Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated:
1
00:00:01,910 --> 00:00:02,743
[rachel crying]
2
00:00:02,837 --> 00:00:04,061
[man] shh.
3
00:00:04,079 --> 00:00:05,729
Rachel, rachel.
4
00:00:05,822 --> 00:00:07,006
It's okay.
5
00:00:07,233 --> 00:00:08,590
It's okay...
6
00:00:10,177 --> 00:00:12,160
It's just me.
7
00:00:12,254 --> 00:00:13,253
[rachel crying]
8
00:00:13,347 --> 00:00:15,014
Shh. Be still.
9
00:00:21,413 --> 00:00:23,263
Shh. Rachel, rachel, rachel.
10
00:00:23,415 --> 00:00:25,766
Shh.
11
00:00:25,918 --> 00:00:29,677
[in german]
♪ schlaf, kindlein, schlaf ♪
12
00:00:29,772 --> 00:00:35,259
♪ der vater hüt die shaf ♪
13
00:00:35,352 --> 00:00:41,281
♪ die mutter schüttelts bäumelein ♪
14
00:00:41,433 --> 00:00:46,620
♪ da fällt herab ein träumelein ♪
15
00:00:46,772 --> 00:00:48,714
-Ow!
-Shh, shh, shh.
16
00:00:50,718 --> 00:00:55,054
♪ schlaf, kindlein, schlaf... ♪
17
00:00:57,132 --> 00:01:00,041
[man's voice echoing]
shh. Rachel.
18
00:01:00,135 --> 00:01:02,119
Rachel, rachel, rachel...
19
00:01:02,137 --> 00:01:03,970
[bishop] rachel albrecht,
20
00:01:04,065 --> 00:01:05,622
Do you believe
21
00:01:05,715 --> 00:01:07,958
In the one true, eternal,
almighty god?
22
00:01:07,976 --> 00:01:08,975
Yes.
23
00:01:09,070 --> 00:01:10,569
Do you believe
24
00:01:10,720 --> 00:01:14,798
That jesus christ
is the only savior of mankind?
25
00:01:14,817 --> 00:01:15,816
Yes.
26
00:01:15,910 --> 00:01:17,818
Do you promise
27
00:01:17,912 --> 00:01:21,580
To commit yourself to christ,
his word, and his church,
28
00:01:21,807 --> 00:01:24,708
And to abide in the same
for the rest of your life?
29
00:01:26,979 --> 00:01:28,478
Yes.
30
00:01:28,572 --> 00:01:30,997
Rachel, upon confession
of your faith
31
00:01:31,092 --> 00:01:33,500
And commitment to god
32
00:01:33,652 --> 00:01:35,076
In front of these witnesses,
33
00:01:35,096 --> 00:01:37,579
We baptize you
34
00:01:37,673 --> 00:01:39,598
In the name of the father...
35
00:01:41,268 --> 00:01:43,185
...And in the name of the son...
36
00:01:44,754 --> 00:01:48,256
...And in the name
of the holy spirit.
37
00:01:48,275 --> 00:01:50,901
May this baptism wash you clean.
38
00:01:53,614 --> 00:01:55,355
♪ wondrous love ♪
39
00:01:55,507 --> 00:01:58,450
♪ vast as the ocean ♪
40
00:01:58,677 --> 00:02:03,013
♪ loving-kindness
as the flood ♪
41
00:02:03,106 --> 00:02:08,276
♪ when the prince of life
our ransom ♪
42
00:02:08,370 --> 00:02:13,023
♪ shed for us
his precious blood ♪
43
00:02:13,041 --> 00:02:18,028
♪ who his love
will not remember ♪
44
00:02:18,121 --> 00:02:22,957
♪ who can cease
to sing his praise ♪
45
00:02:23,051 --> 00:02:27,980
♪ he can never be forgotten... ♪
46
00:02:28,131 --> 00:02:30,274
[indistinct conversations]
47
00:02:32,711 --> 00:02:34,561
[man] god bless you.
48
00:02:34,655 --> 00:02:36,062
[nate] her name's grace.
49
00:02:36,157 --> 00:02:37,972
She's an amazing photographer.
50
00:02:38,066 --> 00:02:39,733
[isabel] yeah, well, anyone
who can make you look good.
51
00:02:39,885 --> 00:02:40,993
You know, she was there
52
00:02:41,220 --> 00:02:42,644
Just taking photos
of amish people,
53
00:02:42,663 --> 00:02:44,454
But there are some mennonites
who lied to get their photo.
54
00:02:47,242 --> 00:02:49,576
Put it away.
It's wrong. It's worldly.
55
00:02:49,670 --> 00:02:51,395
I made a promise to god
just 20 minutes ago--
56
00:02:51,413 --> 00:02:52,337
I know.
57
00:02:52,489 --> 00:02:53,321
I'm sorry.
58
00:02:53,415 --> 00:02:54,915
I know
how important today was.
59
00:02:55,009 --> 00:02:56,341
Yeah.
60
00:02:56,493 --> 00:02:58,093
[isabel] only the most important
day of your entire life.
61
00:02:59,405 --> 00:03:01,755
So... Do you feel different?
62
00:03:01,849 --> 00:03:03,757
I do.
63
00:03:03,909 --> 00:03:06,185
I feel...
64
00:03:06,412 --> 00:03:07,311
Responsible.
65
00:03:08,764 --> 00:03:10,263
I don't know if I'm ready.
66
00:03:10,357 --> 00:03:11,598
It's like going through a door
67
00:03:11,750 --> 00:03:14,008
That you can never
go back through.
68
00:03:14,102 --> 00:03:15,936
I can see my whole life now.
69
00:03:16,030 --> 00:03:19,272
Family, church, god...
70
00:03:19,366 --> 00:03:20,532
You can get married now.
71
00:03:25,039 --> 00:03:27,206
You know what,
maybe I should get baptized.
72
00:03:27,357 --> 00:03:28,874
-[laughs]
-[nate] what?
73
00:03:30,044 --> 00:03:31,693
You're not done
running around yet.
74
00:03:31,787 --> 00:03:33,045
You love rumspringa too much.
75
00:03:33,272 --> 00:03:34,454
I do, okay?
76
00:03:34,548 --> 00:03:35,622
No, you're not ready.
77
00:03:35,774 --> 00:03:37,958
You love worldly things
too much.
78
00:03:38,052 --> 00:03:39,459
-And you love yourself too much.
-Junky car.
79
00:03:39,611 --> 00:03:40,868
If you got baptized,
80
00:03:40,888 --> 00:03:42,128
You'd do something
or say something the first week
81
00:03:42,223 --> 00:03:43,280
And you'd be shunned,
82
00:03:43,373 --> 00:03:45,115
And then it would be
goodbye, nate.
83
00:03:45,133 --> 00:03:46,642
Straight to hell.
84
00:03:48,470 --> 00:03:50,020
Maybe you're right.
85
00:03:52,048 --> 00:03:54,858
[♪♪]
86
00:04:04,486 --> 00:04:07,913
[♪♪]
87
00:04:18,425 --> 00:04:19,591
You're idling.
88
00:04:19,818 --> 00:04:21,593
No, it's...
89
00:04:21,745 --> 00:04:22,678
-It's just that--
-what?
90
00:04:25,507 --> 00:04:27,557
There's something.
Look.
91
00:04:30,104 --> 00:04:30,994
It's perfect.
92
00:04:31,087 --> 00:04:33,355
Those beans
are getting cold.
93
00:04:35,183 --> 00:04:36,066
Yes, mem.
94
00:04:39,947 --> 00:04:43,115
[♪♪]
95
00:04:51,959 --> 00:04:55,252
[♪♪]
96
00:04:58,190 --> 00:04:59,689
[bevin] dat!
97
00:04:59,708 --> 00:05:01,207
Dat!
98
00:05:01,302 --> 00:05:02,384
[dat] what is it, bb?
99
00:05:03,470 --> 00:05:06,138
What happened?
100
00:05:06,365 --> 00:05:07,955
A splinter.
101
00:05:08,050 --> 00:05:09,433
Well, let's see what we can do.
102
00:05:15,207 --> 00:05:17,874
Whoa. Easy now, bb.
103
00:05:17,893 --> 00:05:18,966
I would never hurt you.
104
00:05:18,986 --> 00:05:20,402
Never.
105
00:05:23,231 --> 00:05:24,323
You know,
I once heard a story
106
00:05:24,474 --> 00:05:25,324
About a little boy
107
00:05:25,475 --> 00:05:26,825
Who had a splinter
in his finger,
108
00:05:26,976 --> 00:05:28,976
Just like you,
109
00:05:29,071 --> 00:05:30,329
And he did not take it out.
110
00:05:31,573 --> 00:05:33,815
And it became an apple tree!
111
00:05:33,909 --> 00:05:37,727
And when
he would clap his hands,
112
00:05:37,821 --> 00:05:39,579
Apples would fall down
everywhere!
113
00:05:39,673 --> 00:05:41,489
[laughs]
114
00:05:41,508 --> 00:05:43,567
There! It's out!
115
00:05:43,660 --> 00:05:45,510
I'll plant it
and we'll have apple pie!
116
00:05:45,737 --> 00:05:46,845
Now, go on.
117
00:05:53,245 --> 00:05:54,019
The unbroken thread,
my daughter.
118
00:05:55,263 --> 00:05:56,096
You are now a part of it.
119
00:05:56,190 --> 00:05:58,523
We have an obligation
120
00:05:58,675 --> 00:06:00,750
To those who came before
and to those who come after.
121
00:06:00,769 --> 00:06:03,177
"I know that the lord
will maintain
122
00:06:03,271 --> 00:06:05,255
The cause of the afflicted."
123
00:06:05,273 --> 00:06:06,531
"and will execute justice
for the needy."
124
00:06:09,611 --> 00:06:11,277
Baptism is not the end
of something.
125
00:06:11,430 --> 00:06:12,429
It is the beginning.
126
00:06:12,522 --> 00:06:15,265
A marriage, a home, a family.
127
00:06:15,283 --> 00:06:16,708
A man to serve.
128
00:06:16,935 --> 00:06:17,951
Yes, I know.
129
00:06:18,103 --> 00:06:19,527
God has a plan for you.
130
00:06:19,621 --> 00:06:20,437
You don't want
to let him down.
131
00:06:20,455 --> 00:06:21,880
Yes, mem.
132
00:06:32,300 --> 00:06:34,634
Mem?
133
00:06:34,786 --> 00:06:36,228
Do you remember
when I had scarlet fever?
134
00:06:36,455 --> 00:06:37,312
Mm-hmm.
135
00:06:39,791 --> 00:06:40,732
I liked that fever.
136
00:06:42,811 --> 00:06:43,885
I liked the way
137
00:06:43,979 --> 00:06:45,153
Everything swam around
and changed color.
138
00:06:46,240 --> 00:06:47,297
I wasn't scared.
139
00:06:47,390 --> 00:06:48,698
I tried to tell you.
Do you remember?
140
00:06:50,911 --> 00:06:51,893
I still look for
141
00:06:51,912 --> 00:06:53,370
That fever beauty
in this world.
142
00:06:55,082 --> 00:06:57,490
And sometimes, just--
143
00:06:57,643 --> 00:06:59,000
Sometimes, I see it
and it makes me cry.
144
00:07:03,832 --> 00:07:07,426
Genesis, exodus,
leviticus, numbers...
145
00:07:07,653 --> 00:07:08,501
[man] hello.
146
00:07:08,595 --> 00:07:10,170
Does anyone live here?
147
00:07:10,264 --> 00:07:12,413
Iddo! Uncle iddo's here!
148
00:07:12,433 --> 00:07:14,057
[iddo] I'm looking for lucas!
149
00:07:15,251 --> 00:07:16,660
[iddo laughs]
ha-hah! There he is!
150
00:07:16,753 --> 00:07:18,828
Where's your brother?
Come, come, come!
151
00:07:18,847 --> 00:07:20,180
Oh, you're so strong now.
152
00:07:20,274 --> 00:07:23,591
[mem] rachel! Rachel!
153
00:07:23,685 --> 00:07:24,443
[iddo] look what I brought.
154
00:07:24,670 --> 00:07:26,836
Don't show your dad.
155
00:07:26,855 --> 00:07:28,572
[mem] uncle iddo is here!
156
00:07:29,766 --> 00:07:31,675
[iddo] and now
I'm behind this truck--
157
00:07:31,768 --> 00:07:33,193
And the driver's
giving me the wave.
158
00:07:33,287 --> 00:07:34,953
He wants me to pass him!
159
00:07:35,104 --> 00:07:39,124
And I'm shouting,
"hello! I'm driving a horse!"
160
00:07:39,275 --> 00:07:40,533
[laughing]
161
00:07:40,627 --> 00:07:42,794
A tired horse!
162
00:07:44,873 --> 00:07:45,755
Rachel.
163
00:07:47,876 --> 00:07:48,800
Rachel, say hello
to your uncle iddo.
164
00:07:51,805 --> 00:07:53,363
Hello.
165
00:07:53,381 --> 00:07:54,864
He brought you a present.
166
00:07:54,958 --> 00:07:56,475
[iddo whispers] do you want
to give it for me?
167
00:07:58,386 --> 00:07:59,936
Come on, open it!
168
00:08:01,389 --> 00:08:03,389
[iddo] forgive me for missing
your baptism, rachel.
169
00:08:03,542 --> 00:08:06,985
I had an emergency at the shop
and I just couldn't get away.
170
00:08:07,136 --> 00:08:08,228
I'll always regret
171
00:08:08,380 --> 00:08:10,730
Not seeing you enter
the kingdom of heaven.
172
00:08:10,882 --> 00:08:12,741
Seeing you reach your hand
from one world into the next.
173
00:08:15,645 --> 00:08:17,887
That flower will wither
in a few days,
174
00:08:17,906 --> 00:08:19,664
But your soul will shine forever
in the eyes of heaven.
175
00:08:21,409 --> 00:08:22,650
You made god happy today.
176
00:08:22,669 --> 00:08:23,627
Amen.
