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♪ Hey, it's a mess out there

♪ They can leave,
but we don't care ♪

♪ We'll stay,
I'm good right here ♪

♪ I've been waitin'
for you all year ♪Banana.

♪ Come play, make a mess
right here ♪

♪ Do whatever I like

That's it!

I love this one! No. You think it's too much?

No, no, no, no, no, no! Don't you?

I mean...
maybe for a first date?

So, which guy is it tonight?

The self-defense instructor?

That was Mateo.

Tonight, um, is Roland,
the masseuse.

Mija, I'm so proud
of you

for dating outside
of the firehouse, but...

you have a type. Yeah.

Yeah, sure, but I know
what I need.

And those other guys just feel,
I don't know, "squishy."

Like, I need a guy
who can handle me.

I get it.

I remember when your father
would walk into a room,

and he had this swagger,
and he has this strong, thick--

Okay, hey, hey, hey, hey!

Too much, too much.
Por favor.

All I'm saying is that
maybe you need a guy

who lights up your body

but also your brain and maybe,
eventually, your heart.

Someone
who challenges you.

I'm a firefighter. I don't
need any more challenges.

Like, the last thing
I need

is some skinny jerk
with a fancy accent

and degrees who thinks he can
win every conversation

with a wink and a smile.

Does he have a name?

There's this Eli guy
who's trying to run

my friend
Travis's campaign.

You like him, don't you? No, no, no, no.

I actively dislike him.

My point is, that's the type
of guy you're describing,

and I'm gonna go with no.

I mean, when you can date
a massage therapist

who does his talking with his
hands, then that's what you do.

You mean like this? No, no, no, no!

That's too much! No!

♪ Come play,
make a mess right here ♪

♪ Do whatever, I like it weird

♪ Okay, let 'em disappear

♪ Say whatever you
want to hear ♪

♪ Just stay all night

♪ Come on and stay with me

♪ Let's take flight

♪ Come on and stay, baby

♪ We could fly away, girl

♪ Come on and stay with me

♪ All night

♪ Come on and stay with me

What are you doing
in the guest bedroom?

Do you need something?

Do you remember
the first night we hooked up?

I remember everything
about that night.

Sharing small breaths
between kisses.

I remember the smell
of your hair

and the lavender flowers nearby.

I remember you were trying
to make a weird joke

about CPR and your breath
being taken away.

Hey.
I was nervous.

Is there a point here?

And there she is.

The jerk that tried to push me
away the following morning.

I was happy to walk away
and never see you again.

But you didn't let me.

You kissed me, and--
and you told me you were sorry

and that you wanted
to see me again.

And look how far
we've come now.

I mean, I know everything
feels like a lot right now,

but we're past that.

You don't have to push me
away anymore.

Sorpresa.

What is this?

It's everything from
our first night together.

It's the same lingerie,
the same lavender flowers.

It's...

I love you.

And whatever
we're going through,

we'll get
through it together

because our love story
is beautiful,

and I don't
want to lose it.

I don't want to lose us.

Hey.

I missed you.

Hey!
What's up, ladies?

It's your girl Vic,
uh, Hughes.

Um, I'm just inviting you all
to join our girls' fire camp

where you to learn
life-saving tips

and moves from the women
of Seattle FD.

Uh, it's gonna be fun.
We're gonna be out in the park,

just running around,
we're playing catch.

We're not playing catch.
Why-- That's--

Did you start talking
to the girls like puppies again?

Why am I
so bad at this?

Nah, I wouldn't
say bad, but... Well...

...maybe stop
- offering them treats.
- Ugh.

What are you up to?

Oh, you know, checking
smoke detectors,

sprinklers.

- Oh.
- Usual inspection stuff.

Look at you,
staying on top of things.

Yeah, well, we sure don't
have a captain who is.

Okay. Um, do you need
any help at all?

No. You have enough
going on today.

Don't you have to meet Travis
about his union thing later?

Oh, God. See, you having to
remind me of that

is probably not
a good sign, right?

Thank you.

Whoa!
It's a whole feast.

What, did somebody
lose a bet?

I'm not sure what
got into Bishop,

but we need to bottle it.

I'm going for seconds,
but if I were you,

I'd make a plate before Ruiz
or Hughes come walking in.

Ooh, that's
a fair point.

Today's a clinic day,
and this might be my last chance

at a good meal.

So, it looks like a couple
of days off served you well.

I enjoyed my time off, yes.

