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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:51,399 --> 00:00:53,401 [DISTANT TRAFFIC AMBIENCE] 2 00:01:19,731 --> 00:01:21,516 [PHONE LINE RINGING] 3 00:01:27,826 --> 00:01:29,176 JOE: Hey, Lola. 4 00:01:29,219 --> 00:01:32,266 Checking in from Idaho. 5 00:01:32,309 --> 00:01:35,834 Other than my right foot being one gigantic blister, I'’m okay. 6 00:01:35,878 --> 00:01:39,186 I'’ll just have to fight through it. 7 00:01:39,229 --> 00:01:41,144 Fight it out, will it out. 8 00:01:41,188 --> 00:01:43,973 I'’ll call you again from Twin Falls, okay? 9 00:01:44,016 --> 00:01:46,106 I miss you. Hug Joseph for me. 10 00:02:02,296 --> 00:02:03,819 [TRUCK HORN BLARES]What the fuck? 11 00:02:03,862 --> 00:02:05,864 Fucking-- You motherfucker! 12 00:02:05,908 --> 00:02:07,127 Hey, you all right? 13 00:02:07,170 --> 00:02:08,780 Yeah, I'’m all right. 14 00:02:08,824 --> 00:02:10,913 See, that'’s why you need to do what Mom tells you to do. 15 00:02:10,956 --> 00:02:12,828 Walk against the traffic.What? 16 00:02:12,871 --> 00:02:14,699 You'’re 15, all right? I'’m 45. 17 00:02:14,743 --> 00:02:16,484 You think I don'’t know what I'’m doing out here? 18 00:02:16,527 --> 00:02:19,139 No I don'’t. That'’s why I'm with you. 19 00:02:19,182 --> 00:02:21,228 [INDISTINCT CHATTERING] 20 00:02:27,103 --> 00:02:30,324 We...we have with us tonight Joe Bell, 21 00:02:30,367 --> 00:02:32,326 all the way from La Grande, Oregon. 22 00:02:32,369 --> 00:02:35,111 Joe'’s here to talk to us tonight about tolerance. 23 00:02:35,155 --> 00:02:36,634 Let'’s, uh, give him a round of applause. 24 00:02:36,678 --> 00:02:38,549 [APPLAUSE] 25 00:02:42,466 --> 00:02:43,641 JOE: Uh... 26 00:02:45,121 --> 00:02:46,644 Good afternoon. Thanks for having me here. 27 00:02:46,688 --> 00:02:49,343 Uh... 28 00:02:49,386 --> 00:02:51,214 I jotted down a couple of things 29 00:02:51,258 --> 00:02:54,043 I want to chat with you guys about, um... 30 00:02:54,086 --> 00:02:56,524 You know, a lot of people don'’t think it's a big deal 31 00:02:56,567 --> 00:02:59,266 to make fun of other people... 32 00:03:00,615 --> 00:03:03,574 um, who are different from you. 33 00:03:03,618 --> 00:03:06,316 You know, bullying and intolerance 34 00:03:06,360 --> 00:03:08,405 can have a deadly effect. 35 00:03:08,449 --> 00:03:10,799 And I'’m here because I'’m walking across America 36 00:03:10,842 --> 00:03:12,366 on behalf of my son, Jadin, 37 00:03:12,409 --> 00:03:14,846 to speak out against bullying. 38 00:03:14,890 --> 00:03:17,545 All right? Now it'’s important-- 39 00:03:17,588 --> 00:03:20,112 Is it okay if I take this? 40 00:03:20,156 --> 00:03:23,246 I don'’t want to break it.[FEEDBACK SQUEALS] 41 00:03:23,290 --> 00:03:26,467 You know, it'’s important for people to understand, 42 00:03:26,510 --> 00:03:31,602 or understand how hurtful it is to harass and torment people 43 00:03:31,646 --> 00:03:35,519 who aren'’t the same as you. 44 00:03:35,563 --> 00:03:38,130 And that understanding begins at home 45 00:03:38,174 --> 00:03:40,045 with the parents and families. 46 00:03:40,089 --> 00:03:41,743 All right? 47 00:03:41,786 --> 00:03:43,788 Parents out there, just let your kids be who they are, 48 00:03:43,832 --> 00:03:45,486 and it'’ll all be fine. 49 00:03:45,529 --> 00:03:47,531 You tell them you love them no matter what, all right? 50 00:03:47,575 --> 00:03:48,967 Because that'’s what they need to know. 51 00:03:49,011 --> 00:03:50,273 All right? 52 00:03:50,317 --> 00:03:52,101 Anybody have any questions for me? 53 00:03:55,583 --> 00:03:57,193 No? 54 00:03:59,239 --> 00:04:01,850 Okay, well please follow me on Facebook 55 00:04:01,893 --> 00:04:04,505 and share my message with your friends. 56 00:04:04,548 --> 00:04:06,681 Thank you, guys. 57 00:04:06,724 --> 00:04:08,552 [APPLAUSE] 58 00:04:08,596 --> 00:04:09,771 Thank you. 59 00:04:18,083 --> 00:04:19,302 [GROANS] 60 00:04:19,346 --> 00:04:20,912 Shit. Hey! 61 00:04:20,956 --> 00:04:23,219 JADIN: Yeah? Why won'’t this thing work? 62 00:04:23,263 --> 00:04:25,569 [LAUGHS] Come on. 63 00:04:25,613 --> 00:04:26,918 You need any help? 64 00:04:26,962 --> 00:04:28,746 I'’m done now. 65 00:04:28,790 --> 00:04:30,357 I'’m useless.Get in, get in, get in. 66 00:04:30,400 --> 00:04:32,489 [JADIN GRUNTS] 67 00:04:32,533 --> 00:04:34,361 JADIN: I'’m laying here with you? 68 00:04:34,404 --> 00:04:37,146 Yeah. You'’re stuck with me. 69 00:04:37,189 --> 00:04:38,539 Get your feet off my pillow! 70 00:04:38,582 --> 00:04:40,802 [JADIN LAUGHS]JOE: Oh, shit! Whoa! 71 00:04:40,845 --> 00:04:42,194 [VEHICLES PASSING] 72 00:04:50,681 --> 00:04:52,248 [SIGHS] 73 00:05:06,480 --> 00:05:08,656 JADIN: What was that last night, huh? 74 00:05:08,699 --> 00:05:11,180 "Understanding begins at home"? 75 00:05:12,486 --> 00:05:14,923 Whose home? Not ours. 76 00:05:14,966 --> 00:05:16,316 JOE: That'’s the way it was. 77 00:05:16,359 --> 00:05:18,753 JADIN: No, not for me it wasn'’t. 78 00:05:18,796 --> 00:05:21,930 "Just be who you are and it'’ll all be fine." 79 00:05:21,973 --> 00:05:24,585 How can you say that when you know it'’s a lie? 80 00:05:24,628 --> 00:05:26,978 Look at that resolution on this bad boy. 81 00:05:27,022 --> 00:05:28,763 I see it.Huh? 82 00:05:28,806 --> 00:05:30,852 Big TV.Oh, yeah. 83 00:05:30,895 --> 00:05:32,157 Hey, don'’t worry, 84 00:05:32,201 --> 00:05:34,072 the washing machine'’s coming next. 85 00:05:34,116 --> 00:05:36,074 [LAUGHS] Yeah, I'’m not gonna hold my breath on that! 86 00:05:36,118 --> 00:05:38,903 Hey, I'’m getting one of these.Don'’t hook up the VHS. 87 00:05:38,947 --> 00:05:40,427 We ain'’t gonna use that shit. 88 00:05:40,470 --> 00:05:41,993 Well, there'’s plenty of holes back there. 89 00:05:42,037 --> 00:05:43,604 Hey.LOLA: What? 90 00:05:43,647 --> 00:05:44,909 Get out of the way, man. 91 00:05:44,953 --> 00:05:47,564 All right, what can I get anybody? 92 00:05:47,608 --> 00:05:49,044 Hey, come on. Hey.What? 93 00:05:49,087 --> 00:05:50,872 Sit with me for a few minutes and enjoy this. 94 00:05:50,915 --> 00:05:54,005 No, game time'’s in an hour. The food can wait, come on. 95 00:05:54,049 --> 00:05:56,878 JADIN: Hey, Dad, can I talk to you for a minute? 96 00:05:56,921 --> 00:05:59,446 What?LOLA: He needs to talk to you. 97 00:05:59,489 --> 00:06:01,883 Honey, I'’m talking to you.Can I please talk to you just--? 98 00:06:01,926 --> 00:06:03,798 Now?Yes, now. 99 00:06:03,841 --> 00:06:06,627 You'’ve got to be shitting me. All right, then, talk to me. 100 00:06:10,457 --> 00:06:13,373 Can we please talk outside or out back? 101 00:06:13,416 --> 00:06:16,550 You gotta be shitting me. Hey, don'’t touch the remote. 102 00:06:16,593 --> 00:06:17,768 All right. 103 00:06:20,205 --> 00:06:21,381 Well? 104 00:06:22,730 --> 00:06:24,558 Well?Can you just give me a second. 105 00:06:24,601 --> 00:06:26,168 That goddamn TV ain'’t gonna watch itself. 106 00:06:26,211 --> 00:06:27,778 Well, Mom already knows. 107 00:06:27,822 --> 00:06:31,086 Knows what? What? 108 00:06:31,129 --> 00:06:33,610 Knows that I'’m getting picked on by these guys at school. 109 00:06:35,177 --> 00:06:36,352 Why is that? 110 00:06:39,921 --> 00:06:41,836 I don'’t know, because I'’m not like them? 111 00:06:41,879 --> 00:06:43,881 It'’s gotta be more than that. That doesn'’t make sense. 112 00:06:43,925 --> 00:06:45,579 Why aren'’t you like them?Because I'’m just-- 113 00:06:45,622 --> 00:06:47,755 I'’m different. I'm just...Because why? 114 00:06:47,798 --> 00:06:50,322 Because I'’m not like them.That'’s not an answer, Jadin. 115 00:06:50,366 --> 00:06:52,150 Doesn'’t make any sense.Because I'’m gay. 116 00:07:07,818 --> 00:07:09,777 You remember when I took you boys to the Y? 117 00:07:09,820 --> 00:07:11,474 Hmm?I put boxing gloves on you both 118 00:07:11,518 --> 00:07:13,041 and made you duke it out. 119 00:07:13,084 --> 00:07:14,956 You need to know how to clean anybody'’s clock. 120 00:07:14,999 --> 00:07:17,698 Anybody that messes with you. Didn'’t I teach you anything? 121 00:07:24,879 --> 00:07:26,620 I don'’t want to spend my high school 122 00:07:26,663 --> 00:07:28,665 duking it out with guys who just don'’t agree with me. 123 00:07:28,709 --> 00:07:30,362 I can fight someone one on one, 124 00:07:30,406 --> 00:07:32,147 but I can'’t fight an entire school. 125 00:07:32,190 --> 00:07:34,323 Well, if I got to go down there and kick the fuck 126 00:07:34,366 --> 00:07:36,020 out of them little sons of bitches, I will! 127 00:07:39,459 --> 00:07:41,983 You know what? We'’re gonna let nature take its course. 128 00:07:42,026 --> 00:07:43,724 All right? 129 00:07:43,767 --> 00:07:46,553 This isn'’t anybody else's business anyway, is it? 130 00:07:46,596 --> 00:07:48,555 Don'’t talk about it with the other kids. 131 00:07:48,598 --> 00:07:50,600 Or with other people. You mind your own damn business. 132 00:07:50,644 --> 00:07:52,167 It'’ll all be fine. It'’ll work itself out. 133 00:07:52,210 --> 00:07:53,603 LOLA: Joe. 134 00:07:53,647 --> 00:07:55,300 JOE: What?It'’s not gonna work itself out. 135 00:07:55,344 --> 00:07:57,346 JOE: What am I supposed to do?Not talking about it 136 00:07:57,389 --> 00:07:59,217 is not gonna help.JOE: It'’s gonna be fine. 137 00:07:59,261 --> 00:08:01,655 LOLA: None of this is his fault.JOE: I didn'’t say that it was. 138 00:08:01,698 --> 00:08:05,702 LOLA: The only thing he needs to know is that his family loves him. 139 00:08:05,746 --> 00:08:08,009 This family loves you.You'’re stating the obvious here. 140 00:08:08,052 --> 00:08:10,272 LOLA: It'’s not that obvious. You can say it too, you know. 141 00:08:11,882 --> 00:08:13,318 JOE: He knows I love him. 142 00:08:14,537 --> 00:08:16,626 I love you. You... 143 00:08:16,670 --> 00:08:18,585 You know that. 144 00:08:21,718 --> 00:08:22,893 Are we done here now? 145 00:08:38,735 --> 00:08:39,954 JIMMY: Here you go. 146 00:08:39,997 --> 00:08:41,869 You fucking with my settings? 147 00:08:41,912 --> 00:08:45,350 JIMMY: I was just trying to see if I could figure it out. 148 00:08:45,394 --> 00:08:47,222 Lola! 149 00:08:47,265 --> 00:08:48,832 [SNIFFLES] 150 00:08:48,876 --> 00:08:50,530 I'’m getting a beer. 151 00:08:54,272 --> 00:08:55,752 [FRIDGE DOOR OPENS] 152 00:09:01,758 --> 00:09:05,675 JIMMY: Hey, just don'’t get all bent out of shape about it, Joe. 153 00:09:05,719 --> 00:09:06,937 He'’s just a kid. 154 00:09:06,981 --> 00:09:08,417 JOE: What'’s that supposed to mean? 155 00:09:08,460 --> 00:09:10,898 I mean, so he'’s playing a little grab-ass, 156 00:09:10,941 --> 00:09:13,422 stirring up some trouble. It'’s not a big deal. 157 00:09:13,465 --> 00:09:15,119 What are you trying to say, this is a phase? 158 00:09:15,163 --> 00:09:17,165 The point is, I know what he'’s in for now, all right? 159 00:09:17,208 --> 00:09:19,384 I just don'’t want him out there damn near broadcasting it. 160 00:09:19,428 --> 00:09:21,952 You know where we live.JIMMY: I know. 161 00:09:21,996 --> 00:09:24,999 I'’m just saying, kids are designed to drive you nuts. 162 00:09:25,042 --> 00:09:27,567 [LAUGHS] He might just grow out of it. 163 00:09:30,308 --> 00:09:33,050 MARCIE & JADIN: Go, Cougars! 164 00:09:33,094 --> 00:09:35,487 Let'’s go, Cougars! 165 00:09:36,576 --> 00:09:39,622 Let'’s go, Cougars! 166 00:09:39,666 --> 00:09:42,582 What in the hell? Hey, Lola, come here. 167 00:09:43,713 --> 00:09:45,367 LOLA: What?Come here! 168 00:09:45,410 --> 00:09:47,325 I'’m coming. What is it? 169 00:09:47,369 --> 00:09:48,718 You tell me. What is this? 170 00:09:48,762 --> 00:09:51,329 What? He'’s practicing his cheers. 