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- ( alarm beeping )
- Woman over radio:
Firefighters may strike
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if plans go ahead to halve
the number of fire engines
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in five stations
in the capital today.
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( woman
continues talking )
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Man's voice:
JOSEPH CONRAD SAYS
THAT INSIDE EVERY HEART
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BURNS THE DESIRE TO SET DOWN
ONCE AND FOR ALL
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A TRUE RECORD
OF WHAT HAS HAPPENED.
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COME THIS WAY.
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Man's voice:
OF COURSE, MAYBE FOR CONRAD
THAT KIND OF THING WAS EASY,
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BECAUSE MAYBE CONRAD
WAS THE KIND OF PERSON
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WHO COULD ALWAYS WORK OUT
EXACTLY WHAT HAD HAPPENED.
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IF SO, HE WAS A LUCKY MAN.
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LUCKIER THAN ME ANYWAY.
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IN MY OWN LIFE,
NOTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED,
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NOTHING THAT CAN HAPPEN,
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COMPARES WITH THE STRANGENESS
OF A SINGLE SUMMER.
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SIR.
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Man's voice:
THE SUMMER WHEN I FIRST MET
VICTOR QUINN.
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"MANY ARE THE STORIES WITH
INTERESTING BEGINNINGS,
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BUT HARDER TO FIND ARE
THE STORIES WHICH END WELL."
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I'M SORRY?
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SURELY YOU CAN'T
HAVE FORGOTTEN.
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OH, RIGHT.
I SEE.
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YOUR OWN WORDS.
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THOUGH MAYBE YOU WRITE
SO MANY YOU LOSE TRACK.
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VICTOR QUINN.
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- PAUL PEPLOW.
- OF COURSE.
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"END WELL" IN WHICH SENSE?
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MEANING A STORY ENDS WELL,
MEANING HAPPILY
FOR ITS SUBJECT,
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OR WELL, MEANING IN A WAY
WHICH SATISFIES THE READER?
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OR DID YOU INTEND BOTH?
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BOTH, I THINK.
IT WAS JUST A BOOK REVIEW.
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- DRINK?
- NO, THANK YOU.
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OF COURSE.
WRONG OF ME TO ASK.
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Victor:
WELL, AS YOU KNOW,
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I DON'T OFTEN AGREE
TO BE INTERVIEWED.
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- IT'S KIND OF YOU.
- NOT AT ALL.
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WHY ARE YOU NORMALLY
SO RECLUSIVE?
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AH, THE NOTEBOOK'S
COMING OUT.
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HOW CAN YOU CALL ME
A RECLUSE? I LIVE IN
THE CENTER OF LONDON.
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- BUT YOU DON'T GIVE INTERVIEWS.
- I'M NOT AN EXHIBITIONIST, NO.
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I'M A SIMPLE MAN.
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I TOOK THE LIBERTY
OF ORDERING FOR YOU.
I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND.
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AND HOW DID YOU KNOW
I'D REFUSE A DRINK?
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WELL, I BELIEVE
YOU BELONG TO
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WHAT COOKS ON TELEVISION
CALL THE VULNERABLE GROUPS.
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"REMEMBER: DON'T PUT BRANDY
IN THIS PUDDING,
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- YOU ENDANGER
THE VULNERABLE GROUPS."
- NO.
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"HELLO MY NAME IS PAUL.
I'M AN ALCOHOLIC."
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YOU SEE? I'VE STUDIED
THE COURSE MYSELF.
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IT'S NOT REALLY A COURSE.
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NO, A COURSE
IMPLIES AN END,
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AND IN THIS CASE
THERE IS NO END.
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I'M INTERESTED
IN THE MEETINGS.
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ARE YOU?
WHY IS THAT?
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PAUL, WE CAN TALK
ABOUT ANYTHING YOU LIKE,
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BUT FIRST OF ALL YOU'RE
GOING TO HAVE TO CONCEDE
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THE ACCURACY
OF MY INTELLIGENCE.
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I GO TO MEETINGS, YES.
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I'VE NO IDEA
HOW YOU KNOW.
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WELL, ENGLAND IS
A SERIES OF CLUBS;
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NO CLUB MORE CELEBRATED,
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NO CLUB MORE SOCIALLY
ADVANTAGES THAN YOURS.
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OBVIOUSLY YOU DIDN'T GO
VERY OFTEN.
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BUT YOU SAY WHAT YOU THINK
THESE MEETINGS ARE.
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A MEANS.
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ONE MEANS OF PEOPLE
HELPING ONE ANOTHER.
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I SUPPOSE WE SHOULD START
BY DISCUSSING FLOTILLA,
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ITS RECENT MOVE
TO THE STOCK MARKET.
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A TRANSPARENT SUCCESS.
WHAT'S YOUR QUESTION?
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I WAS WONDERING WHAT
YOUR MOTIVES WHERE.
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WHAT DO I ANSWER?
"I DID IT FOR THE MONEY"?
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PEOPLE WILL SAY I'M GREEDY.
"I DIDN'T DO IT
FOR THE MONEY"?
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THEY'LL SAY I'M UNWORLDLY,
I'M LYING.
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PAUL, YOU OF ALL PEOPLE
MUST UNDERSTAND
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THE MODERN INTERVIEW
IS A FORM AS RIGID
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AND CONTRIVED AS
THE 18th-CENTURY GAVOTTE.
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( chuckles )
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SHALL I JUST PUT
"HE REFUSED TO ANSWER"?
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WHAT, MEANING HE'S A PRICK?
( laughs )
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"HE AGREED TO THE INTERVIEW
THEN HE REFUSED TO ANSWER
THE QUESTIONS."
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WHY OF ALL PEOPLE?
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WHY DID YOU SAY ME
OF ALL PEOPLE?
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- A POET.
- AH.
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I READ POETRY.
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I READ YOURS.
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"LOVE WAS THE SEARCH,
THE WHEEL, THE LINE,
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THE OPEN ROAD,
THE STEEP INCLINE;
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THINGS SPEEDING BY,
THE FINAL TURN IN VIEW,
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NEXT:
SOMETHING DISASTROUS,
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OVERWHELMING, NEW."
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I HARDLY BELIEVE YOU'D BE
PADDLING IN JOURNALISM
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IF IT WEREN'T PURELY
FOR THE MONEY.
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NO.
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I LIKE THE IDEA,
I PROMISE YOU.
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- OF THIS INTERVIEW?
- NO, THE MEETINGS.
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I THOUGHT THE MEETINGS
AMUSING.
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AMUSING?
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OBVIOUSLY YOU'RE NOT
AN ALCOHOLIC.
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NO, I'M NOT.
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MEETINGS ARE A DISCIPLINE.
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THEY WOULDN'T BE ADDICTIVE
IF THEY WEREN'T.
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AH, RIGHT, I SEE.
HERE WE GO.
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ALL CULTS MAKE
SIMILAR DEMANDS.
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I THINK IT'S REALLY STUPID
CALLING AA A CULT.
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ACTUALLY, I THINK
IT'S QUITE DANGEROUS.
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SURELY IT'S A CLASSIC CULT.
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YOU KNOW,
THE CHAIRS, THE COFFEE,
THE SOUL SEARCHING.
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BELIEVE ME, I'M NOT DENYING
ITS USEFULNESS.
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YOU COULDN'T.
IT SAVED MY LIFE.
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I WAS FOUND ON THE M4
DODGING TRAFFIC NAKED
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- IN THE MIDDLE
OF THE NIGHT.
- HUH.
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I DON'T NEED TO QUESTION
THE VALUE OF AA.
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WHAT BROUGHT YOU
TO THE MOTORWAY
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SO LATE AT NIGHT?
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NONE OF MY BUSINESS,
YOU'RE RIGHT.
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BUT PRESUMABLY
YOU BELIEVE
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ONE DRINK WILL LEAD YOU
ON THE ROAD TO HELL.
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- I DO BELIEVE THAT, YES.
- THAT'S WHAT THEY TEACH.
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IT'S ALSO WHAT I BELIEVE.
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ONE DRINK, ONE DRUNK.
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BUT IT'S NOT TRUE,
IS IT?
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I MEAN, IF YOU'D CURED
YOUR OWN ADDICTION
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IN THE PRIVACY
OF YOUR OWN HOME,
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YOU COULD PERFECTLY WELL
DRINK SOCIALLY AGAIN.
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I CAN'T TAKE THAT RISK.
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YOU WON'T TAKE
THAT RISK, YOU MEAN.
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I THINK I'M MISSING
SOMETHING HERE.
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I'M HERE TO DO
AN INTERVIEW.
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IT'S WHAT I'M HERE TO DO.
NO DOUBT YOU THINK YOU'RE
BEING CLEVER.
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YOU THINK YOU'RE
BEING PROVOCATIVE,
WIND UP THE MONKEYS.
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IT'S DINNER PARTY STUFF.
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"MY GOD, YOU DON'T GO TO THAT
RIDICULOUS AA, DO YOU?"
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- ONLY TELL YOU
ONE THING I'VE NOTICED.
- WHAT THING?
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MOST OF THE PEOPLE
WHO ATTACK AA
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ARE USUALLY 10 TIMES
MORE FUCKED UP THAN THE PEOPLE
THEY'RE ATTACKING.
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( chuckles )
YES,
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BUT YOU MUST HAVE VIEWS.
YOU MUST HAVE THEORIES.
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I HAVE NO THEORIES.
I HAVE ONE AIM IN LIFE.
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JUST THE ONE?
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MY AIM IS TO GET TO
BED SOBER TONIGHT.
THAT'S MY AIM.
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AND I'VE FOUND PRAGMATICALLY
THAT THE ONLY MEANS
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OF ACHIEVING
IT'S THROUGH AA.
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IT'S THE ONLY METHOD
WHICH WORKS.
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AND YOU HAVE NO FUCKING
RIGHT TO TALK ABOUT IT.
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THANK YOU.
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HAVE YOU THOUGHT--
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HAVE YOU CONSIDERED WHAT
IT WOULD MEAN TO BE CURED?
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OF COURSE.
I THINK OF LITTLE ELSE.
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THAT'S MY POINT.
IF YOU CAN'T DRINK AT ALL,
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EVER, THEN BY DEFINITION
YOU'RE NOT CURED.
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WHAT'S YOUR IDEA OF CURED?
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"THANK YOU.
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I'LL JUST HAVE THE ONE.
JUST THE ONE FOR ME.
THANK YOU."
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THINK ABOUT IT, PAUL.
CONSIDER.
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IT'S ONLY GROUPS WHICH
DEMAND TOTAL ABSTINENCE.
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WHY?
BECAUSE THEIR INTENTION
IS NOT TO STOP YOU DRINKING.
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THEIR PRINCIPLE AIM
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IS TO RETAIN YOU
AS A MEMBER OF THE GROUP.
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IT'S A FAMILIAR ARGUMENT.
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IT'S ALSO NONSENSE.
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I'M INTERESTED.
TELL ME WHY.
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OF COURSE I WENT INTO AA
KICKING AND SCREAMING.
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- HA.
- EVERYONE DOES.
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BELIEVE ME,
I HAD 1,000 RESERVATIONS.
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- PRESUMABLY YOU'D BOTTOMED.
- YES.
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THAT'S THE PHRASE THEY USE.
THE M4.
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NOT JUST THE M4.
NOT JUST THAT ONE NIGHT,
BELIEVE ME.
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OTHER NIGHTS?
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YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING
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AND YOU'VE FALLEN DOWN
THREE FLIGHTS OF STAIRS.
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EVEN SO, EVEN THEN
I WAS STILL RELUCTANT.
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I'M SURE.
THE POET.
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I HATED THE IDEA,
SITTING AROUND LATE
INTO THE NIGHT.
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I CLUNG TO THE THOUGHT
"I'M NOT THE SORT OF PERSON
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WHO SITS IN A CIRCLE
STRIPPING HIMSELF BARE."
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SOMEHOW I SEE YOU ALONE
WITH A GIRL COME MIDNIGHT.
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WHATEVER.
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ANYWAY, YOU GO TO MEETINGS
BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO,
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BECAUSE IT'S YOUR LAST CHANCE.
IT'S YOUR ONLY CHANCE.
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EVERYONE HAS THE RIGHT
TO DESTROY THEIR OWN LIFE.
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BUT TO DESTROY
THE LIVES OF OTHERS?
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AH, YES.
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OTHERS.
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YOU'RE RIGHT.
I WAS FRIGHTENED OF AA.
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GUESS WHY?
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- BECAUSE IN MY HEART
I KNEW IT WOULD WORK.
- BECAUSE IT WORKS?
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I NO SOONER WALKED INTO
THE ROOM THAN I INTUITED,
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"MY GOD,
THIS IS GOING TO WORK."
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"I'M NOT THE SORT OF PERSON
WHO DOES THIS," YOU SAY.
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BUT WHAT SORT OF PERSON
ARE YOU BY THAT STAGE?
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- A WORTHLESS DRUNK.
- YES.
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IT'S THAT WORD WORTHLESS
I HAVE TROUBLE WITH.
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I'LL BE HONEST.
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I'M BROKE.
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I'M COMPLETELY BROKE.
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I DON'T HAVE
A FUCKING PENNY.
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I CAN'T GET
A BANK ACCOUNT.
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THE EDITOR
PAYS ME IN CASH.
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- WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
- CAMBERWELL.
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STRETCHING THE CHARITY
OF A LAST REMAINING FRIEND.
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- YOU?
- REGENTS PARK.
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GOOD.
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WELL, THAT'S SOMETHING
SOLID FOR THE ARTICLE.
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WHY DON'T YOU COME BACK
TO THE OFFICE WITH ME?
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I'M SORRY?
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WELL, I'D LIKE YOU
TO SEE WHERE I WORK.
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- Victor: I WAS A COMMUNIST.
- Paul: YEAH?
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WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?
IS THIS THE BEGINNING
OF THE INTERVIEW?
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WELL, APPARENTLY NEWSPAPERS
HAVE TAKEN TO CALLING ME
A ONE-TIME MARXIST.
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I WASN'T A MARXIST,
I WAS A COMMUNIST.
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- I USE THE FULL SHOCKER.
- ALL OR NOTHING, EH?
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AND YOU MEAN IT WAS A CULT?
THERE WERE RULES?
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CONDITIONS
OF MEMBERSHIP, YES.
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ALL CLUBS HAVE MEMBERSHIP
RULES, OTHERWISE THEY
WOULDN'T BE CLUBS.
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NOT, OF COURSE,
FOR THE PLEASURE
OF ALLOWING PEOPLE IN.
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OH NO.
THE FAR HEADIER DELIGHT
OF KEEPING PEOPLE OUT.
218
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BRITISH COMMUNISTS,
WE WERE A SELECT
LITTLE BAND.
219
00:11:02,629 --> 00:11:05,098
A SNOTTY LITTLE GROUP,
WE WERE.
220
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IT'S A FAMILIAR PROGRESS--
ISN'T IT?
221
00:11:07,100 --> 00:11:10,637
--FROM STUDENT POLITICS?
COMMUNIST TO ENTREPRENEUR?
222
00:11:10,670 --> 00:11:12,906
Victor:
WELL, YOU COULD SAY IT WAS
JUST A MATTER OF LUCK.
223
00:11:12,940 --> 00:11:16,076
I STUMBLED ACROSS AN IDEA,
ANALYZED THE MARKET,
224
00:11:16,109 --> 00:11:18,078
MAKE INFORMED PREDICTIONS
225
00:11:18,111 --> 00:11:19,947
BASED UPON AVAILABLE
FINANCIAL DATA.
226
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AND PRETTY SOON THERE WAS
SCARCELY AN INVESTOR
227
00:11:23,083 --> 00:11:25,285
WHO WASN'T USING
FLOTILLA SOFTWARE.
228
00:11:31,491 --> 00:11:34,627
CAPITALISTS MAKE ME
LAUGH BECAUSE THEY
UNDERSTAND NOTHING.
229
00:11:34,661 --> 00:11:37,130
THEY TALK ABOUT
STRATEGY AND MARKETS
230
00:11:37,164 --> 00:11:38,398
AS IF THEY
WERE IN CONTROL.
231
00:11:38,431 --> 00:11:41,468
THEY USE SOOTHING DEVICES
LIKE BIG HOUSES
232
00:11:41,501 --> 00:11:43,270
AND HOTELS AND SERVANTS.
233
00:11:43,303 --> 00:11:46,673
THEY USE LUXURY
AS A SORT OF MASSAGE
TO PERSUADE THEMSELVES
234
00:11:46,706 --> 00:11:50,177
THEY'VE ACTED BRILLIANTLY,
THAT THEIR ACTIONS HAVE
BEEN BRILLIANT.
235
00:11:50,210 --> 00:11:52,279
- WHEREAS IN FACT?
- THEY'VE WORK HARD,
THAT'S ALL.
236
00:11:52,312 --> 00:11:54,481
THEY'VE WORKED HARD
AND THEY HAD A BIT
OF LUCK.
237
00:11:56,483 --> 00:11:58,852
COMMUNISM IS NIGHT CLASS.
IT'S WHERE YOU LEARN.
238
00:11:58,886 --> 00:12:00,954
WHO IS DOING WHAT TO WHOM?
239
00:12:00,988 --> 00:12:03,623
IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE
THE RICH SPEND THEIR TIME
240
00:12:03,656 --> 00:12:06,927
FUCKING OVER THE POOR,
THEN I DON'T SEE HOW
YOU MAKE SENSE
241
00:12:06,960 --> 00:12:08,695
OF WHAT GOES ON
IN THE WORLD AT ALL.
242
00:12:12,732 --> 00:12:15,202
LOOK, FORGIVE ME,
NOBODY CAN MISTAKE
YOUR WEALTH.
243
00:12:15,235 --> 00:12:17,737
- NO?
- AND YOU MAKE ASSUMPTIONS.
244
00:12:17,771 --> 00:12:20,273
YOU USE TECHNIQUES
WHICH I ASSOCIATE
WITH THE RICH
245
00:12:20,307 --> 00:12:22,542
OR AT LEAST
WITH THE POWERFUL.
246
00:12:22,575 --> 00:12:25,445
AND WHAT I MEAN IS,
YOU'D READ MY POETRY.
247
00:12:25,478 --> 00:12:27,014
IS IT A MANNER?
248
00:12:27,047 --> 00:12:28,816
IS IT A GAME?
249
00:12:28,849 --> 00:12:31,084
YOU'D READ MY POETRY
BEFORE THE MEETING.
250
00:12:31,118 --> 00:12:33,753
"I KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
I'VE READ 'THIS TOO
SHALL PASS.'"
251
00:12:33,787 --> 00:12:36,756
AND YOU THINK THAT'S
SPECIFICALLY A TECHNIQUE
OF THE RICH, DO YOU?
252
00:12:36,790 --> 00:12:38,926
AND WHAT'S MORE,
LEARNING A WHOLE VERSE.
253
00:12:38,959 --> 00:12:40,660
"LOVE WAS THE SEARCH,
THE WHEEL, THE LINE..."