- Hey, Bishop.
- Yes, sir?

Nice breakfast.

Thank you for being such a--
an asset to your team.

Who was that?

That may be the first time
I could use the word "casual"

to describe Beckett without
adding the word "misogyny."

This bacon is so good.
You should try it.

I like my smoothies.

In the mornings
and at night.

I mean, what if you just
make yourself a plate

and then throw it
in the blender?

Sounds good.

No.
No, no, no!

Oh, my gosh.

"Travis Montgomery was arrested
for public intoxication

and the assault
of a fellow firefighter."

Oh. That is low.

I mean, that is low
even for Dixon.

Is it?
Because ruining my life

before breakfast
seems pretty on brand.

I can fix this!
I can fix this.

Where is he?
I can fix this.

Hey, Travis,
Travis, I got this.

- We got this, okay?
- Okay, great.

You have a contingency plan
for this kind of situation?

Vic? Please tell me
there's any kind of plan.

Okay. Okay.
So we're gonna, um...

I think we should make
a video statement, and then...

we're gonna do
a-a press conference.

I think we should just be honest
about it, okay?

That drags my name
through the mud

as well as
the entire FD.

We're lucky that it didn't
include you, too.

And this drops right before
I have to meet the Union Board?

We should've seen
this coming.

How did we not
see this coming?

Crisis One,

respond to
the Caldwell Shopping Center.

Individual on the top
of a parking structure.

That's you and me, Sullivan.

- Thank God.
- Empathize and, uh, connect.

Got it. ...erratic behavior.

He's intoxicated on a
seven-story parking structure.

We may need to bring
a harness for this one.

Yep, copy that.

Are you having
lady problems?

Lady problems? What--Because I-- The way

you were staring at your phone
was like a heartbroken teenager.

Or like someone told you the gym
was closed for renovations.

No, no, I-- Look.

Alright, well, there is
a particular woman

that I do really like.

Mm. Okay, I--

I went on a date with
a massage therapist last night.

Because you
need a massage?

Because I needed
a massage.

I mean, I-- I hinted at it
all night, and finally--

He tells you what
he charges.

Yeah, 140 bucks an hour!140 bucks?!

Can you believe that?
Right! So-- So--

Well, you need to break up
with this dude.

So, what I learned is,
if I want a massage,

- I need to book a massage.
- Yeah.

Okay. All I'm saying is,
if you really like this lady

and you want more,
you should tell her.

You--
Ask for what you want.

Yeah, well, that's...

good advice.

And you've been
stepping it up, too.

Oh.
Yeah.

Squashing the gossip and lifting
the morale in the house.

Don't think
I didn't see that.

Mm.

Shoulda made me captain
when you had the chance,

is what you're saying?

Something like that.

Aw, man, you
brought the cops?

And why are they
so attractive?

- 19, right?
- Yeah, Lieutenants Herrera
and Sullivan.

What's-- What's
the situation?

I'm Clarke,
Crisis One volunteer.

This is Raphael.

We got a report from staff
saying that he was pacing

and yelling
and talking to himself.

He's calmed down a bit,
but I don't think he's gonna

let go of that
liquor bottle.

Um, hey, Raphael?

I'm Andy.
I'm not a cop.

I'm with
the Seattle Fire Department.

Can you talk me
through what's going on?

I'm sick.

I'm-- I'm--
I'm really sick.

I'm sorry to hear that.

Can we take you
to the hospital?

They can't help me.

No one can help me.

I'm just going to
live a life of misery

and suffering until, one day,
I die slowly and painfully.

Unless I die
on my own terms.

So that's
what I'm gonna do.

I'm going to die
on my own terms.

Oh, man.

- Hey, good morning, Ben.
- Hey.

Hey, Grey-Sloan came through
with a donation of gloves.

Oh, good. Did any of
the saline bags come in?

Yeah, we'll just have
to make do today.

Okay.

Is Jack Gibson
volunteering today?

Yeah. Sure,
let's call it that.

Okay, good.

Because I got us
some volunteers, too.

Do you remember
Peggy and Dayna?

Peggy was my patient, and--And Dayna's her wife, yeah.

Yeah.
I remember how
accident-prone they are.

Gonna have to put cones
around their table.

Okay, they are my friends,
and they're wonderful,

and they really
want to help.

Yeah, cones
and yellow caution tape.

Stop it.

Yeah, and don't let them
bake anything.

You have enough there?5, 6, 7, 8, 9...