171 00:09:51,373 --> 00:09:53,636 He'’s just going to do his cheers out there in the front yard? 172 00:09:53,680 --> 00:09:55,290 We told him he could join the squad-- 173 00:09:55,333 --> 00:09:56,857 But in the front yard? 174 00:09:56,900 --> 00:09:59,555 Let him be, Joe. It'’s his first game this week. 175 00:09:59,599 --> 00:10:01,557 Why not?Hell no, hell no. No, no, no. 176 00:10:01,601 --> 00:10:02,776 LOLA: Joe-- Joe. 177 00:10:02,819 --> 00:10:04,212 Mm-hmm.LOLA: Joe. 178 00:10:04,255 --> 00:10:07,345 JOE: Front yard.Oh, for God'’s sakes. 179 00:10:07,389 --> 00:10:08,825 Let'’s go, Cougars, let's go!Hey, son? 180 00:10:08,869 --> 00:10:10,174 Yeah?Could you--? 181 00:10:10,218 --> 00:10:11,741 Would you mind practicing in the backyard? 182 00:10:11,785 --> 00:10:13,003 It'’s hard for me to hear the TV. 183 00:10:13,047 --> 00:10:14,222 What? 184 00:10:16,354 --> 00:10:17,617 You'’re out in front here yelling. 185 00:10:17,660 --> 00:10:19,401 And I can'’t hear the television. 186 00:10:19,444 --> 00:10:22,186 Can you not just turn it up?Don'’t tell me what to do. 187 00:10:22,230 --> 00:10:24,319 Your mother and I been supporting this cheerleading, 188 00:10:24,362 --> 00:10:25,842 but you need to practice in the backyard. 189 00:10:25,886 --> 00:10:27,278 [WHISPERING] What'’s his problem? 190 00:10:27,322 --> 00:10:28,802 Why can'’t we just practice in the front? 191 00:10:28,845 --> 00:10:30,368 Get your ass in the backyard now. 192 00:10:30,412 --> 00:10:31,718 Can'’t you ever just shut the fuck up 193 00:10:31,761 --> 00:10:33,154 and do what you'’re told? 194 00:10:33,197 --> 00:10:34,677 I thought my home life was unstable. 195 00:10:36,026 --> 00:10:37,985 Go ahead. Follow Marcie. 196 00:10:43,425 --> 00:10:45,514 You better tell Marcie to stop running her mouth, 197 00:10:45,557 --> 00:10:47,734 or I'’m gonna put a foot in her ass. 198 00:10:47,777 --> 00:10:49,474 Oh, okay. 199 00:10:53,783 --> 00:10:56,481 JOE: Come here. Come sit with me. 200 00:10:56,525 --> 00:10:57,657 I'’m doing my crossword. 201 00:11:50,971 --> 00:11:52,494 JOE: I'’m going to try to be better. 202 00:11:57,847 --> 00:11:59,022 I love you. 203 00:12:01,721 --> 00:12:02,852 I love you too. 204 00:12:04,158 --> 00:12:05,333 I know. 205 00:12:14,342 --> 00:12:16,779 JADIN: I got to give you credit, Dad. At least you'’re persistent. 206 00:12:16,823 --> 00:12:18,825 JOE: Well, I'’m walking all this way 207 00:12:18,868 --> 00:12:21,175 because that'’s where you told us you wanted to live, remember? 208 00:12:21,218 --> 00:12:23,090 JADIN: Oh, yeah. New York City. 209 00:12:23,133 --> 00:12:25,222 JOE: Yeah, your big dream. 210 00:12:25,266 --> 00:12:28,051 Mm-hmm. I mean, obviously. 211 00:12:28,095 --> 00:12:30,445 Why obviously? 212 00:12:30,488 --> 00:12:33,056 Why not? Think about it, if you were me, 213 00:12:33,100 --> 00:12:37,713 would you rather live in La Grande or New York City? 214 00:12:37,757 --> 00:12:40,281 Well, I bet you'’ll feel more comfortable in New York. 215 00:12:40,324 --> 00:12:42,065 Yeah. I'’m sure you're right. That'’s the point. 216 00:12:42,109 --> 00:12:43,501 All right, well, just for the record, 217 00:12:43,545 --> 00:12:44,938 I happen to love La Grande. 218 00:12:44,981 --> 00:12:46,330 So, you know, why don'’t you just--? 219 00:12:46,374 --> 00:12:48,768 Okay, no, uh-uh. There'’s no comparison. 220 00:12:48,811 --> 00:12:50,813 There'’s no comparison.Well, I... 221 00:12:50,857 --> 00:12:53,729 Okay, what does La Grande have? 222 00:12:53,773 --> 00:12:56,210 Nothing. Exactly. What does New York have? 223 00:12:56,253 --> 00:12:58,865 It has every kind of food, 224 00:12:58,908 --> 00:13:01,737 every kind of people, every kind of pizza. 225 00:13:01,781 --> 00:13:03,347 We got pizza in La Grande. 226 00:13:03,391 --> 00:13:06,829 It'’s got skyscrapers and Broadway and...Stefani. 227 00:13:06,873 --> 00:13:08,178 I mean, hello? Stefani. 228 00:13:08,222 --> 00:13:09,789 Who'’s Stefani? 229 00:13:09,832 --> 00:13:11,921 Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta. 230 00:13:11,965 --> 00:13:15,185 What? Who is that? 231 00:13:15,229 --> 00:13:17,797 Gaga, Dad.Oh. 232 00:13:17,840 --> 00:13:19,276 Lady Gaga. 233 00:13:19,320 --> 00:13:21,670 Yeah, yeah.And, you know, of course-- 234 00:13:21,713 --> 00:13:23,237 Of course she'’s proud of how she grew up. 235 00:13:23,280 --> 00:13:25,717 I mean, she grew up in New York. 236 00:13:25,761 --> 00:13:27,850 Only a New Yorker could write that song. 237 00:13:27,894 --> 00:13:29,156 Well, don'’t start. 238 00:13:29,199 --> 00:13:30,548 Oh, come on. You know you love it. 239 00:13:30,592 --> 00:13:31,854 Oh, Lord, please... 240 00:13:31,898 --> 00:13:34,857 ♪ My mama told me When I was young ♪ 241 00:13:34,901 --> 00:13:37,077 ♪ We'’re all born Superstars ♪ 242 00:13:37,120 --> 00:13:38,861 ♪ Da, da, da, da, da, da 243 00:13:38,905 --> 00:13:41,168 ♪ She rolled my hair And put my lipstick on ♪ 244 00:13:41,211 --> 00:13:43,866 ♪ In the glass of her boudoir 245 00:13:43,910 --> 00:13:46,826 ♪ She said there'’s nothing wrong With loving who you are ♪ 246 00:13:46,869 --> 00:13:48,915 ♪ She said, '’cause he made you Perfect, babe ♪ 247 00:13:50,917 --> 00:13:53,571 ♪ So keep your head up, girl And you'’ll go far ♪ 248 00:13:53,615 --> 00:13:56,009 ♪ Listen to me when I say 249 00:13:56,052 --> 00:13:57,401 ♪ You'’re beautiful in your way ♪ 250 00:13:57,445 --> 00:13:59,621 ♪ '’Cause God makes No mistakes ♪ 251 00:13:59,664 --> 00:14:02,406 ♪ I'’m on the right track, baby I was born this way ♪ 252 00:14:04,582 --> 00:14:05,845 What? 253 00:14:05,888 --> 00:14:07,542 Well, don'’t look so surprised. 254 00:14:07,585 --> 00:14:09,587 Excuse me, I didn'’t know you knew the words. 255 00:14:09,631 --> 00:14:11,328 Well, you blast that shit so loud, 256 00:14:11,372 --> 00:14:12,895 you think I didn'’t pick up a thing or two? 257 00:14:12,939 --> 00:14:14,375 Wow. Okay.I'’m one of them-- 258 00:14:14,418 --> 00:14:16,246 What do you call it? "I'’m a monster." 259 00:14:16,290 --> 00:14:17,595 Okay."I'’m a monster." 260 00:14:17,639 --> 00:14:19,075 All right a little--Yeah. Yeah. 261 00:14:19,119 --> 00:14:20,598 Excuse me, it'’s a little monster, 262 00:14:20,642 --> 00:14:22,383 to be correct.[LAUGHS] Little monster. 263 00:14:22,426 --> 00:14:24,602 Yeah, you know what? All right, even I'’ll admit it, okay? 264 00:14:24,646 --> 00:14:25,908 It'’s a little catchy.Yes, it is. 265 00:14:25,952 --> 00:14:27,605 Don'’t hide yourself in regret. 266 00:14:27,649 --> 00:14:29,477 BOTH: Just love yourself and you'’re set. 267 00:14:29,520 --> 00:14:31,435 ♪ I'’m on the right track, baby I was born this way ♪ 268 00:14:31,479 --> 00:14:32,915 All right.We'’re not doing that again. 269 00:14:32,959 --> 00:14:35,787 All right, now, sing me something I like. 270 00:14:35,831 --> 00:14:37,050 Give me a little Willie Nelson. 271 00:14:46,363 --> 00:14:48,888 Oh, man. Smells good. 272 00:14:56,417 --> 00:14:57,984 Hey. 273 00:14:58,027 --> 00:14:59,681 MOLLY: Well, if it ain'’t Grizzly Adams 274 00:14:59,724 --> 00:15:01,596 washed up on my doorstep. 275 00:15:01,639 --> 00:15:03,076 [SIGHS] 276 00:15:03,119 --> 00:15:05,121 Joe, is it?JOE: Joe it is. 277 00:15:05,165 --> 00:15:08,342 Heard all about you, Joe. You'’re all over TV. 278 00:15:08,385 --> 00:15:11,606 You'’re in luck. We got the finest food in Utah. 279 00:15:11,649 --> 00:15:14,087 Good, because I'’m starving.What'’ll it be? 280 00:15:14,130 --> 00:15:16,263 Uh, I'’ll have your special and a coffee. 281 00:15:16,306 --> 00:15:17,525 MOLLY: Be right back. 282 00:15:20,006 --> 00:15:21,529 ANNOUNCER [ON TV]: ...same sex marriage... 283 00:15:21,572 --> 00:15:22,922 Oh, God. 284 00:15:22,965 --> 00:15:25,359 Fucking queens are everywhere now. 285 00:15:25,402 --> 00:15:28,188 Hey, sweetheart, can you turn that fairy shit off, please? 286 00:15:28,231 --> 00:15:30,190 MOLLY: There'’s ignorant folks everywhere. 287 00:15:32,235 --> 00:15:33,933 Don'’t you pay them no mind. 288 00:15:36,805 --> 00:15:37,937 Yeah. 289 00:15:41,288 --> 00:15:44,073 Hey, my name'’s Joe Bell. 290 00:15:44,117 --> 00:15:46,162 Overheard you talking over here. 291 00:15:46,206 --> 00:15:48,991 I'’m on a walk for change for my son Jadin. 292 00:15:49,035 --> 00:15:50,340 And, uh... 293 00:15:50,384 --> 00:15:51,602 I'’d like you to check out 294 00:15:51,646 --> 00:15:53,126 our message of inclusion. 295 00:15:53,169 --> 00:15:55,519 Appreciate it if you get a chance, thanks. 296 00:15:55,563 --> 00:15:56,956 I'’ll pass on the meal. 297 00:16:01,134 --> 00:16:03,484 MAN: I don'’t know what the fuck that'’s all about. 298 00:16:03,527 --> 00:16:04,920 [LAUGHS] 299 00:16:06,922 --> 00:16:09,838 Dad.Don'’t start your shit, Jadin. 300 00:16:11,883 --> 00:16:13,755 Dad!What? 301 00:16:13,798 --> 00:16:16,410 Giving them a card and running away isn'’t gonna change shit. 302 00:16:16,453 --> 00:16:18,455 I'’m sorry, but it'’s not. 303 00:16:18,499 --> 00:16:20,022 I don'’t know if you realize this or not, 304 00:16:20,066 --> 00:16:21,241 but this is America, okay? 305 00:16:21,284 --> 00:16:22,590 And they'’re Americans. 306 00:16:22,633 --> 00:16:24,331 They are entitled to their own opinion. 307 00:16:24,374 --> 00:16:25,854 Okay, I'’m starving my ass off, okay? 308 00:16:25,897 --> 00:16:27,377 I just wanted to finish my meal 309 00:16:27,421 --> 00:16:29,597 and get back on the road and on my walk. 310 00:16:29,640 --> 00:16:31,164 Which I am doing for you, remember? 311 00:16:31,207 --> 00:16:33,079 I mean, what else the hell-- 312 00:16:33,122 --> 00:16:35,385 What else in the hell do you expect from me, for chrissakes? 313 00:16:35,429 --> 00:16:37,605 The people that come to your talks aren'’t the issue. 314 00:16:37,648 --> 00:16:39,128 They are. 315 00:16:39,172 --> 00:16:40,825 Really? 316 00:16:40,869 --> 00:16:43,002 Guys like that and their kids. That'’s the issue. 317 00:16:43,045 --> 00:16:44,829 I hate to break it to you, 318 00:16:44,873 --> 00:16:47,310 but we wouldn'’t be hauling our asses cross-country on foot 319 00:16:47,354 --> 00:16:50,009 if you'’d actually done what I told you to in the first place. 320 00:16:50,052 --> 00:16:52,707 You told me to fight, which you didn'’t do. 321 00:16:52,750 --> 00:16:54,361 And?You'’re a hypocrite. 322 00:16:54,404 --> 00:16:56,232 I'’m the hypocrite?Don'’t want to be a hypocrite, 323 00:16:56,276 --> 00:16:58,017 then go back in there and kick their asses. 324 00:16:58,060 --> 00:17:00,193 Oh, I'’m sorry, give them another card and say bye. 325 00:17:13,336 --> 00:17:14,816 [INDISTINCT CHATTERING] 326 00:17:33,530 --> 00:17:35,489 Yes, I agree. 327 00:17:35,532 --> 00:17:36,881 Very, very. 328 00:17:36,925 --> 00:17:38,448 Oh, who are we talking about? 329 00:17:55,552 --> 00:17:57,598 They'’re so loud. 330 00:17:57,641 --> 00:18:00,296 Oh, my gosh, he'’s so hot. 331 00:18:03,169 --> 00:18:04,692 Guys, guys, guys. 332 00:18:05,780 --> 00:18:06,955 [LAUGHS]Yeah. 333 00:18:13,048 --> 00:18:15,050 [BELL RINGS] 334 00:18:20,316 --> 00:18:21,839 You guys want to come over? 335 00:18:21,883 --> 00:18:23,145 [GRUNTS]MARCIE: Jerk! 336 00:18:23,189 --> 00:18:24,755 First down, faggot! 337 00:18:24,799 --> 00:18:27,584 COLLEEN: You guys are such assholes. 338 00:18:27,628 --> 00:18:28,977 BOYD: Takes one to know one. 339 00:18:35,201 --> 00:18:36,724 [GIGGLING AND LAUGHING] 340 00:18:42,947 --> 00:18:45,341 [DANCE MUSIC BLARING] 341 00:18:45,385 --> 00:18:46,864 Chug, chug! 342 00:18:48,866 --> 00:18:50,520 [LAUGHS] 343 00:19:01,096 --> 00:19:02,489 Get a drink. 344 00:19:03,968 --> 00:19:05,492 I do.Really? 