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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:01:11,239 --> 00:01:14,033 That was my husband's Ford Galaxy. 2 00:01:14,951 --> 00:01:18,037 We drove Jamie home from the hospital in that car. 3 00:01:19,622 --> 00:01:21,916 My mom was 40 when she had me. 4 00:01:22,375 --> 00:01:24,586 Everyone told her she was too old to be a mother. 5 00:01:25,962 --> 00:01:27,797 I put my hand through the little window, 6 00:01:27,881 --> 00:01:29,132 and he'd squeeze my finger, 7 00:01:29,215 --> 00:01:33,303 and I'd tell him life was very big... 8 00:01:34,429 --> 00:01:35,847 and unknown. 9 00:01:36,681 --> 00:01:38,767 And she told me that there were animals 10 00:01:38,850 --> 00:01:40,769 and sky and cities... 11 00:01:41,352 --> 00:01:43,730 ...music, movies. 12 00:01:44,230 --> 00:01:45,273 He'd fall in love, 13 00:01:46,024 --> 00:01:49,736 have his own children, have passions, have meaning, 14 00:01:50,069 --> 00:01:52,197 have his mom and dad. 15 00:01:53,198 --> 00:01:55,200 When they got divorced, 16 00:01:55,283 --> 00:01:57,619 my father moved back east and left the car with us. 17 00:01:58,787 --> 00:02:00,580 He calls on birthdays and Christmas. 18 00:02:01,956 --> 00:02:05,919 Last time I felt close to him was on my birthday in 1974. 19 00:02:06,836 --> 00:02:09,047 He bought me mirrored sunglasses. 20 00:02:10,381 --> 00:02:13,051 I saw the president fall down the stairs... 21 00:02:14,177 --> 00:02:15,678 and I threw up on the carpet. 22 00:02:19,140 --> 00:02:21,643 Since then it's just been us. 23 00:02:21,726 --> 00:02:23,228 I don't understand. What about you? 24 00:02:23,311 --> 00:02:25,331 I'm staying here with him 'til the plane gets safely away. 25 00:02:25,355 --> 00:02:27,106 No, Richard, no. What has happened to you? 26 00:02:27,190 --> 00:02:29,818 - Last night we— - Last night we said a great many things. 27 00:02:34,239 --> 00:02:37,534 Listen, Captain, I am having a party tonight, 28 00:02:37,617 --> 00:02:38,910 it's my birthday actually, 29 00:02:39,202 --> 00:02:42,247 and I would like you to drop by so I can feed you. 30 00:02:42,330 --> 00:02:43,873 It's not necessary, Mrs. Fields. 31 00:02:43,957 --> 00:02:47,418 No, Dorothea. No, I— I insist. Please? 32 00:02:47,961 --> 00:02:49,754 That way I— I can thank you. 33 00:02:50,630 --> 00:02:52,423 It was a beautiful car. 34 00:02:54,634 --> 00:02:56,386 Mom, it... 35 00:02:56,469 --> 00:02:58,930 smelled like gas and overheated all the time... 36 00:03:00,223 --> 00:03:02,267 and it was just old. 37 00:03:03,643 --> 00:03:04,936 What? 38 00:03:08,314 --> 00:03:09,524 Well it wasn't always old. 39 00:03:09,858 --> 00:03:11,526 It just got that way all of a sudden. 40 00:03:12,277 --> 00:03:13,319 You know... 41 00:03:14,237 --> 00:03:15,655 when the firemen come... 42 00:03:16,948 --> 00:03:19,534 people don't usually invite them over for dinner. 43 00:03:21,828 --> 00:03:23,329 Yeah? Why not? 44 00:03:37,135 --> 00:03:39,262 Why can't she just move on and be happy with me 45 00:03:39,345 --> 00:03:42,849 rather than... lingering on him? 46 00:03:43,182 --> 00:03:45,518 My mom just makes me feel like I'm not good enough. 47 00:03:46,144 --> 00:03:48,605 It's just, I'm constantly being compared to my dad. 48 00:04:45,787 --> 00:04:48,289 Oh, hey, sorry. 49 00:04:49,916 --> 00:04:52,251 Uh, Jamie's not here right now. 50 00:05:10,812 --> 00:05:12,355 They're not home. 51 00:05:13,398 --> 00:05:15,441 Don't. 52 00:05:17,068 --> 00:05:19,946 I'm taking a picture of everything that happens to me in a day. 53 00:05:21,572 --> 00:05:23,783 I don't like having my pictures taken. 54 00:05:24,450 --> 00:05:26,452 I didn't happen to you. 55 00:05:34,377 --> 00:05:35,920 Hello? 56 00:05:36,587 --> 00:05:38,214 - Hey. - Hi. 57 00:05:38,297 --> 00:05:39,841 Hi. Here. 58 00:05:41,634 --> 00:05:44,429 - You okay? - You aren't gonna believe what happened. 59 00:05:44,512 --> 00:05:45,555 What? 60 00:05:45,888 --> 00:05:48,016 Our car burst into flames in the parking lot. 61 00:05:48,433 --> 00:05:50,226 - It wh— - Seriously? 62 00:05:50,309 --> 00:05:51,352 - Are you okay? - Yeah. 63 00:05:51,477 --> 00:05:52,520 You know, we're okay. 64 00:05:52,812 --> 00:05:54,731 - How did it happen? - Well I don't know. 65 00:05:54,939 --> 00:05:57,400 They— they said it was probably just something electrical. 66 00:05:57,483 --> 00:06:01,195 We walked out and it was just sitting there... on fire. 67 00:06:01,279 --> 00:06:02,363 Oh, man. 68 00:06:03,156 --> 00:06:05,366 - Yeah. - I'm sorry. 69 00:06:07,410 --> 00:06:10,371 So... what happened? 70 00:06:11,080 --> 00:06:13,833 They never tell you anything, I— They won't— 71 00:06:13,916 --> 00:06:16,210 I won't know anything for like a week. 72 00:06:16,294 --> 00:06:17,628 Oh. 73 00:06:20,048 --> 00:06:22,675 And I'm— I'm gonna be late on rent. 74 00:06:23,426 --> 00:06:25,219 That's okay. Don't worry about that. 75 00:06:26,095 --> 00:06:27,346 Thanks. 76 00:06:36,147 --> 00:06:37,440 Oh, God. 77 00:06:41,402 --> 00:06:42,862 What if you had been in the car? 78 00:06:43,571 --> 00:06:46,449 I wouldn't be here. 79 00:06:47,408 --> 00:06:49,285 You would've missed me? 80 00:06:53,623 --> 00:06:54,665 Don't joke. 81 00:07:07,762 --> 00:07:11,641 It was so much easier before you got all horny. 82 00:07:16,187 --> 00:07:18,481 It— it's not like you don't... 83 00:07:19,524 --> 00:07:20,691 Do it? 84 00:07:25,404 --> 00:07:28,574 Friends can't have sex and still be friends. 85 00:07:30,451 --> 00:07:33,371 I like us like we are, okay? 86 00:07:37,917 --> 00:07:39,460 Okay. 87 00:07:40,670 --> 00:07:41,712 Jamie! 88 00:07:42,130 --> 00:07:44,423 Could you come help me set up, please? 89 00:07:45,633 --> 00:07:47,260 Can my mom just chill out? 90 00:07:48,261 --> 00:07:50,721 She's compensating for her loneliness. 91 00:07:53,349 --> 00:07:55,643 Dorothea, all that is really beautiful molding there. 92 00:07:55,726 --> 00:07:57,621 - It is. - I want to continue that around the side. 93 00:07:57,645 --> 00:07:59,480 Right so we're gonna have to re-match that. 94 00:07:59,564 --> 00:08:01,357 Now is that— is that actually wood... 95 00:08:01,440 --> 00:08:02,942 - That is wood. - or is that plaster? 96 00:08:03,025 --> 00:08:04,527 No, the plaster is underneath it. 97 00:08:04,610 --> 00:08:06,362 The molding on the outside there is wood. 98 00:08:06,445 --> 00:08:07,572 - So... - Okay. 99 00:08:07,655 --> 00:08:08,757 It's gonna take a little bit of time, but... 100 00:08:08,781 --> 00:08:09,824 Well, we've got... 101 00:08:10,575 --> 00:08:11,617 Okay, no, it's good. 102 00:08:11,701 --> 00:08:14,829 Actually, it was, it was built in 1905, 103 00:08:14,912 --> 00:08:16,414 and the same family had it forever, 104 00:08:16,497 --> 00:08:18,624 but they lost all their money during the war, 105 00:08:18,833 --> 00:08:20,209 and then there was a fire and... 106 00:08:20,835 --> 00:08:22,336 You should've been here for that. 107 00:08:22,420 --> 00:08:25,715 Anyway, so, it was just a mess. They let it fall apart. 108 00:08:25,798 --> 00:08:28,217 Then a bohemian inherited it in the '60s, 109 00:08:28,426 --> 00:08:31,304 then a bunch of free spirits moved in, and they lost it to the bank. 110 00:08:31,387 --> 00:08:32,430 It's beautiful. 111 00:08:32,597 --> 00:08:34,473 Oh, I— I completely fell in love with it. 112 00:08:34,640 --> 00:08:36,880 We're connected to the dirt 'cause we came from the dirt. 113 00:08:36,934 --> 00:08:40,563 The dirt is made of stars and stardust, in the same way we are, 114 00:08:40,646 --> 00:08:45,443 so when you put your hands into that dirt 115 00:08:45,735 --> 00:08:47,820 and feel the Earth Mother... 116 00:08:51,657 --> 00:08:52,825 - Uh, William? - Mm-hmm? 117 00:08:53,159 --> 00:08:55,703 It looks as though I'm gonna be in need of a car. 118 00:08:55,786 --> 00:08:58,414 Do you think you have something for me out there, cheap? 119 00:08:58,831 --> 00:09:01,042 Maybe that '49 Deluxe? 120 00:09:01,125 --> 00:09:03,711 I think we can work something out. 121 00:09:03,794 --> 00:09:05,755 Maybe we'll trade for rent or something. 122 00:09:06,547 --> 00:09:08,591 - Thank you. - Sure. 123 00:09:10,301 --> 00:09:12,178 Okay. Got through that one. 124 00:09:13,137 --> 00:09:14,263 All right. Just, um... 125 00:09:14,889 --> 00:09:16,682 give me a minute and then come out. 126 00:09:47,088 --> 00:09:49,590 My mom was born in 1924. 127 00:09:50,466 --> 00:09:53,469 When she was my age people drove in sad cars 128 00:09:53,552 --> 00:09:58,766 to sad houses with old phones, no money, or food, or televisions... 129 00:09:59,850 --> 00:10:01,727 but the people were real. 130 00:10:02,520 --> 00:10:03,813 When she was 16, 131 00:10:04,355 --> 00:10:06,482 the war broke out and she had to leave school. 132 00:10:07,316 --> 00:10:09,318 Her dream was to be a pilot in the Air Force. 133 00:10:10,736 --> 00:10:12,446 She actually went to flight school. 134 00:10:12,863 --> 00:10:15,324 But the war ended before she was done. 135 00:10:16,617 --> 00:10:18,035 She became the first woman to work 136 00:10:18,119 --> 00:10:20,329 in the Continental Can Company drafting room. 137 00:10:22,081 --> 00:10:24,083 Then she met my dad... 138 00:10:24,834 --> 00:10:26,085 and then I came. 139 00:10:27,128 --> 00:10:28,879 Then they got divorced. 140 00:10:29,922 --> 00:10:33,759 But people from her time never admit anything went wrong. 141 00:10:34,760 --> 00:10:36,762 - What do you mean? - I'm sorry. 142 00:10:36,846 --> 00:10:40,224 He's too young to have an account in his name only, little guy. 143 00:10:40,516 --> 00:10:42,143 No. He— he's a person. 144 00:10:42,226 --> 00:10:45,438 He's not half a person, and he's not some cute little guy. 145 00:10:45,771 --> 00:10:48,691 He has volition and autonomy and privacy. 146 00:10:48,899 --> 00:10:50,026 He needs a bank account. 147 00:10:50,735 --> 00:10:52,194 Can you do that for us? 148 00:10:53,279 --> 00:10:56,782 Now, Jamie, you can't just keep skipping school and making excuses. 149 00:10:56,866 --> 00:10:59,535 Well wait a minute, why not? Why can't he just skip school 150 00:11:00,369 --> 00:11:03,789 if he— if he has a legitimate need to be away? 151 00:11:04,123 --> 00:11:06,584 Well, then I need a legitimate real note from you... 152 00:11:07,001 --> 00:11:08,836 - Okay. - with your real signature. 153 00:11:08,961 --> 00:11:12,923 Wow, how did you forge my signature so well? 154 00:11:13,883 --> 00:11:15,384 That is ingenious! 155 00:11:16,719 --> 00:11:19,013 But you should never forge someone's signature 156 00:11:19,138 --> 00:11:20,973 or do anything behind someone's back. 157 00:11:22,433 --> 00:11:24,602 Please excuse Jamie from school this morning. 158 00:11:24,685 --> 00:11:28,022 He was doing volunteer work for the Sandinistas. 159 00:11:28,564 --> 00:11:30,483 Please excuse Jamie from school this morning. 160 00:11:30,566 --> 00:11:32,568 He was involved in a small plane accident. 161 00:11:32,818 --> 00:11:34,987 Fortunately, he was not hurt. 162 00:11:35,488 --> 00:11:38,741 You're gonna be in for a legendary surprise. 163 00:11:38,824 --> 00:11:40,117 It's mahogany underneath. 164 00:11:40,326 --> 00:11:42,912 She's always trying to bring a man into my life. 165 00:11:42,995 --> 00:11:44,789 This is probably Honduran mahogany. 166 00:11:45,456 --> 00:11:46,499 Really fine, very... 167 00:11:46,874 --> 00:11:49,835 - This is, like, really, really boring. - Hey, come on, watch it. 168 00:11:49,919 --> 00:11:51,521 He's talking about, like, wood and stuff. 169 00:11:51,545 --> 00:11:53,672 He's helping me out. Restore the house, okay? 170 00:11:53,756 --> 00:11:54,799 IBM? 171 00:11:55,216 --> 00:11:56,818 She writes down her stocks every morning. 172 00:11:56,842 --> 00:11:58,386 Two-hundred and thirteen point two. 173 00:11:59,011 --> 00:12:00,471 GE? 174 00:12:01,680 --> 00:12:03,641 Um, 51.62. 175 00:12:03,891 --> 00:12:05,935 She smokes Salems because they're healthier, 176 00:12:06,018 --> 00:12:08,396 wears Birkenstocks because she's contemporary. 177 00:12:09,605 --> 00:12:10,731 She read Watership Down 178 00:12:10,815 --> 00:12:13,609 and learned how to carve rabbits out of wood. 179 00:12:14,985 --> 00:12:17,446 And she never dates a man for very long. 180 00:12:19,115 --> 00:12:20,616 Thank you, bye bye. 181 00:12:20,866 --> 00:12:22,368 Good night, Dorothea. 182 00:12:22,743 --> 00:12:24,412 - Good night. - Bye. 183 00:12:24,829 --> 00:12:25,871 So, I'll see ya later. 184 00:12:26,914 --> 00:12:28,809 Just don't hang out with that Chris guy anymore, okay? 185 00:12:28,833 --> 00:12:30,876 - Good night. - He's a skeez and he's kinda dumb. 186 00:12:30,960 --> 00:12:32,920 - Exactly. - Good night, Dorothea. 