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(KNOCK ON DOOR)
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- (KNOCKING CONTINUES)
- (BUBBLES BARKING)
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LIBBY: Toby Fleishman awoke
in the middle of the night
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to the sound of knocking at the door.
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(KNOCKING INTENSIFIES)
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TOBY: Bubbles! Keep it down.
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Hey, who is it?
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LIBBY: It's me. Open the door.
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What? What's going on? What time is it?
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I have to talk to you.
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What? Did you not go home?
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No, I have to talk to you.
Your phone was off.
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Sorry, keep it down.
The kids are sleeping.
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I saw her.
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- Who? I don't understand. You...
- I saw Rachel.
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- Yeah.
- What?
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You did? Jesus.
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After I left here,
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I went downtown just to,
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I don't know, like walk around
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and I saw her just, like,
sitting there on a park bench.
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Hmm.
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I'm surprised, honestly...
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LIBBY: And so I told him what happened.
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I told him about Rachel, where she was,
where she'd been.
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It was like seeing a ghost.
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I had left her that evening,
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with her sleeping,
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and a doctor's appointment
scheduled for the next morning.
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Hmm.
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So, that's it?
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"That's it"?
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Yeah.
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I have work in a few hours, Lib.
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- Sorry, did you hear what I just said?
- Mmm-hmm.
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That I saw Rachel
and she was in the park and...
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No, I heard you. Yeah.
But we all knew she was around.
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She was napping in the park. She was
fucking her best friend's husband.
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She was bound to turn up.
It's a small town.
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No, Toby. She had a nervous breakdown.
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I know. That sounds stressful.
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Okay. All right, I got to get the kids
to camp in the morning.
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I also have a new boss and a patient
that's going off life support.
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Sorry. What is happening right now?
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She had a nervous breakdown.
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That's where she's been.
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She didn't abandon her kids.
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Yeah, of course she did. Where is she?
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I mean, she's not here. I don't see her.
Do you?
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- Sure. But she had a nervous breakdown.
- Yeah, I know. I heard you.
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She had a nervous breakdown.
Don't have to say it again.
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She needs help, Toby.
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She can hire help.
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She... Who are you?
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Seriously,
who am I talking to right now?
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This is the mother of your children.
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Yes, exactly.
But she is not my wife anymore, okay?
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She has, like, no relation to me.
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I don't have to care about her.
She's not my problem.
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- Not your problem?
- No.
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Oh, my God.
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Remember, it's divorce, that means
never having to say you're sorry.
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- Yeah.
- What?
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I've been through her breakdowns,
Libby. Do not worry about her, okay?
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She'll make it work for herself.
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She'll come back
monetizing the whole thing.
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She'll run a bank
by the time she's done with this.
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I don't think that you understand, okay?
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Yeah.
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She's lost time, like full weeks.
She's lost everything.
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(SCOFFS) She didn't lose anything.
She lost, like, a client.
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And she spent a few extra days at a spa
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when her best friend's husband
decided to stop fucking her.
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You know what? You're right. Sorry.
I'll make her lasagna.
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Toby, Jesus.
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Hey, you were supposed
to be on my side, okay?
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- You were supposed to be my friend.
- I am your friend.
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You're waking me up in the middle
of the night to tell me this
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now that I finally found a way to
move on with my sad, broken children.
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Because she had a nervous breakdown.
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- Yeah, I said stop saying that.
- Okay, fine. I won't use that word.
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Okay, what do you want me to say?
She can't handle her life.
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She's collapsed.
She can't take care of her own children
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because she needs to put
her own fucking oxygen mask on first.
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Actually, actually that thing
about oxygen masks
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is about airplanes, all right?
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It's really about adult tolerance
for oxygen deprivation.
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It's not a metaphor. It's not
supposed to be like a lifestyle.
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I'm so... I'm just like shocked.
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I am not going to be
the prisoner of my mistakes.
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This is what our ancestors died for.
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The right for us to be middle-aged,
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and bored and miserable.
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Yeah and shocked, okay?
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(EXHALES) I'm going back to bed.
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Go home, Libby.
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LIBBY: I could tell you
what happened to Toby then.
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I could tell you that the next morning,
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when he arrived back at the hospital
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to meet with the committees
over Karen Cooper's brain activity
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and to help David Cooper
move toward a decision,
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he was full of remorse
for his anger at the poor guy.
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What had happened to Toby
to make him so cold-hearted
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that he would lash out at a man
who had just effectively lost his wife?
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All he could think was that
he was never like that before.
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But also he had to leave room for
the fact that maybe he was.
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Maybe, like the Wilson's itself,
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everything we are
is dormant and inside us all along.
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What I could tell you is that Toby
was always reactive and angry
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and ready to blame everyone else
for his problems.
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And he was also someone
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who held even the unpreventable failures
in his heart,
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and who did not ever let a basic
and consistent fact of his job,
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which was death,
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become regular to him.
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(SOBBING)
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I could tell you
that in his darkest recesses,
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Toby had some relief
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that he got to keep his job
the way that it was.
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That he fundamentally didn't understand
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why you would have to stop
doing what you loved
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in order to get ahead
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when it felt like it was ahead
to do what you loved.
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(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
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LIBBY: I could tell you that Toby
was focusing on making good
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on his promises to his children.
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And so, the way the world looks
is different,
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depending on how you look at it.
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The electron cloud is uncertain,
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- but the nucleus is always fixed.
- Okay.
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Which means
it's always in the same place.
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It's the things around it
that move around.
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Now, sir, please
look into the stereoscope.
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Okay.
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There are two realities.
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There is the cloud of electrons
surrounding the nucleus,
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which is a solution
of the Schrödinger equation.
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That's the box they're in.
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And there's the physical locations
of each individual electron,
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which can only be determined
by measuring them directly
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by opening the box.
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And both things are true.
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And that is what I want to say
about superposition.
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That is so good.
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That is so good.
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Do you think I'll win?
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I can't imagine anyone
has anything better thought out,
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or a smarter, harder-working son.
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That is excellent work.
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Oof. Jesus.
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LIBBY: I could tell you
he never got the blinds fixed.
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And despite three separate calls
to the super,
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the air-conditioner was still broken.
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Dad, we're gonna be late.
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What? For what? Oh, crap. Solly, here.
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Solly, come on. We have to go.
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TOBY: Come on. Come on. Come on.
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RABBI: Sorry I'm late.
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Class went over a few minutes.
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No, of course. Of course. Thank you.
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Hannah, how are you doing
with your haftarah?
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Cantor Timberman says
you're doing very nicely on it.
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Oh, yeah, she's been studying every day.
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- Really?
- Mmm-hmm.
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You don't hear that a lot.
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So what we could do
is just go over some logistics.
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I know that you're going to want
to bestow honors on your family,
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opening the Ark...
aliyah to the Torah, etcetera.
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- And I know you're planning on speaking.
- Uh-huh.
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And Rachel too, I presume.
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- That is still a question.
- Okay.
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Hannah, you understand
that you are engaging in a tradition
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that goes back thousands of years.
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You are accepting
the yoke of responsibility
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for your family and your community,
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and all the commandments of the Torah.
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And you're taking it upon yourself
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that it is your turn
to try and fix this world.
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The world is upside down right now,
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and we need all the smart,
thinking girls to help fix it.
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Right. Okay.
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And you're gonna carry this torch
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for all of the Fleishmans
and all of the Jewish people.
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Right.
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Well, then I think we're set.
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I think I'm not gonna do this.
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Hmm?
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Hannah?
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I don't think I should do this.
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TOBY: Hannah.
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- I'm just...
- Well, let's just take a minute.
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- Yeah.
- I'm just not doing it.
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The bat mitzvah. Can we go?
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Hannah... She did this study.
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She did all the studying. I'm sorry.
I don't know what this is. Hannah?
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I'm gonna go.
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Thank you, Rabbi.