177
00:08:26,064 --> 00:08:27,321
[mem] are you spending
the night?
178
00:08:27,415 --> 00:08:28,248
[iddo] no. I wanted to stop by.
179
00:08:28,342 --> 00:08:29,633
Such an important day.
180
00:08:31,570 --> 00:08:33,253
But I have to be
at the shop in the morning.
181
00:08:33,405 --> 00:08:35,830
Come on, uncle iddo!
Please stay!
182
00:08:35,924 --> 00:08:36,740
[iddo] another time!
183
00:08:36,758 --> 00:08:37,849
Please! Please!
184
00:08:38,001 --> 00:08:39,976
I promise!
185
00:08:43,023 --> 00:08:44,672
-Bye!
-Goodbye!
186
00:08:44,766 --> 00:08:46,082
-Bye, uncle iddo!
187
00:08:46,101 --> 00:08:47,600
Come back soon!
188
00:08:47,694 --> 00:08:48,843
Bye, uncle iddo!
189
00:08:48,937 --> 00:08:50,195
[iddo] be good to your mem.
190
00:08:50,346 --> 00:08:52,272
And don't forget
to say your prayers.
191
00:08:52,424 --> 00:08:54,607
I'll be checking next week.
192
00:08:54,701 --> 00:08:55,775
I'll see you then.
193
00:08:55,869 --> 00:08:57,110
[boy] we'll miss you.
194
00:08:57,204 --> 00:08:58,111
[iddo] okay, goodbye.
195
00:08:58,205 --> 00:08:59,329
[boy] bye, uncle iddo!
196
00:09:05,287 --> 00:09:07,671
Bishop.
197
00:09:08,865 --> 00:09:09,789
Neighbors.
198
00:09:09,941 --> 00:09:10,799
I...
199
00:09:15,222 --> 00:09:16,721
I need to confess a sin.
200
00:09:20,727 --> 00:09:22,060
I had...
201
00:09:25,232 --> 00:09:27,381
I was inappropriate...
202
00:09:27,475 --> 00:09:30,193
With my daughter's friend,
anna lapp.
203
00:09:34,891 --> 00:09:37,242
Several times.
204
00:09:38,561 --> 00:09:39,411
In our house.
205
00:09:44,751 --> 00:09:45,875
I was weak...
206
00:09:48,071 --> 00:09:49,087
...And I fell.
207
00:09:52,818 --> 00:09:54,408
I recognize
the error of my ways
208
00:09:54,428 --> 00:09:57,503
And...
209
00:09:57,598 --> 00:09:58,388
I accept your judgement.
210
00:10:01,676 --> 00:10:03,768
This transgression
cannot go unpunished.
211
00:10:05,922 --> 00:10:07,180
As always,
212
00:10:07,274 --> 00:10:09,733
We look to the words
of jesus christ for guidance.
213
00:10:11,503 --> 00:10:14,354
We also look
into our own hearts
214
00:10:14,448 --> 00:10:16,114
And ask ourselves,
215
00:10:16,341 --> 00:10:17,857
"who are we?
216
00:10:17,951 --> 00:10:19,767
What do we stand for?
217
00:10:19,861 --> 00:10:21,369
What is it that sets us apart?"
218
00:10:23,773 --> 00:10:27,517
As the lord has forgiven you,
219
00:10:27,535 --> 00:10:29,127
So you must also forgive.
220
00:10:31,022 --> 00:10:33,280
Anna, can you find it
in your heart
221
00:10:33,375 --> 00:10:35,091
To forgive this man?
222
00:10:50,317 --> 00:10:52,067
I forgive you.
223
00:11:00,402 --> 00:11:01,718
[bishop] if this young woman
224
00:11:01,811 --> 00:11:03,403
Can find forgiveness
in her heart,
225
00:11:03,497 --> 00:11:06,055
Then we have no choice
226
00:11:06,149 --> 00:11:08,291
But to follow her
toward the grace of god.
227
00:11:10,003 --> 00:11:11,152
Malachi stoltzfus,
228
00:11:11,171 --> 00:11:13,755
You will be put on proving
for six weeks.
229
00:11:15,233 --> 00:11:16,157
If we are satisfied
230
00:11:16,251 --> 00:11:19,585
As to the earnestness
of your penance,
231
00:11:19,680 --> 00:11:20,845
You will be forgiven.
232
00:11:21,072 --> 00:11:22,013
You may sit.
233
00:11:32,934 --> 00:11:34,693
I think malachi did well.
234
00:11:37,346 --> 00:11:38,321
Poor girl.
235
00:11:39,682 --> 00:11:42,759
But she probably tempted him.
236
00:11:42,777 --> 00:11:44,869
Daughters of eve.
237
00:11:45,096 --> 00:11:47,122
[tour guide giving a tour
on the amish community]
238
00:11:48,450 --> 00:11:50,041
Have fun in hell!
239
00:12:02,464 --> 00:12:04,614
It's okay.
I know it's...
240
00:12:04,707 --> 00:12:07,633
Isn't iddo a bit old for her?
241
00:12:07,728 --> 00:12:09,118
Leah was the youngest.
242
00:12:09,212 --> 00:12:10,878
Only 25
when she was in the accident.
243
00:12:10,972 --> 00:12:13,456
And iddo's what... Only 35?
244
00:12:13,475 --> 00:12:15,308
Of course, we would not
mention it to her
245
00:12:15,402 --> 00:12:18,311
Without your approval.
246
00:12:18,463 --> 00:12:20,480
He's a good man, though.
You're right about that.
247
00:12:20,632 --> 00:12:21,965
He's already
part of the family.
248
00:12:22,058 --> 00:12:24,133
He's good to everyone.
Such a big heart.
249
00:12:24,227 --> 00:12:25,485
He's doing very well
in his furniture business.
250
00:12:25,637 --> 00:12:27,061
And iddo is healthy.
251
00:12:27,080 --> 00:12:27,987
They could have
a big family.
252
00:12:28,081 --> 00:12:29,063
Eight, ten...
253
00:12:29,082 --> 00:12:31,491
He's a sober
and responsible man.
254
00:12:31,643 --> 00:12:32,992
And there's something else.
255
00:12:33,086 --> 00:12:34,827
The way he looks at her.
256
00:12:34,921 --> 00:12:35,828
He likes her.
257
00:12:35,981 --> 00:12:37,146
Sara, don't presume.
258
00:12:37,240 --> 00:12:38,757
You do not know what is
in someone else's heart.
259
00:12:38,984 --> 00:12:40,149
I know him.
260
00:12:40,168 --> 00:12:42,594
We can't force this.
We can only suggest it.
261
00:12:42,745 --> 00:12:44,320
Of course,
262
00:12:44,339 --> 00:12:46,656
But rachel is a practical girl
and she respects your opinion.
263
00:12:46,674 --> 00:12:48,324
It is her choice.
264
00:12:48,417 --> 00:12:49,267
Of course.
265
00:12:49,418 --> 00:12:50,510
We know that.
266
00:12:50,604 --> 00:12:51,352
Thank you, bishop.
267
00:12:55,258 --> 00:12:57,233
God, I need you right now.
268
00:12:59,671 --> 00:13:01,112
You need to help me.
269
00:13:01,264 --> 00:13:02,447
I can't do this.
270
00:13:06,102 --> 00:13:08,119
[♪♪]
271
00:13:09,681 --> 00:13:11,289
[mem moans]
272
00:13:16,855 --> 00:13:17,921
[mem moans]
273
00:13:19,966 --> 00:13:21,949
[rachel] mem!
274
00:13:22,043 --> 00:13:23,617
Mem, are you--
are you okay?
275
00:13:23,637 --> 00:13:25,261
Yes, I'm fine.
276
00:13:32,312 --> 00:13:33,886
-Do you need water or something?
-Yes, some water.
277
00:13:33,980 --> 00:13:35,146
Okay.
278
00:13:36,875 --> 00:13:37,941
I'm-I'm just tired.
279
00:13:39,394 --> 00:13:41,227
Mem, I don't think you look
like you're doing okay.
280
00:13:41,379 --> 00:13:43,321
I'm fine, liebchen.
281
00:13:44,825 --> 00:13:46,140
Okay.
282
00:13:46,159 --> 00:13:47,450
Here.
283
00:13:50,163 --> 00:13:51,830
Now you're taking care of me.
It's funny.
284
00:13:56,244 --> 00:13:57,919
I'm feeling better.
285
00:13:59,397 --> 00:14:00,505
My mother used to get these.
286
00:14:00,656 --> 00:14:01,731
She would have to sit down
287
00:14:01,749 --> 00:14:03,341
And everybody
would take care of her.
288
00:14:04,736 --> 00:14:06,344
She used to call them
her little vacations.
289
00:14:08,682 --> 00:14:10,239
Mem...
290
00:14:10,258 --> 00:14:11,474
I need to talk to you
about something.
291
00:14:12,744 --> 00:14:14,102
What is it?
292
00:14:15,522 --> 00:14:17,096
It's about iddo.
293
00:14:17,190 --> 00:14:19,765
Oh, I forgot to tell you.
He's... He's here.
294
00:14:19,860 --> 00:14:20,917
What?
295
00:14:21,010 --> 00:14:22,026
He came over.
He's spending the night.
296
00:14:23,254 --> 00:14:24,587
Where is he?
297
00:14:24,606 --> 00:14:25,512
Do you know he fixed that chair
in the living room.
298
00:14:25,607 --> 00:14:26,823
-One, two, three.
-Where is he now?
299
00:14:28,851 --> 00:14:29,993
He's upstairs
putting bevin to sleep.
300
00:14:36,525 --> 00:14:41,045
[iddo, singing] ♪ die mutter schüttelts bäumelein ♪
301
00:14:41,272 --> 00:14:46,700
♪ da fällt herab ein träumelein ♪
302
00:14:46,794 --> 00:14:51,038
♪ schlaf, kindlein, schlaf ♪
303
00:14:51,132 --> 00:14:55,894
♪ der vater hüt die shaf ♪
304
00:14:57,138 --> 00:14:58,730
Shh.
305
00:15:15,323 --> 00:15:17,332
We've hardly had a chance
to talk since your baptism.
306
00:15:19,661 --> 00:15:21,252
I've always had a special place
in my heart for you.
307
00:15:23,239 --> 00:15:24,238
You know
you can always count on me.
308
00:15:24,257 --> 00:15:25,673
Right, rachel?
309
00:15:28,153 --> 00:15:29,260
Yes.
310
00:15:30,822 --> 00:15:32,488
Everyone's watching.
311
00:15:32,507 --> 00:15:33,932
You can't make a mistake.
312
00:15:36,327 --> 00:15:37,602
You don't want them to know
who you really are.
313
00:15:38,921 --> 00:15:41,272
The way you've tempted me.
314
00:15:41,499 --> 00:15:43,191
Can you imagine what they'd say
if they saw us?
315
00:15:47,430 --> 00:15:48,613
You want me
to keep your secrets.
316
00:15:50,433 --> 00:15:52,508
Let me take care of you...
317
00:15:52,527 --> 00:15:53,952
The way I've always done.
318
00:15:57,273 --> 00:15:59,290
I know the wicked thoughts
of your black little heart.
319
00:16:01,186 --> 00:16:03,294
I see you the way
no one else does.
320
00:16:05,799 --> 00:16:07,382
You're broken, rachel.
321
00:16:08,802 --> 00:16:13,638
A filthy, broken, ugly child.
322
00:16:14,808 --> 00:16:16,215
[mem] iddo! Chocolate's ready!
323
00:16:16,309 --> 00:16:17,725
The kind you love!
324
00:16:21,222 --> 00:16:22,772
I can save you.
325
00:16:33,476 --> 00:16:37,495
[♪♪]
326
00:16:56,257 --> 00:16:58,332
[eli] have you been
drinking the tea?
327
00:16:58,426 --> 00:16:59,600
Morning and evening.
328
00:17:01,187 --> 00:17:03,521
There are tests, sara.
329
00:17:03,672 --> 00:17:04,772
We can take you into town.
330
00:17:06,526 --> 00:17:08,267
Levi wouldn't like that.
331
00:17:08,361 --> 00:17:10,445
I really am doing much better.
332
00:17:13,274 --> 00:17:15,992
This is the fifth child
you've lost?
333
00:17:20,022 --> 00:17:21,205
Forgive me, sara,
if I've embarrassed you.
334
00:17:23,526 --> 00:17:25,376
Why can't I have
any more children, eli?
335
00:17:25,528 --> 00:17:27,211
[door opening]
336
00:17:27,438 --> 00:17:28,954
Hello, eli.
337
00:17:29,049 --> 00:17:30,214
Levi.
338
00:17:34,295 --> 00:17:36,471
We have two boys here who think
teasing animals is funny.
339
00:17:44,731 --> 00:17:45,730
So...
340
00:17:48,476 --> 00:17:49,642
[rachel] bevin,
341
00:17:49,794 --> 00:17:51,235
Did uncle iddo put you to bed
the other night?
342
00:17:51,462 --> 00:17:52,812
[bevin] yes.
343
00:17:52,906 --> 00:17:54,313
[rachel] what did he do?
344
00:17:54,465 --> 00:17:55,907
[bevin] what do you mean?
345
00:17:56,058 --> 00:17:57,483
[rachel] I don't know.
Was he nice?
346
00:17:57,635 --> 00:17:59,893
[bevin] iddo's always nice.
347
00:17:59,987 --> 00:18:02,471
I mean, did he, like,
I don't know.
348
00:18:02,490 --> 00:18:04,140
What did he do?
349
00:18:04,233 --> 00:18:06,250
He told me a story
and sang me a song.
350
00:18:06,477 --> 00:18:08,494
What was the story?
351
00:18:08,646 --> 00:18:09,662
It was about
this bad little girl
352
00:18:09,814 --> 00:18:11,214
Who didn't obey
and got punished forever.