187 00:12:33,796 --> 00:12:35,881 - Happy Birthday. - Bye, Julie. 188 00:12:38,884 --> 00:12:39,927 Stop. 189 00:12:40,136 --> 00:12:41,637 What? 190 00:12:43,848 --> 00:12:45,891 Thinking that you know everything that's going on. 191 00:12:45,975 --> 00:12:48,436 No, I don— I just think that, you know, 192 00:12:48,519 --> 00:12:51,814 having your heart broken is a tremendous way to learn about the world. 193 00:12:56,861 --> 00:12:58,154 Okay. 194 00:13:01,949 --> 00:13:03,576 Do you think you're happy? 195 00:13:04,702 --> 00:13:05,786 Like... 196 00:13:07,163 --> 00:13:09,790 as happy as you thought you'd be when you were my age? 197 00:13:10,875 --> 00:13:11,917 Seriously? 198 00:13:12,126 --> 00:13:14,128 You don't ask people questions like that. 199 00:13:15,379 --> 00:13:16,422 You're my mom. 200 00:13:19,675 --> 00:13:20,718 Especially your mom. 201 00:13:21,135 --> 00:13:22,636 Look, wondering if you're happy 202 00:13:22,761 --> 00:13:24,889 is a great shortcut to just being depressed. 203 00:13:25,139 --> 00:13:26,307 Give me that. 204 00:14:08,349 --> 00:14:10,017 What is that? 205 00:14:10,893 --> 00:14:12,811 It's The Raincoats. 206 00:14:19,318 --> 00:14:21,862 Can't things... just be pretty? 207 00:14:23,531 --> 00:14:27,243 "Pretty" music is used to hide how unfair and corrupt society is. 208 00:14:28,160 --> 00:14:29,828 Ah. 209 00:14:32,122 --> 00:14:33,165 Okay, so... 210 00:14:34,083 --> 00:14:37,002 they're not very good, and they know that, right? 211 00:14:37,419 --> 00:14:39,088 Yeah, it's... 212 00:14:39,922 --> 00:14:41,924 It's like they got all this, this feeling, 213 00:14:42,508 --> 00:14:44,885 and they don't have any skill, and they don't want skill, 214 00:14:44,969 --> 00:14:46,470 because it's really interesting 215 00:14:46,554 --> 00:14:51,183 what happens when your passion is bigger than the tools 216 00:14:51,267 --> 00:14:52,977 you have to deal with it. 217 00:14:53,102 --> 00:14:57,439 It creates this energy that's— that's— that's raw. 218 00:14:58,232 --> 00:14:59,984 Isn't it great? 219 00:15:17,293 --> 00:15:20,963 My son was born in 1964. 220 00:15:24,258 --> 00:15:26,594 He grew up with a meaningless war... 221 00:15:27,511 --> 00:15:31,265 with protests, with Nixon... 222 00:15:32,391 --> 00:15:34,685 with nice cars and nice houses... 223 00:15:35,269 --> 00:15:39,898 computers, drugs, boredom. 224 00:15:44,236 --> 00:15:47,197 I know him less every day. 225 00:15:52,745 --> 00:15:55,039 He said it was just a game. 226 00:15:55,998 --> 00:15:57,791 You breathe real hard and another kid 227 00:16:06,008 --> 00:16:09,219 He said you're supposed to come to a few seconds later... 228 00:16:09,303 --> 00:16:10,888 - Dude, can I try? - Yeah. 229 00:16:10,971 --> 00:16:15,392 but it took Jamie almost a half an hour to wake up. 230 00:16:29,448 --> 00:16:30,491 Going to get help! 231 00:16:48,217 --> 00:16:50,135 - You all right? - He's fine. 232 00:16:55,849 --> 00:16:57,059 Can you tell me your name? 233 00:16:58,519 --> 00:16:59,561 Jamie Fields. 234 00:17:18,831 --> 00:17:19,957 You got lucky this time. 235 00:17:20,916 --> 00:17:23,293 Lack of oxygen to the brain can cause brain damage, 236 00:17:24,002 --> 00:17:25,921 comas... even death. 237 00:17:31,260 --> 00:17:35,931 Jamie, why would you do something so dangerous? 238 00:17:38,559 --> 00:17:40,519 I don't know. Um... 239 00:17:41,311 --> 00:17:43,188 I mean, everyone was doing it. 240 00:17:44,815 --> 00:17:46,191 So you just went along with it? 241 00:17:47,109 --> 00:17:49,278 - It looked like fun. - That's just dumb. 242 00:17:49,361 --> 00:17:51,155 Why would you do something so stupid? 243 00:17:51,613 --> 00:17:52,656 Just following along? 244 00:17:53,282 --> 00:17:55,909 You— you know you almost died, right? 245 00:17:56,076 --> 00:17:58,746 - You don't need to worry about me. - Why didn't you think? 246 00:17:59,788 --> 00:18:01,582 Jamie! Hey! 247 00:18:04,042 --> 00:18:05,127 Jamie... 248 00:18:05,961 --> 00:18:08,464 What— what is going on? What, why— 249 00:18:09,506 --> 00:18:12,009 What? You're not gonna talk to me now? 250 00:18:14,386 --> 00:18:15,929 I'm not the one who doesn't talk. 251 00:18:16,388 --> 00:18:18,348 What? Come on. 252 00:18:19,057 --> 00:18:21,268 You scared the hell out of me! 253 00:18:22,227 --> 00:18:24,188 Why— why did you hurt yourself like that? 254 00:18:24,563 --> 00:18:26,231 Why do you smoke yourself to death? 255 00:18:26,398 --> 00:18:27,691 Hey! 256 00:18:28,692 --> 00:18:32,112 Why are you fine being sad and alone? 257 00:18:34,198 --> 00:18:35,240 I, uh... 258 00:18:35,783 --> 00:18:39,536 I... You... You c— 259 00:18:40,037 --> 00:18:41,677 You can't talk to me like that. We don't— 260 00:18:41,747 --> 00:18:43,832 You don't say that to me. 261 00:18:54,301 --> 00:18:56,929 ♪ This day and age we're living in ♪ 262 00:18:57,012 --> 00:18:59,431 ♪ Gives cause for apprehension ♪ 263 00:18:59,765 --> 00:19:01,934 ♪ With speed and new invention ♪ 264 00:19:02,184 --> 00:19:04,311 ♪ And things like third dimension ♪ 265 00:19:04,394 --> 00:19:07,105 ♪ Yet we get a trifle weary ♪ 266 00:19:07,397 --> 00:19:09,983 ♪ With Mr. Einstein's theory ♪ 267 00:19:10,317 --> 00:19:13,028 ♪ So we must get down to Earth at times ♪ 268 00:19:14,196 --> 00:19:17,157 ♪ Relax, relieve the tension ♪ 269 00:19:17,282 --> 00:19:19,660 ♪ No matter what the progress ♪ 270 00:19:19,785 --> 00:19:21,995 ♪ Or what may yet be proved ♪ 271 00:19:22,496 --> 00:19:25,499 ♪ The simple facts of life are such ♪ 272 00:19:25,874 --> 00:19:30,087 ♪ They cannot be removed ♪ 273 00:19:35,133 --> 00:19:37,594 ♪ You must remember this ♪ 274 00:19:37,845 --> 00:19:40,138 ♪ A kiss is still a kiss... ♪ 275 00:19:40,389 --> 00:19:42,724 I think history has been tough on men. 276 00:19:43,100 --> 00:19:44,810 I mean, they can't be what they were, 277 00:19:45,185 --> 00:19:47,020 and they can't figure out what's next. 278 00:19:47,354 --> 00:19:48,605 What are we talking about? 279 00:19:48,689 --> 00:19:49,731 Men? 280 00:19:50,190 --> 00:19:52,109 I think history and men? 281 00:19:52,192 --> 00:19:54,486 I mean who are your heroes nowadays? 282 00:19:54,736 --> 00:19:56,446 A bunch of privileged drug addicts? 283 00:19:56,572 --> 00:19:59,241 I think maybe you guys can help me with Jamie. 284 00:19:59,533 --> 00:20:02,286 I think... he needs help... 285 00:20:03,078 --> 00:20:06,540 in figuring out how to be himself in all this mess. 286 00:20:06,748 --> 00:20:08,458 And I can't be there. 287 00:20:09,209 --> 00:20:11,712 I can't be there with him. I have to let go. 288 00:20:12,421 --> 00:20:14,590 Is this because of the fainting thing? 289 00:20:14,715 --> 00:20:16,341 - He's fine. - No. 290 00:20:16,717 --> 00:20:18,260 It's because of everything. 291 00:20:20,304 --> 00:20:22,514 I don't understand what— What are you asking? 292 00:20:23,473 --> 00:20:24,808 Well, how do you be a good man? 293 00:20:26,351 --> 00:20:28,270 What does that even mean nowadays? 294 00:20:29,396 --> 00:20:31,064 He's— he's only got me. It's just— 295 00:20:31,857 --> 00:20:33,692 Think about it. It's not enough. 296 00:20:33,942 --> 00:20:35,694 - You're serious? - Yeah. 297 00:20:35,777 --> 00:20:38,488 What about William? William's a guy. That's— 298 00:20:38,572 --> 00:20:41,283 He can talk to him about guy things. 299 00:20:41,366 --> 00:20:43,243 Have you ever seen them have a conversation? 300 00:20:43,327 --> 00:20:45,370 They have nothing in common. They don't connect. 301 00:20:45,454 --> 00:20:47,789 It's just not working. I mean, I thought about that. 302 00:20:47,956 --> 00:20:48,999 He... 303 00:20:50,250 --> 00:20:53,337 Well, he likes you and you. He likes you a lot. 304 00:20:53,754 --> 00:20:55,023 - That— that's... - He's my friend. 305 00:20:55,047 --> 00:20:56,340 I don't want to be his mom. 306 00:20:57,299 --> 00:20:58,842 Yeah, no. I'm his mom. 307 00:20:59,468 --> 00:21:03,221 I mean don't you need a man to raise a man? 308 00:21:04,765 --> 00:21:06,350 No. I don't think so. 309 00:21:07,267 --> 00:21:08,310 I mean, 310 00:21:08,602 --> 00:21:11,521 I think you're what's gonna work for him. 311 00:21:15,150 --> 00:21:18,862 I mean... you know him better than anyone. 312 00:21:19,154 --> 00:21:21,448 You know that, and... 313 00:21:21,531 --> 00:21:25,202 you care about him. You can watch out for him. 314 00:21:25,410 --> 00:21:30,165 And you just share your life. You're a talented person. 315 00:21:30,290 --> 00:21:31,690 Show him what you're interested in. 316 00:21:31,750 --> 00:21:33,627 You know, he would be lucky to have that. 317 00:21:52,104 --> 00:21:53,146 Help me with what? 318 00:21:53,563 --> 00:21:56,358 Oh, go through this part of your life. 319 00:21:56,441 --> 00:21:58,402 It's not easy. It's not easy for anybody. 320 00:21:59,820 --> 00:22:01,446 - You asked them to help me? - Yeah. 321 00:22:02,239 --> 00:22:04,408 No, they— they get it. 322 00:22:06,284 --> 00:22:07,327 So they said yes? 323 00:22:07,577 --> 00:22:08,954 Yeah. 324 00:22:09,371 --> 00:22:10,747 - Fuck. - Hey! 325 00:22:11,873 --> 00:22:14,626 You just feel guilty 'cause it's just me and you. 326 00:22:17,629 --> 00:22:19,172 You don't know what I'm feeling. 327 00:22:20,257 --> 00:22:21,341 Just tell me. 328 00:22:22,217 --> 00:22:24,344 Kid... 329 00:22:24,428 --> 00:22:27,681 You never tell me what you're gonna do. You just do it. 330 00:22:43,321 --> 00:22:45,323 I got the keys to my stepmom's car. 331 00:22:45,407 --> 00:22:47,451 I'm going to The Starwood. 332 00:22:47,534 --> 00:22:50,787 Tanya and Michelle are both gonna be there. 333 00:22:51,121 --> 00:22:52,289 Hey, you guys going to LA? 334 00:22:53,457 --> 00:22:55,584 Yeah, I am. 335 00:22:57,169 --> 00:22:58,211 Can I come? 336 00:23:00,047 --> 00:23:02,424 ...kissed a girl? Are you ready? 337 00:23:03,300 --> 00:23:05,844 Are you gonna— are you gonna get with some chick there? 338 00:23:29,493 --> 00:23:30,786 That was Jamie. 339 00:23:31,536 --> 00:23:34,039 He is in, uh, LA. 340 00:23:34,331 --> 00:23:36,875 He and some friends went to a show. 341 00:23:38,502 --> 00:23:41,505 - Oh. - Yeah. He wanted me to tell you. 342 00:23:42,589 --> 00:23:44,007 Okay. 343 00:23:52,432 --> 00:23:54,101 Aren't you worried or— 344 00:23:57,395 --> 00:23:59,898 He's mad at me and this is his way of dealing with it... 345 00:24:01,233 --> 00:24:03,276 and he has every right to be mad. 346 00:24:05,362 --> 00:24:06,988 Yeah, but if it makes him this mad, 347 00:24:07,197 --> 00:24:09,574 then maybe it wasn't a good idea. 348 00:24:16,289 --> 00:24:18,834 ♪ Got television, got supervision ♪ 349 00:24:18,917 --> 00:24:20,502 ♪ No decisions for you ♪ 350 00:24:20,710 --> 00:24:24,297 ♪ Media blitz, media blitz, media hits, we rule ♪ 351 00:24:30,303 --> 00:24:32,055 ♪ Don't steal your eyes off the TV screen ♪ 352 00:24:32,139 --> 00:24:33,849 ♪ Can you realize we're what we've seen? ♪ 353 00:24:33,932 --> 00:24:37,644 ♪ Take an injection— ♪ 354 00:24:46,528 --> 00:24:48,029 Maybe... 355 00:24:48,780 --> 00:24:50,532 Maybe I did the wrong thing. 356 00:24:51,992 --> 00:24:53,702 Oh, I— 357 00:24:54,661 --> 00:24:56,204 - With the kid, I mean. - Yeah, I know. 358 00:24:56,288 --> 00:24:59,249 I think that Jamie's energy is very... 359 00:25:01,835 --> 00:25:03,461 unstable. 360 00:25:05,672 --> 00:25:07,174 Yeah. Well, you're right. 361 00:25:07,257 --> 00:25:08,842 Then, though, there's an energy crisis. 362 00:25:08,925 --> 00:25:14,014 Maybe that plays into it in some way. 363 00:25:15,849 --> 00:25:17,517 I'm sorry. 364 00:25:19,186 --> 00:25:21,855 You don't have very many funny lines, do you? 365 00:25:25,442 --> 00:25:26,693 Okay. 366 00:25:54,554 --> 00:25:55,597 Jamie? 367 00:26:04,564 --> 00:26:06,066 Jamie? 368 00:26:29,673 --> 00:26:30,757 Hey. 369 00:26:31,508 --> 00:26:32,759 Hey. 370 00:26:33,718 --> 00:26:35,720 - Everything okay? - Yeah. 371 00:26:36,471 --> 00:26:37,681 Can I come in? 372 00:26:38,974 --> 00:26:40,183 Sure. 373 00:26:43,979 --> 00:26:46,731 So I had this new idea for— for my photography 374 00:26:46,815 --> 00:26:51,486 that I was gonna take a picture of everything that I owned 375 00:26:51,569 --> 00:26:56,783 so it would be a self-portrait of myself through the stuff that I have. 376 00:27:00,704 --> 00:27:01,746 Can I show you? 377 00:27:02,247 --> 00:27:06,042 That's a bra, birth control, 378 00:27:06,710 --> 00:27:11,506 um, photography by Susan Sontag, shoes, underwear, 379 00:27:12,299 --> 00:27:13,800 a picture of a picture of my mom. 380 00:27:14,926 --> 00:27:17,137 I'm gonna do a bunch of 'em. 381 00:27:18,763 --> 00:27:21,975 It's a little bit— It's a little bit sad. 382 00:27:26,104 --> 00:27:27,772 You know, all this stuff together. 