254
00:12:40,693 --> 00:12:43,096
- A LINE MAYBE,
BUT A WHOLE VERSE?
- TOO MUCH?
255
00:12:43,130 --> 00:12:45,365
GOOD AFTERNOON, MR. QUINN.
THIS IS WHAT YOU ASKED FOR.
256
00:12:45,398 --> 00:12:47,300
GOOD AFTERNOON.
257
00:12:47,334 --> 00:12:48,936
HI.
258
00:12:48,969 --> 00:12:50,871
WHY DON'T YOU GO INSIDE?
259
00:12:52,739 --> 00:12:55,675
( bell tolling )
260
00:12:59,379 --> 00:13:02,916
- WELL?
- CAN I ASK YOU
SOMETHING ELSE?
261
00:13:02,950 --> 00:13:04,617
WHAT'S YOUR INTEREST
IN THE MEETINGS?
262
00:13:04,651 --> 00:13:07,855
- I HAD A FRIEND WHO QUIT.
- QUIT ALCOHOL?
263
00:13:07,888 --> 00:13:09,389
NO, QUIT AA.
MUCH HARDER.
264
00:13:11,158 --> 00:13:13,293
- MY FRIEND CAME HOME
ONE EVENING--
- CAME HOME?
265
00:13:13,326 --> 00:13:16,363
- TO YOUR HOME, YOU MEAN?
- SHE CAME BACK FROM A MEETING.
266
00:13:16,396 --> 00:13:18,999
MY FRIEND WAS CONVINCED
THAT THE PURPOSE OF THE CULT
267
00:13:19,032 --> 00:13:21,401
WAS TO REINFORCE HER FEELINGS
OF WORTHLESSNESS,
268
00:13:21,434 --> 00:13:24,571
NOT TO TRY AND ASSUAGE THEM.
SHE NEVER WENT BACK.
269
00:13:24,604 --> 00:13:26,306
SURELY SHE KNEW SHE'D HAVE
TO CONFRONT HER ILLNESS.
270
00:13:26,339 --> 00:13:28,708
CONFRONT IT BY ALL MEANS,
BUT THEN MOVE ON.
271
00:13:28,741 --> 00:13:30,911
DO YOU THINK AN ADDICT
CAN EVER MOVE ON?
272
00:13:30,944 --> 00:13:33,981
YES, WELL,
THIS IS AT THE HEART
OF THE ISSUE.
273
00:13:34,014 --> 00:13:36,416
IT IS.
IT IS AT THE HEART.
274
00:13:36,449 --> 00:13:39,019
YOU SEE, MY FRIEND
HAD COME TO SEE
275
00:13:39,052 --> 00:13:41,488
AN ADDICTION TO AA
AS FAR MORE SINISTER,
276
00:13:41,521 --> 00:13:44,424
FAR MORE THREATENING THAN
HER DEPENDENCE ON ALCOHOL.
277
00:13:44,457 --> 00:13:47,494
SHE FELT THEY WERE--
HOW CAN I PUT IT?
278
00:13:47,527 --> 00:13:49,930
--SUSTAINING HER IN A STATE
279
00:13:49,963 --> 00:13:51,899
OF SUSPENDED ANXIETY,
280
00:13:51,932 --> 00:13:54,134
THAT THEY WERE INSTILLING
A PERMANENT FEAR
281
00:13:54,167 --> 00:13:56,036
OF THE GREAT CRASH
AROUND THE CORNER.
282
00:13:56,069 --> 00:13:58,771
AND IN ORDER TO PRESERVE
THAT FEAR AND MAGNIFY IT,
283
00:13:58,805 --> 00:14:01,008
THEY WERE DENYING HER
SELF-RESPECT.
284
00:14:01,041 --> 00:14:04,411
IN THAT CASE I DON'T BELIEVE
SHE WAS ALCOHOLIC.
285
00:14:04,444 --> 00:14:06,846
- NO?
- AN ALCOHOLIC HAS
NO SELF-RESPECT.
286
00:14:06,880 --> 00:14:09,382
I GAVE HER
A GIN AND TONIC.
287
00:14:09,416 --> 00:14:12,752
SHE DRANK IT.
WE PLAYED SCRABBLE
ALL EVENING.
288
00:14:12,785 --> 00:14:14,187
( laughs )
289
00:14:14,221 --> 00:14:16,289
I DON'T BELIEVE SHE WAS
ADDICTED IN THE FIRST PLACE.
290
00:14:16,323 --> 00:14:19,292
- BELIEVE WHAT YOU LIKE.
- I DON'T BELIEVE IT.
291
00:14:23,063 --> 00:14:25,732
YOU KNOW, PAUL,
IT SEEMS TO ME
292
00:14:25,765 --> 00:14:27,100
YOU HAVE A PROBLEM
WITH SELF-ESTEEM.
293
00:14:27,134 --> 00:14:28,735
IN WHAT WAY, SPECIFICALLY?
294
00:14:28,768 --> 00:14:31,104
WELL, YOU ACCUSE ME
OF MUGGING UP ON YOUR POETRY
295
00:14:31,138 --> 00:14:33,006
IN ORDER TO FLATTER YOU.
296
00:14:33,040 --> 00:14:36,209
DOES IT NOT OCCUR TO YOU--
I MEAN DOES IT REALLY
NOT OCCUR TO YOU
297
00:14:36,243 --> 00:14:39,146
THAT YOU INSULT YOURSELF
WITH THIS SUGGESTION
298
00:14:39,179 --> 00:14:41,681
MORE THAN YOU INSULT ME?
299
00:14:43,316 --> 00:14:45,652
YOUR POETRY IS THE REASON
300
00:14:45,685 --> 00:14:47,387
I HAVE LONG WANTED
TO MEET YOU.
301
00:14:47,420 --> 00:14:50,657
( laughs )
302
00:14:50,690 --> 00:14:52,625
- OH, I SEE.
- ( chuckles )
303
00:14:55,328 --> 00:14:56,796
- WHAT DID YOU
LIKE TO DRINK?
- SORRY?
304
00:14:56,829 --> 00:14:58,898
- WHAT WAS YOUR
FAVORITE DRINK?
- MINE?
305
00:14:58,932 --> 00:15:01,834
- YEAH.
- FATAL WEAKNESS
FOR MANHATTANS.
306
00:15:01,868 --> 00:15:03,470
I WOULD NEVER HAVE GUESSED.
307
00:15:03,503 --> 00:15:06,073
FIDDLING WITH CHERRIES,
YOU THINK THAT'S TIME
WELL SPENT?
308
00:15:06,106 --> 00:15:08,675
- AND YOU?
- OH, I LIKE A MARTINI.
309
00:15:08,708 --> 00:15:11,578
AS WELL SPENT AS FIDDLING
ABOUT WITH OLIVES.
310
00:15:11,611 --> 00:15:13,546
AND IF I OFFERED
YOU ONE NOW?
311
00:15:15,015 --> 00:15:16,749
THAT'S IT, ISN'T IT?
312
00:15:16,783 --> 00:15:19,619
IF YOU WERE CURED,
YOU'D BE CURED OF THE DESIRE.
313
00:15:19,652 --> 00:15:22,389
AND WHO WANTS TO BE CURED
OF DESIRE?
314
00:15:25,625 --> 00:15:27,394
HOW'S YOUR FRIEND
DOING NOW?
315
00:15:27,427 --> 00:15:30,263
MY FRIEND?
SHE'S DOING FINE.
316
00:15:32,032 --> 00:15:35,002
MR. QUINN,
YOUR CAR IS HERE.
317
00:15:35,035 --> 00:15:38,038
WELL, IT'S BEEN A GREAT
PLEASURE MEETING YOU.
318
00:15:38,071 --> 00:15:41,208
NOW I DON'T READ NEWSPAPERS,
BUT MY IMPRESSION IS
319
00:15:41,241 --> 00:15:42,909
THAT THE MODERN PRACTICE
IS FOR THE JOURNALIST
320
00:15:42,942 --> 00:15:45,078
TO WRITE THE STORY
BEFORE THE ENCOUNTER.
321
00:15:45,112 --> 00:15:48,281
SO WHAT I'M SAYING IS
WRITE WHAT YOU LIKE,
322
00:15:48,315 --> 00:15:49,816
INVENT MY CHARACTER.
323
00:15:49,849 --> 00:15:52,485
I SHALL STAND BY WHATEVER
OPINIONS YOU ASCRIBE TO ME.
324
00:15:52,519 --> 00:15:55,022
I SHALL BE YOUR INVENTION.
325
00:15:55,055 --> 00:15:57,657
I VERY MUCH HOPE
WE CAN MEET AGAIN.
326
00:15:57,690 --> 00:15:59,092
YES, I'D LIKE
THAT TOO.
327
00:15:59,126 --> 00:16:01,128
- I'LL SHOW YOU OUT.
- THANK YOU.
328
00:16:07,300 --> 00:16:09,269
IT HAS BEEN A PLEASURE
TO MEET YOU, MR. PEPLOW.
329
00:16:09,302 --> 00:16:12,839
CALL DOWN TO TOM.
TELL HIM VICTOR'S OUT
OF HERE IN 10 MINUTES.
330
00:16:12,872 --> 00:16:15,808
Paul's voice:
AS JOB INTERVIEWS GO, IT WAS
ONE OF THE MORE PECULIAR.
331
00:16:15,842 --> 00:16:18,911
NO PIECE EVER APPEARED.
332
00:16:18,945 --> 00:16:22,049
I TOLD THE EDITOR MY SUBJECT
HAD BEEN A NO-SHOW.
333
00:16:22,082 --> 00:16:25,118
HE SAID IT WAS TYPICAL
OF THE MAN'S ARROGANCE
334
00:16:25,152 --> 00:16:27,120
NOT EVEN TO TURN UP.
335
00:16:29,389 --> 00:16:32,825
IN FACT, SOMEONE
WAS NEEDED TO WRITE COPY
FOR VICTOR'S WEBSITE,
336
00:16:32,859 --> 00:16:35,095
TURNING THE PROSE
OF THE INTERNET
337
00:16:35,128 --> 00:16:36,696
INTO SOMETHING LIKE POETRY.
338
00:16:38,331 --> 00:16:41,301
I STARTED WORKING FOR VICTOR
THE FOLLOWING WEEK.
339
00:16:41,334 --> 00:16:43,270
( bell tolling )
340
00:16:43,303 --> 00:16:45,272
THIS IS WHERE YOU GO.
341
00:16:46,806 --> 00:16:48,641
YOU WRITE YOUR STUFF
ON THE COMPUTER.
342
00:16:48,675 --> 00:16:50,443
THAT'S IT.
343
00:16:50,477 --> 00:16:52,912
- THIS IS WHERE I AM?
- THIS IS IT.
344
00:16:52,945 --> 00:16:54,581
OKAY.
345
00:16:54,614 --> 00:16:56,949
- YOU CAN MANAGE THAT?
- YEAH.
346
00:16:56,983 --> 00:16:59,586
GOOD.
GOOD LUCK.
347
00:17:01,588 --> 00:17:04,857
Paul's voice:
THE RHYTHM OF THE OFFICE
WAS PRETTY UNUSUAL.
348
00:17:04,891 --> 00:17:07,694
WHEN VICTOR WAS AROUND
THEY ALL WORKED LIKE SLAVES.
349
00:17:07,727 --> 00:17:11,030
WHEN HE WASN'T,
THEN THINGS TOOK
A MORE CASUAL TURN.
350
00:17:11,064 --> 00:17:13,266
NO THANK YOU.
I'M TRYING TO STAY OFF IT.
351
00:17:13,300 --> 00:17:14,701
WHAT HAVE YOU
COME UP WITH SO FAR?
352
00:17:20,540 --> 00:17:22,842
Paul's voice:
I WAS BEGINNING TO THINK THAT
I WAS GOING TO BE HAPPY
353
00:17:22,875 --> 00:17:26,613
DOODLING AROUND
UNDER NO PRESSURE,
354
00:17:26,646 --> 00:17:28,781
MANUFACTURING SENTENCES
THAT WOULD GIVE THE BUSINESS
355
00:17:28,815 --> 00:17:30,583
A LITTLE KICK AND ALLURE.
356
00:17:35,555 --> 00:17:37,590
( pop music playing )
357
00:17:37,624 --> 00:17:39,859
I'D TAKEN TO STAYING
ON IN THE EVENING
358
00:17:39,892 --> 00:17:41,494
LONGER THAN ANYONE ELSE
359
00:17:41,528 --> 00:17:43,730
BECAUSE I FELT MORE SECURE
THAN AT HOME.
360
00:17:46,833 --> 00:17:49,236
LOOKING BACK,
361
00:17:49,269 --> 00:17:51,371
I THINK THAT
MAY HAVE BEEN A MISTAKE.
362
00:17:51,404 --> 00:17:54,674
I'M WAITING FOR MY HUSBAND.
363
00:17:54,707 --> 00:17:57,677
YES?
364
00:17:57,710 --> 00:18:00,046
YOU MUST BE PAUL PEPLOW.
365
00:18:00,079 --> 00:18:01,714
I AM.
YES, I AM.
366
00:18:01,748 --> 00:18:03,283
HE TOLD ME ABOUT YOU.
367
00:18:03,316 --> 00:18:04,651
HE SAID YOU
WERE WORKING HERE.
368
00:18:04,684 --> 00:18:08,188
YOU HAVEN'T SEEN HIM,
HAVE YOU?
369
00:18:11,391 --> 00:18:13,025
ARE YOU GONNA HANG
ON AND WAIT?
370
00:18:20,032 --> 00:18:21,401
( Paul laughing )
371
00:18:21,434 --> 00:18:23,903
Elsa:
NO, I'M INTERESTED, REALLY.
372
00:18:23,936 --> 00:18:26,105
SO WHAT WAS SHE LIKE?
373
00:18:26,139 --> 00:18:27,974
OH, YOU'D HAVE TO MEET HER
FOR YOURSELF TO DECIDE.
374
00:18:28,007 --> 00:18:29,776
WHY?
375
00:18:29,809 --> 00:18:31,911
BECAUSE FROM ME YOU'LL GET
A PARTIAL ACCOUNT.
376
00:18:31,944 --> 00:18:34,113
- WHY?
- WHY?
377
00:18:34,147 --> 00:18:36,082
- BECAUSE WHY DO YOU THINK?
- SHE REALLY GOT TO YOU.
378
00:18:36,115 --> 00:18:39,118
AND ALSO SHE WANTED
TO BE AN ACTRESS,
WHICH WASN'T EASY.
379
00:18:39,152 --> 00:18:40,787
BECAUSE I HAD TO WATCH
TELEVISION AND--
380
00:18:40,820 --> 00:18:43,356
( laughs )
THAT'S NOT SUCH A HARDSHIP.
381
00:18:43,390 --> 00:18:45,892
--I DON'T KNOW,
LOOK AT HER IN HELMETS
AND THINGS.
382
00:18:45,925 --> 00:18:49,061
- VIKING HELMETS?
- NO, POLICE HELMETS,
OBVIOUSLY.
383
00:18:49,095 --> 00:18:51,298
- OH.
- IT'S WHAT ACTORS
HAVE TO DO,
384
00:18:51,331 --> 00:18:54,133
ALL THE ONES SHE KNEW.
THEY PLAYED POLICE ALL
THE TIME OR DOCTORS.
385
00:18:54,167 --> 00:18:56,536
- THEY PLAY VERY FEW VIKINGS.
- ( laughs )
386
00:18:56,569 --> 00:18:58,171
SHE WAS A DOCTOR
IN ONE OF THOSE SERIES
387
00:18:58,205 --> 00:19:00,340
WHERE THEY GO TO THE LAUNDRY
CUPBOARD TO MAKE LOVE.
388
00:19:00,373 --> 00:19:03,876
YOUNG DOCTORS, YOU KNOW,
WORKING 35-HOUR SHIFTS
389
00:19:03,910 --> 00:19:05,812
AND FUCKING EACH OTHER
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
390
00:19:05,845 --> 00:19:07,947
OH.
391
00:19:07,980 --> 00:19:10,950
SO YOU HAD TO WATCH YOUR
GIRLFRIEND WITH OTHER PEOPLE?
392
00:19:10,983 --> 00:19:13,152
SIMULATING, YEAH.
393
00:19:13,186 --> 00:19:15,988
- HOW WAS THAT?
- FINE, ACTUALLY.
I DIDN'T MIND IT.
394
00:19:16,022 --> 00:19:18,758
I MINDED IT MORE WHEN
SHE DID IT IN REAL LIFE.
395
00:19:18,791 --> 00:19:20,927
HMM.
396
00:19:20,960 --> 00:19:23,430
IS THAT WHY IT ENDED?
IT'S OVER?
397
00:19:23,463 --> 00:19:26,799
YEAH.
YEAH, IT'S OVER.
398
00:19:26,833 --> 00:19:29,436
SHE WAS THIS FACE
ON TELEVISION,
399
00:19:29,469 --> 00:19:31,438
SO EVERYONE THOUGHT
THEY KNEW HER,
400
00:19:31,471 --> 00:19:33,540
- BUT ONLY I KNEW HER.
- ONLY YOU?
401
00:19:33,573 --> 00:19:36,108
WELL, ME
AND A DOZEN OTHERS--
402
00:19:36,142 --> 00:19:38,511
THE DIRTY DOZEN,
AS I CAME TO THINK OF THEM.
403
00:19:38,545 --> 00:19:39,812
( laughs )
404
00:19:43,049 --> 00:19:46,386
WHAT ABOUT YOU?
ANY SUCH FIGURE
IN YOUR LIFE?
405
00:19:46,419 --> 00:19:48,955
- UH...
- WHY ARE WE TALKING
ABOUT THIS?
406
00:19:48,988 --> 00:19:51,958
BECAUSE...
407
00:19:51,991 --> 00:19:54,227
IT'S OFTEN MORE INTERESTING,
DON'T YOU THINK?
408
00:19:54,261 --> 00:19:56,195
IN WHAT WAY?
409
00:19:56,229 --> 00:19:59,198
TALKING TO PEOPLE
YOU DON'T KNOW.
410
00:20:00,300 --> 00:20:01,901
MAYBE.
411
00:20:01,934 --> 00:20:04,371
I DON'T LIVE THAT KIND
OF LIFE ANYMORE.
412
00:20:04,404 --> 00:20:05,972
WHAT?
WHAT LIFE?
413
00:20:06,005 --> 00:20:09,175
- OH, YOU KNOW, GIRLS, BARS.
- MMM.
414
00:20:09,208 --> 00:20:11,878
GIRLS GO WITH BARS,
AND IN MY MIND BARS ARE
LONG SINCE FORBIDDEN.
415
00:20:11,911 --> 00:20:13,313
BARS FRIGHTEN YOU?
416
00:20:13,346 --> 00:20:15,815
NO, EVERYTHING
FRIGHTENS ME.
417
00:20:15,848 --> 00:20:17,250
( laughs )
418
00:20:21,721 --> 00:20:24,223
LOOK, WHAT HAPPENS IS--
419
00:20:24,257 --> 00:20:26,726
DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THIS?