Hi! Welcome to
the Station 19 Clinic.

It's the Dean Miller
Memorial Clinic.

Is it?
Babe, there is
a ginormous sign

that is screaming it
behind you.

Oh. Sorry.
First-day jitters.

Um, how can we help you?

Let me guess--
it's your wrist.

Ooh. Ouch!
What happened?

Didn't you used
to work here?

Sorry, uh,
doctor-patient confidentiality.

- Uh, I get it.
- Fill out these forms,

and then you will be seen
in the order that you arrived.

And there might be a wait. Sorry.

No, I-I'm-- I'm sorry.
W-What the hell?

T-This clinic
doesn't h-have forms.

Uh, it does,
according to Dr. Warren.

- Awesome.
- Thank you.

- Sorry.
- Do you think I should

- help him fill out those forms?
- Maybe.

I can write
faster than him.

Montgomery, thank you for
helping with the clinic today.

Okay, what's-- what's going on
with you today, Captain?

Please, just-- What stage
of mind games is this?

It's because
I'm here today.

- Chief.
- Yeah.

Montgomery,
drop those off.

Come see me in
the conference room, please.

This is just a perfect day.

Chief, I'm very sorry.

I know you are very busy and
you don't need any of my mess,

and you don't need
any more managerial crap.

Montgomery, I'm here
'cause today's the day

that I start
my new pilot program

where I rotate stations
to monitor

their units
reporting to incidents.

It's just a coincidence
that I'm starting out

in the same house
as a local celebrity.

Right, and I-- I-I'm--
I'm gonna make things right.

I've already started
strategizing about
a publicly apologize--

I don't care.

- I-I'm sorry?
- Montgomery, this is politics.

You're not gonna walk away
with your hands clean.

Do you know how much mud
I get slung at me every day?

No, ma'am.

More than
what should be allowed.

I have to keep a composure
that is pristine

so that that mud
slides right off.

You and I both know from the
backgrounds that we have that

to be half of anything is
never enough.

You got to be double.

That's right.

Now, you are
an exceptional firefighter.

But you are still only half
a mayoral candidate.

You want to beat Dixon,
you cannot hide.

You cannot
let the mud stick.

You gotta throw
some of your own.

Or you find someone
to do it for you.

Ladder 19 on scene,

Arkine battery recycling plant,

requesting additional resources.

Hey, Raphael, let's try
and center ourselves, okay?

We're gonna take
some deep breaths.

If you exhale longer
than you inhale,

it helps calm down
your nervous system.

I don't want to take
deep breaths.

Okay. That's okay.
How 'bout we talk?

Do you want to talk?

I, uh

I used to come here all the time
with my dad.

I mean, we would--
we would watch fireworks here,

listen to concerts nearby.

He used to call this place
the cheap seats.

We would have picnics
on the car,

and we had the whole place
to ourselves.

C-Can you guys
leave me alone?

Like, t-this is my place.

It's-- It's my place.

- Crisis One to SFD One.
- Leave me alone.

Subject Raphael
is a potential jumper.

Got the harness ready.

Keep additional aid
on standby.

A good campaign manager would've
seen this coming, right?

I mean, every time I think
I have a grasp on this,

something happens
that makes me look like a kid.

You know, honestly, I've never
seen you be bad

at anything you really wanted,
so is that the problem?

What do you mean?

Well, do you really want
to keep doing this?

Travis would be devastated
if I quit now,

and he really needs the help,
so I'm not gonna--No, no, I'm not asking
about Travis.

I'm asking what you want.

Okay.
Well, how about you don't?

Why don't we talk about
what's going on with you?

- With me?
- Yeah, I saw you check

that one smoke detector
three times,

and it wasn't
even beeping.

Alright! Look alive back there!
We've arrived!

Here! Here!

- Oh, finally! Thank God!
- Did you put the call in, ma'am?

Yes-- eight of my co-workers
are trapped

in the smelting room!

That's where they melt the
batteries down for recycling!

A giant chemical
furnace room, right?

Why haven't you shut
the equipment down?

We can't shut it down!
The lab and the vent system

are both
electronically sealed.

Please, the heat and the sulfur
are only getting hotter!

Alright, team, we're gonna
need forcible entry on this one!

Everyone in breathers!

Bring gas meters
and entry tools!

Dispatch, requesting
a Hazmat unit to our location.

Crisis One, this is SFD One.

What's the status
of your situation?