383 00:27:29,024 --> 00:27:30,859 I don't know why that is. 384 00:27:32,110 --> 00:27:33,153 Not— I mean... 385 00:27:33,903 --> 00:27:35,322 Do you know what I mean? 386 00:27:36,531 --> 00:27:38,325 It's really beautiful, Abbie. 387 00:27:39,200 --> 00:27:42,829 Do you want to fool around... with me? 388 00:27:45,081 --> 00:27:46,416 Really? 389 00:27:47,917 --> 00:27:49,169 Yeah. 390 00:27:52,380 --> 00:27:53,798 Yeah. 391 00:27:55,300 --> 00:27:56,718 I do. 392 00:28:00,555 --> 00:28:03,850 You know, I'm recovering from cervical cancer. 393 00:28:07,479 --> 00:28:08,730 I know. 394 00:28:25,580 --> 00:28:27,499 Your hair smells good. 395 00:28:31,628 --> 00:28:33,171 I make my own shampoo. 396 00:28:34,422 --> 00:28:35,882 Of course you do. 397 00:29:04,119 --> 00:29:05,161 Oh. 398 00:29:05,411 --> 00:29:07,997 It's okay, Jeeves, he's back. 399 00:29:08,081 --> 00:29:10,041 You can relax now. 400 00:29:22,929 --> 00:29:24,430 Where were you? 401 00:29:25,640 --> 00:29:26,683 I went to The Starwood. 402 00:29:27,475 --> 00:29:31,437 Saw a show in LA. Had a lot of fun. 403 00:29:33,106 --> 00:29:34,149 Are you drunk? 404 00:29:42,824 --> 00:29:44,117 Don't. 405 00:29:48,371 --> 00:29:49,664 What's wrong? 406 00:29:52,542 --> 00:29:54,544 Tim Trammer came inside me. 407 00:29:58,882 --> 00:30:01,009 I don't want to hear this shit. 408 00:30:02,802 --> 00:30:05,722 We broke into that old pool at the rec center. 409 00:30:05,805 --> 00:30:07,599 Got loaded. 410 00:30:08,641 --> 00:30:10,143 Fucked around. 411 00:30:12,228 --> 00:30:14,898 And me and Tim ended up in his mom's Maverick. 412 00:30:21,863 --> 00:30:23,072 Did you just cum? 413 00:30:24,115 --> 00:30:25,742 Yeah. 414 00:30:27,952 --> 00:30:29,579 You said you'd pull out. 415 00:30:32,498 --> 00:30:34,000 Yeah. 416 00:30:34,417 --> 00:30:36,002 Sorry. 417 00:30:38,004 --> 00:30:39,881 I thought we had a deal there. 418 00:30:42,592 --> 00:30:43,927 Fuck. 419 00:30:46,971 --> 00:30:48,723 What are you gonna do? 420 00:30:52,560 --> 00:30:54,229 It'll be fine. 421 00:31:10,995 --> 00:31:13,831 Your mom asked me to, like, help raise you. 422 00:31:17,377 --> 00:31:19,337 Yeah, I know. 423 00:31:21,881 --> 00:31:23,508 She was raised in The Depression. 424 00:31:24,425 --> 00:31:25,969 Everyone helped raise everyone. 425 00:31:26,344 --> 00:31:28,721 You know, the whole neighborhood raised the kids. 426 00:31:30,014 --> 00:31:31,599 Sorry. 427 00:31:34,936 --> 00:31:35,979 Can we do therapy? 428 00:31:37,063 --> 00:31:39,357 Jesus, I don't want to do therapy right now. 429 00:31:39,440 --> 00:31:40,984 - Let's just role play. - Please, no. 430 00:31:41,067 --> 00:31:44,153 I'll be your mom, and you can tell her what you want to tell her. 431 00:31:44,570 --> 00:31:45,863 Just do it. 432 00:31:47,573 --> 00:31:49,093 I don't want to talk to my mom right now. 433 00:31:49,117 --> 00:31:50,157 What would you say to her? 434 00:31:53,162 --> 00:31:54,831 Okay. 435 00:31:59,085 --> 00:32:01,379 I don't need your help, Mom. 436 00:32:02,463 --> 00:32:04,090 I've got it. 437 00:32:04,799 --> 00:32:06,092 I'm okay. 438 00:32:09,929 --> 00:32:12,849 Um, I'm gonna need a story. 439 00:32:13,308 --> 00:32:14,350 What? 440 00:32:14,809 --> 00:32:15,852 A story. 441 00:32:16,311 --> 00:32:18,104 - What do you mean? - Like a... a story. 442 00:32:19,063 --> 00:32:20,106 Um... where... I'm... 443 00:32:25,069 --> 00:32:27,363 I'm just a normal woman, 444 00:32:28,197 --> 00:32:30,616 and you're a photographer, 445 00:32:30,992 --> 00:32:35,204 and so you're photographing me, but while you're doing it... 446 00:32:36,956 --> 00:32:40,835 you can't help yourself, and you start touching me. 447 00:32:41,836 --> 00:32:45,048 And you touch me... 448 00:32:46,132 --> 00:32:52,722 and you say... "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." 449 00:32:55,099 --> 00:32:56,267 Really? 450 00:32:57,727 --> 00:32:59,729 I can't just be myself? 451 00:33:03,524 --> 00:33:04,942 No. 452 00:33:06,569 --> 00:33:07,929 Okay, so— Do I just, uh... - Okay. 453 00:33:07,987 --> 00:33:09,447 Hey, nice to meet you. - Oh, Hi. 454 00:33:10,239 --> 00:33:13,951 Do I just look in the camera, or should I look... off to the side? 455 00:33:14,035 --> 00:33:16,079 Let's start that way, looking in the camera. 456 00:33:16,162 --> 00:33:17,205 Okay. Should I smile? 457 00:33:18,081 --> 00:33:19,457 - Do you like to smile? - Yeah. 458 00:33:20,166 --> 00:33:22,085 - Okay. - Okay. 459 00:33:22,919 --> 00:33:23,961 Uh, oh, you took it. 460 00:33:24,253 --> 00:33:26,023 I thought you were gonna say like, "One, two, three..." 461 00:33:26,047 --> 00:33:27,090 - No. - Okay. 462 00:33:27,340 --> 00:33:29,008 - I just wait for the moment. - Okay. 463 00:33:29,133 --> 00:33:30,927 - I just have to fix something. - Okay. 464 00:33:31,469 --> 00:33:32,762 - Just right here. - Um, oh. 465 00:33:33,513 --> 00:33:35,431 - I'm sorry. - Oh, God. No, it's all right. 466 00:33:35,515 --> 00:33:38,976 I don't mind. I'm just— Never done this before. 467 00:33:39,060 --> 00:33:44,440 I, um, so I'm just a little bit nervous, but, um, I can, um, 468 00:33:44,524 --> 00:33:47,110 wear my hair differently if you want. - Abbie... 469 00:33:48,903 --> 00:33:50,196 Yeah? 470 00:33:52,532 --> 00:33:54,158 I'm sorry. 471 00:33:59,205 --> 00:34:00,998 I'm really sorry. 472 00:34:18,683 --> 00:34:22,019 Julie and I have been friends since we were little. 473 00:34:26,107 --> 00:34:28,651 She likes to say she's self-destructive. 474 00:34:30,486 --> 00:34:31,696 Her mother is a therapist. 475 00:34:32,238 --> 00:34:33,281 We used to talk and I... 476 00:34:34,323 --> 00:34:37,452 had a better sense of what was going on with you. I worry that... 477 00:34:38,077 --> 00:34:40,872 She makes Julie attend her teen group sessions. 478 00:34:40,955 --> 00:34:42,331 How about the possibility... 479 00:34:43,958 --> 00:34:46,627 that you're choosing boys who are inappropriate... 480 00:34:47,086 --> 00:34:48,129 unconsciously? 481 00:34:49,630 --> 00:34:51,591 When her mother remarried, Julie changed. 482 00:34:51,674 --> 00:34:53,193 I love this shirt! Don't get me wrong... 483 00:34:53,217 --> 00:34:54,552 When her half-sister Amanda 484 00:34:54,635 --> 00:34:58,055 was born with cerebral palsy, she changed more. 485 00:35:00,141 --> 00:35:01,809 Wow, it looks really pretty on you. 486 00:35:02,226 --> 00:35:05,021 Brings— Just— just makes your whole face pop. 487 00:35:05,855 --> 00:35:06,898 Like soda. Like pop. 488 00:35:17,283 --> 00:35:19,452 She started fooling around. 489 00:35:21,287 --> 00:35:23,456 She started sneaking into my house. 490 00:35:24,624 --> 00:35:26,125 Sleeping over. 491 00:35:27,627 --> 00:35:28,794 Why'd you do it? 492 00:35:29,253 --> 00:35:30,671 'Cause I'm crazy. 493 00:35:33,591 --> 00:35:35,384 You wish you were crazy. 494 00:35:39,472 --> 00:35:41,015 Scratch me. 495 00:35:44,393 --> 00:35:46,896 We should go up the coast somewhere. 496 00:35:48,314 --> 00:35:49,357 Just me and you. 497 00:35:52,235 --> 00:35:55,029 Julie works at the La Cumbre Plaza mall. 498 00:35:55,112 --> 00:36:00,159 Spring Rain features cinnamon, jasmine, lily of the valley and rose. 499 00:36:01,536 --> 00:36:03,162 "Sex is a commitment. 500 00:36:03,246 --> 00:36:05,623 Once you're there, you can't go back to holding hands, 501 00:36:05,706 --> 00:36:08,501 and when you give yourself, both mentally and physically, 502 00:36:08,751 --> 00:36:10,378 well, you're completely vulnerable." 503 00:36:10,461 --> 00:36:13,172 All he cares about is his new wife, and her birthday, 504 00:36:13,631 --> 00:36:15,466 and Christmas with her and her family, 505 00:36:16,676 --> 00:36:19,011 and inviting all of her family to our— 506 00:36:19,095 --> 00:36:24,642 Spring Rain features cinnamon, jasmine, lily of the valley and rose. 507 00:36:26,060 --> 00:36:28,271 "Of all the misconceptions about love, 508 00:36:28,354 --> 00:36:29,981 the most powerful and persuasive 509 00:36:30,314 --> 00:36:32,316 is the belief that falling in love is love, 510 00:36:34,277 --> 00:36:36,988 or at least one of the manifestations of love." 511 00:36:38,239 --> 00:36:40,616 Love is supposed to be a feeling that you feel. 512 00:36:41,075 --> 00:36:44,954 People say that they're falling in love, but they're not actually falling in love. 513 00:36:46,247 --> 00:36:48,749 It's a fake connection that you feel with someone... 514 00:36:49,375 --> 00:36:51,210 and marriage should never happen. 515 00:36:51,627 --> 00:36:55,131 You should have died. It should have been you! 516 00:36:56,424 --> 00:36:57,466 Die! 517 00:37:40,426 --> 00:37:41,469 Hey, Julie. 518 00:37:42,261 --> 00:37:44,055 - Hey. - Hi. 519 00:37:44,805 --> 00:37:47,600 So come on in. It's okay. Come in. 520 00:37:48,309 --> 00:37:51,270 He's not up yet. He, uh... - Yeah. 521 00:37:51,354 --> 00:37:52,563 Yeah, he got in kinda late. 522 00:37:53,439 --> 00:37:55,441 Okay, you wanna help me bring this stuff in? 523 00:38:01,364 --> 00:38:03,532 So is, uh, Jamie okay? 524 00:38:03,824 --> 00:38:06,285 Yeah, he's okay. 525 00:38:07,453 --> 00:38:09,288 Yeah, I— I heard him come in last night. 526 00:38:09,663 --> 00:38:11,457 - Oh. - I was— I was awake. 527 00:38:12,291 --> 00:38:13,334 Right. 528 00:38:13,542 --> 00:38:16,837 Yeah, I was just— Couldn't sleep, so I was... 529 00:38:18,589 --> 00:38:20,758 you know, listening for him. 530 00:38:35,064 --> 00:38:36,440 How was the show? 531 00:38:37,441 --> 00:38:38,734 It was good. 532 00:38:39,860 --> 00:38:42,822 Next time you take a trip just let me know, okay? 533 00:38:42,905 --> 00:38:45,324 I won't make too much dinner. 534 00:38:54,375 --> 00:38:56,377 Hey, do the stocks with me? 535 00:38:59,672 --> 00:39:00,881 Here. 536 00:39:06,262 --> 00:39:07,888 Okay. IBM? 537 00:39:10,057 --> 00:39:12,935 IBM, 69.73. 538 00:39:13,477 --> 00:39:16,480 Xerox? You okay? 539 00:39:19,108 --> 00:39:21,402 Xerox, 53.92. 540 00:39:21,485 --> 00:39:22,528 - Stop. - Okay. 541 00:39:23,279 --> 00:39:25,573 Fifty-three point nine two. 542 00:39:26,365 --> 00:39:27,408 Listen. 543 00:39:27,533 --> 00:39:29,469 Abbie has her appointment today and I can't be here. 544 00:39:29,493 --> 00:39:30,536 I have to go to work, 545 00:39:30,661 --> 00:39:32,663 so I was hoping that maybe you could be here 546 00:39:33,330 --> 00:39:36,208 when she gets back in case she needs some support. 547 00:39:36,750 --> 00:39:38,586 She's going through a lot. 548 00:39:39,503 --> 00:39:43,424 Okay, well, like, what if it's, like, bad news or something? 549 00:39:44,550 --> 00:39:45,676 Well, you can handle it. 550 00:39:46,135 --> 00:39:49,555 Or if you can't, you have to start somewhere. 551 00:39:51,348 --> 00:39:53,642 Men always feel like they have to fix things 552 00:39:53,726 --> 00:39:55,644 for women or they're not doing anything, 553 00:39:55,728 --> 00:39:58,856 but some things just can't be fixed. 554 00:39:58,981 --> 00:40:00,316 Just be there. 555 00:40:01,233 --> 00:40:03,444 Somehow that's hard for all of you. 556 00:40:05,404 --> 00:40:08,949 Mom, I'm not "all men." Okay? I'm just me. 557 00:40:09,950 --> 00:40:12,369 Well, yes and no. 558 00:40:16,081 --> 00:40:18,584 What if I have to have full-on chemo... 559 00:40:19,502 --> 00:40:21,629 or get a hysterectomy? 560 00:40:22,421 --> 00:40:24,298 Do you know what that is? 561 00:40:26,509 --> 00:40:28,886 Look, I should just go with you, you know? I mean... 562 00:40:35,100 --> 00:40:38,145 Your mom did tell me to share my life with you. 563 00:40:39,438 --> 00:40:41,190 Yeah, I know. 564 00:40:42,316 --> 00:40:44,360 You don't— 565 00:40:44,443 --> 00:40:45,903 Don't worry about her. She's— 566 00:40:46,153 --> 00:40:47,780 she's from The Depression. 567 00:40:51,450 --> 00:40:52,535 Yeah. 568 00:40:57,623 --> 00:40:59,917 It's good news, Abbie. 569 00:41:01,627 --> 00:41:03,087 There were no malignant cells. 570 00:41:03,963 --> 00:41:05,631 Your biopsy's benign. 571 00:41:09,552 --> 00:41:12,471 And in the future? 572 00:41:13,973 --> 00:41:17,268 There was damage to the muscle wall, from the surgery. 573 00:41:19,645 --> 00:41:21,772 You have an incompetent cervix. 574 00:41:30,739 --> 00:41:32,449 Incompetent? 575 00:41:33,701 --> 00:41:36,537 It may not be strong enough to go full term during pregnancy. 576 00:41:37,496 --> 00:41:40,541 As the baby grows, the cervix widens. 577 00:41:41,500 --> 00:41:43,961 If it's weakened, it's likely to open prematurely. 