420
00:20:26,759 --> 00:20:28,528
DO I?
421
00:20:28,561 --> 00:20:31,030
YOU'RE FOCUSED ON
ONE THING, AREN'T YOU?
422
00:20:32,799 --> 00:20:34,834
YOU TELL ME.
423
00:20:34,867 --> 00:20:37,236
YOUR RECOVERY.
424
00:20:37,270 --> 00:20:39,406
YOU WANT TO RECOVER.
THAT'S ALL YOU WANT.
425
00:20:39,439 --> 00:20:42,342
AND THE OTHER PERSON'S
GOT TIRED OF CLEARING UP.
426
00:20:42,375 --> 00:20:45,011
THEY'RE TIRED
OF TIDYING UP AFTER YOU.
427
00:20:45,044 --> 00:20:47,414
GO ON.
428
00:20:47,447 --> 00:20:50,082
YOU'RE SICK. YOU'RE REELING.
WHATEVER. YOU'RE IN AGONY.
429
00:20:50,116 --> 00:20:51,851
THE GUILT.
430
00:20:51,884 --> 00:20:54,220
- EXACTLY.
- YOU'RE DRINKING AGAIN.
431
00:20:54,253 --> 00:20:57,524
AND THE OTHER PERSON SAYS,
"I DON'T WANT TO PLAY NURSE.
432
00:20:57,557 --> 00:20:59,326
I REFUSE TO PLAY NURSE.
I WON'T DO IT."
433
00:20:59,359 --> 00:21:01,994
ESPECIALLY WHEN
SHE PLAYS NURSE ON
THE TELEVISION ALREADY.
434
00:21:02,028 --> 00:21:03,530
EXACTLY.
435
00:21:05,131 --> 00:21:06,966
SO THEN MAYBE AFTER A WHILE
YOU START TO THINK,
436
00:21:06,999 --> 00:21:08,568
"OKAY, THIS IS GETTING
MUCH BETTER.
437
00:21:08,601 --> 00:21:10,470
I'M BEGINNING TO
CLEAN UP, I'M SOBER.
438
00:21:10,503 --> 00:21:12,038
HEY, THIS IS
STARTING TO WORK."
439
00:21:12,071 --> 00:21:14,374
- ONE DAY AT A TIME.
- PRECISELY.
440
00:21:14,407 --> 00:21:17,043
AND YOU THINK, "AT LAST,
I DESERVE A FUCKING BREAK.
441
00:21:17,076 --> 00:21:20,680
I'VE BEEN TO 50,000
FUCKING MEETINGS AND I
DESERVE A BREAK."
442
00:21:20,713 --> 00:21:22,915
AND THEN ONE DAY CLEM
TURNS TO YOU.
443
00:21:22,949 --> 00:21:25,852
YOUR GIRLFRIEND INFORMS YOU
THAT SHE'S AN HONEST PERSON,
444
00:21:25,885 --> 00:21:28,955
SO SHE MUST INFORM YOU
THAT SHE'S BEEN MEETING
OTHER PEOPLE--
445
00:21:28,988 --> 00:21:31,290
OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE,
AS IT WERE, NOT YOU.
446
00:21:31,324 --> 00:21:33,192
THE REASON BEING,
CLEM SAYS,
447
00:21:33,225 --> 00:21:36,062
IS THAT YOU WERE A DRUNK
AND SO WHAT WAS SHE
SUPPOSED TO DO?
448
00:21:36,095 --> 00:21:37,897
DO YOU BELIEVE HER?
449
00:21:37,930 --> 00:21:40,633
BELIEVE HER HOW?
BELIEVE SHE SLEPT WITH THEM?
450
00:21:40,667 --> 00:21:41,934
NO, BELIEVE HER REASONS.
451
00:21:41,968 --> 00:21:44,203
SHE SLEPT WITH
A DOZEN OTHER MEN.
452
00:21:44,236 --> 00:21:47,740
A DOZEN.
AND THEN...
453
00:21:47,774 --> 00:21:51,511
YOU'RE WARMING UP A DINNER
FROM MARKS & SPENCER.
454
00:21:51,544 --> 00:21:54,647
TURN ON THE TELEVISION.
YOU'RE POURING THE COCA-COLA.
455
00:21:54,681 --> 00:21:57,016
SHE SAYS,
"YOU KNOW SOMETHING, PAUL?
456
00:21:57,049 --> 00:21:59,986
SINCE YOU'VE CLEANED UP
YOU'VE BECOME KIND OF BORING.
457
00:22:00,019 --> 00:22:02,355
YOU WERE SO MUCH MORE
INTERESTING WHEN YOU
WERE DRUNK."
458
00:22:03,656 --> 00:22:05,057
AND WERE YOU?
459
00:22:05,091 --> 00:22:08,628
EARLY ON SHE SAID
NO COMMITMENTS.
460
00:22:08,661 --> 00:22:11,731
LATER I SAID,
"I AGREED, NO COMMITMENTS.
461
00:22:11,764 --> 00:22:14,266
BUT SOMEHOW WHEN
YOU SAID NO COMMITMENTS--
FORGIVE ME,
462
00:22:14,300 --> 00:22:15,968
I DID NOT FORESEE
THE NUMBER 12."
463
00:22:16,002 --> 00:22:17,604
( laughs )
464
00:22:17,637 --> 00:22:21,307
WELL, MIND YOU,
I MEAN, LET'S BE CLEAR.
465
00:22:21,340 --> 00:22:23,342
AA IS MY SOLE HOPE.
466
00:22:23,376 --> 00:22:25,311
IT'S MY SOLE
SOURCE OF HOPE.
467
00:22:25,344 --> 00:22:27,046
- IS IT?
- I SHOULD BE THERE NOW.
468
00:22:27,079 --> 00:22:28,781
SHOULD?
469
00:22:28,815 --> 00:22:32,419
NO WONDER IF OCCASIONALLY I SAY
"I CAN'T GET TO A MEETING.
470
00:22:32,452 --> 00:22:35,522
I COULDN'T GET TO THE MEETING.
I WAS HELD UP AT FLOTILLA.
471
00:22:35,555 --> 00:22:37,524
I RAN INTO
THE BOSS'S WIFE."
472
00:22:37,557 --> 00:22:39,592
( laughs )
473
00:22:39,626 --> 00:22:42,194
I'M GLAD YOU DID.
I'M REALLY GLAD.
474
00:22:43,362 --> 00:22:45,732
PEOPLE DON'T WANT
TO KNOW ME.
475
00:22:45,765 --> 00:22:47,400
THEY WANT TO KNOW
MY HUSBAND.
476
00:22:47,434 --> 00:22:49,636
OR RATHER THEY WANT
TO KNOW ME
477
00:22:49,669 --> 00:22:52,038
BECAUSE THAT WAY THEY GET
TO MEET MY HUSBAND.
478
00:22:52,071 --> 00:22:54,173
- DOES THAT UPSET YOU?
- NO NO. NOT AT ALL.
479
00:22:54,206 --> 00:22:56,342
NO. IT AMUSES ME.
480
00:22:56,375 --> 00:22:58,478
I'VE A LIFE OF MY OWN.
481
00:22:58,511 --> 00:23:00,079
AND LET'S FACE IT...
482
00:23:02,415 --> 00:23:03,950
HE'S A FASCINATING MAN.
483
00:23:14,694 --> 00:23:17,196
WHEN HE MET ME,
I WAS A DRUNK.
484
00:23:23,836 --> 00:23:26,072
WHAT TIME IS IT?
485
00:23:27,073 --> 00:23:30,977
- 8:00.
- WOW. I MUST GET GOING.
486
00:23:31,010 --> 00:23:32,411
YEAH.
487
00:23:32,445 --> 00:23:35,715
IT'S SILLY.
WE MUST BE THE LAST
PEOPLE HERE.
488
00:23:38,485 --> 00:23:40,487
WHAT ABOUT YOU?
489
00:23:40,520 --> 00:23:41,921
WHAT?
490
00:23:41,954 --> 00:23:43,756
VICTOR SAID YOU USED
TO GO TO MEETINGS.
491
00:23:43,790 --> 00:23:46,058
I DID.
492
00:23:46,092 --> 00:23:47,860
YOU STOPPED?
493
00:23:47,894 --> 00:23:50,029
I DID.
494
00:23:50,062 --> 00:23:52,499
- YOU DON'T--
- WHAT?
495
00:23:52,532 --> 00:23:54,934
I'M ASKING
IF YOU'RE CLEAN.
496
00:23:58,571 --> 00:24:00,707
LET'S JUST SAY,
497
00:24:00,740 --> 00:24:04,310
WHATEVER FEELINGS
OF GUILT YOU SUFFER,
I SUFFERED MUCH WORSE.
498
00:24:09,549 --> 00:24:12,218
WHY DO YOU IMAGINE VICTOR
EMPLOYED YOU?
499
00:24:12,251 --> 00:24:15,287
YOU SAY. YOU TELL ME.
WHY DO YOU THINK
VICTOR EMPLOYED ME?
500
00:24:15,321 --> 00:24:17,557
I IMAGINE IN SOME WAY
501
00:24:17,590 --> 00:24:20,226
YOU REMIND HIM OF ME.
502
00:24:27,800 --> 00:24:30,136
TELL ME WHAT WE'RE DOING.
503
00:24:30,169 --> 00:24:31,871
TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON.
504
00:24:31,904 --> 00:24:35,007
WHAT ARE WE DOING?
505
00:24:35,041 --> 00:24:36,843
WE'RE TALKING.
506
00:24:36,876 --> 00:24:39,178
THAT'S ALL.
WE'RE TALKING.
507
00:24:40,346 --> 00:24:43,883
ARE YOU GOING TO HOLD ON?
508
00:24:43,916 --> 00:24:46,586
I'VE NOTHING ELSE TO DO.
509
00:24:46,619 --> 00:24:49,155
MY FLAT'S EMPTY AS USUAL.
510
00:24:49,188 --> 00:24:50,590
THERE'S NOTHING
IN THE LARDER.
511
00:24:50,623 --> 00:24:52,224
YOU SHOULD STOCK UP.
WHAT DO YOU LIVE ON?
512
00:24:52,258 --> 00:24:53,960
PULSES, THEY'RE CALLED.
513
00:24:53,993 --> 00:24:56,195
AND CHEAP NOURISHING STEWS.
514
00:24:56,228 --> 00:24:59,932
THEY TELL YOU AT
THE MEETINGS-- DON'T THEY?
--NEVER TO GO HUNGRY.
515
00:24:59,966 --> 00:25:02,134
HUNGER'S THE ENEMY,
THEY SAY.
516
00:25:02,168 --> 00:25:03,736
OR ANGRY.
517
00:25:03,770 --> 00:25:05,104
HUNGRY, ANGRY,
LONELY, TIRED.
518
00:25:05,137 --> 00:25:07,373
NO, YOU MUSTN'T BE
ANY OF THOSE.
519
00:25:13,813 --> 00:25:16,348
THE POINT IS,
IT'S NOT JUST CLEM.
520
00:25:16,382 --> 00:25:18,685
- NO?
- IT'S NOT JUST CLEM
I HAVE TO AVOID.
521
00:25:18,718 --> 00:25:21,053
RIDICULOUS.
522
00:25:21,087 --> 00:25:23,856
ALL WOMEN I HAVE TO AVOID.
523
00:25:23,890 --> 00:25:26,826
I'M MUCH HAPPIER
WITH BLOKES OR IN GROUPS.
524
00:25:26,859 --> 00:25:29,662
TALKING'S FINE.
THIS IS FINE.
525
00:25:29,696 --> 00:25:31,898
BUT ANY--
ANY CONTACT,
526
00:25:31,931 --> 00:25:34,767
ANY REAL CLOSENESS
I HAVE TO AVOID.
527
00:25:36,235 --> 00:25:38,638
I'M A RECOVERING ALCOHOLIC.
528
00:25:41,540 --> 00:25:43,342
AND I CAN'T WRITE.
529
00:25:44,677 --> 00:25:46,846
I'M BLOCKED.
530
00:25:46,879 --> 00:25:48,147
I'M SORRY?
531
00:25:50,416 --> 00:25:53,119
THEN WHAT'S GOOD IS
THAT I'VE HAD TO ANSWER
THE QUESTION
532
00:25:53,152 --> 00:25:56,122
WHAT MAKES ME, UM--
WHAT MAKES ME DRINK?
533
00:25:56,155 --> 00:25:58,057
AND WHAT WAS THE ANSWER?
534
00:25:58,090 --> 00:26:00,459
FINALLY?
ANGER.
535
00:26:00,492 --> 00:26:03,963
ANGER MAKES ME DRINK.
THEREFORE I HAVE TO
AVOID ANGER.
536
00:26:03,996 --> 00:26:07,233
ANOTHER WAY OF PUTTING IT--
I HAVE TO AVOID EMOTION.
537
00:26:07,266 --> 00:26:10,502
SO WHAT DO YOU DO ABOUT THAT?
AVOID EMOTION?
538
00:26:10,536 --> 00:26:12,038
- AVOID LIFE?
- NO.
539
00:26:12,071 --> 00:26:13,339
YOU REALLY THINK
IT'S THAT SIMPLE?
540
00:26:13,372 --> 00:26:14,974
IT'S QUITE
CONVENIENT, ACTUALLY.
541
00:26:15,007 --> 00:26:17,576
ANYONE YOU DON'T LIKE YOU CAN
JUST TELL THEM TO FUCK OFF.
542
00:26:17,610 --> 00:26:19,578
"SORRY.
YOU'RE ENDANGERING
MY RECOVERY."
543
00:26:19,612 --> 00:26:21,681
I MEAN, THAT'S THE ADVANTAGE
OF IT BEING A DISEASE.
544
00:26:21,714 --> 00:26:23,983
- IS IT A DISEASE?
- YEAH, OF COURSE IT IS.
545
00:26:24,016 --> 00:26:26,552
- THERE'S NO MEDICAL PROOF.
- IT IS. IT'S AN ILLNESS.
546
00:26:26,585 --> 00:26:28,220
IS THAT WHAT CLEM THOUGHT?
547
00:26:28,254 --> 00:26:30,189
- CLEM?
- SHE BLAMED THE DRINK.
548
00:26:30,222 --> 00:26:32,358
- YEAH, OF COURSE.
- THAT'S WHAT I HATE.
549
00:26:32,391 --> 00:26:36,428
CLEM SLEEPS WITH 12 MEN
YET SHE BLAMES THE DRINK.
550
00:26:36,462 --> 00:26:38,197
- SHE DOESN'T BLAME HERSELF.
- NOW LOOK--
551
00:26:38,230 --> 00:26:39,666
I'M TELLING YOU, PAUL,
YOU HAVE TO BREAK OUT.
552
00:26:39,699 --> 00:26:41,668
YOU HAVE TO LOOK
AT YOURSELF OBJECTIVELY,
553
00:26:41,701 --> 00:26:44,170
SEE YOURSELF
FROM THE OUTSIDE.
554
00:26:44,203 --> 00:26:46,973
YOU'RE YOUNG,
YOU'RE TALENTED,
555
00:26:47,006 --> 00:26:48,975
YOU'RE GOOD-LOOKING.
556
00:26:49,008 --> 00:26:51,510
PAUL, PLEASE TELL ME,
557
00:26:51,543 --> 00:26:53,980
JUST WHAT EXACTLY IS YOUR
PROBLEM MEANT TO BE?
558
00:26:54,013 --> 00:26:56,115
YOU KNOW NOTHING.
559
00:26:56,148 --> 00:26:58,751
YOU KNOW NOTHING OF WHAT
WENT ON IN MY LIFE.
560
00:26:59,786 --> 00:27:01,287
FUCK YOU.
561
00:27:01,320 --> 00:27:04,023
YOU LOST A GIRL.
THAT'S ALL.
562
00:27:06,058 --> 00:27:08,560
I LOST THE GIRL,
AS YOU CALL HER,
BECAUSE OF A HABIT I HAD,
563
00:27:08,594 --> 00:27:11,397
WHICH WAS THAT I COULDN'T
WALK PAST A GLASS OF WHISKEY
564
00:27:11,430 --> 00:27:13,299
AT 50 YARDS WITHOUT
WANTING TO DRINK IT.
565
00:27:13,332 --> 00:27:15,634
NO. CORRECTION:
WITHOUT DRINKING IT
566
00:27:15,668 --> 00:27:17,469
AND THEN THE REST
OF THE BOTTLE.
567
00:27:17,503 --> 00:27:19,706
DRINK HUMILIATES YOU
AND THEN IT KILLS YOU.
568
00:27:19,739 --> 00:27:23,009
PAUL, NOT EVERYTHING THAT
HAPPENS IS ALWAYS YOUR FAULT.
569
00:27:23,042 --> 00:27:24,777
I DIDN'T SAY IT WAS.
570
00:27:24,811 --> 00:27:26,779
NO, YOU DIDN'T.
571
00:27:26,813 --> 00:27:29,248
BUT I LOOK AT YOU
AND I KNOW YOU.
572
00:27:29,281 --> 00:27:31,317
I WAS YOU, REMEMBER?
573
00:27:31,350 --> 00:27:33,786
I WAS 25, AN IDIOT,
574
00:27:33,820 --> 00:27:35,621
COKED OUT OF MY HEAD.
575
00:27:37,957 --> 00:27:41,527
WHY DO YOU THINK
CLEM SLEPT AROUND?
576
00:27:41,560 --> 00:27:44,030
NO, YOU SAY.
WHY DO YOU THINK SHE DID?
577
00:27:44,063 --> 00:27:45,898
- DO YOU REALLY
WANT TO KNOW?
- YES.
578
00:27:45,932 --> 00:27:48,234
IT'LL COME AS BAD NEWS.
579
00:27:48,267 --> 00:27:50,202
BREAK THE NEWS.
I CAN TAKE IT.
580
00:27:50,236 --> 00:27:52,538
I PROMISE
I CAN TAKE IT.
581
00:27:52,571 --> 00:27:54,273
( sighs )
582
00:27:54,306 --> 00:27:57,076
CLEM SLEPT WITH OTHER MEN
BECAUSE IT WAS HER CHOICE.
583
00:27:57,109 --> 00:27:59,445
- NO.
- IT'S HER LIFE!
584
00:27:59,478 --> 00:28:02,314
SHE CHOOSES
TO SLEEP WITH 12 MEN.
585
00:28:02,348 --> 00:28:04,884
THAT'S HER
MAGNIFICENT CHOICE.
586
00:28:04,917 --> 00:28:08,520
PAUL, YOU'RE NOT
ADDICTED TO ALCOHOL.
587
00:28:09,688 --> 00:28:11,824
YOU'RE ADDICTED TO BLAME.
588
00:28:11,858 --> 00:28:15,061
I KNOW WHAT I DID.
589
00:28:15,094 --> 00:28:17,063
I LIED.
590
00:28:17,096 --> 00:28:19,999
I LIED CONSISTENTLY
FOR THE 18 MONTHS
WE WERE TOGETHER.