SFD One,
Crisis One is on scene

and engaged with subject.

Male, late 20s. Raphael.

Showing signs
of self-harm.

It seems like you have
a great relationship

with your dad, Raphael.

Where is he now?

Um, he's with God.

Yeah, that's what my Mom
says is, "He's with God."

He-- He died
when I was 14.

Just... dropped right
in front of me.

It's-- It's crazy.

I-I would--
I would shake all the time.

I mean, in-- in class.

And-- And, you know,
kids are the worst.

But I just--
I could never stop shaking.

And my mom, she would--
she would always say,

"It's okay, baby.
Your Papa's with God now."

Like that was supposed
to make me feel better,

but I was 14!

I didn't want my dad with God.
I wanted him with me!

My mom faked her own death

to get away from me and my dad
when I was a kid.

And I'm not--
I'm not saying that to compete

with your story
or to compete with your pain,

but I'm--
I'm-- I'm saying I get it.

I feel you, Raphael.

I know what it feels like
to survive,

and I sure as hell know what it
feels like to miss my dad

and to want
to see him again.

But I also know that
if I was sick,

my dad would want me
to fight for my life, not--

not get wasted at his favorite
place and throw it all away.

There's nothing left
to fight for!

I'm not even 35,
and I'm in heart failure

'cause of the toxins
in my blood,

the toxins that I was exposed to
at my job.

I'm sorry--Every day!

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

Did your mom even--
even fake her own death?

I wish I could say
I was making that up.

Get back!
Everybody get back!

Okay, okay!
No, no, no!

Sir, it's just
a preliminary screening.

Hi. Over here.

Welcome to the Dean Miller
Memorial Clinic.

How can we help you?

Um, actually,
I'm just here to--

Jack Gibson?

I get dragged in here,
and then I have to wait.

How rude is that?

You're sitting in
a familiar place

with a stable roof
over your head.

Oh, what a tragedy.
Come on.

Come on!

Mm-hmm. Yep.

He's a looker,
isn't he?

He used to work here.
Mm-hmm.

Sorry, um, what
can we do for you?

Um, lately, I notice it burns
when I pee.

Oh, yeah, been there.

Um, I'm not a doctor, but if it
is what I think it is,

it's not a big problem.

Thank you.

Can you explain why
the machines can't shut off?

Our new owners digitized
all of our systems,

from the ventilation
to the smelting engines

to the door locks.

It requires our engineer's palm
print for emergency access.

- Where's your engineer?
- I don't know.

He didn't show up this morning,
and I called management,

and they said the process
was "basically automated"

and we should do it
without him.

So they threw them in
with no exit plan?

I guess they think a few lives
are worth a quick buck.

It's right here.
It's right there.

Good, they're
still conscious.

But how thick
are these doors?

It's reinforced to protect
everyone outside

from the chemical
and heat exposure.

It can get to over
1,000 degrees Celsius.

How long do we expect
their gear to hold up?

Their gear isn't great.

I mean, they have filtration
systems, but no oxygen.

And this is a green company
that put them in there?

I'm ready to breach
the window, Captain.

That's layers of
polycarbonate glass.
You'll never get through.

There's acid!
Acid in the air!

No, he's saying acid!

- Stop, there's acid!
- There's acid in the air!

Hughes, Ruiz, get on the roof!
Cut me a hole for ventilation!

Copy, Captain!

If we don't get to them
in the next 20 minutes,

they're done!

It is a super simple test,
just like Dr. DeLuca explained.

So here's the cup.

When we were in college... And-- Peggy, don't.

...the unofficial slogan
of our college was

"Queer in a year
or your money back."

Neither of us got
our money back,

but do you know
what we did get?

- The clap.
- No, it wasn't the clap.

We got chlamydia.

Isn't that
the same thing?

No, the clap
is gonorrhea.

We were just comforting her
through storytelling.

Yeah, and I'm sure
she appreciates it,

but what I really
need you to do

is to help
sorting our inventory.

Yep.
Thank you.

Did we just get fired
from talking to patients?

I think she did
what she needed to do.

Hi, Brooke.

So the bathroom is gonna be
down the hall to the right.

Thank you.
Yeah, no problem.

- Come on through.
- Come right over here.

You really wrapped tape
around the brace?

It became loose
in a heated exchange.

I say this
with brotherly love

and all the respect
in the world--

Please do not do
a Warren speech right now.

I can't take it.

So you are sleeping in your
truck right outside of 19

because you
don't want help?