345 00:19:05,535 --> 00:19:07,058 [INDISTINCT CHATTERING] 346 00:19:27,035 --> 00:19:28,689 GIRL: She has had so many drinks. 347 00:19:40,788 --> 00:19:42,311 Wanna smoke? 348 00:19:50,276 --> 00:19:52,234 COLLEEN: Go, go.Right now? 349 00:19:52,278 --> 00:19:54,193 Yes, go. Hurry.Okay. 350 00:20:09,643 --> 00:20:10,818 [CLEARS THROAT] 351 00:20:21,307 --> 00:20:22,525 I didn'’t know you smoked. 352 00:20:22,569 --> 00:20:25,093 Yeah, we'’re not supposed to. 353 00:20:27,226 --> 00:20:28,792 Don'’t tell coach, okay? 354 00:20:28,836 --> 00:20:31,012 Don'’t worry, your secret'’s safe with me. 355 00:20:39,716 --> 00:20:40,891 Is it? 356 00:20:45,287 --> 00:20:46,419 Yeah. 357 00:21:08,484 --> 00:21:09,833 [GLASS BOTTLE CLATTERS] 358 00:21:09,877 --> 00:21:11,531 You jerk, where are you taking me? 359 00:21:21,889 --> 00:21:23,412 MARCIE: You kissed a football player? 360 00:21:23,456 --> 00:21:25,588 Mm-hmm. 361 00:21:25,632 --> 00:21:29,026 Uh, no, technically he'’s a running back. 362 00:21:29,070 --> 00:21:30,593 What'’s that? 363 00:21:30,637 --> 00:21:33,770 I don'’t know, actually. 364 00:21:33,814 --> 00:21:36,338 This is, like, the stuff dreams are made of. 365 00:21:36,382 --> 00:21:37,600 I know. 366 00:21:37,644 --> 00:21:39,080 How was the kiss? 367 00:21:39,123 --> 00:21:40,560 Can we not talk about this right now? 368 00:21:40,603 --> 00:21:42,301 You wanna go to my room and talk about this? 369 00:21:42,344 --> 00:21:44,520 Yeah, I want to talk about this. I want to talk about this. 370 00:21:44,564 --> 00:21:47,044 Warmer?Okay, come on. 371 00:21:47,088 --> 00:21:51,135 ANNOUNCER [OVER P.A.]: Second and ten on the 45-yard line. 372 00:21:51,179 --> 00:21:52,746 [EXCITED SHOUTING] 373 00:21:54,400 --> 00:21:56,706 Here we go, Cougars. Here we go. 374 00:21:57,968 --> 00:22:00,231 [CHEERING] 375 00:22:00,275 --> 00:22:02,625 Let'’s go, Cougars! 376 00:22:05,585 --> 00:22:07,369 Let'’s go... 377 00:22:07,413 --> 00:22:09,197 COACH: Do a good job, Chance. Let'’s go. 378 00:22:09,240 --> 00:22:11,547 JADIN: Come on, Chance! Go, number 5! 379 00:22:11,591 --> 00:22:13,462 Whoo! 380 00:22:16,160 --> 00:22:17,727 Whoo! 381 00:22:17,771 --> 00:22:20,121 Yeah! Whoo! 382 00:22:24,604 --> 00:22:27,694 Hey, Bell, did you forget your skirt? 383 00:22:29,435 --> 00:22:30,871 Whoo! 384 00:22:35,005 --> 00:22:36,355 Hey, ass bandit! 385 00:22:40,576 --> 00:22:41,838 Is that a boy down there? 386 00:22:41,882 --> 00:22:45,059 What the hell is the school thinking? 387 00:22:45,102 --> 00:22:46,277 PLAYER: Hike! 388 00:23:00,248 --> 00:23:01,728 ANNOUNCER: Touchdown, Cougars! 389 00:23:01,771 --> 00:23:03,120 [ALL CHEER] 390 00:23:15,306 --> 00:23:17,396 A 30-yard pass to number 40... 391 00:23:17,439 --> 00:23:20,050 CHEERLEADERS [CHANTING]: Let'’s go, Cougars! 392 00:23:20,094 --> 00:23:22,401 Let'’s go, Cougars! 393 00:23:23,532 --> 00:23:26,143 Let'’s go, Cougars!Whoo! 394 00:23:32,933 --> 00:23:34,717 [CELL PHONE VIBRATES] 395 00:23:36,110 --> 00:23:37,459 [HIP-HOP MUSIC PLAYING OVER PHONE] 396 00:24:04,138 --> 00:24:06,096 I saw what they said about you. 397 00:24:08,447 --> 00:24:10,274 Doesn'’t it bother you what people say? 398 00:24:13,887 --> 00:24:15,192 Words can'’t hurt me. 399 00:24:17,064 --> 00:24:20,328 I'’m tougher than I look, okay? 400 00:24:40,304 --> 00:24:41,697 JADIN: Look at these mountains. 401 00:24:41,741 --> 00:24:42,959 They'’re so steep. 402 00:24:43,003 --> 00:24:44,308 Yeah. 403 00:24:44,352 --> 00:24:47,007 If we had more time, we'’d hike them. 404 00:24:47,050 --> 00:24:48,574 You can see why I always wanted you 405 00:24:48,617 --> 00:24:50,401 to go hunting and fishing with me. 406 00:24:50,445 --> 00:24:52,839 Take you up there and get you away from everything down below. 407 00:24:52,882 --> 00:24:54,536 Yeah, real macho stuff. 408 00:24:54,580 --> 00:24:56,451 I was just trying to be a decent parent. 409 00:24:56,495 --> 00:24:57,931 I mean, I thought being out in the wild 410 00:24:57,974 --> 00:24:59,149 would help you be a man. 411 00:25:01,021 --> 00:25:03,197 What does that mean to you, "be a man"? I'’m just curious. 412 00:25:03,240 --> 00:25:05,373 I did the same thing for Joseph for the same reason, 413 00:25:05,416 --> 00:25:06,896 and he'’s not gay. 414 00:25:06,940 --> 00:25:09,420 It didn'’t matter to you what I was okay with, 415 00:25:09,464 --> 00:25:11,640 especially after you started your cheerleading thing. 416 00:25:11,684 --> 00:25:14,034 I mean, Dad, some men like cheerleading 417 00:25:14,077 --> 00:25:15,514 and some men like hiking. 418 00:25:15,557 --> 00:25:16,993 And I think if we'’re... 419 00:25:17,037 --> 00:25:18,821 I don'’t know, if we'’re being honest, 420 00:25:18,865 --> 00:25:21,563 you were never really okay with me cheerleading, were you? 421 00:25:21,607 --> 00:25:22,825 No, if we'’re being honest, 422 00:25:22,869 --> 00:25:24,218 if you thought you could handle it, 423 00:25:24,261 --> 00:25:25,436 I knew different. 424 00:25:27,613 --> 00:25:31,181 I mean, you saw me cheer, like, once? 425 00:25:31,225 --> 00:25:34,402 The one time you did, you left.What? 426 00:25:34,445 --> 00:25:36,447 People were calling me names and throwing stuff at me, 427 00:25:36,491 --> 00:25:38,232 and you got up and left.I was afraid for you. 428 00:25:38,275 --> 00:25:40,669 We were all afraid for you. 429 00:25:54,640 --> 00:25:58,034 LOLA [ON PHONE]: Well, I worked two shifts today. 430 00:26:00,254 --> 00:26:04,563 And then I came home to do some laundry, 431 00:26:04,606 --> 00:26:07,740 and the laundry machine finally just fucking died. 432 00:26:09,263 --> 00:26:10,656 But with a whole load of clothes in, 433 00:26:10,699 --> 00:26:12,483 it wouldn'’t drain. 434 00:26:12,527 --> 00:26:15,225 I mean, it was... it was such a mess. 435 00:26:15,269 --> 00:26:16,705 Well, I'’m sorry about all that, 436 00:26:16,749 --> 00:26:18,968 but there'’s not much I can do from out here. 437 00:26:19,012 --> 00:26:20,796 [LAUGHING] 438 00:26:22,363 --> 00:26:24,060 There'’s really not much you could do 439 00:26:24,104 --> 00:26:26,585 if you were standing right in front of me. 440 00:26:26,628 --> 00:26:28,282 [LAUGHING] 441 00:26:28,325 --> 00:26:29,588 [SIGHS] 442 00:26:29,631 --> 00:26:30,763 I'’m right about that. 443 00:26:31,938 --> 00:26:34,549 You know you should just call us 444 00:26:34,593 --> 00:26:38,901 at the same time every week, you know? 445 00:26:38,945 --> 00:26:42,775 Just set it so we know that we'’re gonna hear from you. 446 00:26:42,818 --> 00:26:45,516 Look, Lola... 447 00:26:45,560 --> 00:26:47,518 I'’m afraid for Joseph with you drinking again. 448 00:26:47,562 --> 00:26:50,478 I mean, I want to trust things are okay while I'’m gone, 449 00:26:50,521 --> 00:26:52,611 but you'’re damn near slurring every other word. 450 00:26:52,654 --> 00:26:54,917 Joseph doesn'’t need to see that.LOLA: Wait, what? Wait. 451 00:26:54,961 --> 00:26:56,615 What is-- What is-- What is so difficult 452 00:26:56,658 --> 00:26:57,877 about what I just asked? 453 00:26:57,920 --> 00:26:59,269 Well, I know that you drink a lot, 454 00:26:59,313 --> 00:27:01,054 and so does Marcie and Joseph. 455 00:27:01,097 --> 00:27:02,708 Can'’t you just stop with one damn drink? 456 00:27:02,751 --> 00:27:04,318 What, you gotta have five or ten of them? 457 00:27:04,361 --> 00:27:07,190 Joe, you'’re not here. 458 00:27:07,234 --> 00:27:10,411 You have no idea what'’s going on. 459 00:27:10,454 --> 00:27:12,152 No idea. 460 00:27:17,723 --> 00:27:19,638 So, what are you gonna do? You gonna go to bed? 461 00:27:19,681 --> 00:27:21,378 Oh, no, I dipped into our retirement savings 462 00:27:21,422 --> 00:27:22,945 so I could splurge on a presidential suite 463 00:27:22,989 --> 00:27:24,164 at the Bear River Inn. 464 00:27:30,431 --> 00:27:32,389 Right. 465 00:27:32,433 --> 00:27:35,044 Well, love you. 466 00:27:35,088 --> 00:27:36,263 I love you. 467 00:27:47,143 --> 00:27:50,059 Hey. Hey. 468 00:27:50,103 --> 00:27:51,321 What?Come here. 469 00:27:51,365 --> 00:27:52,714 What?It'’s gold! 470 00:27:52,758 --> 00:27:54,498 [LAUGHS] Gold, baby! 471 00:27:54,542 --> 00:27:56,152 JADIN: What?JOE: Whoo! 472 00:27:56,196 --> 00:27:59,242 Green gold, baby. Look at these bad boys. 473 00:27:59,286 --> 00:28:01,418 Look at the size of them. Huh? 474 00:28:01,462 --> 00:28:03,246 Is that asparagus?Oh, man. 475 00:28:03,290 --> 00:28:05,596 I'’m gonna grill them up on the fire, you are gonna love it. 476 00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:07,163 Ain'’t nothing better than wild asparagus. 477 00:28:07,207 --> 00:28:09,035 Oh, that smells so good.BOTH: Oh, yeah. 478 00:28:09,078 --> 00:28:10,732 That'’s the real deal right there, baby. 479 00:28:10,776 --> 00:28:13,430 JADIN: Yeah, man.JOE: This is green gold. Whoo! 480 00:28:23,005 --> 00:28:24,485 Nothing better. 481 00:28:24,528 --> 00:28:26,313 Right out of the ground. Taste that. 482 00:28:30,709 --> 00:28:32,362 That'’s so good. 483 00:28:32,406 --> 00:28:33,886 Give me more of that. You'’re hogging it. 484 00:28:33,929 --> 00:28:35,322 I haven'’t had a bite yet. 485 00:28:35,365 --> 00:28:37,019 [LAUGHS]What the heck? 486 00:28:37,063 --> 00:28:38,804 Here, get one.Just make sure it'’s cooked. 487 00:28:38,847 --> 00:28:40,153 I don'’t want you eating nothing raw. 488 00:28:44,113 --> 00:28:47,203 You know, this is the one thing you can cook. 489 00:28:56,386 --> 00:28:58,475 Did you ever wish that I wrestled? 490 00:28:58,519 --> 00:29:00,869 No. You didn'’t want to wrestle, you didn'’t have to wrestle. 491 00:29:02,349 --> 00:29:04,351 JADIN: Joseph'’s gotten really good. 492 00:29:04,394 --> 00:29:06,179 You know why'’s good at it?Why? 493 00:29:06,222 --> 00:29:07,746 Because he works hard at it. 494 00:29:07,789 --> 00:29:09,530 You put the time in... 495 00:29:10,879 --> 00:29:13,664 you get good at whatever you work hard at. 496 00:29:13,708 --> 00:29:15,014 That'’s all about sacrifice. 497 00:29:19,148 --> 00:29:20,671 Trying to get this one big one here. 498 00:29:22,978 --> 00:29:24,763 [♪♪] 499 00:29:32,553 --> 00:29:34,294 Whoo! 500 00:29:34,337 --> 00:29:35,904 Yeah, buddy! 501 00:29:40,953 --> 00:29:42,955 Let'’s go, Cougars, let'’s go! 502 00:29:42,998 --> 00:29:46,872 Let'’s go, Cougars, let's go! Come on! 503 00:29:46,915 --> 00:29:49,439 Come on. Come out here. It feels great. 504 00:29:49,483 --> 00:29:51,615 Let'’s go, Cougars, let's go! Argh. 505 00:29:52,791 --> 00:29:54,227 I will keep you up all night. 506 00:29:54,270 --> 00:29:56,446 Let'’s go, Cougars! Let'’s go! 507 00:29:56,490 --> 00:29:59,885 Let'’s go, grandpa. Come on. 508 00:29:59,928 --> 00:30:02,191 Let'’s go, Cougars! Let's go!! Argh! 509 00:30:02,235 --> 00:30:03,889 All right, show me again.All right, ready? 510 00:30:03,932 --> 00:30:05,586 Yeah.Watch. 511 00:30:05,629 --> 00:30:07,675 BOTH: Let'’s go, Cougars, let's go! 512 00:30:07,718 --> 00:30:09,416 Argh!Argh! 513 00:30:09,459 --> 00:30:11,200 [BOTH GROWLING AND LAUGHING] 514 00:30:17,772 --> 00:30:19,339 Whoo! 515 00:30:32,613 --> 00:30:34,006 [BREATHING HEAVILY] 516 00:30:40,012 --> 00:30:42,275 JADIN: How many yards did you rush for in last night'’s game? 517 00:30:42,318 --> 00:30:43,537 CHANCE: Uh... 518 00:30:43,580 --> 00:30:45,321 158. 519 00:30:50,239 --> 00:30:52,851 Is that a lot, or...? 520 00:30:56,332 --> 00:30:59,074 If you don'’t know, why are you asking? 521 00:30:59,118 --> 00:31:01,207 I want to know about your game. 522 00:31:01,250 --> 00:31:02,948 [LAUGHS] 523 00:31:02,991 --> 00:31:05,907 Um...yeah. 524 00:31:05,951 --> 00:31:08,301 Yeah, I mean, 158'’s pretty good. 525 00:31:08,344 --> 00:31:11,130 Um, it'’s below my average, though, but... 526 00:31:12,914 --> 00:31:15,917 you know, I don'’t need to be a star or anything. 