591
00:28:20,032 --> 00:28:22,234
I BARELY LET OUT A SINGLE
WORD THAT WAS TRUE.
592
00:28:22,268 --> 00:28:24,070
YES, BUT WHY?
593
00:28:24,103 --> 00:28:25,571
WHY DO YOU THINK?
LIKE ALL DRINKERS,
594
00:28:25,604 --> 00:28:27,373
TO HIDE MY DRINKING,
OF COURSE.
595
00:28:27,406 --> 00:28:29,675
WAS THAT ALL?
596
00:28:29,708 --> 00:28:32,311
IF I'M HONEST,
ALSO TO HIDE MY CONTEMPT.
597
00:28:32,344 --> 00:28:34,480
- HIDE YOUR CONTEMPT FOR WHAT?
- IF YOU MUST KNOW,
598
00:28:34,513 --> 00:28:36,916
- I HID MY CONTEMPT
FOR HER ACTING.
- WHY?
599
00:28:36,949 --> 00:28:39,318
- BECAUSE IT WAS FUCKING AWFUL.
- BAD, WAS IT?
600
00:28:39,351 --> 00:28:41,587
IT WAS EMBARRASSING.
IT WAS THE PITS.
601
00:28:41,620 --> 00:28:43,589
SO YOU WERE IN A LONG-TERM
RELATIONSHIP
602
00:28:43,622 --> 00:28:47,093
WITH WHAT IS KNOWN TECHNICALLY
AS A BAD ACTRESS.
603
00:28:47,126 --> 00:28:49,595
VERY FUNNY.
604
00:28:49,628 --> 00:28:51,197
SEEMS TO BE CLEAR
WHAT DROVE YOU TO DRINK.
605
00:28:53,432 --> 00:28:55,935
- I CAN'T DO THIS.
- DO WHAT?
606
00:28:55,968 --> 00:28:58,537
ARGUE.
RELATE.
607
00:28:58,570 --> 00:29:01,841
I GOT OUT OF THIS.
I PUT IT ALL BEHIND ME.
608
00:29:01,874 --> 00:29:04,010
I'VE BEEN DRY
FOR OVER A YEAR.
609
00:29:04,043 --> 00:29:06,145
I HAVE ONE THREAD OF HOPE.
610
00:29:06,178 --> 00:29:08,881
I GO TO MEETINGS.
I CAN'T--
611
00:29:08,915 --> 00:29:11,250
YOU CAN'T WHAT, PAUL?
YOU CAN'T WHAT?
612
00:29:11,283 --> 00:29:12,785
I CAN'T--
I CAN'T--
613
00:29:12,819 --> 00:29:15,654
YOU CAN'T WHAT?
614
00:29:37,576 --> 00:29:39,611
Victor:
ELSA.
615
00:29:42,714 --> 00:29:44,550
ELSA.
616
00:29:44,583 --> 00:29:46,986
I'M HERE.
617
00:29:47,019 --> 00:29:49,688
VICTOR, I'M HERE.
618
00:29:49,721 --> 00:29:52,058
( panting )
619
00:29:52,091 --> 00:29:54,693
Woman:
WELL, WE HAD A MASSIVE FIGHT,
620
00:29:54,726 --> 00:29:57,096
SCREAMING AT EACH OTHER.
621
00:29:57,129 --> 00:29:58,664
HE WAS SCREAMING AT ME,
"YOU'RE A BITCH.
622
00:29:58,697 --> 00:30:00,666
YOU'RE A FUCKING BITCH."
623
00:30:02,201 --> 00:30:03,602
AND I PICKED UP A CHAIR--
624
00:30:03,635 --> 00:30:05,905
I MEAN,
I'M NOT A BIG WOMAN.
625
00:30:05,938 --> 00:30:07,639
ALL I COULD THINK WAS
626
00:30:07,673 --> 00:30:10,076
"I'M GOING TO KILL
THIS FUCKING BASTARD."
627
00:30:10,109 --> 00:30:13,345
AND MY DAUGHTER WAS
SCREAMING AT ME TO STOP.
628
00:30:13,379 --> 00:30:16,382
I MEAN, ALL I CAN REMEMBER
WAS THE LOOK
629
00:30:16,415 --> 00:30:18,050
OF ABSOLUTE TERROR
630
00:30:18,084 --> 00:30:20,719
AND HORROR ON HER FACE.
631
00:30:20,752 --> 00:30:23,522
I THINK ABOUT
THE FIFTH STEP,
632
00:30:23,555 --> 00:30:26,325
ADMITTING THE WRONGS.
633
00:30:27,894 --> 00:30:30,729
AT LEAST I'VE ADMITTED
THEM TO MYSELF.
634
00:30:30,762 --> 00:30:33,665
I HAVEN'T HAD A DRINK
SINCE THAT NIGHT.
635
00:30:33,699 --> 00:30:36,869
AND I'D HAVE TO
THANK HER I SUPPOSE,
636
00:30:36,903 --> 00:30:41,007
AS MUCH AS
EVERYBODY HERE
637
00:30:41,040 --> 00:30:44,010
WHO'S HELPED ME SO MUCH.
638
00:30:44,043 --> 00:30:47,379
Paul's voice:
ON THE WHOLE,
ALL THINGS CONSIDERED,
639
00:30:47,413 --> 00:30:49,982
I THINK I CAN SAY NOW
WITH SOME CERTAINTY
640
00:30:50,016 --> 00:30:52,084
THAT ELSA WAS NOT
WHAT I NEEDED.
641
00:30:52,118 --> 00:30:53,953
I WAS A RECOVERING
ALCOHOLIC.
642
00:30:53,986 --> 00:30:56,155
I NEEDED STABILITY.
643
00:30:56,188 --> 00:30:58,590
AN AWFUL LOT
OF FASCINATING THINGS
644
00:30:58,624 --> 00:31:01,060
HAPPEN WHEN YOU GET INVOLVED
WITH ELSA QUINN,
645
00:31:01,093 --> 00:31:03,862
BUT I DON'T NUMBER
STABILITY AMONG THEM.
646
00:31:09,135 --> 00:31:11,337
I DIDN'T SEE VICTOR
ON A DAILY BASIS.
647
00:31:11,370 --> 00:31:15,007
I BEGAN TO THINK HE'D HIRED
ME AND FORGOTTEN ME.
648
00:31:15,041 --> 00:31:16,875
AND I NEVER SAW ELSA.
649
00:31:16,909 --> 00:31:19,745
BUT ONE EVENING,
QUITE CASUALLY,
650
00:31:19,778 --> 00:31:21,747
FOR NO REASON IT SEEMED,
651
00:31:21,780 --> 00:31:23,849
VICTOR ASKED ME BACK
TO THEIR PLACE.
652
00:31:23,882 --> 00:31:26,452
PERHAPS I SHOULD HAVE SAID NO,
BUT I DIDN'T KNOW HOW.
653
00:31:27,686 --> 00:31:29,555
AND BESIDES,
I'D NEVER MET ANYONE
654
00:31:29,588 --> 00:31:31,290
WHO ACTUALLY LIVED
IN REGENTS PARK.
655
00:31:31,323 --> 00:31:34,260
PAUL.
I'M MAKING MARGARITAS,
656
00:31:34,293 --> 00:31:36,528
BUT THERE'S NO WAY
I'M GOING TO OFFER YOU ONE.
657
00:31:36,562 --> 00:31:37,997
THERE'S NO WAY
I'M GOING TO DRINK ONE.
658
00:31:38,030 --> 00:31:40,432
- QUITE RIGHT.
- THANK YOU.
659
00:31:44,436 --> 00:31:47,373
SUMMER AT LAST.
BEAUTIFUL ISN'T IT?
660
00:31:49,175 --> 00:31:51,277
YOU'RE VERY LUCKY.
661
00:31:51,310 --> 00:31:54,146
- DO YOU REMEMBER
HOW TO MAKE THEM?
- NOT CLEARLY.
662
00:31:54,180 --> 00:31:55,881
YOU PUT THE GLASS
IN THE FRIDGE,
663
00:31:55,914 --> 00:31:58,150
SALT AROUND THE GLASS.
664
00:31:58,184 --> 00:31:59,551
PUT THE TEQUILA
IN THE FREEZER.
665
00:31:59,585 --> 00:32:01,153
- COINTREAU IN THE SHAKER.
- THAT'S RIGHT.
666
00:32:01,187 --> 00:32:04,690
NOW WHAT YOU'RE AFTER IS
SOMETHING LIP-PUCKERINGLY COLD.
667
00:32:04,723 --> 00:32:06,492
IT SHOULD HAVE
THE KICK OF A DONKEY.
668
00:32:06,525 --> 00:32:09,461
COLD AS HELL IN THE MOUTH,
HOT AS HELL ON THE WAY DOWN.
669
00:32:09,495 --> 00:32:11,930
- WHAT COULD BE BETTER?
- IT DEPENDS.
670
00:32:11,964 --> 00:32:14,733
NOW GLASSES.
671
00:32:24,977 --> 00:32:27,379
SO WHAT DO YOU THINK?
672
00:32:27,413 --> 00:32:29,215
ABOUT WHAT?
673
00:32:29,248 --> 00:32:31,050
ABOUT THE PLACE?
674
00:32:33,585 --> 00:32:35,187
IT'S WONDERFUL.
675
00:32:35,221 --> 00:32:37,256
IT IS, ISN'T IT?
676
00:32:37,289 --> 00:32:39,225
YES, WE'VE ONLY BEEN
HERE SIX MONTHS.
677
00:32:39,258 --> 00:32:41,760
I DON'T KNOW
IF ELSA TOLD YOU.
678
00:32:41,793 --> 00:32:43,662
WHAT?
679
00:32:43,695 --> 00:32:47,066
I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSA'S
TOLD YOU IN GENERAL.
680
00:32:47,099 --> 00:32:48,800
IN GENERAL?
681
00:32:48,834 --> 00:32:50,936
I DON'T KNOW, JUST THIS
AND THAT REALLY.
682
00:32:50,969 --> 00:32:52,838
I'VE ONLY MET
HER ONCE, I THINK.
683
00:32:52,871 --> 00:32:55,241
ABOUT WHAT?
684
00:32:55,274 --> 00:32:56,908
ABOUT?
685
00:32:56,942 --> 00:32:59,078
YES. WHAT HAS ELSA
TOLD YOU ABOUT?
686
00:32:59,111 --> 00:33:01,547
- ABOUT THE HOUSE.
- OH, I SEE.
687
00:33:01,580 --> 00:33:04,516
SETTING HER HEART ON IT
AND HOW CONVENIENT IT IS.
688
00:33:05,817 --> 00:33:07,786
I DON'T WANT TO BORE YOU
WITH WHAT YOU ALREADY KNOW.
689
00:33:07,819 --> 00:33:09,555
- PLEASE.
- WHAT, BORE YOU?
690
00:33:09,588 --> 00:33:11,357
( laughs )
691
00:33:15,327 --> 00:33:17,096
- ELSA WHAT?
- HMM?
692
00:33:17,129 --> 00:33:19,098
ELSA WHAT?
693
00:33:19,131 --> 00:33:21,167
SHE TOLD YOU
IT WAS GREAT FOR HER
694
00:33:21,200 --> 00:33:22,868
BECAUSE IT WAS
SO NEAR WORK?
695
00:33:22,901 --> 00:33:25,003
SO SHE COULD WALK
TO WORK? WHAT?
696
00:33:25,037 --> 00:33:27,005
SOMETHING LIKE THAT.
697
00:33:29,775 --> 00:33:32,078
AND HOW IS WORK?
HOW ARE YOU GETTING ALONG?
698
00:33:32,111 --> 00:33:34,546
- OH--
- TO BE FRANK,
I'M SURPRISED.
699
00:33:34,580 --> 00:33:37,083
- WHY?
- I HAD YOU DOWN
AS A LUDDITE.
700
00:33:37,116 --> 00:33:40,552
- I CAN'T THINK WHY.
- THE STEREOTYPE OF A POET,
I'M AFRAID.
701
00:33:40,586 --> 00:33:44,256
POETS ALWAYS HAVE THIS LONGING
TO GO BACK, DON'T THEY?
702
00:33:44,290 --> 00:33:46,525
YOU KNOW, CHILDHOOD,
LOST LOVE.
703
00:33:46,558 --> 00:33:48,594
WHAT WOULD POETS
DO WITHOUT THEM?
704
00:33:48,627 --> 00:33:50,596
BUT WHY DID YOU APPOINT ME
705
00:33:50,629 --> 00:33:53,132
- UNLESS YOU THOUGHT
I COULD HANDLE IT?
- SOME PEOPLE CAN'T.
706
00:33:53,165 --> 00:33:55,567
AND IF I'D FAILED,
WOULD YOU HAVE SACKED ME?
707
00:33:55,601 --> 00:33:57,836
PAUL, WITH RELISH.
708
00:33:57,869 --> 00:34:00,706
PAUL.
GOODNESS.
709
00:34:00,739 --> 00:34:02,674
HOW ARE YOU?
710
00:34:02,708 --> 00:34:05,111
ELSA.
711
00:34:05,144 --> 00:34:07,779
SORRY. I INVITED PAUL
BACK FOR A DRINK.
712
00:34:07,813 --> 00:34:09,748
HE WAS AT A LOOSE END.
I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE NICE.
713
00:34:09,781 --> 00:34:11,483
IT IS.
IT IS NICE.
714
00:34:12,718 --> 00:34:14,453
HAVE YOU SAID HELLO
TO THE CHILDREN?
715
00:34:14,486 --> 00:34:16,054
I'D RATHER
DRINK MARGARITAS.
716
00:34:16,088 --> 00:34:19,191
- YOU GOT PAUL A COKE?
- I'M FINE.
717
00:34:19,225 --> 00:34:21,527
- I'M JUST ENJOYING
THE EVENING.
- OH, PERFECTION.
718
00:34:23,061 --> 00:34:25,831
VICTOR WAS SAYING
WHAT PLEASURE HE'D TAKE
IN SACKING ME.
719
00:34:25,864 --> 00:34:29,067
I'VE NO DOUBT.
"YOU HAVE TO BE RUTHLESS,"
720
00:34:29,101 --> 00:34:31,237
VICTOR ALWAYS SAYS,
721
00:34:31,270 --> 00:34:33,339
"OH, YOU HAVE TO BE
SO RUTHLESS IN LIFE."
722
00:34:33,372 --> 00:34:35,341
IT'S TRUE.
YOU DO.
723
00:34:35,374 --> 00:34:38,277
HE MANAGES TO
IMPLY THAT SOMEHOW
IT'S A TERRIFIC EFFORT.
724
00:34:38,310 --> 00:34:40,045
YOU DON'T LIKE TO SAY,
"VICTOR, FOR YOU
725
00:34:40,078 --> 00:34:42,881
- IT SEEMS TO COME
QUITE EASILY."
- ( laughs )
726
00:34:42,914 --> 00:34:44,816
I COULDN'T LOOK SOMEONE
IN THE EYE AND SACK THEM.
727
00:34:44,850 --> 00:34:47,018
COULDN'T YOU? WHY NOT?
WHAT WOULD STOP YOU?
728
00:34:47,052 --> 00:34:49,255
- SCRUPLES.
- SCRUPLES?
729
00:34:49,288 --> 00:34:51,257
SCRUPLES ABOUT WHAT?
730
00:34:51,290 --> 00:34:53,425
LOSING THEIR GOOD OPINION?
731
00:34:53,459 --> 00:34:55,127
IS THAT WHAT
MATTERS TO YOU?
732
00:34:55,161 --> 00:34:56,828
THAT THE WORLD THINKS
YOU'RE A NICE PERSON?
733
00:34:56,862 --> 00:34:58,697
- NO.
- WHAT THEN?
734
00:34:58,730 --> 00:35:01,099
THAT I SHOULD BE
A NICE PERSON.
735
00:35:01,133 --> 00:35:03,535
- AH, VERY GOOD.
- YES.
736
00:35:03,569 --> 00:35:06,205
BUT CAN ONE BE NICE
IN THIS WORLD?
737
00:35:06,238 --> 00:35:07,673
IS THERE SUCH
A THING AS NICE?
738
00:35:07,706 --> 00:35:09,375
THERE'S SUCH
A THING AS GOOD.
739
00:35:09,408 --> 00:35:12,010
GOOD, AS A NOUN, YES.
ELSA DOES GOOD.
740
00:35:12,043 --> 00:35:15,481
SHE ADMINISTERS A CHARITY,
SO BY DEFINITION MY WIFE
DOES GOOD.
741
00:35:15,514 --> 00:35:17,849
THE HOMELESS GET HOMES,
742
00:35:17,883 --> 00:35:20,719
THE ROOFLESS ROOFS.
BUT IS SHE GOOD?
743
00:35:20,752 --> 00:35:23,422
I DON'T CLAIM TO BE GOOD.
744
00:35:24,790 --> 00:35:26,858
THIS DRINK'S VERY STRONG.
745
00:35:26,892 --> 00:35:29,528
- IS IT?
- YES, IT'S VERY STRONG.
746
00:35:29,561 --> 00:35:32,764
- IT'S ALMOST PURE ALCOHOL.
- HMM.
747
00:35:34,666 --> 00:35:37,403
OF COURSE, THERE WAS ONE TIME
WITH SOMETHING CALLED GOOD.
748
00:35:37,436 --> 00:35:39,238
WHEN I WAS YOUNG
THERE WAS SOMETHING CALLED
THE COMMON GOOD.
749
00:35:39,271 --> 00:35:42,308
THAT PHRASE HAS A WONDERFUL
PERIOD RING TO IT.
750
00:35:42,341 --> 00:35:44,576
IT'S RATHER GONE
OUT OF FASHION NOW,
DON'T YOU THINK?
751
00:35:44,610 --> 00:35:47,446
IF I'D BEEN CLEVERER
I'D HAVE SPOTTED THAT SOONER.
752
00:35:47,479 --> 00:35:50,115
I WOULDN'T HAVE WASTED
ALL THOSE YEARS OUTSIDE
THE FACTORY GATES.
753
00:35:50,148 --> 00:35:52,918
- WERE THEY WASTED?
- WELL, I'D HAVE ENTERED
THIS BUSINESS EARLIER.
754
00:35:52,951 --> 00:35:55,821
HENCE, I'D BE RICHER.
I'D BE FREER.
755
00:35:55,854 --> 00:35:57,623
I'D HAVE AN EVEN
BIGGER HOUSE.
756
00:35:57,656 --> 00:35:59,591
YOU DON'T THINK
YOU'RE SOUNDING
757
00:35:59,625 --> 00:36:02,594
JUST A LITTLE BIT IMPERIAL,
MY DARLING?
758
00:36:02,628 --> 00:36:04,263
JUST A LITTLE.
759
00:36:04,296 --> 00:36:05,864
SOMETHING IN THE MOOD
OF THE EVENING PERHAPS.
760
00:36:18,176 --> 00:36:19,945
DID ELSA TELL YOU
HOW WE MET?
761
00:36:19,978 --> 00:36:21,780
NO.