353
00:18:14,260 --> 00:18:18,988
[congregation singing]♪ by his passion we can plead ♪
354
00:18:19,081 --> 00:18:25,511
♪ god has born
all mortal anguish ♪
355
00:18:25,663 --> 00:18:31,442
♪ surely
he will know our need. ♪
356
00:18:31,669 --> 00:18:34,946
♪ amen ♪
357
00:18:49,354 --> 00:18:51,945
I think I'm failing.
358
00:18:51,965 --> 00:18:53,038
I have thoughts.
359
00:18:53,133 --> 00:18:55,207
All women do.
360
00:18:55,360 --> 00:18:56,759
I'm not in god's grace.
361
00:18:59,046 --> 00:18:59,929
You will find your way back.
362
00:19:04,552 --> 00:19:05,560
I tempted iddo.
363
00:19:07,555 --> 00:19:09,147
I don't know what do to, mem.
I'm so wicked.
364
00:19:10,150 --> 00:19:11,983
Marry him.
365
00:19:13,561 --> 00:19:14,727
Mem?
366
00:19:14,821 --> 00:19:16,545
And then he will be your husband
367
00:19:16,564 --> 00:19:18,381
And it will be all right
in god's eyes.
368
00:19:18,399 --> 00:19:20,216
Not that.
I couldn't.
369
00:19:20,234 --> 00:19:21,400
Rachel,
370
00:19:21,494 --> 00:19:23,552
A woman makes choices
371
00:19:23,571 --> 00:19:24,904
And they are always hard.
372
00:19:24,998 --> 00:19:26,497
We want things we can't have.
373
00:19:27,742 --> 00:19:29,408
We make plans
that will never happen.
374
00:19:29,560 --> 00:19:33,062
We accept and we submit
375
00:19:33,155 --> 00:19:35,006
And we build our ladder
to heaven.
376
00:19:36,901 --> 00:19:39,068
We do things
behind closed doors
377
00:19:39,086 --> 00:19:40,511
That...
378
00:19:46,244 --> 00:19:48,077
Trim your wick, daughter.
379
00:19:48,170 --> 00:19:51,414
Cut away what is charred
and defiled
380
00:19:51,432 --> 00:19:56,110
So that your flame can be
clean and clear and steady.
381
00:19:57,530 --> 00:19:59,155
They are done.
382
00:20:04,019 --> 00:20:05,494
It's late.
383
00:20:07,598 --> 00:20:09,123
What are you doing out here?
384
00:20:10,877 --> 00:20:12,543
I love the lilacs.
385
00:20:12,695 --> 00:20:14,712
Your mother planted those.
386
00:20:17,866 --> 00:20:19,942
One for each of the children.
387
00:20:20,035 --> 00:20:21,844
They bloom for a few days
and then they're gone.
388
00:20:25,874 --> 00:20:27,725
Did you leave
that lantern in the barn?
389
00:20:27,952 --> 00:20:29,134
[rachel] no.
390
00:20:29,287 --> 00:20:31,712
Well, burn the place down
that way.
391
00:20:31,806 --> 00:20:33,022
I'll get it, dat.
392
00:20:34,625 --> 00:20:36,192
You're a good girl, rachel.
393
00:20:47,805 --> 00:20:49,580
[barn door opening]
394
00:20:55,646 --> 00:20:57,088
I didn't mean to scare you.
395
00:20:59,150 --> 00:21:00,174
Please stay.
396
00:21:06,324 --> 00:21:07,598
Will you help me
collect some eggs?
397
00:21:12,939 --> 00:21:15,439
That's all I want.
398
00:21:15,591 --> 00:21:17,275
I promise.
399
00:21:30,272 --> 00:21:31,622
That's it.
400
00:21:48,533 --> 00:21:49,974
A few more, please.
401
00:22:00,394 --> 00:22:02,445
Bring them to me.
402
00:22:25,236 --> 00:22:26,469
Rachel...
403
00:22:27,847 --> 00:22:30,014
...This one's cracked.
404
00:22:43,604 --> 00:22:46,489
I want you to ask me for it.
405
00:23:00,605 --> 00:23:01,712
[sobbing]
406
00:23:02,773 --> 00:23:04,382
Rachel.
407
00:23:04,609 --> 00:23:05,958
Rachel?
408
00:23:06,052 --> 00:23:07,802
What happened?
409
00:23:09,280 --> 00:23:10,629
It was iddo!
410
00:23:10,723 --> 00:23:11,889
Iddo?
Where is he?
411
00:23:12,116 --> 00:23:14,392
He... He...
412
00:23:15,544 --> 00:23:16,727
What?
What did he do?
413
00:23:18,213 --> 00:23:19,230
I feel so dirty.
414
00:23:21,067 --> 00:23:22,625
He ripped my dress open,
415
00:23:22,643 --> 00:23:24,402
But I think I can sew it.
416
00:23:28,908 --> 00:23:30,699
Dat...
417
00:23:32,578 --> 00:23:34,136
He did that to me.
418
00:23:34,155 --> 00:23:35,663
He did that to me, dat.
419
00:23:38,251 --> 00:23:39,417
Did you tempt him?
420
00:23:41,754 --> 00:23:42,995
What?
421
00:23:43,089 --> 00:23:44,755
You tempted him.
422
00:23:45,983 --> 00:23:48,408
What...
423
00:23:48,428 --> 00:23:49,835
What?
424
00:23:49,987 --> 00:23:51,411
Your mother told me.
425
00:23:51,431 --> 00:23:52,763
No...
426
00:23:55,843 --> 00:23:57,584
You must understand
that I do not do this in anger.
427
00:23:57,603 --> 00:24:00,104
Dat...
428
00:24:00,331 --> 00:24:03,274
I am in control
of my emotions and my thoughts.
429
00:24:03,501 --> 00:24:04,442
[sobbing]
430
00:24:06,337 --> 00:24:09,095
"he that spareth his rod
hateth his son..."
431
00:24:09,115 --> 00:24:11,615
Dat...
432
00:24:11,842 --> 00:24:15,911
"...But he who loveth him
chasteneth him promptly."
433
00:24:21,276 --> 00:24:23,127
Come to me, child.
434
00:24:31,637 --> 00:24:35,806
[♪♪]
435
00:24:47,987 --> 00:24:50,154
What did you say to him?
436
00:24:50,305 --> 00:24:51,897
-[whipping]
-[sobbing]
437
00:24:51,991 --> 00:24:53,157
What did you show him?
438
00:24:53,308 --> 00:24:54,883
-[sobbing]
-[whipping]
439
00:24:54,977 --> 00:24:57,161
-What did you do?
-[sobbing]
440
00:24:57,312 --> 00:24:58,120
What did you do?
441
00:25:02,576 --> 00:25:03,149
[isabel] run away?
442
00:25:03,244 --> 00:25:04,835
Where would you go?
443
00:25:04,987 --> 00:25:05,669
I don't know.
444
00:25:05,821 --> 00:25:07,396
Somewhere.
445
00:25:07,414 --> 00:25:08,731
You need money.
446
00:25:08,824 --> 00:25:10,490
How would you
support yourself?
447
00:25:10,510 --> 00:25:11,583
I can sell things.
448
00:25:11,736 --> 00:25:12,659
Someone will give me a job.
449
00:25:12,678 --> 00:25:14,160
I can count change.
I can do that.
450
00:25:14,180 --> 00:25:16,162
[nate] okay.
What about rent, or groceries?
451
00:25:16,182 --> 00:25:17,089
Or getting around?
452
00:25:17,183 --> 00:25:18,924
Everything costs money
out there.
453
00:25:19,018 --> 00:25:21,410
You have no idea.
454
00:25:21,428 --> 00:25:23,354
There's money in the house.
455
00:25:23,505 --> 00:25:25,247
The fruit money.
456
00:25:25,266 --> 00:25:26,098
You're going to steal ?
457
00:25:26,192 --> 00:25:28,417
I don't know.
458
00:25:28,510 --> 00:25:30,010
I have to get out.
I have to think.
459
00:25:30,029 --> 00:25:31,270
What if you got sick?
460
00:25:31,422 --> 00:25:32,345
Or something happened to you?
461
00:25:32,439 --> 00:25:33,922
I'm not going to get sick.
462
00:25:33,941 --> 00:25:35,699
[isabel] you'll be shunned.
463
00:25:35,851 --> 00:25:37,034
Hey, do you want
to give up your family?
464
00:25:38,929 --> 00:25:40,037
I don't know
what else to do.
465
00:25:43,191 --> 00:25:45,117
People here
help each other.
466
00:25:45,211 --> 00:25:46,451
Out there,
467
00:25:46,604 --> 00:25:48,212
There's not going to be
anyone to protect you.
468
00:25:50,198 --> 00:25:52,216
There's no one
to protect me here.
469
00:25:52,367 --> 00:25:53,884
Was it really so bad?
470
00:26:01,802 --> 00:26:02,560
Please help me.
471
00:26:09,126 --> 00:26:09,900
Okay.
472
00:26:12,071 --> 00:26:14,387
I have a friend who might
let you stay at her place.
473
00:26:14,407 --> 00:26:15,364
Grace, the photographer.
474
00:26:16,650 --> 00:26:17,891
I'll call her and set it up.
475
00:26:17,985 --> 00:26:19,392
When do you want to go?
476
00:26:19,412 --> 00:26:21,036
Now. Tonight.
477
00:26:27,828 --> 00:26:31,714
[♪♪]
478
00:26:33,484 --> 00:26:35,426
Mem?
479
00:26:42,084 --> 00:26:45,269
[♪♪]
480
00:26:51,444 --> 00:26:54,019
Oh, rachel, I need you
to run to the store for me.
481
00:26:54,171 --> 00:26:57,506
I need flour, sugar, cinnamon,
and some coffee.
482
00:26:57,599 --> 00:26:58,690
The donnermeyers
are coming over
483
00:26:58,843 --> 00:27:00,433
And I'm going to make
my sour cream cake.
484
00:27:00,453 --> 00:27:02,244
We're not running a tab
there anymore.
485
00:27:12,280 --> 00:27:13,689
Your father doesn't like debt.
486
00:27:13,707 --> 00:27:15,040
Yes, mem.
487
00:27:15,192 --> 00:27:16,282
Rachel...
488
00:27:16,302 --> 00:27:18,118
You've--
489
00:27:18,137 --> 00:27:20,804
You've just not
been yourself lately.
490
00:27:22,549 --> 00:27:23,474
I know that.
491
00:27:27,129 --> 00:27:28,604
You're going to be spending
more time at church now.
492
00:27:30,966 --> 00:27:32,316
I think it's time
we make you a new dress.
493
00:27:34,136 --> 00:27:35,377
People notice.
494
00:27:35,396 --> 00:27:36,654
Yes, mem.
495
00:27:51,319 --> 00:27:54,963
[♪♪]
496
00:28:02,239 --> 00:28:04,348
[woman] oh! Rachel albrecht,
what's your secret?
497
00:28:06,852 --> 00:28:08,911
I'm sorry, what?
498
00:28:08,929 --> 00:28:11,188
I heard you got top marks
in your bible class.
499
00:28:12,766 --> 00:28:15,083
Oh. Yes.
Thank you.
500
00:28:15,102 --> 00:28:17,027
I expect you'll be joining
the wanderers now.
501
00:28:18,698 --> 00:28:20,346
Yes. I'd like to.
502
00:28:20,366 --> 00:28:21,773
You know we've been needing
another soprano.
503
00:28:21,867 --> 00:28:22,925
Tuesday night.
504
00:28:22,943 --> 00:28:23,775
You know where.
505
00:28:23,869 --> 00:28:25,202
All right.
506
00:28:25,353 --> 00:28:26,278
Thank you.
507
00:28:26,430 --> 00:28:27,204
Rachel?
508
00:28:28,432 --> 00:28:29,765
Yes?
509
00:28:29,858 --> 00:28:31,041
It's good
to have you among us.
510
00:28:40,368 --> 00:28:41,385
What are you doing?
511
00:28:51,638 --> 00:28:53,288
What's this?
512
00:28:53,307 --> 00:28:54,306
I was wondering
513
00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:55,899
What it would be like
if I had a watch,
514
00:28:56,051 --> 00:28:57,067
To tell what time it is.
515
00:28:58,404 --> 00:28:59,886
I forgot to wash it off.
516
00:28:59,980 --> 00:29:00,738
You have to be careful.
517
00:29:00,965 --> 00:29:02,388
Mem and dat wouldn't like this.
518
00:29:02,408 --> 00:29:04,649
It's jewelry. It's vain.
519
00:29:04,802 --> 00:29:06,151
I know.
I forgot.
520
00:29:06,303 --> 00:29:07,227
You can't forget anymore.
521
00:29:07,246 --> 00:29:08,895
You're a big girl now.
522
00:29:08,914 --> 00:29:10,080
Okay.
523
00:29:13,235 --> 00:29:14,643
You can't let anyone
be mean to you
524
00:29:14,661 --> 00:29:15,902
Or treat you bad ever again.
525
00:29:15,921 --> 00:29:17,329
Okay?
526
00:29:17,481 --> 00:29:19,664
Who's going
to treat me bad?
527
00:29:19,759 --> 00:29:21,091
People.
528
00:29:21,318 --> 00:29:22,926
Why?
529
00:29:24,579 --> 00:29:25,837
I love you, little bb.
530
00:29:25,990 --> 00:29:27,264
You're squeezing me.
531
00:29:29,268 --> 00:29:30,267
Sorry.
532
00:29:35,165 --> 00:29:36,106
Rachel?
533
00:29:36,258 --> 00:29:37,775
What time is it?
534
00:29:39,612 --> 00:29:41,278
It's late.
535
00:29:45,192 --> 00:29:48,952
[♪♪]
536
00:30:01,449 --> 00:30:05,928
[♪♪]
537
00:30:08,808 --> 00:30:10,790
Isabel.
538
00:30:10,810 --> 00:30:13,459
What are you doing here?
539
00:30:13,554 --> 00:30:15,646
[isabel] I'm sorry.
540
00:30:25,473 --> 00:30:29,309
[♪♪]
541
00:30:29,328 --> 00:30:30,661
Child...