527 00:31:15,961 --> 00:31:17,919 I just want to get into a small program 528 00:31:17,963 --> 00:31:19,399 and play football somewhere. 529 00:31:23,185 --> 00:31:25,187 Like where? 530 00:31:25,231 --> 00:31:26,754 Um... 531 00:31:26,797 --> 00:31:28,930 well, I'’m not really, you know, 532 00:31:28,974 --> 00:31:30,845 D-1 material. 533 00:31:30,889 --> 00:31:33,065 [BOTH LAUGH]But I don'’t know. 534 00:31:33,108 --> 00:31:35,371 Like Portland State, maybe? 535 00:31:35,415 --> 00:31:36,807 Maybe Eastern Washington. 536 00:31:40,550 --> 00:31:44,598 That'’s a long way away from where I'’ll be. 537 00:31:44,641 --> 00:31:46,992 Hmm. And where'’s that? 538 00:31:47,035 --> 00:31:48,210 New York. 539 00:31:50,996 --> 00:31:52,823 You know there'’s a lot of colleges in New York. 540 00:31:58,003 --> 00:31:59,526 And if you wanted to... 541 00:32:01,484 --> 00:32:02,659 I don'’t know, go east... 542 00:32:06,098 --> 00:32:08,056 we could go together. 543 00:32:08,100 --> 00:32:09,797 Or something. 544 00:32:16,499 --> 00:32:18,414 I don'’t know, Jadin. That'’s aiming pretty high. 545 00:32:24,855 --> 00:32:26,161 JADIN: He, uh... 546 00:32:27,249 --> 00:32:28,511 he got freaked out. 547 00:32:31,601 --> 00:32:33,168 He was afraid that he'’d get kicked out 548 00:32:33,212 --> 00:32:35,388 if his moron parents knew. 549 00:32:40,741 --> 00:32:42,961 Romantic relationships aren'’t everything, Jadin. 550 00:32:43,004 --> 00:32:45,267 They'’re not the solution to life. 551 00:32:45,311 --> 00:32:47,835 It was the solution to my life. 552 00:32:47,878 --> 00:32:50,751 My life, Dad. Not yours. Mine. 553 00:33:22,478 --> 00:33:23,740 [SIGHS] 554 00:33:28,963 --> 00:33:30,138 Nervous, huh? 555 00:33:30,182 --> 00:33:32,967 No. Why would I be nervous? 556 00:33:33,011 --> 00:33:34,751 What if somebody hits on you? 557 00:33:34,795 --> 00:33:36,362 Nobody'’s gonna hit on me. 558 00:33:36,405 --> 00:33:38,973 It'’s a gay bar, Dad. 559 00:33:39,017 --> 00:33:40,844 Somebody'’s gonna hit on you.How would you know? 560 00:33:40,888 --> 00:33:42,237 Ever been to a gay bar?No, but-- 561 00:33:42,281 --> 00:33:43,847 Have you ever been to a bar?JADIN: No. 562 00:33:43,891 --> 00:33:45,066 Okay, then. 563 00:33:45,110 --> 00:33:46,546 Also, it'’s drag night, 564 00:33:46,589 --> 00:33:47,808 so you better dance. 565 00:33:47,851 --> 00:33:49,418 I don'’t dance. 566 00:33:49,462 --> 00:33:52,378 I cannot wait to see my dad, the magnificent Joe Bell, 567 00:33:52,421 --> 00:33:54,423 working it with some fierce lady queens. 568 00:33:54,467 --> 00:33:56,295 That'’s not gonna happen. You'’re staying here. 569 00:33:56,338 --> 00:33:57,948 Okay, well, at least say hi to Cher for me. 570 00:33:57,992 --> 00:33:59,733 Cher?Mm-hmm. There'’s always a Cher. 571 00:33:59,776 --> 00:34:01,213 It'’s a given.How would you know? 572 00:34:01,256 --> 00:34:03,345 JADIN: Because. It'’s a given. 573 00:34:03,389 --> 00:34:05,347 And if she flirts with you, try not to be mean. 574 00:34:05,391 --> 00:34:07,045 Why would I be mean? 575 00:34:07,088 --> 00:34:08,872 I mean, who the hell do you think I am? 576 00:34:08,916 --> 00:34:10,222 Would you flirt back? 577 00:34:10,265 --> 00:34:11,875 No, I would not, Jadin.JADIN: Why not? 578 00:34:11,919 --> 00:34:14,095 Because.Because why? 579 00:34:14,139 --> 00:34:16,097 Because Cher'’s not my type. 580 00:34:16,141 --> 00:34:18,056 Now, if Dolly'’s there...JADIN: No. 581 00:34:18,099 --> 00:34:20,188 ...I'’m gonna motorboat them big-ass titties. 582 00:34:20,232 --> 00:34:22,060 [LAUGHS] 583 00:34:22,103 --> 00:34:24,323 You are disgusting. 584 00:34:24,366 --> 00:34:26,064 [SIGHS] 585 00:34:26,107 --> 00:34:28,631 Dad...What? 586 00:34:28,675 --> 00:34:31,156 Relax. You got this. 587 00:34:31,199 --> 00:34:32,418 [SIGHS] 588 00:34:32,461 --> 00:34:34,376 You know that'’s my job. 589 00:34:34,420 --> 00:34:35,725 To reassure you. 590 00:34:37,597 --> 00:34:39,164 Yeah, I wish I could go with you. 591 00:34:39,207 --> 00:34:40,730 Yeah, well, so do I. 592 00:34:44,343 --> 00:34:45,909 Well, wish me luck. 593 00:34:45,953 --> 00:34:47,694 Good luck.Give me a hug. 594 00:34:47,737 --> 00:34:48,912 All right. 595 00:34:56,224 --> 00:34:58,444 How do I look? 596 00:34:58,487 --> 00:35:00,098 Pants tight enough but not too tight? 597 00:35:00,141 --> 00:35:02,230 Oh, God, Dad!I'’m gonna keep the flaps down. 598 00:35:02,274 --> 00:35:04,319 Stop buying the time. Get out of here. 599 00:35:04,363 --> 00:35:05,581 Go. Good luck.Bye. 600 00:35:05,625 --> 00:35:06,800 Bye. 601 00:35:10,934 --> 00:35:13,023 [LOUD MUSIC PLAYING][INDISTINCT CHATTER] 602 00:35:33,261 --> 00:35:36,046 Our folks are deeply religious. 603 00:35:36,090 --> 00:35:39,267 I was 15, and I was a deacon at our church. 604 00:35:39,311 --> 00:35:42,096 I was sitting at church with my family, 605 00:35:42,140 --> 00:35:45,360 and the sermon that day was on sins against God. 606 00:35:45,404 --> 00:35:49,495 And when he said, "gays are going to hell," 607 00:35:49,538 --> 00:35:52,193 I couldn'’t take it anymore. 608 00:35:52,237 --> 00:35:55,762 I got up and I-I-I went to leave, 609 00:35:55,805 --> 00:35:57,981 and my mom stopped me and she said, "Where are you going?" 610 00:35:58,025 --> 00:36:00,462 And I turned and I said "To hell, apparently." 611 00:36:00,506 --> 00:36:01,724 [LAUGHS] 612 00:36:03,073 --> 00:36:04,466 [CHUCKLING] 613 00:36:04,510 --> 00:36:06,425 It'’s seems funny now, but--It was funny. 614 00:36:08,296 --> 00:36:11,212 At the time it was like an avalanche had hit. 615 00:36:11,256 --> 00:36:14,650 My entire life was hell. 616 00:36:17,000 --> 00:36:19,786 It'’s hard to stand strong 617 00:36:19,829 --> 00:36:23,224 in places where there are more churches than there are gays. 618 00:36:23,268 --> 00:36:25,661 Churches, man. Don'’t even get me started. 619 00:36:25,705 --> 00:36:27,881 Jadin went to church with a friend of his one Sunday. 620 00:36:27,924 --> 00:36:29,535 I mean, he was hoping he'’d make some friends 621 00:36:29,578 --> 00:36:31,319 and find a place where people would be kind. 622 00:36:31,363 --> 00:36:33,582 During the service, the pastor singled him out and said, 623 00:36:33,626 --> 00:36:35,976 "If you are gay, you must come up here to the altar 624 00:36:36,019 --> 00:36:38,544 and repent your sins, or leave." 625 00:36:38,587 --> 00:36:41,242 Jaden told us it made him feel horrible, like he didn'’t belong. 626 00:36:41,286 --> 00:36:43,723 You got them Catholic Church taking child molesting priests, 627 00:36:43,766 --> 00:36:45,638 they move them from one church to another 628 00:36:45,681 --> 00:36:47,901 so they can molest other boys, and they won'’t accept my son 629 00:36:47,944 --> 00:36:49,729 because he'’s openly gay? I mean, the idea is 630 00:36:49,772 --> 00:36:53,036 you'’re supposed to worship the guy who died to build it, 631 00:36:53,080 --> 00:36:54,908 not the frigging assholes in there 632 00:36:54,951 --> 00:36:56,736 that are judging everybody doing God knows what 633 00:36:56,779 --> 00:36:58,999 behind closed doors.WILL: It'’s true. 634 00:37:00,566 --> 00:37:02,568 People think it'’s easier these days. 635 00:37:02,611 --> 00:37:05,266 But everyone in this bar knows that'’s not necessarily true. 636 00:37:05,310 --> 00:37:07,355 That'’s why they come here. 637 00:37:07,399 --> 00:37:10,576 This place is like a church too. 638 00:37:10,619 --> 00:37:12,186 I think it'’s amazing. 639 00:37:12,230 --> 00:37:13,709 Hi, darlings. 640 00:37:13,753 --> 00:37:15,320 It'’s almost showtime again. 641 00:37:15,363 --> 00:37:17,713 Oh, my God, who is this? 642 00:37:17,757 --> 00:37:19,976 Don'’t make me introduce myself. 643 00:37:20,020 --> 00:37:22,109 This is Joe Bell. 644 00:37:22,152 --> 00:37:25,068 Where have you been all my life? 645 00:37:26,505 --> 00:37:27,810 He'’s just visiting.Oh, perfect. 646 00:37:27,854 --> 00:37:29,725 Well, if you need a place to crash, 647 00:37:29,769 --> 00:37:31,379 there'’s room on my couch. 648 00:37:31,423 --> 00:37:33,860 [LAUGHS] Or my bed. 649 00:37:33,903 --> 00:37:36,254 Oh, I'’m, uh... 650 00:37:36,297 --> 00:37:37,907 I'’m-- I'm-- Well... 651 00:37:37,951 --> 00:37:41,433 I'’m not-- I mean, I am a straight guy. 652 00:37:41,476 --> 00:37:43,130 I didn'’t know if you were serious or not. 653 00:37:43,173 --> 00:37:45,263 Joe'’s walking across the country to raise awareness 654 00:37:45,306 --> 00:37:48,527 about bullying, because his son was bullied. 655 00:37:48,570 --> 00:37:50,311 Well, why didn'’t you bring him? 656 00:37:50,355 --> 00:37:53,096 Especially if he'’s as cute as you are. 657 00:37:53,140 --> 00:37:55,708 Is he as cute as you, Daddy? 658 00:37:55,751 --> 00:37:57,275 [LAUGHS] 659 00:37:58,363 --> 00:38:01,104 Um...my son is dead. 660 00:38:05,195 --> 00:38:06,371 DRAG QUEEN: Oh, my God. 661 00:38:06,414 --> 00:38:08,503 Oh, my God, I had no idea. 662 00:38:08,547 --> 00:38:10,636 I'’m-- I'm so sorry.JOE: It'’s all good. Really. 663 00:38:10,679 --> 00:38:12,681 DRAG QUEEN: Let me take my foot out of my mouth. 664 00:38:12,725 --> 00:38:14,030 I'’m so sorry, I--No, no, no, I... 665 00:38:14,074 --> 00:38:15,684 I had no idea.It'’s all good. 666 00:38:15,728 --> 00:38:17,599 DRAG QUEEN: No, it'’s-- It's not. 667 00:38:17,643 --> 00:38:20,950 I really didn'’t know, and now I'’ve got to perform again. 668 00:38:20,994 --> 00:38:22,909 Hey, hey. I'’m okay.I'’m so sorry. 669 00:38:22,952 --> 00:38:24,737 [MUSIC PLAYS][APPLAUSE] 670 00:38:26,478 --> 00:38:29,350 Honey, I'’m gonna grab you another beer. 671 00:38:29,394 --> 00:38:33,659 ♪ Think of your fellow man Lend him a helping hand ♪ 672 00:38:33,702 --> 00:38:37,706 ♪ Put a little love In your heart ♪ 673 00:38:37,750 --> 00:38:40,361 ♪ You see, it'’s getting late ♪ 674 00:38:40,405 --> 00:38:42,885 ♪ Oh, please don'’t hesitate ♪ 675 00:38:42,929 --> 00:38:46,498 ♪ Put a little love In your heart ♪ 676 00:38:46,541 --> 00:38:47,890 ♪ And the world 677 00:38:47,934 --> 00:38:49,718 [♪♪] 678 00:39:46,514 --> 00:39:48,255 [GRUNTING] 679 00:40:45,573 --> 00:40:47,662 [PHONE RINGS] 680 00:40:47,706 --> 00:40:49,098 [SIGHS] 681 00:40:49,142 --> 00:40:50,796 Hey, honey. 682 00:40:50,839 --> 00:40:53,494 LOLA [ON PHONE]: You in Steamboat Springs? 683 00:40:53,538 --> 00:40:55,714 Oh, my GPS must be working again. 684 00:40:55,757 --> 00:40:57,367 [GROANS] 685 00:40:57,411 --> 00:40:59,500 It'’s been a hell of a walk through Colorado. 686 00:40:59,544 --> 00:41:02,721 You gotta call us, you know, 687 00:41:02,764 --> 00:41:04,853 when you'’re going through all those storms. 688 00:41:04,897 --> 00:41:07,334 It'’s crazy.What, are you worried? 689 00:41:07,377 --> 00:41:09,292 Well, don'’t be. That storm went way south of me. 690 00:41:09,336 --> 00:41:10,816 I only caught the tail end of it. 691 00:41:10,859 --> 00:41:14,123 Yeah, well, still just call us. 692 00:41:14,167 --> 00:41:16,169 Okay. Hey, hold on a second. 693 00:41:18,301 --> 00:41:19,999 JOSEPH [ON PHONE]: Hey, Dad.Hey, buddy. 694 00:41:20,042 --> 00:41:21,957 See you got 12,000 followers. 695 00:41:22,001 --> 00:41:23,437 How'’s the man of the house? 696 00:41:23,481 --> 00:41:25,395 Good. You know we'’re good. 697 00:41:25,439 --> 00:41:27,572 Wrestling practice is really good. 698 00:41:27,615 --> 00:41:30,488 Coach filmed a few of them.Well, I can'’t wait to see them. 699 00:41:30,531 --> 00:41:32,751 Yeah, hey, Dad, 700 00:41:32,794 --> 00:41:36,450 what would you think about me and Mom coming to visit you? 701 00:41:36,494 --> 00:41:38,626 Out on the road. I mean, not on the road, 702 00:41:38,670 --> 00:41:42,717 but maybe in a motel or a hotel, even? 703 00:41:42,761 --> 00:41:45,546 Well, I can'’t think of anything I'’d like better. 