762
00:36:21,813 --> 00:36:24,983
I MET HER IN A BAR.
IT'S TRUE.
763
00:36:25,016 --> 00:36:27,619
IN COPENHAGEN.
SHE WAS SMASHED.
764
00:36:31,957 --> 00:36:34,092
HAD YOU BEEN
MARRIED BEFORE?
765
00:36:34,125 --> 00:36:35,661
NEVER.
766
00:36:35,694 --> 00:36:37,596
VICTOR DOESN'T BELIEVE
THE YOUNG SHOULD MARRY.
767
00:36:37,629 --> 00:36:38,797
Victor:
IT'S SO.
768
00:36:38,830 --> 00:36:40,466
IT'S ONE OF HIS
FAVORITE THEORIES.
769
00:36:40,499 --> 00:36:43,001
TRY ME.
770
00:36:43,034 --> 00:36:44,436
WELL, I'D HAVE THOUGHT
IT WAS OBVIOUS.
771
00:36:44,470 --> 00:36:47,873
IT'S A PROBLEM OF EVOLUTION.
ASK A DARWINIST.
772
00:36:47,906 --> 00:36:50,809
FIDELITY IS EFFECTIVELY
IMPOSSIBLE WHEN YOU'RE YOUNG.
773
00:36:50,842 --> 00:36:53,211
IN MY EXPERIENCE, YOU LEAVE
THE YOUNG ALONE FIVE MINUTES,
774
00:36:53,245 --> 00:36:55,981
AT ONCE THEY FUCK EACH OTHER.
WELL, YOU'D KNOW ABOUT THIS.
775
00:36:56,014 --> 00:36:58,450
- WOULD I?
- I'M SPECULATING.
776
00:36:58,484 --> 00:37:01,853
I LOOK AT THE
YOUNG MEN IN MY OFFICE.
777
00:37:01,887 --> 00:37:03,855
I MISS NOTHING.
778
00:37:03,889 --> 00:37:06,825
I LOVE OFFICE ROMANCE.
I ADORE IT.
779
00:37:06,858 --> 00:37:09,861
I LOOK AT THEM ALL WITH
THEIR STIFF LITTLE COCKS
780
00:37:09,895 --> 00:37:12,364
AND THE WOMEN WET--
WET WITH LONGING,
781
00:37:12,398 --> 00:37:14,199
LONGING FOR ADVENTURE.
782
00:37:14,232 --> 00:37:17,168
AND I THINK,
"NO CHANCE."
783
00:37:21,740 --> 00:37:24,175
SO YOU THINK TO GET MARRIED
YOU HAVE TO BE OLDER?
784
00:37:24,209 --> 00:37:26,011
WELL, PLAINLY,
IT'S A PLUS.
785
00:37:26,044 --> 00:37:27,479
SAY VICTOR'S AGE.
786
00:37:27,513 --> 00:37:29,047
BUT ELSA WAS YOUNG.
787
00:37:29,080 --> 00:37:31,950
YES.
SHE WAS ALSO EXCEPTIONAL.
788
00:37:31,983 --> 00:37:33,319
AND SHE HAD TWO CHILDREN.
789
00:37:33,352 --> 00:37:35,754
I DIDN'T REALIZE.
I THOUGHT THEY WERE YOURS.
790
00:37:35,787 --> 00:37:37,689
NO, NOT MINE.
791
00:37:37,723 --> 00:37:39,157
I ARRIVED
WITH THE CHILDREN.
792
00:37:39,190 --> 00:37:42,328
SO WHAT?
YOU JUST WALKED INTO
A BAR AND SAW HER?
793
00:37:42,361 --> 00:37:44,129
SHE WAS IRRESISTIBLE.
794
00:37:44,162 --> 00:37:46,532
TELL PAUL WHAT YOU SAID.
795
00:37:46,565 --> 00:37:48,567
( chuckles )
796
00:37:50,569 --> 00:37:52,203
I TOLD HER SHE WAS FRUIT
797
00:37:52,237 --> 00:37:54,573
THAT HAD FALLEN
TO THE GROUND.
798
00:37:54,606 --> 00:37:56,875
YES, A LONG TIME AGO.
799
00:37:56,908 --> 00:37:58,043
NOT FOR ME.
800
00:37:59,411 --> 00:38:01,380
SOFT FRUIT.
801
00:38:04,716 --> 00:38:07,185
VICTOR HATES PHILANDERERS.
802
00:38:07,218 --> 00:38:09,020
IT'S TRUE, I DO.
803
00:38:09,054 --> 00:38:10,589
YES, HE HATES THEM.
804
00:38:10,622 --> 00:38:12,257
YOU SAY TO A GIRL
YOU LOVE HER.
805
00:38:12,290 --> 00:38:13,792
"YOU'RE MY WHOLE WORLD,"
YOU SAY.
806
00:38:13,825 --> 00:38:16,027
A COUPLE OF WEEKS LATER
YOU'RE SAYING THE SAME THING,
807
00:38:16,061 --> 00:38:18,897
ONLY THIS TIME
IT'S TO SOMEONE ELSE.
WHAT'S YOUR EXCUSE?
808
00:38:18,930 --> 00:38:21,933
THINGS ARE TRUE
OR THEY AREN'T.
809
00:38:26,838 --> 00:38:30,576
WAIT. I'LL GET
THAT COKE.
810
00:38:41,553 --> 00:38:43,922
- I'M NOT GOING TO SURVIVE.
- IT'S VICTOR.
811
00:38:43,955 --> 00:38:45,624
- I CAN'T SURVIVE THIS.
- HE'S JUST BEING VICTOR,
THAT'S ALL.
812
00:38:45,657 --> 00:38:47,459
JESUS, THEY TELL YOU
AT MEETINGS
813
00:38:47,493 --> 00:38:50,261
IT'S THE GOLDEN RULE:
AT ALL COSTS, AVOID STRESS.
814
00:38:50,295 --> 00:38:52,130
DO YOU WANT A MARGARITA?
815
00:38:52,163 --> 00:38:54,733
- NO, THANK YOU.
- IT MIGHT GET YOU THROUGH.
816
00:38:54,766 --> 00:38:57,302
- NO THANK YOU.
- IT'S GETTING ME THROUGH.
817
00:39:02,808 --> 00:39:05,744
WHAT IS IT?
WAS IT JUST CHANCE
HE ASKED ME BACK HERE?
818
00:39:05,777 --> 00:39:07,679
OF COURSE.
CHANCE.
819
00:39:07,713 --> 00:39:09,915
THAT'S VICTOR.
IT'S WHIM.
820
00:39:09,948 --> 00:39:13,084
STIFF LITTLE COCKS?
WHAT'S GOING ON?
821
00:39:13,118 --> 00:39:15,521
"THE YOUNG MEN WITH
THEIR STIFF LITTLE COCKS."
822
00:39:15,554 --> 00:39:17,523
PAUL,
THERE'S NO CONSPIRACY.
823
00:39:17,556 --> 00:39:19,391
IT'S A SUMMER EVENING.
824
00:39:19,425 --> 00:39:21,760
WE'RE HAVING A DRINK,
ENJOYING THE EVENING.
825
00:39:21,793 --> 00:39:25,296
ELSA, YOU'RE MARRIED,
FOR CHRIST'S SAKE.
826
00:39:25,330 --> 00:39:26,998
YOU'VE GOT TWO CHILDREN.
827
00:39:27,032 --> 00:39:28,800
SO?
828
00:39:28,834 --> 00:39:30,436
WHAT DID WE DO?
829
00:39:30,469 --> 00:39:32,504
I'VE BEEN THINKING
ABOUT IT EVER SINCE.
830
00:39:32,538 --> 00:39:34,272
WHAT THE HELL
WERE WE DOING?
831
00:39:34,305 --> 00:39:36,341
- WE KISSED.
- YES.
832
00:39:36,374 --> 00:39:38,444
WE KISSED IN THE OFFICE.
833
00:39:38,477 --> 00:39:40,278
YEAH, IT WAS GREAT.
834
00:39:40,311 --> 00:39:41,947
BUT WE'RE NOT
GOING TO DO IT AGAIN.
835
00:39:41,980 --> 00:39:43,515
HOW WAS IT?
HOW DID YOU SAY IT WAS?
836
00:39:43,549 --> 00:39:45,784
GREAT, DID YOU SAY?
DID YOU SAY IT WAS GREAT?
837
00:39:47,519 --> 00:39:49,521
I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE
GOING TO SAY AND I DON'T
WANT TO HEAR IT.
838
00:39:49,555 --> 00:39:51,322
GREAT BECAUSE
YOU WERE TOUCHED?
839
00:39:51,356 --> 00:39:53,825
GREAT BECAUSE I REACHED YOU?
SOMETHING REACHED YOU?
840
00:39:53,859 --> 00:39:56,628
- SOMETHING MADE YOU
FEEL YOU WERE ALIVE?
- YES.
841
00:39:56,662 --> 00:39:59,330
GREAT BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT ALONE
IN A ROOM IN CAMBERWELL?
842
00:39:59,364 --> 00:40:01,833
GREAT BECAUSE FOR
90 MINUTES IN MY COMPANY
843
00:40:01,867 --> 00:40:04,503
YOU WEREN'T
ACTUALLY SCARED?
844
00:40:04,536 --> 00:40:06,271
I'M SCARED NOW.
845
00:40:07,539 --> 00:40:11,009
ELSA, I CAN'T LOVE YOU
WITHOUT ALCOHOL.
846
00:40:11,042 --> 00:40:13,779
I CAN LOVE YOU
AND DRINK
847
00:40:13,812 --> 00:40:15,781
OR I CAN NOT LOVE YOU
AND NOT DRINK.
848
00:40:15,814 --> 00:40:17,382
THAT'S THE CHOICE.
849
00:40:17,415 --> 00:40:19,451
- NOTHING IN BETWEEN?
- NO.
850
00:40:19,485 --> 00:40:22,120
NOTHING FOR THE REST
OF YOUR LIFE?
851
00:40:22,153 --> 00:40:24,923
THAT'S THE CHOICE
FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE?
852
00:40:26,024 --> 00:40:28,193
DIET COKE, SO IT IS.
853
00:40:28,226 --> 00:40:29,861
Paul:
WELL, THAT'S BEEN
WORTH WAITING FOR.
854
00:40:29,895 --> 00:40:32,931
- GOOD.
- I COULD MURDER A COKE.
THANK YOU.
855
00:40:39,104 --> 00:40:41,206
Paul's voice:
THE SUN WENT DOWN
AND THE THREE OF US
856
00:40:41,239 --> 00:40:43,174
STOOD WATCHING THE LOVERS.
857
00:40:43,208 --> 00:40:45,410
WE WATCHED
THE YOUNG PEOPLE KISSING.
858
00:40:45,443 --> 00:40:48,780
HOW REAL THEIR HAPPINESS
SEEMED AND HOW SIMPLE.
859
00:40:48,814 --> 00:40:51,182
- WHY DON'T YOU HAVE DINNER
WITH US, TONIGHT?
- YES.
860
00:40:51,216 --> 00:40:54,786
THANK YOU.
I DON'T THINK I CAN.
861
00:40:54,820 --> 00:40:57,155
YOU KNOW,
THERE'S A RESTAURANT
ROUND THE CORNER.
862
00:40:57,188 --> 00:40:58,590
I WAS THERE
THE OTHER EVENING.
863
00:40:58,624 --> 00:41:01,560
THEIR MENU IS
DELIGHTFULLY GREEK.
864
00:41:01,593 --> 00:41:04,596
IT OFFERS STEAK COOKED
ON YOUR DESIRE.
865
00:41:04,630 --> 00:41:06,832
- ( laughs )
- GOODNESS.
866
00:41:06,865 --> 00:41:10,301
I TOLD THEM I'D LOVE
MY STEAK TO BE COOKED
ON MY DESIRE.
867
00:41:10,335 --> 00:41:11,770
IN FACT,
WHEN IT COMES TO IT,
868
00:41:11,803 --> 00:41:15,173
I'D LIKE A WHOLE MONGOLIAN
BARBECUE COOKED ON MY DESIRE.
869
00:41:15,206 --> 00:41:17,308
EVERYONE COULD FEAST.
KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
870
00:41:17,342 --> 00:41:19,210
VICTOR, ARE YOU DRUNK?
871
00:41:19,244 --> 00:41:22,447
THE WHOLE WORLD COULD
FEAST ON MY DESIRE.
872
00:41:22,480 --> 00:41:24,449
Paul's voice:
VICTOR TALKED.
873
00:41:24,482 --> 00:41:27,052
HE TALKED, IT SEEMED,
TO FILL THE AIR.
874
00:41:27,085 --> 00:41:29,054
I DIDN'T KNOW
WHAT WAS HAPPENING.
875
00:41:29,087 --> 00:41:32,157
I COULDN'T TELL WHAT
HE KNEW, WHETHER HE KNEW
ANYTHING AT ALL.
876
00:41:32,190 --> 00:41:34,059
WITH VICTOR
I WAS NEVER SURE.
877
00:41:34,092 --> 00:41:37,095
BUT I KNEW THE BEST THING
WAS JUST TO KEEP QUIET,
878
00:41:37,128 --> 00:41:39,397
JUST TO LET HIM TALK.
879
00:41:39,430 --> 00:41:41,767
DID I EVER TELL YOU
I WAS A TOUR GUIDE
FOR A WHILE?
880
00:41:41,800 --> 00:41:43,635
ON TOP OF A DOUBLE-DECKER?
881
00:41:43,669 --> 00:41:46,805
I NEVER TOLD YOU, DID I?
AFTER I LEFT THE PARTY.
882
00:41:46,838 --> 00:41:49,507
I USED TO SPECIALIZED IN
883
00:41:49,541 --> 00:41:51,342
MISLEADING INFORMATION.
884
00:41:51,376 --> 00:41:53,344
I USED TO LOVE
POINTING OUT THE PLACE
885
00:41:53,378 --> 00:41:55,113
WHERE GENERAL EISENHOWER,
886
00:41:55,146 --> 00:41:58,850
IN ORDER TO THANK
THE BRITISH PEOPLE FOR THEIR
HEROIC WAR EFFORT,
887
00:41:58,884 --> 00:42:02,020
ERECTED A LIFE-SIZE STATUE
OF MICKEY MOUSE.
888
00:42:02,053 --> 00:42:04,923
- ( both laugh )
- I ALWAYS SAID LIFE-SIZE.
889
00:42:04,956 --> 00:42:07,659
I LOVED SAYING LIFE-SIZE.
890
00:42:07,693 --> 00:42:10,261
ALWAYS, "WE ARE NOW
PASSING THE SPOT
891
00:42:10,295 --> 00:42:13,264
WHERE LORD NELSON FIRST
MADE LOVE TO LADY HAMILTON."
892
00:42:13,298 --> 00:42:15,701
I USUALLY CHOSE
THE ELEPHANT AND CASTLE.
893
00:42:15,734 --> 00:42:18,369
- WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?
- HMM?
894
00:42:18,403 --> 00:42:20,706
THEY SAW IT, YOU SEE?
THEY SAW THE STATUE.
895
00:42:20,739 --> 00:42:22,808
PEOPLE ARE THAT GULLIBLE?
896
00:42:22,841 --> 00:42:24,342
NO NO,
THEY'RE ROMANTIC.
897
00:42:24,375 --> 00:42:26,712
THEY SEE THE STATUE
WHEN IT ISN'T THERE.
898
00:42:26,745 --> 00:42:28,980
HMM?
( laughs )
899
00:42:29,014 --> 00:42:31,482
OH GOD,
LIFE-SIZE MICKEY MOUSE.
900
00:42:31,516 --> 00:42:34,185
Paul's voice:
NOTHING HAD PASSED BETWEEN
US SAVE A KISS.
901
00:42:34,219 --> 00:42:36,922
ONE KISS GRABBED ONE EVENING
IN AN EMPTY OFFICE.
902
00:42:36,955 --> 00:42:40,759
WHY HAD SHE GIVEN IT?
WHAT HAD IT MEANT?
903
00:42:40,792 --> 00:42:43,294
VICTOR SAYS WE SHALL
KNOW NOTHING
904
00:42:43,328 --> 00:42:45,230
UNTIL WE ARE LAID OUT
ON OUR ZINC BEDS.
905
00:42:45,263 --> 00:42:47,398
GOODNESS.
WHAT A MACABRE THOUGHT.
906
00:42:47,432 --> 00:42:50,401
NOT REALLY, NO.
I'M JUST HOPING
THAT AFTERWARDS
907
00:42:50,435 --> 00:42:52,303
THEY'RE PLANNING TO TELL
ME WHAT IT ALL MEANT,
908
00:42:52,337 --> 00:42:54,906
BECAUSE I DON'T THINK
THERE'S MUCH CHANCE OF
FINDING OUT AT THE TIME.
909
00:43:00,011 --> 00:43:02,280
YOU KNOW, SHE REFUSES
TO GIVE ME CHILDREN...
910
00:43:03,381 --> 00:43:05,751
ON THE GROUNDS THAT SHE
HAS CHILDREN ALREADY.
911
00:43:05,784 --> 00:43:08,754
- IT'S A POINT OF
DIFFERENCE BETWEEN US.
- I SEE.
912
00:43:08,787 --> 00:43:10,922
I HAD MY CHILDREN
ACCIDENTALLY
913
00:43:10,956 --> 00:43:12,824
WHEN I WAS YOUNG
AND STUPID.
914
00:43:12,858 --> 00:43:15,426
I'VE JUST NEVER FELT
READY TO HAVE ANY MORE.
915
00:43:15,460 --> 00:43:17,062
THERE IT IS.
916
00:43:22,500 --> 00:43:24,402
THE BOYS, BY THE WAY,
THEY'RE WONDERFUL.
917
00:43:24,435 --> 00:43:25,871
HOW OLD ARE THEY?
918
00:43:25,904 --> 00:43:28,306
14 AND 11.
919
00:43:30,241 --> 00:43:31,943
BY DIFFERENT FATHERS.
920
00:43:35,280 --> 00:43:38,349
OH YES,
I MADE A REAL MESS.
921
00:43:38,383 --> 00:43:39,885
NO.
922
00:43:39,918 --> 00:43:42,754
THINKING IN
THAT AWFUL YOUNG WAY
923
00:43:42,788 --> 00:43:44,756
THAT I COULD DO ANYTHING,
924
00:43:44,790 --> 00:43:46,925
COPE WITH ANYTHING.
925
00:43:46,958 --> 00:43:49,127
WELL, YOU HAVE.
926
00:44:06,111 --> 00:44:08,146
Paul:
I'D LIKE A DRINK.
927
00:44:10,982 --> 00:44:13,251
I WONDER,
COULD I HAVE A DRINK?
928
00:44:16,121 --> 00:44:18,223
I'LL HAVE JUST THE ONE.
929
00:44:18,256 --> 00:44:19,490
ARE YOU SURE?
930
00:44:21,793 --> 00:44:23,962
OH, YEAH.
RIGHT.