578 00:41:50,467 --> 00:41:52,052 I'm gonna be okay. 579 00:41:56,390 --> 00:41:59,226 He said that I probably can't have kids. 580 00:42:05,858 --> 00:42:07,693 Was having Jamie, like... 581 00:42:08,777 --> 00:42:11,071 the biggest thing that ever happened to you? 582 00:42:16,160 --> 00:42:17,620 I guess so. 583 00:42:19,913 --> 00:42:22,124 - Sorry. - It's okay. 584 00:42:27,630 --> 00:42:29,673 You'll get through this. 585 00:42:31,675 --> 00:42:33,552 You will get through it. 586 00:42:34,595 --> 00:42:36,472 You will do it. 587 00:42:40,059 --> 00:42:43,729 You'll— This is the really hard part. And then what happens is, 588 00:42:44,104 --> 00:42:47,107 there's a hard part and then it gets better. 589 00:42:48,609 --> 00:42:50,569 And then it gets hard again, but never mind. 590 00:42:54,156 --> 00:42:55,866 I shouldn't have told you that part. 591 00:42:56,742 --> 00:43:00,329 I should have just said it gets better and then that's it, but... 592 00:43:01,121 --> 00:43:02,164 You got birds? 593 00:43:02,873 --> 00:43:03,916 Is that okay? 594 00:43:04,333 --> 00:43:05,376 Yeah. 595 00:43:08,420 --> 00:43:09,922 So did you name them? 596 00:43:10,506 --> 00:43:11,548 Not yet. 597 00:43:12,132 --> 00:43:14,218 They're a boy and a girl, and... 598 00:43:14,301 --> 00:43:16,512 that they're monogamous for life, so if... 599 00:43:18,639 --> 00:43:20,641 one of them dies, then the other one... 600 00:43:21,684 --> 00:43:23,686 will die like a week later. 601 00:43:23,977 --> 00:43:25,646 Wow. 602 00:43:27,356 --> 00:43:29,316 Well how 'bout Maximilian and Carlotta? 603 00:43:30,567 --> 00:43:31,610 I— I— 604 00:43:32,403 --> 00:43:33,904 You know, they deserve something grand 605 00:43:33,987 --> 00:43:37,324 if they're gonna be monogamous their whole lives. 606 00:43:37,408 --> 00:43:39,868 Right? 607 00:43:41,787 --> 00:43:45,874 Aw. 608 00:43:48,794 --> 00:43:52,423 Max and Carlotta are really good names. 609 00:43:54,174 --> 00:43:57,261 So, um, you— 610 00:43:57,344 --> 00:44:00,514 you went to the doctor's and you waited with her. 611 00:44:02,015 --> 00:44:03,392 Yeah. 612 00:44:04,685 --> 00:44:07,104 But I— I told you to wait here. 613 00:44:07,396 --> 00:44:08,439 I, um, 614 00:44:08,814 --> 00:44:10,774 I thought it'd be better to, uh, go and... 615 00:44:11,734 --> 00:44:12,776 really be there. 616 00:44:13,777 --> 00:44:15,154 Wow. 617 00:44:17,573 --> 00:44:19,491 She's really upset. 618 00:44:22,202 --> 00:44:23,996 That must have been a lot to deal with. 619 00:44:24,747 --> 00:44:26,165 I'm fine. 620 00:44:26,749 --> 00:44:28,000 I'm good. 621 00:44:29,126 --> 00:44:31,587 I— I learned a lot. 622 00:44:35,174 --> 00:44:36,383 Abigail Porter? 623 00:44:43,182 --> 00:44:44,683 "Home pregnancy tests 624 00:44:44,767 --> 00:44:46,477 that women can do safely and easily. 625 00:44:47,853 --> 00:44:51,356 A small revolution for women seeking to take control of their lives." 626 00:45:11,710 --> 00:45:13,545 What the fuck is this? 627 00:45:14,296 --> 00:45:16,882 It's a pregnancy test. 628 00:45:22,471 --> 00:45:23,514 Um, 629 00:45:23,931 --> 00:45:25,390 Abbie's doctor said that, uh, 630 00:45:26,391 --> 00:45:28,936 she wouldn't be able to have kids. 631 00:45:31,230 --> 00:45:33,232 Why'd she take you? 632 00:45:37,820 --> 00:45:39,613 - Is that all of it? - Yeah. 633 00:45:40,906 --> 00:45:42,324 That's a lot. 634 00:45:42,866 --> 00:45:45,035 - Now what? - Um... 635 00:45:45,786 --> 00:45:47,788 "Shake for ten seconds." 636 00:45:56,839 --> 00:45:58,465 Okay, um... 637 00:46:03,804 --> 00:46:07,474 Um... "Leave undisturbed for two hours." 638 00:46:09,268 --> 00:46:11,228 Two hours? 639 00:46:12,771 --> 00:46:14,273 That's what it says. 640 00:46:18,277 --> 00:46:21,363 Okay, if it appears, then you're positive, 641 00:46:21,446 --> 00:46:24,908 and if no ring appears here, then the test is negative. 642 00:46:30,289 --> 00:46:31,498 What do we do for two hours? 643 00:46:37,045 --> 00:46:38,338 Guys don't smoke like that. 644 00:46:38,797 --> 00:46:39,840 Don't hold it like that. 645 00:46:39,923 --> 00:46:42,885 Like... this, 646 00:46:43,260 --> 00:46:44,469 between your two fingers. 647 00:46:44,970 --> 00:46:46,930 - That? - Yeah. That's better. 648 00:46:51,101 --> 00:46:52,394 Okay now walk. Do like a... 649 00:46:53,145 --> 00:46:55,355 a cool cigarette walk. 650 00:47:04,114 --> 00:47:05,434 Guys aren't supposed to look like 651 00:47:05,490 --> 00:47:07,826 they're thinking about what they look like. 652 00:47:09,953 --> 00:47:11,330 Watch me. 653 00:47:19,212 --> 00:47:20,547 See? 654 00:47:21,173 --> 00:47:24,092 Smoking's gross. 655 00:47:24,509 --> 00:47:26,178 No, it's not. 656 00:47:28,013 --> 00:47:29,056 It gives you cancer. 657 00:47:31,391 --> 00:47:32,517 This is just my opinion. 658 00:47:32,726 --> 00:47:35,020 I think being strong is the most important quality. 659 00:47:35,103 --> 00:47:38,690 It's not being vulnerable, it's not being sensitive. 660 00:47:38,982 --> 00:47:41,735 It's not even— Honestly, it's not even being happy. 661 00:47:42,653 --> 00:47:43,695 It's about strength 662 00:47:44,446 --> 00:47:47,741 and your durability against the other emotions. 663 00:47:58,085 --> 00:47:59,753 No ring. 664 00:48:01,004 --> 00:48:02,798 No ring. 665 00:48:11,223 --> 00:48:13,350 - Hey. - Hey. 666 00:48:15,686 --> 00:48:17,354 Thanks for coming with me. 667 00:48:17,980 --> 00:48:19,314 Yeah, totally. 668 00:48:20,357 --> 00:48:22,025 I made you this. 669 00:48:23,193 --> 00:48:24,319 - It's a mix tape. - Yep. 670 00:48:25,612 --> 00:48:28,156 These were a bunch of songs that... 671 00:48:28,240 --> 00:48:31,243 I think my life would have been better 672 00:48:31,576 --> 00:48:35,288 if they had been around when I was a teenager. 673 00:48:35,580 --> 00:48:38,792 So I'm hoping that if you listen to them now, 674 00:48:39,209 --> 00:48:42,170 you will be a happier and more realized person 675 00:48:42,254 --> 00:48:45,841 than I could ever hope to be. 676 00:48:51,805 --> 00:48:53,306 From that night on... 677 00:48:53,390 --> 00:48:55,892 Abbie started telling me everything. 678 00:48:57,102 --> 00:49:00,105 She grew up in Santa Barbara where everyone is happy, 679 00:49:00,355 --> 00:49:02,482 but that just made her feel crazy. 680 00:49:04,609 --> 00:49:08,071 In 1973, she moved to New York City and went to art school. 681 00:49:09,156 --> 00:49:11,700 New York City made her feel sane. 682 00:49:11,867 --> 00:49:13,618 It was so fucked up. 683 00:49:14,536 --> 00:49:16,705 She fell in love with photography. 684 00:49:17,873 --> 00:49:19,666 She learned to dance when she got sad. 685 00:49:21,126 --> 00:49:24,921 She saw The Man Who Fell to Earth and dyed her hair red. 686 00:49:25,047 --> 00:49:27,424 I figured out how to be looked at 687 00:49:27,966 --> 00:49:29,009 by men, 688 00:49:30,052 --> 00:49:34,431 and how to make them excited, 689 00:49:34,848 --> 00:49:36,892 and uncomfortable. 690 00:49:37,559 --> 00:49:38,602 I was so cocky, 691 00:49:39,061 --> 00:49:40,771 and I was so angry 692 00:49:41,313 --> 00:49:44,066 and I was so happy. 693 00:49:47,319 --> 00:49:49,738 She fell in love with her teacher. 694 00:49:56,661 --> 00:49:58,455 Then she went to Planned Parenthood. 695 00:49:58,997 --> 00:50:00,457 Abigail Porter? 696 00:50:04,127 --> 00:50:07,047 Her friends couldn't deal with her having cancer, 697 00:50:07,130 --> 00:50:09,049 so she went home to her mom. 698 00:50:09,132 --> 00:50:10,217 Hey, Mom... 699 00:50:11,051 --> 00:50:12,677 Gail, did you ever take... 700 00:50:12,761 --> 00:50:15,972 D.E.S. when you were pregnant with Abbie? 701 00:50:16,932 --> 00:50:18,100 Yes. 702 00:50:19,184 --> 00:50:24,022 I had two miscarriages before Abbie. The doctor told me to take it. 703 00:50:25,107 --> 00:50:28,610 D.E.S. was a fertility medication. 704 00:50:28,693 --> 00:50:31,530 Doctors prescribed it to women. 705 00:50:31,655 --> 00:50:34,282 Later they found out that the daughters 706 00:50:34,366 --> 00:50:37,744 of the women who took it got cervical cancer. 707 00:50:38,286 --> 00:50:41,206 I didn't know that you had miscarriages. 708 00:50:43,834 --> 00:50:44,918 When her mom found out 709 00:50:45,001 --> 00:50:46,628 it was because she took that drug, 710 00:50:47,212 --> 00:50:48,505 she wouldn't talk about it. 711 00:50:49,631 --> 00:50:52,717 And everything Abbie did made her mad. 712 00:50:53,927 --> 00:50:56,346 So Abbie looked for another place to live. 713 00:50:58,598 --> 00:50:59,641 - Hi. Hello... - Hi. 714 00:51:00,225 --> 00:51:03,228 And she started renting the room upstairs. 715 00:51:03,645 --> 00:51:04,729 I'm Abbie. 716 00:51:05,730 --> 00:51:07,691 And she got a job at the news press. 717 00:51:07,774 --> 00:51:08,817 ...the landslide. 718 00:51:09,276 --> 00:51:11,069 It shows how erosion along the bluff, 719 00:51:11,611 --> 00:51:14,739 it causes instantaneous loss of oceanfront property 720 00:51:14,823 --> 00:51:15,949 and— and construction. 721 00:51:17,033 --> 00:51:18,326 Over time, it gradually... 722 00:51:30,422 --> 00:51:31,965 Hi, Dorothea. 723 00:51:32,424 --> 00:51:34,217 Hey, Charlie. 724 00:51:40,140 --> 00:51:43,018 Hey... um... 725 00:51:45,228 --> 00:51:46,438 You wanna go out some time? 726 00:51:47,189 --> 00:51:48,815 Get a drink? 727 00:51:49,566 --> 00:51:51,735 Oh, um... 728 00:51:54,112 --> 00:51:55,780 Yeah. 729 00:51:57,199 --> 00:51:59,868 What the heck, Charlie? 730 00:51:59,951 --> 00:52:02,078 Sure. Okay. 731 00:52:02,245 --> 00:52:04,164 I wasn't sure. 732 00:52:04,247 --> 00:52:05,832 - Uh... - What? 733 00:52:06,458 --> 00:52:09,419 Some— some of the guys thought you were a lesbian. 734 00:52:09,502 --> 00:52:13,673 You know, which, look, I don't have a problem with if you are, 735 00:52:13,924 --> 00:52:15,675 but you're not. 736 00:52:16,218 --> 00:52:18,178 Yeah, no, I am not. 737 00:52:22,390 --> 00:52:24,184 Um, should we go out then? 738 00:52:26,436 --> 00:52:28,313 Okay, yeah. Sure. 739 00:52:28,396 --> 00:52:32,442 You wanna come to dinner at my house again some time? 740 00:52:34,194 --> 00:52:35,362 You could... 741 00:52:35,737 --> 00:52:37,280 We could do that. 742 00:53:11,231 --> 00:53:13,775 Shit. Julie. 743 00:53:27,414 --> 00:53:29,124 It's really-It's nothing. 744 00:53:29,291 --> 00:53:31,293 I just end up there sometimes. 745 00:53:32,669 --> 00:53:34,337 What do you guys do? 746 00:53:35,046 --> 00:53:36,298 I just sleep. 747 00:53:36,965 --> 00:53:38,174 We talk. 748 00:53:44,723 --> 00:53:46,141 Can I have one? 749 00:53:47,350 --> 00:53:48,810 No, they're really bad for you. 750 00:53:50,145 --> 00:53:51,354 You smoke all the time. 751 00:53:52,230 --> 00:53:54,357 You know when I started, they weren't bad for you. 752 00:53:54,441 --> 00:53:56,735 They were just stylish, sort of edgy, 753 00:53:56,818 --> 00:53:59,696 so it's different for me. 754 00:54:05,952 --> 00:54:07,287 Okay. 755 00:54:16,546 --> 00:54:18,173 You're good at hiding stuff, huh? 756 00:54:19,424 --> 00:54:21,885 My mom calls it compartmentalizing. 757 00:54:22,552 --> 00:54:24,387 Apparently, I do that a lot. 758 00:54:29,142 --> 00:54:30,643 Are you helping him? 759 00:54:33,396 --> 00:54:35,523 - I'm trying. - Really? 760 00:54:37,734 --> 00:54:38,777 What about you? 761 00:54:39,402 --> 00:54:41,988 Have you thought about your impact on him? 762 00:54:43,323 --> 00:54:45,408 It's always about the mother. 763 00:54:47,369 --> 00:54:48,411 Like... 764 00:54:48,578 --> 00:54:51,373 do you think you've moved on since his dad? 765 00:54:52,749 --> 00:54:54,959 You know that you're not actually a therapist? 766 00:54:58,755 --> 00:55:00,965 I've had new guys, okay? 767 00:55:03,468 --> 00:55:05,387 No one appropriate. 768 00:55:06,930 --> 00:55:08,306 Appropriate? 769 00:55:10,975 --> 00:55:13,686 Guys you're not gonna risk anything with... 770 00:55:15,730 --> 00:55:17,399 men you don't even really like. 771 00:55:18,400 --> 00:55:20,985 Listen, you're 17, okay? 772 00:55:21,194 --> 00:55:23,738 Maybe you don't know what's good about these guys 773 00:55:23,822 --> 00:55:25,490 that I really like. 774 00:55:27,575 --> 00:55:28,618 I'm talking about you. 775 00:55:29,953 --> 00:55:32,205 You never seem into it... 776 00:55:33,289 --> 00:55:35,166 except for with William. 777 00:55:37,127 --> 00:55:38,503 But... 778 00:55:39,546 --> 00:55:41,297 he's inappropriate. 779 00:55:43,842 --> 00:55:47,053 Okay, Jesus. Uh, yeah. 780 00:55:50,056 --> 00:55:52,559 It's hard to find someone that I like. 781 00:55:54,477 --> 00:55:56,271 I— I had my chance twice, 782 00:55:56,354 --> 00:55:59,607 but that part of life just didn't work out for me. 783 00:56:09,701 --> 00:56:11,619 - Bye. - Bye. 784 00:56:48,156 --> 00:56:49,491 Where were you? 785 00:56:51,659 --> 00:56:53,578 I had some errands. 786 00:56:56,539 --> 00:56:57,582 You did the whole list. 787 00:56:58,666 --> 00:56:59,792 You know all the stocks? 