704 00:41:45,590 --> 00:41:47,548 Your mom okay with it? 705 00:41:47,592 --> 00:41:49,768 Mom? Yeah. She'’s okay with it. 706 00:41:49,811 --> 00:41:51,073 All right. 707 00:41:51,117 --> 00:41:52,771 Let me talk to your mom. 708 00:41:52,814 --> 00:41:53,989 Oh, shit. 709 00:41:59,429 --> 00:42:01,301 LOLA: Okay, give me the phone back. 710 00:42:01,344 --> 00:42:02,911 You coming to see me? 711 00:42:02,955 --> 00:42:04,739 All right, yeah, we'’ll talk about it. 712 00:42:04,783 --> 00:42:07,699 All right. Hurry. 713 00:42:07,742 --> 00:42:09,309 All right. Love you, bye. 714 00:42:15,794 --> 00:42:17,709 Oh, shit. 715 00:42:17,752 --> 00:42:19,362 [SIGHS] 716 00:42:22,191 --> 00:42:23,802 LOLA: Well, it'’s starting to snow. 717 00:42:23,845 --> 00:42:25,760 JOSEPH: Maybe we could, uh, 718 00:42:25,804 --> 00:42:27,283 get out and do some snowboarding later. 719 00:42:27,327 --> 00:42:28,502 LOLA: There he is. 720 00:42:32,854 --> 00:42:34,769 Hey, hey!JOSEPH: Hey, Dad. 721 00:42:34,813 --> 00:42:36,945 My God, son, it'’s only been a few months. 722 00:42:36,989 --> 00:42:38,556 You'’re as tall as me Missed you, buddy. 723 00:42:38,599 --> 00:42:40,296 I missed you too, Dad.Hey. 724 00:42:40,340 --> 00:42:42,516 Hi. Saw you spit that dip out. 725 00:42:42,560 --> 00:42:44,387 Oh, no, that'’s just for walking. 726 00:42:44,431 --> 00:42:46,520 [LAUGHING] Mm-hmm.You smell so good. 727 00:42:47,956 --> 00:42:50,089 How are you doing?JOSEPH: So I, uh... 728 00:42:50,132 --> 00:42:52,570 I brought my wrestling tapes.Good. We'’ll watch them tonight. 729 00:42:52,613 --> 00:42:54,615 I'’ve booked us a surprise adventure for the afternoon. 730 00:42:54,659 --> 00:42:56,225 We have 15 minutes.LOLA: Oh, all right. 731 00:42:56,269 --> 00:42:57,879 Is it snowboarding?JOE: No, no, no. 732 00:42:57,923 --> 00:43:00,273 You'’re gonna love it, I promise. All right? 733 00:43:00,316 --> 00:43:01,840 All right, I got this.How was the drive? 734 00:43:01,883 --> 00:43:03,189 LOLA: Not bad.Oh, good. 735 00:43:03,232 --> 00:43:04,538 Come on. 736 00:43:04,582 --> 00:43:06,671 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 737 00:43:09,064 --> 00:43:10,544 [APPLAUSE] 738 00:43:13,068 --> 00:43:15,941 ♪ Waiting on the sunshine 739 00:43:19,118 --> 00:43:21,468 ♪ To come around again 740 00:43:25,559 --> 00:43:27,909 ♪ It'’s been a long time ♪ 741 00:43:32,392 --> 00:43:33,567 ♪ Since we let it in 742 00:43:35,482 --> 00:43:37,049 ♪ Take me down 743 00:43:41,096 --> 00:43:43,142 ♪ To the fault line 744 00:43:47,233 --> 00:43:49,975 ♪ Take me down 745 00:43:52,804 --> 00:43:54,588 ♪ Where the river starts 746 00:44:03,292 --> 00:44:05,251 ♪ Take me into your heart 747 00:44:05,294 --> 00:44:07,427 I gotta take you on a mechanical bull so you can practice. 748 00:44:07,470 --> 00:44:09,255 I'’m telling you, I think you can beat the record. 749 00:44:12,214 --> 00:44:13,694 Excuse me. 750 00:44:13,738 --> 00:44:15,565 Excuse me, aren'’t...? 751 00:44:15,609 --> 00:44:17,524 aren'’t you that fella that'’s walking across America? 752 00:44:17,567 --> 00:44:18,743 I am. 753 00:44:18,786 --> 00:44:20,179 Sir, it is a pleasure to meet you. 754 00:44:20,222 --> 00:44:22,094 Dad'’s a celebrity.MAN: This is my wife. 755 00:44:22,137 --> 00:44:24,836 So nice to meet you. 756 00:44:24,879 --> 00:44:27,447 Hi, I'’m...I'm his wife. 757 00:44:27,490 --> 00:44:29,014 And Jadin'’s mom.WOMAN: Nice to meet you. 758 00:44:29,057 --> 00:44:31,451 And this is our son, Joseph.Hi, I'’m Joseph. 759 00:44:31,494 --> 00:44:33,801 WOMAN: Hi, Joseph.MAN: I think it'’s incredible 760 00:44:33,845 --> 00:44:36,412 what you'’re doing for your son.WOMAN: Yes. 761 00:44:36,456 --> 00:44:38,719 Takes real courage to stick up for what you believe in. 762 00:44:38,763 --> 00:44:40,895 Well, it'’s got to be done. This can'’t go on. 763 00:44:40,939 --> 00:44:42,680 WOMAN: Yes.MAN: Would you mind 764 00:44:42,723 --> 00:44:44,638 if we got our picture with you? 765 00:44:44,682 --> 00:44:47,772 Sure. Absolutely.WOMAN: Yes. Thank you. 766 00:44:47,815 --> 00:44:49,338 Honey, take the picture. 767 00:44:49,382 --> 00:44:51,340 Oh. Okay. 768 00:44:51,384 --> 00:44:52,733 MAN: Thank you.WOMAN: Thank you. 769 00:44:54,996 --> 00:44:56,868 [CAMERA CLICKS] 770 00:44:56,911 --> 00:44:59,087 JOE: That'’s real good work.JOSEPH: I'’m getting faster. 771 00:44:59,131 --> 00:45:00,828 JOE: You see how much leverage you got on him? 772 00:45:00,872 --> 00:45:02,090 He ain'’t going nowhere. 773 00:45:02,134 --> 00:45:04,049 That'’s good. 774 00:45:04,092 --> 00:45:05,659 That'’s real good. 775 00:45:08,096 --> 00:45:11,099 You seen this?Yeah. 776 00:45:11,143 --> 00:45:12,492 I was there when it happened. 777 00:45:12,535 --> 00:45:13,972 He'’s got some pretty decent takedowns, 778 00:45:14,015 --> 00:45:15,669 but these transitions are a lot more fluid. 779 00:45:15,713 --> 00:45:16,931 What'’s coach saying? 780 00:45:16,975 --> 00:45:18,585 Coach is saying I'’m doing good. 781 00:45:18,628 --> 00:45:20,369 You know, he'’s...Well, I'’m seeing right here. 782 00:45:20,413 --> 00:45:23,024 We'’ve been working out, but he says I might want 783 00:45:23,068 --> 00:45:24,809 to look into losing a few pounds. 784 00:45:24,852 --> 00:45:27,725 What? This boy'’s just growing. No, no, no, no, no. 785 00:45:27,768 --> 00:45:30,466 You go up a couple pounds. Go up another weight class. 786 00:45:30,510 --> 00:45:32,425 LOLA: Brush your teeth.Tell the coach what I said. 787 00:45:32,468 --> 00:45:33,818 All right.Make sure you tell coach. 788 00:45:33,861 --> 00:45:35,341 We got an early morning tomorrow, okay? 789 00:45:35,384 --> 00:45:36,821 Okay.Hey, hey, hey, hey. 790 00:45:36,864 --> 00:45:38,779 "Hey, hey, hey."[DOOR CLOSES] 791 00:45:38,823 --> 00:45:41,434 Get him to bed so I can get you to bed. 792 00:45:41,477 --> 00:45:43,175 I'’m trying. You wanna help me? 793 00:45:43,218 --> 00:45:45,046 I'’m just... 794 00:45:45,090 --> 00:45:46,918 I can'’t believe how much he'’s improved. 795 00:45:46,961 --> 00:45:48,136 LOLA: I know. Isn'’t it great? 796 00:45:52,010 --> 00:45:53,315 I found this. 797 00:45:53,359 --> 00:45:55,187 I thought you might like to see it. 798 00:45:55,230 --> 00:45:56,536 What'’s that? 799 00:45:56,579 --> 00:45:58,233 Uh, well... 800 00:45:58,277 --> 00:45:59,452 Let me see. 801 00:46:13,379 --> 00:46:14,597 Where'’d this come from? 802 00:46:14,641 --> 00:46:17,035 It was on his grave, in some flowers. 803 00:46:17,078 --> 00:46:18,863 One of them little shits that bullied my boy 804 00:46:18,906 --> 00:46:21,082 into the ground had the nerve to stand over his grave? 805 00:46:21,126 --> 00:46:23,128 Well, Joe--Why? 806 00:46:23,171 --> 00:46:25,217 And now he wants to apologize? 807 00:46:25,260 --> 00:46:27,001 Who'’s this for? 808 00:46:27,045 --> 00:46:28,916 It'’s not for Jadin, because he'’s dead and buried. 809 00:46:28,960 --> 00:46:30,178 And not for me. 810 00:46:30,222 --> 00:46:31,832 What am I supposed to do with this, Lola? 811 00:46:31,876 --> 00:46:33,791 I don'’t know I thought you'’d like to see it, Joe. 812 00:46:33,834 --> 00:46:36,054 I shouldn'’t have brought it.No, don'’t keep secrets from me. 813 00:46:36,097 --> 00:46:37,969 Don'’t even threaten that.I'’m not keeping secrets. 814 00:46:38,012 --> 00:46:39,884 I'’m out here on my own, no money, alone, all right? 815 00:46:39,927 --> 00:46:42,538 No, the truth is all I have. Shit! 816 00:46:42,582 --> 00:46:44,584 Well...That little son of a bitch. 817 00:46:44,627 --> 00:46:48,370 ...you'’re...you're on a walk for forgiveness, right? 818 00:46:48,414 --> 00:46:49,850 For... 819 00:46:49,894 --> 00:46:51,896 There'’s no apologies with me, okay? 820 00:46:51,939 --> 00:46:54,594 There is no forgiveness here. They buried that with my boy. 821 00:46:54,637 --> 00:46:56,552 Do you understand that, Lola? 822 00:46:58,293 --> 00:46:59,729 I should not have brought that letter. 823 00:46:59,773 --> 00:47:01,731 Lola...what? 824 00:47:01,775 --> 00:47:04,169 It'’s all yours, Dad.JOE: Those sons of bitches. 825 00:47:04,212 --> 00:47:05,997 Fucking kidding me.LOLA: Don'’t worry about it. 826 00:47:06,040 --> 00:47:07,825 Don'’t think about it then, Joe. 827 00:47:09,522 --> 00:47:13,091 Son of a bitch, Joseph, get your ass in here now! 828 00:47:13,134 --> 00:47:15,484 Did you hear what the fuck I said? Now! 829 00:47:15,528 --> 00:47:17,573 You see what you'’ve done? Look! 830 00:47:17,617 --> 00:47:19,314 How many times have I told you, huh? 831 00:47:19,358 --> 00:47:21,360 How many times to put the seat up when you take a piss? 832 00:47:21,403 --> 00:47:23,188 LOLA: Joe!A hundred? A thousand? 833 00:47:23,231 --> 00:47:25,146 Nobody'’s fucking talking to you. Shut the fuck up. 834 00:47:25,190 --> 00:47:26,626 What do you think, I'’m your maid? 835 00:47:26,669 --> 00:47:27,932 Hey! Just stop! 836 00:47:40,901 --> 00:47:42,729 LOLA: Jesus Christ. 837 00:47:44,165 --> 00:47:45,732 [SIGHS] 838 00:48:07,972 --> 00:48:09,538 Hey. 839 00:48:09,582 --> 00:48:12,585 What I saw in those practice films was damn good, son. 840 00:48:12,628 --> 00:48:15,631 You keep it up, you'’ll be state champ by the time I get back. 841 00:48:18,199 --> 00:48:19,374 I love you. 842 00:48:21,768 --> 00:48:22,900 Did you hear me? 843 00:48:28,122 --> 00:48:31,343 Yeah. Take care, Dad. 844 00:48:32,605 --> 00:48:33,780 And what else? 845 00:48:37,001 --> 00:48:38,437 I love you too. 846 00:48:43,355 --> 00:48:44,965 Hey.Hey. 847 00:48:45,009 --> 00:48:46,880 So I'’ll see you in Illinois, or maybe even before. 848 00:48:48,577 --> 00:48:49,752 Yeah. We'’ll see. 849 00:48:51,406 --> 00:48:53,495 Well, I thought that was the plan, Lola. 850 00:48:55,410 --> 00:48:56,803 We talked about this. Lola, don'’t-- 851 00:48:56,846 --> 00:48:59,240 Joe, don'’t you. Don't. 852 00:49:02,765 --> 00:49:04,376 What are you doing out here? 853 00:49:04,419 --> 00:49:06,726 Because we'’ve supported you every step of the way, 854 00:49:06,769 --> 00:49:08,989 because we know what'’s right for you. 855 00:49:09,033 --> 00:49:11,861 But you'’re supposed to be on some forgiveness walk? 856 00:49:11,905 --> 00:49:14,473 And you act the way you acted last night. 857 00:49:18,825 --> 00:49:22,568 Our son is gone, Joe. Gone. 858 00:49:25,832 --> 00:49:28,487 You'’re gonna lose another one, 859 00:49:28,530 --> 00:49:30,706 because we'’re not gonna sit around waiting 860 00:49:30,750 --> 00:49:32,012 for another one of your outbursts. 861 00:49:32,056 --> 00:49:33,274 Lola--It'’s not gonna happen. 862 00:49:33,318 --> 00:49:34,884 Lola, I--No, no, no, no, no. 863 00:49:34,928 --> 00:49:38,453 Keep walking. Keep walking. Don'’t come home. 864 00:49:38,497 --> 00:49:42,892 Okay? Don'’t come home till you figure out whatever it is 865 00:49:42,936 --> 00:49:44,285 that you need to figure out. 866 00:49:44,329 --> 00:49:46,418 But I hope that'’s not you being some 867 00:49:46,461 --> 00:49:49,377 Facebook celebrity and getting your pictures taken with people. 868 00:49:52,380 --> 00:49:54,121 Are you walking for Jadin, Joe? 869 00:49:55,775 --> 00:49:57,646 Because if you'’re walking for Jadin, 870 00:49:57,690 --> 00:49:59,997 then you let Jadin let you know when it'’s time to come home. 871 00:50:03,043 --> 00:50:04,653 I love you, Lola. 872 00:50:06,046 --> 00:50:08,483 [CAR DOOR CLOSES] 873 00:50:08,527 --> 00:50:11,138 You guys drive safe, okay? I love you. 874 00:50:11,182 --> 00:50:13,358 LOLA: Be safe. 875 00:50:17,536 --> 00:50:20,408 [CAR ENGINE STARTS]Be careful, all right? 