931
00:44:38,109 --> 00:44:40,445
THERE.
932
00:44:40,478 --> 00:44:42,981
THANK YOU.
933
00:44:43,014 --> 00:44:45,450
I'LL JUST GO AND LOOK IN
ON THE BOYS, SHALL I?
934
00:44:45,483 --> 00:44:47,185
THEN WE SHOULD EAT.
935
00:44:47,218 --> 00:44:49,520
YEAH.
936
00:44:51,289 --> 00:44:53,658
EAT WITH US, PAUL.
937
00:45:11,309 --> 00:45:13,444
I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE.
938
00:45:13,478 --> 00:45:16,014
I AM TOO.
939
00:45:33,231 --> 00:45:35,533
( crowd chattering )
940
00:45:46,377 --> 00:45:49,314
( siren wailing )
941
00:46:15,573 --> 00:46:17,843
Paul's voice:
THERE ARE ALWAYS A THOUSAND
REASONS TO DRINK,
942
00:46:17,876 --> 00:46:19,945
BUT NOT MANY REASONS
NOT TO.
943
00:46:21,446 --> 00:46:23,982
I TOLD MYSELF IT WAS BECAUSE
I WAS BEING DICKED AROUND,
944
00:46:24,015 --> 00:46:25,951
IT WASN'T MY FAULT.
945
00:46:25,984 --> 00:46:28,386
PEOPLE WERE BEHAVING
IN BEWILDERING WAYS,
946
00:46:28,419 --> 00:46:30,455
AND WHAT WAS
I MEANT TO DO?
947
00:46:30,488 --> 00:46:33,124
THAT'S ONE OF THE THINGS
ABOUT BEING AN ALCOHOLIC.
948
00:46:33,158 --> 00:46:35,994
IT'S ALWAYS EASY
TO PLAY THE VICTIM.
949
00:46:37,829 --> 00:46:39,797
BUT LOOKING BACK ON THE SUMMER,
YOU MIGHT WELL ASK...
950
00:46:39,831 --> 00:46:41,566
- ( buzzer buzzing )
- ...WHICH ONE OF US
WAS THE VICTIM
951
00:46:41,599 --> 00:46:44,069
AND WHICH ONE WAS DOING
THE DICKING AROUND?
952
00:46:45,636 --> 00:46:47,738
OH, GOD!
953
00:46:47,772 --> 00:46:50,408
I KNOW.
I KNOW.
954
00:46:50,441 --> 00:46:52,143
CAN I COME IN?
955
00:46:52,177 --> 00:46:53,778
YOU'RE DRUNK.
956
00:46:53,811 --> 00:46:55,246
I WOULDN'T SAY
I WAS DRUNK.
957
00:46:55,280 --> 00:46:57,215
I'D SAY I'VE BEEN
DRINKING.
958
00:47:07,325 --> 00:47:10,261
DO I FIND YOU
JUST A LITTLE BIT RATTY?
959
00:47:10,295 --> 00:47:13,031
NO. MORE A LITTLE
BIT GUILTY.
960
00:47:13,064 --> 00:47:15,200
WHY?
961
00:47:15,233 --> 00:47:17,535
BECAUSE WE THOUGHT
YOU COULD HANDLE IT.
962
00:47:17,568 --> 00:47:20,138
VICTOR AND I, WE THOUGHT
YOU COULD HANDLE IT.
963
00:47:20,171 --> 00:47:22,807
OF COURSE
I CAN'T HANDLE IT!
964
00:47:22,840 --> 00:47:25,110
I'M IN AA
FOR CHRIST'S SAKE.
965
00:47:25,143 --> 00:47:27,345
I'VE GOT
A PHYSIO-FUCKING-WHATSIT
966
00:47:27,378 --> 00:47:29,447
CHEMICAL RELATIONSHIP
WITH ALCOHOL.
967
00:47:29,480 --> 00:47:31,116
I'M AN ALKY.
968
00:47:31,149 --> 00:47:33,684
WHAT ON EARTH MADE YOU
THINK I COULD HANDLE IT?
969
00:47:33,718 --> 00:47:35,720
COFFEE?
970
00:47:37,688 --> 00:47:39,557
ME, I'M GOING TO
HAVE A DRINK
971
00:47:39,590 --> 00:47:42,493
AND YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED.
972
00:47:42,527 --> 00:47:45,496
AND ANOTHER THING.
I'M WRITING AGAIN.
973
00:47:45,530 --> 00:47:48,934
IT'S TRUE.
POETRY POURING OUT OF ME.
974
00:47:48,967 --> 00:47:50,268
SO IS THAT WHAT
THIS WAS ABOUT?
975
00:47:50,301 --> 00:47:51,970
YOU REALLY CAN'T WRITE
WHEN YOU'RE DRY?
976
00:47:52,003 --> 00:47:53,939
IS THAT WHAT YOU'RE
FRIGHTENED OF?
977
00:47:53,972 --> 00:47:58,443
POETS ARE STUBBORN FUCKERS.
YOU HAVE TO BE.
978
00:47:58,476 --> 00:48:00,578
I MEAN, THERE'S NO DANGER
OF DYING OF ENCOURAGEMENT.
979
00:48:00,611 --> 00:48:03,781
I WROTE A POEM
ABOUT YOU.
980
00:48:05,216 --> 00:48:07,752
IT'S HERE SOMEWHERE.
OH, FUCK.
981
00:48:07,785 --> 00:48:10,221
I MEAN,
THEY DON'T TELL YOU,
DO THEY?
982
00:48:10,255 --> 00:48:12,790
THAT NIGHT
WITH THE MARGARITAS,
I TOOK ONE SIP
983
00:48:12,823 --> 00:48:14,492
AND I THOUGHT,
"YES.
984
00:48:14,525 --> 00:48:17,062
I REMEMBER.
DRINK MAKES YOU HAPPY."
985
00:48:17,095 --> 00:48:18,363
BRIEFLY.
986
00:48:18,396 --> 00:48:20,298
OH, WHAT, AND WE LOOK DOWN
ON BRIEFLY, DO WE?
987
00:48:20,331 --> 00:48:22,167
NO.
WE DISTRUST BRIEFLY.
988
00:48:22,200 --> 00:48:24,469
HAVING ANOTHER ONE?
989
00:48:24,502 --> 00:48:26,304
WHY, ARE YOU COUNTING?
990
00:48:26,337 --> 00:48:28,473
DID SOMEONE
GIVE YOU FLOWERS?
991
00:48:28,506 --> 00:48:30,508
NO.
THEY'RE FOR YOU.
992
00:48:34,012 --> 00:48:36,214
POETRY.
FLOWERS.
993
00:48:37,748 --> 00:48:40,651
I'D KISS YOU,
BUT I SUSPECT I SMELL
LIKE A PET SHOP.
994
00:48:58,569 --> 00:49:00,905
- Elsa: I WAS EXPECTING YOU.
- REALLY?
995
00:49:00,938 --> 00:49:03,241
YES, AS SOON AS VICTOR
LEFT THE COUNTRY.
996
00:49:03,274 --> 00:49:05,776
I THOUGHT YOU'D COME
DOGTROTTING ACROSS THE PARK.
997
00:49:08,146 --> 00:49:11,382
- WHERE ARE THE BOYS?
- WITH FRIENDS.
998
00:49:14,019 --> 00:49:17,422
IT WAS CLEVER OF YOU
TO FIND FLOWERS WITH ONLY
24 HOURS TO LIVE.
999
00:49:17,455 --> 00:49:20,591
I CAN THROW THEM OUT
BEFORE VICTOR GETS BACK
1000
00:49:20,625 --> 00:49:22,060
AND I WON'T HAVE TO ANSWER
HIS QUESTIONS.
1001
00:49:22,093 --> 00:49:25,096
WHY? HAS HE BEEN
ASKING QUESTIONS?
1002
00:49:25,130 --> 00:49:26,964
- WHAT DOES HE WANT?
- WHAT DOES HE WANT?
1003
00:49:26,998 --> 00:49:30,335
IT'S A MARRIAGE,
HOWEVER WONDERFUL.
1004
00:49:30,368 --> 00:49:32,903
FINALLY, IT'S A MARRIAGE
LIKE ANY OTHER.
1005
00:49:32,937 --> 00:49:34,372
DON'T YOU WRITE
ABOUT THESE THINGS?
1006
00:49:34,405 --> 00:49:36,207
- DO I?
- AREN'T YOU A WRITER?
1007
00:49:36,241 --> 00:49:38,909
OR DOES PETER PAN
NOT GET MIXED UP IN
THIS KIND OF STUFF?
1008
00:49:38,943 --> 00:49:41,612
DON'T YOU THINK WE HAVE
TO DISCUSS THIS?
1009
00:49:41,646 --> 00:49:43,248
WE'VE REACHED DEADLOCK,
THAT'S ALL.
1010
00:49:43,281 --> 00:49:44,915
HOW?
1011
00:49:46,451 --> 00:49:48,453
ISN'T IT OBVIOUS?
1012
00:49:48,486 --> 00:49:51,322
HE'S RESTLESS.
YOU CAN SEE VICTOR
IS RESTLESS.
1013
00:49:51,356 --> 00:49:54,259
WE'VE REACHED A POINT
WHERE NEITHER OF US KNOWS
WHAT HAPPENS NEXT.
1014
00:49:56,094 --> 00:50:00,265
PAUL, I GO TO WORK EVERY DAY,
FOR GOD'S SAKE,
1015
00:50:00,298 --> 00:50:02,600
I GO TO THE FOUNDATION.
1016
00:50:04,435 --> 00:50:06,771
I SPEND THE DAY
IN PRACTICAL WAYS.
1017
00:50:06,804 --> 00:50:10,475
A HARD DAY'S PRACTICAL
WORK RAISING MONEY--
BEING PRACTICAL.
1018
00:50:10,508 --> 00:50:13,744
WHAT DO YOU CALL IT?
PUTTING SOMETHING BACK.
THAT'S WHAT I DO.
1019
00:50:13,778 --> 00:50:15,446
I PUT SOMETHING BACK.
1020
00:50:15,480 --> 00:50:19,450
THEN I COME HOME,
I WALK BACK THROUGH
THE PARK.
1021
00:50:19,484 --> 00:50:21,319
I'VE DONE IT FOR SIX YEARS.
1022
00:50:24,222 --> 00:50:26,524
I KEEP MY EYES DOWN.
1023
00:50:26,557 --> 00:50:29,527
I WORK EVERY DAY.
I'M CALM.
1024
00:50:29,560 --> 00:50:33,164
I COME HOME,
I TALK TO MY BOYS.
1025
00:50:33,198 --> 00:50:34,499
SO WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?
1026
00:50:34,532 --> 00:50:36,967
WHAT I'M SAYING IS,
1027
00:50:37,001 --> 00:50:40,138
IT'S ONLY BECAUSE OF VICTOR
THAT THE FOUNDATION EXISTS.
1028
00:50:40,171 --> 00:50:43,608
BUT IT'S ONLY BECAUSE
OF VICTOR THAT I EXIST.
1029
00:50:43,641 --> 00:50:45,042
I SEE.
1030
00:50:45,076 --> 00:50:46,977
I FEEL REAL
BECAUSE OF VICTOR.
1031
00:50:47,011 --> 00:50:48,779
- WHAT WERE YOU?
- WHAT WAS I?
1032
00:50:48,813 --> 00:50:51,116
YEAH, SOMEONE SAYS
YOU WERE AN AIR HOSTESS.
1033
00:50:51,149 --> 00:50:52,917
YES, I WAS
AN AIR HOSTESS,
1034
00:50:52,950 --> 00:50:56,020
I WAS A MODEL,
I WAS A SHOP ASSISTANT.
1035
00:50:56,053 --> 00:50:58,055
BUT WHAT WAS I REALLY?
1036
00:50:58,089 --> 00:51:00,591
I WAS A--
1037
00:51:00,625 --> 00:51:03,060
I WAS AN INTERNATIONAL
JUNKIE...
1038
00:51:03,094 --> 00:51:04,662
- OKAY.
- ...OF EPIC PROPORTIONS.
1039
00:51:04,695 --> 00:51:08,299
AND IF YOU'D SAID TO ME,
"LOOK, ONE DAY
1040
00:51:08,333 --> 00:51:09,834
YOU'LL MARRY YOUR FATHER
1041
00:51:09,867 --> 00:51:12,870
OR SOMEONE JUST LIKE
YOUR FATHER,
1042
00:51:12,903 --> 00:51:15,306
ONLY 50 TIMES KINDER,
50 TIMES NICER,"
1043
00:51:15,340 --> 00:51:18,042
THEN I WOULD NOT
HAVE BELIEVED YOU.
1044
00:51:18,075 --> 00:51:19,677
HOW WAS YOUR FATHER?
1045
00:51:19,710 --> 00:51:21,812
A PIG.
1046
00:51:21,846 --> 00:51:24,048
A DRUNK.
1047
00:51:24,081 --> 00:51:25,883
YOURS?
1048
00:51:25,916 --> 00:51:28,586
PIGGISH.
1049
00:51:30,788 --> 00:51:35,360
PAUL, I MADE
MYSELF A PROMISE.
1050
00:51:35,393 --> 00:51:37,195
- WHEN?
- SOME WEEKS AGO.
1051
00:51:37,228 --> 00:51:39,997
YOU THREW ME.
YOU THREW ME OFF COURSE.
1052
00:51:40,030 --> 00:51:42,200
- I DID?
- YES.
1053
00:51:42,233 --> 00:51:43,501
WHEN? THAT NIGHT?
WHEN WE KISSED?
1054
00:51:43,534 --> 00:51:45,336
THEN.
1055
00:51:45,370 --> 00:51:48,473
AND I MADE A DECISION NEVER
TO DISCUSS VICTOR WITH YOU.
1056
00:51:48,506 --> 00:51:50,508
I'M NOT ASKING YOU
TO DISS HIM.
1057
00:51:50,541 --> 00:51:52,877
I KNOW
WHAT YOU'RE ASKING.
1058
00:51:52,910 --> 00:51:55,346
- AND?
- I'M NOT GOING
TO TELL YOU.
1059
00:51:55,380 --> 00:51:57,748
WHAT?
1060
00:51:57,782 --> 00:52:00,451
- ANYTHING.
- OKAY. I WAS JUST ASKING.
1061
00:52:00,485 --> 00:52:03,921
LEAST OF ALL WHETHER
WE'RE HAPPY OR NOT.
1062
00:52:03,954 --> 00:52:05,523
ARE YOU?
1063
00:52:05,556 --> 00:52:07,325
- WHAT?
- HAPPY?
1064
00:52:10,595 --> 00:52:12,563
DO YOU THINK
YOU NEED THE GLASS?
1065
00:52:12,597 --> 00:52:14,131
DON'T YOU THINK THE GLASS
IS A BIT...
1066
00:52:14,165 --> 00:52:16,734
- WHAT?
- INTERMEDIATE?
1067
00:52:16,767 --> 00:52:20,037
WHY NOT JUST JAM
THE FUCKING BOTTLE
TO YOUR LIPS?
1068
00:52:20,070 --> 00:52:22,373
TELL ME,
I'D BE INTERESTED,
1069
00:52:22,407 --> 00:52:23,908
COME ON,
JUST WHY ARE YOU HERE?
1070
00:52:23,941 --> 00:52:26,711
- WHY AM I HERE?
- YES.
1071
00:52:26,744 --> 00:52:29,146
I'M HOPELESSLY IN LOVE.
THAT'S WHY I'M HERE.
1072
00:52:32,483 --> 00:52:35,453
WELL, YOU DON'T MAKE IT
SOUND VERY PLEASANT.
1073
00:52:42,393 --> 00:52:44,895
WELL, WHY DON'T YOU GIVE HIM
CHILDREN, FOR FUCK'S SAKE?
1074
00:52:44,929 --> 00:52:46,931
- WHAT?
- WELL THAT'S WHAT
HE'S SAYING!
1075
00:52:46,964 --> 00:52:49,467
I KNOW WHAT HE'S SAYING!
I KNOW WHAT HE'S SAYING!
1076
00:52:49,500 --> 00:52:51,802
- WELL?
- HAVE YOU UNDERSTOOD
NOTHING?
1077
00:52:51,836 --> 00:52:54,872
YOU DON'T THINK I WANT
TO GIVE THIS MAN CHILDREN?
1078
00:52:54,905 --> 00:52:57,942
YOU DON'T THINK
I WOULD IF I COULD?
1079
00:52:57,975 --> 00:53:01,078
- I WAS HUMAN TRASH.
- I KNOW.
1080
00:53:01,111 --> 00:53:02,780
I WAS ON
THE FLOOR OF A BAR,
1081
00:53:02,813 --> 00:53:05,583
MY KNICKERS RIPPED IN HALF,
MY BREATH STINKING OF VOMIT.
1082
00:53:05,616 --> 00:53:07,985
I KNOW.
DO YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW?
1083
00:53:08,018 --> 00:53:10,721
I WAS WAITING TO BE THROWN
OUT WITH THE EMPTIES.
1084
00:53:12,022 --> 00:53:14,124
"TAKE MY HAND,"
HE SAID.
1085
00:53:14,158 --> 00:53:15,560
"TAKE MY HAND."
1086
00:53:15,593 --> 00:53:18,496
AND FROM THAT DAY
HE HAS BEEN STEADFAST.
1087
00:53:18,529 --> 00:53:21,832
NOT ONE DAY HAS GONE BY
IN WHICH HE HAS NOT BEEN LOYAL.
1088
00:53:21,866 --> 00:53:23,901
I'M SURE.
1089
00:53:23,934 --> 00:53:27,338
HE GIVES ME
CONFIDENCE WHEN I HAVE
NO CONFIDENCE MYSELF.
1090
00:53:27,372 --> 00:53:30,841
HE IS STRONG.
WE'RE NOT.
1091
00:53:30,875 --> 00:53:33,444
WE'RE ALIKE,
YOU AND I.
1092
00:53:33,478 --> 00:53:37,815
THAT'S WHY
I DON'T GIVE HIM CHILDREN.
1093
00:53:40,017 --> 00:53:42,853
I DON'T HAVE
THE CONFIDENCE.
1094
00:53:42,887 --> 00:53:44,822
I DON'T HAVE THE BELIEF.
1095
00:53:49,927 --> 00:53:52,263
ELSA.
1096
00:53:52,297 --> 00:53:55,433
WHY DO YOU THINK I SAT
ON THAT COUNTER WITH YOU?
1097
00:53:57,234 --> 00:53:59,337
WHAT AM I?
ABSURD?
1098
00:53:59,370 --> 00:54:01,272
NO.
1099
00:54:01,306 --> 00:54:05,042
WHY DO YOU THINK
I LAUGHED WITH YOU?
1100
00:54:05,075 --> 00:54:07,244
KISSED YOU?
1101
00:54:07,278 --> 00:54:10,080
THE REASON
I'M DRAWN TO YOU?
1102
00:54:10,114 --> 00:54:12,817
WHAT?
WHAT?