542
00:30:32,498 --> 00:30:33,497
[rachel wails]
543
00:30:37,077 --> 00:30:38,484
[sobbing]
544
00:30:38,579 --> 00:30:39,962
Let us help you, child.
545
00:30:46,570 --> 00:30:48,587
[bishop]
we're taking you to a place
546
00:30:48,739 --> 00:30:52,074
Where they help girls
who've lost their way.
547
00:30:52,167 --> 00:30:54,476
Everything can be forgiven
in time.
548
00:30:57,690 --> 00:30:58,689
Rachel.
549
00:30:58,840 --> 00:31:00,765
Welcome to bright haven.
550
00:31:00,860 --> 00:31:03,485
We are so happy
that you've come to join us.
551
00:31:04,679 --> 00:31:06,196
Would you please
remove your shoes?
552
00:31:07,867 --> 00:31:11,869
Life skills
from 5:00 a.M. Until to 7:00.
553
00:31:13,372 --> 00:31:15,664
We take you through harvest
all the way to canning.
554
00:31:17,376 --> 00:31:20,952
And then bible study
from 7:30 until noon.
555
00:31:21,105 --> 00:31:22,713
Then lunch.
556
00:31:22,864 --> 00:31:25,549
And then bible study
from 1:00 p.M. Until 5:00.
557
00:31:26,886 --> 00:31:28,777
Yeah.
558
00:31:28,795 --> 00:31:31,513
And then from 5:00 until 5:30,
free time.
559
00:31:33,784 --> 00:31:35,392
We like to think of this
as our--
560
00:31:35,543 --> 00:31:37,636
As our house of love.
561
00:31:37,788 --> 00:31:39,879
We want to help you prepare
562
00:31:39,899 --> 00:31:41,231
For your roles
563
00:31:41,383 --> 00:31:44,050
As wives and mothers
in the world
564
00:31:44,069 --> 00:31:46,645
And instill values
565
00:31:46,797 --> 00:31:48,739
That will admit you
into the kingdom of heaven.
566
00:31:50,634 --> 00:31:53,485
Our goal is to fill your heart
with light
567
00:31:53,637 --> 00:31:57,063
And the joy that can be found
in the divine love of god.
568
00:31:57,157 --> 00:32:02,235
Only girls accompanied by staff
can leave the building.
569
00:32:02,254 --> 00:32:04,880
Rooms are locked at 7:00 p.M.
570
00:32:08,502 --> 00:32:11,153
"wives, be subject to your husbands,
571
00:32:11,171 --> 00:32:13,321
As to the lord,
572
00:32:13,340 --> 00:32:18,101
Without spot or wrinkle or any such thing,
573
00:32:18,253 --> 00:32:22,255
That you might be holy and without blemish.
574
00:32:22,274 --> 00:32:25,442
For the husband is head of the wife
575
00:32:25,669 --> 00:32:28,070
As christ is head of the church."
576
00:32:29,856 --> 00:32:33,675
Now, this is our struggle.
577
00:32:33,694 --> 00:32:35,118
The individual.
578
00:32:35,270 --> 00:32:37,103
The unsatisfied mind.
579
00:32:37,197 --> 00:32:39,514
God has given us rules.
580
00:32:39,533 --> 00:32:43,460
All that we need to do
is follow them without question.
581
00:32:45,022 --> 00:32:49,800
God is judging our every move,
our every thought.
582
00:32:50,027 --> 00:32:53,786
I know that each one of you
has sinned,
583
00:32:53,806 --> 00:32:58,124
Even in your tiniest,
most private moment.
584
00:32:58,143 --> 00:32:59,884
Perhaps spending
a little too much time
585
00:33:00,037 --> 00:33:02,370
In front of the mirror,
586
00:33:02,389 --> 00:33:06,299
For a split second thinking
that you might be pretty.
587
00:33:06,393 --> 00:33:09,152
You are not pretty.
588
00:33:09,304 --> 00:33:12,138
You are vain and weak.
589
00:33:12,232 --> 00:33:15,975
You are wicked and dirty.
590
00:33:15,995 --> 00:33:19,387
You disappoint god
a million times every day
591
00:33:19,406 --> 00:33:21,665
With your carnal thoughts
and your dark desires.
592
00:33:24,336 --> 00:33:26,837
You have forgotten
that god loves you.
593
00:33:33,846 --> 00:33:35,570
Seven o'clock!
594
00:33:35,589 --> 00:33:37,347
Be at peace!
595
00:33:40,019 --> 00:33:42,093
She's not that bad, you know.
596
00:33:42,246 --> 00:33:43,762
She's helped a lot of girls.
597
00:33:43,914 --> 00:33:45,313
She understands what it's like.
598
00:33:46,583 --> 00:33:47,691
I think she had
some trouble in her past.
599
00:33:49,177 --> 00:33:50,676
I heard she was married.
600
00:33:50,696 --> 00:33:52,029
I heard he died.
601
00:33:52,180 --> 00:33:55,198
No, no, she ran away,
602
00:33:55,350 --> 00:33:58,443
Then came back,
and then he died.
603
00:33:58,595 --> 00:34:00,945
I ran away.
604
00:34:01,040 --> 00:34:02,931
Or I tried to.
605
00:34:02,949 --> 00:34:04,524
We all did.
606
00:34:04,543 --> 00:34:05,767
That's why we're here.
607
00:34:05,786 --> 00:34:07,936
Not me.
608
00:34:07,954 --> 00:34:08,953
I stayed.
609
00:34:09,106 --> 00:34:11,048
I tempted my cousin
610
00:34:11,199 --> 00:34:12,440
And then I tried
to blame it on him.
611
00:34:12,459 --> 00:34:14,051
What did he do?
612
00:34:15,554 --> 00:34:16,386
It's what I did.
613
00:34:18,115 --> 00:34:19,222
I told everyone about us.
614
00:34:20,300 --> 00:34:22,450
I guess I...
615
00:34:22,544 --> 00:34:23,393
Thought I deserved
to be heard.
616
00:34:25,046 --> 00:34:27,289
Anyway, what good
is running away?
617
00:34:27,307 --> 00:34:28,231
Where would we go?
Who would want us?
618
00:34:53,333 --> 00:34:55,241
[girl] they don't open.
619
00:34:55,260 --> 00:34:57,577
I just wanted to get some air.
620
00:34:57,671 --> 00:35:00,079
It's so we're not tempted.
621
00:35:00,099 --> 00:35:01,723
It only gets
really bad in here in August.
622
00:35:03,327 --> 00:35:04,226
How long have you been here?
623
00:35:05,753 --> 00:35:06,770
This is my third time.
624
00:35:14,429 --> 00:35:16,596
[ruth] he would say,
"you're not trying hard enough,"
625
00:35:16,615 --> 00:35:19,174
And...
626
00:35:19,192 --> 00:35:21,601
"your brain
looks like a messy closet,"
627
00:35:21,620 --> 00:35:22,619
And that I should clean it up.
628
00:35:24,197 --> 00:35:25,455
If he ever spoke to me.
629
00:35:26,625 --> 00:35:28,125
Thank you, ruth.
630
00:35:31,112 --> 00:35:34,131
Rachel, what would god
say to you?
631
00:35:35,876 --> 00:35:37,617
He would say...
632
00:35:37,636 --> 00:35:39,970
"why, rachel?"
633
00:35:43,625 --> 00:35:44,975
"why can't you just be good?"
634
00:35:47,888 --> 00:35:49,813
He would say...
635
00:35:49,964 --> 00:35:51,815
"why do I waste my time
with you?"
636
00:35:55,228 --> 00:35:56,444
"all you do
is make the wrong choices."
637
00:36:00,475 --> 00:36:01,283
"now you get
what you deserve...
638
00:36:04,237 --> 00:36:05,495
...Nothing."
639
00:37:09,061 --> 00:37:12,637
♪ all things
wise and wonderful ♪
640
00:37:12,789 --> 00:37:17,400
♪ the lord god
made them all ♪
641
00:37:17,552 --> 00:37:20,979
♪ each little flower
that opens... ♪
642
00:37:21,073 --> 00:37:23,222
Rachel.
643
00:37:23,242 --> 00:37:24,299
We've come to visit you.
644
00:37:24,317 --> 00:37:27,318
If you do not want
to speak to me,
645
00:37:27,471 --> 00:37:28,536
At least speak to your mother.
646
00:37:42,261 --> 00:37:46,096
♪ all things
bright and beautiful ♪
647
00:37:46,247 --> 00:37:51,326
♪ all creatures
great and small ♪
648
00:37:51,344 --> 00:37:55,663
♪ all things
wise and wonderful ♪
649
00:37:55,757 --> 00:37:59,834
♪ the lord god
made them all ♪
650
00:37:59,853 --> 00:38:00,735
He hasn't eaten in three weeks.
651
00:38:04,449 --> 00:38:05,507
He's living in shame
over what you did.
652
00:38:05,525 --> 00:38:07,509
Just look at him.
653
00:38:07,527 --> 00:38:08,785
I'm sorry.
654
00:38:08,936 --> 00:38:10,120
Do you know we might be
asked to leave the church?
655
00:38:12,182 --> 00:38:13,290
Do you know what hell is?
656
00:38:13,517 --> 00:38:16,751
It's pain and regret
for eternity.
657
00:38:19,464 --> 00:38:20,797
You have brought us
all to the brink, rachel.
658
00:38:22,450 --> 00:38:23,466
Accept your life.
I accepted mine.
659
00:38:28,790 --> 00:38:29,639
Find your way, rachel.
660
00:38:31,310 --> 00:38:32,534
They will help you here,
661
00:38:32,552 --> 00:38:34,144
And then when you come home,
662
00:38:34,371 --> 00:38:36,037
Everything can go back
to the way it was.
663
00:38:36,056 --> 00:38:38,106
But, mem, iddo...
664
00:38:45,382 --> 00:38:47,115
[mary]
careful with the roots there.
665
00:38:50,662 --> 00:38:52,070
You want to make sure
666
00:38:52,222 --> 00:38:54,222
That you've got
the whole package
667
00:38:54,315 --> 00:38:56,224
Before you put it
into the earth.
668
00:38:56,242 --> 00:39:00,003
The roots are so strong
and yet they are so fragile.
669
00:39:02,415 --> 00:39:03,565
Those rows are not straight.
670
00:39:03,583 --> 00:39:05,842
[mary continues, indistinct]
671
00:39:10,090 --> 00:39:14,642
[♪♪]
672
00:39:20,433 --> 00:39:25,253
[♪♪]
673
00:39:25,271 --> 00:39:27,155
[mary continues, indistinct]
674
00:39:30,777 --> 00:39:35,330
[♪♪]
675
00:39:41,788 --> 00:39:45,673
[♪♪]
676
00:39:53,466 --> 00:39:57,394
[♪♪]
677
00:40:04,477 --> 00:40:08,071
[♪♪]
678
00:40:14,154 --> 00:40:17,914
[♪♪]
679
00:40:22,145 --> 00:40:23,711
[horse hooves clopping]
680
00:40:32,505 --> 00:40:37,100
[♪♪]
681
00:40:43,516 --> 00:40:44,607
[horns honking]
682
00:40:46,686 --> 00:40:47,685
[barking]
683
00:40:47,837 --> 00:40:49,671
Carl, listen to me.
684
00:40:49,689 --> 00:40:51,448
You're not going to hang
any of my photos
685
00:40:51,599 --> 00:40:54,008
Unless I am standing
in that gallery,
686
00:40:54,027 --> 00:40:55,743
Pointing to where
I want them to be hung.
687
00:40:57,956 --> 00:41:00,181
Well, don't give me
"that's how they do it."
688
00:41:00,200 --> 00:41:01,516
That's not how I do it--
you know that.
689
00:41:01,534 --> 00:41:02,625
[coffee grinder whirring]
but you remember what--
690
00:41:02,852 --> 00:41:04,794
You remember what happened
at drexel, right?
691
00:41:06,465 --> 00:41:07,613
Yeah, exactly.
692
00:41:07,632 --> 00:41:08,948
It was not fine.
693
00:41:08,967 --> 00:41:09,874
It wasn't fine at all.
694
00:41:10,026 --> 00:41:11,134
You even said that.
695
00:41:11,285 --> 00:41:13,118
The eyeline was wrong,
the storytelling was wr--
696
00:41:13,138 --> 00:41:14,471
Wrong.
697
00:41:15,548 --> 00:41:16,806
Oh!
698
00:41:18,626 --> 00:41:19,550
No, I'm still here.
699
00:41:19,703 --> 00:41:20,626
No, my boyfriend just--
700
00:41:20,720 --> 00:41:22,053
You know what, never mind.
701
00:41:22,205 --> 00:41:24,222
Don't do anything without me...
702
00:41:24,374 --> 00:41:25,648
There.
703
00:41:29,212 --> 00:41:30,394
Can you--
carl, hold on a second.
704
00:41:30,489 --> 00:41:31,488
Don't hang up.
705
00:41:40,147 --> 00:41:40,997
Is that...
706
00:41:44,169 --> 00:41:45,651
Hey! Hey!
707
00:41:45,670 --> 00:41:46,836
Are you nate's friend?
708
00:41:54,754 --> 00:41:56,070
Hey, are you...
709
00:41:56,089 --> 00:41:57,071
Are you rachel?
710
00:41:57,090 --> 00:41:58,906
-Yeah?
-Yes.
711
00:41:58,925 --> 00:42:00,666
Hey, you made it.
712
00:42:00,760 --> 00:42:01,851
Give me one second.
713
00:42:03,021 --> 00:42:04,854
Not the best of neighborhoods.
714
00:42:08,843 --> 00:42:09,984
I was kind of expecting you,
like, three weeks ago.
715
00:42:11,363 --> 00:42:12,270
I gave up on you.
716
00:42:12,364 --> 00:42:13,363
I'm sorry.
717
00:42:15,425 --> 00:42:16,181
Is it okay that I'm here?
718
00:42:16,201 --> 00:42:17,925
Yeah, of course.
719
00:42:17,944 --> 00:42:18,868
Welcome to the grace place!