And I'm sorry it didn't work out.
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I'm so... This came
as a complete surprise to me.
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I know your family
has been going through a lot.
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Yeah. Let me go speak with her.
Is that...
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- Yeah.
- Okay. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
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- Solly, come on.
- Take your time.
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Hannah, hey, what's going on?
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I wanted to see what it would be like
up here.
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You'll have another chance in November.
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Dad, I'm not doing it. For real.
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Is this about what happened at camp?
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Because I can promise you
that by the time November rolls around,
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like, no one will remember it.
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It's not.
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Is it about your mother?
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It's not that.
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Listen, I know it's been hard
with her gone,
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but we're still Jews,
and this is what we do.
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But why? Why do we do it? I... (SIGHS)
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I don't even know if I believe in God.
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Yeah, well, that's actually
not what this is about.
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This is about becoming an adult
in your community.
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This is about taking on
my traditions as yours,
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you can pass them along to your family.
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I guess I just don't understand
why I would do it.
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We do it because that's what we do.
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We're the Fleishmans and we're Jews.
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It doesn't seem smart to me.
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What has it given us?
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How has it even helped the world?
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We're a mess, Dad.
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The Fleishmans are a mess.
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You're being too literal I think.
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- No, no, I'm not.
- No?
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You always tell me to think for myself
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and not to be corrupted
by the people around me,
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but I want my own traditions.
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I want my own life
and I wanna make my own decisions.
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I don't want to have to fix anything.
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I haven't even broken anything.
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I'm only 11.
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LIBBY: I could tell you that Toby
looked at his daughter just then,
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his wise, beautiful daughter,
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who had been put through
too much recently,
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and realized that she was right.
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You know, another great tradition
is forging your own path
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and being better than your parents.
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Here, come here.
Come here, my sweet girl.
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Now, you stand here.
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LIBBY: And if a bat mitzvah
is also a coming of age,
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then he had to agree that Hannah
did not need a ceremony to do that.
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She'd grown up right in front of him,
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slowly and then all at once.
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(SPEAKING HEBREW)
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May God make you
like Sarah, Rebecca, Rachel and Leah.
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May God bless you and protect you.
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(HANNAH CRYING)
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May God show you favor
and be gracious to you.
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May God, may God show you kindness,
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and grant you peace.
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(HANNAH SOBBING)
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LIBBY: I could tell you that
after weeks of starts and stops,
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that was the moment
that the Fleishmans understood
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that a divorce was an earthquake
for two people who used to be in love.
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But it was a chronic condition
for the children
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who had to somehow survive it.
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I could tell you that the Fleishmans
found themselves again
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at the Vantablack exhibit,
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which was in its last days.
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They decided to go in and see it,
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to really finally
face the void together.
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Ready?
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LIBBY: But I could not tell you
what Toby did next.
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I had my own shit going on.
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(PHONE VIBRATING)
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What had happened to me was that
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at the beginning of the summer,
before Toby called me,
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I was heading into my second year
of being a stay-at-home mom
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and my thirteenth year of marriage
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and my fifth year in a suburb
and my forty-first year of life.
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But none of that changed
who I essentially was,
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which was a magazine writer
with no assignment.
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That didn't stop me from pontificating
all over the suburbs.
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You know what I think?
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I think that the men of this generation,
they are all like really good feminists,
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but they haven't actually thought
about what it means to be equal.
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They're so fragile all the time.
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We just spend all of our time reassuring
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and fellating
every insecurity out of them.
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Do you ever think
that those Future Is Female shirts,
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they're like Free Beer Tomorrow?
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You know, it's the future
is always in the future.
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Do you really think that they would let
us wear those shirts if it were true?
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I think it's just a shirt, Lib.
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I gotta go make dinner.
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Yeah, me, too.
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I'm riding with you?
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LIBBY: And then into that morass,
I bumped into Michelle.
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Libby! Hi!
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- Michelle?
- (CHUCKLES)
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Oh, my God, look at you.
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You look amazing.
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Yeah, well, I'm getting a divorce.
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- What?
- Yeah.
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Oh, my God, that's crazy. What happened?
302
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It's a long story, but it's good.
303
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I'm actually seeing someone,
my boyfriend from college.
304
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What?
305
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We reconnected on Facebook.
I know, what a cliché, right?
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I'm going to move to the city.
Jonathan will stay here
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and we'll take turns
staying with the kids.
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I'm just so, I'm so surprised,
you guys, you always seemed so happy.
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We were just very good friends,
you know?
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Yeah. Yeah.
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God. Okay, I'm sorry. I wanna
understand, like, all of this.
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Please start from the beginning.
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So we had just come back
from this amazing vacation...
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LIBBY: It was the third divorce
I'd heard about in a month.
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I started thinking
about divorce all the time.
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Not divorce,
but clean slates and new starts.
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I feel like I'm me again.
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We're gonna get a place
on the Upper West Side...
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LIBBY: "Me again."
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I had somehow fallen for it.
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Some dream of safety
that I hadn't understood
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would never reconcile with who I was,
which was a free and independent person.
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I'd taken all my freedom
and independence
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and pushed them across the poker table
and said,
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"Here, take my jackpot. Take it all.
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"I don't need it anymore.
I won't miss it ever."
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(EXHALES)
328
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God, how hot I used to be for life.
329
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Larry Feldman
was the first guy I ever kissed.
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He was the first guy I ever...
A lot of things.
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(NOTIFICATION PINGS)
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Oh, my God.
333
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LARRY: Libby Slater? Wow.
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LIBBY: How much I used to feel.
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How much I didn't feel any more.
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{\an8}Larry Feldman!
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LARRY: What is going on with you?
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LIBBY: I just remembered you
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and realized
that I didn't know what became of you.
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LARRY: You know,
I remember you very often.
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00:20:50,082 --> 00:20:51,708
LIBBY: Oh, yeah? That's funny.
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00:20:51,708 --> 00:20:54,044
I just saw that you're friends
with everyone from school,
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and I don't know how
I missed being a part of that.
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LARRY: I remember when you and I
were in that basement
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at Melissa Cooperman's
bat mitzvah after-party,
346
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and I think about
when you let me put my...
347
00:21:12,562 --> 00:21:14,022
Oh, God. Gross.
348
00:21:20,028 --> 00:21:21,071
Later that night,
349
00:21:21,071 --> 00:21:24,700
I heard from a friend
I hadn't spoken to in a dozen years.
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- Toby Fleishman?
- Elizabeth Slater.
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00:21:33,750 --> 00:21:37,421
Epstein. It's Epstein now.
Yeah, but yes. Hello.
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It was so nice to be back with people
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that I never had to explain
who I was to.
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I'd been trying to return
to the most authentic version of myself,
355
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but it wasn't that dipshit
porn-dog Larry Feldman
356
00:21:50,350 --> 00:21:52,602
who knew me when I was most myself.
357
00:21:52,602 --> 00:21:53,812
It was Toby.
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I began to feel less unmoored.
359
00:21:57,357 --> 00:22:01,820
But I was living this life
that wasn't mine anymore.
360
00:22:03,905 --> 00:22:06,783
And then I was living a life
that hadn't ever been mine.
361
00:22:07,701 --> 00:22:10,912
Toby Fleishman! Hot damn!
362
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I did finally go home that night
363
00:22:21,923 --> 00:22:24,468
after I went to Toby's house
to tell him about Rachel.
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00:22:27,012 --> 00:22:30,182
After I hadn't been in contact
with my own family for days.
365
00:23:06,009 --> 00:23:07,010
Hi.
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00:23:10,013 --> 00:23:11,056
I'm sorry.
367
00:23:25,904 --> 00:23:27,280
(FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING)
368
00:23:27,489 --> 00:23:30,325
- Mom, you're making breakfast?
- Hi.
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I have been helping a friend
with something,
370
00:23:33,745 --> 00:23:34,996
but I'm back.