- Got it.
- I parked my truck there

because I know
the parking laws there

and I can't afford
another ticket, so...

You need to pull it together, alright?

Because you made the mistake
of showing up here

on Halloween and reminding
Pru that you exist,

so now it's "Uncle Jack this"
and "Uncle Jack that,"

and "When is Uncle Jack
coming over?"

and "Why is Uncle Jack
dressed like a boxer?"

She loves you, man, alright?

And she has lost enough,
so when you disappoint Pru,

you disappoint me,
and I get to give you a lecture.

You know what's
disappointing to me?

What?

What you've done
to this clinic.

Yeah, it was supposed
to be accessible,
bare bones, you know?

But what you've done is added
intake forms and white coats,

which basically makes it
another hospital.

Yeah, Peggy and Dayna
would never be allowed
to work in a hospital.

Okay, fine, Gibson.

Look, i-i-if you think
that we got it wrong,

then come back
and help us get it back

to what it used to be,
'cause I'm not gonna do it.

Hey, that's manipulative.

Nope, that's the truth.

Because I was trained
as a doctor, and so was Carina.

With you gone,
we reverted to what we know.

You were the one with
the lived experience

of growing up
on the streets

and fearing
the medical establishment.

If you think that we've
gotten away from your vision,

then come back.

But in the meantime,
why don't you get a shower

and a shave and take a nap
in your old bunk?

I can't.
It's against the rules.

Screw the rules.
It's doctor's orders.

I'm sor-- sorry.
I'm--

- No, it's my-- My fault.
- Fault-- My-- Sorry.

Oh, hi.
Do you have your sample?

No. I...forgot where you told me
the bathroom was.

To the right.

- Thank you.
- Yeah.

Bishop, check it again!

Please tell me it made any kind
of hole we can put air through.

Nothing!
Let's go again!

Whoa! Wait!

Hey! What's happening
to them in there?

It must be
the sulfuric acid rising!

If it's increasing in the air,
it can eat through their suits!

Hey, hey!
Hey, get down!

- Get down!
- Lay down on the floor!

This is evil.
These owners are evil.

Yeah, evil
or incredibly stupid.

Either way, let's go.

Ladder 19 to SFD!
O2 concentration's at 16%!

Sulfuric acid levels
are almost critical!

Do we have any word on shutting
down the power to this plant?!

Negative, Ladder 19.

I'm still waiting for a response
from the power company.

Hughes, Ruiz, what's the status
on that ventilation system?!

Captain, we've
popped three vents,

but there's still
a metal seal underneath.

This room is a fortress,
but we're prying down
to the next level.

Pick it up, Ruiz
and report back with progress!

Dispatch, we need
another Hazmat unit!

The acid levels
are increasing... Liz: I can't do this!

...and we don't have
much time before--I don't know.

Ma'am, who are
- you talking to?
- I'm sorry. I just--

It's my manager!
He said he can't help!

I don't know
what to do!

I need you to put him
on speaker.

Put him on speaker.

Captain, what are
your latest exposure readings?

Dispatch, stand by!

This is Captain Beckett
with the SFD.

If you don't come down here
in the next 10 minutes

and give us access
to this room,

you will be criminally liable

for the deaths
of your employees!

Is that understood?!

No, I don't have access!
I don't need to!

This is a foolproof process
with an engineer!

Rafi was the one
who abandoned his post!

You ordered them to start
the process without Rafi!

You are going to prison!

Rafi.

Rafi.

Let's think
- this through.
- Look, I don't want
to think about it!

What do you want?

I-I want
to be a person.

Okay.

I want to not be a thing
that a company can just use

and then throw away
when it doesn't work anymore.

I get that.

I had a co-worker, man--
no, a friend--

who got me this job
when I was down bad and
I needed it the most.

I mean, he was such
a stand-up dude, man.

I-I saw what the contamination
did to him.

I-I-I watched
him deteriorate.

And the company, they just--
they just shrugged.

Told him to make
sure his replacement
was properly trained.

You have every right
to be angry.

I just said goodbye to him
a week ago.

I watched them kill my friend
and I did nothing.

Herrera, come in.

Listen, I-I'm sorry
about your friend.

I read you, Chief.

I need you to back out of
earshot of the scene, please.

Copy that. Clear.

Herrera, what's the name
of the individual

you're speaking
to on this call?

Raphael, ma'am.

Is he a battery plant
engineer?

Did he leave his job
this morning?