720
00:42:21,931 --> 00:42:23,206
Oh.
721
00:42:23,357 --> 00:42:24,207
I'm sorry.
722
00:42:24,358 --> 00:42:25,767
It's okay.
723
00:42:25,785 --> 00:42:26,784
I...
724
00:42:26,878 --> 00:42:28,211
You know what--
725
00:42:28,438 --> 00:42:30,046
-No, really--
-no, listen, it's me.
726
00:42:30,197 --> 00:42:32,382
I can be
very overbearing sometimes.
727
00:42:32,609 --> 00:42:33,699
How about we start
all over, okay?
728
00:42:33,718 --> 00:42:34,942
Okay.
729
00:42:34,961 --> 00:42:36,460
My name is grace,
730
00:42:36,555 --> 00:42:38,888
And, uh...
731
00:42:40,374 --> 00:42:41,849
...Welcome to my home.
732
00:42:43,395 --> 00:42:44,802
Come in.
733
00:42:44,954 --> 00:42:46,062
Okay.
734
00:43:00,579 --> 00:43:01,536
Come in.
735
00:43:03,898 --> 00:43:05,230
Carl, are you still there?
736
00:43:05,250 --> 00:43:06,991
Great.
737
00:43:07,143 --> 00:43:09,085
Tell them to wait for me
until I get there, okay?
738
00:43:11,648 --> 00:43:12,830
Okay, great.
739
00:43:12,982 --> 00:43:15,166
Well, then I will see you
tomorrow.
740
00:43:15,318 --> 00:43:17,485
Yeah. Okay, great.
Yeah. Bye.
741
00:43:17,503 --> 00:43:21,055
Alexa, play something cool.
742
00:43:22,508 --> 00:43:23,916
[cool jazz music plays]
743
00:43:23,935 --> 00:43:26,269
Yeah.
744
00:43:31,759 --> 00:43:34,277
[jazz music playing]
745
00:43:34,428 --> 00:43:35,945
[sirens wailing]
746
00:43:37,690 --> 00:43:39,115
[coffee grinder whirring]
747
00:43:42,178 --> 00:43:44,120
Everything here
makes so much noise.
748
00:43:44,271 --> 00:43:45,363
I'm not used to it.
749
00:43:45,457 --> 00:43:48,791
Well, gosh, toto,
we're not in kansas anymore.
750
00:43:51,112 --> 00:43:53,112
No, I'm from here,
in pennsylvania.
751
00:43:53,131 --> 00:43:54,279
Yeah--
752
00:43:54,299 --> 00:43:55,423
It's--
753
00:43:56,860 --> 00:43:57,800
Never mind.
754
00:43:58,953 --> 00:44:00,637
This is so kind.
755
00:44:00,788 --> 00:44:02,138
I'm sorry--
I didn't know where to go,
756
00:44:02,289 --> 00:44:04,882
Or what was next, or--
757
00:44:05,034 --> 00:44:06,125
If I should even
come here, and--
758
00:44:06,144 --> 00:44:07,551
Don't worry about it.
759
00:44:07,704 --> 00:44:08,770
You can stay here until
you get yourself set up, okay?
760
00:44:10,390 --> 00:44:11,964
I've got an extra bedroom--
761
00:44:12,058 --> 00:44:13,374
More of a storage closet.
762
00:44:13,467 --> 00:44:15,968
I'm afraid we're going
to have to share a bathroom
763
00:44:15,987 --> 00:44:18,154
Because my landlord refuses
to fix the other one.
764
00:44:19,899 --> 00:44:22,808
I can grab you a tap card...
765
00:44:22,902 --> 00:44:24,143
Maybe some new clothes,
766
00:44:24,162 --> 00:44:25,828
And...
767
00:44:27,557 --> 00:44:29,791
Oh, my god,
do you have no shoes?
768
00:44:31,152 --> 00:44:32,985
No. I had to leave them.
769
00:44:33,004 --> 00:44:34,003
Do you have anything?
770
00:44:35,489 --> 00:44:38,232
Okay, yeah. You know what,
don't worry about it.
771
00:44:38,251 --> 00:44:39,008
I got stuff you can borrow.
772
00:44:39,235 --> 00:44:40,659
Um...
773
00:44:40,679 --> 00:44:41,660
And...
774
00:44:41,754 --> 00:44:43,495
I can help you get a job.
775
00:44:43,515 --> 00:44:44,422
I've got some friends
776
00:44:44,574 --> 00:44:45,831
That can give you
some gig work.
777
00:44:45,850 --> 00:44:46,683
Do you have
a social security card?
778
00:44:46,910 --> 00:44:48,518
No.
779
00:44:48,669 --> 00:44:50,687
I.D.? Like a passport?
State I.D.?
780
00:44:52,524 --> 00:44:54,339
Oh, hey, hey.
781
00:44:54,359 --> 00:44:57,026
Listen. We don't have to do
anything today, okay?
782
00:44:57,178 --> 00:44:58,528
Why don't you take a seat?
783
00:45:00,031 --> 00:45:01,439
Drink coffee,
784
00:45:01,533 --> 00:45:03,199
Talk...
785
00:45:05,370 --> 00:45:06,703
...Or not.
786
00:45:08,206 --> 00:45:09,706
Listen, man, just do whatever
feels comfortable, okay?
787
00:45:10,950 --> 00:45:13,042
-Okay.
-Okay.
788
00:45:24,964 --> 00:45:26,556
-Oh, my.
-What?
789
00:45:28,059 --> 00:45:29,058
This is the best thing
790
00:45:29,285 --> 00:45:31,394
That I've ever tasted
in my whole life.
791
00:45:40,964 --> 00:45:42,572
Hey, hey.
792
00:45:47,912 --> 00:45:49,203
[sirens wailing]
793
00:46:04,429 --> 00:46:05,928
[rachel gasping]
794
00:46:07,098 --> 00:46:08,506
[cleve] you scared
the shit out of me!
795
00:46:08,658 --> 00:46:09,824
[grace] babe, what's going--
796
00:46:09,917 --> 00:46:11,917
Oh, shoot, get back in here!
Put your pants on.
797
00:46:11,936 --> 00:46:14,270
Rachel, are you okay?
798
00:46:14,497 --> 00:46:17,589
Yes.
799
00:46:17,609 --> 00:46:19,108
[grace] that was just
my boyfriend, cleve.
800
00:46:19,260 --> 00:46:20,610
Babe, say hi.
801
00:46:20,761 --> 00:46:22,111
[cleve] hi, rachel.
802
00:46:22,263 --> 00:46:25,356
Hi, cleve.
803
00:46:25,508 --> 00:46:26,407
[cleve] nice to meet you.
804
00:46:28,269 --> 00:46:29,285
Nice to meet you, too.
805
00:46:35,276 --> 00:46:36,626
[cleve] I'm coming
out of the bedroom.
806
00:46:38,538 --> 00:46:39,778
I'm walking down the hall.
807
00:46:39,872 --> 00:46:40,963
I'm fully dressed.
808
00:46:44,135 --> 00:46:45,468
I'm here.
809
00:46:45,695 --> 00:46:46,803
Hi.
810
00:46:49,307 --> 00:46:51,032
Let's...
811
00:46:51,050 --> 00:46:52,700
Let's make this
our first official meeting.
812
00:46:52,718 --> 00:46:53,476
I'm cleve.
813
00:46:55,872 --> 00:46:57,313
I'm rachel.
814
00:46:58,483 --> 00:46:59,941
So we're good?
815
00:47:01,394 --> 00:47:02,652
Yes, cleve, we're good.
816
00:47:04,322 --> 00:47:06,564
All right.
817
00:47:06,716 --> 00:47:07,824
Can I make you something to eat?
818
00:47:09,643 --> 00:47:10,551
I can do it, it's--
819
00:47:10,570 --> 00:47:11,476
No, no.
820
00:47:11,496 --> 00:47:12,829
You sit.
I got this.
821
00:47:17,743 --> 00:47:18,576
Are you sure? I--
822
00:47:18,670 --> 00:47:19,985
I live for this.
823
00:47:20,079 --> 00:47:21,486
When you taste this,
824
00:47:21,506 --> 00:47:23,155
You are going to have
a mouth orgasm.
825
00:47:23,174 --> 00:47:24,732
[whispers]
a mouth orgasm?
826
00:47:24,750 --> 00:47:26,658
And under any circumstances,
827
00:47:26,678 --> 00:47:29,995
Do not let grace cook for you.
828
00:47:30,014 --> 00:47:32,239
Anything she makes
tastes like dryer lint.
829
00:47:32,258 --> 00:47:33,641
Dryer lint?
830
00:47:35,411 --> 00:47:36,811
You're kind of
fresh off the truck, aren't you?
831
00:47:38,414 --> 00:47:39,188
Kind of.
832
00:47:43,769 --> 00:47:44,694
So you cook?
833
00:47:44,921 --> 00:47:46,437
Yeah.
834
00:47:46,589 --> 00:47:48,272
I do everything around here.
835
00:47:48,366 --> 00:47:49,348
I'm the neat one.
836
00:47:49,367 --> 00:47:50,441
Grace...
837
00:47:50,535 --> 00:47:52,184
Grace is a slob.
838
00:47:52,278 --> 00:47:53,870
Look at this place.
839
00:47:54,021 --> 00:47:56,539
I mean,
no organizational skills.
840
00:47:56,690 --> 00:47:57,781
Never rinses a dish,
841
00:47:57,934 --> 00:47:58,933
Just leaves it out in the open
842
00:47:59,026 --> 00:48:00,101
Like I'm expected
to clean up after her.
843
00:48:00,119 --> 00:48:01,452
I hate that.
844
00:48:01,604 --> 00:48:03,695
Yeah. The food gets stuck on
and it gets all crusty.
845
00:48:03,715 --> 00:48:04,714
And then you have to work
twice as hard.
846
00:48:06,533 --> 00:48:08,050
I think we're gonna
get along great.
847
00:48:09,278 --> 00:48:10,386
I mean...
848
00:48:10,537 --> 00:48:13,389
You already know more about me
than most people.
849
00:48:16,469 --> 00:48:17,894
Alexa, play something
to wake me up.
850
00:48:19,138 --> 00:48:21,288
[pop music plays]
851
00:48:21,382 --> 00:48:23,065
Well, good morning, sunshine.
852
00:48:28,481 --> 00:48:32,909
[♪♪]
853
00:48:34,137 --> 00:48:34,911
Careful.
854
00:48:42,645 --> 00:48:46,213
So, I think these will fit.
855
00:48:47,759 --> 00:48:48,666
What do you think?
856
00:48:48,760 --> 00:48:50,075
No. I couldn't.
857
00:48:50,169 --> 00:48:52,595
Oh, I know it's not exactly
the height of fashion.
858
00:48:52,822 --> 00:48:55,156
I just keep them around
for the models.
859
00:48:55,174 --> 00:48:56,674
You don't understand.
I can't take off my--
860
00:48:56,768 --> 00:48:57,916
Don't worry. I can just go
into the other room.
861
00:48:57,936 --> 00:48:58,768
No, it's not that.
862
00:49:00,438 --> 00:49:03,272
My dress, my kapp ,
863
00:49:03,499 --> 00:49:04,565
It's a conversation
between me and god.
864
00:49:06,277 --> 00:49:08,945
Oh, I didn't realize.
865
00:49:09,096 --> 00:49:10,279
It wouldn't matter
anyway, though.
866
00:49:11,841 --> 00:49:12,782
Why?
867
00:49:12,933 --> 00:49:14,408
I'd still be ugly.
868
00:49:16,529 --> 00:49:17,453
[sighs]
869
00:49:17,680 --> 00:49:18,913
Wow.
870
00:49:21,017 --> 00:49:22,458
They really did a number
on you, didn't they?
871
00:49:27,190 --> 00:49:29,356
Look, um...
872
00:49:29,375 --> 00:49:30,691
Nate...
873
00:49:30,710 --> 00:49:33,636
Didn't tell me why
you were coming to stay with me.
874
00:49:34,973 --> 00:49:36,213
As a survivor,
875
00:49:36,307 --> 00:49:39,033
I can only assume
that someone was hurting you.
876
00:49:39,051 --> 00:49:40,309
Someone you knew.
877
00:49:42,463 --> 00:49:43,813
Someone you trusted.
878
00:49:45,875 --> 00:49:47,108
Did someone hurt you, rachel?
879
00:49:50,137 --> 00:49:50,894
You don't understand.
880
00:49:51,047 --> 00:49:51,970
No, I do.
881
00:49:52,064 --> 00:49:54,115
I really, really do.
882
00:49:57,478 --> 00:49:58,661
Do you know
that I hate cinnamon?
883
00:50:01,407 --> 00:50:02,665
I can't stand
the smell of it.
884
00:50:04,393 --> 00:50:05,317
Mem was baking
in the kitchen
885
00:50:05,336 --> 00:50:06,335
And the house
smelled of cinnamon.
886
00:50:08,231 --> 00:50:09,672
I sat at the table
coloring with the other kids.
887
00:50:12,585 --> 00:50:13,801
Uncle iddo sat next to me.
888
00:50:16,088 --> 00:50:16,846
It was daytime.
889
00:50:20,018 --> 00:50:21,017
There were people around,
but he didn't care.
890
00:50:26,098 --> 00:50:27,356
He reached under the table.
891
00:50:29,252 --> 00:50:31,268
It hurt,
892
00:50:31,362 --> 00:50:33,362
But I couldn't let anyone know
what was happening.
893
00:50:36,534 --> 00:50:37,700
I was so afraid.
894
00:50:39,445 --> 00:50:40,536
Afraid it was my fault.
895
00:50:44,450 --> 00:50:46,116
How old were you?
896
00:50:46,269 --> 00:50:47,376
Eight.
897
00:50:49,213 --> 00:50:51,005
That was the first time.
898
00:50:58,964 --> 00:51:01,348
You are out of there now
and you are never going back.
899
00:51:03,302 --> 00:51:05,302
You have a new life here.