788 00:57:00,502 --> 00:57:01,753 Yeah. 789 00:57:03,713 --> 00:57:06,424 IBM is down, huh? 790 00:57:06,591 --> 00:57:07,926 Sorry. I'll fix it next time. 791 00:57:09,385 --> 00:57:11,763 That— Good job on that. 792 00:57:27,779 --> 00:57:29,906 - William? - Yes? 793 00:57:31,699 --> 00:57:33,618 Do I seem stuck to you? 794 00:57:37,580 --> 00:57:38,957 How do you mean? 795 00:57:43,044 --> 00:57:45,713 Well, I, I guess I wouldn't know, would I? 796 00:57:51,970 --> 00:57:53,805 - Abbie? - Yes? 797 00:57:54,973 --> 00:57:57,267 Let's go out tonight. 798 00:57:58,059 --> 00:58:00,979 I want to see this modern world. 799 00:58:04,190 --> 00:58:05,441 Can I come? 800 00:58:25,545 --> 00:58:28,756 I don't know if I'm gonna find an appropriate man here. 801 00:58:29,966 --> 00:58:31,426 Thank you. 802 00:58:42,061 --> 00:58:43,646 What? 803 00:58:54,907 --> 00:58:55,950 What was that? 804 00:58:56,701 --> 00:58:58,328 What does that mean? 805 00:58:59,203 --> 00:59:03,291 Oh... Um... Uh... 806 00:59:03,708 --> 00:59:05,001 I mean you don't kiss a woman 807 00:59:05,209 --> 00:59:07,420 unless you know what you mean by it. 808 00:59:13,426 --> 00:59:15,261 Aren't you sleeping with Abbie? 809 00:59:17,513 --> 00:59:20,600 That's not something serious. It's... 810 00:59:22,644 --> 00:59:24,228 Then why do it? 811 00:59:57,136 --> 00:59:58,805 It's 1979. 812 00:59:59,097 --> 01:00:00,932 I'm 55 years old. 813 01:00:01,307 --> 01:00:03,309 This is what my son believes in. 814 01:00:04,268 --> 01:00:05,311 These people... 815 01:00:06,187 --> 01:00:07,980 with this hair... 816 01:00:08,272 --> 01:00:09,440 and these clothes... 817 01:00:09,982 --> 01:00:13,277 making these gestures, making these sounds. 818 01:00:15,029 --> 01:00:18,074 It's 1979. I'm 55 years old, 819 01:00:18,366 --> 01:00:19,409 and in 1999, 820 01:00:19,701 --> 01:00:22,370 I will die of cancer from the smoking. 821 01:00:26,708 --> 01:00:29,085 Hey. Are you going? 822 01:00:29,794 --> 01:00:31,003 Yeah. 823 01:00:32,046 --> 01:00:35,758 Do me a favor. Just take care of Abbie. 824 01:00:39,053 --> 01:00:42,014 They don't know this is the end of punk. 825 01:00:42,181 --> 01:00:44,016 They don't know that Reagan's coming. 826 01:00:45,393 --> 01:00:46,978 It's impossible to imagine 827 01:00:47,061 --> 01:00:50,231 that kids will stop dreaming about nuclear war, 828 01:00:50,773 --> 01:00:52,650 and have nightmares about the weather. 829 01:00:53,985 --> 01:00:57,238 It's impossible to imagine HIV, 830 01:00:57,905 --> 01:00:59,907 what will happen with skateboard tricks, 831 01:01:01,159 --> 01:01:02,910 the internet. 832 01:01:03,661 --> 01:01:04,704 You have a good time? 833 01:01:05,163 --> 01:01:06,956 Yeah, it was interesting. 834 01:01:09,584 --> 01:01:11,127 So Abbie has your number, right? 835 01:01:11,502 --> 01:01:14,046 - Yeah. - Maybe you'll come over for dinner. 836 01:01:14,756 --> 01:01:15,798 I'd like that. 837 01:01:23,890 --> 01:01:25,433 Kid. 838 01:01:28,561 --> 01:01:29,854 It's late. 839 01:01:31,689 --> 01:01:32,940 How was it? 840 01:01:33,274 --> 01:01:37,153 It was... life-changing. 841 01:01:50,792 --> 01:01:53,628 Before I die, I will prepare for Y2K. 842 01:01:54,337 --> 01:01:57,340 I put canned food and water in the garage. 843 01:01:57,840 --> 01:02:01,302 I put $16,000 dollars' worth of gold coins 844 01:02:01,385 --> 01:02:05,223 into a safe deposit box at the Bank of Montecito. 845 01:02:09,894 --> 01:02:12,146 I died before the new year, 846 01:02:12,772 --> 01:02:16,025 Dolphin shaped balloons floated over my head. 847 01:02:16,400 --> 01:02:19,487 They were playing Louis Armstrong on a boom box. 848 01:02:33,918 --> 01:02:35,044 Jamie? 849 01:02:37,880 --> 01:02:39,507 Hey, sorry. Are you awake? 850 01:02:40,800 --> 01:02:42,093 I just wanted to tell you... 851 01:02:42,969 --> 01:02:48,140 that you have to get out of this town if you want to have any chance 852 01:02:48,224 --> 01:02:50,101 of an interesting life moving forward. 853 01:02:50,476 --> 01:02:52,228 What happened? 854 01:02:54,897 --> 01:02:56,691 Sorry. Shit. 855 01:02:57,483 --> 01:02:59,068 We don't have sex. 856 01:03:00,236 --> 01:03:01,904 I just sleep here. 857 01:03:04,282 --> 01:03:05,783 Okay. 858 01:03:07,410 --> 01:03:08,452 Can I lay down? 859 01:03:09,120 --> 01:03:10,788 - We were sleeping. - Just scoot over. 860 01:03:10,872 --> 01:03:13,958 It's okay. I'm just gonna talk to Jamie for a second. 861 01:03:16,669 --> 01:03:19,922 So Lynette Winters spit on me, 862 01:03:20,006 --> 01:03:21,048 so then I hit her. 863 01:03:21,591 --> 01:03:22,758 Why'd she spit on you? 864 01:03:22,842 --> 01:03:24,302 Because I spit on her, 865 01:03:24,510 --> 01:03:25,904 right before I was going to New York 866 01:03:25,928 --> 01:03:27,889 and I thought I was never gonna come back. 867 01:03:28,139 --> 01:03:29,724 It felt very liberating at the time. 868 01:03:29,807 --> 01:03:31,142 - Fucking bitch! - All right. 869 01:03:31,225 --> 01:03:33,394 And somehow I ended up breaking a chair. 870 01:03:36,022 --> 01:03:37,732 Hey, Julian, I'm sorry. 871 01:03:37,940 --> 01:03:40,192 - You okay? - Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. 872 01:03:42,570 --> 01:03:43,905 And then William told me 873 01:03:43,988 --> 01:03:45,865 he didn't want to sleep with me anymore. 874 01:03:46,032 --> 01:03:48,534 What are you saying? I don't like you! 875 01:03:48,618 --> 01:03:50,161 I don't like you! I don't like— 876 01:03:51,621 --> 01:03:54,123 Just, just, I'm just gonna talk to Jamie for a second. 877 01:03:55,416 --> 01:03:59,545 Um, you cannot let her sleep here 878 01:03:59,837 --> 01:04:02,423 if she's not having sex with you. 879 01:04:02,548 --> 01:04:05,009 It's disempowering. 880 01:04:05,885 --> 01:04:07,595 Also, you need to get out of this town 881 01:04:09,305 --> 01:04:12,308 before you start working at a sunglasses shop. 882 01:04:15,353 --> 01:04:16,729 I mean, it goes for you, too. 883 01:04:33,663 --> 01:04:36,999 Jamie, um, here's some books from a feminism class I took. 884 01:04:37,083 --> 01:04:38,417 I thought it would be helpful 885 01:04:38,751 --> 01:04:40,378 for you to get a woman's perspective. 886 01:04:40,461 --> 01:04:41,671 What happened to your lip? 887 01:04:41,837 --> 01:04:43,339 Oh, I got in a fight. 888 01:04:43,422 --> 01:04:44,882 - You want some apples? - What?! 889 01:04:44,966 --> 01:04:47,259 There was a fight. It was— it was ridiculous. 890 01:04:47,343 --> 01:04:49,220 Hold on, is that Our Bodies, Ourselves? 891 01:04:49,804 --> 01:04:50,846 Yes, it is. 892 01:04:51,013 --> 01:04:52,453 This was a really, really good book. 893 01:04:53,683 --> 01:04:58,396 There's a really good chapter on home... childbirths. 894 01:04:59,730 --> 01:05:03,526 Home birth actually stunts the baby's growth personality. 895 01:05:03,693 --> 01:05:06,112 What is a growth personality? 896 01:05:06,195 --> 01:05:07,238 It's a real term. 897 01:05:07,613 --> 01:05:10,157 "And who knows what it means for a newborn 898 01:05:10,908 --> 01:05:14,453 to see wood walls and carpeted floor 899 01:05:14,537 --> 01:05:17,123 and to smell real human smells 900 01:05:17,206 --> 01:05:20,584 and to feel wool and cotton and flannel clothes 901 01:05:20,668 --> 01:05:25,840 instead of starchy, white, deodorized" dot, dot, dot. 902 01:05:25,965 --> 01:05:27,925 To me, that meant, like, "And what else?" 903 01:05:36,976 --> 01:05:38,436 Women's sexuality, 904 01:05:38,519 --> 01:05:40,771 defined by men to benefit men, 905 01:05:40,855 --> 01:05:43,149 has been downgraded and perverted, 906 01:05:43,232 --> 01:05:44,817 repressed and channeled. 907 01:05:45,693 --> 01:05:48,863 Anatomically, all orgasms are centered in the clitoris, 908 01:05:48,946 --> 01:05:50,865 whether they result from direct manual pressure 909 01:05:50,948 --> 01:05:52,116 applied to the clitoris, 910 01:05:52,783 --> 01:05:54,285 indirect pressure resulting from— 911 01:05:54,368 --> 01:05:56,078 Last night, I fucked Heather so hard, 912 01:05:56,162 --> 01:05:57,538 she came like, three times. 913 01:05:59,165 --> 01:06:01,459 How did you stimulate her clitoris? 914 01:06:02,460 --> 01:06:04,045 With my dick. 915 01:06:06,005 --> 01:06:09,050 Women need direct clitoral stimulation, 916 01:06:09,133 --> 01:06:12,803 like with fingers or a vibrator or something. 917 01:06:13,804 --> 01:06:16,140 She probably faked it. Women fake it all the time. 918 01:06:17,224 --> 01:06:19,101 Talking Heads are a bunch of fags. 919 01:06:21,228 --> 01:06:23,064 Actually, there's a girl in their band, 920 01:06:23,147 --> 01:06:25,900 and she's dating the drummer, so... 921 01:06:28,152 --> 01:06:30,029 Your name's Jamie, right? 922 01:06:30,529 --> 01:06:33,657 Fuckin' art fag. 923 01:06:43,042 --> 01:06:45,294 So what was the fight about? 924 01:06:48,339 --> 01:06:50,549 Clitoral stimulation. 925 01:06:54,136 --> 01:06:55,971 Why do you need to fight about that? 926 01:06:57,139 --> 01:06:58,182 I don't know. I... 927 01:06:58,599 --> 01:07:00,976 I wanna be a good guy, okay? 928 01:07:01,060 --> 01:07:05,731 I just... want to be able to satisfy a woman. 929 01:07:13,572 --> 01:07:15,950 Kid, I'm sure you will. 930 01:07:31,215 --> 01:07:32,591 Shit. 931 01:07:34,051 --> 01:07:35,719 Jamie! 932 01:07:36,428 --> 01:07:37,763 That's not cool. 933 01:07:37,888 --> 01:07:42,017 Yeah. That's what Matt called me for liking the Talking Heads. 934 01:07:43,227 --> 01:07:44,520 Uh-huh. 935 01:07:45,312 --> 01:07:48,107 And what is "Black Flag?" 936 01:07:48,732 --> 01:07:50,401 It's a hard core band, 937 01:07:50,484 --> 01:07:55,322 so the people who love Black Flag hate the Talking Heads. 938 01:07:56,115 --> 01:07:57,741 What?! 939 01:07:57,825 --> 01:08:00,995 The punk scene is very divisive. 940 01:08:01,453 --> 01:08:06,167 Hey! You're all so advanced, aren't you? 941 01:08:07,376 --> 01:08:10,129 The next time a dude tells you a sex story, 942 01:08:10,212 --> 01:08:13,757 you just have to agree with everything he says 943 01:08:13,841 --> 01:08:15,801 and act like it's right, even if it's not, 944 01:08:16,969 --> 01:08:18,971 because they don't wanna be contradicted. 945 01:08:19,054 --> 01:08:21,849 They just wanna live in their fantasy lands. 946 01:08:24,185 --> 01:08:27,188 How are you doing... with everything? 947 01:08:43,245 --> 01:08:45,497 Whatever you think your life is going to be like, 948 01:08:45,581 --> 01:08:49,418 just know it's not gonna be anything like that. 949 01:08:53,297 --> 01:08:54,381 Right. 950 01:09:10,105 --> 01:09:11,899 Take me to that club. 951 01:09:17,321 --> 01:09:18,405 Tonight? 952 01:09:19,949 --> 01:09:22,201 - Hey. - Hey. 953 01:09:23,327 --> 01:09:25,204 Wow, you look amazing. Where you going? 954 01:09:26,330 --> 01:09:28,123 We're just gonna go out. Is that okay? 955 01:09:28,290 --> 01:09:30,084 Well yeah, of course. And, uh, where? 956 01:09:31,168 --> 01:09:32,294 Just goin' out. 957 01:09:35,172 --> 01:09:36,215 - Bye. - Bye! 958 01:09:55,359 --> 01:09:56,860 Put that down. 959 01:09:57,695 --> 01:10:00,322 Hey, could I get a beer? 960 01:10:02,992 --> 01:10:06,161 Now say, "I— I'm into older women." 961 01:10:06,537 --> 01:10:08,372 Just say it. 962 01:10:08,956 --> 01:10:10,582 I'm into older women. 963 01:10:10,666 --> 01:10:11,709 Oh... 964 01:10:13,419 --> 01:10:14,461 How old are you? 965 01:10:15,212 --> 01:10:17,172 Age is a bourgeois construct. 966 01:10:18,465 --> 01:10:20,759 Age is a bourgeois construct. 967 01:10:21,427 --> 01:10:22,886 That's a good answer. 968 01:10:23,762 --> 01:10:25,139 Age is a bourgeois construct. 969 01:10:25,431 --> 01:10:26,557 Okay, okay. You get it. 970 01:10:26,974 --> 01:10:29,977 Um, so now if she asks you any questions, 971 01:10:30,060 --> 01:10:33,022 you just say as little as possible, okay? 972 01:10:34,023 --> 01:10:36,483 Now show me your most inscrutable face. 973 01:10:48,287 --> 01:10:50,289 I don't really make choices, when they... 974 01:10:50,789 --> 01:10:52,041 about... 975 01:10:52,750 --> 01:10:54,209 about women. They just... 976 01:10:55,377 --> 01:10:56,378 They come to you. 977 01:10:57,504 --> 01:11:00,424 That— that's— You could have more than that. 978 01:11:03,427 --> 01:11:05,220 But what about you? Why— 979 01:11:06,180 --> 01:11:08,766 I mean, what happened to Jamie's dad? 980 01:11:11,435 --> 01:11:14,271 Well... 981 01:11:15,522 --> 01:11:19,234 He just, no— He just didn't turn out like I thought he would. 982 01:11:21,362 --> 01:11:22,404 I guess that happens. 983 01:11:23,405 --> 01:11:25,532 There must have been something good about him. 984 01:11:28,535 --> 01:11:31,663 Um, he was left-handed. 