Yeah, he works at a factory
that has chemicals.

What--
What's going on?

19 is on a call at
a battery recycling plant,

and their engineer didn't
come in today.

That man may be the key
to saving eight other lives

on another call.

Raphael, I know what it's like
to feel like you

belong to an institution.

I-I know what it's like to feel
like you're being

used and discarded.

It's hard.
I-It's scary.

But listen, you quit them.

You quit those institutions,
you don't quit on yourself.

Look, you deserve to live.

You-- You deserve to figure out
who you are outside of them.

You deserve to reclaim
your life,

not just your death, brother,
your-- your life.

Sullivan... What-- What are you whispering?
Don't whisper about me!

Hey!
No, no, no, no!

Raphael,
are you an engineer

at a battery recycling
plant?

How'd you know that?

Your-- Your people
are in trouble.

They're locked in.

Wait, what?
Hey!

No!

No!

Clarke!
Clarke, I need your help!

- Okay, I'm coming!
- Pull, hard!

- I'm not trained for this.
- Pull.

- I'm not trained for this!
- Just dig deeper!

I don't want to die.
I don't want to die.

Sullivan, you got him?

Lower us
down a few feet.

Listen to me.
I'm gonna go downstairs.

What I need you to do

is open up this clamp
- when I say so.
- Okay.

It's gonna give the rope
- some slack.
- Okay.

When I say close it,
I need you to shut it.

Okay. Okay.
Alright?

You got it?
I got it!

You sure?
I got it!

I don't want to die like this.
Please. Please!

I got you.
Okay? I got you.

Hold on.

Alright, start lowering it,
Clarke! Go ahead!

I'm not trained for this.

Just a few feet.

I don't want to die, man.
I don't want to die like this.

I got you.

Please, please.

Sullivan,
- I'm right here.
- Yeah.

Okay, Clarke,
that's enough! Stop!

I got you.

- Grab his legs.
- I got his legs.

Dispatch, this is Crisis One.

We're responding
Code 3 to Fremont.

Copy that, Crisis One.

♪ I wore my heart paper thin

It's gonna be okay.

♪ Felt these walls crumbling

♪ Always questioning the high

♪ Never felt quite right

♪ I'm reaching out
like a satellite ♪

♪ I lost myself into the night

What's your status?♪ Chasing sorry with goodbye

♪ Why do good things die?

♪ Good things die

♪ Running from all
of the thoughts in my head ♪

♪ I'm fighting my way
to the end ♪

♪ Underneath the cold,
underneath the rain ♪Okay, okay.

♪ There will be a way,
there will be a way ♪One, two...

♪ There will be a way

♪ Just another storm,
just another flame ♪

♪ That will be the day,
that will be the day ♪

♪ That will be the day Front line, move!

- Can you put your arm around me?
- Okay, bend down.

- Yeah, let's go.
- I got you.

- Ready?
- Let's go.

♪ Meet me on the other side

♪ Underneath the cold,
underneath the rain ♪

♪ There will be a way

♪ Underneath the cold,
underneath the rain ♪

♪ There will be a way,
there will be a way ♪

♪ There will,
there will be a way ♪

The results are negative.

No UTIs and a negative
pregnancy test.

Great. Yay, me.

Hey,
are you sure this is

the real reason
why you came in today?

Because usually when
college girls

find out
they're not pregnant,

they're a lot more relieved
than you are right now.

No.

Have you ever thought
that even though someone

has made it very clear they want
nothing to do with you,

that you could
change their mind?

Like, if they could just see
what they were missing,

but, like, you could show them,
that then they would just--

see how different
things could be?

I'm sorry.
I'm lost.

Uh, did you maybe come in
for mental health services?

Because we can help.

- No.
- Okay.

No.

No, if-- if you
love someone,

you honor their
boundaries, right?

Huh.
Don't answer that.

I know I'm right.
I wasted your time.

Thank you, and please thank
your over-sharing volunteers.

I will.
And here.

Would you deliver this, please?

Sure.

To who?

I'll be okay. Okay.

Okay, got you.

Is he gonna be okay?

Liz?

We're giving him O2 now,
and we're gonna transfer him

Grey-Sloan Memorial, okay?

Oh, he's having
a seizure!

We need to dose him
with benzos immediately!

He must have breathed in
too many chemicals.

Ma'am, hang back.
We have to let them work.

- No, no! No!
- No, no, no, no, no.