371
00:23:35,789 --> 00:23:36,873
I made pancakes.
372
00:23:37,666 --> 00:23:40,043
- I want to hear everything.
- I don't eat breakfast anymore.
373
00:23:42,045 --> 00:23:43,046
What does that mean?
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ADAM: That's why
we get you lessons, bud.
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00:23:44,548 --> 00:23:45,882
MILES: I'm never going to pass.
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00:23:45,882 --> 00:23:47,092
I'm not going.
377
00:23:47,092 --> 00:23:49,845
- What's going on?
- I'm not taking the swimming test.
378
00:23:49,845 --> 00:23:52,431
Miles, you can't learn this stuff
unless you learn this stuff.
379
00:23:52,431 --> 00:23:54,724
What's the problem?
You have to take the swimming test.
380
00:23:54,724 --> 00:23:56,685
- ADAM: I got this.
- MILES: I'm not going.
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00:23:56,685 --> 00:23:58,812
I'm not taking any more lessons.
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00:23:58,812 --> 00:24:01,189
- LIBBY: Okay, Miles, I know you don't--
- I got this.
383
00:24:01,189 --> 00:24:03,400
- It kind of seems like you're--
- SASHA: We're gonna be late.
384
00:24:04,276 --> 00:24:07,320
- I made breakfast for everybody.
- We get breakfast on the way now.
385
00:24:07,320 --> 00:24:09,239
I already called in an order
at the bagel place.
386
00:24:09,239 --> 00:24:12,617
I've got court today. Come on,
we're late. We're late. Let's go.
387
00:24:13,827 --> 00:24:14,828
Bye.
388
00:24:17,164 --> 00:24:18,206
(DOOR CLOSES)
389
00:24:28,300 --> 00:24:29,759
It went on like that for a while.
390
00:24:30,385 --> 00:24:31,803
Me doing penance.
391
00:24:32,721 --> 00:24:37,684
Me staring out into the Vantablack,
wondering how this would get resolved.
392
00:24:44,983 --> 00:24:46,693
I wasn't speaking to Toby anymore.
393
00:24:47,569 --> 00:24:49,446
Seth wasn't speaking to either of us.
394
00:24:50,113 --> 00:24:52,199
And I've tried to wedge myself
back into my life
395
00:24:52,199 --> 00:24:54,284
before anyone noticed I'd been gone.
396
00:24:56,495 --> 00:24:58,788
MAN: (ON RADIO)
Fifty of the nation's most senior
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00:24:58,788 --> 00:25:00,957
Republican national security officials
398
00:25:00,957 --> 00:25:03,502
have published a letter
declaring that Donald...
399
00:25:08,548 --> 00:25:10,550
Sasha, what are you doing?
400
00:25:10,550 --> 00:25:11,676
Hi, Mom.
401
00:25:11,968 --> 00:25:13,220
Well, is this a party?
402
00:25:14,221 --> 00:25:16,598
SASHA: No, it's a barbecue.
Dad's in the back.
403
00:25:17,349 --> 00:25:19,142
- Dad's in the back?
- Yeah.
404
00:25:25,023 --> 00:25:27,734
WOMAN: I need ten kids,
but so far I have three.
405
00:25:28,777 --> 00:25:29,861
So fun.
406
00:25:29,861 --> 00:25:31,196
Maybe Libby will do it.
407
00:25:31,696 --> 00:25:34,241
Well, look who came out of the woodwork.
408
00:25:34,241 --> 00:25:35,408
- Libby.
- Hi.
409
00:25:35,408 --> 00:25:38,286
I thought you couldn't make it.
Adam said you couldn't make it.
410
00:25:39,204 --> 00:25:42,749
Oh. Uh, I think
we just got our signals crossed.
411
00:25:42,749 --> 00:25:44,459
- Here.
- Thank you.
412
00:25:44,459 --> 00:25:48,129
I was thinking of doing that one week
drama camp for the girls before school.
413
00:25:48,129 --> 00:25:50,090
Do you think Sasha would want to?
414
00:25:52,634 --> 00:25:55,762
I don't actually know if she's still
into doing drama, I have to ask her.
415
00:25:57,681 --> 00:25:58,765
I'll ask Adam.
416
00:25:59,307 --> 00:26:00,934
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
417
00:26:03,937 --> 00:26:05,689
Sorry, can you just... Can I...
418
00:26:05,689 --> 00:26:07,649
I'll be right back. One second.
419
00:26:08,149 --> 00:26:10,735
ADAM: ...military. It's so dark
that it's dangerous.
420
00:26:10,735 --> 00:26:13,446
You know, people,
they see and they freak out.
421
00:26:13,446 --> 00:26:14,906
"They freak out," run screaming?
422
00:26:14,906 --> 00:26:17,200
Yes. No, I'm telling you. It's...
423
00:26:17,200 --> 00:26:20,287
They have to leave
because they, like, lose their footing.
424
00:26:20,287 --> 00:26:21,496
- Oh, hey, Libby. Hi.
- Hey.
425
00:26:22,163 --> 00:26:23,164
Hi.
426
00:26:23,623 --> 00:26:24,624
Did we talk about this?
427
00:26:25,584 --> 00:26:27,377
- About this barbecue?
- Yeah.
428
00:26:27,377 --> 00:26:29,337
I don't know.
It was in the family calendar.
429
00:26:29,921 --> 00:26:33,049
Sure, but I mean this morning,
when we were talking,
430
00:26:33,049 --> 00:26:34,301
did we talk about this?
431
00:26:34,301 --> 00:26:37,053
I don't know, Libby.
I can't keep track of you.
432
00:26:37,053 --> 00:26:40,682
Okay. I've been home. That's not fair.
433
00:26:41,933 --> 00:26:43,602
Adam, you're coming over later
for the game?
434
00:26:43,602 --> 00:26:44,936
You know it.
435
00:26:44,936 --> 00:26:46,187
You better bring that queso.
436
00:26:46,187 --> 00:26:47,439
(BOTH CHUCKLE)
437
00:26:47,606 --> 00:26:48,607
What game?
438
00:26:48,898 --> 00:26:49,899
Really?
439
00:26:49,899 --> 00:26:51,860
People watch the game now?
440
00:26:53,028 --> 00:26:54,321
You eat queso?
441
00:26:55,196 --> 00:26:57,824
He makes the best queso I've ever had.
442
00:26:58,783 --> 00:27:00,827
- You make queso?
- Yeah.
443
00:27:01,703 --> 00:27:02,787
I make queso.
444
00:27:06,625 --> 00:27:07,667
Excuse me.
445
00:27:09,794 --> 00:27:11,087
Can I talk to you for a second?
446
00:27:11,087 --> 00:27:13,131
Yeah. Now's... Now's not good.
447
00:27:13,131 --> 00:27:15,383
"Now's not good." Wow. Okay.
448
00:27:15,383 --> 00:27:16,885
- We're at a fucking barbecue.
- Oh, my God.
449
00:27:16,885 --> 00:27:19,387
Can you please just stop being
so fucking passive about everything.
450
00:27:19,387 --> 00:27:22,223
Please. Please, please. I just wanna
have, like, a regular conversation.
451
00:27:22,223 --> 00:27:25,894
You are incapable of having
just a regular conversation, please.
452
00:27:37,864 --> 00:27:39,282
Okay. I know.
453
00:27:40,325 --> 00:27:42,494
I'm terrible. Okay?
454
00:27:43,203 --> 00:27:44,204
I'm sorry.
455
00:27:44,746 --> 00:27:46,915
So just please talk to me.
456
00:27:47,832 --> 00:27:49,584
About what?
There's nothing to talk about.
457
00:27:52,879 --> 00:27:54,089
You do whatever you want.
458
00:27:55,173 --> 00:27:57,801
And I could not be a more thoughtful,
considerate husband to you.
459
00:27:58,927 --> 00:28:00,637
You are merciless lately.