985 01:11:32,581 --> 01:11:35,501 That's it? That's it? 986 01:11:35,584 --> 01:11:37,795 Yes, and I was right-handed. 987 01:11:38,462 --> 01:11:39,505 And so in the morning, 988 01:11:41,382 --> 01:11:43,509 we would look at the stock reports together, 989 01:11:44,468 --> 01:11:45,511 and... 990 01:11:47,471 --> 01:11:48,791 he could write with his left-hand 991 01:11:48,847 --> 01:11:51,517 and scratch my back with his right. 992 01:11:54,978 --> 01:11:56,438 And that's it? 993 01:11:58,315 --> 01:11:59,483 I loved that. 994 01:12:04,279 --> 01:12:05,322 Do you ever meditate? 995 01:12:08,659 --> 01:12:09,701 Uh... 996 01:12:10,702 --> 01:12:11,745 I feel the air, 997 01:12:12,413 --> 01:12:14,248 coolness of the air goes through my nose. 998 01:12:15,707 --> 01:12:17,793 All I'm really doing is... 999 01:12:19,420 --> 01:12:20,629 bringing my attention 1000 01:12:21,922 --> 01:12:24,174 back to my breath. 1001 01:12:24,341 --> 01:12:26,844 So when I take a breath in... 1002 01:12:27,803 --> 01:12:29,346 there's a feeling. 1003 01:12:30,305 --> 01:12:32,057 It's air going in. 1004 01:12:33,600 --> 01:12:35,352 It's air going out. 1005 01:12:36,061 --> 01:12:37,438 It's a good feeling. 1006 01:12:43,861 --> 01:12:46,071 No, it's okay. Go ahead. I'm just gonna... 1007 01:12:49,366 --> 01:12:50,409 Go ahead. 1008 01:12:51,034 --> 01:12:52,786 I'm just gonna smoke. 1009 01:12:54,121 --> 01:12:55,414 I'm listening. 1010 01:12:57,291 --> 01:12:59,501 All right, I wanna get on the same page. 1011 01:13:00,461 --> 01:13:01,503 You are such— 1012 01:13:01,962 --> 01:13:05,257 How did you get to be this person that you are? 1013 01:13:05,340 --> 01:13:08,760 It's so... You're so unusual. 1014 01:13:10,929 --> 01:13:12,306 William's dad managed 1015 01:13:12,389 --> 01:13:14,016 an auto repair shop in Cleveland. 1016 01:13:15,434 --> 01:13:18,687 Engines always made sense to him. 1017 01:13:19,730 --> 01:13:21,648 He tried to put himself through college, 1018 01:13:21,732 --> 01:13:23,609 but couldn't afford it. 1019 01:13:27,529 --> 01:13:30,491 He met Theresa in 1963. 1020 01:13:30,574 --> 01:13:33,452 She was smart, brave, better off. 1021 01:13:33,535 --> 01:13:34,578 They were in love. 1022 01:13:35,120 --> 01:13:36,246 They'd move to Oakland, 1023 01:13:36,455 --> 01:13:38,790 then to a commune in Sebastopol. 1024 01:13:38,874 --> 01:13:41,001 Well, I learned to be like them, you know? 1025 01:13:41,084 --> 01:13:42,127 And... as it turns out, 1026 01:13:43,754 --> 01:13:45,839 it's a lot easier than I thought it would be. 1027 01:13:45,923 --> 01:13:48,884 But it wasn't really me I was doing it for... 1028 01:13:50,344 --> 01:13:53,055 so that I wouldn't lose Theresa. 1029 01:13:54,306 --> 01:13:55,807 He started talking like them, 1030 01:13:55,891 --> 01:13:56,934 looking like them, 1031 01:13:57,434 --> 01:14:01,063 but they made him feel old and uneducated and poor. 1032 01:14:01,730 --> 01:14:03,273 Theresa started thinking 1033 01:14:03,357 --> 01:14:05,859 William was uptight and possessive and she left him. 1034 01:14:07,277 --> 01:14:08,362 After Theresa, 1035 01:14:08,445 --> 01:14:10,447 women didn't have to look one way or the other, 1036 01:14:10,531 --> 01:14:11,573 or be a certain way. 1037 01:14:16,328 --> 01:14:17,371 I think that I just— 1038 01:14:18,622 --> 01:14:19,665 I want to win them over 1039 01:14:20,457 --> 01:14:21,625 so that I won't be lonely. 1040 01:14:22,501 --> 01:14:23,752 You live here? 1041 01:14:24,419 --> 01:14:25,462 I do. 1042 01:14:25,587 --> 01:14:27,089 But once I have them, 1043 01:14:28,131 --> 01:14:30,008 I don't really know what to do with them. 1044 01:14:38,141 --> 01:14:39,768 You wanna do something later? 1045 01:14:40,811 --> 01:14:42,646 You're sweet. 1046 01:14:43,605 --> 01:14:45,148 I should go. 1047 01:14:46,608 --> 01:14:49,152 What he likes is making bowls. 1048 01:14:49,570 --> 01:14:51,363 He doesn't smell like oil and grease. 1049 01:14:51,446 --> 01:14:53,782 His hands don't look like dumb mechanic's hands. 1050 01:14:54,449 --> 01:14:56,285 I was using the smaller bowls for a while. 1051 01:14:56,368 --> 01:14:58,537 Um, and then I was kind of feeling like I needed 1052 01:14:58,870 --> 01:15:00,747 to beat the crap out of some stuff, so... 1053 01:15:02,040 --> 01:15:05,460 And when it gets a little bit drier, 1054 01:15:05,544 --> 01:15:07,421 you spray everything away. 1055 01:15:08,380 --> 01:15:09,548 Wow. 1056 01:15:10,257 --> 01:15:11,300 It's beautiful. 1057 01:15:17,514 --> 01:15:18,682 What? 1058 01:15:21,393 --> 01:15:22,436 Did you fix it? 1059 01:15:22,769 --> 01:15:23,812 Um... 1060 01:15:23,895 --> 01:15:24,938 Well, maybe... 1061 01:15:25,522 --> 01:15:29,443 It's, uh, part Vol— Volkswagen now. I had to imp— improvise. 1062 01:15:56,887 --> 01:15:59,514 And how are you gonna get to know a person way over there? 1063 01:16:01,016 --> 01:16:03,185 What am— What am I supposed to do? 1064 01:16:04,061 --> 01:16:06,647 Well, just make a little small talk 1065 01:16:06,813 --> 01:16:09,858 and introduce yourself, ask her to dance. 1066 01:16:10,901 --> 01:16:13,111 Okay. Hello, I'm William. 1067 01:16:13,862 --> 01:16:14,905 - Hello. - Hello. 1068 01:16:15,739 --> 01:16:17,407 - Um, I live downstairs. - Oh, yeah. 1069 01:16:17,699 --> 01:16:18,867 I'm the one with the cars. 1070 01:16:19,993 --> 01:16:21,495 Would you like to dance with me? 1071 01:16:22,287 --> 01:16:24,956 - Yes. Sure. - Okay. 1072 01:16:25,040 --> 01:16:26,208 Put your hand out, right? 1073 01:16:27,084 --> 01:16:28,210 Put the other hand here. 1074 01:16:28,794 --> 01:16:30,629 And just be there. 1075 01:16:31,672 --> 01:16:33,382 She just wants a little company. 1076 01:16:34,383 --> 01:16:35,801 Oh. 1077 01:16:36,802 --> 01:16:38,136 Okay. 1078 01:16:40,722 --> 01:16:42,265 That's nice. 1079 01:17:14,840 --> 01:17:17,884 I— I feel like I— I understand you. 1080 01:17:19,720 --> 01:17:21,054 We should get away from here. 1081 01:17:21,638 --> 01:17:23,140 Just— just me and you, you know? 1082 01:17:23,807 --> 01:17:26,601 Go up the coast, be alone somewhere. 1083 01:17:28,353 --> 01:17:30,647 Jamie, you're in love with Julie. 1084 01:17:35,777 --> 01:17:37,404 You can't let her push you around. 1085 01:17:38,363 --> 01:17:40,532 You have to tell her what you want. 1086 01:17:50,667 --> 01:17:53,211 ...if you, if you were to listen to it... 1087 01:17:53,295 --> 01:17:54,296 Right. 1088 01:17:54,671 --> 01:17:56,506 What does— what does that mean? 1089 01:17:56,590 --> 01:17:58,425 "Art Fag?" I mean what does— 1090 01:17:58,508 --> 01:18:03,263 If you were to think about it from more like a sociological perspective, 1091 01:18:03,346 --> 01:18:05,599 what does that come from? "Art Fag." 1092 01:18:05,682 --> 01:18:06,743 - I think we— - What is that? 1093 01:18:06,767 --> 01:18:09,311 - Abbie understands it. - Abbie does not understand it. 1094 01:18:09,686 --> 01:18:11,730 She's just a part of it. 1095 01:18:26,703 --> 01:18:28,622 You don't need to like it. 1096 01:18:29,206 --> 01:18:30,874 Okay, what is he saying? 1097 01:18:33,418 --> 01:18:35,504 "Head on my shoulders..." 1098 01:18:37,839 --> 01:18:38,882 "Going berserk..." 1099 01:18:39,800 --> 01:18:40,842 Right. 1100 01:18:41,009 --> 01:18:42,052 Is that interesting? 1101 01:18:42,427 --> 01:18:43,470 I don't know. 1102 01:18:43,887 --> 01:18:44,930 I don't know either. 1103 01:18:45,764 --> 01:18:47,724 I think we're maybe over-thinking this. 1104 01:19:03,865 --> 01:19:05,784 Let's try the Art Fag one. 1105 01:19:08,411 --> 01:19:10,330 Here come the Art Fags. 1106 01:19:14,376 --> 01:19:15,377 Oh, yeah. 1107 01:19:33,061 --> 01:19:34,563 All right, you ready? 1108 01:19:37,232 --> 01:19:38,525 That's it. 1109 01:19:42,112 --> 01:19:43,780 I guess we're more the Art Fag type. 1110 01:19:44,739 --> 01:19:45,740 Uh-huh. 1111 01:19:45,824 --> 01:19:47,284 I like that. 1112 01:19:48,451 --> 01:19:51,037 ♪ ...I remember from maps ♪ 1113 01:19:53,290 --> 01:19:55,834 ♪ I see the shoreline ♪ 1114 01:19:57,752 --> 01:20:00,255 ♪ I see the whitecaps ♪ 1115 01:20:01,715 --> 01:20:05,051 ♪ A baseball diamond ♪ 1116 01:20:05,886 --> 01:20:08,680 ♪ Nice weather down there ♪ 1117 01:20:10,557 --> 01:20:13,226 ♪ I see the school ♪ 1118 01:20:14,728 --> 01:20:17,814 ♪ And the houses where the kids are ♪ 1119 01:20:19,399 --> 01:20:21,401 ♪ Places to park ♪ 1120 01:20:23,194 --> 01:20:24,988 ♪ By the fac'tries and buildings... ♪ 1121 01:20:25,405 --> 01:20:27,616 Come here, inscrutable boy. 1122 01:20:31,870 --> 01:20:33,038 I gave him beer, 1123 01:20:33,455 --> 01:20:38,209 and then I— I taught him how to verbally seduce women, 1124 01:20:38,293 --> 01:20:42,005 and we drove drunk, but I stopped that, 1125 01:20:42,380 --> 01:20:43,548 and then he kissed Trish. 1126 01:20:45,300 --> 01:20:47,510 And then we walked home. 1127 01:20:49,846 --> 01:20:51,181 Ah. 1128 01:20:57,270 --> 01:20:58,939 You're not mad? 1129 01:21:00,148 --> 01:21:01,399 You're mad. 1130 01:21:07,906 --> 01:21:12,118 You get to see him out in the world as a person. 1131 01:21:13,036 --> 01:21:14,829 I never will. 1132 01:21:22,379 --> 01:21:23,672 Just... 1133 01:21:32,055 --> 01:21:33,139 There. 1134 01:22:05,130 --> 01:22:07,465 I can't believe Abbie gave you this book. 1135 01:22:09,384 --> 01:22:10,719 It's interesting. 1136 01:22:13,596 --> 01:22:16,641 What's it like... for girls? 1137 01:22:16,808 --> 01:22:19,728 What? Sex? 1138 01:22:22,105 --> 01:22:23,523 Orgasms. 1139 01:22:26,860 --> 01:22:29,154 Do you really want to know what it's like? 1140 01:22:32,282 --> 01:22:33,616 Yeah. 1141 01:22:35,076 --> 01:22:36,661 I don't have them. 1142 01:22:38,621 --> 01:22:40,123 What? 1143 01:22:41,332 --> 01:22:43,043 None of my friends do. 1144 01:22:45,962 --> 01:22:47,464 Then why do you do it? 1145 01:22:48,089 --> 01:22:49,215 There's other reasons. 1146 01:22:50,592 --> 01:22:53,053 You know, like the way that he looks at you... 1147 01:22:56,473 --> 01:22:59,267 or the way they get a little bit desperate at some point. 1148 01:23:00,852 --> 01:23:03,730 And the little sounds that they make. 1149 01:23:17,243 --> 01:23:19,204 And their bodies... 1150 01:23:21,247 --> 01:23:24,334 'cause you don't exactly know what they're gonna look like... 1151 01:23:25,960 --> 01:23:28,463 or smell or feel like... 1152 01:23:30,673 --> 01:23:31,925 until you do it. 1153 01:23:36,137 --> 01:23:39,057 But, yeah... half the time I regret it. 1154 01:23:42,852 --> 01:23:44,813 Then why do you do it? 1155 01:23:47,190 --> 01:23:49,067 'Cause half the time, I don't regret it. 1156 01:24:00,787 --> 01:24:02,413 "I am gregarious. 1157 01:24:02,497 --> 01:24:03,540 Interested in others. 1158 01:24:04,123 --> 01:24:05,291 And I think, intelligent. 1159 01:24:10,380 --> 01:24:12,465 All I ask is to get to know people 1160 01:24:12,549 --> 01:24:14,551 and to have them interested in knowing me. 1161 01:24:15,176 --> 01:24:16,845 I doubt whether I would marry again 1162 01:24:17,136 --> 01:24:19,848 and live that close to another individual, 1163 01:24:19,931 --> 01:24:22,267 but I remain invisible. 1164 01:24:23,226 --> 01:24:25,270 Don't pretend for a minute as you look at me, 1165 01:24:26,187 --> 01:24:28,189 that I am not as alive as you are, 1166 01:24:28,898 --> 01:24:31,901 and I do not suffer from the category to which you are forcing me. 1167 01:24:36,155 --> 01:24:38,366 I think, stripped down, I look more attractive 1168 01:24:38,700 --> 01:24:40,618 than my ex-husband... 1169 01:24:41,619 --> 01:24:45,874 ...but I am sexually and socially obsolete and he is not. 1170 01:24:47,208 --> 01:24:49,586 I have a capacity now for taking people as they are, 1171 01:24:49,836 --> 01:24:50,879 which I lacked at 20. 1172 01:24:52,171 --> 01:24:56,050 I reach orgasm in half the time and I know how to please, 1173 01:24:56,134 --> 01:25:00,013 yet I do not even dare show a man that I find him attractive. 1174 01:25:00,430 --> 01:25:03,975 If I do, he may react as if I have insulted him. 1175 01:25:06,060 --> 01:25:09,898 I'm supposed to fulfill my small functions and vanish." 1176 01:25:16,279 --> 01:25:17,322 Well... 1177 01:25:18,239 --> 01:25:19,866 What do you think of all that? 1178 01:25:23,411 --> 01:25:26,205 I don't know. Maybe I'm a feminist. 1179 01:25:32,170 --> 01:25:33,171 So... 1180 01:25:38,343 --> 01:25:40,303 You think that's me. 1181 01:25:41,054 --> 01:25:42,680 No, I don't know. 1182 01:25:44,182 --> 01:25:46,684 So you think you know me better because you read that? 1183 01:25:46,976 --> 01:25:48,478 No, no. 1184 01:25:51,189 --> 01:25:54,317 Then why are you reading it to me? 1185 01:25:57,153 --> 01:26:00,281 Um, I thought it was interesting. 