876 00:50:26,806 --> 00:50:29,156 ♪ Goodbye, darkness 877 00:50:29,200 --> 00:50:33,508 ♪ Oh, to the light 878 00:50:33,552 --> 00:50:35,597 ♪ Every morning 879 00:50:35,641 --> 00:50:38,470 ♪ Is an end to a night 880 00:50:40,689 --> 00:50:46,043 ♪ Every season Is about to bring a change ♪ 881 00:50:47,957 --> 00:50:53,137 ♪ There'’s a new chance given Every day ♪ 882 00:50:53,180 --> 00:50:56,792 ♪ And it brings it back to 883 00:50:59,839 --> 00:51:04,844 ♪ Yeah, it brings it Back to me ♪ 884 00:51:14,810 --> 00:51:16,290 JOE: Hey. 885 00:51:18,075 --> 00:51:19,554 Goddamn it! 886 00:51:23,645 --> 00:51:25,647 Who in the fuck--? 887 00:51:25,691 --> 00:51:27,562 Fucking shit! 888 00:51:48,931 --> 00:51:51,238 ♪ Goodbye, evening 889 00:51:51,282 --> 00:51:54,285 ♪ Hello to the night 890 00:51:56,504 --> 00:52:01,030 ♪ I'’m not seeing the wrong From the right ♪ 891 00:52:03,337 --> 00:52:07,907 ♪ Walking blindly On a path without an end ♪ 892 00:52:10,214 --> 00:52:14,957 ♪ In the morning Come to me yet again ♪ 893 00:52:15,001 --> 00:52:19,658 ♪ Then bring it all Back to me ♪ 894 00:52:22,095 --> 00:52:27,144 ♪ Yeah, it brings it All back to me ♪ 895 00:52:37,458 --> 00:52:38,851 [PHONE RINGS] 896 00:52:45,292 --> 00:52:46,946 Hello?LOLA [ON PHONE]: Hey. 897 00:52:46,989 --> 00:52:48,861 Hey. 898 00:52:48,904 --> 00:52:52,865 So I found something, 899 00:52:52,908 --> 00:52:55,302 and I want you to hear it, okay? 900 00:52:55,346 --> 00:52:58,087 I found it in his backpack, 901 00:52:58,131 --> 00:52:59,915 and I wanted to--Well, what is it? 902 00:52:59,959 --> 00:53:01,439 Can you read it to me? 903 00:53:01,482 --> 00:53:03,092 Yeah. Yeah. It'’s, uh... 904 00:53:04,485 --> 00:53:08,054 it'’s an essay that he wrote. 905 00:53:11,927 --> 00:53:13,407 "It'’s a horrible thing to be surrounded 906 00:53:13,451 --> 00:53:16,236 "by people who hate you 907 00:53:16,280 --> 00:53:18,847 "when they don'’t even know you, 908 00:53:18,891 --> 00:53:20,849 "for a reason you can'’t change. 909 00:53:22,416 --> 00:53:24,940 "One they can'’t comprehend or understand. 910 00:53:26,899 --> 00:53:28,292 "This is the life I live. 911 00:53:30,598 --> 00:53:32,252 "Some nights, I look for the pieces 912 00:53:32,296 --> 00:53:33,514 "I'’ve dropped along the way. 913 00:53:35,995 --> 00:53:38,693 "On these nights, I cry myself to sleep 914 00:53:38,737 --> 00:53:41,087 "and hope tomorrow is a better day. 915 00:53:41,130 --> 00:53:42,436 "But it never is. 916 00:53:44,395 --> 00:53:46,962 "Every year, I look forward to school starting again, 917 00:53:47,006 --> 00:53:50,270 "but it never turns out the way I expect it to. 918 00:53:50,314 --> 00:53:54,231 "I pretend not to notice the looks I'’m given. 919 00:53:54,274 --> 00:53:58,322 "Avoiding eye contact with every guy bigger than me. 920 00:53:58,365 --> 00:54:00,498 "I'’m surrounded by people who hate me. 921 00:54:00,541 --> 00:54:02,500 "Who want me dead. 922 00:54:04,284 --> 00:54:07,156 "I can'’t keep talking myself out of it. 923 00:54:07,200 --> 00:54:09,724 "I don'’t know what I'm gonna do if I don'’t. 924 00:54:09,768 --> 00:54:14,686 "It'’s only getting worse. I just want it to be over. 925 00:54:14,729 --> 00:54:17,254 It will be soon enough." 926 00:54:18,733 --> 00:54:20,300 [WHISPERS] Don'’t fucking look at us, fag. 927 00:54:23,825 --> 00:54:26,524 What are you doing in here? Girl'’s bathroom's over there. 928 00:54:26,567 --> 00:54:29,178 Come hang out with us. 929 00:54:29,222 --> 00:54:31,703 BOY 1: What the fuck did we say about looking at us? 930 00:54:31,746 --> 00:54:33,922 BOY 2: All he wants to do is watch us change. 931 00:54:33,966 --> 00:54:37,274 He'’s shaking, he wants it so bad. 932 00:54:37,317 --> 00:54:39,972 BOY 3: Look at him shake.Stop. Stop. Stop. 933 00:54:40,015 --> 00:54:43,323 It'’s okay. It's okay. It'’s okay. It's okay. 934 00:54:43,367 --> 00:54:46,283 Let me ask you something. 935 00:54:46,326 --> 00:54:49,068 You like dick?[BOYS LAUGH] 936 00:54:49,111 --> 00:54:50,548 Huh? Answer me. 937 00:54:50,591 --> 00:54:53,986 BOY: I think he does.You like fucking dicks. 938 00:54:54,029 --> 00:54:55,292 I'’ll give you dick. 939 00:54:58,207 --> 00:54:59,426 Stop, stop. 940 00:54:59,470 --> 00:55:01,646 It'’s okay, it's okay. 941 00:55:03,691 --> 00:55:06,128 Fuck it. You like fucking dick? 942 00:55:06,172 --> 00:55:08,696 Fucking dick? You like fucking dick! 943 00:55:08,740 --> 00:55:11,046 [ALL SHOUTING] 944 00:55:13,179 --> 00:55:15,834 You like that? You like that? Huh? 945 00:55:15,877 --> 00:55:17,749 [LAUGHS] 946 00:55:21,230 --> 00:55:23,537 LOLA: Can we even give you the names of the boys? 947 00:55:23,581 --> 00:55:25,713 MRS. SWIFT: No, no, no, no. No names. 948 00:55:27,889 --> 00:55:29,326 Have you considered changing schools? 949 00:55:32,024 --> 00:55:34,026 JOE: Yeah. We applied to another high school. 950 00:55:34,069 --> 00:55:36,115 We were out of their district, so they rejected him. 951 00:55:38,204 --> 00:55:40,380 What about therapy? 952 00:55:40,424 --> 00:55:45,429 We did, um, a few sessions of, uh, family therapy. 953 00:55:45,472 --> 00:55:47,561 And I don'’t need therapy. They do. 954 00:55:47,605 --> 00:55:50,912 Jadin, I hear what you'’re saying. 955 00:55:52,436 --> 00:55:53,785 You don'’t think the situation 956 00:55:53,828 --> 00:55:55,221 might settle itself down on its own? 957 00:55:55,264 --> 00:55:56,396 No, I don'’t. 958 00:55:59,094 --> 00:56:00,748 Okay. 959 00:56:00,792 --> 00:56:02,402 [SIGHS] Mr. and Mrs. Bell, 960 00:56:02,446 --> 00:56:05,013 I'’m not saying it was acceptable behavior 961 00:56:05,057 --> 00:56:07,581 on the part of the other students, because it wasn'’t, 962 00:56:07,625 --> 00:56:09,670 but we live in a very small town, 963 00:56:09,714 --> 00:56:11,019 and the high school student body 964 00:56:11,063 --> 00:56:14,109 is a reflection of our community. 965 00:56:14,153 --> 00:56:16,677 If you file a formal complaint against these boys, 966 00:56:16,721 --> 00:56:19,593 it may very well cause you more trouble in the long run 967 00:56:19,637 --> 00:56:20,812 than it'’s worth. 968 00:56:24,076 --> 00:56:25,512 You don'’t know what it'’s like... 969 00:56:27,819 --> 00:56:29,124 to feel like... 970 00:56:34,565 --> 00:56:36,828 you have to muster up the courage to ask for help, 971 00:56:36,871 --> 00:56:39,396 and then only to find out that the person who can 972 00:56:39,439 --> 00:56:41,136 just couldn'’t be bothered. 973 00:56:42,311 --> 00:56:46,272 Son, I am trying to help you. 974 00:56:46,315 --> 00:56:49,101 I'’m trying to stop you from making a mistake. 975 00:56:57,718 --> 00:56:59,503 [LOLA AND JOE SHOUTING] 976 00:57:15,562 --> 00:57:17,042 [CELL PHONE BUZZES] 977 00:57:40,848 --> 00:57:42,720 MARCIE: Hey, it'’s Marcie.[GROANS] 978 00:57:44,548 --> 00:57:46,027 Hi, Marcie, it'’s me. 979 00:57:46,071 --> 00:57:48,029 Can you please call me when you get the chance. 980 00:57:48,073 --> 00:57:50,771 I just need to talk to you. Please call me when you can. 981 00:57:55,559 --> 00:57:57,648 [SIGHS] 982 00:58:03,305 --> 00:58:05,177 DOLORES: Remember when we used to take... 983 00:58:05,220 --> 00:58:06,700 [CELL PHONE RINGS]Oh, just a second. 984 00:58:06,744 --> 00:58:08,876 Sorry. 985 00:58:08,920 --> 00:58:10,095 Jadin? 986 00:58:12,532 --> 00:58:15,274 Hi, it'’s me. Can you talk for a second? 987 00:58:15,317 --> 00:58:17,276 DOLORES: Jadin? Hi, it'’s Dolores. 988 00:58:17,319 --> 00:58:19,191 Sorry. We'’re in the car. 989 00:58:19,234 --> 00:58:21,367 Hi, Mrs. Roberts. I didn'’t know it was you. 990 00:58:21,410 --> 00:58:24,065 DOLORES: I'’m taking Colleen to go see her cousin 991 00:58:24,109 --> 00:58:25,763 over in Pendleton for the weekend. 992 00:58:29,418 --> 00:58:32,987 Okay. Do you think you could stop by and pick me up? 993 00:58:33,031 --> 00:58:35,990 We are already out of Le Grande. 994 00:58:36,034 --> 00:58:37,470 So I'’m sorry. 995 00:58:37,514 --> 00:58:39,037 [GROANS] But why don'’t you go 996 00:58:39,080 --> 00:58:41,430 to our house and relax? 997 00:58:41,474 --> 00:58:43,345 Be alone for a little while. 998 00:58:43,389 --> 00:58:45,826 I can'’t be alone right now, okay? 999 00:58:45,870 --> 00:58:48,046 And I can'’t go home. 1000 00:58:48,089 --> 00:58:49,917 So I need you to please just come pick me up. 1001 00:58:49,961 --> 00:58:51,571 Mom? 1002 00:58:51,615 --> 00:58:52,790 [WHISPERING] No. 1003 00:58:55,314 --> 00:58:57,925 DOLORES: Can it wait until Monday? 1004 00:58:57,969 --> 00:59:01,320 We'’ll be back on Sunday night, and we'’ll see you on Monday. 1005 00:59:01,363 --> 00:59:03,540 [SNIFFLES] And whatever it is, 1006 00:59:03,583 --> 00:59:05,716 I'’m sure that we can take care of it then. 1007 00:59:05,759 --> 00:59:09,284 Listen, Jadin, I will call you first thing Sunday 1008 00:59:09,328 --> 00:59:10,895 when we get back, okay? 1009 00:59:10,938 --> 00:59:13,245 Just--[PHONE BEEPS] 1010 00:59:16,944 --> 00:59:19,556 [SIGHS AND SNIFFLES] 1011 01:00:20,051 --> 01:00:21,269 LOLA: Come on, Jadin. 1012 01:00:21,313 --> 01:00:23,750 Come on, Jadin! 1013 01:00:23,794 --> 01:00:25,926 [SOBBING] Come on, Jadin! 1014 01:00:28,581 --> 01:00:30,148 No, no, no. 1015 01:00:30,191 --> 01:00:32,629 Come on, come on, come on. 1016 01:00:34,239 --> 01:00:36,676 [♪♪] 1017 01:00:41,942 --> 01:00:43,683 [SOBBING] 1018 01:01:08,447 --> 01:01:10,579 JIMMY: Would you mind if I say grace? 1019 01:01:10,623 --> 01:01:12,669 LOLA: Sure.JIMMY: It'’s okay? 1020 01:01:12,712 --> 01:01:14,627 LOLA: No. Go ahead.It'’s okay? 1021 01:01:18,762 --> 01:01:20,589 [JIMMY CLEARS THROAT] 1022 01:01:22,113 --> 01:01:24,332 Our Father, who art in heaven. 1023 01:01:24,376 --> 01:01:27,161 We come before thee with heavy hearts. 1024 01:01:28,728 --> 01:01:31,644 We ask that thy loving kindness be upon us. 1025 01:01:31,688 --> 01:01:32,950 And thy guidance. 1026 01:01:32,993 --> 01:01:34,473 We are indeed thankful for the gift 1027 01:01:34,516 --> 01:01:36,562 Jadin has been in our lives. 1028 01:01:36,605 --> 01:01:39,478 We'’ll need help on this new path. 1029 01:01:39,521 --> 01:01:41,567 We are thankful for this meal before us 1030 01:01:41,610 --> 01:01:44,004 and ask thy blessing upon it. 1031 01:01:44,048 --> 01:01:45,745 In Jesus'’ name, Amen. 1032 01:01:47,660 --> 01:01:49,096 Thank you. 1033 01:02:12,685 --> 01:02:14,861 You gotta get out of this room, Joe. 1034 01:02:21,825 --> 01:02:23,696 You'’re pale as milk. 1035 01:02:28,832 --> 01:02:33,924 Put some clothes on. Go outside. Take a walk. 1036 01:02:36,753 --> 01:02:38,232 Pretty sure it'’ll do you good. 1037 01:02:51,768 --> 01:02:53,726 Joe, I'’m hurting too. 1038 01:03:00,298 --> 01:03:01,778 [RAIN PATTERING] 1039 01:03:33,200 --> 01:03:34,549 What are you doing? 1040 01:03:36,595 --> 01:03:38,466 Just going for a drive. 1041 01:03:41,295 --> 01:03:42,993 Go back inside, Joseph. 1042 01:03:45,822 --> 01:03:49,564 No. Not until you tell me what'’s going on. 1043 01:03:54,004 --> 01:03:55,614 Get your ass back in the house. 1044 01:03:57,094 --> 01:03:58,617 I need to go for a drive, 1045 01:03:58,660 --> 01:04:00,837 and you need to get back inside and get into bed. 1046 01:04:00,880 --> 01:04:02,012 Now. 1047 01:04:29,822 --> 01:04:31,258 [GUN CLICKS] 1048 01:04:36,002 --> 01:04:37,612 Go back inside, Joseph. 1049 01:04:40,877 --> 01:04:42,008 Now. 1050 01:04:55,326 --> 01:04:58,416 [INHALES DEEPLY AND SIGHS] 1051 01:05:07,816 --> 01:05:09,731 [♪♪] 1052 01:05:24,355 --> 01:05:25,922 [SOBS SOFTLY] 1053 01:05:47,030 --> 01:05:48,335 [SIZZLING]LOLA: Shit. 1054 01:05:52,296 --> 01:05:53,732 Here you go. 1055 01:05:53,775 --> 01:05:55,081 JOSEPH: Thanks, Mom.MARCIE: Thanks. 