460
00:28:00,637 --> 00:28:03,807
Miserable all the time, sarcastic.
461
00:28:03,807 --> 00:28:06,142
What do you think it means to me,
to the kids,
462
00:28:06,142 --> 00:28:08,269
that you walk around so unhappy?
463
00:28:08,269 --> 00:28:11,022
I have no idea
what's happened to you lately.
464
00:28:11,981 --> 00:28:14,192
(SIGHS)
God, I didn't want to get into this.
465
00:28:14,192 --> 00:28:16,736
Okay, look. You're right.
466
00:28:18,113 --> 00:28:19,531
I have been terrible.
467
00:28:19,531 --> 00:28:20,699
You are wonderful.
468
00:28:22,575 --> 00:28:24,202
I don't know what's wrong with me.
469
00:28:24,202 --> 00:28:25,578
I keep trying to figure it out.
470
00:28:27,789 --> 00:28:28,998
I feel like I'm...
471
00:28:30,792 --> 00:28:32,752
Like, I'm not alive anymore.
472
00:28:32,752 --> 00:28:33,837
Well, you know what?
473
00:28:34,671 --> 00:28:37,340
I'm happy, okay? We have friends.
474
00:28:37,340 --> 00:28:39,759
- We have--
- Okay. These are not friends, though.
475
00:28:39,759 --> 00:28:42,429
Like, they're not.
I can't talk to any of these people.
476
00:28:42,429 --> 00:28:44,848
They treat me like I'm a fucking oddity.
477
00:28:44,848 --> 00:28:47,517
They just talk about their kids
and their houses all the time.
478
00:28:47,517 --> 00:28:49,894
We have two wonderful children.
479
00:28:49,894 --> 00:28:52,897
We have income and safety and health
480
00:28:52,897 --> 00:28:55,316
and the enormous privileges
of our class.
481
00:28:55,316 --> 00:28:59,487
We are the kinds of people
who are invited to barbecues.
482
00:28:59,487 --> 00:29:02,449
And if you gave these people a chance,
you would find they are filled
483
00:29:02,449 --> 00:29:04,701
with the same kind of ambivalence
that you have.
484
00:29:04,701 --> 00:29:06,911
They're not.
I promise you, they are not.
485
00:29:06,911 --> 00:29:09,038
No. They are. They are, okay?
486
00:29:09,956 --> 00:29:11,875
They are all trying to figure it out.
487
00:29:11,875 --> 00:29:13,626
- Just like you. Just like me...
- It's not true!
488
00:29:13,626 --> 00:29:16,129
- If you wanted to know.
- It's not true though, Adam.
489
00:29:16,129 --> 00:29:19,549
They love it here. All they talk about
is how wonderful it is all the time.
490
00:29:19,549 --> 00:29:22,302
It's like we've died
and these houses are our headstones.
491
00:29:22,302 --> 00:29:23,970
We chose this.
492
00:29:23,970 --> 00:29:27,390
Libby, you chose it, marriage, children.
493
00:29:27,390 --> 00:29:30,101
Every single bit of it, we chose it.
494
00:29:30,727 --> 00:29:33,438
I know, I know. I know.
I don't know, though,
495
00:29:33,438 --> 00:29:38,151
because, honestly, I feel like
a few years ago I was a person, right?
496
00:29:38,151 --> 00:29:39,486
And then I looked up,
497
00:29:39,486 --> 00:29:41,279
and I just, I have no idea
498
00:29:41,279 --> 00:29:44,073
when everything started to feel...
so the same.
499
00:29:44,073 --> 00:29:45,867
Don't talk to me about your burdens.
500
00:29:45,867 --> 00:29:48,286
The kids are always
with the babysitter lately,
501
00:29:48,286 --> 00:29:50,413
and you barely even look at me anymore.
502
00:29:50,413 --> 00:29:53,082
Okay. I am trying
to figure it out, though. I really am.
503
00:29:53,082 --> 00:29:57,003
You could bother looking at me
while you try to figure it out, right?
504
00:29:57,003 --> 00:29:59,339
I could be a part
of your figuring it out.
505
00:29:59,339 --> 00:30:03,718
This is about you, all of a sudden?
It's so not about you, Adam.
506
00:30:05,553 --> 00:30:06,805
Are you sleeping with Toby?
507
00:30:07,472 --> 00:30:08,473
Am I what?
508
00:30:08,473 --> 00:30:10,099
You slept over
at his fucking house, Libby.
509
00:30:10,099 --> 00:30:13,061
No, of course I'm not sleeping
with Toby. Are you crazy?
510
00:30:13,061 --> 00:30:16,022
- That's all you have to say?
- I don't even know why I did that, okay?
511
00:30:16,022 --> 00:30:17,649
I just... You expect me
to know everything.
512
00:30:17,649 --> 00:30:19,609
To have all of the answers.
I don't have the answers.
513
00:30:19,609 --> 00:30:22,320
- I don't have them.
- No, I expect you to come home at night.
514
00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:23,988
Is that so crazy?
515
00:30:28,785 --> 00:30:29,828
I have to go.
516
00:30:30,870 --> 00:30:32,497
- Sorry, you have to go?
- Yes.
517
00:30:32,497 --> 00:30:34,874
I was asked to peel the corn
at this barbecue,
518
00:30:34,874 --> 00:30:38,294
which you knew about
and which was in the family calendar.
519
00:30:38,294 --> 00:30:42,173
And when I say I'm gonna be somewhere
and do something, I do it.
520
00:31:07,615 --> 00:31:09,951
MAN: Yeah, so I converted the garage
into a bar.
521
00:31:10,577 --> 00:31:12,120
The best move I ever made.
522
00:31:12,120 --> 00:31:13,830
MAN 2: Yeah,
you can't do that in Brooklyn.
523
00:31:13,830 --> 00:31:15,832
WOMAN: Did you get a French drain?
524
00:31:15,832 --> 00:31:19,210
You know, actually, we just pitched the
soil, so there's no flooding anymore.
525
00:31:19,210 --> 00:31:21,504
Well, your house is on top of that hill,
that makes sense.
526
00:31:21,504 --> 00:31:23,882
The guy looks at me
with a totally straight face,
527
00:31:23,882 --> 00:31:26,718
and he says, "You seem nice,
but you're not my type."
528
00:32:12,055 --> 00:32:15,141
ADAM: Get in the shower, and then...
Hurry up.
529
00:32:16,142 --> 00:32:17,685
(FOOTSTEPS APPROACHING)
530
00:32:53,012 --> 00:32:54,389
(WATER RUNNING)
531
00:33:03,189 --> 00:33:04,357
(WATER STOPS)
532
00:33:10,613 --> 00:33:11,906
You just staying in bed today?
533
00:33:14,951 --> 00:33:17,328
My alarm, I forgot to set it.
534
00:33:18,329 --> 00:33:19,872
I just had the craziest dream.
535
00:33:19,872 --> 00:33:21,708
I guess I'm taking the kids to camp.
536
00:33:21,708 --> 00:33:24,752
Kids, kids, come on, we're late.
Let's go.
537
00:33:24,752 --> 00:33:26,087
Okay.
538
00:33:26,087 --> 00:33:27,922
- SASHA: We're always late.
- ADAM: Let's go!
539
00:33:34,554 --> 00:33:36,222
Glenn? Hi.
540
00:33:36,222 --> 00:33:38,141
Hey, I thought you'd want to know...
541
00:33:39,142 --> 00:33:40,143
Archer died.
542
00:33:43,896 --> 00:33:45,231
Wait. What?
543
00:33:46,190 --> 00:33:48,317
No, that's, that's so crazy.
544
00:33:48,317 --> 00:33:51,070
I, like, literally
just had a dream about him.
545
00:33:51,070 --> 00:33:52,155
What happened?
546
00:34:00,580 --> 00:34:03,541
In my dream, I had been
asking Archer for advice.