1103
00:54:12,850 --> 00:54:15,786
WHEN I SEE US,
I SEE US--
1104
00:54:15,820 --> 00:54:17,855
HOW?
1105
00:54:17,888 --> 00:54:21,125
WE GO DOWN TOGETHER.
1106
00:54:21,158 --> 00:54:24,829
- NO.
- WE GO OFF TO BARS.
1107
00:54:24,862 --> 00:54:27,532
WE GO DOWN TOGETHER.
WE GO SPIRALING TOGETHER.
1108
00:54:27,565 --> 00:54:30,034
NO. NO.
1109
00:54:30,067 --> 00:54:31,869
WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR?
1110
00:54:33,070 --> 00:54:35,172
THAT'S MY FUCKING NOTEBOOK,
FOR GOD'S SAKE.
1111
00:54:35,205 --> 00:54:36,741
IT'S NOT YOUR NOTEBOOK
I'M AFTER.
1112
00:54:36,774 --> 00:54:38,242
SEE?
WE'RE THE SAME.
1113
00:54:38,275 --> 00:54:39,910
- GIVE IT TO ME.
- NO.
1114
00:54:39,944 --> 00:54:41,479
- GIVE IT TO ME.
- I WON'T.
1115
00:54:41,512 --> 00:54:43,948
I WON'T DRINK IT.
I SWEAR. I'LL THROW IT AWAY.
1116
00:54:43,981 --> 00:54:46,016
WHERE DO WE FIND LIFE?
IS IT IN A BOTTLE?
1117
00:54:46,050 --> 00:54:48,018
( shrieks )
1118
00:54:54,091 --> 00:54:56,627
- HE SAID YOU WERE CURED.
- DID HE?
1119
00:54:56,661 --> 00:54:58,796
YEAH.
ONE DRINK, HE SAID.
1120
00:54:58,829 --> 00:55:00,365
HE SAID YOU HAD ONE
GIN AND TONIC.
1121
00:55:00,398 --> 00:55:02,867
YOU PLAYED SCRABBLE,
HE SAID.
1122
00:55:02,900 --> 00:55:05,102
DO I LOOK CURED?
1123
00:55:06,236 --> 00:55:08,673
DO I FEEL CURED?
1124
00:55:34,865 --> 00:55:36,734
Paul's voice:
WHAT DID I THINK?
1125
00:55:36,767 --> 00:55:38,636
WHAT DID I THINK
THAT NIGHT?
1126
00:55:38,669 --> 00:55:41,906
THAT I COULD BE SOLID
IN THE WAY VICTOR WAS SOLID?
1127
00:55:41,939 --> 00:55:45,476
I KNEW I COULD NEVER
REPLACE HIM.
1128
00:55:45,510 --> 00:55:48,413
BUT I FELT THE POWER
OF HER WARMTH.
1129
00:55:48,446 --> 00:55:52,316
THE ALCOHOL DRAINED OUT OF ME
AND HER WARMTH FILLED ME.
1130
00:55:54,184 --> 00:55:56,186
ALL I KNOW IS THERE
WAS SOMETHING THERE.
1131
00:55:56,220 --> 00:55:57,522
THERE WAS SOMETHING REAL.
1132
00:56:00,758 --> 00:56:02,860
THERE YOU GO.
1133
00:56:02,893 --> 00:56:05,996
FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS,
AT LEAST,
1134
00:56:06,030 --> 00:56:09,266
I WAS AS HAPPY
AS I'D EVER BEEN IN MY LIFE.
1135
00:56:11,836 --> 00:56:15,272
PRETTY SOON AFTER
THE RUMORS BEGAN.
1136
00:56:15,305 --> 00:56:17,675
VICTOR CAME BACK
FROM AMERICA.
1137
00:56:17,708 --> 00:56:19,844
THE WORD WAS
HE WAS IN TROUBLE.
1138
00:56:19,877 --> 00:56:22,312
WE DIDN'T SEE MUCH
OF HIM IN THE OFFICE.
1139
00:56:22,346 --> 00:56:24,815
BUT AFTER WHAT HAD HAPPENED,
I WASN'T SEEKING HIM OUT.
1140
00:56:24,849 --> 00:56:26,784
THEN ONE EVENING...
1141
00:56:26,817 --> 00:56:28,753
PAUL, THERE YOU ARE.
YOU'RE STILL HERE.
1142
00:56:28,786 --> 00:56:31,155
I WAS BEGINNING TO THINK
YOU WERE AVOIDING ME.
1143
00:56:31,188 --> 00:56:33,323
I MUST HAVE DRAWN
THE WRONG CONCLUSION.
1144
00:56:33,357 --> 00:56:35,059
I THINK YOU DID.
1145
00:56:35,092 --> 00:56:36,827
EVERYONE DIES
AFTER THEIR LAST MEAL.
1146
00:56:36,861 --> 00:56:38,295
THAT DOESN'T MEAN
TO SAY THEY WERE POISONED.
1147
00:56:40,631 --> 00:56:41,966
QUITE.
1148
00:56:41,999 --> 00:56:43,501
AND YOU'VE HEARD
OF OUR PROBLEMS?
1149
00:56:43,534 --> 00:56:45,436
I THINK EVERYONE HAS.
1150
00:56:45,470 --> 00:56:47,004
I'M AFRAID THEY'RE
PRETTY COMMON KNOWLEDGE.
1151
00:56:47,037 --> 00:56:50,608
CAPITALISM AT ITS MOST
INFURIATING AND OBTUSE--
1152
00:56:50,641 --> 00:56:53,778
REFINANCING,
PRIVATE EQUITY.
1153
00:56:53,811 --> 00:56:56,681
PRIVATE EQUITY INSISTING
ON A CHANGE OF MANAGEMENT,
1154
00:56:56,714 --> 00:56:58,749
MAKING IT A CONDITION.
1155
00:56:58,783 --> 00:57:01,686
WHAT ARE WE?
PING-PONG BALLS?
1156
00:57:01,719 --> 00:57:05,155
I SPENT THE WHOLE DAY
IN THE CITY TRYING TO
RAISE A RIVAL BID.
1157
00:57:05,189 --> 00:57:08,726
A BID FOR WHAT?
TO TAKE OVER MY OWN BUSINESS.
1158
00:57:08,759 --> 00:57:11,862
EVERYBODY SAYS
IT'S NORMAL.
1159
00:57:11,896 --> 00:57:15,466
IT'S ACCEPTED AS NORMAL.
1160
00:57:15,500 --> 00:57:17,702
THERE WAS A TIME WHEN ECONOMY
USED TO MAKE SOMETHING.
1161
00:57:17,735 --> 00:57:19,804
NOW? A WORLD
IN WHICH 10 PEOPLE
1162
00:57:19,837 --> 00:57:21,772
DO SOMETHING AND THE OTHER
90 SPECULATE.
1163
00:57:21,806 --> 00:57:24,241
- NORMAL?
- NO.
1164
00:57:24,274 --> 00:57:25,843
IT'S A GAME,
THAT'S ALL.
1165
00:57:25,876 --> 00:57:28,145
AND BECAUSE WE LACK
ANY WISDOM OURSELVES,
1166
00:57:28,178 --> 00:57:30,347
WE PRETEND
THE MARKET IS WISE.
1167
00:57:30,380 --> 00:57:33,317
IT'S A FORM OF CAMP.
1168
00:57:33,350 --> 00:57:35,653
IS THERE SOMETHING
YOU WANTED?
1169
00:57:35,686 --> 00:57:37,955
NO.
JUST TO TALK TO YOU.
1170
00:57:37,988 --> 00:57:40,024
WHY?
SHOULD THERE BE?
1171
00:57:40,057 --> 00:57:42,860
NO.
1172
00:57:42,893 --> 00:57:44,762
OH.
1173
00:57:44,795 --> 00:57:47,331
I MEAN, OF COURSE
IT GETS TO ME.
1174
00:57:47,364 --> 00:57:49,366
WHY WOULD IT NOT?
1175
00:57:49,399 --> 00:57:51,836
THE HUMILIATION
OF BEING JUDGED
1176
00:57:51,869 --> 00:57:53,403
BY PEOPLE WHO KNOW NOTHING.
1177
00:57:53,437 --> 00:57:54,772
NOT FOR MYSELF,
OF COURSE.
1178
00:57:54,805 --> 00:57:56,741
- I'M NOT UPSET
FOR MYSELF.
- NO?
1179
00:57:56,774 --> 00:57:58,743
NO NO.
1180
00:57:58,776 --> 00:58:01,812
IF THE BUSINESS
GETS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME,
I'M STILL A RICH MAN.
1181
00:58:01,846 --> 00:58:04,582
YOU KNOW,
I HAVE MY CREATURE COMFORTS--
MY HOUSE, MY WIFE.
1182
00:58:04,615 --> 00:58:06,116
AS YOU KNOW,
AS YOU WELL KNOW.
1183
00:58:09,453 --> 00:58:12,757
OH, I'M SORRY IF WE LED YOU
ASTRAY THE OTHER EVENING.
1184
00:58:12,790 --> 00:58:14,792
- NOT AT ALL.
- HMM.
1185
00:58:14,825 --> 00:58:17,127
HAVE YOU DRUNK SINCE?
1186
00:58:17,161 --> 00:58:20,230
SINCE THAT NIGHT
HAVE YOU HAD ANOTHER DRINK?
1187
00:58:20,264 --> 00:58:22,800
NO, NOT A DROP.
1188
00:58:26,971 --> 00:58:30,708
TELL ME, PAUL,
THIS IS PURELY ACADEMIC,
1189
00:58:30,741 --> 00:58:32,710
YOU KNOW, THERE'S NOT
A HINT OF REPROACH,
1190
00:58:32,743 --> 00:58:35,780
BUT DO YOU LIE
ABOUT YOUR DRINKING?
1191
00:58:35,813 --> 00:58:37,815
- COMPULSIVELY.
- I SEE.
1192
00:58:37,848 --> 00:58:39,750
LIKE ALL DRINKERS.
1193
00:58:39,784 --> 00:58:42,319
ALL THE TIME
OR JUST OCCASIONALLY?
1194
00:58:42,352 --> 00:58:44,589
OH, THAT DOESN'T
REALLY MATTER, DOES IT?
1195
00:58:44,622 --> 00:58:46,691
I MEAN, THAT'S THE BEAUTY
OF LYING.
1196
00:58:46,724 --> 00:58:49,860
YOU ONLY HAVE TO DO IT ONCE
TO SPREAD INFINITE DISTRUST.
1197
00:58:52,096 --> 00:58:55,132
SO TELL ME, PAUL,
HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN
1198
00:58:55,165 --> 00:58:57,334
THIS CURRENT PASSION
FOR ADDICTION?
1199
00:58:57,367 --> 00:58:59,837
- PEOPLE SAY LACK OF FAITH,
DON'T THEY?
- CERTAINLY DO.
1200
00:58:59,870 --> 00:59:02,372
I MEAN, PEOPLE SAY TO ME,
"OH, YOU'RE SO LUCKY,
YOU HAD FAITH."
1201
00:59:02,406 --> 00:59:04,508
BUT STALIN HAD FAITH.
HITLER HAD FAITH.
1202
00:59:04,541 --> 00:59:07,712
WOULD IT BE WONDERFUL
TO BELIEVE IN THE VIRGIN BIRTH?
1203
00:59:07,745 --> 00:59:09,246
I DON'T THINK SO.
1204
00:59:09,279 --> 00:59:11,081
OR THAT TREES
SPEAK TO YOU?
1205
00:59:11,115 --> 00:59:13,150
WOULDN'T THAT JUST MEAN
YOU WERE MAD?
1206
00:59:13,183 --> 00:59:15,485
FAITH'S NOT VALUABLE,
NOT IN ITSELF.
1207
00:59:15,519 --> 00:59:18,455
IT'S WHAT YOU HAVE FAITH
IN THAT MATTERS.
1208
00:59:20,891 --> 00:59:22,927
I HAD FAITH.
1209
00:59:22,960 --> 00:59:25,562
BUT IT WAS STOLEN FROM ME.
1210
00:59:31,401 --> 00:59:33,804
WHAT BLOODY RIGHT DO THESE
PEOPLE HAVE TO VALUE US?
1211
00:59:33,838 --> 00:59:35,640
- NONE.
- NONE!
1212
00:59:38,508 --> 00:59:40,811
I TOOK A SHINE
TO YOU, PAUL.
1213
00:59:40,845 --> 00:59:42,813
I TOOK YOU ON
BECAUSE I LIKED YOU.
1214
00:59:42,847 --> 00:59:46,416
BUT YOU THINK
I MUST LIVE WITH IT,
IS THAT WHAT YOU THINK?
1215
00:59:48,252 --> 00:59:51,188
THE POET,
THE PHILOSOPHER
1216
00:59:51,221 --> 00:59:54,692
BRINGING THE MESSAGE
THE POET ALWAYS BRINGS.
1217
00:59:54,725 --> 00:59:56,160
VICTOR, YOU'RE HERE.
1218
00:59:56,193 --> 00:59:57,995
YES.
1219
00:59:58,028 --> 00:59:59,563
I WAS WORRIED.
YOU HAVEN'T BEEN HOME.
1220
00:59:59,596 --> 01:00:01,165
I'VE BEEN TRYING
TO CALL YOU.
1221
01:00:01,198 --> 01:00:03,801
- Victor: HAVE YOU?
- I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIND YOU.
1222
01:00:03,834 --> 01:00:06,503
AND YOU WERE CONCERNED?
WHY WERE YOU CONCERNED,
MY DARLING?
1223
01:00:09,206 --> 01:00:11,608
AS YOU CAN SEE,
WE HAD A ROW LAST NIGHT.
1224
01:00:11,642 --> 01:00:13,944
Elsa: YES.
1225
01:00:13,978 --> 01:00:15,445
WE NEVER ROW.
1226
01:00:15,479 --> 01:00:18,315
I STORMED INTO THE NIGHT.
I DID A RUNNER.
1227
01:00:18,348 --> 01:00:20,851
VICTOR, WE'RE MEANT
TO BE GOING TO A CONCERT.
1228
01:00:20,885 --> 01:00:23,020
- ARE WE? WHEN?
- NOW.
1229
01:00:23,053 --> 01:00:25,923
WOULD MOZART MATCH
YOUR MOOD RIGHT NOW?
1230
01:00:25,956 --> 01:00:27,692
I DON'T THINK
HE'D MATCH MINE.
1231
01:00:27,725 --> 01:00:30,695
ALL THAT LIFE-AFFIRMING
CAN SEEM AWFULLY JANGLY
1232
01:00:30,728 --> 01:00:32,897
WHEN IT HITS YOU
AT THE WRONG ANGLE.
1233
01:00:32,930 --> 01:00:36,000
WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?
YOU DON'T WANT TO GO?
1234
01:00:36,033 --> 01:00:37,601
GO WITH PAUL.
1235
01:00:37,634 --> 01:00:40,470
TAKE PAUL.
AFFIRM LIFE WITH PAUL.
1236
01:00:40,504 --> 01:00:42,907
I CAN'T.
I HAVE TO GO TO A MEETING.
1237
01:00:46,476 --> 01:00:50,014
SUMMER'S END.
ALWAYS A MOMENT OF CALM.
1238
01:00:50,047 --> 01:00:51,816
THE SLIGHT CHANGE
IN THE AIR.
1239
01:00:51,849 --> 01:00:54,384
IT'S STILL AUGUST.
THE SUN BEATS DOWN,
1240
01:00:54,418 --> 01:00:57,221
BUT TOUCHED WITH THE KNOWLEDGE
OF WHAT IS TO COME.
1241
01:00:57,254 --> 01:00:59,256
THIS IS ALL
TO DO WITH WORK.
1242
01:00:59,289 --> 01:01:01,658
- YOU THINK SO?
- OF COURSE.
1243
01:01:01,692 --> 01:01:05,195
YOU MAY LOSE YOUR BUSINESS.
OF COURSE YOU ARE DEPRESSED.
1244
01:01:07,564 --> 01:01:10,134
- VICTOR.
- I'M GOING TO HAVE A DRINK.
WILL YOU JOIN ME?
1245
01:01:10,167 --> 01:01:12,602
- I'VE MADE A NEW VOW.
- HAVE YOU?
1246
01:01:12,636 --> 01:01:14,171
AND WILL THIS ONE LAST?
1247
01:01:14,204 --> 01:01:17,407
AREN'T WE PATTERNED?
AREN'T WE PROGRAMMED?
1248
01:01:17,441 --> 01:01:20,110
DON'T WE ALWAYS PROMISE
"TOMORROW I'LL STOP.
1249
01:01:20,144 --> 01:01:21,678
TOMORROW I'LL BE GOOD"?
1250
01:01:21,712 --> 01:01:24,514
IT'S THE DISEASE OF MORE,
1251
01:01:24,548 --> 01:01:26,016
ISN'T THAT WHAT THEY SAY?
1252
01:01:31,722 --> 01:01:33,090
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
1253
01:01:33,123 --> 01:01:34,725
I'M LEAVING MY JOB.
I'M GOING.
1254
01:01:34,759 --> 01:01:36,226
NO. WHY?
1255
01:01:36,260 --> 01:01:38,228
IT'S NOT HARD TO SEE,
IS IT?
1256
01:01:38,262 --> 01:01:40,130
LOOK AT HIM.
LOOK AT HIS MOOD
FOR GOD'S SAKE.
1257
01:01:40,164 --> 01:01:41,531
WHAT DO YOU THINK
IT'S ABOUT?
1258
01:01:41,565 --> 01:01:43,633
NO NO,
I KNOW WHAT IT'S ABOUT.
1259
01:01:43,667 --> 01:01:46,370
LAST NIGHT YOU QUARRELED.
DO YOU THINK ITS COINCIDENCE?
1260
01:01:46,403 --> 01:01:48,405
YOU THINK IT'S JUST CHANCE?
1261
01:01:49,874 --> 01:01:50,975
IT'S NOT LOVE.
1262
01:01:52,376 --> 01:01:54,611
- ISN'T IT?
- NO.
1263
01:01:54,644 --> 01:01:57,114
I THOUGHT IT WAS LOVE.
1264
01:01:57,147 --> 01:01:59,349
NO, IT'S ADDICTION.
1265
01:01:59,383 --> 01:02:01,151
WE'RE ADDICTED TO TROUBLE.
1266
01:02:01,185 --> 01:02:03,687
WE BOTH LOVE TROUBLE
AND HE KNOWS IT.
1267
01:02:06,991 --> 01:02:08,893
PAUL, I WAS HAPPY
WITH YOU.
1268
01:02:08,926 --> 01:02:10,327
I KNOW.
1269
01:02:10,360 --> 01:02:12,997
FOR THOSE HOURS,
I WAS HAPPY.
1270
01:02:13,030 --> 01:02:14,899
ELSA, I'M HAPPY
DRINKING. SO?
1271
01:02:14,932 --> 01:02:16,967
- NO.
- YEAH.
1272
01:02:17,001 --> 01:02:18,535
I'M HAPPY WITH A DRINK
IN MY HAND.