1186 01:26:06,245 --> 01:26:08,039 Okay, well... 1187 01:26:10,708 --> 01:26:13,878 I— I don't need a book to know about myself. 1188 01:26:21,844 --> 01:26:23,262 Sorry. 1189 01:26:39,737 --> 01:26:42,198 I mean, I appreciate you trying to help. 1190 01:26:42,281 --> 01:26:45,451 I do. I just think you're taking it too far. 1191 01:26:45,702 --> 01:26:46,744 This stuff with, 1192 01:26:48,287 --> 01:26:50,123 you know, the women's movement I respect, 1193 01:26:50,206 --> 01:26:52,583 but it's just, it's complicated 1194 01:26:52,667 --> 01:26:54,585 and I think it's too much for him. 1195 01:26:54,669 --> 01:26:57,088 What are— I don't know what it is that you're talking about. 1196 01:26:57,171 --> 01:26:59,799 - Okay. He's a 15-year-old boy. - I know. 1197 01:26:59,882 --> 01:27:02,260 You're giving him hard core feminism, and it-it— 1198 01:27:02,927 --> 01:27:04,595 But he really loves it, and it's really— 1199 01:27:04,679 --> 01:27:06,556 - It's helping him... - Helping him what? 1200 01:27:07,306 --> 01:27:08,617 It's helping him become a man, th— 1201 01:27:08,641 --> 01:27:10,119 What you were talking about. It's like— 1202 01:27:10,143 --> 01:27:12,687 Learning about a female orgasm is helping him be a man? 1203 01:27:12,895 --> 01:27:15,440 Well, what man do you know that cares anything about that? 1204 01:27:15,523 --> 01:27:17,233 - Look, he's— - I mean that's a miracle. 1205 01:27:17,316 --> 01:27:18,860 But he is a high school kid, okay? 1206 01:27:19,318 --> 01:27:22,238 It's too much. I'm telling you. 1207 01:27:25,324 --> 01:27:27,577 I think he seems really okay with it. 1208 01:27:29,120 --> 01:27:31,956 You know you don't actually know what you're doing with him? 1209 01:27:34,292 --> 01:27:38,755 Okay? So... just... 1210 01:27:41,507 --> 01:27:43,301 As you know, 1211 01:27:43,384 --> 01:27:47,555 there is a growing disrespect for government, 1212 01:27:47,638 --> 01:27:49,974 for schools, the news media 1213 01:27:50,141 --> 01:27:51,267 and other institutions. 1214 01:27:52,518 --> 01:27:56,731 This is not a message of happiness or reassurance. 1215 01:27:57,315 --> 01:27:59,275 But it is the truth 1216 01:27:59,567 --> 01:28:01,402 and it is a warning. 1217 01:28:02,737 --> 01:28:04,280 It is a crisis... of confidence. 1218 01:28:08,284 --> 01:28:09,327 We can see this crisis 1219 01:28:10,286 --> 01:28:12,830 in the growing doubt about the meaning of our own lives 1220 01:28:13,456 --> 01:28:15,124 and in the loss of a unity of purpose 1221 01:28:16,459 --> 01:28:18,086 for our nation. 1222 01:28:19,629 --> 01:28:20,671 Too many of us now 1223 01:28:21,798 --> 01:28:26,594 tend to worship self-indulgence and consumption. 1224 01:28:27,386 --> 01:28:28,429 But we've discovered 1225 01:28:29,430 --> 01:28:31,557 that owning things and consuming things... 1226 01:28:34,185 --> 01:28:35,228 does not satisfy 1227 01:28:36,395 --> 01:28:39,273 our longing for meaning. 1228 01:28:41,109 --> 01:28:42,902 We always believed... 1229 01:28:43,945 --> 01:28:46,781 that we were part of a great movement 1230 01:28:46,864 --> 01:28:47,907 of humanity itself... 1231 01:28:49,325 --> 01:28:52,370 involved in a search for freedom. 1232 01:28:57,416 --> 01:29:00,878 We are at a turning point in our history. 1233 01:29:03,339 --> 01:29:07,468 The path that leads to fragmentation and self-interest. 1234 01:29:08,803 --> 01:29:12,682 Down that road lies a mistaken idea of freedom. 1235 01:29:14,642 --> 01:29:18,312 It is a certain route to failure. 1236 01:29:20,898 --> 01:29:22,984 Thank you and good night. 1237 01:29:25,111 --> 01:29:27,488 Wow. He is so screwed. 1238 01:29:28,364 --> 01:29:29,407 No shit. 1239 01:29:29,866 --> 01:29:31,450 It's over for him. 1240 01:29:32,660 --> 01:29:34,996 I thought that was beautiful. 1241 01:29:36,455 --> 01:29:40,710 Well, why didn't you just say, "I'm sorry, I'm done?" 1242 01:29:41,085 --> 01:29:42,128 My pride. 1243 01:29:42,503 --> 01:29:43,671 - I know. - Yeah, it's... 1244 01:29:43,796 --> 01:29:46,424 You didn't seem like a prideful person. You seem humble. 1245 01:29:46,507 --> 01:29:50,052 I left my pride outside today. 1246 01:29:51,137 --> 01:29:53,306 Jamie, would you please wake up Abbie? 1247 01:29:55,516 --> 01:29:58,769 - Yeah. Abbie? - No, stop it. I'm menstruating. 1248 01:30:00,354 --> 01:30:01,397 Abbie, you know what? 1249 01:30:01,939 --> 01:30:04,650 You're menstruating. Okay. But do you have to say it? 1250 01:30:05,610 --> 01:30:09,030 Okay? And do we really need to know everything that's going on with you? 1251 01:30:09,447 --> 01:30:11,699 What? I'm menstruating. 1252 01:30:12,325 --> 01:30:13,367 Why is that a big deal? 1253 01:30:13,576 --> 01:30:16,245 We don't need to hear about that. Thank you. 1254 01:30:17,413 --> 01:30:19,999 If you ever want to have an adult relationship with a woman, 1255 01:30:20,082 --> 01:30:22,418 like if you want to have sex with a woman's vagina, 1256 01:30:22,627 --> 01:30:23,836 you need to be comfortable 1257 01:30:24,253 --> 01:30:27,298 with the fact that the vagina menstruates, 1258 01:30:27,381 --> 01:30:29,550 and just say menstruation. It's not a big deal. 1259 01:30:29,634 --> 01:30:33,346 So start saying it now. Menstruation. 1260 01:30:34,388 --> 01:30:37,266 - Now? - Yes. Menstruation. 1261 01:30:37,975 --> 01:30:39,018 Menstruation. 1262 01:30:39,310 --> 01:30:41,270 Jamie, no, you don't have to. 1263 01:30:41,729 --> 01:30:43,040 You're saying it like you're scared. 1264 01:30:43,064 --> 01:30:44,249 - Don't say it like you're scared. - Abbie. 1265 01:30:44,273 --> 01:30:46,275 - Say it like it's normal. - Menstruation. 1266 01:30:46,525 --> 01:30:48,110 - Menstruation. - Menstruation. 1267 01:30:48,194 --> 01:30:52,114 Not bad. Julian, menstruation. You can say it. Right now. 1268 01:30:52,990 --> 01:30:55,826 - I'm sorry. - Uh, men— menstruation. 1269 01:30:56,160 --> 01:30:58,913 Just keep eye contact with me. What— Who are you looking at? 1270 01:30:58,996 --> 01:31:01,207 - Menstruation. - Menstruation. 1271 01:31:01,290 --> 01:31:03,000 Yeah, that's right. Menstruation. 1272 01:31:03,167 --> 01:31:06,003 Charlie, you're quiet. Menstruation? 1273 01:31:06,087 --> 01:31:07,296 Menstruation? 1274 01:31:07,380 --> 01:31:09,674 No, not like a question. Menstruation. 1275 01:31:10,549 --> 01:31:13,010 - Menstruation. - Now everybody say it together. 1276 01:31:13,594 --> 01:31:15,221 Menstruation. 1277 01:31:15,346 --> 01:31:18,599 Like gentle, happy, but casual. And... 1278 01:31:18,975 --> 01:31:20,017 Menstruation. 1279 01:31:20,518 --> 01:31:21,560 It's gross, Abbie. 1280 01:31:21,769 --> 01:31:25,773 No, it's— it's not gross. It's a very deep time creatively, 1281 01:31:25,940 --> 01:31:28,401 and it's emotionally transformative. 1282 01:31:29,110 --> 01:31:30,653 And sex during menstruation 1283 01:31:31,362 --> 01:31:33,072 can be very pleasurable for a woman. 1284 01:31:33,239 --> 01:31:36,325 It can even, like, relieve some of the cramps. 1285 01:31:36,409 --> 01:31:39,578 Jamie, I also wanna say never have sex with just the vagina. 1286 01:31:39,662 --> 01:31:41,302 You have to have sex with the whole woman. 1287 01:31:42,957 --> 01:31:44,997 That's slightly off topic of what I'm talking about. 1288 01:31:45,042 --> 01:31:46,085 You too? You too, William? 1289 01:31:46,168 --> 01:31:48,004 - I mean... Thank you. - But that's okay. 1290 01:31:48,421 --> 01:31:50,506 The first time that I got my period, 1291 01:31:50,756 --> 01:31:51,799 I was watching 1292 01:31:52,675 --> 01:31:54,135 One That Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest 1293 01:31:54,218 --> 01:31:55,261 with some guy. 1294 01:31:55,720 --> 01:31:57,138 And, um... 1295 01:31:57,638 --> 01:31:59,515 Yeah, I just told him that I had to leave, 1296 01:32:00,224 --> 01:32:03,602 so I went to the market and I bought a box of tampons, 1297 01:32:03,686 --> 01:32:06,314 and I read the instructions on the box and I put one in... 1298 01:32:06,522 --> 01:32:08,208 - Julie? - and I never told my mom about it, 1299 01:32:08,232 --> 01:32:10,526 but she never asked, so it didn't matter. 1300 01:32:11,694 --> 01:32:14,530 And I never saw the end of the Cuckoo's Nest. 1301 01:32:17,033 --> 01:32:20,286 Jack Nicholson got a lobotomy, and so the big Indian guy 1302 01:32:20,536 --> 01:32:22,580 smothered him with a pillow so that he could, 1303 01:32:22,663 --> 01:32:23,789 you know, be free and... 1304 01:32:24,040 --> 01:32:25,520 Okay, let's talk about something else. 1305 01:32:25,750 --> 01:32:27,168 - Would you mind? - When I was 14, 1306 01:32:27,251 --> 01:32:28,586 I had sex for the first time. 1307 01:32:28,753 --> 01:32:29,795 Julie! 1308 01:32:29,920 --> 01:32:31,380 Julie, please. You— Honey... 1309 01:32:32,048 --> 01:32:34,842 I decided one night that I was just gonna lose my virginity. 1310 01:32:35,051 --> 01:32:36,260 I didn't care who it was to. 1311 01:32:36,552 --> 01:32:39,013 - Julie, you gotta calm down. - Stop it. Let her talk. 1312 01:32:39,263 --> 01:32:41,557 I picked this guy that I didn't know at a party... 1313 01:32:42,308 --> 01:32:46,437 and we had fairly painful sex in his van. 1314 01:32:46,520 --> 01:32:48,064 It was just parked on the street. 1315 01:32:48,773 --> 01:32:50,441 He just used spit for lubrication. 1316 01:32:53,694 --> 01:32:55,654 I made it home on time for curfew, though. 1317 01:32:55,821 --> 01:32:58,574 His carpet smelled like spilled bong water. 1318 01:33:04,246 --> 01:33:05,414 Okay, um... 1319 01:33:06,499 --> 01:33:08,542 let's call it a night. All right? 1320 01:33:08,667 --> 01:33:10,711 Thanks all for coming. Show's over, girls. 1321 01:33:12,338 --> 01:33:14,048 Thank you so much for coming. 1322 01:33:16,592 --> 01:33:18,260 Jamie, we need to talk. 1323 01:33:19,011 --> 01:33:20,971 There's a lot of stuff happening, right? 1324 01:33:21,639 --> 01:33:25,434 And I just would like to know what's going on with you. 1325 01:33:26,352 --> 01:33:28,896 I mean, I know this has all been a lot for us to deal with. 1326 01:33:30,648 --> 01:33:33,317 Mom, I'm dealing with everything right now. 1327 01:33:33,901 --> 01:33:36,278 You are dealing with nothing. 1328 01:33:49,708 --> 01:33:51,836 I can't believe you told everyone all that. 1329 01:33:52,962 --> 01:33:54,964 I can say what I want to say. 1330 01:33:57,174 --> 01:33:58,843 They're gonna think you're some— 1331 01:33:59,802 --> 01:34:01,720 They're gonna get the wrong idea about you. 1332 01:34:01,804 --> 01:34:02,847 What? 1333 01:34:03,389 --> 01:34:04,932 That I'm a slut? 1334 01:34:07,518 --> 01:34:08,894 Is that what you think? 1335 01:34:13,232 --> 01:34:15,401 You can't sleep here anymore... 1336 01:34:16,318 --> 01:34:17,987 and just want to talk. 1337 01:34:22,032 --> 01:34:23,451 Really? 1338 01:34:26,162 --> 01:34:27,580 Yeah. 1339 01:34:31,125 --> 01:34:32,751 Jamie. 1340 01:34:37,965 --> 01:34:39,467 I'm sorry. 1341 01:34:43,721 --> 01:34:46,182 I am sorry, okay? 1342 01:34:50,769 --> 01:34:53,647 Let's— let's just get out of here. 1343 01:34:55,107 --> 01:34:58,736 Let's go up the coast like— like you said that we would. 1344 01:35:00,905 --> 01:35:01,947 Just the two of us. 1345 01:35:10,789 --> 01:35:11,957 Mom... 1346 01:35:12,917 --> 01:35:14,710 Julie and I took the car. 1347 01:35:16,837 --> 01:35:18,589 We're taking a trip up the coast... 1348 01:35:19,840 --> 01:35:21,592 just to get away. 1349 01:35:22,551 --> 01:35:24,094 You don't need to worry about us. 1350 01:36:22,528 --> 01:36:24,363 Hey, do you think that you could, um... 1351 01:36:25,656 --> 01:36:27,366 buy us some, like, wine coolers? 1352 01:36:27,992 --> 01:36:29,118 You can keep the change. 1353 01:36:30,119 --> 01:36:32,871 Strawberry or anything berry, really. 1354 01:36:42,840 --> 01:36:43,882 Hi. What's the matter? 1355 01:36:44,258 --> 01:36:45,301 Hi. 1356 01:36:45,593 --> 01:36:47,970 You changed lanes in the intersection back there. 1357 01:36:48,679 --> 01:36:50,222 Seriously? That's all? 1358 01:36:51,223 --> 01:36:53,350 I need to see your license and registration. 1359 01:36:54,351 --> 01:36:57,021 Well, what if I don't have my license? 1360 01:36:58,647 --> 01:37:00,750 Okay, well what's your name, address and date of birth? 1361 01:37:00,774 --> 01:37:01,817 Do you have that? 1362 01:37:01,984 --> 01:37:04,153 You know, those are very personal questions, 1363 01:37:04,528 --> 01:37:05,571 and we've just met. 1364 01:37:06,488 --> 01:37:09,366 What's your name? What's your address, right? 1365 01:37:09,450 --> 01:37:11,410 I mean, it's a little forward. 1366 01:37:38,937 --> 01:37:41,398 I, uh, I love you. 1367 01:37:49,406 --> 01:37:50,949 What's wrong? 1368 01:37:51,867 --> 01:37:52,993 Nothing. 