1056 01:05:56,604 --> 01:05:58,606 Eat it while it'’s hot. 1057 01:05:58,650 --> 01:06:00,173 JOSEPH: Can you pass me the syrup? 1058 01:06:00,217 --> 01:06:01,479 Yes.LOLA: I have some bacon too. 1059 01:06:01,522 --> 01:06:03,916 JOSEPH: It may seem...[DOOR CLOSES] 1060 01:06:03,960 --> 01:06:05,613 ...people are just going after each other, 1061 01:06:05,657 --> 01:06:08,181 but it requires a lot of skill. 1062 01:06:08,225 --> 01:06:11,010 Whoa! You'’re up. 1063 01:06:11,054 --> 01:06:12,794 Hi. 1064 01:06:14,144 --> 01:06:15,580 Lola, I got something to tell you. 1065 01:06:15,623 --> 01:06:17,712 LOLA: Okay.Could you give me a few minutes? 1066 01:06:17,756 --> 01:06:20,193 Yes, Joe. 1067 01:06:20,237 --> 01:06:22,195 What is it? 1068 01:06:22,239 --> 01:06:26,808 I'’ve decided to walk across America to New York City. 1069 01:06:28,332 --> 01:06:29,550 What? 1070 01:06:29,594 --> 01:06:30,987 Did you hear what I said? 1071 01:06:31,030 --> 01:06:32,205 LOLA [LAUGHS]: Yeah. 1072 01:06:32,249 --> 01:06:33,467 When did you decide that? 1073 01:06:33,511 --> 01:06:35,165 Well, just earlier this morning. 1074 01:06:35,208 --> 01:06:38,342 When I told you to take a walk, I meant around the block. 1075 01:06:38,385 --> 01:06:39,865 Not to New York City.Lola, 1076 01:06:39,908 --> 01:06:42,128 I'’ll talk to everybody along the way. 1077 01:06:42,172 --> 01:06:44,609 Anybody who will listen. About bullying. 1078 01:06:44,652 --> 01:06:47,046 About the damage it does. About what it did to our boy. 1079 01:06:47,090 --> 01:06:49,831 I'’m doing this for Jadin, Lola. It'’s what he wants. 1080 01:06:49,875 --> 01:06:51,877 It'’s what he'd want me to do, I know it is. 1081 01:06:51,920 --> 01:06:55,576 I mean, he told us he wanted to live there someday, remember? 1082 01:06:55,620 --> 01:06:58,318 Yeah. Yeah. 1083 01:06:58,362 --> 01:07:00,842 Uh, I don'’t know. 1084 01:07:00,886 --> 01:07:03,541 How do you--? How do you--? How do you pay for it? 1085 01:07:03,584 --> 01:07:06,326 Well, I'’ll-- I'll get the money. I can fundraise. 1086 01:07:06,370 --> 01:07:08,241 I mean, everybody'’s against bullying, aren'’t they? 1087 01:07:08,285 --> 01:07:12,506 No. If they were, this wouldn'’t have happened. 1088 01:07:15,553 --> 01:07:17,903 Let me get you something to eat before you head on the highway. 1089 01:07:17,946 --> 01:07:20,079 So nice that you'’re back up again. 1090 01:07:20,123 --> 01:07:21,776 Can I get some coffee, Marcie?MARCIE: Yeah. 1091 01:07:24,692 --> 01:07:26,999 Hey. You didn'’t tell your mama about last night, did you? 1092 01:07:27,043 --> 01:07:28,479 No, sir. 1093 01:07:28,522 --> 01:07:31,177 Come here. I love you, buddy. 1094 01:07:31,221 --> 01:07:32,744 Hey. I love you so much. 1095 01:07:32,787 --> 01:07:34,398 This is gonna be something great, all right? 1096 01:07:34,441 --> 01:07:36,313 You'’ll see. I promise.Yeah. 1097 01:07:36,356 --> 01:07:38,141 [TRUCK HORN BLARES] 1098 01:07:49,500 --> 01:07:50,675 [SIGHS] 1099 01:07:55,245 --> 01:07:57,203 [PHONE LINE RINGS] 1100 01:08:02,469 --> 01:08:03,688 LOLA [ON PHONE]: Joe? 1101 01:08:05,994 --> 01:08:07,213 Joe? 1102 01:08:07,257 --> 01:08:08,432 Lola. 1103 01:08:11,783 --> 01:08:13,611 Joe, say something. Why are you not talking? 1104 01:08:13,654 --> 01:08:15,352 You'’re scaring me. 1105 01:08:15,395 --> 01:08:18,355 I don'’t-- I don't think I can keep going. 1106 01:08:18,398 --> 01:08:22,010 Joe...come on. 1107 01:08:22,054 --> 01:08:24,796 You gotta keep going.I just wanna come home. 1108 01:08:24,839 --> 01:08:27,842 Oh, Joe, you can'’t come home. Come on. 1109 01:08:29,583 --> 01:08:31,716 You'’re doing it for Jadin, remember? 1110 01:08:31,759 --> 01:08:35,154 Yeah. For Jadin. I remember. 1111 01:08:35,198 --> 01:08:36,634 Yeah. And for us. 1112 01:08:38,201 --> 01:08:40,116 Do you want to talk to Joseph? 1113 01:08:40,159 --> 01:08:42,074 Is he there? Yeah. 1114 01:08:42,118 --> 01:08:43,989 Yeah, he'’s getting ready for his wrestling match. 1115 01:08:44,032 --> 01:08:45,599 We'’re late. 1116 01:08:45,643 --> 01:08:47,166 I know he'’d love to talk to you, though. 1117 01:08:47,210 --> 01:08:48,820 Not like this. 1118 01:08:48,863 --> 01:08:50,952 Just...just tell him... 1119 01:08:52,780 --> 01:08:55,305 tell him I'’ll call-- I'’ll call him later. 1120 01:08:57,089 --> 01:08:59,047 Okay, okay. I'’ll tell him. 1121 01:09:01,224 --> 01:09:02,399 Lola? 1122 01:09:04,705 --> 01:09:06,838 I saw him. 1123 01:09:06,881 --> 01:09:08,448 He was right there in front of me. 1124 01:09:10,102 --> 01:09:12,496 And he just kept leading me for miles, and... 1125 01:09:14,237 --> 01:09:16,108 I followed him all the way, and then... 1126 01:09:19,851 --> 01:09:21,331 he just disappeared. 1127 01:09:25,639 --> 01:09:27,075 JOSEPH: Mom! We'’re late! 1128 01:09:28,599 --> 01:09:29,774 LOLA: Joe. 1129 01:09:31,210 --> 01:09:32,646 JOSEPH: Mom, did you pack the shoes? 1130 01:09:32,690 --> 01:09:34,431 LOLA: Yeah. Everything'’s in there. 1131 01:09:34,474 --> 01:09:37,085 Okay. All right. 1132 01:09:37,129 --> 01:09:38,261 I love you. 1133 01:09:39,610 --> 01:09:40,785 I love you. 1134 01:09:43,527 --> 01:09:45,181 [SNIFFLES] 1135 01:09:55,930 --> 01:09:57,758 Kindness. And respect. 1136 01:09:57,802 --> 01:10:00,108 Kindness is the most important quality a human being can have, 1137 01:10:00,152 --> 01:10:01,893 or that a parent can have. 1138 01:10:01,936 --> 01:10:04,156 Shit, when I was walking and talking these past six months, 1139 01:10:04,200 --> 01:10:06,289 you never know how long you have the people that you love 1140 01:10:06,332 --> 01:10:07,986 and that love you, 1141 01:10:08,029 --> 01:10:11,076 so you damn well better love now, all right? 1142 01:10:11,119 --> 01:10:12,904 No matter how confused or misguided or messed up 1143 01:10:12,947 --> 01:10:14,253 you think they are. 1144 01:10:14,297 --> 01:10:15,820 Because it'’s probably a good chance 1145 01:10:15,863 --> 01:10:17,648 that you'’re just as messed up as they are. 1146 01:10:17,691 --> 01:10:20,259 You gotta look in the mirror, and gotta have accountability. 1147 01:10:20,303 --> 01:10:21,434 All right? 1148 01:10:27,962 --> 01:10:29,137 [SIGHS] 1149 01:10:39,844 --> 01:10:41,976 [COUNTRY MUSIC PLAYS OVER RADIO] 1150 01:10:45,719 --> 01:10:47,982 MAN: Hey, there. You'’re Joe Bell? 1151 01:10:48,026 --> 01:10:49,288 That I am. Yes. 1152 01:10:49,332 --> 01:10:50,550 MAN: I'’ve got something for you. 1153 01:10:52,248 --> 01:10:53,379 Oh! 1154 01:10:54,772 --> 01:10:56,034 Holy shit! 1155 01:10:58,036 --> 01:11:00,168 Come here! 1156 01:11:00,212 --> 01:11:01,866 So we got Coke in here, and some ice. 1157 01:11:01,909 --> 01:11:03,781 We got water over here in this one. 1158 01:11:03,824 --> 01:11:05,391 That'’s a solar panel. 1159 01:11:05,435 --> 01:11:08,264 We'’ll pay you for this. You'’re a good man, Jim. 1160 01:11:08,307 --> 01:11:10,788 Thank you so much. Thank you. 1161 01:11:10,831 --> 01:11:13,138 ♪ Beyond the things you do 1162 01:11:13,181 --> 01:11:14,618 [CAR HORN HONKS] 1163 01:11:17,011 --> 01:11:20,450 ♪ What became of all those Mountains ♪ 1164 01:11:22,974 --> 01:11:25,411 ♪ We found so hard to climb 1165 01:11:27,195 --> 01:11:30,460 ♪ We'’ll take the high road ♪ 1166 01:11:32,244 --> 01:11:35,073 ♪ Don'’t leave your side ♪ 1167 01:11:35,116 --> 01:11:37,336 ♪ Till you see it shine 1168 01:11:39,382 --> 01:11:44,343 ♪ We'’ll take the high road ♪ 1169 01:11:44,387 --> 01:11:46,563 ♪ Baby, here it comes 1170 01:11:46,606 --> 01:11:49,914 ♪ Don'’t you close your eyes ♪ 1171 01:12:00,011 --> 01:12:01,578 Yeah, I... 1172 01:12:01,621 --> 01:12:03,362 You know, last night, I had a corral 1173 01:12:03,406 --> 01:12:05,843 a bunch of strangers up the street to come and hear me talk. 1174 01:12:05,886 --> 01:12:09,150 Shit. I gotta go. 1175 01:12:09,194 --> 01:12:11,762 Time for me to explain myself to another lawman. 1176 01:12:19,552 --> 01:12:21,337 [TRUCK DOOR CLOSES] 1177 01:12:21,380 --> 01:12:22,555 Howdy, sir. 1178 01:12:22,599 --> 01:12:24,296 Hi. 1179 01:12:24,340 --> 01:12:26,385 While you'’re taking your hands out of your pockets, 1180 01:12:26,429 --> 01:12:28,692 why don'’t you tell me where you'’re headed. 1181 01:12:28,735 --> 01:12:30,302 New York City. 1182 01:12:32,130 --> 01:12:33,436 Looking for a ride out here then? 1183 01:12:33,479 --> 01:12:34,959 No. I'’m walking. 1184 01:12:35,002 --> 01:12:36,656 Walking all the way to New York? 1185 01:12:38,658 --> 01:12:40,399 Joe Bell. 1186 01:12:40,443 --> 01:12:41,922 Yeah. 1187 01:12:41,966 --> 01:12:43,576 Well, what'’s your mission, Mr. Bell? 1188 01:12:43,620 --> 01:12:45,578 Well, like it says there on my card, 1189 01:12:45,622 --> 01:12:47,232 I talk to people about bullying. 1190 01:12:47,275 --> 01:12:48,886 About how it'’s not okay to torment somebody 1191 01:12:48,929 --> 01:12:50,366 because they'’re different from you. 1192 01:12:50,409 --> 01:12:51,802 Different how? 1193 01:12:53,151 --> 01:12:55,936 Like my son Jadin. He was gay. 1194 01:12:55,980 --> 01:12:58,199 He was bullied so bad in school, he couldn'’t take it anymore. 1195 01:13:02,116 --> 01:13:03,596 You been on the road six months? 1196 01:13:03,640 --> 01:13:04,858 Yeah. 1197 01:13:04,902 --> 01:13:06,991 I started out in La Grande, Oregon. 1198 01:13:10,298 --> 01:13:12,431 When was the last time you had a warm meal? 1199 01:13:17,436 --> 01:13:20,657 Sam, meet my new friend, Joe Bell. 1200 01:13:20,700 --> 01:13:22,963 Joe, Sam. 1201 01:13:23,007 --> 01:13:26,402 Sam'’s my girl of all work, and our dispatcher. 1202 01:13:26,445 --> 01:13:27,881 Have a seat. 1203 01:13:29,622 --> 01:13:30,841 Nice to meet you, ma'’am. 1204 01:13:30,884 --> 01:13:32,408 It'’s a pleasure, Joe. 1205 01:13:32,451 --> 01:13:35,367 I called the chaplain like you asked, Sheriff. 1206 01:13:35,411 --> 01:13:37,108 He says once you give him the green light, 1207 01:13:37,151 --> 01:13:39,153 he'’ll announce a youth meeting with Joe as the speaker 1208 01:13:39,197 --> 01:13:41,242 here at the high school this afternoon. 1209 01:13:42,330 --> 01:13:43,723 Joe? 1210 01:13:43,767 --> 01:13:45,159 Yeah, as long as you'’re sure 1211 01:13:45,203 --> 01:13:46,813 you can drop me off where you picked me up, 1212 01:13:46,857 --> 01:13:48,859 because I intend to walk every single step of the way. 1213 01:13:48,902 --> 01:13:50,077 Then let'’s get you fed. 1214 01:13:52,950 --> 01:13:56,693 Lunch here is usually last night'’s leftovers. 1215 01:13:56,736 --> 01:13:58,564 I'’m a sorry cook, but I'’ve learned the basics 1216 01:13:58,608 --> 01:13:59,783 of a microwave. 1217 01:14:03,656 --> 01:14:06,398 That'’s my son, William. 1218 01:14:08,705 --> 01:14:11,490 He wasn'’t your typical teenage boy. 1219 01:14:11,534 --> 01:14:13,840 He didn'’t have that "girl crazy" attitude 1220 01:14:13,884 --> 01:14:15,929 that we had when we were his age. 1221 01:14:19,933 --> 01:14:22,458 Janine'’s pinto beans are even better the next day. 1222 01:14:22,501 --> 01:14:23,807 Hmm. Yeah. 1223 01:14:23,850 --> 01:14:25,504 And the day after that. 1224 01:14:25,548 --> 01:14:27,332 I haven'’t had beans this good since I left home. 1225 01:14:27,375 --> 01:14:28,725 [CHUCKLES] 1226 01:14:28,768 --> 01:14:30,814 The stove is strictly Janine'’s domain. 1227 01:14:30,857 --> 01:14:32,903 I barely know how to boil water. 1228 01:14:32,946 --> 01:14:34,121 She'’s a keeper. 