- No, this-- this is my fault.
- Hey, hey, hey!
Wait, wait, wait.

What's going on, Dev?!

Alright, buddy, we got you.
We got you.

- Please do something!
- Okay, he's stabilizing,

but we got to get him
out of here now!

Now, now, now,
now, now!

Devin!

Liz, I'm so sorry, okay?

I didn't mean to hurt anybody
except me today.

I didn't know that
they were gonna make--

Liz!

Hey, miss.

I shouldn't have started
this process without you!

It's my fault!
This is my fault if Devin dies!

Hey, it is not
your fault, okay?

Do you hear me?
It is their fault.

It's their fault.
It is not your fault.

It's not your fault,
I promise, okay?

Look, I swear to God,
I'm gonna spend whatever days

I have left making sure
these bastards pay.

Okay?
It's not your fault.

I'm taking it back.
I'm taking it back.

It's not your fault.

You know what?

Don't get me wrong,
I am grateful for the help,

but Peggy and Dayna are like
a two-headed bull

in a china shop in here.

Hey, I don't even
have the energy

to translate
that expression right now.

- Is Jack still here?
- Yeah, yeah.

He's taking a nap
in his old bunk.

What's that?
I don't know,

but a patient came in to
drop this for him today.

Okay, so, they just came by
to drop it off for Gibson?

Actually, she came in for a UTI
and a pregnancy test.

Okay, I-I don't know if he can
take any more bad news.

He's--They were both negative.

Oh, well, okay, then.

Uh...

What--

Hey, uh, Travis?
Can I grab you for a second?

Look--

Uh, no, I just
wanted to say,

I should have anticipated
this move by Dixon.

- No, you shouldn't have.
- It was not--

You shouldn't have
because it was disgusting.

It was a disgusting move.

Yeah, I should have anticipated

this disgusting
move by Dixon, but I--

Um, I think that would have
required me

to unearth
some of my Ripley stuff,

and I have been
compartmentalizing that far away

from my thinking mind,
so that--

What someone should have
done was locked

Travis' records
since day one.

Yeah, that is what
I should have thought of.

And what you need now
is a spin.

Okay, I'm sorry.
- Who are you?
- Vic, meet Eli.

Eli is, uh, trying to be
my campaign manager.

Trying, but I told him.

Okay, so how exactly do you
spin aggravated assault?

He's trying to appeal
to firefighters, right?

I read the arrest report.

Travis got into that fight
standing up

for another firefighter
after disparaging remarks

were made about a recently
deceased fire chief.

Yeah, um...
he was defending me, actually.

That's even better.

So he's wiling to fight
for women in the field.

A sobering perspective that'll
have you praised by firefighters

and the union alike.

This might be the first time
you've actually done something
they can relate to.

Okay, well, he's good.

I'm only as good as you
allow me to be.

I can't do that much
from the sidelines.

Yes, and thank you.

Thank you, Eli,
for all of this.

Truly, thank you.

But like I said, I did--You know what, Travis?

Actually, I don't think
I will have time

to manage
your campaign anymore.

I'm gonna be busy
recruiting the future

female firefighters
of Seattle.

- No, Vic, no, no.
- No, I'm serious.
You're fired.

I'm fired?

I'm fired.
I'm fired.

I don't care.
I'm just saying you need... him.

You need him.

Whenever you're done with this,
we should talk strategy.

I am so happy
that you are still here.

How was the call?

It was almost really awful
and really devastating,

and then it wasn't.

Kinda like us.

Did you take
a pregnancy test?

No. I wouldn't do that
without you.

Good.
So what's wrong?

I still need
you to get help.

I want us to be in love and--
and have sex and make a baby,

and I need you
to be getting help.

I'm holding on
to this boundary,

and I'm just asking you
to honor it.

My love, I think that
growing up with your dad,

you developed
some control issues.

And I feel like you're
using the truth

in a way that makes it
impossible for me to argue.

I don't want to argue
anymore, okay?

I want you to understand
that I'm helping myself

in a way
that works for me.

Talking doesn't work
for me, okay?

I'm working through my anger
and my pain in my way.

And if that makes you angry,
if that hurts you,

then you should work
on that your way.

But trying
to control me,

that's not gonna work
for either of us.

What Dixon did is just
normal politics.

In fact, he respected you enough
to take the kid gloves off

and get his hands dirty.
So now, we return the favor.

Oh, Travis, did you let
this guy talk you over

to the dark side?

Yeah, about that.