1369 01:37:58,082 --> 01:37:59,166 Tell me. 1370 01:38:05,047 --> 01:38:07,758 I think that I'm too close to you... 1371 01:38:08,967 --> 01:38:10,678 to have sex with you. 1372 01:38:13,180 --> 01:38:15,015 I know it's confusing. 1373 01:38:17,059 --> 01:38:18,268 I'm sorry. 1374 01:38:23,023 --> 01:38:24,358 I can... 1375 01:38:25,150 --> 01:38:26,652 I can help you get over that. 1376 01:38:29,905 --> 01:38:32,032 I don't want to get over that. 1377 01:38:34,910 --> 01:38:36,036 Yes, you do. 1378 01:38:37,871 --> 01:38:39,498 You're being like the other guys. 1379 01:38:40,040 --> 01:38:42,251 I don't wanna just have sex with you. 1380 01:38:43,252 --> 01:38:44,378 I want you. 1381 01:38:45,087 --> 01:38:47,089 But it's your version of me. 1382 01:38:49,216 --> 01:38:50,634 It's not me. 1383 01:38:52,845 --> 01:38:55,013 It would be a lot better if you just wanted sex. 1384 01:38:56,140 --> 01:38:57,850 You are exactly like the other guys. 1385 01:38:59,017 --> 01:39:01,478 You just seem like you're all modern. 1386 01:39:14,408 --> 01:39:16,034 Jamie. 1387 01:39:17,619 --> 01:39:19,079 Jamie. 1388 01:39:19,913 --> 01:39:20,956 Jamie! 1389 01:39:52,070 --> 01:39:54,990 These people have no sense of humor. 1390 01:40:13,050 --> 01:40:15,761 Having a kid seems like... 1391 01:40:17,095 --> 01:40:18,972 the hardest thing. 1392 01:40:20,682 --> 01:40:22,017 Yeah. 1393 01:40:23,560 --> 01:40:25,479 How much you love the kid... 1394 01:40:29,942 --> 01:40:32,486 You're just pretty much screwed. 1395 01:40:44,748 --> 01:40:46,750 - Well, it's good for you. - Hi. Uh... 1396 01:40:46,834 --> 01:40:47,960 Hey. 1397 01:40:48,877 --> 01:40:51,004 Julie just called me. They're in San Louis Obispo. 1398 01:40:51,088 --> 01:40:52,422 She doesn't know where he is. 1399 01:40:52,673 --> 01:40:54,049 She can't find him. 1400 01:40:55,217 --> 01:40:57,052 - I— Would you drive me... - Yes, I will. 1401 01:40:57,302 --> 01:40:58,762 - ...up there? - Yep. Let's go. 1402 01:40:58,929 --> 01:41:00,597 - Will you come? - Yes. 1403 01:41:45,142 --> 01:41:46,768 I'm sorry. 1404 01:41:51,607 --> 01:41:53,191 He came back. 1405 01:41:54,318 --> 01:41:55,986 He's right there. 1406 01:41:57,863 --> 01:42:00,240 Okay. Okay. 1407 01:42:04,286 --> 01:42:05,704 It's okay. 1408 01:42:28,477 --> 01:42:29,728 Well... 1409 01:42:30,228 --> 01:42:32,022 Julie's a pretty complicated woman. 1410 01:42:33,190 --> 01:42:34,775 It's a lot to take on, 1411 01:42:35,108 --> 01:42:37,027 but I'm impressed in a way. 1412 01:42:39,237 --> 01:42:40,322 Whatever. 1413 01:42:50,707 --> 01:42:52,084 Aren't you gonna get Julie... 1414 01:42:52,876 --> 01:42:54,002 to come talk with me? 1415 01:42:54,586 --> 01:42:56,088 Jamie! 1416 01:42:56,254 --> 01:42:57,297 What? 1417 01:42:57,756 --> 01:42:59,341 I— I thought they'd help. 1418 01:43:00,801 --> 01:43:04,304 Well, it just seemed like you couldn't deal with me anymore. 1419 01:43:06,556 --> 01:43:07,933 Look. 1420 01:43:08,725 --> 01:43:12,479 I wanted— I— I... 1421 01:43:13,313 --> 01:43:14,690 Look, I— 1422 01:43:16,149 --> 01:43:19,236 I don't want you to end up in the same place as me. 1423 01:43:21,905 --> 01:43:23,365 What does that mean? 1424 01:43:24,408 --> 01:43:26,743 Well, I wanted you to be happier. 1425 01:43:28,912 --> 01:43:32,916 And I just didn't think I could do it by myself. I— 1426 01:43:36,378 --> 01:43:37,587 Okay. 1427 01:43:39,631 --> 01:43:41,842 I thought we were fine, though, just me and you. 1428 01:43:48,974 --> 01:43:50,350 Yeah? 1429 01:43:52,728 --> 01:43:54,104 Yeah. 1430 01:44:27,304 --> 01:44:29,097 Okay. Come on. 1431 01:44:29,222 --> 01:44:30,599 Come on. Dance with your mom. 1432 01:45:29,825 --> 01:45:30,867 - Bye. - Bye. 1433 01:45:31,493 --> 01:45:32,619 Bye. 1434 01:45:34,496 --> 01:45:35,539 - Be safe. - Bye. 1435 01:45:35,789 --> 01:45:37,499 Bye. Bye. 1436 01:45:47,175 --> 01:45:49,511 So maybe we don't go back yet. 1437 01:45:52,472 --> 01:45:53,515 Okay. 1438 01:46:03,859 --> 01:46:05,944 Were you and Dad ever in love? 1439 01:46:06,611 --> 01:46:08,029 Sure. 1440 01:46:13,535 --> 01:46:15,120 Or, um... 1441 01:46:16,413 --> 01:46:17,455 Maybe I was just... 1442 01:46:19,791 --> 01:46:21,960 I felt I was supposed to be in love. 1443 01:46:23,044 --> 01:46:25,964 Or I was... 1444 01:46:26,172 --> 01:46:28,842 I was scared I'd never be in love... 1445 01:46:30,927 --> 01:46:32,971 so I— I... 1446 01:46:34,556 --> 01:46:37,392 I just picked the best solution at the time. 1447 01:46:48,361 --> 01:46:49,988 I wanna bleach my hair. 1448 01:46:50,572 --> 01:46:53,533 Kid... really? 1449 01:46:54,451 --> 01:46:55,869 Yeah. 1450 01:47:04,419 --> 01:47:05,795 Okay. 1451 01:47:10,967 --> 01:47:12,469 Are you lonely? 1452 01:47:13,720 --> 01:47:14,763 Well... 1453 01:47:15,555 --> 01:47:18,642 I might marry Bogart in my next life. 1454 01:47:19,100 --> 01:47:20,143 We'll see. 1455 01:47:20,352 --> 01:47:21,394 I'm thinking about it. 1456 01:47:22,604 --> 01:47:24,522 Uh, he's dead. 1457 01:47:25,774 --> 01:47:27,275 Well... 1458 01:47:27,901 --> 01:47:29,194 This is my next life, right? 1459 01:47:30,195 --> 01:47:31,613 So... 1460 01:47:32,656 --> 01:47:33,698 he may be there. 1461 01:47:33,782 --> 01:47:36,993 He may be around and we might meet and... 1462 01:47:38,328 --> 01:47:40,830 something might happen between us. 1463 01:47:42,415 --> 01:47:44,584 Okay, um... 1464 01:47:45,460 --> 01:47:47,295 you can't have it in the real world? 1465 01:47:47,921 --> 01:47:50,048 Hey. This is no time to be rational, sweetie. 1466 01:47:50,924 --> 01:47:52,092 Can you just go with this? 1467 01:47:53,551 --> 01:47:54,594 Yeah. Keep going. 1468 01:47:55,220 --> 01:47:56,596 Okay. 1469 01:47:57,514 --> 01:47:59,140 So he— he knows what I'm thinking, 1470 01:48:01,017 --> 01:48:03,019 and he makes me laugh... 1471 01:48:04,229 --> 01:48:06,690 and he really sees me... 1472 01:48:08,024 --> 01:48:11,861 and you know that he's gonna do what he says he's gonna do, 1473 01:48:11,945 --> 01:48:14,489 so that's easy. 1474 01:48:15,448 --> 01:48:17,283 He sounds nice. 1475 01:48:18,576 --> 01:48:19,619 Yeah. 1476 01:48:27,335 --> 01:48:28,562 I thought that was just the beginning 1477 01:48:28,586 --> 01:48:30,213 of a new relationship with her... 1478 01:48:32,215 --> 01:48:34,426 where she'd really tell me stuff... 1479 01:48:36,803 --> 01:48:39,556 but maybe it was never really like that again. 1480 01:48:41,307 --> 01:48:42,976 Maybe that was it. 1481 01:48:44,728 --> 01:48:46,604 In March of 1999, 1482 01:48:47,188 --> 01:48:49,482 I'll start to feel tired and confused. 1483 01:48:50,608 --> 01:48:52,110 When I finally go to the doctor, 1484 01:48:52,360 --> 01:48:54,154 he will say that the cancer in my lungs 1485 01:48:54,946 --> 01:48:58,825 had already traveled to my breast and brain. 1486 01:48:59,492 --> 01:49:02,370 I'll try to teach Jamie what to do with my stocks, 1487 01:49:02,454 --> 01:49:06,166 but my instructions will be impossible to understand. 1488 01:49:11,963 --> 01:49:13,631 See you later. 1489 01:49:20,055 --> 01:49:23,099 Abbie will take me to Planned Parenthood... 1490 01:49:23,892 --> 01:49:25,810 and I will go on the pill. 1491 01:49:29,814 --> 01:49:31,816 I will go to NYU 1492 01:49:31,900 --> 01:49:33,902 and lose touch with Jamie and Dorothea... 1493 01:49:35,737 --> 01:49:38,114 and I will stop talking to my mom. 1494 01:49:39,657 --> 01:49:41,367 I will fall in love with Nicholas... 1495 01:49:42,577 --> 01:49:44,496 and we'll move to Paris... 1496 01:49:45,622 --> 01:49:47,332 and choose not to have children. 1497 01:49:49,626 --> 01:49:51,961 I will stay in Santa Barbara. 1498 01:49:52,462 --> 01:49:54,130 In just two years, I'll marry Dave. 1499 01:49:56,091 --> 01:49:57,383 A month after I get married, 1500 01:49:58,468 --> 01:50:00,386 Carlotta will die. 1501 01:50:02,680 --> 01:50:06,392 A week later, Max will die, too. 1502 01:50:07,894 --> 01:50:09,562 I will work out of my garage 1503 01:50:09,646 --> 01:50:12,524 and show in local galleries. 1504 01:50:13,733 --> 01:50:15,068 Against my doctor's advice, 1505 01:50:15,568 --> 01:50:16,611 I will get pregnant. 1506 01:50:17,570 --> 01:50:18,613 By the time I'm 34, 1507 01:50:19,405 --> 01:50:20,448 I'll have two boys. 1508 01:50:25,286 --> 01:50:27,831 I'll live with Dorothea for another year... 1509 01:50:30,166 --> 01:50:34,629 and then I'll open a pottery store in Sedona, Arizona. 1510 01:50:37,590 --> 01:50:39,592 I'll marry Laurie, a singer-songwriter. 1511 01:50:40,593 --> 01:50:42,345 We'll get divorced in a year. 1512 01:50:43,138 --> 01:50:44,264 Then I'll meet Sandy... 1513 01:50:45,557 --> 01:50:47,183 and continue to do my pottery. 1514 01:50:50,395 --> 01:50:52,689 My mom will meet Jim in 1983. 1515 01:50:54,190 --> 01:50:56,025 They will stay a couple until she dies. 1516 01:50:57,610 --> 01:50:58,820 On her birthday each year, 1517 01:50:59,737 --> 01:51:02,657 he will buy her a trip on a biplane. 1518 01:51:05,285 --> 01:51:07,662 Years after she's gone, I will finally get married 1519 01:51:07,745 --> 01:51:09,581 and have a son. 1520 01:51:11,374 --> 01:51:12,584 I will try to explain to him 1521 01:51:12,959 --> 01:51:15,128 what his grandmother was like... 1522 01:51:16,629 --> 01:51:18,006 but it will be impossible. 1523 01:51:26,681 --> 01:51:29,309 ♪ You must remember this ♪ 1524 01:51:29,684 --> 01:51:31,728 ♪ A kiss is still a kiss ♪ 1525 01:51:31,811 --> 01:51:35,690 ♪ A sigh is just a sigh ♪ 1526 01:51:36,566 --> 01:51:39,485 ♪ The fundamental things apply ♪ 1527 01:51:39,777 --> 01:51:44,282 ♪ As time goes by ♪ 1528 01:51:45,200 --> 01:51:47,410 ♪ And when two lovers woo ♪ 1529 01:51:47,785 --> 01:51:49,245 ♪ They still say I love you ♪ 1530 01:51:49,871 --> 01:51:52,999 ♪ On that you can rely ♪ 1531 01:51:53,791 --> 01:51:57,128 ♪ No matter what the future brings ♪ 1532 01:51:57,295 --> 01:52:01,925 ♪ As time goes by ♪ 1533 01:52:03,134 --> 01:52:06,221 ♪ Moonlight and love songs never out of date ♪ 1534 01:52:06,638 --> 01:52:09,599 ♪ Hearts full of passion jealousy and hate ♪ 1535 01:52:09,849 --> 01:52:14,479 ♪ Woman needs man and man must have his mate ♪ 1536 01:52:14,646 --> 01:52:19,567 ♪ That no one can deny ♪ 1537 01:52:20,360 --> 01:52:23,112 ♪ It's still the same old story ♪ 1538 01:52:23,196 --> 01:52:25,573 ♪ A fight for love and glory ♪ 1539 01:52:25,865 --> 01:52:27,992 ♪ A case of do or die ♪ 1540 01:52:29,953 --> 01:52:31,621 ♪ The world will always welcome... 1541 01:52:54,310 --> 01:52:59,315 ♪ Well it seems so real I can see it ♪ 1542 01:52:59,941 --> 01:53:04,821 ♪ And it seems so real I can feel it ♪ 1543 01:53:05,405 --> 01:53:10,368 ♪ And it seems so real I can taste it ♪ 1544 01:53:11,160 --> 01:53:16,833 ♪ And it seems so real I can hear it ♪ 1545 01:53:17,125 --> 01:53:22,463 ♪ So why ♪ 1546 01:53:22,547 --> 01:53:25,133 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1547 01:53:28,344 --> 01:53:33,683 ♪ So why ♪ 1548 01:53:33,766 --> 01:53:35,977 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1549 01:53:44,402 --> 01:53:49,073 ♪ Then it looks so real I can see it ♪ 1550 01:53:50,116 --> 01:53:55,246 ♪ And it feels so real I can feel it ♪ 1551 01:53:55,997 --> 01:54:00,752 ♪ And it tastes so real I can taste it ♪ 1552 01:54:01,711 --> 01:54:07,300 ♪ And it sounds so real I can hear it ♪ 1553 01:54:07,467 --> 01:54:12,680 ♪ So why ♪ 1554 01:54:12,764 --> 01:54:15,099 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1555 01:54:18,895 --> 01:54:23,691 ♪ So why ♪ 1556 01:54:23,775 --> 01:54:25,902 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1557 01:54:46,130 --> 01:54:51,177 ♪ Then it looks so real I can feel it ♪ 1558 01:54:51,969 --> 01:54:56,724 ♪ And it feels so real I can taste it ♪ 1559 01:54:57,934 --> 01:55:01,979 ♪ And it tastes so real I can hear it ♪ 1560 01:55:03,272 --> 01:55:07,485 ♪ And it sounds so real I can see it ♪ 1561 01:55:09,404 --> 01:55:14,534 ♪ So why ♪ 1562 01:55:14,617 --> 01:55:16,911 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1563 01:55:20,331 --> 01:55:25,378 ♪ So why ♪ 1564 01:55:25,461 --> 01:55:27,588 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1565 01:56:15,303 --> 01:56:20,224 ♪ Now it is so real I can see it ♪ 1566 01:56:21,017 --> 01:56:25,521 ♪ And it is so real I can feel it ♪ 1567 01:56:26,564 --> 01:56:31,444 ♪ And it is so real I can hear it ♪ 1568 01:56:32,111 --> 01:56:37,116 ♪ And it is so real I can feel it ♪ 1569 01:56:38,117 --> 01:56:42,914 ♪ So why ♪ 1570 01:56:42,997 --> 01:56:45,500 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1571 01:56:49,045 --> 01:56:53,925 ♪ So why ♪ 1572 01:56:54,008 --> 01:56:56,636 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 106837