1229 01:14:37,516 --> 01:14:41,651 I was on the family computer one day, and I... 1230 01:14:41,694 --> 01:14:43,174 I saw that Will had been searching 1231 01:14:43,217 --> 01:14:44,741 what it meant to be gay. 1232 01:14:54,011 --> 01:14:56,187 I have to admit, at first, I... 1233 01:14:58,145 --> 01:15:01,409 I worried that I'’d been too tough on him growing up. 1234 01:15:01,453 --> 01:15:03,411 We were raised Christians, after all. 1235 01:15:06,023 --> 01:15:08,460 I wondered if he might have told me sooner himself 1236 01:15:08,504 --> 01:15:12,551 if I hadn'’t been such a hard-core lawman. 1237 01:15:12,595 --> 01:15:15,685 I thought about that same thing. 1238 01:15:15,728 --> 01:15:18,165 About whether I was too hard on my boy. 1239 01:15:18,209 --> 01:15:21,038 Well, if Jadin knew before he died 1240 01:15:21,081 --> 01:15:25,216 that you loved him and accepted him, that'’s what... 1241 01:15:25,259 --> 01:15:27,697 that'’s what matters, isn'’t it? 1242 01:15:27,740 --> 01:15:29,437 I want to believe that that'’s the way it was, 1243 01:15:29,481 --> 01:15:32,919 but I don'’t know if it was. 1244 01:15:32,963 --> 01:15:34,791 [SIGHS] 1245 01:15:36,619 --> 01:15:38,969 When I broke the news to my dad 1246 01:15:39,012 --> 01:15:42,146 that his oldest grandson was gay, he surprised me. 1247 01:15:42,189 --> 01:15:44,365 He'’s a Marine. 1248 01:15:44,409 --> 01:15:46,324 And he was a lot more accepting 1249 01:15:46,367 --> 01:15:48,369 of William being gay than I was. 1250 01:15:51,503 --> 01:15:54,158 And that made me take a long, hard look at myself. 1251 01:15:57,640 --> 01:15:59,946 My father didn'’t understand. 1252 01:15:59,990 --> 01:16:02,340 Still doesn'’t to this day, even with Jadin being gone. 1253 01:16:04,342 --> 01:16:06,910 You know a lot of folks believe that being gay is a choice? 1254 01:16:08,520 --> 01:16:09,956 All things being equal, 1255 01:16:10,000 --> 01:16:12,219 Jadin would have never chosen to be bullied. 1256 01:16:12,263 --> 01:16:13,656 With all things being equal, 1257 01:16:13,699 --> 01:16:15,832 he would have never chosen the way he died. 1258 01:16:17,921 --> 01:16:19,096 You know, Ben... 1259 01:16:20,967 --> 01:16:22,534 when I started out walking... 1260 01:16:24,144 --> 01:16:26,494 I didn'’t know what I was doing, really. 1261 01:16:26,538 --> 01:16:30,063 I thought I just wanted to make Jadin'’s life... 1262 01:16:31,935 --> 01:16:33,980 and his death matter somehow. 1263 01:16:37,157 --> 01:16:38,332 But what I come to know... 1264 01:16:40,378 --> 01:16:42,075 is I'’ve been walking and trying to figure out 1265 01:16:42,119 --> 01:16:43,773 why my son did what he did. 1266 01:16:47,341 --> 01:16:49,256 And make sense out of the part that I played 1267 01:16:49,300 --> 01:16:50,954 in his decision to end his life. 1268 01:16:53,696 --> 01:16:56,655 I mean, I was too caught up in my own feelings 1269 01:16:56,699 --> 01:16:58,091 about what other people would think 1270 01:16:58,135 --> 01:17:00,920 to see how alone my own son must have felt. 1271 01:17:00,964 --> 01:17:03,140 I should'’ve known how bad it was for him. 1272 01:17:03,183 --> 01:17:05,621 I...I should'’ve known all along. 1273 01:17:05,664 --> 01:17:06,926 But instead I just... 1274 01:17:08,841 --> 01:17:10,626 [SIGHS] 1275 01:17:10,669 --> 01:17:13,759 I just made Jadin'’s being gay all about Joe Bell. 1276 01:17:15,674 --> 01:17:16,806 About me. 1277 01:17:18,155 --> 01:17:19,373 Not about my boy. 1278 01:17:27,338 --> 01:17:28,513 Joe... 1279 01:17:31,734 --> 01:17:34,432 I think you made me realize something. 1280 01:17:38,697 --> 01:17:41,178 It never crossed my mind until this very moment that... 1281 01:17:43,180 --> 01:17:46,487 William might have considered taking his own life. 1282 01:17:53,756 --> 01:17:56,367 I don'’t think I could've carried on if he had. 1283 01:18:08,814 --> 01:18:10,555 I never let him know it was okay. 1284 01:18:12,165 --> 01:18:13,601 And I gotta live with that. 1285 01:18:16,909 --> 01:18:19,216 Don'’t make that same mistake, Ben. 1286 01:18:19,259 --> 01:18:21,348 Don'’t do that to your son or yourself. 1287 01:18:24,787 --> 01:18:26,440 [SIGHS] 1288 01:18:44,763 --> 01:18:47,200 [INDISTINCT CHATTER] 1289 01:19:07,177 --> 01:19:09,222 [♪♪] 1290 01:19:25,064 --> 01:19:26,239 Um... 1291 01:19:30,853 --> 01:19:31,984 CROWD: Shh! 1292 01:19:35,596 --> 01:19:37,337 Uh... 1293 01:19:37,381 --> 01:19:39,165 thanks for having me here today. 1294 01:19:39,209 --> 01:19:41,820 Uh, my name is Joe Bell. 1295 01:19:41,864 --> 01:19:44,867 I'’m really honored to be here to speak with you today 1296 01:19:44,910 --> 01:19:47,217 about something that I feel is very, very important 1297 01:19:47,260 --> 01:19:50,089 not only to myself, but to all of you. 1298 01:19:56,269 --> 01:19:58,271 [♪♪] 1299 01:20:38,659 --> 01:20:40,444 I think you and I are a lot more alike 1300 01:20:40,487 --> 01:20:42,359 than you'’d want to admit, Dad. 1301 01:20:47,494 --> 01:20:52,195 It took me 13 years 1302 01:20:52,238 --> 01:20:57,983 to realize that living a lie wasn'’t really living at all. 1303 01:20:59,202 --> 01:21:00,943 It only took you six months. 1304 01:21:02,161 --> 01:21:03,336 No, son. 1305 01:21:05,948 --> 01:21:08,341 It took me 45 years and six months. 1306 01:21:10,039 --> 01:21:11,605 I'’m sorry, Jadin. 1307 01:21:11,649 --> 01:21:13,259 I'’m so sorry. 1308 01:21:20,745 --> 01:21:24,053 I never meant for you to feel that I didn'’t love you. 1309 01:21:26,838 --> 01:21:28,231 No, son. I never felt that. 1310 01:21:31,408 --> 01:21:32,975 And I always knew you loved me. 1311 01:21:35,238 --> 01:21:36,456 Everything just... 1312 01:21:37,980 --> 01:21:39,329 hurt so much. 1313 01:21:42,898 --> 01:21:44,987 But deep down, I always knew. 1314 01:21:47,728 --> 01:21:49,252 That means the world to me, son. 1315 01:21:51,036 --> 01:21:52,646 The whole breathing world. 1316 01:21:54,083 --> 01:21:55,649 [SNIFFLES] 1317 01:22:14,059 --> 01:22:15,234 Dad? 1318 01:22:20,283 --> 01:22:21,458 I love you. 1319 01:22:25,418 --> 01:22:27,551 I know. I know. 1320 01:22:30,336 --> 01:22:31,816 [SIGHS] 1321 01:22:33,122 --> 01:22:34,340 [WHISPERING] I love you, buddy. 1322 01:22:36,603 --> 01:22:37,822 [SNIFFLING] 1323 01:22:45,438 --> 01:22:48,006 JOE: Hey, Lola, honey. It'’s me. 1324 01:22:48,050 --> 01:22:50,878 The reason I'’m calling is to tell you that I love you. 1325 01:22:50,922 --> 01:22:52,054 You and Joseph. 1326 01:22:55,057 --> 01:22:57,624 Thanks for putting up with me all these years. 1327 01:22:57,668 --> 01:22:59,278 I don'’t know what would've happened to me 1328 01:22:59,322 --> 01:23:00,932 if you hadn'’t come along and taken me in. 1329 01:23:00,976 --> 01:23:03,674 I'’m just truly lucky to have my family. 1330 01:23:06,111 --> 01:23:08,592 There'’s a lot of things I'’ve learned out here, 1331 01:23:08,635 --> 01:23:10,376 with nobody but me for company. 1332 01:23:12,074 --> 01:23:13,640 Some of it'’s been hard to come to know. 1333 01:23:15,338 --> 01:23:17,601 Real hard. 1334 01:23:17,644 --> 01:23:19,864 I know I'’ve still got a long road ahead of me. 1335 01:23:19,907 --> 01:23:21,997 And I'’ll be better about staying in touch from now on. 1336 01:23:22,040 --> 01:23:23,172 You'’ll see. 1337 01:23:24,564 --> 01:23:26,479 You give my love to our boy. 1338 01:23:26,523 --> 01:23:27,828 I love you. 1339 01:23:38,361 --> 01:23:39,840 [CELL PHONE BUZZES] 1340 01:23:42,495 --> 01:23:44,671 Sheriff Westin. 1341 01:23:44,715 --> 01:23:46,847 PATROLMAN [ON PHONE]: Sheriff, you'’re requested on scene. 1342 01:23:46,891 --> 01:23:48,284 U.S. 40 just west of Wild Horse, 1343 01:23:48,327 --> 01:23:50,590 a pedestrian was struck. 1344 01:23:53,463 --> 01:23:55,987 DISPATCHER: 10-50 you call investigations. 1345 01:23:56,031 --> 01:23:58,511 Lincoln County Sheriff arriving on scene. 1346 01:23:59,817 --> 01:24:01,645 [INDISTINCT RADIO CHATTER] 1347 01:24:40,162 --> 01:24:42,077 Hurry to Jadin, Joe. 1348 01:24:46,124 --> 01:24:48,213 [♪♪] 1349 01:25:25,337 --> 01:25:27,383 [♪♪] 1350 01:26:04,637 --> 01:26:06,944 [BRANDI CARLILE'’S "THE JOKE" PLAYING] 1351 01:26:17,998 --> 01:26:21,350 ♪ You'’re feeling nervous Aren'’t you, boy? ♪ 1352 01:26:22,655 --> 01:26:24,962 ♪ With your quiet voice 1353 01:26:25,005 --> 01:26:27,747 ♪ And impeccable style 1354 01:26:30,750 --> 01:26:34,972 ♪ Don'’t ever let them Steal your joy ♪ 1355 01:26:35,015 --> 01:26:37,844 ♪ And your gentle ways 1356 01:26:37,888 --> 01:26:40,891 ♪ To keep '’em From running wild ♪ 1357 01:26:43,502 --> 01:26:46,157 ♪ They can kick dirt In your face ♪ 1358 01:26:46,201 --> 01:26:48,203 ♪ Dress you down and tell you 1359 01:26:48,246 --> 01:26:50,857 ♪ That your place Is in the middle ♪ 1360 01:26:50,901 --> 01:26:53,382 ♪ When they hate The way you shine ♪ 1361 01:26:57,081 --> 01:26:59,910 ♪ I see you tugging On your shirt ♪ 1362 01:26:59,953 --> 01:27:01,303 JOE: Okay, boys, mama... 1363 01:27:01,346 --> 01:27:03,479 Thank you!JOE: You guys get together. 1364 01:27:03,522 --> 01:27:05,045 ALL: Happy Easter! 1365 01:27:05,089 --> 01:27:06,438 JOE: Okay, I want to tell you guys. 1366 01:27:06,482 --> 01:27:07,961 Look at me. 1367 01:27:08,005 --> 01:27:10,355 Look at the camera. 1368 01:27:10,399 --> 01:27:12,879 I love you guys so much, with all my heart. 1369 01:27:12,923 --> 01:27:15,491 You guys are such great kids and mamas. 1370 01:27:15,534 --> 01:27:17,797 ♪ Let '’em spin ♪ 1371 01:27:17,841 --> 01:27:23,977 ♪ Let '’em scatter in the wind ♪ 1372 01:27:24,021 --> 01:27:26,502 ♪ I have been to the movies 1373 01:27:26,545 --> 01:27:29,418 ♪ I have seen how it ends 1374 01:27:31,202 --> 01:27:36,338 ♪ And the joke'’s on them ♪ 1375 01:27:48,350 --> 01:27:52,832 ♪ You get discouraged Don'’t you, girl? ♪ 1376 01:27:52,876 --> 01:27:57,010 ♪ It'’s your brother's world For awhile longer ♪ 1377 01:27:59,622 --> 01:28:01,885 ♪ You gotta dance With the devil ♪ 1378 01:28:01,928 --> 01:28:04,409 ♪ On a river To beat the stream ♪ 1379 01:28:05,715 --> 01:28:08,413 ♪ Call it living the dream 1380 01:28:08,457 --> 01:28:10,894 ♪ Call it kicking the ladder 1381 01:28:12,939 --> 01:28:16,116 ♪ They come to kick dirt In your face ♪ 1382 01:28:16,160 --> 01:28:19,032 ♪ To call you weak And then displace you ♪ 1383 01:28:19,076 --> 01:28:21,339 ♪ After carrying your baby On your back ♪ 1384 01:28:21,383 --> 01:28:23,298 ♪ Across the desert 1385 01:28:26,562 --> 01:28:30,261 ♪ I saw your eyes Behind your hair ♪ 1386 01:28:30,305 --> 01:28:32,829 ♪ And you'’re looking tired ♪ 1387 01:28:34,265 --> 01:28:37,181 ♪ But you don'’t look scared ♪ 1388 01:28:37,224 --> 01:28:40,010 ♪ Let '’em laugh ♪ 1389 01:28:40,053 --> 01:28:42,882 ♪ While they can 1390 01:28:44,362 --> 01:28:46,582 ♪ Let '’em spin ♪ 1391 01:28:46,625 --> 01:28:52,849 ♪ Let '’em scatter in the wind ♪ 1392 01:28:52,892 --> 01:28:55,417 ♪ I have been to the movies 1393 01:28:55,460 --> 01:28:59,551 ♪ And I'’ve seen how it ends ♪ 1394 01:28:59,595 --> 01:29:05,688 ♪ And the joke'’s on them ♪ 1395 01:29:15,698 --> 01:29:21,878 ♪ Let '’em laugh While they can ♪ 1396 01:29:21,921 --> 01:29:24,881 ♪ Let '’em spin ♪ 1397 01:29:24,924 --> 01:29:30,408 ♪ Let '’em scatter in the wind ♪ 1398 01:29:30,452 --> 01:29:33,629 ♪ I have been to the movies 1399 01:29:33,672 --> 01:29:37,023 ♪ I have seen how it ends 1400 01:29:38,285 --> 01:29:43,682 ♪ And the joke'’s on ♪ 1401 01:29:44,944 --> 01:29:47,991 ♪ Them 1402 01:29:57,653 --> 01:30:02,614 ♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh 1403 01:30:09,186 --> 01:30:13,451 ♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh 1404 01:30:43,176 --> 01:30:46,092 [♪♪] 96604

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