547
00:34:03,541 --> 00:34:04,876
I can't remember on what,
548
00:34:04,876 --> 00:34:07,712
but he kept asking
if we'd ever slept together.
549
00:34:09,589 --> 00:34:14,135
Like, in life, I kept reminding him
who I was and how much I admired him.
550
00:34:15,636 --> 00:34:17,930
And his response to that was,
551
00:34:18,848 --> 00:34:20,308
"What does that have to do with me?"
552
00:34:42,038 --> 00:34:44,082
Goodbye. Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.
553
00:34:55,301 --> 00:34:59,138
SETH: Hey, can we pretend we talked this
all through and just move on?
554
00:34:59,138 --> 00:35:00,723
I'm having a party on Saturday.
555
00:35:00,723 --> 00:35:02,558
It's really important to me
that you come.
556
00:35:02,558 --> 00:35:03,976
Dress nicely, please.
557
00:35:06,813 --> 00:35:08,356
The three of us
are having a slumber party,
558
00:35:08,356 --> 00:35:11,609
but we're gonna tell Sophie
that she has to start using deodorant.
559
00:35:11,609 --> 00:35:13,444
The situation has gotten out of control.
560
00:35:13,444 --> 00:35:14,612
ADAM: Puberty, man.
561
00:35:16,072 --> 00:35:17,115
I'm gonna call Susannah,
562
00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:19,367
see if she can watch them
on Saturday night.
563
00:35:19,367 --> 00:35:20,618
Why? I'll be home.
564
00:35:21,285 --> 00:35:22,662
No, uh, Seth,
565
00:35:23,579 --> 00:35:27,041
he's asked us to a party.
He's having a party.
566
00:35:32,839 --> 00:35:33,923
But I can't not go.
567
00:35:35,883 --> 00:35:39,679
He specifically said that it was
important to him that I be there so...
568
00:35:44,225 --> 00:35:45,351
(CLEARS THROAT)
569
00:35:46,310 --> 00:35:47,353
I hope you have a good time.
570
00:36:43,117 --> 00:36:46,078
I'll have a negroni, please. Thanks.
571
00:36:51,667 --> 00:36:54,462
You know what's going on here, right?
572
00:36:58,716 --> 00:37:00,301
- God damn it.
- Yeah.
573
00:37:01,385 --> 00:37:03,596
- I never thought I would see this day.
- I know.
574
00:37:03,596 --> 00:37:05,181
That... What a fucking idiot!
575
00:37:05,181 --> 00:37:06,599
What a stupid dipshit.
576
00:37:08,726 --> 00:37:10,394
- (GLASS CLINKING)
- Oh, God.
577
00:37:10,394 --> 00:37:12,188
SETH: Could I have everyone's attention?
578
00:37:12,688 --> 00:37:14,190
- Just for a moment. Thank you.
- Thanks.
579
00:37:14,190 --> 00:37:15,900
Thank you for coming. Thank you.
580
00:37:15,900 --> 00:37:20,238
Uh, I just wanted to say that I've had
a lot of parties throughout the years,
581
00:37:20,238 --> 00:37:23,157
and I used to have theme parties
582
00:37:24,325 --> 00:37:26,118
that I would call learning parties,
583
00:37:26,118 --> 00:37:29,038
and we would dress up
as historical figures
584
00:37:29,038 --> 00:37:32,833
or have somebody come
and give a math lecture.
585
00:37:33,709 --> 00:37:35,419
Really, they're just excuses
to get drunk.
586
00:37:35,419 --> 00:37:39,465
But I was always trying
to make sense of the world,
587
00:37:39,465 --> 00:37:41,884
understand it and make peace with it.
588
00:37:42,677 --> 00:37:45,554
And I thought if I could just do that,
589
00:37:46,180 --> 00:37:48,140
then I could start to live my life.
590
00:37:49,100 --> 00:37:50,142
Uh...
591
00:37:50,559 --> 00:37:54,313
Today, I am here to tell you I give up.
592
00:37:54,981 --> 00:37:56,649
I will never understand it.
593
00:37:58,276 --> 00:38:00,736
And so I should do...
594
00:38:02,655 --> 00:38:05,366
what every part of my body
is telling me to do.
595
00:38:07,368 --> 00:38:11,330
And that is to ask the prettiest girl
in this room if she would marry me.
596
00:38:11,330 --> 00:38:12,540
(ALL EXCLAIMING)
597
00:38:12,790 --> 00:38:13,791
(GASPS)
598
00:38:15,835 --> 00:38:18,212
It's all a lot simpler
than I ever thought it would be. I...
599
00:38:19,755 --> 00:38:21,882
I just want to wake up every day
and see her face.
600
00:38:30,516 --> 00:38:32,768
What do you say,
Vanessa Lipschitz-Finklestein?
601
00:38:33,936 --> 00:38:36,731
Can I make you
Vanessa Lipschitz-Finklestein-Morris?
602
00:38:38,941 --> 00:38:41,027
- (CHUCKLES) Yeah.
- Yeah.
603
00:38:42,069 --> 00:38:43,738
(CROWD CHEERING)
604
00:38:48,451 --> 00:38:50,244
(CHEERING INTENSIFIES)
605
00:38:54,832 --> 00:38:57,251
I told her we were here
for my mother's birthday.
606
00:38:57,251 --> 00:38:58,627
(ALL LAUGHING)
607
00:39:03,466 --> 00:39:04,633
Are you crying?
608
00:39:07,887 --> 00:39:08,888
I just... How could he...
609
00:39:09,847 --> 00:39:12,350
Ugh, how could he possibly think
that this is a good idea
610
00:39:12,350 --> 00:39:14,602
after spending the entire summer
listening to us?
611
00:39:14,602 --> 00:39:16,729
I know. I mean, I guess in Seth's story,
612
00:39:16,729 --> 00:39:19,815
we're just the co-stars
who help him make this big decision.
613
00:39:23,819 --> 00:39:24,820
Sorry, Lib.
614
00:39:29,492 --> 00:39:32,411
I am, too. I really...
615
00:39:34,163 --> 00:39:37,917
You know, it doesn't even matter.
I'm... I'm sorry, too.
616
00:39:44,298 --> 00:39:45,383
Well, that's it.
617
00:39:46,467 --> 00:39:48,886
Our boy is finally a man.
618
00:39:57,686 --> 00:39:58,687
What can I say?
619
00:39:58,687 --> 00:40:01,107
Life is a process
in which you collect people
620
00:40:01,107 --> 00:40:03,692
and prune them
when they stop working for you.
621
00:40:03,692 --> 00:40:06,737
The only exceptions
are the friends you make in college.
622
00:40:08,489 --> 00:40:09,907
- Hi.
- Hey.
623
00:40:09,907 --> 00:40:11,450
Congratulations.
624
00:40:12,368 --> 00:40:14,203
I'm really happy for you.
625
00:40:14,829 --> 00:40:15,830
I'm so glad you came.
626
00:40:16,997 --> 00:40:18,958
I'm sorry that we fought, Seth.
627
00:40:18,958 --> 00:40:20,960
I take you very seriously.
628
00:40:20,960 --> 00:40:22,503
You are a real person.
629
00:40:22,503 --> 00:40:25,172
Yes, you are extremely real.
I feel like I could touch you.
630
00:40:25,172 --> 00:40:27,049
I bet you have a social security number.
631
00:40:27,049 --> 00:40:29,301
Now, don't actually...
Don't actually... Don't actually.
632
00:40:29,301 --> 00:40:30,678
(LIBBY CHUCKLES)
633
00:40:31,971 --> 00:40:33,806
Do you think
I'm an idiot for doing this?
634
00:40:36,934 --> 00:40:37,935
No.
635
00:40:38,602 --> 00:40:43,065
No, I think maybe marriage is like
that quote about democracy, you know,
636
00:40:43,065 --> 00:40:44,900
"It's the worst form of government
in the world,
637
00:40:44,900 --> 00:40:46,235
"except for all the other forms."