900
00:51:05,454 --> 00:51:07,563
I'm going to make it happen
for you, I promise.
901
00:51:09,067 --> 00:51:10,191
Do you think so?
902
00:51:12,219 --> 00:51:13,736
I know so.
903
00:51:15,981 --> 00:51:17,222
I don't think that can work.
904
00:51:17,241 --> 00:51:18,699
Why not?
905
00:51:19,911 --> 00:51:21,243
I want to go home.
906
00:51:22,321 --> 00:51:23,204
Why?
907
00:51:24,898 --> 00:51:25,873
Because it's home.
908
00:51:35,909 --> 00:51:37,075
[knocking on door]
909
00:51:37,095 --> 00:51:38,335
[woman narrator on tv]
after six years,
910
00:51:38,429 --> 00:51:39,595
Will this top predator recognize his friend?
911
00:51:42,916 --> 00:51:45,101
Come here, you sexy amish boy!
912
00:51:48,439 --> 00:51:50,514
Uh...
913
00:51:50,666 --> 00:51:51,565
This one's homesick.
914
00:51:53,002 --> 00:51:55,111
...An alpha male breaks through the others.
915
00:51:56,856 --> 00:51:58,005
He hesitates, then...
916
00:51:58,023 --> 00:52:00,116
-Hey.
-Wait.
917
00:52:00,267 --> 00:52:01,117
Watch how he lets the lion
jump on him.
918
00:52:03,103 --> 00:52:04,528
The lion loves him.
They're friends.
919
00:52:04,680 --> 00:52:06,697
...Six years melt away,
920
00:52:06,849 --> 00:52:09,458
And once again, this 600-pound--
921
00:52:11,520 --> 00:52:12,586
I talked to your parents today.
922
00:52:14,632 --> 00:52:15,780
How are they?
923
00:52:15,800 --> 00:52:17,358
Yeah.
924
00:52:17,376 --> 00:52:18,467
They talked to me
925
00:52:18,694 --> 00:52:20,285
About how shunning
is the final act of love,
926
00:52:20,304 --> 00:52:22,363
And...
927
00:52:22,381 --> 00:52:24,473
They want me to bring you back
so they can show you it.
928
00:52:25,718 --> 00:52:26,642
How are bevin and the twins?
929
00:52:28,053 --> 00:52:29,311
Bevin thinks you're working.
930
00:52:32,483 --> 00:52:33,607
How do I live?
931
00:52:36,395 --> 00:52:37,820
Nobody knows me, and I...
932
00:52:39,490 --> 00:52:41,115
I don't have a family anymore.
933
00:52:42,809 --> 00:52:44,385
I'm like those people
on the screen--
934
00:52:44,403 --> 00:52:46,495
Moving and talking,
but trapped behind glass.
935
00:52:46,647 --> 00:52:47,554
But you're not alone.
936
00:52:47,573 --> 00:52:48,622
You don't know.
937
00:52:50,817 --> 00:52:51,667
I mean, you can go back.
938
00:52:51,818 --> 00:52:53,127
You still have a choice.
939
00:52:54,413 --> 00:52:55,504
I'm living with strangers.
940
00:52:55,656 --> 00:52:57,339
I don't understand
half the things they say.
941
00:52:57,491 --> 00:52:59,800
-Rachel--
-no, nate, you have to go.
942
00:53:02,162 --> 00:53:04,087
This is too hard.
I can't do this.
943
00:53:04,240 --> 00:53:05,014
Okay.
944
00:53:10,021 --> 00:53:12,021
Will you at least walk me out?
945
00:53:17,344 --> 00:53:19,753
I'm sorry.
946
00:53:19,772 --> 00:53:20,863
Thank you for coming today.
947
00:53:21,014 --> 00:53:22,089
It's okay.
948
00:53:22,107 --> 00:53:23,032
I wanted to come.
949
00:53:24,610 --> 00:53:26,260
God's gonna look after you
no matter what you do, rachel.
950
00:53:26,278 --> 00:53:28,520
I believe that.
951
00:53:28,614 --> 00:53:29,538
I want to believe that.
952
00:53:31,100 --> 00:53:31,949
You know, I don't think
953
00:53:32,043 --> 00:53:33,209
I've ever had the chance
to say this,
954
00:53:33,436 --> 00:53:35,878
But...
955
00:53:36,029 --> 00:53:38,272
I admire you, rachel.
956
00:53:38,290 --> 00:53:39,048
I really do.
957
00:53:42,053 --> 00:53:43,385
Have you ever been
to the ocean before?
958
00:53:44,947 --> 00:53:46,388
No.
959
00:53:46,615 --> 00:53:48,224
Why?
960
00:53:48,375 --> 00:53:49,950
My mother talked about it
sometimes,
961
00:53:49,969 --> 00:53:51,393
But I don't think
she's actually been.
962
00:53:52,897 --> 00:53:55,472
It seems like a place
where you can really breathe.
963
00:53:55,624 --> 00:53:56,623
Where you can feel right.
964
00:53:56,642 --> 00:53:57,900
Hmm.
965
00:54:00,980 --> 00:54:02,554
You know,
I've been thinking about it,
966
00:54:02,573 --> 00:54:04,815
I don't think I'm going
to get baptized after all.
967
00:54:04,967 --> 00:54:05,741
Really?
968
00:54:05,968 --> 00:54:06,909
Yeah.
969
00:54:07,060 --> 00:54:08,410
Keep my options open.
970
00:54:12,232 --> 00:54:13,140
Good night, rachel.
971
00:54:13,158 --> 00:54:14,750
Good night, nate.
972
00:54:19,740 --> 00:54:22,316
[♪♪]
973
00:54:22,334 --> 00:54:24,093
[rachel] I'm coming
out of the bedroom.
974
00:54:27,598 --> 00:54:29,056
Going to the bathroom.
975
00:54:30,342 --> 00:54:31,267
[knocking]
976
00:54:31,418 --> 00:54:33,176
[grace] almost done.
977
00:54:33,329 --> 00:54:34,495
Grace, I...
978
00:54:34,513 --> 00:54:36,254
I can't keep living
off of your generosity.
979
00:54:36,274 --> 00:54:37,756
Eating your food and everything.
980
00:54:37,775 --> 00:54:38,607
[grace] so you'll work for me.
981
00:54:41,186 --> 00:54:42,427
What do you want me to do?
982
00:54:42,521 --> 00:54:44,446
[grace] well, actually,
983
00:54:44,673 --> 00:54:46,173
I'm starting
a big project tomorrow.
984
00:54:46,191 --> 00:54:47,524
You'll help.
985
00:54:47,676 --> 00:54:49,285
I'll show you what to do.
It'll be really interesting.
986
00:54:50,788 --> 00:54:52,195
Okay.
987
00:54:52,290 --> 00:54:53,680
Thank you.
988
00:54:53,699 --> 00:54:54,456
[grace] mm-hmm.
989
00:54:56,352 --> 00:54:57,942
Name and address.
Contact information here.
990
00:54:57,962 --> 00:54:59,369
Don't forget to sign
the release form.
991
00:54:59,522 --> 00:55:00,537
There's instructions
992
00:55:00,689 --> 00:55:02,781
On how to sign up
for the download account.
993
00:55:02,800 --> 00:55:03,590
That's how you'll get
your pictures.
994
00:55:05,970 --> 00:55:06,877
[grace] hey, everyone.
995
00:55:07,029 --> 00:55:07,803
I just wanted to say
996
00:55:08,030 --> 00:55:10,714
Thank you so much
for participating
997
00:55:10,866 --> 00:55:12,808
And for your trust.
998
00:55:14,370 --> 00:55:15,202
So, this is what it's about.
999
00:55:15,220 --> 00:55:16,703
As you know,
1000
00:55:16,722 --> 00:55:19,631
I've been photographing people
the world sees as a group,
1001
00:55:19,650 --> 00:55:22,376
And I want to humanize
the individual.
1002
00:55:22,394 --> 00:55:24,561
You know, whether you're trans,
or black,
1003
00:55:24,655 --> 00:55:25,654
Or amish,
1004
00:55:25,806 --> 00:55:26,880
Or an immigrant,
1005
00:55:26,899 --> 00:55:28,490
I want to know who you are.
1006
00:55:32,721 --> 00:55:34,237
You know,
I learned a long time ago
1007
00:55:34,390 --> 00:55:36,390
That portrait is a dialogue,
1008
00:55:36,408 --> 00:55:38,483
So tell me,
1009
00:55:38,502 --> 00:55:40,002
How do you want
the world to see you?
1010
00:55:41,413 --> 00:55:42,504
Gorgeous.
1011
00:55:42,731 --> 00:55:43,964
Yeah, stay there,
stay there, stay there.
1012
00:55:45,751 --> 00:55:47,343
I need to get real close.
I need to get real close.
1013
00:55:47,494 --> 00:55:49,570
[shutter clicking]
1014
00:55:49,588 --> 00:55:52,473
And how do you think
the world actually sees you?
1015
00:55:56,837 --> 00:55:58,428
We're not getting any younger.
1016
00:55:58,581 --> 00:56:00,338
[rachel] you know
this isn't easy for me.
1017
00:56:00,358 --> 00:56:01,415
[grace] yeah, well, sometimes,
1018
00:56:01,433 --> 00:56:02,841
You just gotta rip
the band-aid off.
1019
00:56:02,860 --> 00:56:04,026
[rachel] I don't know
what that means.
1020
00:56:06,179 --> 00:56:07,321
I'm coming out of the bedroom.
1021
00:56:09,533 --> 00:56:10,491
I'm walking down the hallway.
1022
00:56:12,595 --> 00:56:13,535
I'm coming into the living-room.
1023
00:56:19,935 --> 00:56:20,876
I...
1024
00:56:21,027 --> 00:56:22,211
I've never had
trousers on before.
1025
00:56:25,457 --> 00:56:26,289
Is this a mistake?
1026
00:56:26,384 --> 00:56:27,441
It feels like it.
1027
00:56:27,459 --> 00:56:28,675
Do I look stupid?
1028
00:56:31,964 --> 00:56:32,846
One thing...
1029
00:56:35,451 --> 00:56:36,225
I'll do it.
1030
00:56:39,471 --> 00:56:43,857
[♪♪]
1031
00:56:51,483 --> 00:56:54,743
[♪♪]
1032
00:57:04,997 --> 00:57:09,091
[♪♪]
1033
00:57:17,342 --> 00:57:19,601
[♪♪]
1034
00:57:26,669 --> 00:57:29,352
You...
1035
00:57:29,447 --> 00:57:30,946
Are so beautiful.
1036
00:57:34,009 --> 00:57:35,075
I could cry.
1037
00:57:38,864 --> 00:57:42,458
[♪♪]
1038
00:57:50,617 --> 00:57:54,928
[♪♪]
1039
00:58:03,797 --> 00:58:07,149
[♪♪]
1040
00:58:14,975 --> 00:58:16,825
What do I think about?
1041
00:58:18,645 --> 00:58:19,953
[grace]
think about who you are.
1042
00:58:23,892 --> 00:58:25,501
My mother once said
you're not yourself.
1043
00:58:27,079 --> 00:58:28,170
And she was right.
1044
00:58:29,565 --> 00:58:30,506
I don't know
1045
00:58:30,657 --> 00:58:31,840
What it would feel like
to be myself.
1046
00:58:33,493 --> 00:58:34,843
Or who that would even be.
1047
00:58:36,255 --> 00:58:37,971
[grace] someone strong.
1048
00:58:39,575 --> 00:58:40,849
Brave.
1049
00:58:43,762 --> 00:58:44,520
[camera shutter clicks]
1050
00:58:46,415 --> 00:58:47,338
[click]
1051
00:58:47,358 --> 00:58:48,339
[knocking on door]
1052
00:58:48,359 --> 00:58:49,358
[grace] chin up.
1053
00:58:49,509 --> 00:58:50,417
[cleve] it's nate.
1054
00:58:50,435 --> 00:58:51,193
Don't let him in!
1055
00:58:52,938 --> 00:58:54,696
[cleve] hey, come in.
How's it going, nate?
1056
00:58:58,777 --> 00:58:59,851
[nate] uh...
1057
00:58:59,945 --> 00:59:02,020
Is everything okay?
1058
00:59:02,114 --> 00:59:03,539
Rachel? Is that you?
1059
00:59:22,618 --> 00:59:23,559
M'lady.
1060
00:59:30,067 --> 00:59:31,641
But don't come opening night.
1061
00:59:31,794 --> 00:59:32,693
Come on, like, the second week
when we work out all the kinks.
1062
00:59:33,962 --> 00:59:34,978
I get one free comp,
1063
00:59:35,072 --> 00:59:37,297
So you guys are gonna
have to fight it out
1064
00:59:37,316 --> 00:59:38,982
Or come on different days,
1065
00:59:39,134 --> 00:59:40,242
You know?
1066
00:59:40,393 --> 00:59:42,469
[grace] ahem.
1067
00:59:42,487 --> 00:59:43,970
Ah. Um, so,
1068
00:59:43,989 --> 00:59:45,080
Good night.
1069
00:59:47,142 --> 00:59:47,991
Hello.
1070
00:59:48,143 --> 00:59:49,585
[grace] I learned
a new tune today.
1071
00:59:49,736 --> 00:59:51,494
[cleve] did you?
1072
00:59:51,647 --> 00:59:52,713
[grace]
staying in the bedroom!
1073
01:00:01,098 --> 01:00:02,246
What?
1074
01:00:02,266 --> 01:00:03,098
Nothing.
1075
01:00:09,773 --> 01:00:12,107
Um...
1076
01:00:12,258 --> 01:00:14,092
I got a job today.
1077
01:00:14,111 --> 01:00:15,444
-You did?
-Mm-hmm.
1078
01:00:17,022 --> 01:00:18,113
I park cars.
1079
01:00:18,340 --> 01:00:19,263
Okay.
1080
01:00:19,283 --> 01:00:21,450
Yeah.
1081
01:00:21,601 --> 01:00:22,451
It's good.