1273
01:02:18,568 --> 01:02:20,404
SO TELL ME,
WHAT'S THE DIFFERENCE?
1274
01:02:20,437 --> 01:02:22,206
YOU THINK I LIVE
THAT KIND OF LIFE?
1275
01:02:22,239 --> 01:02:24,408
NO.
1276
01:02:24,441 --> 01:02:26,043
WHAT DO YOU THINK?
YOU THINK I WANT AFFAIRS?
1277
01:02:26,076 --> 01:02:27,878
- NO.
- IS THAT HOW YOU SEE ME?
1278
01:02:29,579 --> 01:02:32,249
YOU HAVEN'T THOUGHT.
YOU HAVEN'T THOUGHT
WHAT YOU'RE DOING.
1279
01:02:32,282 --> 01:02:33,984
THIS IS WHO YOU ARE, PAUL.
THIS IS YOU.
1280
01:02:34,018 --> 01:02:36,720
YOU'RE THE PERSON
WHO RUNS.
1281
01:02:36,753 --> 01:02:39,356
YOU THINK IT'S
TO DO WITH ALCOHOL.
IT'S NOT.
1282
01:02:39,389 --> 01:02:41,591
YOU BARELY KNOW ME, ELSA.
1283
01:02:41,625 --> 01:02:43,994
YOU'VE BARELY HAD TIME
TO KNOW ME.
1284
01:02:46,396 --> 01:02:47,865
YOU'RE SCARED.
YOU'RE JUST SCARED.
1285
01:02:49,566 --> 01:02:51,201
YOU'D NEVER LEAVE HIM.
1286
01:02:53,070 --> 01:02:55,272
WHAT MAKES YOU SO SURE?
1287
01:02:58,943 --> 01:03:01,946
WHEN ANYONE NEEDS YOU,
YOU RUN.
1288
01:03:01,979 --> 01:03:04,448
WHEN ANYONE LOVES YOU,
1289
01:03:04,481 --> 01:03:06,716
YOU GO.
1290
01:03:09,019 --> 01:03:11,488
I LOVE YOU.
1291
01:03:11,521 --> 01:03:13,991
IT'S TRUE.
1292
01:03:14,024 --> 01:03:15,893
SO EXPLAIN.
1293
01:03:15,926 --> 01:03:17,794
HOW DOES IT HELP
IF I STAY?
1294
01:03:44,021 --> 01:03:46,891
NOT EVEN DUSK,
NO ONE TO BE SEEN.
1295
01:03:46,924 --> 01:03:48,959
IT'S A BUSINESS
FOR OBSESSIVES THEY SAY.
1296
01:03:48,993 --> 01:03:50,427
BUT WHERE ARE THEY?
1297
01:03:50,460 --> 01:03:53,263
ON THEIR AUGUST BEACHES
OR IN THEIR BACK GARDENS.
1298
01:03:53,297 --> 01:03:55,099
FLED.
ALL FLED.
1299
01:03:55,132 --> 01:03:58,202
NOT A SOUL REMAINS.
WHISKEY?
1300
01:04:02,106 --> 01:04:04,741
PAUL HAS SOMETHING
TO TELL YOU.
1301
01:04:04,774 --> 01:04:05,976
TELL ME?
1302
01:04:06,010 --> 01:04:08,045
IT ISN'T GOOD NEWS.
1303
01:04:08,078 --> 01:04:10,614
IN FACT I'M FEELING
A BIT OF AN IDIOT.
1304
01:04:10,647 --> 01:04:12,449
HE WANTS TO LEAVE.
1305
01:04:12,482 --> 01:04:15,119
- I SEE.
- PAUL'S INSISTING HE LEAVES.
1306
01:04:15,152 --> 01:04:16,820
VICTOR, CAN WE BE HONEST?
1307
01:04:16,853 --> 01:04:18,989
THE FACT IS I'M ACTUALLY
HOPELESS AT THE JOB.
1308
01:04:19,023 --> 01:04:22,526
- REALLY?
- "THE UNSINKABLE FLOTILLA."
1309
01:04:22,559 --> 01:04:24,594
- HUH.
- "FLOAT INTO THE FUTURE
WITH FLOTILLA."
1310
01:04:24,628 --> 01:04:27,331
"HEY THERE, KILLER,
TRY FLOTILLA."
1311
01:04:27,364 --> 01:04:30,434
I CAN'T DO IT.
I CAN'T WRITE TO ORDER.
1312
01:04:30,467 --> 01:04:33,770
TOO MUCH THE POET?
TOO MUCH YOUR OWN MAN?
1313
01:04:35,505 --> 01:04:38,642
YOU'VE BEEN KIND.
YOU'VE BEEN GOOD
TO ME, VICTOR,
1314
01:04:38,675 --> 01:04:41,011
BUT I JUST WASN'T READY.
1315
01:04:42,546 --> 01:04:44,048
NEVER EASY, IS IT?
1316
01:04:44,081 --> 01:04:46,650
NEVER EASY WHEN YOU
TRY TO HELP.
1317
01:04:49,053 --> 01:04:51,989
I TELL YOU, I WAS SLEEPING
LAST NIGHT IN REGENTS PARK?
1318
01:04:52,022 --> 01:04:53,890
I'M SORRY?
1319
01:04:53,924 --> 01:04:57,394
I SLEPT LAST NIGHT
IN REGENTS PARK BENEATH
THE STARS.
1320
01:04:57,427 --> 01:04:59,663
IS THAT LEGAL?
1321
01:04:59,696 --> 01:05:01,365
IT'S NOT ILLEGAL.
1322
01:05:01,398 --> 01:05:03,300
I HAD NO IDEA
WHERE YOU WERE.
1323
01:05:03,333 --> 01:05:05,302
I LAY BENEATH THE STARS,
1324
01:05:05,335 --> 01:05:07,704
THE STARS BRIGHT ABOVE ME.
1325
01:05:07,737 --> 01:05:10,040
FELT THE EARTH
MOVING BELOW ME,
1326
01:05:10,074 --> 01:05:12,342
THE PLANET HURTLING
THROUGH SPACE.
1327
01:05:12,376 --> 01:05:15,712
I LAY LISTENING TO
THE NOISES OF THE NIGHT,
1328
01:05:15,745 --> 01:05:17,481
THINKING OF ELSA
1329
01:05:17,514 --> 01:05:19,749
IN HER BED
200 YARDS AWAY.
1330
01:05:21,885 --> 01:05:24,254
I THOUGHT OF THE MANY
NIGHTS WE'D PASSED,
1331
01:05:24,288 --> 01:05:26,690
SHE SHAKING FROM
THE AGONY OF ADDICTION,
1332
01:05:26,723 --> 01:05:29,859
THE PASSAGE
FROM HIGH TO LOW,
1333
01:05:29,893 --> 01:05:34,164
FROM FRENZY
AND FINALLY TO CALM.
1334
01:05:34,198 --> 01:05:35,899
WHY DID WE QUARREL?
1335
01:05:35,932 --> 01:05:38,702
WE QUARRELED ABOUT LOVE.
1336
01:05:41,271 --> 01:05:42,872
I'D HAD AN IDEA.
1337
01:05:42,906 --> 01:05:44,641
FOR YEARS I'D HAD AN IDEA.
1338
01:05:44,674 --> 01:05:47,911
AN IDEA OF WHAT LOVE
MIGHT ACCOMPLISH.
1339
01:05:49,246 --> 01:05:51,015
IT WAS FOOLISH.
1340
01:05:51,048 --> 01:05:52,716
NO GOOD.
1341
01:05:52,749 --> 01:05:56,620
HE ACCUSED ME OF BEING WEAK
AND I DEFENDED MYSELF.
1342
01:05:56,653 --> 01:05:58,555
SHE DID.
1343
01:05:58,588 --> 01:05:59,889
SHE DEFENDED HERSELF WELL.
1344
01:05:59,923 --> 01:06:02,059
YES.
THAT'S WHY WE FOUGHT.
1345
01:06:02,092 --> 01:06:04,361
THAT WAS WHY
THE FIGHT BEGAN.
1346
01:06:04,394 --> 01:06:05,929
ABSOLUTELY.
1347
01:06:05,962 --> 01:06:08,698
- ARE WE EVER CURED?
- THAT WAS THE QUESTION.
1348
01:06:08,732 --> 01:06:11,268
I CAN SOMETIMES GO
WITHOUT DRINKING.
1349
01:06:11,301 --> 01:06:13,470
MONTHS GO BY.
1350
01:06:13,503 --> 01:06:16,506
AND, YES,
AT ANOTHER TIME,
1351
01:06:16,540 --> 01:06:19,776
I TASTE JUST ONE DRINK--
1352
01:06:19,809 --> 01:06:23,113
"JUST THE ONE,"
I SAY TO MYSELF.
1353
01:06:23,147 --> 01:06:25,715
"JUST THE ONE."
1354
01:06:25,749 --> 01:06:27,717
BUT FINALLY, NO.
1355
01:06:27,751 --> 01:06:31,755
I KNOW IN MY HEART
THIS DISEASE IS FOR LIFE.
1356
01:06:31,788 --> 01:06:35,292
I ASKED VICTOR
TO ACCEPT THAT.
1357
01:06:35,325 --> 01:06:37,161
I NEED HIM TO ACCEPT IT.
1358
01:06:39,096 --> 01:06:43,467
I CAN'T BE WHO
HE WANTS ME TO BE.
1359
01:06:43,500 --> 01:06:46,736
I'VE TRIED AND I CAN'T.
1360
01:06:46,770 --> 01:06:49,239
I CAN'T.
1361
01:06:49,273 --> 01:06:52,509
I WAS LUCKY
TO MEET A GOOD MAN.
1362
01:06:52,542 --> 01:06:54,811
BUT MET HIM NONETHELESS,
1363
01:06:54,844 --> 01:06:57,747
LOVED HIM NONETHELESS,
1364
01:06:57,781 --> 01:07:00,584
OR RATHER,
1365
01:07:00,617 --> 01:07:03,620
HAVE TRIED TO LOVE HIM.
1366
01:07:08,425 --> 01:07:09,793
I STILL DO.
1367
01:07:12,062 --> 01:07:14,164
I STILL WILL.
1368
01:07:18,034 --> 01:07:19,469
MY LOVE.
1369
01:07:40,056 --> 01:07:42,192
SORRY.
I'M SORRY.
1370
01:07:43,493 --> 01:07:45,929
I APOLOGIZE.
PRIVATE-- PRIVATE STUFF.
1371
01:07:45,962 --> 01:07:48,031
- OF COURSE.
- FORGIVE US.
1372
01:07:48,064 --> 01:07:50,834
SO YOU'RE DETERMINED
TO LEAVE?
1373
01:07:50,867 --> 01:07:53,337
- I AM.
- YOU SUBMIT YOUR
RESIGNATION?
1374
01:07:53,370 --> 01:07:55,639
- I DO.
- IT'S DONE.
1375
01:07:55,672 --> 01:07:58,007
IT'S ACCEPTED.
WHY NOT?
1376
01:07:58,041 --> 01:07:59,743
COLLECT YOUR CARDS.
1377
01:07:59,776 --> 01:08:02,179
ELSA, I THINK
WE'RE MOVING ON.
1378
01:08:03,513 --> 01:08:05,182
FAIR ENOUGH.
1379
01:08:05,215 --> 01:08:08,485
IT'S A FREELANCE CULTURE,
AFTER ALL, SO THEY TELL ME.
1380
01:08:08,518 --> 01:08:10,587
- THAT'S WHAT I'VE HEARD.
- YEAH.
1381
01:08:12,156 --> 01:08:14,724
THE IDEA OF LONG-TERM
EMPLOYMENT IS A THING
OF THE PAST.
1382
01:08:14,758 --> 01:08:16,726
A JOB IS NO LONGER
FOR LIFE.
1383
01:08:16,760 --> 01:08:18,628
WELL, I'VE ONLY BEEN
HERE FOR THREE MONTHS.
1384
01:08:18,662 --> 01:08:21,698
EXCELLENT.
YOU'VE GRASPED
THE PRINCIPLE EXACTLY.
1385
01:08:39,649 --> 01:08:41,518
IT'S BEEN
A SUMMER, EH?
1386
01:08:41,551 --> 01:08:43,687
- IT'S WHAT
A SUMMER SHOULD BE.
- YOU THINK?
1387
01:08:43,720 --> 01:08:46,956
IN THE COLD MONTHS WE WORK,
GET ON WITH LIVING.
1388
01:08:46,990 --> 01:08:50,360
SO LET'S USE THE WARM MONTHS
FOR STOPPING TO THINK.
1389
01:08:50,394 --> 01:08:52,296
PAUL.
1390
01:08:58,335 --> 01:09:01,104
IS PERFECT FRIENDSHIP
ALWAYS BRIEF?
1391
01:09:01,137 --> 01:09:04,274
"MODERATION IN ALL THINGS,"
SAID MY MOM.
1392
01:09:04,308 --> 01:09:06,443
SHE DIED AT AGE 40.
1393
01:09:06,476 --> 01:09:08,945
I MISS HER.
1394
01:09:08,978 --> 01:09:10,747
I STILL MISS HER.
1395
01:09:10,780 --> 01:09:13,217
DON'T FEAR FOR ME.
1396
01:09:13,250 --> 01:09:14,518
I SHAN'T.
1397
01:09:14,551 --> 01:09:17,287
HISTORY THREW ME UP.
IT MAY NOW CAST ME DOWN.
1398
01:09:17,321 --> 01:09:19,456
- I HOPE NOT.
- IT WORRIES ME NOT.
1399
01:09:19,489 --> 01:09:21,491
I HAVE WRITTEN MY EPITAPH.
1400
01:09:21,525 --> 01:09:24,828
"HE MAY HAVE BUCKLED,
BUT HE DID NOT BREAK."
1401
01:09:26,230 --> 01:09:28,898
SO IT'S TIME
TO SAY GOODBYE.
1402
01:09:30,133 --> 01:09:31,968
NOT THE LAST TIME
WE SHALL SEE YOU, I HOPE?
1403
01:09:32,001 --> 01:09:34,304
NO.
1404
01:09:34,338 --> 01:09:37,374
AND YOU MUST SAY GOODBYE
TO ELSA TOO.
1405
01:09:38,875 --> 01:09:41,010
I INSIST.
1406
01:09:41,044 --> 01:09:43,813
ELSA, IF WE HURRY,
WE'LL CATCH THE SECOND
HALF OF THE CONCERT.
1407
01:09:49,853 --> 01:09:51,421
YOU WON'T FORGET ME?
1408
01:09:51,455 --> 01:09:53,923
- NO.
- PROMISE YOU WON'T
FORGET ME.
1409
01:09:58,495 --> 01:10:00,630
IT'S RARE, ISN'T IT?
1410
01:10:00,664 --> 01:10:02,432
IT'S RARE TO FIND LOVE.
1411
01:10:28,625 --> 01:10:31,094
Paul's voice:
JOSEPH CONRAD SAYS
THAT INSIDE EVERY HEART
1412
01:10:31,127 --> 01:10:33,430
BURNS THE DESIRE
TO SET DOWN ONCE AND FOR ALL
1413
01:10:33,463 --> 01:10:35,732
A TRUE RECORD
OF WHAT HAS HAPPENED.
1414
01:10:44,474 --> 01:10:46,276
AS EVERYONE KNOWS,
VICTOR QUINN DIED
1415
01:10:46,310 --> 01:10:48,278
SOON AFTER
IN A CAR CRASH.
1416
01:10:51,014 --> 01:10:53,917
HIS BLOOD WAS THREE TIMES OVER
THE PERMITTED ALCOHOL LEVEL.
1417
01:10:58,087 --> 01:11:00,757
ELSA WENT
TO IDENTIFY THE BODY.
1418
01:11:00,790 --> 01:11:02,659
AT LAST, SHE SAID,
1419
01:11:02,692 --> 01:11:04,728
VICTOR LAY
ON HIS ZINC BED.
1420
01:11:12,235 --> 01:11:15,939
FOR MYSELF. I CONTINUED
TO DRINK FOR A WHILE.
1421
01:11:17,040 --> 01:11:18,408
THE RESULT WAS
A BOOK OF POETRY
1422
01:11:18,442 --> 01:11:20,944
WHICH, TO MY AMAZEMENT,
DID EVEN BETTER THAN THE FIRST.
1423
01:11:20,977 --> 01:11:22,879
- YES.
- WONDERFUL.
1424
01:11:22,912 --> 01:11:24,914
I REALLY ENJOY YOUR WORK.
IT'S WONDERFUL.
1425
01:11:24,948 --> 01:11:27,451
OH, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
1426
01:11:27,484 --> 01:11:30,454
Paul's voice:
FOR A BRIEF PERIOD I BECAME
SOMEWHAT WELL-KNOWN.
1427
01:11:39,863 --> 01:11:42,699
I DID SEE ELSA.
OF COURSE I DID.
1428
01:11:42,732 --> 01:11:45,268
I SAW HER
A NUMBER OF TIMES.
1429
01:11:48,071 --> 01:11:50,340
BUT THERE COMES A MOMENT,
DOESN'T THERE?
1430
01:11:50,374 --> 01:11:52,642
YOU TELL ME.
1431
01:11:52,676 --> 01:11:54,744
DOESN'T THERE COME
A MOMENT
1432
01:11:54,778 --> 01:11:58,147
WHEN YOU HAVE TO DECIDE
BETWEEN WHAT YOU CAN HANDLE
AND WHAT YOU CAN'T?
1433
01:11:58,181 --> 01:12:00,617
- HELLO.
- GOOD TO SEE YOU.
1434
01:12:00,650 --> 01:12:01,918
I DIDN'T SEE
MY FRIENDS ANYMORE.
1435
01:12:01,951 --> 01:12:03,787
I RARELY WENT OUT,
APART TO GO TO
THE OFF-LICENSE.
1436
01:12:03,820 --> 01:12:06,923
SO I THOUGHT
I'D COME ALONG--
1437
01:12:06,956 --> 01:12:10,026
I'D COME ALONG
TO THE GROUP, BUT JUST SAT
ALONE IN THE HOUSE.
1438
01:12:10,059 --> 01:12:12,396
Paul's voice:
I STOPPED DRINKING.
1439
01:12:12,429 --> 01:12:14,330
I BEGAN TO DRY OUT.
1440
01:12:14,364 --> 01:12:16,299
IT WAS DIFFICULT
AND IT TOOK A LONG TIME.
1441
01:12:18,502 --> 01:12:21,638
IT'S BETTER.
OF COURSE IT IS.
1442
01:12:21,671 --> 01:12:25,041
BUT SOMETIMES I REMEMBER
VICTOR QUINN.
1443
01:12:26,643 --> 01:12:28,545
"IF YOU WERE CURED,
1444
01:12:28,578 --> 01:12:30,747
YOU'D BE CURED OF DESIRE.
1445
01:12:32,048 --> 01:12:34,451
AND WHO WANTS
TO BE CURED OF DESIRE?"
1446
01:12:48,331 --> 01:12:50,400
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