638
00:40:47,111 --> 00:40:48,612
- You know?
- Nice.
639
00:40:48,612 --> 00:40:50,114
Listen, we love you.
640
00:40:50,114 --> 00:40:52,074
We're here for you. It's gonna be great.
641
00:40:52,783 --> 00:40:54,827
Well, that's a rare nice thing
you just said to me.
642
00:40:54,827 --> 00:40:56,370
- Thank you.
- Yeah, no, I'm happy for you.
643
00:40:57,204 --> 00:40:59,206
- We're both very happy for you.
- Yes.
644
00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:04,253
May your... May your
645
00:41:05,045 --> 00:41:08,799
most virile sperm
646
00:41:09,800 --> 00:41:13,888
make their odyssey through
her fallopian tubes
647
00:41:13,888 --> 00:41:18,809
and conquer her ovaries,
bringing you sons.
648
00:41:19,310 --> 00:41:20,728
- Sons...
- Sons!
649
00:41:20,728 --> 00:41:21,937
By conquering the ovaries.
650
00:41:21,937 --> 00:41:23,189
Did you even take freshman bio?
651
00:41:23,189 --> 00:41:24,648
- Why is that not how it...
- No.
652
00:41:24,648 --> 00:41:26,317
- Is that not how it works?
- May your sons
653
00:41:26,317 --> 00:41:28,402
marry the daughters of finance bros,
654
00:41:28,402 --> 00:41:32,072
and with ever-greater dowries
and stock options,
655
00:41:32,072 --> 00:41:33,282
in Tesla and Apple.
656
00:41:33,949 --> 00:41:36,744
You know, everything the beggar woman
said came true.
657
00:41:36,744 --> 00:41:39,371
She said, "You were never gonna
be happy with what you were given.
658
00:41:39,371 --> 00:41:41,624
"You're gonna always
want something different."
659
00:41:42,708 --> 00:41:44,460
She said you were gonna heal the world.
660
00:41:45,586 --> 00:41:47,546
Yeah, but that was only
when I had money to give her.
661
00:41:51,467 --> 00:41:53,135
We're all good, right?
662
00:41:54,595 --> 00:41:57,640
It feels like something is ending.
I can't take an ending right now.
663
00:41:57,640 --> 00:41:59,183
No, it's not. It's not. We're all good.
664
00:42:00,100 --> 00:42:01,685
- Yeah, we're good.
- VANESSA: Seth?
665
00:42:05,105 --> 00:42:06,106
Gotta go.
666
00:42:06,815 --> 00:42:08,567
My fiancée is calling me!
667
00:42:08,567 --> 00:42:09,944
(TOBY AND LIBBY EXCLAIM)
668
00:42:11,111 --> 00:42:12,154
Hi.
669
00:42:15,616 --> 00:42:17,243
I heard Archer Sylvan died.
670
00:42:17,243 --> 00:42:19,036
Yeah. Yeah.
671
00:42:19,912 --> 00:42:21,372
He died as he lived.
672
00:42:22,081 --> 00:42:24,917
Practicing autoerotic asphyxiation
673
00:42:24,917 --> 00:42:27,127
- in a hotel in Thailand...
- Oh, boy.
674
00:42:27,127 --> 00:42:29,046
...surrounded by prostitutes.
675
00:42:29,046 --> 00:42:30,923
- Really?
- Yeah. Yeah.
676
00:42:31,090 --> 00:42:34,552
It was very, very weird, though.
Like, I had this dream about him.
677
00:42:35,177 --> 00:42:38,472
And my editor calls me
and he told me that he died.
678
00:42:39,557 --> 00:42:40,891
- That's crazy.
- Yeah.
679
00:42:41,600 --> 00:42:43,269
It took them, like, a week
to find the body.
680
00:42:43,269 --> 00:42:45,396
- That's terrible. What? The smell?
- No, no, no.
681
00:42:45,396 --> 00:42:49,358
He was on a story and he was late,
you know, or later than usual, so...
682
00:42:50,859 --> 00:42:53,279
The magazine's paying
for the funeral and everything
683
00:42:53,279 --> 00:42:55,739
because he didn't have anybody.
684
00:42:55,739 --> 00:42:57,199
- That's so sad.
- Yeah.
685
00:42:57,199 --> 00:42:58,909
We're lucky we have people.
686
00:42:59,702 --> 00:43:01,954
You're lucky. You know that, right?
687
00:43:02,997 --> 00:43:04,331
- I think so. Yeah.
- Okay.
688
00:43:04,331 --> 00:43:05,457
I just...
689
00:43:06,667 --> 00:43:09,211
I'm just lost. I don't know.
690
00:43:09,211 --> 00:43:10,921
I don't know
what I'm doing with my life.
691
00:43:10,921 --> 00:43:13,299
What do you mean, what you're doing
with your life? It's done.
692
00:43:13,299 --> 00:43:15,593
You're loved, Elizabeth.
693
00:43:15,593 --> 00:43:18,304
Please, please tell me you understand
how special that is, right?
694
00:43:18,304 --> 00:43:19,388
Yes, I just don't...
695
00:43:21,098 --> 00:43:22,641
I guess it's just not enough for me.
696
00:43:22,766 --> 00:43:24,351
Oh, God. Okay, I know.
697
00:43:25,019 --> 00:43:28,647
Honestly? It might not
be enough for you either, so.
698
00:43:28,647 --> 00:43:30,899
No, no, it would be.
It definitely would be.
699
00:43:30,899 --> 00:43:33,152
I know that you fantasize
that it would be
700
00:43:33,152 --> 00:43:35,738
because you have had
such a struggle all these years.
701
00:43:35,738 --> 00:43:38,157
But you really have no idea
how you would feel
702
00:43:38,157 --> 00:43:40,034
if you got the thing that you wanted.
703
00:43:40,826 --> 00:43:41,869
You don't.
704
00:43:41,869 --> 00:43:44,788
And contentment breeds quiet,
705
00:43:45,581 --> 00:43:48,626
which breeds complacency,
which breeds unrest.
706
00:43:50,628 --> 00:43:51,879
Maybe you should go back to work.
707
00:43:54,006 --> 00:43:55,215
Yeah, I think I might.
708
00:43:56,508 --> 00:43:57,885
I think I might write a book.
709
00:43:58,469 --> 00:44:01,555
- A book? That's good. About what?
- Hmm.
710
00:44:02,473 --> 00:44:03,557
About life,
711
00:44:04,308 --> 00:44:06,685
and marriage
712
00:44:06,685 --> 00:44:10,230
and money and dissatisfaction
713
00:44:10,230 --> 00:44:12,358
and lifelong friendship.
714
00:44:12,358 --> 00:44:15,527
And like, how all these things coalesce
in middle age, right?
715
00:44:15,527 --> 00:44:19,406
And make you miserable
right at the exact point
716
00:44:19,406 --> 00:44:21,700
that you're supposed
to have everything set.
717
00:44:21,700 --> 00:44:23,243
- Okay.
- Yeah.
718
00:44:24,578 --> 00:44:25,996
Yeah, it'll be about everything.
719
00:44:25,996 --> 00:44:28,582
- Everything?
- Everything.
720
00:44:28,582 --> 00:44:30,501
Hmm. That's heavy.
721
00:44:31,085 --> 00:44:34,797
Maybe, or maybe what's the point
of writing about anything,
722
00:44:34,797 --> 00:44:37,216
- if it's not gonna be about everything?
- Yeah.
723
00:44:37,216 --> 00:44:38,842
That's what Archer did.
724
00:44:38,842 --> 00:44:40,344
That's good. No, you should,
725
00:44:40,344 --> 00:44:42,680
- you should go be like Archer.
- Yeah.
726
00:44:43,972 --> 00:44:45,307
Maybe I'll be better than Archer.