How dark side
are we talking?

Nothing illegal
or unethical.

Ha.
Define "unethical,"

because I think
your standards may be different.

Do you see the boost
in Dixon's ratings?

It's time to get serious.

Yeah, but serious
doesn't mean

Travis starts twirling
his little mustache

behind closed doors.

Yeah, if we hit the point
where we're tying Kitty Dixon

up to railroad tracks,
I think I'm out.

Sounds like a deal.

A deal with the devil.

You can think what you like,
but I don't intend

to sit idly by while
Michael Dixon

runs this city
into the ground.

This city? Wow.
This city is our city.

We grew up here.
This-- This isn't your city.

Oh, I see.
So you're a fan of Dixon?

Don't do that?
Do what?

- Spin me.
- Wouldn't dream of it.

This station has taken
too many hits lately.

I'm not gonna watch you turn
Travis into someone he's not.

You mean
a winning candidate?

Wow,
you really don't quit.

Correct.
It's why I win.

Mm.
That's why I walk away.

You're probably better
at diplomacy

when you're
working, right?

I-I can't believe that you
just dove off the side

of that building.

That is something you would
have yelled at me for.

- Hey, Chief.
- Hey.

- Chief. How you doing?
- Gentlemen.

Sounds like you had a rough one
out there, huh, Sullivan?

- Yeah.
- But the way you connected
those two dots,

that was,
um... impressive.

I appreciate that.

Hey, Chief.

Can I walk with you?

Yeah, what's up, Ruiz?

I assume
you know my history.

I was a captain.

I made a bad call that cost
my best friend his life.

I do. I do.

Well,
19 is my home now.

It's my family, and I refuse
to see it at risk

because of a captain who has
no interest in seeing us united.

Those-- Those are some
major accusations, Ruiz.

We had
a rough call, Chief.

- Today wasn't on Beckett.
- Well, maybe not.

Maybe not, but we've had
a lot of rough calls.

You know, morale is low,
and it's making me itchy.

You know, I'm checking batteries
on the smoke alarms.

I'm double checking his work,
you know?

'Cause I don't-- I don't want
to go through it again.

I don't want to lose
anyone else.

Ruiz, listen.

I'm not saying he's a bad
firefighter, okay? I'm not.

But he's a crap leader,
and in this house,

when everyone has big
personalities and big opinions,

we need a leader.

I don't like coming to you,
but I got a bad feeling.

Well, well, look at you.

Look at you.

Warren wanted me
to give this to you.

It's not another
lecture, is it?

'Cause he's been on
fire today.

No, no, it's not
a lecture.

But it might be
a paternity test?

Are you serious?

Yeah. Some gorgeous lady
dropped it off.

There's a betting pool downstairs.

This house has missed you.
I've missed you.

You are so loved.

And no, this is not a lecture.
It's just a welcome home.

I'm not quite home.

Yeah, but you could be.

I mean, you could
talk to Chief Ross.

I will.

You will?

Yes.

I could cheer or...
I could cry,

but, um [clears throat] I had
a really intense call today,

so I think I'm just
gonna go downstairs.

Unless you wanna open
the envelope and settle the bet.

What'd you bet?

A grown daughter
you never knew about?

I'll keep you posted.

Okay.

♪ Tell me that I'm right,
even if you're lying ♪

♪ Tell me what I wanna hear

♪ Mm

♪ Same four walls closing in

♪ Lost at home as
these days go by ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh

♪ I can't keep you safe,
but I can keep you warm ♪

♪ Mm

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh

♪ I can't stop the rain,
but we can ride the storm ♪

♪ Mm

Mmm.

♪ Living in a dream,
ripping at the seams ♪

♪ Only so much we can bear

♪ Mm

♪ Till the truth
comes spilling out ♪

♪ All the kings
are humbled now ♪

♪ So we look for the good
as we try and make sense ♪

♪ Of the lessons we learned
in the wake of our sins ♪

♪ But the closer we get,
the harder it gets ♪

♪ To hang on, hang on

♪ Oh, oh, oh

♪ I can't keep you safe,
but I can keep you warm ♪

♪ Mm

♪ Oh, oh, oh

♪ I can't keep you safe,
but I can keep you warm ♪

♪ Mm

♪ Oh, oh, oh

♪ Keep you warm

♪ I can't stop the rain,
but we can ride the storm ♪

♪ We can ride the storm

♪ Oh, oh, oh

♪ Ohhh

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