1082
01:00:24,270 --> 01:00:25,528
People just--
1083
01:00:25,681 --> 01:00:26,788
They tip me.
1084
01:00:38,952 --> 01:00:40,135
I've wanted to do that
for a while.
1085
01:00:41,546 --> 01:00:42,929
Me too.
1086
01:01:04,553 --> 01:01:05,827
I think--
1087
01:01:05,979 --> 01:01:06,569
I think we should--
1088
01:01:06,722 --> 01:01:07,996
It's okay, it's okay.
1089
01:01:08,148 --> 01:01:09,831
It's okay.
1090
01:01:11,243 --> 01:01:12,316
Nate, no.
1091
01:01:12,336 --> 01:01:13,727
Hey...
1092
01:01:13,745 --> 01:01:14,819
Hey.
1093
01:01:14,913 --> 01:01:15,987
I love you, rachel.
1094
01:01:16,006 --> 01:01:17,172
-I love you.
-Please.
1095
01:01:18,400 --> 01:01:19,341
Please.
1096
01:01:23,180 --> 01:01:24,495
Stop.
1097
01:01:24,515 --> 01:01:26,014
It's okay, it's okay.
1098
01:01:27,259 --> 01:01:29,017
Nate! I said, no!
1099
01:01:29,169 --> 01:01:29,926
[glass shatters]
1100
01:01:30,020 --> 01:01:31,019
No, nate.
1101
01:01:33,582 --> 01:01:35,649
I said, no.
1102
01:01:37,269 --> 01:01:38,193
[grace] hey.
1103
01:01:38,344 --> 01:01:39,194
Is everything all right?
1104
01:01:40,939 --> 01:01:41,697
Yeah, yeah, we were just--
1105
01:01:41,848 --> 01:01:42,864
I was asking rachel.
1106
01:01:46,278 --> 01:01:47,035
Good night, nate.
1107
01:01:52,025 --> 01:01:52,874
I'm sorry.
1108
01:02:01,793 --> 01:02:03,719
[♪♪]
1109
01:02:16,549 --> 01:02:17,791
[grace] I mean, they're the most
honest subjects our there.
1110
01:02:17,809 --> 01:02:20,293
They don't actually pose,
they just--
1111
01:02:20,312 --> 01:02:22,145
-They just exist, right?
-Yeah.
1112
01:02:22,297 --> 01:02:23,964
Hey, rachel.
1113
01:02:24,057 --> 01:02:25,407
Looks like one of your peeps.
1114
01:02:31,323 --> 01:02:33,231
[chuckles]
he looks lost.
1115
01:02:33,250 --> 01:02:34,416
Might need your help.
1116
01:02:39,089 --> 01:02:41,572
-Hey...
-You okay?
1117
01:02:41,592 --> 01:02:42,924
Do you--do you know him?
1118
01:02:45,929 --> 01:02:48,004
Okay.
1119
01:02:48,156 --> 01:02:50,432
I'll be right back.
1120
01:02:50,583 --> 01:02:52,434
[grace] is that him?
1121
01:02:52,661 --> 01:02:53,602
Okay.
1122
01:02:57,015 --> 01:02:59,065
[♪♪]
1123
01:03:12,956 --> 01:03:15,123
What did he say?
1124
01:03:15,275 --> 01:03:16,750
Rachel, your mom's
in the hospital.
1125
01:03:18,462 --> 01:03:19,944
She's very sick.
1126
01:03:19,963 --> 01:03:21,129
She's asking for you.
1127
01:03:24,709 --> 01:03:26,042
[pa announcement]
dr. Thompson to radiology.
1128
01:03:26,194 --> 01:03:27,302
Dr. Thompson to radiology.
1129
01:03:28,713 --> 01:03:29,971
[man] excuse me, nurse?
1130
01:03:36,629 --> 01:03:37,979
Which room is she in?
1131
01:03:42,653 --> 01:03:43,652
Dat, which room?
1132
01:03:47,899 --> 01:03:48,990
[monitor beeping]
1133
01:04:06,418 --> 01:04:08,659
I know you don't want
to talk to me.
1134
01:04:08,679 --> 01:04:10,403
I don't blame you.
1135
01:04:10,422 --> 01:04:12,681
I know when I left,
it caused you a lot of pain.
1136
01:04:15,853 --> 01:04:17,310
That probably made you sicker.
1137
01:04:22,417 --> 01:04:24,025
Remember when I told you
about that fever beauty?
1138
01:04:26,254 --> 01:04:27,270
How you can see things in a way
1139
01:04:27,364 --> 01:04:28,679
That are so...
1140
01:04:28,699 --> 01:04:30,181
Clear and shocking
1141
01:04:30,200 --> 01:04:31,349
And...
1142
01:04:31,368 --> 01:04:32,868
Right?
1143
01:04:34,037 --> 01:04:35,853
That's you, mem.
1144
01:04:35,873 --> 01:04:37,539
That's the part of you
that is in me.
1145
01:04:47,217 --> 01:04:50,443
I know you're supposed
to shun me right now...
1146
01:04:50,462 --> 01:04:51,887
And I know it's out of love.
1147
01:04:55,875 --> 01:04:57,225
But I'm going to stay here
1148
01:04:57,377 --> 01:04:58,727
And I'm going
to take care of you
1149
01:04:58,878 --> 01:04:59,802
Until you're better.
1150
01:04:59,955 --> 01:05:02,397
I will make it up to you,
I promise.
1151
01:05:05,627 --> 01:05:07,218
Rachel...
1152
01:05:07,237 --> 01:05:09,237
What is it, mem?
1153
01:05:11,483 --> 01:05:12,632
I see you.
1154
01:05:12,651 --> 01:05:14,392
I'm sorry.
I can change--
1155
01:05:14,411 --> 01:05:15,911
I see...
1156
01:05:17,656 --> 01:05:18,580
...Who you are.
1157
01:05:21,752 --> 01:05:22,876
Strong...
1158
01:05:25,313 --> 01:05:26,254
...And true.
1159
01:05:29,834 --> 01:05:31,259
You are the best of us.
1160
01:05:33,505 --> 01:05:35,096
You are the one who can fly.
1161
01:05:39,603 --> 01:05:40,936
It was never your fault.
1162
01:05:43,106 --> 01:05:44,514
Never.
1163
01:05:44,666 --> 01:05:45,774
None of it.
1164
01:05:51,189 --> 01:05:52,280
Rachel...
1165
01:05:55,601 --> 01:05:57,601
...The sea...
1166
01:05:57,621 --> 01:05:59,621
Knows.
1167
01:06:09,040 --> 01:06:12,968
[♪♪]
1168
01:06:25,390 --> 01:06:28,900
[♪♪]
1169
01:06:39,404 --> 01:06:43,999
[♪♪]
1170
01:06:55,420 --> 01:06:59,681
[♪♪]
1171
01:07:13,104 --> 01:07:17,032
[♪♪]
1172
01:07:29,212 --> 01:07:33,381
[♪♪]
1173
01:07:44,636 --> 01:07:48,646
[♪♪]
1174
01:07:59,150 --> 01:08:01,467
♪ this world is not my home ♪
1175
01:08:01,486 --> 01:08:04,654
♪ I'm just a-passing through ♪
1176
01:08:04,806 --> 01:08:10,827
♪ my treasures are laid up
somewhere beyond the blue ♪
1177
01:08:10,979 --> 01:08:16,407
♪ the angels beckon me
from heaven's open door ♪
1178
01:08:16,501 --> 01:08:22,764
♪ and I can't feel at home
in this world anymore ♪
1179
01:08:22,915 --> 01:08:28,845
♪ o lord, you know
I have no friend like you ♪
1180
01:08:28,939 --> 01:08:34,776
♪ if heaven's not my home
then, lord, what will I do? ♪
1181
01:08:35,003 --> 01:08:40,431
♪ the angels beckon me
from heaven's open door ♪
1182
01:08:40,525 --> 01:08:46,287
♪ and I can't feel at home
in this world anymore ♪
1183
01:08:48,458 --> 01:08:51,459
♪ they're all expecting me ♪
1184
01:08:51,611 --> 01:08:55,130
♪ and that's one thing I know ♪
1185
01:08:55,281 --> 01:09:01,452
♪ my savior pardoned me
and now I onward go ♪
1186
01:09:01,546 --> 01:09:06,699
♪ I know he'll take me through
though I am weak and poor ♪
1187
01:09:06,718 --> 01:09:12,230
♪ and I can't feel at home
in this world anymore ♪
1188
01:09:23,568 --> 01:09:25,326
I weep for you, rachel.
1189
01:09:27,313 --> 01:09:28,830
Thank you.
1190
01:09:30,500 --> 01:09:32,292
It is you who have died.
1191
01:09:34,913 --> 01:09:37,964
You we have buried today.
1192
01:09:42,161 --> 01:09:43,920
I'll pray for you, rachel.
1193
01:09:44,072 --> 01:09:46,639
Pray that you find
your way back to god.
1194
01:09:48,910 --> 01:09:51,352
Pray that it's not too late.
1195
01:09:58,770 --> 01:10:04,199
[♪♪]
1196
01:10:12,692 --> 01:10:16,502
[♪♪]
1197
01:10:24,203 --> 01:10:27,722
[♪♪]
1198
01:10:37,959 --> 01:10:39,625
[dat] thank you, ladies.
That was wonderful.
1199
01:10:39,644 --> 01:10:40,960
[bishop's wife]
I'll put the lamb up.
1200
01:10:40,979 --> 01:10:42,362
They can have that
for supper tonight.
1201
01:10:52,082 --> 01:10:53,164
Rachel, where did
your mother keep--
1202
01:10:54,417 --> 01:10:57,159
Oh. I'll find it.
1203
01:10:57,254 --> 01:10:59,495
[bishop's wife] I think
we brought too much bread.
1204
01:10:59,647 --> 01:11:03,499
I'll take some loaves home
and bring fresh on Wednesday.
1205
01:11:03,593 --> 01:11:05,885
[woman] sara's canning
was always so organized.
1206
01:11:07,989 --> 01:11:11,415
She was a wonderful mother
to her children.
1207
01:11:11,434 --> 01:11:12,267
I will miss her.
1208
01:11:14,012 --> 01:11:15,845
I remember when my mother died.
1209
01:11:15,997 --> 01:11:17,438
There was so much
I wish I had done for her.
1210
01:11:19,759 --> 01:11:22,092
It took me many years
to forgive myself
1211
01:11:22,112 --> 01:11:23,853
And realize...
1212
01:11:24,005 --> 01:11:25,446
I had done my best.
1213
01:11:28,359 --> 01:11:29,600
Mothers and daughters--
1214
01:11:29,694 --> 01:11:31,286
It's always bumpy
1215
01:11:31,437 --> 01:11:33,955
And the conversation
is always left unfinished.
1216
01:11:36,351 --> 01:11:37,625
I think about friends
1217
01:11:37,777 --> 01:11:41,020
Who will reach out their hands
and their hearts to me,
1218
01:11:41,039 --> 01:11:42,538
No matter what I've done.
1219
01:11:42,632 --> 01:11:44,799
Always there with guidance
when we need them.
1220
01:11:46,210 --> 01:11:48,970
In these difficult times.
1221
01:12:06,047 --> 01:12:06,946
Amen.
1222
01:12:22,154 --> 01:12:23,896
Children, go upstairs.
1223
01:12:23,915 --> 01:12:25,506
Yes, dat.
1224
01:12:34,684 --> 01:12:36,684
Rachel, sit down.
1225
01:12:42,025 --> 01:12:44,192
Here with me.
1226
01:12:56,206 --> 01:12:57,872
Much has changed
since we last spoke.
1227
01:12:59,358 --> 01:13:01,117
Many things have...
1228
01:13:01,269 --> 01:13:03,211
Happened.
1229
01:13:03,362 --> 01:13:06,622
We have...
1230
01:13:06,774 --> 01:13:10,385
We have both made choices
that we will have to live with.
1231
01:13:11,871 --> 01:13:12,553
I spoke with the bishop.
1232
01:13:15,950 --> 01:13:17,350
You may be forgiven.
1233
01:13:19,787 --> 01:13:21,954
You must earn your way
back into the church.
1234
01:13:21,973 --> 01:13:24,148
It will be hard work,
but it can be done...
1235
01:13:25,718 --> 01:13:28,903
...And we can live together
again in the sight of god.
1236
01:13:30,240 --> 01:13:31,531
You will find
a nice young man in church...
1237
01:13:32,984 --> 01:13:34,133
...Someone to care for,
1238
01:13:34,152 --> 01:13:35,701
And it needn't be iddo.
1239
01:13:40,658 --> 01:13:41,749
Bevin and the boys
need their sister.
1240
01:13:44,812 --> 01:13:47,004
This house
needs to be cared for.
1241
01:13:49,408 --> 01:13:51,167
Stay with us, rachel.
1242
01:13:51,319 --> 01:13:53,669
Here...
1243
01:13:53,763 --> 01:13:55,263
You are loved.
1244
01:14:18,288 --> 01:14:19,912
Dat says I'm not
supposed to talk to you.
1245
01:14:21,349 --> 01:14:23,124
I know.
1246
01:14:23,351 --> 01:14:25,126
But I guess
I'm already talking.
1247
01:14:26,354 --> 01:14:27,628
I guess so.
1248
01:14:30,449 --> 01:14:31,949
What are you doing?
1249
01:14:31,968 --> 01:14:33,951
I'm looking through
mem's hope chest.
1250
01:14:33,970 --> 01:14:35,803
It was a gift
for her 16th birthday,
1251
01:14:35,955 --> 01:14:37,046
And she put things in it
1252
01:14:37,198 --> 01:14:38,473
For the day she'd be married.
1253
01:14:38,624 --> 01:14:39,599
Things she'd need.
1254
01:14:41,035 --> 01:14:41,809
[bevin]
so it's full of her hope?
1255
01:14:42,036 --> 01:14:43,385
Yes.
1256
01:14:43,480 --> 01:14:44,812
Full of her hope.
