonderful thing,
it's not necessarily a fairy tale.

Like, love you have to work at.

Marriage you have to work at,
and it's different shades of color

every single day.

You have some days
where you are bright red anger.

Some days where it's just blue calm.

Some days where it's fiery passion.

You know,
it's like a wide spectrum of colors.

And...

The-- This song
is basically written about that.

That when you're in love,
you're essentially--

you can see through all of it
and be color-blind.

So this song is called "Colourblind,"
basically.

I feel like when you're going through
periods of your life

where you're feeling
really deep depression,

you tend to shut the world out,
which is probably the wrong thing to do,

but it just always feels
like the only thing to do.

You draw the curtains, close the door.
I don't wanna speak to anyone.

Leave me alone, basically.

And I'm fortunate enough to have
lots of brilliant people in my life,

lots of really kind friends,
my wife, my parents.

And, you know, there's always someone
there to help draw the curtains

and let in the sunshine.
And this is what this song is about.

It's called "Curtains."

Thanks.

How's everyone feeling?

I'm really, really proud of this album.

This is the first-- I'm, like, so grateful
to these players for being on stage.

It's the first time
I've played an album in full.

I'm so honored that we're doing it
at the Apollo.

And these guys are just
fan-****-tastic.

Can you give everyone
a round of applause, please?

I feel so lucky.

I feel so lucky and honored to play
with you guys. Thank you.

And if you didn't know, so,
the reason that it-- I mean--

I was gonna say the reason
it sounds like the record.

You haven't even heard the record.

The reason it sounds like the record
is these guys played on the record,

so we're literally recreating exactly
what Aaron made in the studio,

which is cool.

So this next song is called "Borderline."

I had some other stuff go on
around February last year.

There were some health scares
with someone I love really dearly.

And, I rung up Aaron and I said,
"I've just found out this news.

Could you send me
some more instrumentals?"

And he sent me seven instrumentals,

and I sent him back, in probably,
like, three hours, seven songs.

And this was the first one.

The first line is,
"Sadness always finds an in."

And I really do believe that.

Even if you're having a great day,
there's always a way--

Sorry, this is rea--

This is really-- You guy--

We finished with "Bad Habits"
and went straight in with this.

But, yeah. I just find...

I'm just gonna sing it.
It's called "Borderline."

Cheers, mate.

Right.

So this next song is called "Spark"
and it's basically about-- I feel--

I feel like life's in chapters
and getting--

I don't know, feeling
reminiscent can sometimes be a bad thing

because you keep yourself
in the last chapter.

And I feel like it's all about--

I don't know.

You know, in movies,
when people have those breakups,

and they put everything into the fire,

and they go, "And it's a new dawn
and blah-blah-blah."

I feel that's a healthy thing sometimes,
to just move on and just be like,

"That was that. And this is now."

And,
the lyrics to this chorus are, you know,

"We'll build a fire,
and we'll torch our old life

and hope the original spark
of what made it amazing survives,

and we'll just move on from it."
But, yeah. This is "Spark."

So it was pouring with rain
when Aaron sent me all these songs.

And the first lines of this song is,
"Rain keeps beating on the rooftop,

muddying the glass but,
God, I love the sound of heaven."

And, yeah, this is a song,

another song that was written
in that batch along with "Borderline."

And along with the next two.
Well, the next one, at least.

And it's called "Vega."

The Vega is the brightest star
in the Lyra constellation which--

which I found quite cool.

I kind of, like-- It's-- I found it
really weird writing to Aaron's music

'cause what happens with Aa--

Aaron basically sends a fully formed song,
essentially. And you write over it.

And usually I would be in the studio
and I would get--

I would pick up a guitar and I'd go,
"Right, what do we write about today?

We're doing...

Okay, is that a good line? Is it 'bad
habits lead to late night,' or is this..."

And you kind of go back and forth,
and you bounce ideas

and that's the collaborative process
that I've usually done,

whereas this collaborative process
is Aaron going, like,

"Just write what you feel."
And I found words pouring out.

And some of them, I was like,
"What does that even mean?

'It burns like hell to be Vega.'
Like, what--"

But it was just a line
that just came out of my mouth

whilst writing this song.

And, you know, this song probably took
as much time to write as the song itself.

Like, it just fell out.
And I can't describe it.

Aaron's music has songs
in it that you just have to...

You know, like in Harry Potter,
when it's the Pensieve,

and you take that bit out.
I find, like, that--

Aaron's song is Dumbledore's mind
basically. And you just,

take it out. But yeah.

So this is "Vega."

So, that day,

we got the news,

I got sent all these songs,

and we were driving up to a specialist,

in North London to sort of
get results and scans

and work out what the next steps were.

And I wrote this song.

Basically, I just find, like,
we're born into life with love.

Our parents love us,
and we're born in love,

and hopefully we leave the same way.
But, yeah, this is called "Sycamore."

Thank you.

So, my dad said to me when I got married--

He said, "You will not know
what real love and marriage is

until there's death and there's
real sickness."

And he said this because,

that happened
when he first married my mum.

There was real, real grief
that happened in the family,

and real, real sickness that also
then ended up in grief

that they both had to go through,

and he said that that
really brought them together.

And he just said, "Once that happens,
it's an unbreakable bond,

and you can't ever break it."

And, you know, I've been married now
almost five years, and the--

You know,
I've always felt real, real closeness,

but last year was when
that sort of unbreakable bond was made.

And I know you should feel
that before with, you know, marriage

and then children and blah-blah-blah,

but I really feel
like we got through 2022,

we can get through anything basically.

And I wanna say, like, we're nearing--

we're nearing the end of Subtract now.
There's two more songs.

Thank you for sitting through this
therapy session.

This is my favorite song on the album.

Might be one of my favorite songs
I've ever written.

And it's called "No Strings."

Thanks.

Well, this has been
a roller coaster of emotions.

Thank you very much for coming.

Thank you to Apple Music
for putting it on.

And, yeah, thanks for not filming,

being cool, listening.
Just, yeah, being sound.

I was hyper-nervous
before I went on stage.

I was like, "You're not gonna cry."
And three songs in, I did.

But, yeah-- As I said, like,
this isn't a fabricated thing.

We're, like-- This is my real life.
You all have real-life things.

And hopefully when this comes out,
you can connect to it,

and then
I don't have to think about it anymore.

But, yeah, thank you so much for coming.

I just want to say
before we do this last song,

and I know I've said it before,
but these musicians are, like, the best.

They are the best.

So thank you so much for playing
with me and making this come to life.

And, yeah, like, Aaron--

Aaron is really, like--
He just gets me. And he gets emotion,

and he has a massive heart
that comes through the music.

And it's an honor to stand on stage
with you and play. Thank you.

So this last song is the oldest song.

I wrote this ten years ago.

And it was always gonna end Subtract.

On my version of Subtract that I had,
this was always the last song.

And I felt--
When we put the album together,

and it ended with "No Strings,"
I sort of felt it was a bit--

You know, it sort of ends in the world
of grief and pain

and depression and stuff like that.

And I thought it would be really nice to
ease the audience out with a song.

So this is a song that I wrote
for Subtract.

I wrote it up in a beautiful
Highland town called Aberfeldy,

which makes great whiskey as well,

with my friend Foy Vance,

who has been a collaborator
for God knows how long.

And, yeah,
it's the last song on the album.

It's meant to gently take us out.
Thank you so much for coming.

Thank you to Hammersmith.

Thank you to Apple Music.

Thank you to Aaron and the band.

And I really appreciate it. Thank you.