727
00:44:46,308 --> 00:44:47,976
You know, I'll tell a really good story,
728
00:44:47,976 --> 00:44:50,437
but I'll tell
all the other sides of it, too,
729
00:44:50,437 --> 00:44:52,189
not just the ones that I like.
730
00:44:52,940 --> 00:44:54,983
All right. So what,
what happens in the book?
731
00:44:57,027 --> 00:45:01,824
Well, um, a newly divorced man
wakes up one morning,
732
00:45:02,991 --> 00:45:06,161
to find that his ex
has dropped off the kids
733
00:45:06,161 --> 00:45:09,623
- and does not appear to be coming back.
- Okay.
734
00:45:09,623 --> 00:45:12,334
And so then he's left
to figure out where she is
735
00:45:12,334 --> 00:45:16,171
and why life seems to have
gone so wrong for him.
736
00:45:18,382 --> 00:45:19,591
- I hate this story.
- Yeah.
737
00:45:19,591 --> 00:45:22,970
No, but sorry, how are you gonna write
it though? I mean, it has no ending.
738
00:45:22,970 --> 00:45:24,388
- There's no ending yet.
- I don't know.
739
00:45:24,388 --> 00:45:26,807
This, maybe this, this is the ending.
740
00:45:26,807 --> 00:45:28,726
This. Okay. Well, imagine that.
741
00:45:28,726 --> 00:45:30,519
No, don't end it here.
This is not a good ending.
742
00:45:30,519 --> 00:45:31,895
Engagements are not good endings.
743
00:45:31,895 --> 00:45:33,814
Weddings are worse,
but engagements are bad.
744
00:45:33,814 --> 00:45:37,359
Okay, then maybe,
maybe it ends with her returning.
745
00:45:38,235 --> 00:45:40,863
You know, like the whole thing
was just this terrible blip.
746
00:45:40,863 --> 00:45:41,989
So she just comes back?
747
00:45:43,198 --> 00:45:44,199
Maybe.
748
00:45:45,200 --> 00:45:47,244
Why? Why does she come back?
749
00:45:47,953 --> 00:45:50,664
She comes back
because she was always gonna come back.
750
00:45:52,916 --> 00:45:54,668
For a while, she wasn't sure,
751
00:45:54,668 --> 00:45:56,420
because being sure would have made
752
00:45:56,420 --> 00:45:58,547
the whole thing feel,
you know, less dangerous.
753
00:45:58,547 --> 00:46:01,216
It is possible that, like, a person
needs a little bit of danger
754
00:46:02,134 --> 00:46:04,136
in order to feel like
she knows what matters.
755
00:46:06,513 --> 00:46:07,806
That doesn't sound like Rachel.
756
00:46:07,806 --> 00:46:10,934
She's aware she behaved terribly.
But it's like she's...
757
00:46:11,852 --> 00:46:13,937
It's like, she was outside her body,
you know,
758
00:46:13,937 --> 00:46:16,690
like watching herself the whole time.
759
00:46:16,690 --> 00:46:19,526
And the problem
wasn't even her marriage.
760
00:46:20,444 --> 00:46:23,614
It was just like her marriage
was a witness
761
00:46:23,614 --> 00:46:26,408
to all of her other failures,
762
00:46:26,408 --> 00:46:31,455
like a comorbidity
to how she was just getting old.
763
00:46:31,455 --> 00:46:32,539
Hmm.
764
00:46:37,628 --> 00:46:39,797
And so then, in the end,
when she comes home...
765
00:46:41,590 --> 00:46:44,635
she realizes that she really,
really needs to figure out her life.
766
00:46:47,513 --> 00:46:49,139
Because, yeah,
her marriage is not perfect.
767
00:46:49,139 --> 00:46:50,224
But like...
768
00:46:52,768 --> 00:46:55,896
It's not like not being married
is ever gonna make her young again.
769
00:46:57,815 --> 00:47:00,192
And nothing could make her
unmake the choices
770
00:47:01,276 --> 00:47:02,277
that she made.
771
00:47:02,277 --> 00:47:04,279
She just didn't know
when she was making the choices,
772
00:47:04,279 --> 00:47:06,198
that they were gonna limit
all the other choices
773
00:47:06,198 --> 00:47:07,950
that she could make in the future.
774
00:47:10,494 --> 00:47:12,120
It's not even her decisions...
775
00:47:16,083 --> 00:47:20,420
It's just how can you live
when you used to have unlimited choices,
776
00:47:21,922 --> 00:47:23,632
and you don't have them anymore?
777
00:47:27,219 --> 00:47:28,220
I'm sorry.
778
00:47:28,887 --> 00:47:31,098
No, no, no, no, no. Please continue.
779
00:47:31,098 --> 00:47:32,599
So... Sorry. What happens?
780
00:47:32,599 --> 00:47:36,895
She comes back, she comes back
and it turns out it was just a mistake?
781
00:47:37,521 --> 00:47:39,731
Like, it was just, like,
a misunderstanding or something?
782
00:47:39,731 --> 00:47:43,193
Yeah, maybe she's just like,
she just, she...
783
00:47:43,193 --> 00:47:45,696
- She just appears.
- Just appears.
784
00:47:45,696 --> 00:47:46,822
Okay, and then what?
785
00:47:48,407 --> 00:47:50,117
It's raining. It's raining.
786
00:47:50,117 --> 00:47:53,829
It's a rain that breaks
this terrible heat wave.
787
00:47:53,829 --> 00:47:54,997
Mmm-hmm.
788
00:47:55,289 --> 00:47:56,748
And you're at home in your apartment
789
00:47:56,748 --> 00:47:58,458
and you're thinking about your life,
790
00:47:58,458 --> 00:48:00,669
and you're thinking
about moving on, right?
791
00:48:02,880 --> 00:48:05,716
- But then you hear the key in the lock.
- Okay.
792
00:48:06,341 --> 00:48:08,635
- And the creak of the hinge.
- That's nice.
793
00:48:09,928 --> 00:48:11,555
And you'll turn around and, suddenly,
794
00:48:11,555 --> 00:48:16,310
she's just there in the doorway.
795
00:48:17,227 --> 00:48:18,228
And then?
796
00:48:21,023 --> 00:48:22,774
And then the book ends.
797
00:48:25,694 --> 00:48:27,946
Yeah, but I mean
what happens after that?
798
00:48:32,701 --> 00:48:36,955
I don't know. I really don't think
I have the imagination for that.
799
00:48:37,831 --> 00:48:38,832
That's okay.
800
00:48:42,502 --> 00:48:44,796
God, I love you so much.
801
00:48:44,796 --> 00:48:46,089
You know that, right?
802
00:48:50,302 --> 00:48:52,220
I haven't been
a good friend to you lately.
803
00:48:55,098 --> 00:48:56,099
It's okay.
804
00:48:56,934 --> 00:48:58,226
You've been going through a lot.
805
00:48:59,478 --> 00:49:00,520
But I want you to know...
806
00:49:02,731 --> 00:49:04,149
you are still you.
807
00:49:06,526 --> 00:49:08,904
I can see it all.
I can see your darkness.
808
00:49:09,905 --> 00:49:11,657
And I can see your goodness.
809
00:49:12,366 --> 00:49:13,784
It is still there.
810
00:49:13,784 --> 00:49:17,120
Like the day we met, okay?
811
00:49:29,967 --> 00:49:33,178
- It's okay. Well done.
- Thank you.
812
00:49:37,683 --> 00:49:39,726
May God grant them happiness.
813
00:49:45,816 --> 00:49:47,526
May God grant them happiness.
814
00:49:55,283 --> 00:49:58,203
- You want to walk back uptown together?
- Sure.
815
00:49:58,203 --> 00:49:59,913
All right. I'm just gonna
run to the bathroom.
816
00:49:59,913 --> 00:50:01,248
Okay. I'll be outside.