1257
01:14:51,488 --> 01:14:52,737
Bevin, do you know why I left?
1258
01:14:55,992 --> 01:14:57,733
Because I did something wrong.
1259
01:14:57,885 --> 01:14:59,401
What?
1260
01:14:59,496 --> 01:15:01,737
No. Why would you think that?
1261
01:15:01,831 --> 01:15:02,997
I don't know.
1262
01:15:03,148 --> 01:15:03,998
Oh, bevin!
1263
01:15:05,651 --> 01:15:06,575
You did nothing wrong.
1264
01:15:06,669 --> 01:15:08,419
You are perfect.
1265
01:15:09,989 --> 01:15:11,088
Then why did you go?
1266
01:15:14,010 --> 01:15:15,301
Hope, I guess.
1267
01:15:33,938 --> 01:15:35,087
[bevin] look, it's mem!
1268
01:15:35,106 --> 01:15:37,031
She looks so beautiful.
1269
01:15:37,182 --> 01:15:38,282
Did she make this?
1270
01:15:52,440 --> 01:15:53,381
[rachel] all the things
she dreamed about.
1271
01:15:56,052 --> 01:15:57,718
All the things
she could have been.
1272
01:16:07,730 --> 01:16:09,063
"the sea knows"
1273
01:16:10,900 --> 01:16:13,693
The sea knows.
1274
01:16:15,054 --> 01:16:16,295
[rachel, reading]
"in the countless blue drops
1275
01:16:16,314 --> 01:16:19,632
Of her restless heart
1276
01:16:19,650 --> 01:16:22,225
In the splash and the salt
1277
01:16:22,245 --> 01:16:25,988
She knows the possibilities of each and every drop
1278
01:16:26,082 --> 01:16:27,564
Who they are
1279
01:16:27,584 --> 01:16:31,234
And how they magnify each other
1280
01:16:31,254 --> 01:16:32,670
How they keep their secrets..."
1281
01:16:36,500 --> 01:16:37,833
"the sea knows everything
1282
01:16:37,927 --> 01:16:39,385
Except herself."
1283
01:16:44,659 --> 01:16:45,841
Mem was a poet and an artist
1284
01:16:45,993 --> 01:16:47,268
All these years ago.
1285
01:16:50,255 --> 01:16:51,689
But why did she stop?
1286
01:17:04,269 --> 01:17:08,247
[♪♪]
1287
01:17:16,615 --> 01:17:20,593
[♪♪]
1288
01:17:27,977 --> 01:17:32,313
[♪♪]
1289
01:17:44,886 --> 01:17:46,719
♪ through the floodgates
of god's mercy ♪
1290
01:17:46,737 --> 01:17:50,998
♪ flowed a vast
and gracious tide ♪
1291
01:17:51,150 --> 01:17:56,003
♪ grace and love
like mighty rivers ♪
1292
01:17:56,155 --> 01:18:01,734
♪ poured incessant from above ♪
1293
01:18:01,752 --> 01:18:06,514
♪ heaven's peace
and perfect justice ♪
1294
01:18:06,665 --> 01:18:12,353
♪ kissed a guilty world
in love ♪
1295
01:18:14,582 --> 01:18:16,023
Bishop.
1296
01:18:19,678 --> 01:18:21,445
I know I have no voice in here,
but I have a confession.
1297
01:18:24,367 --> 01:18:25,682
I need a place to talk to god
1298
01:18:25,702 --> 01:18:28,119
And a place
to maybe find some hope.
1299
01:18:29,613 --> 01:18:31,280
I've been told there's a chance
for me to come back,
1300
01:18:31,432 --> 01:18:32,289
And...
1301
01:18:33,525 --> 01:18:34,783
...Maybe you'll find it
in your heart
1302
01:18:34,936 --> 01:18:35,960
To allow me to speak.
1303
01:18:37,271 --> 01:18:38,879
Please. Come in, rachel.
1304
01:18:53,788 --> 01:18:56,138
I have been weak...
1305
01:18:56,290 --> 01:18:57,690
And selfish.
1306
01:19:00,069 --> 01:19:01,694
I have made a lot of mistakes.
1307
01:19:05,483 --> 01:19:07,158
I need your help
to get right with god.
1308
01:19:09,579 --> 01:19:11,036
I believe what I've learned
in this church.
1309
01:19:13,082 --> 01:19:14,156
"I know that the lord
1310
01:19:14,250 --> 01:19:16,584
Will maintain
the cause of the afflicted
1311
01:19:16,735 --> 01:19:17,918
And will execute justice
for the needy."
1312
01:19:21,499 --> 01:19:22,923
I've learned that in here
and at home.
1313
01:19:26,320 --> 01:19:27,720
It's a good lesson.
1314
01:19:29,432 --> 01:19:31,223
That's why I love this church.
1315
01:19:38,441 --> 01:19:39,607
I'm confessing a sin.
1316
01:19:41,778 --> 01:19:42,943
I ran away in secret,
1317
01:19:43,170 --> 01:19:44,520
And it was cowardly,
1318
01:19:44,672 --> 01:19:46,688
And...
1319
01:19:46,841 --> 01:19:48,908
It's a sin that goes against
everything that I was taught.
1320
01:19:56,517 --> 01:19:57,291
So I will tell you now
1321
01:19:57,442 --> 01:19:59,868
That I am...
1322
01:20:00,021 --> 01:20:01,687
I'm leaving the church
1323
01:20:01,780 --> 01:20:02,963
And my family and my home.
1324
01:20:05,450 --> 01:20:07,026
And it will break my heart
1325
01:20:07,044 --> 01:20:08,360
And it will be lonely
and difficult,
1326
01:20:08,379 --> 01:20:10,221
But I will do it
with my head held high.
1327
01:20:11,623 --> 01:20:12,789
It is the only way
1328
01:20:12,809 --> 01:20:14,033
I can take responsibility
for what I believe.
1329
01:20:14,051 --> 01:20:15,717
Rachel! Be still!
1330
01:20:15,870 --> 01:20:16,977
I will not be still!
1331
01:20:21,375 --> 01:20:23,300
I came to you for protection
1332
01:20:23,319 --> 01:20:24,485
And you beat me.
1333
01:20:28,991 --> 01:20:30,407
You have nothing to say to me.
1334
01:20:33,312 --> 01:20:35,554
I will miss you
every day of my life,
1335
01:20:35,573 --> 01:20:36,555
But I do not trust you.
1336
01:20:36,574 --> 01:20:38,082
You destroyed that trust.
1337
01:20:42,505 --> 01:20:43,462
I have learned something else.
1338
01:20:46,491 --> 01:20:47,508
Something my mother
has taught me.
1339
01:20:52,756 --> 01:20:54,515
I think I'm starting
to understand who I am.
1340
01:20:57,002 --> 01:20:59,144
There's this other rachel
who needs my protection.
1341
01:21:00,690 --> 01:21:02,106
Who needs a safe place to grow.
1342
01:21:05,695 --> 01:21:10,589
No matter how hard that is...
1343
01:21:10,682 --> 01:21:12,658
I have to give her a chance.
1344
01:21:16,097 --> 01:21:17,496
And one other thing.
1345
01:21:19,041 --> 01:21:20,165
I'm not gone for good.
1346
01:21:21,435 --> 01:21:23,002
I will be visiting.
1347
01:21:25,715 --> 01:21:30,792
And if I hear that anyone
touched my little sister...
1348
01:21:30,887 --> 01:21:34,722
Or was...
1349
01:21:34,949 --> 01:21:37,224
"inappropriate"
with any other woman...
1350
01:21:39,803 --> 01:21:41,286
...I will have
the police here so fast,
1351
01:21:41,380 --> 01:21:42,229
You won't know what hit you.
1352
01:21:46,977 --> 01:21:47,860
Rachel!
1353
01:21:54,059 --> 01:21:58,579
[♪♪]
1354
01:22:07,924 --> 01:22:12,426
[♪♪]
1355
01:22:29,594 --> 01:22:33,864
[♪♪]
1356
01:22:39,455 --> 01:22:40,621
[nate] how long
1357
01:22:40,772 --> 01:22:42,681
Do you think you're going
to stay at grace's?
1358
01:22:42,700 --> 01:22:44,625
She'll let me stay
until I find a job.
1359
01:22:47,779 --> 01:22:48,921
Maybe we could
park cars together?
1360
01:22:50,299 --> 01:22:51,448
I don't think so.
1361
01:22:51,467 --> 01:22:54,543
Why not?
1362
01:22:54,695 --> 01:22:55,711
I got fired.
1363
01:22:55,863 --> 01:22:58,288
You'll find another job.
1364
01:22:58,307 --> 01:23:00,215
Look, rachel,
1365
01:23:00,309 --> 01:23:01,892
I'm just going to move
back in with my parents.
1366
01:23:04,538 --> 01:23:05,980
Things aren't working out
for me out there,
1367
01:23:06,207 --> 01:23:07,606
So I'm just gonna start
my baptism classes.
1368
01:23:10,394 --> 01:23:11,402
-Are you sure?
-Yeah.
1369
01:23:16,383 --> 01:23:17,324
Where are we going?
1370
01:23:19,644 --> 01:23:21,403
There's something
I want you to do.
1371
01:23:21,497 --> 01:23:22,496
I think you...
1372
01:23:22,647 --> 01:23:23,572
I think...
1373
01:23:23,666 --> 01:23:25,907
You know what,
1374
01:23:26,060 --> 01:23:27,251
There's something
you need to do.
1375
01:23:28,395 --> 01:23:29,169
For you.
1376
01:23:37,346 --> 01:23:39,680
Um...
1377
01:23:39,831 --> 01:23:41,181
I don't think I'm going
to see you after today.
1378
01:23:43,352 --> 01:23:44,601
I understand.
1379
01:24:01,353 --> 01:24:06,165
[♪♪]
1380
01:24:10,695 --> 01:24:14,965
[♪♪]
1381
01:24:23,559 --> 01:24:25,225
Give her a minute.
1382
01:24:35,129 --> 01:24:36,695
Show them who you are.
1383
01:24:47,232 --> 01:24:48,990
[rachel, writing]
dear bevin,
1384
01:24:49,085 --> 01:24:52,586
What do you think of the drawings I sent you?
1385
01:24:52,813 --> 01:24:53,995
I think I'm getting better every day,
1386
01:24:54,090 --> 01:24:55,981
But...
1387
01:24:55,999 --> 01:24:57,666
I have a long way to go.
1388
01:24:57,818 --> 01:24:58,759
[children laughing]
1389
01:24:59,929 --> 01:25:00,886
Got you!
1390
01:25:02,489 --> 01:25:04,323
[girl] okay, ready?
1391
01:25:04,416 --> 01:25:05,599
You're it!
1392
01:25:09,163 --> 01:25:09,937
[rachel] it's time.
1393
01:25:12,775 --> 01:25:13,923
[bevin] okay.
1394
01:25:14,017 --> 01:25:14,591
[rachel] I'm not gone
for good, you know?
1395
01:25:14,685 --> 01:25:15,758
I'm going to visit.
1396
01:25:15,778 --> 01:25:16,568
[bevin] I know.
1397
01:25:18,021 --> 01:25:19,020
But, bevin,
I want you to know that--
1398
01:25:19,173 --> 01:25:20,072
I know all this stuff.
1399
01:25:23,101 --> 01:25:24,118
Don't worry.
1400
01:25:28,290 --> 01:25:29,623
Here.
1401
01:25:34,371 --> 01:25:35,963
It's you.
1402
01:25:38,617 --> 01:25:42,803
[♪♪]
1403
01:25:47,868 --> 01:25:50,293
[rachel, writing]
I'm finding that mem was right.
1404
01:25:50,387 --> 01:25:53,221
The sea knows.
1405
01:25:53,374 --> 01:25:56,057
It knows how to be calm and sure.
1406
01:25:56,152 --> 01:25:58,393
It knows when to be fierce.
1407
01:25:58,545 --> 01:26:00,571
It knows where it belongs.
1408
01:26:02,641 --> 01:26:04,158
I think maybe I can learn from it.
1409
01:26:05,386 --> 01:26:07,310
I'm trying anyway.
1410
01:26:07,329 --> 01:26:09,312
Mem would like that.
1411
01:26:09,406 --> 01:26:11,406
I'm so excited
1412
01:26:11,500 --> 01:26:12,916
That you're coming to visit me next week.
1413
01:26:14,336 --> 01:26:16,411
I'll show you where I live.
1414
01:26:16,505 --> 01:26:17,504
I'll take you to the beach,
1415
01:26:17,656 --> 01:26:19,423
And we'll walk, and we'll swim...
1416
01:26:21,251 --> 01:26:22,676
...And we'll see what happens next.
1417
01:26:24,087 --> 01:26:27,014
All my love, me.
1418
01:26:29,518 --> 01:26:35,355
[♪♪]
1419
01:26:51,022 --> 01:26:55,375
[♪♪]
100475
Can't find what you're looking for?
Get subtitles in any language from opensubtitles.com, and translate them here.
Afrikaans
Albanian
Amharic
Arabic
Armenian
Azerbaijani
Basque
Belarusian
Bengali
Bosnian
Bulgarian
Catalan
Cebuano
Chichewa
Chinese (Simplified)
Chinese (Traditional)
Corsican
Croatian
Czech
Danish
English
Esperanto
Estonian
Finnish
French
Frisian
Galician
Georgian
German
Greek
Gujarati
Haitian Creole
Hawaiian
Hungarian
Icelandic
Indonesian
Irish
Italian
Japanese
Kazakh
Khmer
Korean
Kurdish (Kurmanji)
Kyrgyz
Lao
Latvian
Lithuanian
Luxembourgish
Macedonian
Malagasy
Malay
Maltese
Maori
Mongolian
Myanmar (Burmese)
Nepali
Norwegian
Pashto
Polish
Portuguese
Russian
Samoan
Serbian
Sesotho
Shona
Sinhala
Slovak
Slovenian
Somali
Swahili
Swedish
Tajik
Thai
Turkish
Ukrainian
Urdu
Uzbek
Vietnamese