817
00:50:38,618 --> 00:50:41,204
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
818
00:51:16,907 --> 00:51:21,411
Hi, can you take me to New Jersey?
I'll pay double the meter.
819
00:51:21,912 --> 00:51:22,996
CAB DRIVER: Sure.
820
00:51:23,497 --> 00:51:26,666
Hey, sorry. I've found a cab,
so I'm gonna head home.
821
00:51:31,505 --> 00:51:32,672
(CELL PHONE CHIMES)
822
00:52:04,913 --> 00:52:05,997
LIBBY: We fall in love
823
00:52:05,997 --> 00:52:09,918
and we decide to marry
in this one incredible moment.
824
00:52:12,796 --> 00:52:14,714
What if everything
that happens after that
825
00:52:14,714 --> 00:52:17,551
is about trying to remember that moment?
826
00:52:20,053 --> 00:52:23,890
- What? That did not...
- It's true. Are you listening?
827
00:52:23,890 --> 00:52:26,643
Maybe that's what
all these divorces were about.
828
00:52:28,812 --> 00:52:31,231
We watch ourselves
and our spouses change,
829
00:52:31,231 --> 00:52:33,900
and the work is to constantly recall
830
00:52:33,900 --> 00:52:36,403
the reasons why you did this
in the first place.
831
00:52:37,112 --> 00:52:40,157
You mistake the person closest to you
for your misery.
832
00:52:41,449 --> 00:52:45,829
You think, "Maybe if I excised
this thing, I'd be me again."
833
00:52:48,456 --> 00:52:50,333
But you're not you anymore.
834
00:52:53,128 --> 00:52:55,172
You haven't been you in a long time.
835
00:52:56,047 --> 00:52:57,048
And it's not his fault.
836
00:52:58,175 --> 00:52:59,426
It was always going to happen.
837
00:53:03,388 --> 00:53:05,056
And what were you gonna do with the fact
838
00:53:05,056 --> 00:53:07,726
that time was gonna march on anyway?
839
00:53:07,726 --> 00:53:10,770
What were you gonna do with the fact
that you couldn't win this fight.
840
00:53:12,147 --> 00:53:13,273
That was the problem.
841
00:53:13,940 --> 00:53:16,776
You were not ever
going to be young again.
842
00:53:17,819 --> 00:53:19,738
You were only at risk
for not remembering
843
00:53:19,738 --> 00:53:23,992
that this was as good as it would get
in every single moment.
844
00:53:24,367 --> 00:53:28,538
That you are right now
as young as you will ever be again.
845
00:53:30,165 --> 00:53:31,541
ADAM: I can't tell anymore...
846
00:53:33,835 --> 00:53:34,836
LIBBY: And now...
847
00:53:37,547 --> 00:53:38,757
And now...
848
00:53:40,342 --> 00:53:41,676
And now...
849
00:53:43,136 --> 00:53:44,179
And now...
850
00:53:46,014 --> 00:53:47,015
And now...
851
00:53:49,267 --> 00:53:50,268
{\an8}And now...
852
00:53:52,270 --> 00:53:53,271
And now...
853
00:53:54,689 --> 00:53:55,815
And now...
854
00:53:56,983 --> 00:53:57,984
And now...
855
00:53:59,069 --> 00:54:00,487
And now...
856
00:54:01,196 --> 00:54:02,197
And now...
857
00:54:03,448 --> 00:54:04,449
And now...
858
00:54:05,450 --> 00:54:06,576
And now...
859
00:54:07,702 --> 00:54:10,038
And now...
860
00:54:10,747 --> 00:54:11,748
And now...
861
00:54:12,999 --> 00:54:15,252
And now, and now, and now, and now...
862
00:54:15,252 --> 00:54:16,336
And now...
863
00:54:17,128 --> 00:54:18,255
And now...
864
00:54:24,094 --> 00:54:25,095
ADAM: Oh, my God.
865
00:54:25,095 --> 00:54:26,805
(BOTH EXCLAIMING)
866
00:54:27,305 --> 00:54:28,932
It's so cold.
867
00:54:47,325 --> 00:54:48,326
LIBBY: And now...
868
00:56:42,440 --> 00:56:43,483
You're home?
869
00:56:45,944 --> 00:56:47,278
I ran home.
870
00:56:49,280 --> 00:56:52,283
Because I love you so much
I think I'm gonna die from it.
871
00:56:56,413 --> 00:56:57,914
I'm sorry I'm late.
872
00:57:02,919 --> 00:57:04,295
It's okay.
873
00:57:05,630 --> 00:57:07,090
You always come back.
874
00:57:51,759 --> 00:57:53,219
(THUNDER RUMBLING)
875
00:57:53,219 --> 00:57:55,013
(RAIN PATTERING)
876
00:57:58,516 --> 00:58:00,268
LIBBY: Toby Fleishman
headed home that night
877
00:58:00,268 --> 00:58:02,645
and waited for the panic
to rise in him again.
878
00:58:05,648 --> 00:58:09,944
The same panic that washed him in sweats
every time he contemplated the future.
879
00:58:13,531 --> 00:58:14,574
But it didn't.
880
00:58:16,409 --> 00:58:17,410
He was healing.
881
00:58:20,455 --> 00:58:21,539
- Hi.
- FAITH: Hi.
882
00:58:21,539 --> 00:58:23,208
- Hi, how were they?
- FAITH: They were fine.
883
00:58:23,208 --> 00:58:24,542
- Yeah?
- Solly won Monopoly.
884
00:58:24,542 --> 00:58:26,127
Oh, no, that bodes well.
885
00:58:26,961 --> 00:58:28,338
Thank you so much, Faith.
886
00:58:28,338 --> 00:58:29,422
- Thank you.
- Yeah, great.
887
00:58:29,422 --> 00:58:31,508
It's really pouring.
You have an umbrella or something?
888
00:58:31,508 --> 00:58:32,634
- I got one.
- Okay, great.
889
00:58:32,634 --> 00:58:34,427
- Thanks. Have a good night.
- Yeah, you too.
890
00:58:47,649 --> 00:58:50,068
LIBBY: How could you
be so desperately unhappy
891
00:58:50,068 --> 00:58:52,320
when you were so essentially happy?
892
00:58:54,030 --> 00:58:58,326
How could you know so much
and still be this baffled by it all?
893
00:59:02,413 --> 00:59:04,874
The heat wave in Manhattan
was finally broken.
894
00:59:05,708 --> 00:59:07,210
Toby would survive this.
895
00:59:07,835 --> 00:59:10,838
In a hundred different ways,
he already had.
896
00:59:12,090 --> 00:59:14,300
He would start looking
for a new apartment tomorrow.
897
00:59:14,968 --> 00:59:16,302
One where everything worked.
898
00:59:18,596 --> 00:59:21,057
He looked out the window
and he saw his reflection,
899
00:59:21,933 --> 00:59:23,560
but then he also saw beyond himself.
900
00:59:24,227 --> 00:59:26,229
He saw the people
in the windows in the city
901
00:59:26,771 --> 00:59:29,482
all living their own
separate, distinct lives.
902
00:59:30,858 --> 00:59:34,028
"God," he thought,
"You could die of the loneliness.
903
00:59:34,654 --> 00:59:36,739
"But you could die of hope, too."
904
00:59:37,490 --> 00:59:38,825
The way it blinded you a little.
905
00:59:39,826 --> 00:59:41,286
The way it lead you to try again,
906
00:59:42,036 --> 00:59:43,121
despite what you knew.
907
00:59:44,789 --> 00:59:45,957
Time would move forward,
908
00:59:46,708 --> 00:59:48,751
but tonight, briefly,
909
00:59:49,043 --> 00:59:52,505
he had logged some optimism
into his block universe.
910
00:59:53,756 --> 00:59:54,924
It would stay there forever.
911
00:59:58,303 --> 00:59:59,721
(DOOR CREAKS OPEN)
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